"Bloodshared"

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Chapter 35 ~ Defeated

(continued at Elena's house)

I quickly opened the window for him to come in and without thinking I said, "Aren't you a site for sore eyes."

Damon had a small smile, but the smile never touched his eyes.

"What's wrong Damon?" I had an urge to touch his face with both hands as he does to me all the time.

"Nothing." he replied sadly.

"Damon...you look and sound sad."

Hes looking up at me with so much emotion in his eyes that it makes my chest ache.

"I guess I'm just worried." it was so low that I almost didn't hear him. Still fighting the urge to touch his face and shaking my head several times, I tried to stop the ache I already felt in my belly and then there is that magical charge in the air that's always between us now. I tried so hard to push it all away and focus.

"We are all worried Damon but what exactly are you worried about that has you so..so…" I was at a loss for a word to describe what I saw on his face.

"I guess my own personal fears." He seemed so serious, his voice lacking his usual snarky or lighter tone. I sat down beside him.

"Tell me." I whispered while putting my hands on both sides of his face and gently turning his face to look directly at me, it's all I could think to do to show him my concern was genuine. However, putting my hands on him was not smart because I felt that burn. That same familiar and strong electrical charge between us that now had my core aching intensely. My lower lip started to quiver from a deep longing to kiss him. I internally snapped at myself...Focus Elena!

Damon then tried to pull away from my hands and he tried to drop his head but I wouldn't let him.

"Damon please." I pleaded with him. He spoke low again and looked so...defeated, there was the word I was looking for earlier.

"I guess I'm worried that you will go back to "1864" tomorrow and be reminded of why you fell in love with Stefan and you will just fall in love with him all over again." I start to speak but he cut me off. "I just don't see my human self getting a fair chance. You fell in love with Stefan because he shows his humanity so well and now he will be…" he trails off… "You know its all odd anyways considering hes not as sweet when we were humans as he betrays himself to be now. Innocent maybe but not sweet." Damon finishes, standing up to now look down at me, almost pleading with his eyes for me to understand. So I stood up meeting his gaze and squeezing his hand. "Damon I totally understand what your saying. Do you really think I wont be able to see that for myself though?" he started to answer but then I cut him off this time.. "I'm perfectly capable of going with an open mind Damon. I want to learn what you both were like as humans, so I have every intention of giving you both equal time. Do you really think Stefan's humanity will just blind me to yours?"

He stepped forward and gave me a small smile and I squeezed his hand harder.

"I guess not." he said while shrugging his shoulders and I wanted to reassure him more, but our close proximity and intertwined hands had not only my feed craving stronger but my body also responding to him in every way. My hair was standing up on my arms, my chest had a dull ache, tears stung my eyes from trying so hard to shake off this dizzy and heady feeling. My whole body felt hot, and I kept biting my lip to try and stop it from quivering, even the top pf my head felt like my hair was crawling. I was Alive and Charged with all these magical feelings and I finally spoke again…

"How are you doing so well with this craving? I think I may come undone and just attack you!" my voice trembling but still sounding loud.

Damon just chuckled and...He's back...with his snarky tone. "'I've had lots of practice with self control around you already." he then smirked at me and that use to make me roll my eyes at him but now it does delicious things to my core and I feel myself instantly get wet. I go to say something, I dunno what ..instead, I let out a low growl and my eyes widen in surprise but Damon looks serious again.

"Dammit Elena!" before I can blink, I'm pressed hard against the wall right behind my bedroom door, just like the last time we were in my room. Damon is growling and staring at me with the most intense hungry eyes and they have darkened in seconds. My mind flashbacks how this very spot is where I pleased him last time with my tiny hand but tonight I so yearn for more. Without thinking I place my hand on his jeans and start to rub his hard member, my body is just naturally reacting to the memory here. Damon pushes my hand away and presses hard into me and my back makes a small thud sound on the wall. He then lifts my legs and I instantly wrap my legs around him tightly and now flashbacks of the time in the kitchen up against the fridge swirl into my mind and again I remember how strong my desire was to please him that night too..

Where our bodies are touching has us oh so close, so I just push my core down against him hard, then a forward rocking thrust against his hard member. He growls loudly but the sound is muffled quickly by my mouth because he has attacked my lips and he's kissing me hard and it's so passionate...I'm just breathless. I pull away because I need air, but our bodies are still thrusting and grinding but I can't help but giggle when I look him in the eyes…. that was a mistake. He didn't bring back his lips and now hes paused that beautiful friction that was building me up so good. My mouth drops open with a wide-eyed look of painful shock and I question him with my eyes...Why!

"Why are you giggling?" he snaps.

"Because we are dry humping like two very hormonal virgin teenagers." I see his eyes soften and he has a sweet, innocent, and very human looking grin that I've never seen on his beautiful face before and then he chuckles while speaking. "I guess your right. It does seem a little teeny bopper and for you that's okay; but at my age...really?" we both break out in laughter and that caused my core to move against him slightly and all the laughing stops just as fast as it started. My breath hitches and ask with

a little whimper "Can we just…" he knows what I'm going for and quickly rejects me. "No! I'm sorry Elena but I just can't, until you know how you feel about me with a 100% Certainty. Once I have you that way, I won't be able to let you go...ever."

I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding and feel the emotion of what Hes just said. It does wicked things to me and my heart when he sounds so possessive like that, but I feel a sting of sadness wash over me and I stick out my bottom lip and give Damon my best pout in one last ditch effort. I can tell it's a no by his slightly sad expression and something inside me knows that if I really wanted to get Damon to cave all I would have to do is surprise him somehow, like to suddenly undress or talk dirty to him and many other ways women use to get their way but I'm afraid it would come off as manipulation and make me look like Katherine. So instead I focus back on my body and the luscious heat at my core that rises up to my belly and back again and just allow the craving and my desire for him to come foremost in my mind and I can tell Hes feeling it all too...we share emotions...and then Hes back on my mouth and we are back to that wonderful friction but this time we are moving much slower and the moves are more of a deliberate friction. I start to experimentally roll my hips to see his reaction and God is it so Sexy! It's such a low growl and he pulls away from my lips and goes straight to my ear and after a quick tongue lick, he whispers…

"Oh, what I could do to your body and how I can make it feel with all my years' experience." I feel his emotions again and I can tell this is something he has wanted to say to me for a long time and I respond with a moan and it's low and sexy like his growl was and our emotions seem to be in a euphoric state, our grinding gets harder like earlier and Hes at my neck now, he can tell I'm close and there is no time for giving me his blood first and it's his fault for those dirty whispered promises that put my need for release in overdrive. Damon licks my pulse point just once and goes back to my ear again. "Wait until I get my tongue right here." I don't know how he got his hand inside my panties so quick but he's stroking my little nub, with what feels like his thumb when he says it, he's moving it so slow and God it's delicious torture. All my senses are on overload, Damon knows I'm so close and bites into my neck hard, … I start to cum and with the circles and stroking on my clit, the sensations of feeding, and the way he just bit me roughly...I'm screaming out my orgasm with his name proudly on my lips and profanities are flying out of my mouth, and never have I heard myself sound like this. Or felt an orgasm this intense! As the waves of pleasure get slower and I come down my body just slumps into his chest completely.

My head is spinning, I'm just so overwhelmed with so many emotions and physical sensations I had felt at once during the best orgasm I've ever had that I suddenly have another first and began to weep, I'm crying and thanking him over and over, there is a whole mantra of Damon praise pouring out of my mouth…

"Thank you, Damon, that was AWESOME Damon, I've never ever...oh Damon, that was hmm...Amazing, that was Wonderful Damon, so Intense and erotic!

Damon has stilled and is very quiet I bet he's confused as to why a little clit tease and dirty talk would have me so overwhelmed but I know he doesn't understand, he doesn't get it.

"Damon I've…" it feels my mind is in a total fog and I'm a loss for words, trying to figure out exactly how to tell him that nobody has ever went down on me or talked dirty to me before. Matt was my first, but he was too shy and awkwardly quiet. Stefan is not quiet but has never talked dirty and he has weird blood lust issues that was too much temptation for him to go down on me. Damon notices my inner turmoil and I can feel the frown on my face right now and I bet my face is also fifty shades of red because I suddenly feel so embarrassed. Damon must think I am more experienced.

Damon's face is full of concern and his voice is soft "Elena, it's okay you can tell me anything." he notices that I'm still not speaking and I'm sure my eyes show fear. He gently starts encouraging me again "Elena it's okay, I'm a sexpert with over a hundred and fifty years experience." he smiles and winks at me, trying to lighten the mood. I'm starting to relax but it still takes me another minute.

"That's the problem." I whisper. Before he Can speak again; I speak softly "That's just it, I don't have much experience" I drop my head in embarrassment, my cheeks feeling hot and flushed again.

"That's okay Elena, your only seventeen years old I don't expect you to be Katherine." he realizes right away that was a bad choice of words when my face gets hotter with anger and tears spring to my eyes, my face scrunches up, so he quickly backtracks. "No Elena! I didn't mean it like that. I meant you're not a Vamp slut who's five hundred years old with a million sex partners." he says this in such a playful manner, and I relax again trying not to smile because I'm supposed to be mad but he's so beautiful when he's light and easy like that, how can I stay mad at him?

My face, turning serious again, trying to think of how to tell him and I just decide to shoot for straight forward. "Damon, nobody has ever gone down on me or talk dirty to me before. The way you were touching me in combination with the dirty talk and that exciting rough bite, I just cummed harder than I ever have in my life!" I breathed a deep sigh of relief...there it's out.

Damon, as always with his quick little quirks "Elena, you little vixen. You liked the rough bite!" he starts to chuckle and the full measure of all I said dawns on him finally…

"No! Wait! What! Nobody ever went down on you. How is that possible? You're so beautiful and desirable in every way."

before I can answer he takes his weight off me, and I miss the close contact and he says in his matter-of-fact tone "it's time to get personal Elena." he pauses and thinks a second "How many partners have you had? If I may ask?" he adds with a smirk.

feeling quite timid, I quietly say "Two."

"Obviously Stefan and I'm guessing Matt?"

I don't speak I just nod. He is pacing the floor a little and he seems frustrated, I don't know if it's with me or them but he finally speaks firmly "Elena, please don't make me play fifty questions…just please explain. He pauses for a brief second "Unless you don't know why?

I scold myself...time to grow up Elena. Your almost eighteen so stop being so embarrassed. I look down at my fingers that I'm twisting together and just speak "Matt and I were young, Matt was too shy, very clumsy and quiet."

"First time?" Damon interjects.

"Yes, first time." I repeat his words and then I get quiet because Matt is easy but talking about Stefan will be harder so I decide to keep on talking about Matt. "Matt and I broke up not long after our second time, so we never got to much other than touchy foreplay, there was no oral sex at all."

Damon nods and seems to completely understand two young teens and their clumsy-awkward first times. He stiffens and looks at me and he seems nervous, but I can tell he is mentally preparing for Stefan's turn because I can still feel his emotions just as he has felt mine. He seems ready so I just go for it.

"Stefan is more verbal, mostly all growls and moans." I feel my face flush again. It's so embarrassing talking about my intimate moments with Stefan to Damon and it also feels strange. I swear he looks a bit flushed too if that's even possible for a Vampire? I decide to just get it over with.

"Stefan is plenty experienced, don't get me wrong, but how can I say this...um...he's… Vanilla."

Damon just smirks and laughs as he shakes his head. I push forward because it's getting a little easier and I feel and see Damon relaxing more so I bravely continue. "I've went down on Stefan many times." he can tell that was hard for me to say my coughing after I said it and shaky voice giving me away. "Stefan has never went down on me and I think…" before I can finish my sentence he goes off…

"What the Hell! Have I taught him nothing? I should go stake his selfish ass right now! Hes so angry so I try to fix it quickly. "No! It's not like that Damon. It's..something maybe you would understand more than me. I'm oddly embarrassed again "it's something about femoral artery and blood lust." I squeak.

I see realization come over him and he nods but still shakes his head, and I can feel he's just like me and doesn't fully understand either. He finally speaks. "So, no dirty talk, no going down on you, probably mostly missionary position." he decided to add his own opinion on positions, and Hes not wrong. He pauses and then looks at me with pity and then simply repeats my words back to me…"He's Vanilla." he says this with a look of disgust on his face and I'm still twisting my fingers and watching him, and he just stands there and seems to be in deep thought and then he starts pacing and then turns toward me suddenly.

"Oh my sweet (pause) innocent (pause) Elena." he says with a slow velvety voice and the sound melts my insides like butter and my knees go weak, at the same time, my hair is standing up on the back of my neck and my heart is pounding and it's hot but also a bit scary because I realize this is his predator voice and I've never heard it before but being emotionally connected, I just know. He walks toward me slowly with a predator smile to go with the voice and I actually feel fear along with the usual aching heat and now he's right in front of me, staring into my eyes and I feel as if I may pass out but it's all so strangely hot, and yet, terrifying at the same time. Damon smirks at me, a darker and more wicked smirk...like a Villain...a super-hot looking Villain. I feel this smirk...my body shivers. There is so many mixed emotions that I'm literally panting and my hearts racing, adrenaline pumping, my fight or flight response is in full gear and just then Damon Vamps out and I gasp! He grabs me and next thing I know I'm flat on my back on my bed, Damon's on top of me, vamped out and wickedly smiling. I can feel it! Hes excited and his Demon is very excited. Just then it dawns on me what Hes going to do.

"Oh No Damon!

(To be continued)

A/N Wow! Not very nice place to leave that…. sorry but don't miss the next chapter …. trust me!

Okay … I must say I'm sorry it has taken like two and a half years to add a chapter to this story...my last update was July 9th, 2020, and the very next month on August 5th I lost my husband...he passed away suddenly that same day. So surely you can understand that with the worse pain I've ever felt in my life and TVD being one of our favorite shows we enjoyed together, it has taken a long time to come back. I'm here and I always promised in these author notes to finish this story and I plan on keeping that promise. I reread it and wrote two chapters so 36 is soon to come. I hope this chapter had plenty of Delena goodness to enjoy and helped in a small way make up for being so long without one. I hope I put an "M" instead of a "T" because next chapter will definitely be an "M" rating, some earlier chapters probably are as well but chp 36 is a whole new level. Well I hope someone sees this update and reads it lol. I would dance if a few writers would come back and start again on a few of my favorite stories. Well as usual I hope everyone reading this is well and good. Until next time…..