CHAPTER NINETY-SIX

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By the time I pull into the car park at the hospital I'm a jumble of emotions that I have to consider. The feeling of fear about there still being something wrong with Abel is expected, the terrified feeling that something will go wrong with him being out of the incubator for more than a couple of hours has been simmering in my mind for days but I've been managing to ignore it with everything else that's been going on. I'm completely annoyed at Jax for talking to Opie before Piney and considering casually mentioning my ideas to Clay instead. The idea of going behind Jax's back is kicked out of my head with a hard shake, the annoyance doesn't leave though.

A tap on the window brings me out of my thoughts and turning my head I see Gemma standing by the door "You okay baby?" She asks softly as I push the door open and jump out.

I shrug "I'm not sure. Ask me in a week?"

Gemma laughs and pulls me towards the doors "I waited down here for you; Jax is already up filling out paperwork."

I nod and silently follow her through the doors and into the elevator. When we reach the neo-natal unit Jax looks up from the table he's leaning on in Abel's room and meets my eyes "Hey Ma, would you mind going and getting Sarah some coffee, she looks a little tired."

Gemma glances between me and her son before nodding and leaving the room, the door making a soft snicking sound as it closes.

"What's wrong?" Jax is on his feet and across the room before the sound of Gemma's heels has faded from the hall.

"You're an idiot." I mutter shaking my head "You were meant to talk to Piney, not Opie. Donna just told me that Ope told her that there was talk about getting the club out of guns. I had to tell her as much as I know, but Jesus, have you at least talked to Piney?"

Jax shakes his head guiltily "No. I talked to Ope yesterday while you were in with Clay. He thinks it's a brilliant idea and said he wishes he'd thought of it."

I poke him in the chest "You were meant to talk to Piney first, that way you know if you have the VP behind you. Once we're done here you are going to go and talk to Piney even if I have to handcuff the two of you together to get you to talk. He needs to know what you're thinking more than Opie does. I know Ope's your best friend but he's not going to be able to help you sway Clay like Piney will."

Jax sighs and grabs my hand, the poking in his chest had been hurting my finger but the need to illustrate my point overrode the pain. "I know babe, calm down. I promise I'll talk to Piney today."

I shake my head, my nose brushing his chest "Jax I hate being annoyed at you, but I hate it that I gave you these ideas and you didn't think to listen past the word porn."

Jax leans down and presses a kiss to my lips "I did Sarah; I promise I did listen to it all. I didn't realise you'd be so upset about me talking with Opie first. It's a little odd."

I frown and lean against his chest, the smell of his shirt curling into my nose. Standing there in his arms for a few minutes I start laughing.

Jax pulls back and looks down at me with a raised eyebrow "What's so funny?"

I lean up and kiss him "I'm an overreacting emotional mess at the moment. I'm sorry."

Jax shrugs and pulls me tighter to him as the sound of returning heels reaches our ears "I get being a bit emotional at the moment. You're worried about Abel. I am too."

Gemma opens the door behind us and sets three bottles down "I brought Sarah some juice instead of coffee. I think given how stressed she is about this caffeine is a bad thing."

I look over my shoulder and she simply raises an eyebrow in a silent dare for me to argue. Nodding quietly I pull out of Jax's arms and accept the bottle she's holding "Sorry."

Gemma shakes her head "It's completely normal for both of you to be as nervous as you are. Jax smoked about 5 cigarettes before I sent him up here, not to mention he was about to pace a track in the car park waiting for you. Just remember, Abel is still going to be in here, they are still going to be monitoring him and if there are any issues they will ring you."

Jax sits back down and continues with the forms he was working his way through while I quietly hold Abel's hand. It's almost like he knows it's a big day, he's lying in the incubator wide awake but fairly still, his eyes huge and looking around the room. Jax groans several times throughout the course of the pages he's working through and it's not till he gets to the last page that he looks up "You need to check this is all right and sign it with me."

I pull my hand out of the incubator and cross to where he was "Give them here then, I'll check it all."

Jax leans down and scrawls his signature across the bottom line of the last page before handing the bundle to me with a kiss on the forehead. "Relax babe."

I poke my tongue out at him "Ditto."

Jax chuckles as he crosses to take my place beside the incubator as I flick through the pages. It's all basic information; the release form for when he's out is at the back which is the one that Jax had signed before handing it to me. The pages in front are mainly full of insurance details, contact information for me, Jax, Gemma, Clay, Opie and Donna listed in the boxes.

I frown at the last page "Did you really have to put my middle name?"

Jax laughs "Yes, it says full name."

I poke my tongue out at him and edit his "Well, yours was wrong then." Crossing out where he'd written Jax I fill in Jackson Nathaniel in the box and sign the last page dropping them all in a neat stack on the table he'd been leaning on. "All done."

"Sweet, thanks babe." Jax leans over and taps the button to call the nurse and Anne comes in a couple of minutes later with a smile on her face.

"Paperwork finished?" She smiles at us all brightly as she steps past Gemma and opens the incubator, leaving the cover open she steps backwards "He can come out now if you want."

I nod and pick it the pages "Sure is. Just missing the page that asks for shoe size and favourite food."

Anne laughs and takes the documents "It does feel a bit like that, but it all gets kept on record in case he ends up in here again."

I shake my head and cross my fingers, holding them up "Let's hope that doesn't happen."

Anne pulls the door open and takes the pile of paper with her "I'll be back in about 20 minutes with the doctor and we'll do some quick tests then move the incubator out and a normal cot in."

Jax lifts his son off the bed and moves to the chair I'm standing by, sitting down he reaches out with one hand and pulls me onto his lap, handing Abel to me carefully before he relaxes into the leather. "We should get one of these for the nursery."

I look down at the arm chair he's sitting on "But we have the rocking chair."

Jax nods "I know, but I'd like one of these as well."

Gemma grins as I tilt my head "Okay, I'll go out and pick one tomorrow."

Jax shakes his head "Nope, just go to the website of that furniture place we went to. I know you have their card in your pile somewhere. They can add it to the stuff being delivered on Monday."

Gemma looks between us "You sorted furniture already?"

Jax nods "Yeah, I think we got everything we needed, but who knows."

I laugh "I'm not sure baby, I guess we'll have to see when we actually get to move stuff in and unpack."

Gemma pulls over the other chair and sits down "When's that?"

Jax shrugs "Dunno, we've got the kitchen, painting, flooring and some shit to do with the stairs before we can move anything in."

I elbow him lightly "I'm meeting the guy about the stairs and the flooring this afternoon and then the painter on Monday morning."

Jax raises his hand and lightly brushes it over Abel's head "I can't come today but I'll be there on Monday."

I smile at him and lean down to kiss him softly "Okay, then. I'm meeting the builder and carpet layer today and we're meeting the painter Monday."