Meredith

"Addison…" I slurred out, "I'm so sorry for the stupid slutty prom sex. I know you probably still hate me for that. I'm sorry."

"Me too," she laughs obviously drunk out of her mind, "I was starting to actually like you, well, I've always liked you… and I don't hate you… I just, I… what was I saying?"

"You like me," I beam like a child moving closer to her.

"Right," she says proudly, "I like you. You are what I like."

"I like you too," I say hugging her then picking up the bottle in front of us, "More Tequila?"

Shaking the memory from my head, I realize now that I actually took advantage of Addison that night. Earlier that day at the wedding, I was struggling with denying the fact that I was attracted to her… I should've known to avoid alcohol because it only makes things worse… I got drunk, got Addison drunk and jumped at the fact that she liked me. A part of me knew it was only as a friend but a part of me was hoping that it was more… that part of me made it into more. I made the first move. I put the lime in my mouth and made her take it from me causing our lips to touch… then I kissed her. I took advantage… I knew she didn't like me like that but I just ran with it and now, now things are even more awkward between us than before. I screwed everything up like always.

I get up from my bed realizing that the house is surprisingly quiet. My kids are usually up destroying the house by now. Walking into Bailey's nearly empty room, I'm reminded that Addison and her kids left for L.A. earlier this morning. Jake's funeral is this weekend and she went to help her step-daughter plan the funeral. Callie and Sofia went with them but I'm more concerned about Amelia. When she finds out that Addison's husband died it's not going to be good… From the stories I heard about L.A. from her, she and Jake were really close. I still can't believe Addison hasn't told her yet. She's going to come home from her honeymoon to some horrible news.

My thoughts are interrupted by the sound of Bailey turning over in his bed. He lets out a long groan as one of his arms flops over the side of the bed. My little man is so not a morning person but he's been trying to keep up with Henry, Zola and Sofia every day which meant hopping out of bed at six a.m. playing. They really have to break that habit. I step out of the room quietly closing the door behind me careful not to wake him. I'm going to let him get his sleep in today. It's only eight-thirty. I turn around running into my Zola-bear, literally.

She smiles up at me reaching for me to pick her up. I gladly comply. With a smile, I say, "Good morning, sleepyhead. What are you doing up so early?"

"I miss Henry. We were going to play Rescue Princess today," she pouts laying her head down onto my chest.

I rub her back in soothing circles, "I'm sorry sweetie, Henry went out of town. I'm sure they'll be back soon. Then you can play all the Rescue Princesses that you want."

"But if Mommy isn't here… who's going to make breakfast?" she asks me.

I laugh to myself… They really have to stop with this whole Mama and Mommy thing. It was a cute idea… I get it. Sofia has two moms and no dad so they wanted two moms since they had no dad and decided it would be easier to just share us. Maybe our kids have gotten a little too comfortable around each other… I mean, if Addison was even considering dating me, I'm sure now the kids have her running towards the hills. I try not to think about it. We probably just aren't meant to be.

"Just so you know, Zola, I can cook," I say with a smirk as we head downstairs.

She shrugs, "Yeah but I like it better when Mommy cooks breakfast. You're really good at lunch and dinner though."

"Really? Okay, just for that, I'm giving you dinner for breakfast!" I joke and she laughs. I continue on, "Yup, I'm going to cook chicken and mashed potatoes and green beans…"

"Noooo," she giggles out.

I sit her down on the counter, "No? But I thought that's what you wanted!"

"No, Mama, you're really good at making pancakes! I like them crunchy," she jokes covering her face as she laughs.

I give her a 'fake' evil look, "Oh? You're trying to be funny? Okay, just for that I'm making dinner along with burnt pancakes for you. How about I put potatoes on top instead of chocolate chips?"

"Nooooo," she giggles as I pull out the ingredients for pancakes, "I was just kidding, Mama. I love your breakfast."

"Uhn hun," I say with a smirk as I grab the grits out of the cabinet and eggs out of the fridge, "so I'm assuming you're going to help me cook so I won't make the pancakes too crunchy."

"Yeah," she says as she just throws her head back in laughter… Okay, so maybe I'm not the best cook and it's sad that my six year old knows it.

By the time we're finished cooking, there's flour all over the kitchen but at least the pancakes aren't that burnt… Some of them still are brown rather than blackened. Maggie comes downstairs with Ellis on her hip and Bailey at her heels. She yawns but stops suddenly when she sees the mess in the kitchen then she looks to Ellis shaking her head.

"You see? This is why we don't let your mama cook anything. She's always making messes," Maggie says to Ellis which sends Zola into another fit of giggles.

I playfully slap Maggie on the shoulder, "You don't have to say that in front of the kids. Zola already thinks I'm incapable of making breakfast."

"Well…" Maggie hints towards me before I cut her off.

I smirk at her shaking my head, "Oh, shush up."

"I'm just saying," she says putting Ellis down into her highchair while Bailey joins Zola at the table.

We eat in a comfortable silence until both Maggie's and my pager goes off. Maggie gets to hers first. She picks it up before looking back up at me, "It's a 911 page. ER."

"Alright, kids," I say standing up from the counter, "You know the drill."

"Come on, Bailey," Zola say grabbing her brother's hand as she stands up from their table, "Let's go get dressed."

I grab Ellis and I follow the little ones up the stairs. We all go our separate ways into our rooms, quickly changing into our clothes for the day and I brush my and Ellis' teeth before getting her dressed. By the time, Maggie and I are coming out of the room, Bailey and Zola are already waiting at the door for us.

"You guys are slow," Bailey says as we all head out the door together.

Maggie just smiles and I shake my head, "Did you guys brush your teeth?"

"Yup," they both nod their heads as they hop into the car. I strap Ellis in then I hop into the passenger side. Once the kids are both buckled in, we head off towards the hospital.

To outsiders, Maggie, the kids and I probably look like a lesbian family… It doesn't help that my style of dress resembles that of a teenage boy's. I wonder how I look standing next to Addison… She's all put together and poised. Plus, she stands three inches taller than me. I'll probably have to step up the way I dress. I don't know about dresses though. I'm pretty sure I couldn't just wear a dress casually.

Walking into the hospital, I can already sense the chaos before getting through the doors. Luckily, we run into one of my interns. I waved him over, "What's going on?"

"Train crashed" he replies.

I see Maggie get pulled away before a voice calls out to me, "Dr. Grey, we have a 32 year old female with a slight concussion and impalement injuries "

"Get my kids to daycare please," I half-ask half-demand as I hand Ellis over to him along with her diaper bag. I ruffle Zola and Bailey's hair before kissing them quick on the forehead and running off in the direction of the voice.

When I get into the trauma room, Dr. Riggs already seems to have the situation under control. Other than the fact that there's a pole going through her arm, she's seems as though she'll be okay. I get in where I fit in and I start with my initial check up.

"She's going to need surgery. Someone book an OR and someone page Neuro," I say when I'm finished. The woman is going in and out of consciousness. They probably should've paged Neuro first.

I see interns and nurses scramble around the room before one of them looks over and shouts, "OR 2 is ready for us."

"Alright everyone, you heard 'em," Riggs says as they get the woman prepped and we head out towards the OR. He stops and waits for me to catch up before bumping into my shoulder, "So, who's that hot red-head you took to Owen's wedding?"

"I didn't take her to the wedding," I roll my eyes. I knew that no matter how many times I told myself that no one saw us, someone did and someone would say something. That someone: Riggs.

He smirks, "Oh? You didn't?"

"She's just a good friend of mine," I shrug.

He chuckles, "Yeah… a really good friend. So are you two exclusive or…?"

"Knock it off, Riggs," I say rolling my eyes again as we come to a stop in front of the elevator. It dings open a second later and we all fall in. Those who couldn't fit opted to take the stairs.

Nathan turns around to me and smirks opening his mouth to say something but I cut him off before he even gets a chance to speak, "Don't."

"But you do―"

"Yeah, I do know what you're going to say. Cut it out. Why can't two people go out and have a good time without everyone all up in their business?" I roll my eyes.

He laughs to himself, "Fine, fine. I'll back off… just wanted to know her name."

"Addison Montgomery," I say quietly as the elevator opens up and lets us out onto the OR floor.

Nathan stops suddenly, "Wait, the Addison Montgomery?"

I roll my eyes ignoring him as we continue down the hall and into the scrub room as the team gets the OR set up. I don't say anything else to Dr. Riggs until we're in the OR and that's only to talk about our course of action.

Ready to start, I hold out my hand, "Ten-blade."

In the Attendings' lounge after the surgery, it seems as though all the commotion of the train crash earlier has calmed down some. No one else has paged me at least… I'm not on-call so after I've changed back into my street clothes, I head out to the daycare to pick up my kids. On the way out the door, I literally run into Arizona.

She smiles up bubbly at me, "Oh, hey Dr. Grey."

"Hey," I smile back. I want to hate her, I do. The whole custody battle thing left Callie in pieces but I don't know. Arizona was civil. Callie tried to make Arizona out to be a monster… Maybe if Callie would've gone about it in a respectful way, she would've actually won.

All she does is smirk and I know where she's going with this, "So, you and Addison really hit it off at Owen and Amelia's wedding… I didn't know you were into girls."

"I'm not… I mean, there was this one time in college but that was college," I shrug.

She gives me side-eye, "I don't know, Mer, you two seemed really into each other."

"We were drunk plus Addison Montgomery? She's so not gay," I sigh.

Arizona shakes her head, "I beg to differ. I mean, I haven't slept with her or anything but I do know that she has impeccable gaydar and the only people with really good gaydar are gays."

"Robbins…" I try to look serious but I can feel a slight smile creep onto my lips.

Arizona smiles bouncing up and down while clapping, "See, I knew you were into her. I saw you guys leave the reception together… Where'd you go?"

"We, um…" I trail off.

"Okay, you two, break it up," Maggie says standing over us at the bar. I didn't even see her walk over here, "There are other people than you two here and they're watching."

"I don't care. Let them watch," I say shrugging her off.

She sighs, "Mer…"

"Fine, come on Addison," I say grabbing her hand and we make our way out of the reception area.

Addison turns to me giggling as we step onto the elevator, "Where are we going?"

"Upstairs," I say as we somehow get off on the right floor.

We walk down the hall to the lobby and she giggles, "Oooooh."

"You're so friggin' cute when you giggle," I say to her as we approach the man at the counter.

She blushes then takes my face gently into her hands as she kisses me. I almost get lost in it but I remember that I had a goal. I pull apart turning around towards the check-in counter.

"We, uh," I look at her giggling as I latch onto her side, "we need a room."

"How many nights?" the man at the counter looks over us and forces a smile.

I look to Addison and she just shrugs so I turn back to him, "Just one."

"Okay," he says typing up some things as my hand slowly makes its way up Addison's dress.

She moans then she gasps before looking over at the man behind the counter, "Hurry."

"Sorry, ma'am," he starts typing faster and then finally stands up, "How'd you like to pay for the room?"

"Here," I handed him my card with my free hand as my other moves down, grazing her stomach, down to her pantyline.

She tries hard not to moan and whispered into my ear, "Meredith…"

"Here you go," the man hands me back my card and the hotel key, "Room 304."

"Thanks," I say taking my hand out of her dress as Addison pulls me down the hallway.

We stumble into the elevators and the moment the door closes, we're back at each other's mouths. We don't pull away from each other when the doors open again nor do we as we stumble down the hall to our room. I slammed her against the door as I try to get the key into the lock. It opens up and we both fall onto the floor still not moving our lips from each other.

Arizona shakes her head, "Mer… So I'm just going to go out on a ladder here and say that you slept together."

"Arizona…" I sigh.

She smiles brightly, "I was right! Wow. So was it good? What did Addison say? Does she like you too?"

"She doesn't remember any of it… Plus, I don't think I should be trying to pursue her anyway," I shrug.

Arizona pouts, "Oh, yeah… I keep forgetting that Callie and Sofia didn't just go to L.A. for fun. Addison's husband died…"

"Yeah and I've probably gone and screwed things up more for her by sleeping with her," I sigh.

She shakes her head, "It takes two, Meredith."

"No, you don't understand… I got her drunk and took advantage. I've been having these weird feelings since she came back to Seattle. I was trying to drown them in Tequila but Tequila me just wanted to sleep with her even more. I got her drunk and jumped at the fact that she said she liked me even though I knew it was just as a friend. I'm a terrible person, Arizona," I say making my way back to the couch.

Arizona just looks at me stunned, "Wow, um, well…"

"Yeah, you see my problem now? And I know I've probably just made things even more confusing and complicated for her right now. I'm sure I lost my chance at even trying to have an actual relationship with her… that is if I wanted to," I finish by running my fingers through my hair; nervous habit.

Arizona sits down next to me and after a short pause she speaks up again, "Have you talked to Callie about this?"

"No," I sigh.

Arizona puts her hand on my leg trying to comfort me, "It's okay, Meredith. Everything will be fine. You should probably talk to Callie about this though… She's Addison's friend. I'm sure they've talked about it, and who knows? She could actually like you too."

"Just… not now, Arizona. The kids have already made it weird… Henry, Zola and Bailey came up with this bright idea to call me, Mama and Addison, Mommy. You wanna know why?" I ask looking up to her.

She chuckles to herself, "Why?"

"In Zola's words: 'Sofia has two moms and no dad. We don't have dads either but we only had one mom and we wanted to have two moms too. Is that so wrong?' Oh, and don't forget the sass… she crossed her arms and everything," I chuckled.

Arizona's laughing too, "I had a feeling this had something to do with Sofia."

"I'm screwed…" I trail off resting my head in my hands.

She just chuckles shaking her head, "It's probably not even as bad as you think."

"Yeah, hopefully… Anyway, I was headed to pick up my kids from daycare… I'm not really here. I was just called in for a patient," I shrug.

She nods, "Go, be with your family. I'm working a double shift… an old patient of mine came in and I want him to get the best of care."

I simply nod as I get up from the couch, "I guess I'll see you tomorrow then?"

"Yeah, I'll be here," she smiles.

I smile back and I head out the door. Before grabbing the kids, I decided to head up to Maggie's office to see if she's done for the day or if we need to come up with some sort of plan. When I reach her office it's empty. I head even further up to the OR wing but I don't see her name on the board. She's probably down in the ER, I assume as for that is where I'm headed.

It's just when I don't find her there I give up on looking. Instead, I send her a text as I head downstairs to the daycare where I find Zola up playing with dolls while Bailey and Ellis are both asleep. Maggie texts me back saying that she'll be home late so I continue to head out.

"Are you ready to head home, baby girl?" I ask scooping her into a big hug when I pick her up off the floor.

She nods then sleepily wipes her eyes, "Is Henry gonna be back?"

"Not yet…" I say shaking my head, "They'll be back in a couple of days."

"That's way too long," she said as I put her down on the floor.

I wake up Bailey before picking up Ellis and I wave to the nurse watching them before turning back to Zola, "I'm sorry, sweetheart. They'll be back soon."

We walk out of the hospital and out to the car in silence. The only reason for this is because they're tired. It's proven when they all fall asleep during the car-ride on the way home. When I pull into the driveway, I see Amelia's car parked out front.

"Oh crap," I say to myself. I wasn't prepared for this at all. I was hoping she'd be on her honeymoon until after the funeral was over but with my luck, she comes home while Addison is away and I'm the only one left here to explain.

I slowly wake the kids; really I'm just contemplating going inside. I knew how this will play out. We will walk in. Amelia will get all excited about seeing us and tell me all about Bali. She'll ask about Addison then I'd have to explain that Jake died. Amelia would probably be upset that I knew and she didn't, then probably like storm off to L.A. I'm really not prepared for this.

I get out the car anyway. After getting the kids out, I let us into the house. Amelia's standing there smiling in the living room as she runs up picking up the kids and hugging them.

"Auntie missed her babies so much. Oh, Meredith, Indonesia was amazing! I can't wait to tell you all about it. I should probably wait until Maggie and Addison get here though so I don't have to tell the stories a billion times. Where are they anyway?" she says walking away with Ellis in her hands and the other to littlies on her trail.

I take off my shoes by the door then I follow, "Well, Maggie is at work and well, Addison, she and the kids… um…"