The feeling of being back in the field... I can feel it. The excitement growing in my stomach. My heart skips a beat the more I think about it. The thrill of it all. It's a feeling that you'll never get tired of. So what's stopping me?

"Mom?"

I snapped out of my thoughts and fixated on my son. "Y-Yes?"

"It's your turn to order." He whispered.

Right. I forgot where I was.

"Ah sorry Techi-san. I got lost in thought." I nervously said.

"It's no worries," he gave a half smile. "I'll get you your usual."

That smile, he was concerned but he tried to hide it. Tried.

"Thank you."

I fixated my attention upon my kids to distract myself. "So, did you all have fun at the park?"

"Yes!" They said in unison.

"That's good. What do you guys want to after this?"

"I feel like watch a movie." Hanami responded.

"Oh? What kind of movie?" I asked her.

"Horror of course!" She exclaimed. Shinachiku shook his head rapidly and interjects.

"No, we are not watching that horror movie you always try to watch. You'll get scared." He criticized.

"No, you'll get scared! I'm not scared of a movie! I'm not a baby!" She bragged. Shinachiku was getting visibly annoyed with Hanami and argued back and forth with her. Of course I just laughed, reminds me of Naruto and I during our early genin days. Always bickering.

Yeah.. definitely a mirror.

"You two stop bickering." Techi interrupted them. "Your foods done."

As soon as they laid eyes upon their food, it's as if they'd instantly forgotten what they were bickering about and dug in. "Thank you Techi-san!" They said in unison.

Techi smiled slightly at them as he put my bowl infront of me and spoke. "You know," he whispered. "Those two remind me of you two. Or is it the pink and blonde hair." He joked.

"I know. It's like looking on a mirror sometimes. And Arashi," I focused my eyes onto my youngest eating peacefully seemingly unbotheredby his siblings' bickering. "When he was born, Nraruto cried all week when I stayed in the hospital claiming his mother, Kushina, blessed our son with her hair."

"Ahahaha" He chuckled. "I remember when he paraded around little Arashi-chan after he was ready to come home. I'll never forget how happy he was to have a child whose hair resembles his mother." He looked over them with fondness in his eyes. "I remeber when he paraded all of em like that around. I miss him."

"...Me too."

"Mom I'm tired.." Hanami complained.

We just got done eating and we're currently heading home. Hanami could barely walk straight so I carried her while Shinachiku walked hand in hand with Arashi.

"Well, you did eat two bowls of Ramen." Shinachiku chimed in.

"Shut up.." grumbled and let her head rest in the crook of my neck.

"You've got the stomach of your father." I joked. "Maybe one day, you'll catch up to him."

"Like that'll happen." Shinachiku snorted. "Every time he took me there, he'd eat like five-six bowls! It's was amazing! ...And a little nasty cause of the bathroom but.."

I snickered at his comment."The bathroom did use to be a problem huh?"

He continued to complain comically. "Ugh it was so nasty! I used to hate going into the bathroom because I was afraid that he already stunk it up! I remeber my first time like it was yesterday... I'm still traumatized."

I belly laughed at his explanation of his father's bathroom habits. I didn't realize how funny he could be... These little things I'm learning about my kids... This is why I went back. This is why I don't regret choosing my kids.

About time we made it home, Hanami was fast asleep in my arms. It looked as if Arashi was following suit as he told had trouble keeping his eyes open so I put them both to bed. It was only me and Shina awake at this time.

As I was putting away the dishes from the dishwasher, I felt my son hug me from behind.

"Huh? Shina-chan, what's wrong?" I asked as I turned around.

"It's just... It's been a long time since went out like this. As a family. I'm.. I'm just happy today happened." I could hear the crack in his voice and I instantly embraced him tight.

""Shina-chan..." I kissed him on his head. "I'm glad today happened as well."

"I love you, Mom."

"I love you too baby."

We embraces each other for few more minutes before deciding to part.

"I'm heading to bed, goodnight."

"Ah w-wait, I want to ask you something." I wonder how he'd feel about it?

"Yes?"

"Now," I cleared my throat. "I want you to be honest with me.. How.. How would you fell about me going back to work? Like, back into the medical field?"

"Oh.. um..." He trailed off.

The more silent he got, the more anxious I got. What if he thinks bad if me for trying to go back? What if he thinks I'm going to abandon them again? What if-

"I don't mind."

"What?"

He came closer to me. "I don't mind. In fact, I think that it's amazing gay you want to go back. I remeber how passionate you were about medicine.. You actually we're my inspiration for wanting to be a medical ninja mom." A breathy chuckle left his lips.

I... I inspired you?" I was flabbergasted.

"Mom, you're literally a living legend. You healed so many people during the war. Dad told me how you surpassed Lady Tsunade at just sixteen. And how you brought him back to life by manually pumping his heart, your hundred seal , your strength.. Mom, I know you've been struggling these past few years with Dad's death but.. you're still an inspiration to many people. More than you know."

I was at a loss for words.. I didn't know what to say. All that he said.. All that Nraruto told him.. "Shina-chan...

He shot me a warm smile and bid me goodnight. "What ever you decide to do, I'll be happy for guy either way. Goodnight Mom." And walked away.

What ever I decide... Thank you.. Shinachiku