Panic

My heart beat faster, i hold the phone firmly in my hand and pressing it against my ear - almost as if I was afraid it might break. Maybe I had that voice - even imagined the call and my phone has just given the sinal of a new Whatsapp message again.

"I know exactly, that you can hear me - an answer would be appropriate or? After all, I'm your sister and - the last time we talked to each other - you wanted to get away from home "

I noticed the voice of my sister and I did not want to hear her at the same time - it was years ago that she talked to me. I did not have the slightest need to talk to my sister - what did she want from me? At that time I had a good reason to leave home - mainly because of my sister. We never got along well - it was just very complicated.

"Where are you right now? It sounds like monkeys are screaming around"

No wonder if I'm near a cage- where monkeys are inside. I wanted to answer something - that would get rid of them - I could just hang up and say - my battery is broken - the best solution.

"I ... in the zoo ... what do you want from me?" I managed to shake, feeling my heart beating faster. My sister never called without a reason - which she would use for her own purposes.

"A visit to the zoo - how interesting I wanted to ask how you are - oh and tell you that mum and dad are totally sad that you never come to visit them - oh wait, I do not want to talk nice - they look at you as a freak - just like me - how is life like you freak sister? ", my sister said to me and I looked nervously to the lemurs who now dealt with a ball that was in their outdoor enclosure.

Freak.

A word that describes being different - a word that can be incredibly hurtful. And my sister used it so many times. My parents did not particularly like me because of the disease - they had made it very clear to me. Also a reason why I came to Philadelphia. Why I moved.

"Do you know Naya - maybe I'll drop by - maybe I'll find you - Philadelphia is big- but a freak like you - it'll be easy to find you!"

It sounded like a threat - and I knew my sister would put her threat into action.

"Ashley - p .. Please"

For the first time, I named my sister's name and hope that I could get her away from the idea.

"You still know my name - surprise me - I'll find you Naya!"

The conversation ended on my sister's side - all I could hear was the beeping of the phone - my hand was shaking as I removed it from my ear and the screen of the smartphone was just signaling to me - that conversation was over. The last words of my sister echoed through my head again.

I will find you

...

As in a trance, I put my phone back in my backpack and panic rose up in me - my sister would find me and do the horrible things that they did back when I was still at home.

I felt like my heartbeat got faster and I had to go somewhere - I had to look for a hiding place - I was not allowed to let my sister find me.

Inside Naya there were much trouble- the other 7 personalities sat shocked in their chairs and made no sound at first. No one would have expected Ashley - Naya's younger sister to call - she was the devil in person and they were all glad - never to have heard of Ashley after leaving home.

"Oh no - Naya - I know you can hear us - you're going to sit on a bench and breathe in deeply - there's no need to panic - we're here, we will not let Ashley hurt you" said Leslie reassuringly and the maternal personality wanted to try the noticeable panic caused by the phone call. Leslie wanted to try the reassuring words - that Naya would not come up with a dangerous idea now.

"I have to - hide from her Leslie - she will hurt me again", I whispered and found myself after a few minutes, without stopping at the outer enclosure of the gorillas again. Thoughtfully I looked at the secure border - if I would lean in there - I would not happen - right? But I had to flee Ashley - I had to - find a place where I was safe from her.

Tears came to my eyes and I was taken by the panic which became more and more intense.

Slowly I let slip down the border and felt hot tears running down my cheeks. What should I do?

"Fuck - Naya don´t do any shit and please don´t come to the idea to jump in any of the open cages from the animals - enough even if these children do that sometimes, because the parents are not careful enough to look what they are doing..." said Helena now and Leslie words had obviously a negative effect achieved.

"She still wants to think about that Helena? Not that Naya really jumps into an outdoor enclosure," Jason objected, and the distributor of light did not want to take any chances.

"Can you stop talking about dangers? Well, Leslie's suggestion did not arrive well at Naya - but we know that - the panic is not allowed to take Naya completely now," Colin said worriedly.

"Don´t have any panic - she's crying now - well done," Brandon growled.

"Naya - if you can hear me blink once," Helena said and the teenager ignored the annoyed sigh of the others.

Of course, that did not work either and somebody of you sh, ould have been able to get up and just pull Naya out of the light - but it turned out to end differently ...

...

I got up and looked around - there were few visitors here and if I jumped back from the wall

I would never have to see my sister again - I did not care, what the others said to me was. My thoughts circled around - how could I escape from Ashley - but people would probably stop me.

A panicky sob escaped me and I heard someone approach me - with glazed eyes I looked up - the woman asked me if everything was alright.

"I ... I ...", more than a panic stammering I could not do, as even a few new tears flowed down my cheeks.

"Naya - oh my god, what happened?"

Barry suddenly came towards me - I recognized him by the gentle, blue sparkling eyes and the voice of the fashion lover - he stepped next to the woman and explained that I was a good friend and he would take care of me now. When the woman left, Barry was sitting in front of me and his entire facial expressions was worried.

"Come on - I'll bring you to our home - you look very scared Sweetie", Barry held out his hand and it took me a few seconds to realize the offer, slowly nodded and accepted the hand held and got up.

The panic had been tempered a little - by Barry's presence-but could i trust him?