Chapter 10,

Tara's POV,

I'm stood outside Jax's sons room angry at what I see, I thought for sure coming back here would bring Jax back to me. Leaving him wasn't the wrong thing to do, it was the right thing to, but I got myself into a situation back in Chicago and need his help to get out of it. That's the only reason I came back to this god forsaken town, I got into a relationship with a man who turned out to be a physio now I needed Jax protection and that bitch was stood in my way.

I saw Jax give her his Son ring and knew I would have to do something drastic to get this bitch out of my way, it wouldn't be long before Joshua finds me. At one point in my life I knew I could always count on Jax to be there for me and he was until I left. I thought he would love me enough to fall at my knees the minute he saw me, and he would of if it wasn't for that stupid little bitch.

I wonder if little miss goody two shoes knows who shes actually dating because if she knew the full truth the shit, I know I bet the little bitch would run away screaming because I did all those years ago.

I kept glaring at the bitch until Jax looked at me raising his eyebrow I knew he would protect her with his last breath just from that look, but I had to try because without Jax I was dead.

I turned away from him and her then walked away. This would need a lot of planning, I had to get rid of her in the next two weeks because it would take me that long to work on Gemma and getting her on my side.

An, this is only a little glimpse into the mind that is Tara because well I don't like Tara lol

Bella's POV,

I was stood in Abel's hospital room wrapped in Jax's arms and I couldn't be happier. Coming to Charming was the best decision I had ever made, I was thankful to Charlie for bringing me up and being my father, but I would have been so much better off with my real father living here with him and Gemma. My life would have been so different, I heard Jax's cell, so I stepped back and let him answer it.

I looked out the window to see if Tara had gone, thankfully she had but something inside me told me this wouldn't be the last of her, I just knew she was gonna make trouble for me and Jax, but I wasn't worried because there is nothing, she can do that would make me leave Jax.

Before I got to carried away with my thoughts Jax grabbed my hand getting my attention, I looked over my shoulder at him and smiled.

"Hey baby, that was Clay I'm needed at the shop you ok here, or you want to come back with me?"

"I'm ok here thanks babe,"

He kissed me forehead then left.

An, just to let you know this chapter will switch between Bella and Jax for a bit, please stick with me I hope it all makes sense.

Jax's POV,

I got a call from Chibs to say Clay was calling for church, so I let Iz know I was leaving and kissed her forehead. I left the room and, on my way, out I spotted the head Doc in charge of Abel's case, so I decided to have a quick word with him before I did anything.

"Hey Doc, sorry to bother you. I've just come from Abel's room where I had to tell Tara off for not letting my girlfriend in to see Abel, she is aloud in his room at any time her name is Iz. Also, I want to make it clear here and now I don't want Tara anywhere near my son do I make myself clear?"

"Of course, Mr Teller I will make sure Dr Knowles is taken off your son's rotation and I will make sure Iz is let into Abel's room."

"Thanks Doc"

With that I've left, got straight on my bike and sped off. It didn't take me long to get to the club house, I put my cell in the box and took my seat.

Once sat down Juice kicked off the meeting,

"I spoke to Otto's sister and Lodi forensics team will be here in the morning."

"And the shit keeps pilling on my head, the only thing that's gonna keep Lodi from getting involved is another murder in Lodi."

"I don't know man, Hale's on red alert, Mayans, Nords everyone's twitchy as hell, its not a good time to kill anyone"

"Its never a good time, but were talking about protecting Tig here and staying out of the ATF cross hairs"

"We hit the projects find ourselves a dealer or…

"We shoot up a couple of nords, is what we should do, we should do that and dump their bodies in Lodi, buys us some time get those Mexicans out of the way, sends a message to Darby"

"Set it up"

Before Tig could leave the room, I came up with my idea, I knew it was a bad idea to kill anyone right now it would bring hell down on us all we didn't need that, not just as a club but I didn't need that right now, not now I had someone to live for. I had Iz to worry about and Abel and this mess would bring them into it and I didn't want that.

Iz may know about my world and well her world now too but it didn't mean she had to be brought into a mess that wasn't hers she wasn't even around when this mess was created. I told them my idea and they all looked at each other, I knew what they were thinking but I had to get their minds thinking right.

I told them what I was thinking and why I was thinking it, they agreed with me this would be our best move right now.

Clay hit the gavel calling end of church, we left the room and went out to our bikes, I took Chibs, Juice and Half Sack with me to Skeeters.

It didn't take us long to get there, we got off our bikes and walked as a unit with me taking the lead. Half sack and Juice pushed open the doors,

"They really cremate bodies here?" Half Sack seemed freaked out by this

"Yeah we do" Chibbs ever the loving dude of all this crazy shit

"Hey guys what you doing here?" Skeeter looked like he had just finished burning a body as he spoke to us.

"Need a favour Skeeter" I needed to get straight to the point, no time to twiddle our thumbs.

"Christ man now's not a good time" I see he was slightly stressed as he said this.

"Relax were not here to make a deposit," I said, then told him exactly what we needed.

"We need two bodies, fresh"

"You serious? For what?" I knew he would have questions, but I wasn't going to answer them.

"Well I could tell you, but I'd have to stuff you in the furnace"

"Two dead ones that's crazy shit"

"Sure, you took a beat at the golden gate this weekend."

"No, I stopped the ponies, stopped it all" He said this which had me looking at Chibs in pure shock! Shit what the fuck were we gonna do now?

"Your kidding? You don't want the money?"

"Working a programme, you know"

"Jesus Christ"

"There is something you can do for me though" Thank fuck I didn't even need to think

"What's that?"

"Emily Dunken" Who now?

I looked to Chibbs with a questioning look who the fucks Emily

"Emily Dunken, shes one of the hotties,"

"You want to hook up with a Crow eater I'll make it happen"

"Shit you've got a deal then"

He walked over to his list, we made all arrangements with Skeeter and left Half Sack to dig up the bodies, looked like I had some shit to work out for Skeeter.

I got back to the club house and headed straight to my room, I was looking for a clean t-shirt when someone knocked on my door. I opened to find a blonde woman stood there,

"Hey Jax"

"Hey" Who the fuck was this piece of ass and what the fuck was she doing at my door? Thank god Iz was at the hospital or this wouldn't look to good in her eyes.

"Chibbs said you were looking for me? I'm Emily"

"Right shit come on in" I opened the door wider and let her into my room, I took a seat on the edge of my bed while she sat on the chair backwards, didn't even register that maybe letting her into my room wasn't all that good of an idea.

"Nice room"

"Yeah! So, I need you to do a favour for the club Emily"

"Really? Sure. I mean what do you need? What can I do?" Yeah, she had to back track there before she agreed to do something she didn't want to do, but then again with her being a Crow eater which is just another name for a sweet butt they will do just about anything for the club because they all want to become an old lady. Never in the history of the sons has it ever happened but they all thought they would be the one to change that, don't get me wrong shes pretty but not my type especially now I have Iz no one would ever come close to her in my eyes.

"You know Skeeter?"

"Yeah that guys been trying to get into my pants since high school"

"Yeah I need you to let him in"

"Are you serious? That guy burns bodies for a living he creeps me out"

"I know but we need Skeeter to do us a good deed. And the only thing he wants is the touch of a beautiful Emily Dunken"

I grabbed her hand in the process,

"I'm not some whore" Yeah right princess tell that to someone else who doesn't actually know the true meaning of a Crow eater.

"Come on it will be our little secret"

"Yeah!" ok so maybe it wouldn't be, but I wasn't about to let on that the whole club would know.

"I need you Emily"

With that shes stood up from the chair and pulled her clothes off this instantly had me tensing again thank fuck Iz wasn't here, she walked to the side of me and rubbed herself against me like that was supposed to turn me on and want her more. I knew where this was going, even if I didn't have Iz this Emily chick wouldn't stand a chance with me.

"You do me I'll do him"

I stood up and took a step away from her, so she wasn't so close to me before I had a chance to speak my door opened, I went to shout at whoever the fuck just walked in without knocking when I heard a gasp. My eyes shot straight to Iz who was stood there looking at me in nothing but hurt and anger before I could speak, she beat me to it.

"What the fucks going on Jax? This is how I find you after all what you said to me at the hospital? What you realise you've made a mistake and don't want me now? But instead of just telling me like a man you go all coward and let me find you with someone else so what? I can end it with you at least that way daddy wont hurt you right?"

All I could think was what the fuck is she going on about? Mistake? Why the fuck would she think I made a mistake in wanting to be with her? Then I remembered about her ex and how he ended it with her, I knew I would have to prove so much to Iz, but I never thought she would doubt how I feel for her or whether I want to be with her.

I took a step towards her with my hand out to grab hers, but she took a step back from me, I knew what this must look like, but she has to let me explain.

"Iz, it's not what it looks like I promise"

"Really?" I could see she was trying to be strong, but her voice trembled on that one word and I knew I fucked up big time, its at this point I realise I should never of let Emily into my room. I couldn't even use the fact that I thought Iz would be in the hospital all day with Abel because no matter what I shouldn't of let Emily into this room this is our room mine and Izzy's.

"Iz baby I promise you nothing was going to happen, you came in before I could turn her down"

"That's not the point is it Jax? What the fuck is she doing in your room anyway?"

"I needed to speak to her about club business" Maybe that wasn't the right thing to say? Me discussing club business with another female in our room yeah not a great idea at all. Especially if she thinks I wouldn't discuss it with her once all was sorted.

With that one sentence the tears began to fall, I instantly walked forward and wrapped my arms around her. I couldn't stand to see her cry especially because of me.

"Baby please don't cry let me fix this"

Before she could say anything, back Emily opened her mouth and made everything worse.

"Jax? Do we have a deal? You do me I do Skeeter right?" Yeah cause that didn't make me sound like a complete asshole right there! I knew the bitch would try to do anything to end me and Iz especially now that she knew I was in a relationship.

With that Iz has ripped herself out of my arms, looked into my eyes which had me stumbling back a bit at the pain I saw there. She took the Sons ring off I had given her earlier and threw it at me thankfully I caught it before it hit the floor. She then looked at Emily with so much hate and disgust on her face the saying if looks could kill popped into my head.

"You want him you whore you can have him"

She then looked at me, all I could see was hurt all over her face. The tears were just rolling down her cheeks, she shook her head and ran away from me. I took a step towards the door when Emily grabbed my arm.

"Come on Jax"

I ripped my arm out of her grip and walked away, I got to the main club area and saw Iz in Clays arms sobbing. I had to make this right with her, there was no way I was living without her now I had her in my life. Clay saw me coming when he pulled his gun on me, I stopped walking and stood there with my hands in the air in surrender. He pushed Iz behind him and into Bobby's waiting arms, Clay then moved towards me gun still in hand. I knew this if I ever hurt her that Clay would react this way, he had already missed out on so much of her life that now he had her in his life he was never letting go and no way in hell was any man ever going to hurt her again.

Every member of this club would protect her with their lives, even those that hadn't even spent a lot of time with her.

"I told you what would happen if you hurt my daughter Jax. I also told you not to get involved with her if you were gonna screw around on her, you want some sweet butt whore then you can have them but not when your with my daughter!"

I took a step closer to Clay which had the gun digging into my chest right over my heart. I had to make the point that I would let him kill me for hurting her.

"Clay let me make this right please. I never meant to hurt her, nothing would of happened between me and Emily I was literally just opening my mouth to tell her that when Iz walked in the room….

I knew that just sounded like an excuse, Emily shouldn't have got as far as taking her clothes off I should of stopped it in that moment I had no one but myself to blame in this moment and I would make sure Iz knew.

I could see Iz picked her head up off Bobby's chest to look at me, so I stared directly into her eyes, so she knew I was telling the truth. I then moved round Clay and stood in front of her placing my finger under her chin to pull her face up to me. My other hand went down to her left hand slipping the ring back on.

"This ring is to never come off baby even if you don't want me anymore, I will always want you! I gave you this ring for a reason, it wasn't just to declare my love for you it was to show you how important you are to me how much you mean to. We don't give our sons rings out to anybody baby.

I meant everything I said to you today in that hospital. You are mine and I am yours baby! No one is going to come between us not even a Crow eater, I know I did wrong I never should of let her into our room. I am so sorry baby please forgive me!"

I moved her hand to place over my heart and finished speaking

"Can you feel that? My heart is beating so fast right now, its breaking at the fact that I've hurt you! But this heart beats for you, the moment I met you I knew you were the one for me no one would ever come close to an inch of the love I have for you. Before you there was so much darkness you were like this golden light of happiness pulling me out of the whole of shit that was my life.

Before you I didn't care if I lived or died but now, now baby I can see a future for me and you, with Abel our own family. I promise you nothing was going to happen, she took me by surprise, but it never should have got that far. Please baby you're the only woman I want!"

She stared deep into my eyes searching for some hint of deceit, but she would find none because everything I said was true, she is the only one for me there is no other. She finally found what she was searching for because she stepped into my arms and wrapped hers around my neck, my arms immediately tightening and pulling her closer to me.

"I'm sorry Jax I over reacted, after Edward I never want to be hurt again especially by you, I couldn't handle it"

This had my heart clenching painfully, I moved one hand to place under her chin to pull her face up to mine and placed my lips against hers softly, kissing her was always a passionate experience its like the whole world grows brighter around me. I pulled back and looked into her eyes,

"Baby I promise you I would never intentially hurt you"

She nodded her head, I saw Clay about to speak but before he could Emily who must have come out of my room sometime during me talking to Iz spoke up, what she said just had me wishing I never met her I should have known she would be nothing but trouble.

"So, what's the deal then Jax we doing this or not?"

I didn't even pay attention to her just looked at Chibbs and nodded my head in her direction. For someone who claims they are not a whore she was certainly acting like one, I wonder if these women ever truly see how desperate they all come across as. Chibs could deal with her, I didn't have to be the one that needed to seal the deal all he needed to do was get her to fuck Skeeter and from what I could see of her demeanour that wouldn't be a problem at all.

I didn't even look at her I kept my eyes focused on Iz.

Chibbs walked over to her with a smirk on his face and grabbed her arm,

"Right Darlin, Jax is busy with his girl. Your be dealing with me from now on lets go shall we"

She didn't even get to speak before he was pulling her down the hall to his room, we all heard his door close and I finally took a breath and could relax.

"Come on Darlin lets go spend some time with Abel, shall we?"

She just nodded her head, she pulled away from me and hugged Clay kissing his cheek then doing the same with Bobby.

"Bye daddy"

"Bye Princess."

He nodded his head at me which had me nodding back. I grabbed Iz's hand and pulled her outside with me we went straight over to the bike where I climbed on first then held my hand out to help her on. Once I felt her wrap her arms around me, I started the bike and off we went. Once we got to the hospital we could talk more, because I still had so much to say to her especially about today because I needed her to know that she had absolutely nothing to worry about.

I would never step out on her, not for anyone. We pulled up and parked, I held my hand out to help her off then got off myself. I grabbed her hand and lead us both to Abel's room, once inside I closed the door and sat down on the chair pulling her into my lap wrapping my arms tightly around her.

"Baby I've got so much I want to say, so much you need to know about but right now none of it seems to be coming to my mind. The one thing though that is clear to me is that I am so in love with you! You have to believe me on that ok? No one will ever come between us, because I want no one but you"

Once I was finished, she turned around in my lap, so she was straddling me, her knee's digging into the back of the chair. She put her hands on my face so we could look into each other's eyes.

"You don't have to say anything else Jax, I should have let you explain before I went off the deep end, but I didn't. lets put it behind us and move on from it shall we? But just so you know if I ever see that bitch in our room or even near you again, I'll be the one grabbing daddy's gun and I wont just stick it in her face I'll pull the damn trigger"

She said it so simple like it was an everyday thing to say which I guess in our world it was an everyday thing. But the fact that she just seemed to come into our lives and click so instantly meant she was where she was supposed to be and that was with me as my old lady!

"Got it Darlin"

With that I've cupped her face and pulled her lips to mine. This is where I want to be, I knew from now on everything would be ok. Iz accepted me warts and all, I knew she didn't know everything that was to know about me and the club just yet but in time she would, but I had no doubt in my mind that she would be a perfect old lady for me. I pulled away from her and put my forehead to hers closing my eyes. This is a perfect moment us here with our family. I couldn't wait to see what the future holds for us all, with Iz I knew it would never be boring.

AN,

There you have it guys, an update! I am so sorry it has taken so long to update this story my carpal tunnel prevented me from being able to type without pain. But I've now had treatment and am hoping I can update more regularly now.

I hope you like this update, I'm hoping it's a good one for you all.

Now should I have Tara pop up in the next chapter? Should she cause some trouble?

Let me know what your ideas are.

Have a nice week all stay safe

V