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Rated M: Sexual Themes and Language

Chapter Fifteen

"I've been looking for heaven eternally...I've spent hours loving you."

Zero watched the two embrace, expertly blending within the crowd of vampires who wished they'd witnessed what he'd witnessed. They were just a few moments late. And for them, the union would have been bittersweet, for alas their king had found a queen, even with the little royal upbringing she had. Only for him their union was not sweet — it was purely bitter.

And he was not sure if he'd imagined it, but the Bloody Rose throbbed with a persistence in his shoulder holster underneath his jacket, that he had never experienced before. His hand slowly reached for it, lost in a trance, as he watched the one and only love of his life pledge her allegiance to the devil himself. It radiated a warmth that he could only conclude was its anger with him. Regardless he brought the hot metal to his temple, ignoring his shaky hand. His fingers trembled as they folded onto the trigger. And since the weapon fed off his blood to awaken its own powers, he knew — he knew it recognized who he was, what he was, and what left he had to become. Yuuki couldn't keep her promise...but it seemed Rose could. Everything around him began to fade away, but even with his blurred vision, his heart was set on her. Only her. With his gun cocked, and his will determined, he bowed his head once for his new queen.

The wind blew, and the breeze was perfumed with her sweet happiness and his overwhelming distress. He watched her gasp, before her piercing red eyes glanced his way. She said nothing; But her eyes said all that was every needed to be said. And as much as he longed to look away, and not let her last memory of him be one of a coward, he couldn't. He found he just couldn't.

"Zero! Zero No!" Headmaster Kain shouted as he shoved people out of his way, and flung his body at his begotten son. But Zero had heard him; and with his eyes sharpened fast on the woman he loved and the devil that took her away from him, he pulled the trigger.

"Zero!"

"How is he?" She was out of the bed and at the door by the time he closed it behind him. Out of sheer habit his hand circled her waist, drawing her into his body as he leaned forward to capture her swollen lips — probably due to all the crying she'd done within the last 48 hours; she had a tendency to bite her lips when stressed.

Yuuki hiccupped; looking up at him with earnest red-brown eyes and his eager lips hovered over hers as he hesitated. "I want to see him," She spoke passionately as she sucked up what little oxygen lingered between them. Her small fists dug themselves into his shirt as his grip on her waist tightened.

"Onii-sama?"

Even in her sorrow she was breathtakingly beautiful. He actively resisted the urge to consume her with fervent passion and ultimately soothe all her troubles away. He sighed as he pulled away, granting her a strange, strained look: a mixture of pity and contempt as he shrugged off his layers.

"Zero is in critical condition. He should be thankful to Kaien that he's even alive; at the moment I don't think he's very grateful though. The bullet missed his heart, however it didn't pass through his body so they had to surgically remove it. He lost a lot of blood, even after they removed the bullet...only time will tell if he lives..." Kaname sighed at the far away, heartbroken look in her eyes. He sat down on the bed and patted the space next to him. "I promise you'll get to see him the moment he wakes up."

"He's in a coma?"

"...yes...after he received a much needed blood transfusion he slipped into a coma. I'm sorry Yuuki…" He worded carefully. She wearily plopped onto the bed beside him. He placed his fingers beneath her chin, "Yuuki, look at me. All is not lost. I have the best doctors doing all they can to save him. I know much you care for him — have faith in him…" He lamented softly as he caressed her flushed cheeks. She sighed at his touch, nuzzling herself further into his calming warmth she had missed during most of her youth.

Kaname wasn't quite sure who pursued who, but suddenly gentle kisses transformed into hungrier ones. It was not long before he found himself trembling beneath her, consumed by the fiery passion of her touch. Her hand were everywhere, curious yet brave, as they blindly explored his body. She was leaned over him, and with each passing moment she slowly adjusted herself until she was laying completely atop him. He gasped sharply when the friction from her movements stirred the awakening of his dormant member. In response, his arms wrapped around her torso possessively, trapping her against his incestuous flesh. He was panting harshly beneath her, but she was too blinded with lust to notice. He whined as she dragged those deft fingers through his tresses, pulling strands and sparking wonderful sensations throughout the entirety of his body. He fought the urge to give in to her touch, because he was sure that any more of her kisses and loving caresses would bring him over the edge.

"Y-yuuki" He whined as he gently pushed her until she was straddling his hips. Her pure red eyes flickered to his, then to his lips, then to his exposed neck. He could smell the unique fragrance of her pheromones and the impact they had on his emotions. She was hungry — in more ways than one. He let out a tortured sigh because he needed her — he needed this! Bad.

"The bond we share...it makes everything three times more incredible. Everything you feel, I feel. Its intense, isn't it?" He whispered as he stroked her arms. She nodded her head, but said nothing as she licked her lips. Unexpectedly, she took her thumb and ran it across his bruised lips. His eyes widened and his cock twitched. By the way she squirmed in his lap, he was sure she felt it.

"Why did you stop...do you not want me?" She finally asked, "We're married now; because of our bond, I mean." He nodded,

"Yes...we are." She cocked her head to the left, as she waited for him to elaborate. "I long for you with a strength that not even this vessel can contain, and it threatens to overwhelm me every time I'm near you. I don't think you comprehend how long I've waited for you— the depth of longing and devotion I carry in this weak heart...for you..." He spoke with such restrained passion that she had to look away. His warm fingers curled under her chin to guide her eyes back to him, and she was so possessed by the lust that resided in them that she hardly felt his other hand guide hers to his tented erection.

Oh the moans! The moans that tumbled out his mouth as she obediently fondled his cock. It made her so wet...and she wondered if he was doing this on purpose — coaxing a side of her that was bold enough to be so sexually forward. For some reason, she didn't feel so shy in his presence...and she liked that.

"...I want you…" She gasped, as she experimentally manipulated her hips to rock against him. He groaned as he planted impatient open-mouth kisses up her neck, scraping his fangs against her skin and creating multiple thin, angry red cuts. She felt her body giving into his touch as her hips moved on their own accord, meeting his dry thrusts with unusual precision. Her hands fisted into his clothes as she weakly held on.

"W-what are you waiting for?" She whimpered. It was as if that was his trigger, because his hands, which had been on a wonderful journey exploring her body stopped abruptly and tore away from her heated flesh faster than she could comprehend why. He pulled away from her, and that damn self control she knew him for kicked in. He cleared his throat, though his voice was still an undeniable husky, and his words tumbled off his tongue like freshly spun silk,

" This is a delicate time for you. And with Zero's situation I don't want you to look back on this situation and regret it. I know that in the moment it feels as if these feeling you have are natural...but its your distress and your need for love and comfort that's driving this lust. It's hard to control these impulses or even comprehend them. It also doesn't help that time has not been on your side. Not only have you just transitioned, which is incredibly draining on the body, but you also just endured a blood bond. It may have only felt like a rush of sensations in the moment, but it's far more complex than that. Naturally your body wants to rely on instincts instead of logic to handle these situations…" As he spoke, her eyes slowly began to fade back into their warm brown hue and her scent mellowed — but his didn't. He sighed out of sheer relief that his words had sunk in and she gradually became more of herself. If she had continued her torture for just a few seconds longer, he would no doubt have given in to his demons and made sweet, sweet love to his wife…

...his wife

Finally, he could say it — It made him feel whole every time he thought about it. He reached his hand up and carressed her cheeks as he pushed those tempting thoughts out of his mind.

"Better?" He asked kindly. She blushed, "h-hai"

"Good." He mumbled as he sat up and shifted her so that his demanding erection wasn't awkwardly digging into her postier. Her movements sent lighting fast explosions through his body but he ignored them.

"Onii-sama?" His eyes flickered to hers. "Can you tell me more...about how I'm changing? What do you mean by rely on instincts?" He swallowed thickly at those bambi eyes that searched him: so innocent and trusting.

"Well, your awakening puts your body back into a state of vulnerability. It's like when you were a newborn, relying on your mother's breast milk to nourish you, only this time the only nourishment you need is fresh blood. For a couple of months you will need to feed regularly. With regular feedings of quality blood, the quicker and stronger you will recover. Thankfully, you have me. My pure blood is the best supplement any transitioning vampire could ask for, which is why I'm so adamant about you being vocal when your hungry. Try your best not to resist what you body needs during the next few months, ok Yuuki? I know it's embarrassing to be so needy, but it's natural and noone is going to judge you."

"And what about our bond?" He hesitated as he searched for the right words that wouldn't scare her off or leave her a stuttering mess. "Now in regards to our blood bond, our body's primal reaction is to...umm...mate." He paused as he let her ponder on that statement.

"Well, that would make sense since that's its purpose right?" He nodded, "Right. It is. As you may know, there are not many pureblood vampires. Our race has dwindled over the years and the main side effects of this bond is an intensely active sexual drive which in hope, will produce pureblood offspring. The first few years after the bond are the most potent, and usually do result in childbirth. In fact , that's when your brother, the real Kaname, was born. Usually after the female has given birth to her firstborn those craving subside and her hormones level out, and thus so does her partners…"

"So you mean...I'm gonna be horny until you get me pregnant!" She squealed as her whole face flushed pink. He tried to withhold his laughter at her reaction. Why was she so damn cute in awkward situations? Afraid to speak, he nodded his head.

"So is that why you didn't want to...continue…because you don't want to get me pregnant?" She whispered shyly as she averted her gaze.

"Well, yes, if we ignore the fact that I didn't specify in my promise regarding which 'wedding' I was referring to. As a pureblood, the bond we now share is supreme over a human marriage, so naturally my will urges me to consummate it. Which, has made you even more irresistible for me...But since I haven't spoken to you about that, I figured we should wait; just in case you wanted to do that after our physical wedding. Don't feel pressured to do anything you're not comfortable with Yuuki. I'm not fragile. I've waited decades to have you: body and soul — I can wait a few months." He chuckled as he tucked her hair behind her ears. He was surprised by her silence, and completely caught off guard when her hands trailed down his clothed chest to palm the tent in his pants. He groaned at the glisten in her eyes as she mumbled hotly,

"...and what if it is I who can't wait...onii-sama?"

" I-I don't think this is the wisest course of ac-" he mumbled but was cut short when she pushed on his chest until he fell to the bed. A bout of determination and tenacity in regards to her will overcame her, and she placed her finger on his lips to shush him.

"You said that I shouldn't fight these feelings. So I'm not. And the old me would probably shy away from any consequences...but when I chose to return to this life I meant it. And I don't want you to think that I am running away from you, or that I'm too irresponsible to make a decision like this on my own. So I want to do this, not because of the moment, but because I truly want this. I want you. And I don't see the point in waiting anymore. I know being around me is as torturous for you as it is for me. You think I don't know about what I've been doing to you? How I've been affecting you?"

Kaname eyes began to widen at her revelations but he said nothing, too surprised to speak, as he let her continue,

"Onii-sama, I know...I know you touch yourself… I know how hard it is for you to control yourself when I feed. At first I ignored it, because I couldn't believe that a girl like me could make you feel that way...or that I really deserved that type of love and affection. But what I forgot is how selfless you are! It's a side of you others rarely get to see even though it's right in their face because they're too preoccupied in finding ways to misunderstand you. And I didn't want to be one of those people; so I was afraid. But I'm not afraid of this anymore. I'm not afraid of you or what anyone think about us. I'm not afraid to touch your body...or if you touch mine. I know in my heart that this love between us is rightful and true — We are meant to be together. Your body was always meant for me to enjoy...wasn't it?" She asked in a shy and uncertain tone as she averted her hungry gaze.

"...yes. I belong to you Yuuki…"

"...s-so?"

A few seconds passed before Kaname said anything, but she could feel his body tense and un-tense beneath her so she knew his gears were working. And when he finally moved, it happened so suddenly she didn't have time to process how she ended up under him, being smothered in kisses and the incoherent ramblings of gratification that he mumbled hotly in her ear. She felt a hard thrust against her sweet spot and whined! And her reaction was everything for him because after that his movements became hurried, unrestrained, and utterly unpredictable.

"Yuuki..." he groaned into her skin as he littered it with sloppy kisses and made quick work of her clothes, tearing them off her wherever his fingers touched. She was too lost in a daze to care. He suckled on her neck until it birthed blissful explosions and an angry purple bruise. She was panting when he pulled away, to examine and ultimately admire it.

"Onii...Kaname…" she corrected as she lovingly whispered his name. His intense red orbs flickered to her and the entirely of her body felt consumed by the depths of his love, and she gasped because he looked lost in this impossible place that could only be incontrovertibly pleasant; like he was lost in her love and had no desire to be found. Kaname leaned forward and kissed her temple and gave her a look that could only be described as absolute — there was no going back. Yuuki brought her hand up to caress his cheek and her soft gaze told him all he would ever need to know.

It wasn't until he pulled her into his lap and her exposed thighs brushed against his sides, straddling him, that she realized that they were naked. She was grateful because she didn't want her awkward nature to ruin the moment. Kaname always seemed to know what to do: her brother, her lover, her friend...

Her everything.

It wasn't long before his searing touch was everywhere, electrifying her nerves and making her dizzy. If she had every imagined what it was like to be on drugs, this is what she'd expect it to be: exhilarating; enchanting; bewitching.

He was her drug…

...but his love — his love was her remedy.

Author Note: I'm back. Finally some inspiration has come to me. Sorry to all those following for the long breaks. SO much has happened since my last post. My partner and I got married, had our first child and moved to a whole new state. So thank you so much for your patience. It truly does mean the world to me. Anyways...don't worry; the smut is continued in Chapter 16. Review, don't review. You can do whatever you like.