BLOODSHARED

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Chapter 17 ~ Delight

I'm angry, so angry. I don't know if I am angry at myself for allowing these craving's to get to me like a crack addict or angry at Damon for teasing me tonight so merciless. I really don't think my pulse neck flaunt earlier was anywhere as mean as what Damon did out back against the wall...ugh...!

In just minutes, I'm half way home, speeding and I don't care. Where is Damon? He must of took that girl home. Ugh...I feel so jealous and mind boggled. I can't figure out why I am so jealous...is it because of the craving? Does my strong desire to be fed off make me territorial? Is their a strange connection between us now that we've shared blood? Is this just me starting to want to be around him more than I should? It must be the craving, it must be!

Just then my cell rings and I'm afraid to look. I don't want to answer it. I began to ponder...Stefan checking on me? Caroline, trying to find out why I really left? Damon, rubbing in the fact he pulled off the perfect tease? In seconds I decide not to drive home but head to his house. I'm not even thinking rationally now, I just have an urge to go see if that blonde is there, jerk her out by her bleached hair! Yes! My cell is still ringing so I finally grab it and answer...

"What!"

"Well hello to you too" says Bonnie sarcastically.

"Oh...sorry Bonnie, I thought you were someone else." I say starting to feel nervous.

"Somebody like...Damon!" she says angrily.

"No!" I almost shout it.

"I saw you guys Elena." she states smugly.

I'm frozen in my seat and can't speak...she continues...

"I went out for air because I had gotten sick in the bathroom. I went for a walk in the parking lot and heard voices echoing so I followed the voices and peeked around back and I saw you talking to Damon and from what I could tell he shoved you against the wall and it looked like you guys were making out!

What the hell is going on?" she asked in an even angrier voice.

I know I can't do this right now with her, I just can't, Not Now! I take a deep breath and give it a shot anyway...

"Bonnie, we were not making out! I will explain everything later. I'm not feeling well myself (I lie while turning down the long driveway to the Boarding house) I'm heading home to lay down okay." I reply with my best weak voice.

"No Elena! We need to talk right now! You know how I feel about Damon, and I'm your best friend Elena and I'm worried about you... I cut her off...

"Later! Not tonight!" I say ending the call.

Omg I just hung up on Bonnie! What is wrong with me? I can't think about it anymore, I am sitting outside the Boarding house suddenly nervous that Stefan may come home and catch me here, but my thoughts are tuned back into the blonde I saw with Damon and I shrug to myself...Oh well... and walk right up to the front door, it's always unlocked, so I march right in only stopping for a moment to listen by the stairs. I don't hear any moaning or any sign of the giggly bleach blonde but that's not enough, I have to know so I continue up the stairs...not very quietly and without thinking I bust through Damon's bedroom door. I'm flushed in my face again...pure anger...maybe even rage...and there he is standing near his oversized fancy bathroom and he has no shirt on, just his too-tight black jeans hugging is hips like a dream...Good God...he looks like a model, a perfect male form...statues should be made of his body!

I start to speak but I can't. I'm just standing there looking stupid and staring, gaulking actually, and there's no blonde anywhere. Damon takes a sip from his crystal tumbler of Bourbon and he's smirking...

"Wow! You followed me home. Miss me bad huh?" he chuckles.

"I...I...um...thought you...um...brought that blonde here." I say with a very shaky voice, feeling like a school girl with a crush on her teacher and about 2 inches tall.

"So what if I did Elena? Would that be so out of character Elena? So why are you here?" he growls out causing me to tremble some.

"Um...um...it's just...I" I'm fumbling like an Idiot for words and choking.

"I what? Are you jealous Elena?" Damon is shouting now.

"I'm sorry...I... he cuts me off...

"No Elena! You have no right to be jealous. Your with Stefan and I can bring home whoever I want!"

"I know that. (loss of anything else to say, I add insult to injury) I just didn't like her." I choke out.

He starts to laugh loudly... "Didn't like her Elena? See how bad you are. You can't even see your own jealousy Elena!" he adds with a wide eyed smirk.

Now anger takes over me and I'm yelling now...

"Well, If I'm jealous, it is all your fault for teasing me like that tonight! That was just cruel!"

I'm so mad that I start to shake and I think tears are on the horizon...but Damon starts yelling again before I can...

"Oh, but it's okay for you to tease me! Is that it Elena? Flaunt your pulse of your neck at me like that and make me squirm like a schoolboy, feeling all uncomfortable!" his voice a little lower now.

"I...I...bothered you that bad?" tears are brimming and my voice sounds broken some and he just goes on...

"I told you this would be like a drug for both of us! I told you! Yes I was teased and even worse by what I did to tease you!"

I listen to him intently and I'm shaking now even more, my whole body and Damon notices me shaking but he keeps going on...

"Yes, I wanted to take that blonde home and feed off her until I could not see straight and bring her home, to my bed and do all kinds of things to her, but I couldn't!

he's yelling and I'm trembling and I start to back up slowly away from him until I feel my boots hit the wall and I can't go any further...I gasp and tears are streaming, I don't even know why I am crying...Damon does not stop...

"That's right! I couldn't! (he throws the tumbler at the wall near his closet and I jump) No Elena, and do you wanna know why I couldn't? Because of you! I could not get you off my mind long enough for her or anybody for that matter!

Damon is still yelling and walking towards me now, I'm shaking even more, tears are at a continuous flow and I'm also panting for breath. I've seen angry Damon but this is anger and frustration mixed and I am scared! I'm regretting my decision to come here but at the same time my breaths are ragged, my pulse is racing, racing with excitement not just fear! My entire body has heat radiating all over not just in my core. Even though I'm scared, I have never wanted him more, and my desire for him to feed off me is stronger than I've ever felt it, so strong my bones are achy and I just want to grab him. He's so close now...still yelling...

"Do you see now? I warned you about the cravings! It's like a drug! Once I told you and you agreed to once!"

Damon is pacing now in front of me and I don't move, I place my palms against the wall trying to grip anything because I feel faint, like this is all too much and he stops pacing and looks at me ….his face expression is pained...

"Dammit Elena!"

He rushes towards me reaching his hand to the right, I think for a second he is going to hit me, but he grabs his bedroom door and closes it instead and then he's in front of me, just an inch or so. Before I can even think or process what is happening, its completely dark and I can't see! Did I faint?

I quickly realize that I didn't faint...no...Damon has turned the light out, my eyes adjust and I see moonlight beaming in the window onto his bed. He then presses hard against me and he's breathing hard and fast. I feel a rush of excitement, I'm burning all over, my core is aching and throbbing, I feel tingly all over, every sensation of the first time coming back to me, but this time I don't have time to process it all..

Because Damon is at my neck, one slow lick and Ohhh his fangs sink in and my back arches in response, he is not ordering me against the wall or restraining my hands this time, He's giving me total Freedom...i first put my palms flat against the wall then I feel that pull, the wondrous rush of blood and then release, his hands go to my waist and grip tightly and he presses his whole body against me even harder and my head falls back and I moan loudly, I can feel his member and it's pressing against me, rock hard and I shiver, the erotic, orgasmic sensations are on overdrive and I moan even louder and reach to his member, an urge to grab him there, I just start to graze my hand on his jeans there and he growls and does something I never expected...he pushes his leg up, up against my heat, right at my core between my legs, I can't think! The Rush of the pull and release of blood is faster and faster and I began rubbing my core on his leg, the friction is wonderful and my pace is building with my orgasm and I began to call out his name with a new desperation in my voice, his fingers are at my waist but I feel them start to caress my skin just above my waistline, the sensation of his fingers on my bare skin throws me over the edge...I yell his name...Damon...Damon and I go frigid with my release as waves and waves of Ecstasy flow through me and I come down so hard that my insides are trembling...I feel him retract his fangs from my neck and then that familiar licking sensation there and I feel his leg leave and I miss the contact already but that's the last thing I remember before a light headed rush goes to my head and everything goes black...