Sylvie pulled up to Antonio's place and slowly walked up the stairs. She knocked but there was no answer so she tried the handle and the door opened.
"Antonio?" Sylvie yelled in the seemingly empty apartment. She heard the water in the bathroom shut off.
"Sylvie, you here?" Antonio shouted from his bedroom "Give me a minute, I'll be right there"
Tonio emerged from his bedroom in a pair of sweatpants hanging low around his hips, no shirt, and hair still wet from the shower. "Sorry, I lost track of time…you want some pancakes? Coffee?"
"No, thanks. My stomach is still a mess from this food poisoning thingy I had a couple weeks back" she tried not to stare at him cause no matter how sick she felt, Antonio looking like he did right then was bound to lead to other things. "Can you please put a shirt on?"
Antonio smirked and went to his room and grabbed a shirt, pulling it over his head he walked to the kitchen and grabbed his cup of coffee.
"I told Voight I would be late, so don't worry about this taking too long" he didn't want her to feel like he was rushing her.
"What do we need to talk about?" She went to the table and set down, she was trying to not sound annoyed but was failing miserably.
"First off, not to sound rude so don't get pissed, but Sylvie you look like shit. You said you had food poisoning, are you sure that's all, you're really pale." She rolled her eyes and just stared at him, she knew she didn't feel good and didn't need him to point it out to her.
"I'm fine, or I will be, just need to put another week or so behind me, I'm sure Gabby will hook me up to a IV if I get too bad" she smiled weakly at him trying to reassure him.
Antonio decided to just get this over with and lay it all out there and let her decide what to do with it. "I lied to you the other night, there was no blind date" he kept his eyes down not wanting to look into those blue eyes. "Why?" was her only response, her voice void of any emotion.
He raised his head to face her but was careful to not quite make eye contact. "I didn't know how to handle the situation, last time we were casual, I got too attached and you bolted so this time I figured I would just tell you I was dating other people so you wouldn't leave but I realize that was wrong and I hurt you." He finally made eye contact, her blue eyes swelling with tears.
"I'm not any good at this, Laura had been my only relationship in my life up until you, and we got together in high school, got married, had kids, and then divorced. Then you came along, the first and only person I've dated since and I knew right away that you were it but the age difference, the divorce, Laura's crazyness, and the custody battle, I just let fear get in the way. " Antonio got up and walked around the table setting next to Sylvie he pulled her chair around to where they were knee to knee and put his arms around her neck drawing her forehead towards his.
"I thought I was pregnant, I'm not though, I took a test" she just blurted it out tears gliding down her face. Antonio took his arms from around her neck and leaned back in his chair and let out a breath he didn't know he was holding. He didn't know what to do with that information, he was shocked to say the least.
He quickly gained his composure "Why didn't you come to me?" he grabbed her hands.
"I was scared, you've already told me we were in two different places in life, gave me all the reasons we wouldn't work and I didn't know what to do so I went to Gabby, next best thing I guess" she smiled at him, the smile not reaching her eyes.
"Look at me, I want you to listen okay?, no matter what we're doing, our relationship status, if we're fighting or not, you can always come to me about anything and I'll set it all aside and listen and I won't judge, I promise, okay?" he was frustrated with himself that she was scared to talk to him, how did he ever let this get so bad.
"I'm not gonna lie Sylvie, you and me, that's what I want, I keep going with the casual thing just so I can have you in some way but that's not who I am, I don't think causal will work for me, I need the relationship, the commitment, I need you here." She started to sob, she just couldn't hold it back anymore, her emotions took over and she leaned forward and kissed him gently on the lips. He didn't move he just let her do whatever she needed to; the kiss was over as quickly as it started.
She pulled away and stood. Antonio panicked setting up straight, "Where are you going?" he gently grabbed ahold of her wrist as she started to walk away pulling her back towards him.
She didn't try to pull away but instead just stood there and stared at him for a minute.
"I'm just going to the couch, my head hurts" he let her wrist go and she moved to the couch and sat down.
"You want some Tylenol and water? I really think you should try to eat something." he started walking toward the kitchen to grab what she needed. "
Just the water and Tylenol, nothing else will stay down" her head was really pounding.
She didn't know how to respond to him. He just told her everything she wanted to hear and everything she was going to tell him the other night before he broke her heart with the lie.
"Severide asked me to move in with him" she wanted to forget about their feelings for a moment. "He's not interested in me, he's still dating Stella but she moved out and he thinks we would be good roommates."
Antonio didn't want to let on that he already knew "And what do you want? Do you think it's a good idea?" he wanted her to be able to make this decision completely on her own and not because she thinks he would be jealous or not.
"I think it might be good, I would definitely have more privacy and it would be quieter." The more she thought about Kelly's offer the more she was for it. "
Then do whatever will be best for you, I personally thinks it's a good idea, I trust Severide." Antonio handed her the meds and water and she took them. He grabbed Eva's throw blanket from the chair and handed it to her, she eagerly took it and covered herself.
Barely audible she started "The other night outside of Molly's, I was on my way here to talk to you." She paused and got a sad look on her face tears still gently streaming down, she reached behind the sofa and grabbed a tissue from the sofa table.
Antonio didn't say anything he just stood there with his arms crossed across his chest looking at her, pleading with his eyes for her to keep talking.
"I was going to tell you that I wanted to try again, that I wanted to be all in but you told me that you were going on the blind date and all I could think to do was walk away, you hurt me more with that one little lie than I've ever been hurt by anyone." There was no anger in her voice, only sadness.
Antonio looked up toward the ceiling rubbing his palms against his face willing himself not to cry. He's cried few times in his life and he knew Sylvie telling him that he hurt her worse than anyone ever has would likely be added to that short list.
"I promise I didn't mean to, I fucked up, I'm sorry, if I could go back and change it I would because the look on your face after I said it almost killed me, I knew right in that moment I fucked up and hurt you" he walked toward her and set on the coffee table in front of her.
"I know you wouldn't purposely hurt me and I know I hurt you when I walked out last time, I knew you had feelings for me and so did I for you but I needed to end it before my heart got broke like the first time. I guess neither of us are any good at this." She sniffled and tried to put a smirk on her face to diffuse the tension.
He smiled back at her "Why don't we work on it together? Try to figure out everything and start back at one and just date?" he would try anything to make their relationship work this time; he moved to the sofa and sat facing her.
She leaned forward and hugged him around the middle. She held on for several minutes just breathing in his scent before finally pulling back, she had forgotten how much she missed just hugging him. "I think I would like that" she smiled wiping her face, she felt a little better with some of the angst lifted from her shoulders.
Sylvie was visibly more relaxed Antonio noticed but she still looked like she needed to sleep and to eat.
"Are you sure you're okay? I'm really worried about the way you look, has Gabby checked you over or have you been to the doctor?" he was very concerned and contemplated asking Gabby if she would look her over.
"I just need to sleep, what time are you leaving for work?" she asked needing to head home and go to bed.
"I really don't think you should be driving, why don't you just hang out and I'll finish getting ready for work and I'll drive you home and either I can come pick you up tonight to get your car or someone else can run you here later?" She nodded, she didn't have the energy to argue and truthfully she could barely keep her eyes open and knew she probably shouldn't be driving.
Antonio went into the bedroom to get ready and when he reemerged Sylvie was asleep on the couch. He gently tucked the blanket around her and lifted her head and placed a pillow beneath it so she wouldn't have a stiff neck when she woke up. He pulled out his phone and went back into his bedroom to make a quick call.
"Hey its Tonio, I won't be in today, can you manage without me?, I'll do paperwork from home." Voight gave his approval and Antonio grabbed his laptop off his nightstand and went back out to the living room and made himself comfortable in the chair next to the couch. He didn't have the heart to wake Sylvie and knew she would be better off being looked after by him than by Cruz and Otis who would constantly wake her and bug her.
Sylvie blinked slowly waking, the room was dark and she didn't immediately recognize it, she knew from instinct it wasn't hers. She started to panic before her eyes readjusted and she recognized she was in Antonio's bedroom. She knew she didn't fall asleep in there, so she figured she must have fallen asleep on the couch and Antonio moved her.
She reached for her phone to check the time. It was seven in the evening, which meant she had slept for ten hours. She had never slept that long after shift in her life. She got out of the bed and went in search of Antonio.
She walked into the kitchen and found Eva cooking dinner, it smelled good, she was really hungry. "Hey Eva" Eva jumped a little and spun around, she smiled and wrapped her arms around Sylvie.
"Hey I've missed you". Right then Sylvie's stomach flipped and she broke the hug and ran for the restroom with her hand covering her mouth. 'Damn it!' she screamed internally as she vomited, she hadn't had anything to eat all day.
"Sorry Eva, I didn't mean to run away, I just don't feel good." She told the teen. Eva smiled and told her it was okay. "Where's your dad?" she wondered if he stayed home all day or went to work.
"He ran to the store, told me not to wake you, he said you've been asleep all day." Yup he stayed home with her, great, first day agreeing to try again and she's sick and he's taking care of her.
"I was just tired after shift, I'll be fine." She smiled at Eva trying to reassure her. "Do you need any help with dinner?" she really enjoyed cooking with Eva.
"No, don't worry about it, it's almost done anyway." Eva could tell she was only offering to be polite and that she really didn't feel up to cooking.
"Is Diego here?" Sylvie asked. "Nah, he went with dad, they'll be back soon." Eva said as she moved some pans to the sink.
Sylvie sat on the couch and texted Antonio. "I'm awake" was all she said. "Good, be there in a minute" was his immediate reply.