We are many
"Would you like to have some sweets Naya?"
I looked away from the small, little bowl in which, as like at the last session, were some various sweets and candies. I liked the choice that you have of the bowl and the fact that Dr. Fletcher put emphasis on big chocolate brands, because i discovered brands like Lindt or Hershey. It suited the small bowl - but I was not hungry for chocolate or candy, so I said thankfully no.
"No, thank you - I had a already lunch", I thanked for the offer, watching the 70-year-old psychologist pull out a pen and a small block, presumably to take notes for the session.
"May I ask what you had, I only had tea and a salad for lunch", Dr. Fletcher asked, and I slowly nodded, amazed that someone liked the combination of tea and salad for lunch.
"Pizza - we were hungry for pizza and lemonade" I replied, and pizza was actually what most of us liked pizza, whether it was good or not in combination with soda, was another question.
"The young people like to eat fast food right? Well, I would like to learn a little more about the other personalities today, if that's okay for you Naya" replied Dr. Fletcher smirking and I wondered if we wanted to take this step - too If I regret asking the others for their opinion, because then everything was so loud again, I thought about the options.
"Fast food is easy to eat and delicious - even if some of us are more enthusiastic about a diet and are shopping a lot - green veggie stuff", I replied, smiling slightly.
"M .. must we talk about that Dr. Fletcher? We're not sure if that's a good idea", I said quickly and did not want to talk about it. I was not ashamed of ourselves - but most were suspicious and did not believe us - that we are real. So I looked away from the psychologist , to one of the windows, from there you could certainly see wonderful the street outside.
"It was just a suggestion Naya - we'd like to talk about something else first", Fletcher said sympathetically.
It was not that we did not trust her, but we all always need a little time - no, that was not true - we could hardly trust anyone - everyone judged us, maybe Dr. Fletcher was different, but first I wanted to switch the topic.
"Please - did only work with patients that have DID?" I asked , glad that the psychologist put the block plus pen aside.
"Yes - I specialize in this topic and many of my patients are doing everyday jobs and have permanent jobs", the psychologist said friendly.
"That's good - there are not many like you, Doctor Fletcher - they speak from experience , rather than - as if they were not quoting from one of the many books" I said cautiously, and automatically my gaze slid to the many books that appeared in the book high bookcase of the apartment were recognizable.
"It makes a difference, if you only learn from books or want to do some practice work", Dr. Fetcher replied, seeming touched by my words. If it was only the truth, then you could say that it out loud or not?
"Books are great - you can go on a journey to another world ...do you believe us that we real to you? Most of the doctors and psychologists we've been to - have spoken of it, we only we are ill, that we do not exist - that we are an illusion - but that is not true ... we are there ... we are real Doctor"
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I looked away and thought about how many times, we could hear that something is wrong with us, that we are sick and need to be 'healed'. Our personalities are nothing more than imagination.
But that was not true - we were so real, each one of us was - no imagination or hallucination, no ghost that appeared from time to time. Unfortunately, so many people don´t understood that - and even fewer psychologists wanted to understand that we were different - so different.
That was why I - why we all could not trust anyone - not a single person understand that we were all completely different personalities. Why should Dr. Fletcher be different?
Just because she did not ask us the annoying questions at the first session, or gave us the impression , to send us to the next best psychiatry after the first session?
"Naya - I believe that the different personalities from DID patients are real - I've seen it, it's not fantasy, as many of my colleagues still belive , and most people do not believe it until, they see it with their own eyes", Dr. Fletcher told me and these words were not chosen . as if they were from a textbook - but from years of personal experience.
"That sounds - honest and impressive" I said, smiling briefly.
"If - you want Dr. Fletcher, I can write something down about us" I suggested, finding it easier for me to write something about us, to make a kind of short profiles from all of us.
"I would be very happy, if you were ready to do that Naya" said Dr. Fletcher, and I heard the joy in the older woman's voice. Then the psychologist handed me her pen and some paper. I laid both on the table in front of me and began to write something down.
"Do you know Dr. Fletcher - we're many - and each one of us is unique" I said during the concentrated writing and somewhere it was the other's right - we had just known this woman since a session, and some of us cautiously are understandable somewhere.
After a few minutes, I looked at the result of the written names from the many personalities. Carefully, I handed the psychologist the ist and watched her read the names.
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#Naya Kenson
Number 1
Name: Jason
Gender: Male
Age: 15
Number 2
Name: Fynn
Gender: Male
Age: 29
Number 3
Name: Leslie
Gender: Female
Age: 32
Number 4
Name: Colin
Gender: Male
Age: 24
Number 5
Name: Liana
Gender: Female
Age: 3-4
Number 6
Name: Brandon
Gender: Male
Age: 19
Number 7
Name: Helena
Gender: Female
Age: 18