"Bloodshared"
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Chapter34 ~ Distraction
(cont. at Elena's house)
"Elena, is everything OK?" Bonnie asked.
"Yes, its fine. We were just thinking of something fun to do today." Elena was trying hard to sound light and carefree.
Bonnie cont. "Okay I talk to Sheila, she said to wear your Founders Day dress, that I told her about and to bring a small diary and a few new pens, a small plain overnight bag and she has an old cloth to wrap it in. Elijah will pick you up at 10 am tomorrow morning and send off is at 1:00 pm.
Elena felt nervous all of a sudden, with butterflies in her stomach she took a deep breath to calm herself. "Okay I'm getting a pad to write it down." Elena quickly jotted down the items and read them back to Bonnie.
"Yes! You got it! Oh and Elena, Sheila has a surprise for you that your going to love!"
Elena tried to sound excited but fear was beginning to take hold "Really? What is it?"
"You will see tomorrow. I don't want to ruin the surprise. Do something Fun today and I will see you in the morning. Is Stefan there? Bonnie added before letting her hang up.
"Yes and Damon too."
"Well Have fun! Caroline should be their shortly. Love you." Bonnie added.
"Love you too. See you tomorrow" Elena hung up and just then like clockwork Caroline came through the door.
"I know your leaving tomorrow, Bonnie told me, so let's have some fun today!" Caroline was genuinely excited.
"Yes let's do! We're all on the same page." Elena said while smiling at the three of them and trying to push back her fear. "Let me get the list ready for tomorrow and then we can get out of here and have some fun!" Elena yelled out while running up the steps to her room. Before closing the door she yelled again "Discuss." she leaned back against her bedroom door just as soon as she closed it, just a few seconds to breathe and encourage herself not to think too much. She was afraid that she would change her mind and she just couldn't! I need to time away now more than ever she thought. As soon as she pushed herself off the door to busy herself with the list there was a knock at the door and Stefan came in.
"Are you sure about this Elena? Are you okay? Stefan asked and she could hear the concern in his voice and see the anguish on his face and a hint that he was worried about something else but she brushed off the thought…
"Stefan we already established that this is the safest way for me and Yes, I'm sure! Am I okay? Honestly, No! I'm scared of leaving you all here in danger and I'm feeling guilty for that! I'm scared for myself and traveling back to a time I'm not familiar with! In her ramble she didn't stop before she let the next words blurt out "I'm scared of Katherine being around you alone." she noticed the slight raise of his brows but quickly continued "I'm scared Katherine will mess this up somehow but right now I can't do this! Please lets just go and have a fun day okay?" she looked at him with pleading eyes hoping he would just drop it and make it easier and Stefan complied.
"Okay, fun it is." he picked her up and twirled her around and Elena laughed "They want to take you to a bar out of town." he stated as he set her back down.
"Okay, sounds great! Just give me a minute to finish the list and I'll get ready and be right down." she gave him a confident smile, Stefan smiled in return and left the room. Elena got her Founders Day dress and shoes and laid them on the bed. She found a small black bag in the top of the closet and realized she didn't own a small diary, so she just grabbed her most recent diary that still had plenty of blank pages, she didn't want Katherine to read the latest one anyways. She grabbed a few new pens out of her desk and giggled while throwing several pairs of thongs into the small black bag. Elena was determined not to wear underwear from 1864, she thought it bad enough to have to wear corsets and long dresses instead of her jeans and converse. After laying the bag on the bed she dressed in jeans and a casual shirt and of course her Converse. She ran the straightener through her hair and wondered who would curl it tomorrow for 1864. After adding some make up she took a deep breath and one last look at herself in the mirror before heading downstairs.
(Later at the Bar)
"I can't get too drunk Caroline! I don't want to be hungover tomorrow." her voice got softer as she looked over Caroline's shoulder watching Stefan and Damon who had serious looks on their faces and what looked to be a very unpleasant conversation.
"You've only had two drinks Elena!" Caroline said while slurring her words.
Elena was determined to try and lighten the mood, the day had been much more dreary and not so carefree as they had planned, she grabbed Caroline and dragged her to the dance floor, it felt good to just go with the alcohol and just let loose. After almost a few hours of laughing and dancing and being as silly as they could, Elena was tired and ready to go. Stefan and Damon had not helped at all to make this long day out fun, they never even danced with them. They only seem to be good for sour whiskey shots and sour faces.
They had been way too serious and I couldn't blame them! They had to stay behind and face the real life music of Klaus and the Sacrifice while I get to escape! As guilt overwhelmed me I nodded toward the door to Caroline and she got Stefan and Damon to tell them I wanted to leave. Caroline did manage today to relax and have fun with me and I wondered if she could because she didn't have much of a role to play in any of the gloom and doom to come. I know that she was worried some because I could see the flash of concern in her eyes ever so often. After we stepped out into the cool air I hugged her tightly and thanked her for today and gave her my most sincere look that I hope conveyed my appreciation for everything..including Damon. Bonnie was mostly disgusted by our new found blood-sharing and I certainly appreciated her Witch part in all of this but she wasn't able to be as emotionally supportive about Damon as Caroline and even if Caroline doesn't approve she hasn't shown it and I appreciate it more than she possibly could ever know.
The ride home was oddly quiet, everyone seem to be in deep thought and after arriving back at my house I said my good nights in the driveway, not wanting an emotional night, I kept it short and reminding them goodbyes were tomorrow at my send off. I just wanted to go in alone and rest and be alone in my thoughts. My head was blurry and I was more tired than before, I certainly didn't want to wake Jeremy or Jenna. I couldn't bare goodbyes to them, even if in secret….the guilt was already taking over again and washed over me like a wave. I knew I was deceiving them and for the next few weeks it would be Katherine and not me and all I could do is hope she won't toy with them or harm them in any way. I knew Stefan had warned her but it didn't bring me much comfort….it's Katherine!
I quietly made my way to my room and quickly showered, I didn't want to stay in there long and give myself time to think, so I brushed my teeth and grabbed a book off my nightstand determined to keep my mind occupied til sleep. I couldn't read because my mind kept wondering if Stefan or Damon would sneak in my window tonight. I found myself wishing Damon would come more than Stefan and quickly the guilt returned and my eyes filled with tears. I tossed the book on the chair and rolled over and pulled the covers up to my shoulders and closed my eyes and prayed for sleep. It had only been seconds before I heard a light tap at my window...I jumped up a little faster than I should of and my head rushed and I quickly knew which one had came to see me because I could see his blue eyes shining in the moonlight… "Damon."
A/N In the words of Damon "There is no apology in the world that encompasses all the reasons that ….I got behind on this story." So Sorry that it has been so long. I'm not going to go into excuses but I just want to say..I still have not forgotten about this story and I'm back working on it again. I have every intention of finishing this story. I hope everyone is well and this is not the best chapter but at least I'm back. I hope you like this chapter anyways and I hope you review...Thank you