Andy wakes up with sunlight on her face coming through the curtains. She tries to turn around to try to get some more sleep without the sun in her face but feels something or rather someone blocking her. She is starting to wake up a little more and feels two strong arms spooning her tightly. She smiles at the sight of his arms wrapped around her middle. They used to wake up most morning like this wrapped in each others embrace. Even though they have so much more to discuss she feels a bit relieved that she told him about her miscarriage. She caresses his arms lightly and snuggles more into him and closes her eyes once more to enjoy the warmth and comfort she feels at this moment. She wakes up around half an hour later when she feels Robert stir behind her. 'Good morning' she said to him with a sleepy voice. 'Good morning babe' Robert answers he moves her hair a bit and gives her a little kiss on her neck. 'I missed waking up next to you i haven't been able to sleep that well in our bed since you left. 'Robert tells her honestly. She turns around in his arms and looks up to him. 'I missed you so much my body hurts sometimes i had to fight every instinct i had these last months not to run back into your arms' She watches him closely and holds his gaze and gave him a kiss. She intended it to be just a chaste kiss but soon she felt his hand travelling from her neck to her hair holding her in place. The kiss was messy and full of lust and the complicated love they were both feeling. Both needed the reminder that the person in their arms truly was the one they longed for. He pushed her back a little so she was now laying on her back, he moved his kisses from her lips to her neck and shoulder she couldn't stop moving beneath him and let out a small giggle. He kissed her lips again even deeper this time, they were relearning what their partner liked and wanted to memorize everything again. Andy softly pushed Robert from her with her hand on his chest. 'Robert babe i know that this is a really good way to keep our minds of our issues but shouldn't we first figure out how and if we can move along.' She said slightly out of breath with her heart beating like crazy. How she wanted to continue! This was going against everything that she was feeling every fiber in her body told her to continue and finally get lost in each others embrace. But it wasn't right they couldn't ignore their issues and fights by them having their hot and steamy way with each other. 'And also there is a very big chance that if we continue we'll be heard by Dean and Pruey and i kinda promised him that that wouldn't happen.' she started laughing. 'You are right we better not piss Dean off' Robert told her laughing and gave her a kiss on her cheek.
So what do you want for breakfast?' She asked getting out of bed. 'I can make you a smoothie just not as good as the ones you make.' she smiled at him. 'If you show me where everything is then i'll make them i know you and your smoothie making skills. Well to be honest i can't even call them skills.' He teased and was about to leave the bedroom. 'Uhm Robert shouldn't you put on a shirt?' she asked him grinning a bit taking in his body he truly looked like he just walked out of a magazine. 'Wouldn't be the first time Dean saw me without a shirt.' He told her kinda embarrassed they walked to the kitchen. 'Hi Dean where is Pruey?' As soon as Andy stopped talking she heard little feet running towards her 'ANNIE i missed you' She hugged Andy 'Hi Pruey do you want a smoothie?' Pru nodded excited 'I'll let you in on a little secret your uncle Robert makes the best ones maybe you can help him?' 'Yes ofcourse me and uncle Roberet are gonna make the best smoothies you've ever had.' She run excited to Robert 'Hi Pru' He picked her up and placed her on the counter 'Hi uncle Robert! Annie told me you needed some help with making smoothies!' Robert smiled at her and quickly looked over to Andy 'She's right so Pru what do you think we should put in the smoothies ?' Andy smiled looking at them interacting and walked over to Dean.
'I'm so sorry you walked in on this mess yesterday. I didn't plan on falling asleep on the couch let alone with Robert there with me.' she told Dean blushing a bit. 'It's all good Herrera i'm glad you two are talking again, also our walls are very thin so i'm so glad i didn't hear any noises coming from you and fire zaddy.' He said while punching her arm lightly they started laughing. Soon Pru and Robert walked over to them with smoothies. They all drank their smoothies. Dean had to take Pru to kindergarten so they left. 'Do you want to talk some more?' Robert asked after just enjoying each others company in a comforable silence 'Yes we need too, maybe not here. Dean will be back soon and i don't want him eavesdropping.' 'Our place?' Robert asked. 'Yes let's do our place' They left together in Roberts car.
They arrived at their place everything looked exactly the same as if she walked out a day before. 'You kept everything the same?' She asked looking at their wedding pictures on display. 'Ofcourse i never thought you would leave me for 10 months. You are my wife Andy a part of me always kept on believing this was just a nightmare and you'll come back walking through those doors after a long day at work. But you never did.' He gave her a coffee and began talkin. 'Andy i'm sorry but we really need to have this fight i have no idea where to begin so i'll just start.' Andy looked at him and nodded and grabbed her coffee while sitting on the couch. 'We do, go ahead start' Andy said.
'YOU LEFT , Andy you left right after Maya's wedding this was something we could've ended in a couple of fights. You can't just get up and leave your husband. I am not some random dude you were sleeping with. Do you have any idea how much it hurt to watch your only friend and your person walk out on your life just because off a fight. I get it i could've handled the situation different but that should've been a fight not a seperation. Not you leaving me!' He started pacing 'You are the only person i trusted ever since i lost Claire and you wouldn't fight you just kept walking away. I felt left alone again by the one i love only this time it was by my wife leaving me not by death but by choice. Andy i love you so much it hurts. These last months i tried so much to stop loving you so i could stop the hurt i am feeling and i tried so hard but i can't. You are my person, the one i want to spent the rest off my hopefully long life with. You know the team also never talked to me and choose your and Mayas side without even considering listening to me. I was ignored by your team or how you would call them family for almost 10 months. Andy i've been through hell and back. What do you expect on how we can go forward. That aside you slept with ANOTHER MEN, while you were still married and you never told me about the miscarriage of OUR baby. That isn't just your loss Andy and i get that it would be hard to tell me but we could've grieved together! You left me out of everything, the happiness, the saddness , the angst you left Andy. This isn't how a marriage is supposed to work I love you so much Andy but how can we move past this.' He looked heartbroken at this moment Andy realized how selfish she had been and never thought about his feelings in this whole time. She started feeling quilty but was still mad at him.
'Robert you went behind my back to go after my best friends job that should've been mine in the first place. Maya wasn't even demoted yet and you still went after her job. How could you. You always think i'm ashamed of you for losing your title but how many times do i have to tell you i don't care about your title. It is all you who wants to move up the ranks no matter what it is at stake. You're so focused on moving up the ladder that you forgot to think about YOUR WIFE. These are decisions we need to make together. You made me feel like trash in that moment. You left me out of every decision you made about your career since our marriage not just the Maya thing. I felt stabbed in my back by the one i love most off all. You got me transferred to station 23 away from my fathers legacy and my family. And yes maybe i should've talked to you earlier about the pregnancy and miscarriage and i'm sorry about that, i guess we both need to learn how to communicate in a marriage.
'Andy what did you expect me to say to Mcallister i'm sorry let me talk to my wife really quick before we continue our talk. This was a one time shot to save 19 and keep your family together. And i didn't get you transferred to 23 that was all on you for going in against our chief.' Robert was getting angry. Andy's phone started ringing 'Hi captain' she answered trying to sound calm 'Herrera we need you to work an extra shift some firefighters from B shift are sick. So can you get to the station as soon as possible?' Aquino asked Andy 'Yeah i'll be there in 15, see you soon' Andy answered. 'Robert i'm sorry i have to go to the station for an extra shift. can we continue this after my shift?' Andy asked Robert. 'Duty calls i guess we have to continue later.' Robert looked defeated they were finally having their fight and she was called in. Andy got her jacket and started walking to the door but stopped. 'Uhm Robert i left my car at Deans.. could you drive me to the station?' 'Sure let's go' they walked out and got into the car to head to the station. There was an uncomfortable silence in the car untill they arrived to the station and Robert asked 'Are we going to be allright?' Andy looked at him and nodded slightly 'I really don't know what to answer babe. We may have a lot of fights and it will take some time but if we both go for it fully i hope we will because you are my person. I still have faith in us' Robert didn't know how to react and gave her a hug and kiss on her forehead before she left the car. 'Stay safe please! i'll see you after shift!' 'Bye Robert i love you ' she whispered not knowing if he heard her and walked into the station to be greeted by Theo. 'Did i just saw you getting dropped off by who i think it was i need details!' Before she could andswer they heard the alarm going off 'Aid car 23 person in distress she got dressed and went to the scene.
In the meanwhile Robert was at the store getting flowers. He got flowers and went to the cemetry. He hasn't been there in a while but it always helped to clear his head when he needed too cause two of his most important people were buried there. This time he decides to walk to Ripleys grave. 'Hi Luke, i know it's been a while but i really could use you right now. I got you flowers by the way they kinda look like the ones you bought for vic to accept her proposal. Speaking off Vic she still misses you but finally has a boyfriend that seems to take and love her well. She seems as happy as she can be without you.' Robert layed down the flowers 'Also you need to know something. I married Herrera around 1,5 years ago and let me tell you it's been a rollercoaster and right now i really don't know what to do. She got so mad at me for something that could've been ended with a fight. She walked out on me 10 months ago and filed me for divorce a week ago. We have been talking since yesterday and finally things are starting to make some sense. She told me she found out she was pregnant just after she left. She lost the baby and never told anyone cause she didn't wanted to hurt me any more then she already had.' Robert started crying 'I want to believe that she went numb like she told me but i'm scared that i don't know my wife anymore. This was something we should have gone through as partners. Since she has been in my life i never felt alone anymore untill the point when she left. Luke i almost got back into my old patterns but your annoying voice was stuck in my head telling me each time not to start using or drinking again that it wasn't worth it.' Robert took a breath and sat down on the bench next to his best friends grave 'Luke if you can hear me will you please take care of our baby i've been having a feeling that it was a girl. So please go look for her tell her her parents love and miss her so much and take care of her like you would've if you were still here. Please be there for her like the godfather you were meant to be. Robert stayed a while venting at Ripleys grave. After around an hour he looked back at his grave and said 'We really are all good aren't we? please tell Pruitt i'm doing my best to take care of his daughter and introduce his granchild if you can. Thanks for listening to me venting i'll let you rest in peace now.' He went to Ripleys favourite diner to get comfort food that is always how ripley would call it. People may find it crazy but Robert found comfort in eating his best friends favourite food. He got a burger and onion rings and ate them in the car while thinking how to progress in the situation with Andy. He felt a bit calmer then he did before he went to the cemetry. Ripleys voice came popping into his head once more 'Sully if you love her don't give up on her, you deserve happiness.' Luke always did know what to say. Robert started thinking about possibilities for saving his marriage. He started remembering the things they have shared the last 48 hours. Andy was talking about the appointment she made with a counselor to work through her trauma and losses. Maybe that is what they need to move forward in their marriage , relationship therapy could maybe do them good. It was worth a shot. He finished his meal and started driving.
Andy just got back from the call she felt so tired almost like she had an hangover or better said an emotional hangover. She decided to do the one thing at the station that always helped her settle and was a place to rethink about everything that happend in the last 48 hours. She looked around to make sure no one saw her and climbed up on the engine to lay down inbetween the hoses. She started thinking 'What if we can't move forward and this really is the end of my marriage with the one i love?' She felt so quilty for not realizing how she treated Robert like shit and what he has been through she hated that the team ignored him and that she didn't knew this sooner. She would've stood up for him or wouldn't she, she wasn't sure about anything right now. Just that she screwed up in more ways then one and that she loved Robert so much it hurts. The tears started falling and she tried holding in her sobs. in the meanwhile Theo was looking for Andy. They had become good friends in the last months. He knew the places she would hide and soon saw her laying down on the engine. He decided to join her bringing her favourite cornflakes with him. Theo knows she only goes up there when she is frustrated, angry or sad so she will need comfort in any kind right now and since he is not Robert cornflakes will do the trick.
'Hey Herrera what is going on with you ?' He sat down and gave her the cornflakes. She smiled a little reminding how good of friends they had become the last 10 months. They understanded each other like no other because their similar upbringing and cultural background. 'Thanks for the cornflakes' She grabbed them and put a hand in the box and started eating them. 'So he dropped you off what is the story behind that?' Theo asked Andy started venting 'I slept with him after i told him about my miscarriage and that i slept with another man. We were fighting at his place when captain called me to work an extra shift. We were finally letting out our anger and emotions. We took his car when we left from Deans place so i didn't have my car with me. So he dropped me off.' She continued eating and kept looking at the hoses on top of the engine. 'WAIT you slept with him aren't you getting divorced?' Theo asked suprised. 'Well no it's not what you think i fell asleep crying in his arms but i didn't sleep with him although i wanted to, we did kiss and i missed him so much'. she told him a bit embarresed.
Robert walked into the beanery off staion 23 to talk to Andy but he found Maddox and Captain Aquino preparing dinner. 'Hey i am looking for Andrea, do you know where she is?' Robert asked. 'She got back from a call around 10 minutes ago but i haven't seen her since then. Maybe she is refilling the aid car.' Aquino answered. 'Thanks i'll go look for her' He left and started walking to the barn, knowing his wife was either working out, refilling the aid car or hiding from the team. He didn't saw her when he walked in so thought maybe he was wrong and she could be on the roof. Then he heard Theo talking 'Wait what do you mean by miscarriage?' 'A couple days after Maya's wedding i found out i was pregnant. I was still so mad at Robert for the way he tried to step up before maya even got her demotion i overreacted and can probably blame the pregnancy hormones for it. I planned to tell him when i got my first ultrasound, i was so happy to have a little bean with the love of my life. Unfortunatly someone upstairs had other ideas and at my first ultrasound they couldn't find a heartbeat, i miscariried.' She started crying, Robert was still eavesdropping. 'Oh my Andy i'm so sorry, so you decided to deal with it yourself didn't you?' Andy nodded 'Why didn't you tell Robert about it or me?' Theo asked full of compassion 'I blamed myself for losing the baby i read some things about that a lot off stress could be the reason of losing the baby. Robert didn't know and i was already a bad wife for leaving without a word i couldn't hurt him more then i already had. And Theo right now we are good friends but we just started becoming friends back then i didn't wanted to look weak, i know talking about it would make the loss feel real. That is why i didn't tell you. I'm sorry.' Andy answered. Robert walked closer to the engine doubting if it would be a good moment to interrupt them. He was leaning on the engine and continued listening. 'Andy i'm so sorry, how did Robert react?' 'Well i dropped so many bombs on him, that i miscarried and slept with another man. He looked hurt and defeated but also with compassion. I hurt him so bad, i'm the reason he didn't got to be happy about the pregnancy, or grieve the loss of our baby. I really don't deserve him and i'm so scared he will leave and i'm not sure i can handle even more loss. but i wouldn't blame him cause i have threated him so bad. He deserves so much better.' Andy started sobbing. 'The way he reacted seems to me like he still loves you very much no matter what you did or didn't do , what are you planning to do ?' Theo looked at Andy 'I really don't know what the right thing to do is now. I called a counselor to talk about papi, mami, Ryan and also my marriage and miscarriage. It all seems too much to handle on my own right now. i feel like a strong wind could break me. I miss Ryan so much, he used to be my rock no matter what he always knew me better then i did myself, i could really use my best friend' Andy leaned on Theo's shoulder and grabbed more cornflakes. 'You are still standing Andy no matter what happends next you are so strong don't you ever forget that. Counseling is a big step and i think it will be good for you! You really are like a Phoenix you'll rise from the ashes. Thank you for finally opening up to me and don't give up on your marriage your love is complicated but it is there , fight for it!' He put his arm around Andy and tried to also get some cornflakes but Andy pulled the box away which made a mess. They started laughing 'Thank you Theo for being here, now help me take care of this mess you created.' andy started picking up the fallen pieces of cornflakes. 'So now you blame me for wanting just some off those sugary cornflakes that by the way i brought you, you should thank me' He grabbed some pieces and threw them at her.
Robert did the only thing he could think about and climbed onto the engine and saw Theo and Andy laughing he noticed the tears still on her face. 'Hey man didn't expect to see you here, i need to go help prepare dinner. Are you good Andy?' Theo asked her. He was happy to see Robert there cause hopefully he could give her te comfort she needed. She nodded. Theo left the barn. 'Babe what are you doing here?' Andy asked 'Well i came to see you to talk but i overheard some of your conversation with Theo. Andy i don't blame you for the loss of our baby you need to know that.' He moved a bit closer to her and looked her in her eyes. 'Robert are you okay? you look defeated?' Andy asked concerned. 'Well i just got back from visiting Ripley and it stirred up some dust. I don't want to keep fighting and i think maybe we need help from a relationship therapist. We need to go through this and not avoid it and i'm scared that if we don't get help that is what is going to happen. So if you're like me truly willing to fight for our relationship i want to take this step for us.' Robert said with emotion wrapping his voice. 'Yes babe, i think maybe we do need a therapist to truly work through all our problems and trauma's it'll be good for us in the long run. No matter what happends i have faith in the strenght of our relationship that we can get through this and become even closer and better in communicating.' Andy leaned in a little bit and her head was touching his chest softly. They layed down just letting the realisation settle in that both are gonna be going through a difficult time but they would do it together so they layed there enjoying the peace and each others company for the moment. After a while Robert touched andy's chin to make her look up at him 'There is one more thing i need to ask you , you slept with someone while we are seperated please tell me it was not with Gibson or Ruiz.' He was so scared she ran back to her ex that he had to ask. Andy was a bit taken back by his answer cause it wasn't Ruiz or Gibson but is Beckett really better. She was planning on telling him just not now. Right now she wanted to enjoy the peace they had. this was something to tell during therapy. 'No i didn't sleep with Ruiz or Gibson' she layed her head down again and he gave her a kiss in her hair.
They had no idea how long they were laying in their own little bubble until they heard Theo 'Herrera dinner is ready!' she sat up and asked 'Do you want to join us for dinner? Be warned like i told you everything including dinner smells like feet at 23' She laughed and enjoyed that they could do that again. 'Sure if they wouldn't mind that i join i dont wanna step on anybody's toes.' Robert answered. They walked to the beanery Robert grabbed her hand which made andy smile so brightly he hadn't done that since before the seperation. 'Hi guys is it okay if Robert joins for dinner?' Andy asked she knew it wouldn't be a problem. 'Your asking if the FIRE ZADDY can have dinner with us the answer will always be yes Herrera you know that! We can never say no to such a SFD celeb in our station willing to have dinner with us.' Maddox answered and they all laughed. 'But aren't you guys divorced?' Maddox asked. 'No Maddox we decided to fight for our relationship and tear the divorce papers apart and go to therapy instead. It is complicated but we are going to find our way back to each other that is what you do for the love of your life. Also Maddox i overheard you saying some things about me having a thing for you but take a look at fire zaddy here and you know the answer. You really aren't my type.' She winked and started laughing. Robert looked at Maddox with his chief stare and Maddox started blushing out of shame. 'Herrera why would you say that in front of your husband he is kinda scary.' He looked down to his plate. 'Cause i wanted to see your reaction and i'm glad i did cause it is funny!' They laughed a bit at Maddox and teased some bit more and had dinner together.
After diner 'Okay you were right, i didn't think dinner could smell like feet, how do they do that?' Robert asked while the others of the team left them to clean up cause it was Herrera's turn to do the dishes so Robert decided to help. 'I really have no idea but every shift i have to eat like this i truly miss your cooking.' she smiled at him 'Well that is one thing we can change soon if you will have dinner with me.' Andy nodded 'You wash i dry?' Robert asked. They started doing the dishes. Andy couldn't help to throw some bubbles to Robert which ended up in a little water/soap fight. They ended up laughing so hard they needed to lean on the counter to make sure they didn't lose balance. Robert leaned forward and started kissing her softly. Andy immediatly gave in. Robert grabbed her by her waist and put her on the counter to have less height difference between them. She pulled him closer by putting her arms behind his neck while she enjoyed the kiss to the fullest. She couldn't help to put her legs around his waist like she always used to do so he was as close as he could get. The kiss heated up quickly and became a toecurling kiss that got messy with tongues colliding. Heat and passion never really was their problem. Robert started talking between chaste kisses 'Maybe ... we... should... finish... doing.. the...dishes... before ... someone ... walks... in' he gave her one last kiss and she pulled him in to a hug. 'As much as i enjoy this i don't think your captain would be happy to know that you can't handle fire zaddy's charm at work, maybe i will not be welcome at your station anymore if he sees us like this'. He laughed and tried to get out of her grip. 'Shut up' She punched his shoulder lightly before getting of the counter. 'I missed us just being us and tease each other' she told him while finishing up the dishes. 'Me to love, me too.' the alarm went off gladly Andy wasn't on engine so she could stay at the station.
Andy walked him to his car she still had to work the rest of the shift so he was heading home. 'Will you stop by after your shift ends? we could look for a good relationship therapist and i promise that since you missed my cooking so much i'll cook for you after.' Robert told her. 'Yes let's do that i will meet you at the house.' She hugged him and gave him a kiss on his cheek before heading back into the station.
So a soap fight did i see that right?' Theo started teasing Andy 'Did you guys talk about how to move forward and what you are right now? You said something about therapy did he bring that up?' Theo asked looking out for his friend 'So you were watching us weren't you? and you know privacy is a real thing even though we are friends. We decided that therapy might help us move forward without ignoring our problems and will strenghten our relationship in the long run. He brought it up and to answer your question our relationship is so complicated now Theo so complicated but the love is still there so i hope that is enough to keep us together.' The alarm went off this time it was for aid car so they got to the scene and ended their shift.