I'm sitting next to Stephanie. She's reading Rolling Stone. My leg won't stop shaking. I keep nervously looking back at DJ and Steve. They're smiling about something. DJ looks really happy. What's happening? I thought I was her soulmate. How can I guy who's not your soulmate make you smile like that?

"Steve!"

Stephanie is looking at me. She's irritated. "Do you mind?"

"Oh sorry, Steph." Even though I have no idea what I did. I'm sorry for existing. I'm sorry for letting things get so screwed up between your sister and I. Your sister and myself? I have no idea. I was always terrible in English. Thank God podiatry is mostly Latin. Not that I'm much better at Latin, to be honest.

"Steve, you're still doing it."

"What?"

"Acting like, well, like Steve."

I force my leg to stop shaking and lean back against my seat. "Steph, I'm sorry. I'm a wreck."

"Gee, I hadn't noticed."

"I've made a terrible mistake."

"That's an unfortunate thing to say for a guy who's flying to Japan to get married."

"Tell me about it."

"Pre-wedding jitters?"

I force my best Steve smile and shrug. "Yeah. That's probably all it is. I'm just getting nervous. I mean, my first marriage was a complete disaster."

Stephanie looks at me sympathetically. "CJ's really nice though. You guys make a great couple."

I can't help looking back at DJ and Matt again.

"They're a great couple too."

I look incredulously at her. "What?"

She looks at me like I have two heads. "DJ and Matt?" Shaking her head, she returns her eyes to her magazine.

"Oh yeah. Right. DJ and Matt. Yeah they're great."

"Want to know a secret?" She's looking at me with her eyes all big and a huge grin. I just stare at her, unsure of what to say, so she continues. "Matt's going to propose to DJ."

"WHAT!"

She's taken aback by my overreaction, but quickly recovers. "Yeah. He came up here to show me the ring. But don't tell anyone, Steve. He made me promise not to tell anyone. I just couldn't keep it to myself any longer. I was going to burst and if I hadn't have told you, I'd have blabbed to she to whom you should never tell anything unless you want the entire world to know."

I can't register anything she was saying. I can't breathe. I feel like I'm suffocating.