BLOODSHARED

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Chapter 16 ~ Desire

(Grill Cont.)

I can't breath. My heart is about to pound out of my chest with excitement! I am not nervous this time, nor am I scared, no, I'm totally excited and I feel a rush of adrenalin. I feel a few muscles twitch, butterflies in my stomach, oh yes, this is anticipation! I stare at him, directly in his eyes. I don't even feel shame this time, just pure resolve. I look at his dark eyes and this time I know what they mean...It's Lust...pure...Lust in his eyes and I bet mine are just as dark.

Damon slowly brushes my hair off my left shoulder and I shiver a little, his fingers lightly grazed my neck. He looks at my neck and then back to me. I feel the pad of his thumb, slowly rubbing tiny circles on my pulse, while the rest of his fingers relax on my neck. Damon is staring at me and his eyes are so full of emotion, it's so Intense. I want to look away but I can't move. I'm afraid movement will somehow break the trance and he will change his mind.

I can't quite tell what emotion I see in his eyes, lust yes, there's something else I see, a tenderness, maybe even admiration? I'm not sure, I just know his eyes are softer somehow, almost human. I swallow and that's it, I know the look...Vulnerability! Yes, Damon's eyes are showing raw human emotion, in a moment I realize I can see his soul. The man inside the Vampire, the Real Damon. It does crazy things to me, my butterflies in my stomach are now in my throat, and my heart is fluttering, my core is on fire, my breath hitches and my lips start to twitch.

I feel Desire, a strong urge to kiss him. I break the stare first, I don't want to look away from his eyes...but I can't help it, my mind has other plans...I'm staring at his lips now, they are so full and soft looking. I never noticed before how nice his lips are. I began to lick my lips subconsciously, I still want to be fed off and my craving is in overdrive, but his lips are all I can focus on.

The heat from my core has moved up to my heart and now back again. Just then he looks away toward my neck and I grab his arms to steady myself because I feel faint. Then I feel hot air on my pulse, his lips are so close and they just linger there. The fire in my core is burning now stronger and stronger. I feel that familiar heat again in waves, my pulse starts to race and his soft lips touch my skin so lightly.

I close my eyes so I can really enjoy the feeling and burn it into memory. Erotic sensations are back and their full force! I buck my hips forward just as his tongue is moving in circles on my pulse, I feel a light sucking sensation and my head falls back against the wall, my grip tightens on his forearms, my eyes are closed but I know my fingernails are digging in his flesh. I feel his mouth lift away but his tongue lingers for just a few seconds and then...nothing...

Knocking me back to reality is the sound of the Back door closing. I'm afraid to open my eyes...Oh no...who is it I wonder...oh no...oh no...we're Busted! I slowly swallow the frog in my throat, terrified I take a deep breath and open my eyes...NOBODY IS THERE...Not even Damon!

What? Oh No He Didn't! I let my body slump and let out a groan of frustration, I then began to pace back and forth talking to myself... "He Teased Me! I can't believe it...Ugh...that was...that...was...so...Mean!" My hands are into fists now and I want to just hit something! I am 17 years old and I want to throw myself on the ground and kick and scream like a 2 year old! How could he take it this far? Ugh! I feel a new heat all over me, It's not erotic, it's pure anger, like a cartoon I imagine steam coming out of my ears, I'm that pissed! I take in several deep breaths to try and calm down. "Relax Elena, Relax" I tell myself. Startled the back door opens and it's Stefan!

"What are you doing out here?" he asks.

Think fast Elena...I went from anger to nervous in 2.5 seconds, air I remember...Air.

"I drank a little too fast, and I just needed some fresh air." I say with a very shaky voice, which he notices of coarse.

"Are you alright? You seem upset!" he adds to his question.

"No, just nauseated a little, it will pass." I say surely.

I look away toward the cars in the back parking lot, take a few more deep breaths and force myself to get calm. I'm jittery and I'm afraid Stefan will sense it.

"Do you wanna go home?" he asks concerned.

"Uh...no, the feeling is passing, I'll be fine in just a minute." I am hopeful my voice is no longer shaky.

I'm secretly hoping the anger and what's left of the craving will pass and quickly. Stefan steps closer to me and touches my arm.

"Maybe you just need some food on your stomach." he suggests.

"Yes, I think I do. (worried he will sense or smell my arousal) Will you go in and order my usual for me please? I will be there in just a minute, after I make sure the nausea is gone okay?" I add nervously, hoping he won't ask anymore questions and just go.

"Sure Elena but are you sure your okay?" he says so sincerely that I feel a rush of guilt, I quickly remember though that Stefan has secrets of his own.

"I'm fine." I reply a little to harshly, thinking of his secret meeting with Katherine.

His eyes go wide a little in response to my harsh tone, but he stays kind.

"Okay, I will go get you some food." he states as he turns and goes back inside the Grill.

Wow! That was a close call! I need to go in the bathroom and wash up some and use the time away to get back in control. I walk back in and head straight for the bathroom. I just know I don't want to see Damon right now, my anger would return and there is no way I would be able to hide it or explain to Stefan why I want to rip Damon's eyes out!

I walk in and look at myself in the mirror. I have that crazy look, eyes wide, flushed cheeks, dewy skin, eyeliner that has ran into smudges under my eyes. I recognize the look on my face, or I should say in my eyes. It's a euphoric look, one you get when a relationship is all new and exciting, your giddy and happy and you get this hazy-eyes look and that great feeling you get when spending time with the person in the new relationship. My jaw drops, No, it can't be. This Is not a relationship! It must be the affect the craving is having on me. I use my finger to wipe off the eyeliner that has ran under my eyes. I wash my hands and then wet a paper towel, I fold the wet towel and dab it all over my face, cooling myself, it feel so good, between the heat from my craving and the anger, I am too flushed. Still cooling my face, I take a deep breath and release it slowly and it is working...I feel relaxed. I feel more in control. I think about cleaning up in the stall and I decide not to even go there. I throw the paper towel in the trash, another moment of Deja Vu hits me and I giggle, thinking at least tonight my panties have stayed on and I walk back out of the bathroom.

I look straight to our booth in case Damon's at the bar, not wanting to give him any satisfaction. I see Stefan and he motions toward my food and a coke. Good I can focus on eating, and quenching at least one of my desires...Thirst...my mouth is so dry, probably from the grenadine in the drink earlier, or Damon withdraw, quickly I shake that thought off and sit down to eat.

I take a bite of my burger, it looks delicious, and It feels good to be satisfying my hunger craving anyway. I swallow fast and grab my coke and drink it half down. Stefan is staring at me...

"What" I ask him.

"Nothing, you must have been thirsty." he states with a strange look on his face.

"Yes I am, it was the drink at the bar. It was too sweet." I am making small talk.

"What did you have?" he asks.

"Just something fruity." I reply not wanting to tell him of my new drink I learned about from Demetri. "I think between the sweetness and drinking too fast and my empty stomach, the combo made me sick." I am rambling on.

"Are you feeling better now?" he asks

I answer with a mouth full of burger and two fries I shoved in.. "Yes, much." I reply with a small smile. That smile immediately turns into a grimace when I notice over Stefan's shoulder Damon whispering in some blondes ear. I almost choke. I chew faster swallowing and gulping down the rest of my coke and without even thinking slam the empty glass down on the table. Stefan jumps a little...

"Um...would you like another coke?" he asks in an almost laugh.

"Uh...yes please. I'm really thirsty." I reply trying not to grit my teeth at the scene Damon Is making.

Stefan get's the waitress attention and holds up my glass to her and she nods, smiles at us, and heads toward the back. I am staring at Damon and it's driving me crazy, the blonde woman is laughing and leaning into him too close. I feel my face tighten and heat rise again with my anger.

"Are you sure your okay?" Stefan asks suspiciously.

I nod and with a mouth full of burger, I can only mumble... "Uh huh."

Just then my coke arrives and I can't get the straw paper off fast enough, momentarily thankful for the small distraction from Damon and Blondie. I then think of Caroline and Bonnie. Where did everyone go I wonder? I suck down more coke to wash my burger down. I look again over to the bar and Damon's gone! I immediately search the room.

"Where is everyone?" I ask Stefan a bit to frantic sounding.

"Caroline went to play pool with Matt, Jeremy, and Tyler. I have not seen Bonnie for awhile." he states looking around.

"Where's Damon?" I ask without thinking.

"He's at the bar." He answers me with a questioning look, I ignore it.

"No he's not at the bar, look. I need to text Bonnie, she just disappeared." I add to get off Damon and I'm also a little worried about her.

I grab my cell to text Bonnie...

To Bonnie:

"Where r u?"

Bonnie replies:

"I was not feeling well so I came home and I could not find u to tell u"

My response:

"Sorry, I got nauseated myself and went out for air...you ok? Do u need me 2 cum over?"

Bonnie:

"No Ill b ok...gonna turn in early night 3 u

Me:

"Night feel better:) I will call you in the am 3 u 2"

"Bonnie went home, she was not feeling well." I tell Stefan.

"Maybe there is something going around." he states.

All I can do now is keep looking for Damon. I don't see him anywhere, he's gone home with that girl, I just know it. I realize I am jealous, this is crazy, why am I so jealous of Damon. He's not doing anything he would not normally do. I'm distracted and Stefan really notices...so I speak up...

"Um...you know, I think there is something going around. I'm going to go tell Caroline that I'm leaving, I think I need to just go home and sleep. Do you mind staying here and giving Caroline a ride home? If not, it's okay, I'll ask Matt." I say in a hurry.

"No, I don't mind at all. I may play pool with the guys unless you need me? I could drive you home?" he adds.

"No!" I say it too quickly. "No thank you, I am fine to drive, so you stay and have fun and I'll call you tomorrow." I say as sweet as I can.

I reach up and give him a quick kiss on the lips and tell him goodnight and turn to find Caroline. I see her leaning against the wall in deep thought. I dunno if she's pining for Matt or daydreaming about John. I walk up to her and she sees me and gives me a big smile.

"Everything alright?" Caroline asks.

"Yes I'm just feeling a little sick, so I'm going to go on home, Stefan said he will give you a ride home. Is that okay?" I ask.

"Yes that's fine, you go and feel better, I'm gonna stay and play." she says with a wink.

I nod and hug her, I put my jacket on and tell everyone else goodnight, and explain why Bonnie left. As I leave and get into my S.U.V. and I feel a twinge of sadness that Damon was already gone, but I don't want to think about what he's doing, so I buckle my seat belt and resolve to go home and straight to bed.

(A/N) Damon really did a number on her with his little tease act. Elena does need to go home and go to bed. Will she go home? Will jealousy drive her to something crazy? You do not want to miss the next chapter...trust me:)