Andy hurried back to Deans place. She has been staying there for around 2 weeks now. She had to get Pru from kindergarten but wanted to make sure everything was tidy before Robert arrived. Andy changed into some ripped jeans with a black 't shirt sprayed on some parfume and pulled her hair out of her ponytail.
After she made sure everything was tidy and clean she left to get Pru. When Pru saw Andy she came running as fast as she could Andy took her in to a big hug and they walked to her car. While she was putting Pru in her seat she remembered how fast they got used to each other and had gotten used to a little routine together. Andy adored the little one so much. She got in the car and Pru started talking 'Annie (she had trouble calling her Andy) i made a drawing of a rainbow for daddy do you think he wil like it? She showed Andy her drawing with so much pride and excitement that it melted Andy's heart a bit. 'It's so beautifull i'm sure he is gonna love it!' How much she would like to become a mother too one day, she knew that might not be an easy task considering what she went through. They talked a bit about the new words she learned at school and they decided to listen to some disney music like they always do and had a little sing along in the car.
'Annie can we please make some cookies' Pru asked as she walked through te door. 'Ofcourse we can Pruey, what kind of cookies do you want?' 'Chocolate chip my favourite'. 'Pruey is it okay that uncle Robert stops by in a bit?' Andy asks 'Is uncle Robert the one from the pictures on your phone and next to your bed ? ' Pru asked since she never really got to know Robert yet. 'Yes that would be your uncle Robert is that okay with you ?' Andy asked not wanting Pru to think he would be hijacking their girlsday.' 'Yes can we make cookies now Annie?' That little girl was like Andy always ready for food. Andy smiled at her and sent a quick message to Robert that she just got to Deans with Pru and that they are gonna make cookies so when he arrives he can come in the door isn't locked. 'Let's go make some cookies now!' Andy said enthuisiastic and put on some music.
Around 20 minutes later Pru and Andy put the cookies in the oven to bake. Everytime they have baked cookies together they always have a little danceparty untill the cookies are done. Andy turned the music up a little. 'Annie come dance!' Pru started dancing herself. Andy and Pru were dancing and jumping around when Robert arrived and stepped inside he took a good look at the sight in front off him. Andy and Pru were both laughing and dancing while covered in flour. He stood at the door for a couple of minutes just watching the two of them have fun and made sure to get a little video of them before Andy noticed him standing there. ' How long have you been watching us you could've joined our little dance party ' Andy laughed at him. ' I prefer to watch you should now that by now' Robert said to her with a little grin. She walked over and gave him a little peck owh how much she missed doing that. At that moment the oven beeped to let them know the cookies are done, Andy took them out of the oven to let them cool down.
'Hey Pruey what do you want to drink?' 'Can i have some orange juice Annie?' Pru asked sweet she hasn't really noticed that Robert was already there. 'Do you also want some juice Robert?' Andy asked. 'Ofcourse thanks!' Andy walked to the couch with their drinks when she felt little arms around her legs. 'Pruey what is it?' Pru got shy around new people and was hiding behind Andy. 'Annie is that uncle Robert?' Pru whispered. 'Yes he is sweet pea should i introduce you to each other?' Pru kept standing behind Andy so she bend down and picked pru up. 'Pruey this is your uncle Robert, Robert this is Pru.' Robert bent down trying not to be scary and took pru her tiny hand and said 'It is so nice to meet you Pru!' Pru was still a bit shy so she gave a little smile before she cuddled further into Andy.
'You look like a natural with her, would you ever want one of your own?' Robert asked knowing that they never really had a conversation about this before. Andy froze a bit because of that question, was she gonna tell Robert about her miscarriage or should she wait till Pru was asleep. She decided to keep it silent at the moment. Andy was in her own world until robert touched her cheek Andy leaned into his hand. 'You kinda zoned out on me, are you okay?' He could see that his question got to her in a way he didn't expect, maybe she didn't want kids. 'Owh yeah i'm sorry, i would like to have kids someday in the future.' Andy Answered. 'Annie can i please have a cookie now ?' Pru asked not noticing she was the reason for a sudden subject change. 'Sure but don't tell daddy you got a cookie that is our secret.' They walked hand in hand to the kitchen 'Can you also grab a cookie for your uncle Robert and give it to him?' She was so happy with the cookies she run to Robert and gave him a cookie and sat down next to him. 'These are Annie and mines special cookies but don't tell daddy he doesn't like it when i eat to much sugar.' they both took a bite while Andy was watching their interaction from the kitchen. 'Did you really make these they are the best cookies i've ever eaten!' Robert told Pru. 'Yes me and Annie made them but i did the most of the work!' he smiled at her 'You really are the guy from Annies pictures when you smile!' Pru told Robert. 'I guess i am , wait what pictures?' He asked confused. 'Well auntie Annie has pictures of you on her phone and next to her bed. When she gets sad we look at the pictures together and she tells me stories. My favourite is the story of you saving her from a raccoon, raccoons are so cute!'They both laughed and started talking a little bit. It brought Robert comfort that Andy still had pictures of them together. After a while Andy joined them and Pru wanted to watch some disney so she was sitting on Andy her lap with an ipad and fell asleep after a couple of minutes. 'I'll take her to bed i will be right back' Andy told Robert walking away with Pru in her arms.
'I'm so sorry i never thought she was gonna stay awake that long i guess she likes you' Andy told Robert with a big smile and started laughing. 'You might be her new favourite uncle if you keep this up' Robert laughed 'Don't worry i like hanging out with you even when there is a 2 year old with us who you give more attention then your own man' he looked at her smirking. 'Maybe i should greet you in a better way then any ideas how?' She put her hand below her head like she was thinking of what to do. 'I may have some ideas' Robert said 'you do? maybe you should show..' Before she could finish talking his lips found hers in a heated kiss. The kiss at the station was sweet and slow this was a kiss full of desire and love. It took her no time to engage in the kiss she was now sitting on his lap with her legs one on each side of him one of her hands travelled from his biceps to his neck to pull him even closer while the other one caressed his chest lightly. Robert tried to kiss her deeper and deeper he was being the dominant one this time. They haven't had a kiss like this in almost a year. his hands travelled to her butt which made her moan slightly. They kept kissing until they had no more air left. She looked at him 'i really think we should talk before we keep on kissing which i know for a fact we both want.' She gave him one last chaste kiss on his lips and stood up to sit beside him again.
'Robert i need to tell you what happend in the last 10 months. I don't know where to start so please just let me ramble.' She stood up and began walking back an forward. 'A few days after Maya and Carina's wedding i did a pregnancy test and it was positive. I had expected it for a few weeks before the wedding that i could pregnant i realized that i got more hormonal, craved food and also you even more.' She stopped walking to look at him, he had a look of confusion written over his face. She decided to sit down again next to him. 'I was planning on telling you when i had my first ultrasound so i knew for sure our baby really was in there. So i called an OBGYN to make an appointment for the first checkup. I was so excited but also still mad about the way you handled Maya's demotion. So i choose to cool down a bit untill i got the ultrasound and tell you after.'
'The first checkup was 3 weeks after the wedding, and i remember being so scared but excited that we would have our own bundle of joy. The weeks between my pregnancy test and the ultrasound i had so many dreams of how i could tell you i was pregnant and how happy you would be. You would be the most amazing father and i feel like i failed you. I went to the appointment and had already bought a little onesie with 'future probie' written on it to suprise you after the ultrasound. Only when she was checking if everything was alright with our baby she didn't find a heartbeat i miscarried our perfect little baby when i was 9 weeks pregnant. I broke down started hyperventilating and crying uncontrollably the feeling of quilt, shock and resentment was getting to much for me. They asked me if i could call someone to get me so i wouldn't be alone. I never wanted to hurt you this way and felt so bad for not speaking to you the weeks before that i also never told anyone about the pregnancy so i decided to call no one and deal with this on my own.' Robert looked at her with tears in his eyes waiting for her to continue. 'I went numb and had been untill the day papi's rig burned down. The last couple of months i've only really talked to Theo about my feelings. i didn't think i could count on my family anymore no one gave me the tough love i needed no one asked how i was doing i felt so alone. I called the divorce lawyer because i couldn't handle the hurt anymore. A part of me was scared how you would've reacted when i told you about the miscarriage , would you have been angry, would you resented me like i did myself or would you've given me the love i didn't deserve because i have been a shitty wife. The only thing i was sure about is that it was easier for me to walk away and try to become numb again then to deal with all the pain off the last years. The miscarriage, our seperations, Ryan and papis death also that my mum that came back from the death. I never dealt with it and i'm dealing with the consequentions off all of that right now. I scheduled a appointment with a counselor for next week. And i'm sorry that i never thought about your feelings and was only focused on my own feelings and problems. You deserve a wife that doesn't close off when times get tough and who opens up about her traumas so you can understand her better. I haven't been that and because of that i sure as hell don't deserve you and your forgiveness.' Robert looked at her with tears streaming down his face he didn't know how to react to everything his wife has just told him. he only told her 'Andy i'm so sorry i wasn't there when you needed me, i didn't know what you had been through. But you should know you can always call me even when we are seperated at the moment.' Andy looked numb like she was telling a story of someone else.
'Robert there is something else, after i called the divorce lawyer i slept with someone to start to try to feel something again. It was so wrong i know that I am so sorry Robert i regretted it the minute it happend and have been feeling so guilty, ashamed and unsatisfied. You really should hate me, i left you for 10 months, i am the reason our baby isn't here today and never told you about the preganancy before and slept with another men while we are still married. I know i teared the divorce papers but i get it if you are done and want a divorce after learning all of this'. Andy looked at her hands because she was scared to look him in the eyes and the hurt she would see in them.
Robert was so shocked and hurt but the only thing in his mind was now was to give the woman he loves the comfort she craves at this moment. He pulled her as close as he could. The second her head found his chest she broke down and started hyperventilating. 'Andy baby try to breathe i got you, we will talk about this later okay let's just find comfort in each other right now.' She calmed down a bit and they layed down on the couch. Robert took of his shirt cause his was wet by Andy's tears and he knew that laying on his naked chest always gave her some kind off comfort or at least it used to before their seperation. She immediatly started to draw circles on his chest while she was trying to calm herself down. He put his hand under her shirt and caressed her lower back and gave her a kiss on her forehead before he started playing with her hair. She fell asleep crying in his arms. Robert fell asleep a while after.
Robert woke up an hour later by the noise of Dean coming home. He was laying on the couch of one of his coworkers without his shirt on and his wife asleep in his arms. he felt a little awkward and exposed. The team never truly excepted their marriage and they have been hard on both of them the last months. 'Uhm chief probie i didn't expect to see you here... without a shirt?' Dean said he noticed Andy and the tearstains on her face 'Wait is she okay? since she has been here she is been so different and doesnt want to open up to me. Before i saw you today at the station i didn't know you two were talking again, did she at least open up to you?' dean whispered 'Yeah she did and it's a lot to take in she really is not okay. I should probably move her to her bed can you show me where she is staying?' Robert got up and carried Andy while walking behind Dean. Andy started to wake up 'It's okay babe i'm taking you to bed' Robert whispered and gave her a little kiss on her cheek. Dean walked back to the living room while Robert took Andy to bed. Robert noticed the pictures on her bedside table the ones Pru was talking about , and slowly layed Andy down in bed.
'I'm so sorry you had to see that' Robert told Dean while he got his shirt and put it on again. 'She was so upset and fell asleep crying is it okay if i stay with her so she doesn't wake up thinking that i left her?' Robert asked helpless. 'Are you planning on taking care of her?' Robert nodded slightly 'ofcourse you can stay do you need anything? and are you okay?' Dean asked sincerely. 'I'm not but we will be okay if we get through this we can get through anything, thanks for taking her in as your roommate. I believe being here with pru is helping her. I'm heading to bed i don't wanna leave Andy for too long in case she wakes up , thanks for everything. Good night!' Dean nodded 'If you ever need someone to talk to you know where to find me probie. ' Robert gave him a small smile and walked to Andy's room.
Robert got into bed with Andy spooning her and started crying himself and finally letting himself feel all the emotion off today. They really needed to talk a lot more why did she blame herself for the miscarriage? How could she sleep with another man while they are still married? And is she aware of what she put me through the last 10 months? She wasn't the only one that was mad at me the team also took Maya's side and had ignored me for almost 10 months. He was still so angry at her for leaving but knew that today wasn't the day to focus on that. They still needed to have that fight. She needs to hear his story and needs to realize how badly she hurt him he lost his only person for 10 months over a little fight. After claires death she was the only who made him feel whole again and it pains him that she was running away instead of running towards him while fighting her demons. He finally fell into a deep sleep with his wife close to him for the first time in almost a year.