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Rated M: Sexual Themes

Chapter Twelve

"And suddenly, she found herself swimming in the darkest parts of the waters…"

His lips were suddenly everywhere. When his lips reached hers she kissed him back, reluctantly. His hands exploded across her body, groping her here and there, as if he couldn't believe he had her in the flesh. She felt him trembling above her and she knew she had broken his heart. And then the sobs came. They made him shudder violently and she tried to escape, unsuccessfully, from his grasp to look at his face. His hand smoothed over her soft cheeks and their eyes meet once again. His pain radiated from his body and struck her to the core. He kissed her gently once, then twice. He mumbled into her vanilla scent with remorse and he too confessed aloud,

"I love you Yuuki"

How did things end up like this? I love him, I know I do. How can I possibly love them both?

"I know Zero…I think I've always known" She whispers into his hair. His tongue swirls delicious patterns over her skin sending sparks through her body. She could barely think straight with him above her, so emotional and vulnerable. What have I done? Zero's never like this…like has he ever cried?

"He knew this would happen."

He speaks in short breathes as he slowly drew the t-shirt over her naked torso. She squealed when he violently attacked her posy pink buds, licking and sucking not-so-gently on her flat chest.

"What are you talking about?" She questioned through her moans. Briefly, she questioned why they were doing what they are doing. But the pleasure was too great and it consumed her doubt like wildfire.

"He told me last night" He said through his moans as her tentative fingers ran down his back and groped his ass.

"YESSS" He hissed before he suckled that beautiful junction where her neck met her chin, marking her for the last time as his own.

"That bastard said that you would realize that you wanted him more." He growled when her fingers snaked through his hair sending the blood rushing to his growing manhood. He was a panting mess above her and she wondered how she could possibly make him react this way. She wasn't super sexy; she didn't consider her body to be mature or voluptuous, and yet Zero practically melted above her as if she were some sort of sex goddess. She blushed profusely at that thought and it didn't go unnoticed.

"Yuuki…we can stop if you don't want to do this." Zero whimpered as he struggled to take deep breathes. Her little hands were still moving cautiously across his body, exploring him with a curiosity that made his dick twitch. Her mind was fuzzy with ecstasy and she felt as if her hands were no longer following her direction because they confidently wrapped around his sizable erection and gave him a tight squeeze.

"Fuuuuuck,"

Zero groaned as his hips involuntarily bucked into her hands, his eyes rolling into the back of his head. He slumped down into her body, expertly flipping their positions so that she rested perfectly on his chest. His larger hands wrapped over hers as he showed her how to properly pump his girth.

"Just like this Zero?" She asked shyly as she ran her thumb over his tip.

His eyes were squeezed shut and his hand left hers to grip the sheets.

"Faster,"

He moaned and she yelped in surprise when his hips rose to help her set a pace. Obediently, she stroked him faster and she determined she quite liked the feel of his soft flesh in her hands.

Suddenly his head thrashed back and forth and his body arched and he cried out,

"I can't take it anymore!"

She may be young but she wasn't naïve and she knew Zero was nearing his limit. She tightened her grip and quickened her pace until warm wet liquid spewed up at her face and all into her hair.

The door burst open and they glanced up in horror as Headmaster Kaien entered the room.

Yuuki gasped deeply, struggling to inhale enough oxygen to appease her burning lungs as her body violently forced her out of her dreams. She could still feel the aftermath of his touch lingering on her skin. The deep rumbles of his lustrous moans rang continuously in her ears. Everywhere he touched, consumed her with fire...all the way to the depths of her most private subconscious...

'I love you Yuuki'

His gentle confession stirred a feeling of guilt and desire so adamant in her heart she could just feel her resolve wilting away. Zero's love had never been easy. Kaname's intentions had not always felt right...but she wasn't looking for a fairytale; she wasn't looking for a knight in shining armor. In fact, she wasn't sure what she was looking for at that point anymore. She couldn't determine what exactly it was that her heart wanted anymore. She definitely wasn't sad; she was numb...and numb, she knew, was somehow worse. She had found herself a villain in the story that she had written. It was plain to see that sometimes, even the best intentions are in need of redemption...

"Zero!" Her arms flailed in the air as she attempted to reach out and grab him. Kaname rolled over to pin her thrashing body down. She fought his touch aggressively as she struggled to rise from the bed.

"No! Let me go...Zero!"

"Yuuki! Yuuki it's me," He spoke urgently as he pushed all his weight against her body for the second time within the last 48 hours and brushed her damp hair out of her face. He peppered her hot, sweaty face with reassuring kisses as he whispered soothingly in her ear.

"It was only a dream. You're ok. I'm here. It's only me and you ok?" She stared up at him blankly before she nodded her head in understanding.

"Did you have a nightmare?" He waited patiently as she paused, her vermilion eyes passionate with emotions that he couldn't quite read.

"No Onii-sama. I'm sorry I woke you...I'm fine" She stressed hoarsely as she attempted to push him off of her body. He seemed reluctant but he obediently rolled off of her and settled back into his side of the bed. He wanted to tell her that she was not fine. He wanted to beg her to confide in him, to lean on him and trust him with all that her heart held dear...but he held his tongue.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked. No matter how happy he was to have her back at his side, he knew she still harbored strong feelings for the hunter. He was determined to assist her the best way he possibly could through this transition. Finding out that she was now a vampire was not just a surprise for Zero, but for her as well. In a matter of hours her whole world was turned upside down and the old her was slowly being eaten away by the woman she was bound to become.

She felt a sharp pain radiate through her body. She hated how foreign her body felt to her now, as if it never belonged to her. As if she never actually knew herself. She attempted to hide her pain from him as she rolled over to hide her face into her pillow, her fingers clenching into the sheets as she endured another wave of painful contractions. She felt a gentle hand run up her arm to rest on her shoulder. Suddenly her body was enveloped in warmth as Kaname spooned her, wrapping his arms protectively around her frame as best he could in their position. He molded the entirety of his body into her back, entwining his legs within her and she let him. Carefully, he pushed some of her long locks off her shoulder, as he whispered solemnly in her ear.

"You're in pain."

She didn't grasp the true meaning of his words. What she didn't know was that she was an atrociously real thing in an atrociously fake world, and that is why he believed she was in so much pain. She coped by wearing a thousand different faces, none of them her own.

Yuuki simply closed her eyes, allowing his touch to comfort her in ways she was sure his speech could not.

"Yuuki, I know these past few days have been very taxing on you. I'm so selfish, asking so much from you when in all honestly, you have already given me so much of yourself already. Essentially, I've taken your life away by reviving you to this darkness that embodies our kind. It was never my intention to do this. My very soul burns with betrayal because this is not the path that Juuri wanted for you. And I acknowledge this. Her final wish was for you to be happy, and she tried to make that happen the best way she knew how: by erasing your memories and reverting you into a human. I don't blame you, if you doubt my feelings or intentions for you. I don't blame you, if you feel the way I have handled Kiryu is unjust. And even though all I've ever longed to do was to keep you safe, there are things that I have done that I am not proud of. But I don't regret making those choices because in the end they kept you safe. I wish nothing more than your happiness Yuuki. Words cannot describe how elated I am now that you have chosen me...me...to be by your side. I will not make you regret this decision. Help me...help me be the man that you can be proud to call your lover. Help me understand your love and go the way you want me to go. Tell me everything you want me to know because I want to fix this...I know that somehow, our connection in broken. Tell me what you want... because all I want is you."

She couldn't help but feel emotional at his heartfelt plea for her love and affection. He loved her...he loved her, with all of his being. He was trying...in the best way he knew how. She wiped away her tears with the back of her hand and rolled over. He was taken aback by her sudden movements, his face twisted in surprise as she pressed the entirety of her weight against him, the momentum forcing him onto his back. His arms laid on either side of his head in defeat, his mahogany hair framed against the expanse of their pillows, his vermilion eyes consumed with shock.

"Y-Yuuki?"

"This mess of emotions has me questioning if this feeling that I have for you is alright. You know that I'm not used to this but I want you to teach me. Your mind is asking for my love and you just need to hear it. I try not to wander off too much and let my fear control me. Onii-sama, show me how it's supposed to feel when we meet...Show me how it's supposed to feel to be loved."

She trembled as she spoke, her dainty silk nightgown complemented her small frame and pale skin. She straddled his hips effortlessly, her hands gripped around his wrists, forcing his body further into the sheets. She watched him desperately, searching his face for any form of confirmation.

"Use me Yuuki. Touch me. Move me; take me all the way. Move your body to the tempo...show me what it takes to love you. Take advantage of the moment….you're the only one with the power to change me. You're the only one with the power to arouse me...your beauty makes me desire you. Kiss me...Love me. You've got me here melting like ice on a summer day. I submit to your power, you've brought me to my knees. Hold me like you mean it and love me like you'll never sway. Whisper in my ear I'm the only one that you love and more."

She gasped at the depth of his devotion. The loyalty and the magnificence of his love showered her with love and acceptance through his submissive gaze. Never had she seen him so vulnerable...so pure. He lay there beneath her, powerless to her charm. She leaned into his chest, cupping his chin lovingly in her soft hands as she captured his lips. She gasped again as she felt him shiver beneath her, the thought that such a simple act could arouse him left her feeling unusually weak. She could feel the depth of his passion as he kissed her deeply, his arms slipping from beneath her grasp to clench her hips possessively. His moans vibrated through her mouth as his hands wandered all over her upper body. His fingers groped her flesh greedily as he continued to press her further and further into his frame. She was consumed by his state of bliss as she too accepted the enchanting lull of his embrace and gave into her own desires. She pulled away from his lips breathlessly, gasping desperately for air, her hand blindly tumbling into his long hair for something to anchor her to the world as Kaname continued to explore her body. She moaned when he smothered his face into her neck, panting harshly as he nipped at her skin, sucking tenderly on her sweet tasting flesh. He whimpered as his tongue lapped over her pressure point that throbbed violently right under her chin. She heard the sheets rustle as he slowly sat up, keeping her tight against his body while he littered the side of her face with hungry kisses before brushing her hair off her shoulder with contempt and capturing her ear into his mouth.

"Onii-sama!" She moaned, as she struggled to escape his grasp. The sensations he was giving her were phenomenal...and the pleasure she was feeling truly scared her. She felt his hot tongue trace the grooves of her ear, dipping inside occasionally to moisten its hollow, before pulling away to huff his lewd moans only to continue his torture again.

"Onii-sama!" She cried out more adamantly as she placed her palms against his chest to create more distance.

He pulled away to eye her. She could tell by the state he was in that he was fully aroused. She could sense the tension in his body as he struggled to reign in his self control. His eyes were dazed with such intense lust she quivered before him. He kept his hands firmly on her waist. Her throat burned terribly, and she licked her lips as she scoured his face before attacking his neck with hungry kisses.

"Onii-sama..I-I" Her voice trembled as she lapped along the curve of his neck, her mind begging her to indulge in his rich, red essence.

He hummed softly as he rolled his neck, exposing more of himself to her before guiding her head further into his flesh.

"Please...Yuuki" He begged hoarsely, his hands sliding beneath her nightgown bunched up at her hips to caress her naked flesh. She gave in to her desires and plunged her impatient fangs into his neck. Kaname cried out loudly as she bit him, his body weakly falling back into the accepting expanse of the mattress, holding her securely against his body as she tumbled down with him. His head rocked back from pleasure as his eyes rolled into the back of his head. He could never tire of this experience. The erotic act of her puncturing his neck with her considerably virgin fangs had him helplessly aroused below her.

"Yuuki"

Her name tumbled so lewdly off his tongue that she blushed madly at its implications. She could feel the heat of his erection digging into her thigh as she drank from him. Her thirst was uncontrollable, and she moaned along with him as she pulled at his hair, forcing him to expose more and more of his neck's pale exterior for her indulgence. Everything he felt was adamant in his blood. Images from his memories flashed before her eyes as the scene of Kaname interacting with Zero played before her. Slowly she began to understand everything he kept contained about his feelings for her silver-haired hunter and even her relationship with him. He was panting so loudly beneath her, his hands themselves trembled as he held her up. She could feel him weakening further with each gulp she took until she finally withdrew. He exhaled an extremely content sigh after she had done so, but even still she couldn't help but feel guilty for straining his body like that.

"I drank too much, onii-sama. I'm sorry"

"...You saw, didn't you?" He asked, his eyes shut tight, his body feigning tranquility below her. She nodded her head, as she ran her hand down his face, caressing his cheeks before swiping her thumb over his puncture wounds, removing the remaining blood that had dried on his skin.

"I'm happy you didn't kill him. I've come to accept that I love Zero. It's not the same type of love that I hold for you. With him... it's a motherly, innocent, and protective type of love. Zero is my family onii-sama, just like how you are my family. And if you want me to stay by your side I need you to accept this."

"I can Yuuki...I will. Mold me in the way you wish for me to go. I can't lose you Yuuki...I won't allow it." Her face suddenly flushed red as she shyly averted her gaze from his ruby orbs,

"Speaking of molding onii-sama...by 'you saw it, didn't you', were you maybe talking about the fantasies you have with me?"

Kaname's jaw dropped as he looked away from shock. He had not realized that she had drank so much of his blood to the point where she had tapped into his most raw of desires.

"I-I apologize Yuuki...it was incredibly inappropriate of me to imagine doing such things with you during an act such as feeding. As you know, consuming a lover's blood is a very intimate affair...and I can't help these feelings I have for you. Does the knowledge of my love frighten you?" He asked carefully. She couldn't hold back from giggling as he blushed. It was not often that she got to tease him, or see him so taken aback.

"We don't have to rush anything. We can always explore that chapter of our relationship when we get there." He breathed softly,eyeing her with worry as he brushed a few strands of hair behind her ear.

"I'm happy that you are not treating me as a child onii-sama. Correct me if I'm wrong but earlier you told me you wanted me to use you...to touch you and to love you….to move you. Surely you wouldn't ask a child to do that? Is that what you want me to do o..nii..sa..ma ?" She whispered seductively in his ear, suddenly overcome with a bout of confidence as she laid against his body and lifted the hem of his shirt just enough to fiddle with the band of his pants. The moment the pad of her fingers brushed against his naked skin, he let out a low strangled cry. His hips bucked arbitrarily. One of his hands shot out to grab her, stalling her tortuous movements as he eyed her lustfully.

"Yuuki!...You're playing a dangerous game." He rasped lowly as his thumb caressed the underside of her wrist.

"This isn't a game, Onii-sama. When I stood before the courthouse and told them that I was reclaiming my title as the Vampire Queen, that was not a lie. When I told you that I wanted you to show me how it feels to be loved...to be joined together as one...it was not a lie."

He found it hard to concentrate on her words as she batted his hand away and dipped her hands into his pants, careful not to slip beneath his boxers as she trailed her fingers past his hip bones, southward toward his thighs. He hissed when her fingers strummed his manhood, bloated and animated, before lightly tracing meaningless patterns on his exposed skin.

Kaname momentarily found himself lost in the sensations that ran unrestrained through his body. Her touch electrified his nerves during their course through his body, all the way to his curling toes. Yuuki was doing wonders to his body, providing him with pleasure that had laid dormant in his body for so long. She too was surprised by the tingling that tickled her most private parts before it blossomed outward like fireworks in her blood. She watched his face, full with curiosity, as she continued to explore his body, slowing pulling fabric away to caress here….to touch there...to taste elsewhere. Her eyes glistened with renewed awe as she watched his erection grow and grow. She of course had seen a penis before...and she blushed as she thought back to her brief intimate moments with Zero. Something about the faces Kaname was making as she manipulated his body was entirely different. It was not unadulterated, or innocent, or incongruous. It was fervent, sensual, and consuming.

Finally, when her hands cupped the entirely of his manliness, relishing in the heat that radiated from his sexual core, he jumped up with a shout, rolling her over immediately and pinning her arms above her head.

She looked at his questionably, but said nothing as she made mental notes on how his body responded to certain aspects of her touch. And though her panting was light and airy beneath him, his in contrast, was harsh and violent as he breathed out a frustrated sigh. His hair hung limply over his face and his crimson eyes seemed glued to her neck before he reluctantly pulled away from her and off the bed.

"As much as I have longed for this moment, to claim you as my friend...as my lover... as my wife, I cannot. Yuuki please, don't tempt me further. I know what I said, and I'm not taking those declarations back. But I want you to be sure about this. I will not be your first...but I will be your last. And I don't want you to regret it. When we make love, and we will, it will be to consummate our marriage and our unison as the heirs of the Kuran clan. I may have dishonored your mother Juuri by reestablishing your pureblood status, but I will not dishonor our marriage with my own selfishness. Trust me, when I say I desire you. You are my lovely bride who was created for me. Nothing can surpass the superiority of that statement."

She nodded her head in understanding but frowned as she gazed up at him. She respected his decision, even more so now that she had regained her memories and could actually remember her parents. And he was right. Haruka and Juuri held a deep respect for their future marriage. When she was a little girl, she knew the day would come where she and Kaname would be united as husband and wife. And he never disrespected that fact in any way. Despite that fact that he had fed from Ruka, or even Shizuka, never had he given his body to another. The only other person who had feasted off his sacred blood was her dear friend Zero himself, and he hardly counted within the fine line of cheating. If she had grown up as the pureblood princess she was, she would have been raised in the ways to please a king, to withhold her virtue only for the king-her king, her brother, her lover. But she had grown up in the opposite reality, and had already given her virtue away to another. And she did not regret that decision. What she and Zero shared was special. She recognized that Kaname accepted that fact. But the only way to maintain even a sliver of respect for the virtue that was originally intended for him, they would need to redefine the meaning of her virtue, because it was clear he still considered her as untainted...as pure. She tasted it in his blood. And if this was his way of looking past her betrayal...she would accept it.

"However there are many other ways to please you Yuuki, without actually having sex," His voice hinted to something dangerously seductive as her eyes stayed trained to his face. He lowered himself further down her body, gently pushing her nighty further and further up her body until it bunched beneath her breast. His hands ghosted over her soft belly as he littered her skin with sloppy kisses. She moaned as he ran his hands adoringly up her calves, caressing her thighs before slowly spreading them apart. She was not wearing any panties and she blushed at the thought of her nakedness. He seemed to ignore the fact that his face was so close to her pink treasure, giving ample attention to her thighs, memorizing their dips and curves. Her body trembled as he ran his tongue up her inner thighs, nipping at the skin and bruising it. She wiggled unrestrained under his touch but anytime she attempted to escape, his hands holding her hips in place would grip her with such dominance that she feared his reaction. She did not want to set him off and make him go against his promise, despite how much her core ached for him to fill her.

"Yuuki, you smell so sweet. I wonder if you taste sweet too." He whispered curiously as his fingers grazed her wet curls before slipping a finger inside. She whimpered at the intrusion before she suddenly was re-positioned so that she was closer to his body, his face right between her quivering thighs. Her body shook with anticipation as he pumped her with one hand, while using the other to trace meaningless patterns against her belly.

His name mewed off her lips as his thumb strummed her clit, bringing her closer and closer to the edge. Just when she thought she couldn't take anymore, she felt something insanely hot and wet lap along her seam. She screamed out his name as explosions erupted from her core. It was the most magnificent feeling she had ever experienced so far, and entirely different from the way her body would convulse when Zero would make her orgasm. There was a strength behind it that knocked the wind out of her. Involuntarily, her hands fisted into his hair forcing him further between her legs, her hips rocking unrestrained against the rhythm of his tongue. She could hardly remember to breathe as the incredible sensations erupted through her body once again. She could feel him collecting her pearl between his lips, attacking it feverishly with his tongue. She thought her body would explode if he continued his torture, as he added two more fingers into her wet depths, thrusting them rapidly into her body until she felt unbelievably full of him.

"Ka...n-nammmee!" His name was a butchered cry off her lips as she climaxed once again when she felt his fingers harshly pull at her rosy nipples. Though one of his hands was still preoccupied with her moist heaven, the other had ventured to her breasts, and was adorning them equally with affection. He worshiped her body, completely neglecting his own desires as he built her through her third orgasm. Tears slipped past her closed eyelids as one hand gripped the sheets.

"No more!" She cried out in defeat after he gave her a moments rest.

"Are you trying to kill me? That was so intense…" She panted as her body attempted to come down from her high. Pure lust danced in the ruby color of his eyes as he sat back and admired his work. She was so flushed and beautiful. Littered all over her belly and thighs were deep red bruises that would no doubt purple in hue. Her lips were plump and pink from trying to withhold her moans. Her hair was sprawled all over the bed, framing her body like a renaissance saint. Her legs were spread and her sex was glistening and he moaned as he stroked her brown curls. She blushed profusely as he licked his lips and then delved between her thighs once again to collect the spoils of his ministrations on his tongue. Her honey was so sweet,like his own personal ambrosia and he groaned as he lapped her up. She tried to close her legs and push him away, embarrassed by his lewd actions but he growled lowly before forcing her hips down and wrapping his arms around her legs to keep them apart.

"Onii-sama! N-No M-more!" Sh cried out helplessly in surrender as her body shook violently, possessed with ecstasy.

"I just need to be thorough." He rasped hoarsely against her sex. She felt something sharp scrape her inner thigh, shocking the sensitive nerves already overwhelmed down there.

"Onii-sama-"

She started, but she didn't finish her sentence as he pierced her thigh with his fangs, pressing his face flat against her flesh. She screamed as her eyes rolled into the back of her head. If she had any strength left at that point, all was lost as she slumped weak and defeated further into the soft sheets. Kaname drank from her greedily, the aromatic flavor of her bliss tainted her blood and made it even richer. He could feel the robustness of her orgasm blending in with his own passions and he groaned as it intensified his arousal. When the feeling became too great, on the brink of orgasm, he pulled away groaning erotically as his hands fumbled to find her and guide them to his erection.

"Onii-sama, are you ok?" She whispered as she watched him. His reaction was oddly familiar, and so she wasn't completely caught off guard as her hands were suddenly placed upon his erection.

"Y-yuuki...I'm cumming." He cried out weakly. She took the hint and pushed his boxers down to grip his cock tightly and pump him swiftly. She watched him with slight pride as he went over the edge, his mouth open in a wordless cry as his crimson eyes rolled, exposing nothing but the whites of his eyes as jets of hot semen erupted from his tip. He looked so beautiful, so complete as he helped her pump him faster. She had never seen him look so erotic before. The sounds he made as he climaxed were so contagious that she was surprised when she mimicked them. The sight of him was definitely etched forever in her memory, and when he slumped heavily to the bed, she leaned forward and kissed his glossy tip.

He shouted out a strangled cry and rolled them over.

"Woah there! Mercy" He rasped as he eyed her dangerously. By the dazed look in his eyes she wasn't sure if he could really see her. He rested his head against her soft breasts, as both of their breathing reduced to nothing but an audible hum. She accepted his weight as she lightly stroked his hair.

"That was amazing." She mumbled. He smiled up at her lazily, his face utterly relaxed and his body spent.

"You are amazing." He corrected as he gently caressed her bruises.

She wasn't quite confident that she could define herself as amazing. But she did know that of all she'd ever wanted, since this blood in her body formed and the bones in her body grew, was to know love, and for love to know her too. She was made and remade continually. Different people breathed different energies into her soul.

Zero brought her warmth.

Kaname gave her sunshine.

She would bloom again when the spring shines through.

And soon she found herself made up of rays so bright even the sun couldn't fathom her shine. Her light shined through the darkness and not even the darkness could extinguish it.

Author Note: Review, don't review. You can do whatever you like.