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Rated M: Sexual Themes
Chapter Four
How to be honest when honesty allows it?
She smelled divine. She looked ravishing. She forever taunts me.
Kaname twirled her another time under the stars, her red dress flowing behind her like rich free flowing blood—meant solely for his indulgence. Yuuki was truly mesmerizing. Maybe it was the full moon, or the stars twinkle in her brown eyes, or the strawberry breeze followed by her freshly washed hair. What exactly? He wasn't quite sure. But she was without a doubt intoxicating. And he was drowning in all that red, brown, and indigo.
"Kaname-sama? Are you ok?"
He cast his gaze to her, hooded and lusty. He drew her in from the turn where he returned his hands to her humble hips.
"Happy birthday Yuuki." He whispered through the night's embrace.
"You really didn't have to do all this Kaname-sama! I would have been content with the dinner Headmaster probably planned and Zero insulting me about not looking 18." She giggled at the last part; at the mention of his name. Oh how he was starting to loathe such said man.
"Wherever is Kiryu on such a fine night, Yuuki?
"hmmm, I really have no idea. Maybe in the stables, it's quite a beautiful night."
"Indeed it is…" He mumbled back, gripping her slightly tighter—reluctant for her to refuse his love, and his touch, and his stoic heart. He wanted to ask, no, he needed to ask. No longer would he continue feigning indifference. It was too painful, even for him—a pureblood.
He cupped her face in his hands and he gazed long and hard into her eyes. He roamed her face, devouring her lips with his sight. Just a taste…
He licked his lips, and she gasped lightly at the sight of his fangs…and remembered a pair quite dear to her.
"Yuuki…" He mumbled weakly in her ear as he rubbed his cheek against her's. His lips lingered near her ear and she shivered at the sparks that ignited from his warm breath.
"…please tell me. What is Kiryu to you?"
She felt her mouth go dry. Ever since she did that with Zero, she'd avoided Kaname in fear of his questions, his knowing eyes, and his saddened aura. She'd apologized but she knew a few words didn't mean much for this type of…
"…sin?" He added. She froze from dancing. Had he read my mind? He can't do that…What…?
"W-what?" She stuttered, trying not to betray her sudden fear. His eyes never wavered, and she knew he knew everything. But still, she would protect Zero from Kaname. If Zero wouldn't defend their nightly acts, then she would.
"You used to tell me everything Yuuki, once upon a time. Why won't you tell me anything?" He breathed. Her chest hurt from holding her breath. She wasn't even sure why she was, but she felt so strongly that she needed to. Something about being in the presence of this man made her breath hitch, and her legs weak, and her head spin. It was surreal.
"I…"
He rested his forehead against her's as his hands rested against the small of her back. He didn't want to press her too much against his body. The torture was too great—and the fear. He would not lose her over this traitorous vessel and this sexual anxiety. She squirmed in his arms and he suppressed an earthy groan. He could almost feel her name bubbling forth from his lips. If only she knew. If only she knew what she does to him—and how she hurt him when she did that with him.
"You hate me so much you want to force me into saying it out loud." She whimpered, her voice cracking from the sorrow in her heart. She had the right! It was her body, to use and do as she choose. Who was he?...
And why did it mean so much to her that she hurt him…
He didn't wait for the tears to stream or for his heart to crack at the sight of it. He would wait no longer.
He brought his lips softly to hers, pulling her ever closer to his body. It was time. Now she must know. Now she must choose. She must accept…him.
He couldn't help the moan that left his mouth when she kissed him back. He'd waited too long, dreamt too hard not to relish the moment—bittersweet and all. He let his hands linger up to tease her tresses and when she sucked lightly on his bottom lip his control slipped and he pulled lightly at a few strands.
"Kaname!"
She gasped out his name in utter surprise and trembling desire. Who knew he could do this to her? His tongue flicked across her bottom lip and she gave him access to enter. Suddenly she was pressed against all of him. Her gentle mews and breathless gasps turned him on and drove him insane.
He wrapped his arms around her securely before he let himself fall back into the grass, her body molding perfectly into his as she lay sweetly atop him. Her legs straddled each side of his hips as she pushed forward to have more of his lips. He broke contact when he trust his head back, the friction deliciously arousing as he struggled to breathe. He moaned out her name through strangled breathes as she watched him. He eyed her wanting gaze and those plump pink lips he'd abused. When he'd settled down a little he finally asked,
"Do you love him?"
The wind blew their hair frantically and he brought a loving hand up to brush a few strands away. If he ever held his breath, he was now. But he wouldn't show her the pain of a 'yes'. Decidedly, he loved her too much to be outwardly jealous. He would accept that she'd grown to love Zero…and hope that she'd give him the chance to prove that he loved her—as easy as it sounded.
"I do" She nodded firmly. Her eyes dazed from a memory he was sure he knew all about. His whole body throbbed under her. He felt his hands tremble a bit as he brought her head to his chest.
"What do you hear, Yuuki?"
She paused. She could hear the distant crickets, the trees rustle, the trickle of a nearby stream…but not what she wanted to hear.
"Nothing" She whispered back. A tear fell down her face; she knew where this was going. The heartfelt plea for her love and affection…just like the one she got from Zero. In an essence, they were the same men with their unbinding love. She didn't quite know what to make of them.
"Nothing…because I'm nothing without you, Yuuki"
He brought her face to his and let her lips linger over his. He would be honest. Why was it so painful to be honest when honesty allows it?
"Yuuki, do you know what you do to me?"
She blinked those chocolate orbs he couldn't refuse a thing in the world to. Good god he wanted nothing more in the world but for her to be his. But she must choose, not him.
"No…" She whispered against his lips, her body begging her to indulge like it never had before. The smell of him was intoxicating; the feel of him pressed perfectly against her sex was enriching. Just the sight of him was simply….beautiful. Kaname was beautiful—that she always knew. Deep down, she knew she wanted him.
"What do you want from me?" She sighed, averting her eyes away from his love.
"Yuuki, all I want is you." He mumbled, pain searing at the sight of her rejecting him for that man.
"Zero…Zero needs me" She mumbled back, watching the stars with newfound interest. She loved them both, she couldn't lie. She craved both of them, and she recognized the wrong in it. But the thought of regret…
"…is just so exhausting…isn't it Yuuki?" He whispered as he rested his hands on her bum and rested his head in the bed of grass to watch the stars with her.
"The sight of you, reminds me of how lonely I am. How much I regret not proving I love you so long ago. I thought I had, no, I wanted to believe I had. But I knew I hadn't. My heart beats, but it's so empty without you. Yuuki…Yuuki there is so much I want to tell you; about yourself and what life had and has to offer. What you truly are, body and soul…But I can't. I haven't the heart to for the longest time. And I'm sorry for that.
I don't know what I'm afraid of. I promised you I would never change, I would never be the vampire you so fear: demanding, unforgiving…empty. But this is how I am. I do believe that you are meant for me. I feel it so strongly here, in this thing humans call a heart, with this little thing humans call emotions. I wish I could do away with them, but you do this to me—the impossible. And I love you so, so much for it. And I fear this love, which nearly my entire race knows nothing about. You taught me that.
I know you love him, Kiryu Zero. And if you chose him, I'll leave you be to this life. I-I… I felt the consuming need to show you that you are mine. But it is wrong of me. When I discovered that Zero…Zero made love to you, I was so hurt, so so pained. I wanted to force you to see that I'm so much better for you. But I can't do that. Now I know, with you finally here in my arms. I want nothing in the world but for you to be mine, to taste and hold and touch you for eons to come. Because my love for you has no time-frame, it has no end, but it sure did have a beautiful beginning. And as long as you live, it will always live with you, Yuuki…"
And then she felt a lightness, like the wind had blended its existence with her's. It was heavenly and she felt her eyes close. And when she opened them, after the breeze was gone, and the experience finished its enchantment…he was gone.
"Kaname? Kaname! Kaname!" She called out his name repeatedly as she ran across the meadow. The tall weeds brushed against her exposed legs as she lifted her heavy dress to help her run, but she didn't care. The tears streamed relentlessly down her face, whipping past as she whipped through the meadow. But she didn't care. She stumbled and fell and lost her glass slipper…but it didn't matter.
She'd never known what quite mattered in her life. But now she thought she knew. Maybe, tonight she was sure. So she ran and ran and ran. Her heart hurt. It truly hurt and she cried out as she ran into something warm.
"Yuuki? Where the hell have you been? I've been looking all over for you. And what the hell are you doing out here?"
Zero asked as he wrapped her up in his arms, carrying her bridal style to the Sun dorms. She cried into his chest, and he smoothed out her hair as he looked around the meadow, trying to figure out why she'd be out here, in these clothes.
"Yuuki, please tell me what's wrong?" He begged as she lay atop him on his bed. She'd refused to stop crying since he'd reached his room.
"Party…gifts…he…dance…confessed…gone…" She babbled as he wiped her face with some tissues. Zero sighed.
"Ok, ok. Don't stress yourself. We'll figure it out in the morning."
And he gently lifted her up to unbutton her dress, and unravel her elaborately wrapped and bejeweled hair. He placed all her jewelry and her one slipper on his dresser stand before he wet a cloth and wiped her face. And when she'd drifted asleep during his work he laid her back gently on the bed and tucked her in. And when he was sure she was fast asleep he hid his gifts, turned off the light and made way to find a certain someone; the only other person who could elicit such emotions out of her. He had quite a bit to say to him…that bastard—Kaname Kuran.
And with that said, Kuran watched from a nearby tree.
"I guess tonight wasn't the night" He mumbled into the night sky as he made his way back to his rooms, with a wounded heart.
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