It's been four long months since I saw James. He left so suddenly without saying a word to me about leaving.
I realized my feelings for him the day he came into my room bleeding, trusting his life in my hands and over the next few months my feelings only grew. Then his birthday came up and i thought by giving him those matching rings he would realize how i felt about him but he acted the same. Even two months after he never took off the ring but never made a move. Then just one day he was up and gone and i had to find out by Caleb after running into him after looking all around base all day.
But today i will see him again be able to hear his voice once again…. His laugh.
I am at the hatch early just sitting while other people start to show up standing with around me. My dad walks up and stands in front of me. I check my watch then hear the sounds outside the hatch. I stand up behind my dad. The hatch opens soon after i see older men and women come out through the hatch my eyes scanning the crowd and then i hear it that laugh that makes my heart flutter every time i hear it.
There he is , a older man in front of him moves, he is holding a women with long black hair around the waist. His eyes look up and meet mine those green eyes I find myself lost in over and over. I feel tears well up in my eyes, i turn quickly and run off to my room.
Hearing footsteps behind me i turn to see Ethan behind me out of breath. "I want to be alone for a little bit" I tell him walking into my room closing and locking the door behind me. I hold my hand tightly over my ring holding it to my chest and i let the tears fall. I get control of my self wiping away my tears i look in the mirror to see my eyes all puffy. I sigh and head to the shower and take a long shower letting the warm water comfort me.
When i get out I see the notification about the welcome party. I go to my closet and find a red dress slipping it on and grabbing some heels I grab my makeup kit and hair stuff and head over to the older women that lives next door. After asking for her help she spends the next hour fixing my hair up into a cute bun and putting a little bit of make up on my face making my blue eyes pop more and making my lips more pink. Hugging her and giving her thanks i head back to my room putting away my stuff before heading out to the gym.
I am one of the first ones there i see my dad giving him a hug when i walk in. He gets dragged off into conversation leaving me alone standing at the front of the dance floor I am watching all the people come inside in all their different gowns and suits.
I find Caleb walking through and then there he is in a all black suit with his hair longer than when i last saw him but still groomed over the way it normally was but now he had a short beard that made him look so much more mature. He seemed like a different man completely. I take a step heading his way but then saw the girl he was with earlier hugging onto him and him smiling at her. He turns making eye contact with me for a second.
Then an older couple walk up to me dragging me off starting a conversation. I pass from one conversation to another. Never getting a break. "May i take her of your guys hands for a little bit?" Ethan asks walking up besides me. The group nods me off and i get led to the dance floor by Ethan.
He pulls me into a dance that makes us change our partners and end back up with them. I start with him spinning around then being passed off to the next. I see James through some of the groups he has a lady in his arms that is around her 30's. He spins her off and the groups block my view of him once again. I get spun and end up back in Ethan's arms. We all clap and walk off the dance floor.
I stand on the side of the dance floor with him looking around while he talks to me. He grabs my hand gaining my attention "Let's dance once again" He pulls me onto the floor while a slow song is starting.
"May i step in?" a deep voice asks from behind me, a hand with a ring matching mine extends in under of my right hand. I turn and make eye contact with him laying my hand into his, feeling his ring on my hand. Ethan says something i didn't hear just lost in his eyes then i get my left hand pulled slightly making James take a step closer to the puller glaring down at him. I slip my hand out of Ethan's hand "I will catch up with you in a little bit.
He holds my right hand to his chest with his left. His right hand going to the back of my waist pulling me in close. I wrap my arm around his back and lean my head into his shoulder closing the distance between us. I breathe in his scent swaying with him.
He lets go of my waist making me let go of his shoulder. He kneels in front of me kissing the back of my hand then making eye contact with me as he disappears into the crowd.
I start to follow him but get my arm grabbed by Ethan. I walk back over to the table with Ethan and get passed from conversation to conversation again. All night looking around trying to catch a glance of James with no hope. Most of the people have left the dance, mostly only couples remained.
I took my leave giving the room one last search for James then leaving heading to his room. Knocking on his door, just waiting on him to answer makes my heart race. He doesn't answer i wait outside the door for 5 mins knocking 3 times. I sigh disappointed, i take off my heels and start walking. I found myself walking toward his ship bay. I open the door walking in and seeing James laying against a wall a pillow between him and the wall. I set my heels on the ground and squat in front of him.
I look at his sleeping face just watching as his chest rises and falls. I find my gaze on his lips seeing the slight bruising on his lip. I gently touch his lips with my finger then pull back a frown on my face.
"..charlotte.." James says my name, i jump back at first thinking he is awake when he doesn't move i squat in front of him again a smiling growing on my face. Next thing i know i am grabbing his jaw and kissing his lips gently but long. I let go of his jaw and pull my lips from his.
What did I just do!? I stand up and walk away from him my hands covering my face. I walk back and forth then stop putting my finger on my lips remembering the sensation. My face becomes hot thinking about what i just did. I sit in a chair next to the table James is sitting close to. My head on the table just staring at him. I fell asleep.
I wake up feeling a jacket on my shoulders. I open my eyes to see James using his glove to control the seamoth and grabbing the chain, hooking it up and then opening the hood putting down the gloves on his belt loop. I stood up, setting down James' suit jacket on the chair I was sitting in.
"Good morning," James says, turning toward me, smiling. "Your voice is so different" I reply pointing to my throat. "Is that so? I didn't notice" he rubs over his throat then leans over and grabs a box out of the seamoth. It was a long white box.
"I know I wasn't around for your birthday" I stiffen at his words. He takes a few steps closer to me opening the box and taking out a thin necklace with a small rectangle of a black metal at the bottom. He holds up the necklace asking to put it on. He steps close to me and reaches around my neck fastening it in the back then holding up the metal in his hand slowly letting it fall to my chest. "I hope you li-"
"Why did you leave?" I cut him off looking down letting my hair fall covering my eyes. "You didn't even tell me, you were just gone!" I look up tears falling in front my eyes meeting his eyes seeing regret fill his face.
"I thought I meant more to you than that. At least enough to say goodbye to!" I was yelling now. He started to walk towards me.
He grabbed my face and kissed me passionately with his eyes closed . He broke away. "I'm sorry" he kissed me again. I kissed him back longingly, closing my eyes. He broke away taking in air.
I grabbed his tie pulling him back into a kiss putting my arms around his neck. I feel his arms go around my waist pulling me in. He nips at my bottom lip asking for permission to deepen the kiss. I open my mouth in reply, enjoying the deepened kiss. I run my hands through the back of his hair.
He takes control of the kiss while pulling me tight. He broke the kiss laying his head on my forehead, both of us out of breath.
"Why couldn't you do that MONTHS ago" I ask emphasizing months. "There is just no pleasing you is there?" James asked, laughing at the end, now opening his eyes meeting mine and backing his head from mine now standing up straight, his hands still on my waist. A smile was plastered on his face.
My feet hurting from wearing heels all of yesterday, I switch the pressure from one foot to the other while standing. Putting his hands under my butt he picks me up looking up at me as he starts to walk, stopping he sets me down in the seat I slept in. Pulling up a chair he sits in front of me, grabbing my foot massaging it.
"We have a lot to catch up on." He says looking up at me