Leah Clearwater Pov
*Flashback*
26 years ago
I opened my eyes at the sound of my bedroom door closing, and I groaned as the light from the window blindsided me.
I laid vertically across Jacob's chest with my hand on his stomach.
Last night happened so fast that it seemed like a dream to me.
I lifted my head a little, glancing towards my door, then up to the top of my bed.
Jacob's, tan skin and wild short black hair, was still sound asleep.
He looked so adorable sleeping.
I smiled, for the first time in our life we were intimate and it was amazing.
I slowly sat up carefully not to wake him, then noticing I was completely naked.
Last night didn't go the way I planned. Vampires on the war-path and Jacob always saves the day.
I held onto some of the covers, pulling them with me.
"You alright?" Jacob asks, suddenly awake.
Sitting up, leaning into me tenderly.
His palm caressed my right shoulder. It was warm against my cold skin. "Yeah, I'm fine." I said, running my hand through my tossed hair.
We've never seen each other like this before, completely raw and vulnerable.
Part of me feels very relaxed, like I spent the whole night at an expensive Spa. Then the other part of me is very nervous to expose everything.
Physically, mentally and emotionally, I was alright yet timid about it all.
"Are you sure?" He asked, worried as if I just got out of a hospital or something. "If you're sore you can let me know."
I sighed.
It's embarrassing for him to treat me like some damsel in distress.
"Yes! Mighty Alpha." I said sarcastically. "Honestly. My body and mind are just great. Don't worry so much." I say looking at him.
He narrowed his eyes, wondering if I was lying.
"I'm not as weak as you think, okay?"
"I know that, Leah." He stated as if he wasn't aware of it at all. "A lot happened last night. I'm just checking."
"I know, and you don't have to. It's annoying, you're making me feel... .." I trailed off searching for the right word.
"Fragile?" He says.
With a sigh, I nod. "Yes, and weak."
"Sorry, I know it's-"
"Annoying." I said cutting him off. "Give me some credit."
He sighed heavily, then looked away from me ruefully.
"What?" I ask, not liking his regretful expression.
"Nothing." He muttered still not looking at me.
"Telling me." I said curiously as the irritating feeling wore thin.
When he smiled towards me as if I said something beautiful, I kinda narrowed my eyes. "What?"
"I was just thinking about last night. How much ground we covered, couldn't think of a better homecoming." He smirked amused. "I actually thought you weren't going to tell me the truth... but you did. You didn't hold back or lie about how you felt about me all these years." He smiles taking me into his arms.
I groaned by giving him a light shove. "You didn't make it easy." I say. "Yet, you did ask for the truth." I clarified, continuing to hold on to the covers.
"You have no idea how hard it's been without you." He says seriously, then glares ahead straight towards my barely empty closet.
"I've missed you too. I guess we did cover the most ground in like-"
"Ever!" He cut me off and I looked over at him.
Of course his deep brown eyes were gloating and very cocky.
I bet five bucks that he thinks he has me wrapped around his finger perfectly.
"So, Do you have any more secrets I should know about?" He asked and I instantly narrowed my eyes.
"Such as?" I ask.
Jacob laughed to himself.
The most beautiful sound I've missed for five years.
"Any past... riveting situations from college that I should know about?" He said, trying not to seem anxious.
Clearly he must have meant other guy situations, as in dating. "How would the thought of me dating be riveting?" I laughed.
"Picturing you with anyone to be honest is very riveting." He shrugged leaning his back against my headboard.
"Right." I laughed, scooting up to him to lay my head on his bare warm masculine chest. He has some nerve, though I love him for the thought. "No. It's safe to say for five years I haven't dated anyone." I smiled snuggling into him, as he wrapped his arms around me.
"Or... been intimate with anyone?" He pressed.
He obviously wanted me to make it clear that I've been completely single and alone.
"No. Why does it matter? The only thing that had any hot action from me was that... parasite. Not that I consented to that."
Jacob sighed a reply.
"You know too bad there's no such thing as a vampire compulsion for them, I would have taken that.. just to keep those nightmares about it at bay." I mocked wanting to keep the mood light, with the now dark subject.
Being assaulted by a vampire -let alone one that could read your mind... was beyond revolting. The last thing on this planet that made it even more pathetic was it was my only sexual experience since my days being Sam Uley's girlfriend. Knowing that alone kept me in the deepest depression. It wasn't until my college roommate's cousin Javier gave me a good talk to help me realize that I needed to come home to heal from the pain.
Jacob kept quiet, and I could tell that he hated me joking about that as much as anyone would.
Being assaulted by a bloodsucker was the last thing any sane person would joke about.
"There was this other guy... " I muttered wanting to mess with him.
"What other guy?" He said, frowning and slowly leaning his face to the top of my head.
"My roommate's cousin. His name was Javier, one night he slept over .. And we-"
"Wait, wait, wait! You just said -"
"I'm kidding." I laughed, cutting him off. "Do you feel your energy? Getting upset and jealous is beyond cute. The truth is, one night.. I was actually really sick, so he stayed late and we watched television. Nothing sexual at all, I promise you. It was the sweetest thing a friend has ever done for me. He had a crush on me but somehow knew I had feelings for someone else. Nothing ever happened romantically." I admitted. "I just wanted to see what your reaction would be." I smiled, pulling him towards me, to kiss his cheek.
Jacob cleared his throat. "For a second I really thought you shagged some college dude." He said, smiling relieved, and reaching over to hold my hand in his. "I really wish I was there to protect you from what happened. That attack. I had no clue that a Russian vampire Coven even existed." He says low.
"Yeah well you can't save me from all psycho leeches. They'll take whatever they want until they're killed." Even if he was in the room that day, he wouldn't have been able to protect me. "I was walking home, at night.. I was in the park and the bloodsucker could read my mind… he could have known any defense tactic that could be used against him.." I clarified. "Besides, that day no longer bothers me, I don't have nightmares about being stalked anymore. You really shouldn't feel guilty, healing is a daily journey." I say.
"Well I do feel guilty. I'm the reason you moved away. You said so last night. You couldn't take me being around... The Cullen's or the facts that I imprinted on Renesmee. It nearly killed you to watch me living a life for the monsters we protect people from. I got it. I understand why you couldn't tell me how you felt, but regardless.. you decided to go to college across the country because of me. It bothers me when you try to joke about any of it."
"Fine, but it's not your job to pity me. I don't want it." I stated.
"I don't. I mean I'm not."
"You are." I argued.
"I think it's sad that you rather brush off what happened? You're not bulletproof Leah, you're human. It's fine if you feel ashamed. I know I would."
I sigh. "You're right, I just don't want to obsess over what I can't change. I've moved on."
"So that's what I'm doing? Obsessing?"
"In a way, yeah." I say. "Jacob, Why do you think I'm joking about it?"
"Maybe because we weren't supposed to find out in the first place?" He said let go of my hand. "You know, not everyone on the reservation can pretend as well as you can or lie to keep the truth a secret. Just like when you went down to Makah Reservation years ago and expected everyone to not question a thing. We were worried about you then and we're worried now."
"Look, just drop it!" I said leaning away from him to move over. "This is exactly why I tell no one here anything. You guys get all sappy and concerned. It's sickening."
"Fine. Whatever." He said, shaking his head.
I sighed, rolling my eyes remorsefully.
I completely got what bothered him.
It was about me not wanting to tell them that I almost died, I went through the aftermath of my attack alone with no intentions of ever telling anyone.
That alone was confusing to him and Embry, then the fact that they had to hear what happened from Alice Cullen who also wasn't aware that I would be in a vampires lair being tortured and experimented on at the time. It was by chance that she found me.
Alice saved me that day and when the Russian Coven continued on their sick rampage, Carlisle decided to inform the wolf-pack.
I looked over at Jacob as he laid his head back against my pillow.
"What do you want me to do? Lash out? Be angry? Be that poor pathetic bitter girl again?" I stated.
"Yes, that's precisely what I want you to do." He mocked glaring up at the ceiling like he had laser vision.
"Yeah, you would love that wouldn't you? Five years definitely haven't changed. Aren't you tired of going around fixing the broken? You're not equipped for this strong woman's era, huh?.. Being everyone's savor has to be exasulting. Take a rest day."
Jacob snorted.
"It's not that I don't want you to be strong, Leah. I want you to come to me." He said.
I shook my head repentantly. "You breathe the stone ages and prefer women to be maids for the kitchen, not dance in fight-clubs and dirt matches. I get it." I joked.
"I guess that sounds about right." He retorted and I narrowed my eyes. "I'm not like that. I don't see that when I look at you. I care about you. I've always had. I almost lost you completely and I had no idea. Don't you get that? How could you not tell me? How could you not speak to me for five years?" He stated. "I'm sorry, It just still hurts, Leah."
I rolled my eyes guilty. "I'm sorry, but I won't apologise for living for myself."
We said this all last night but it obviously takes more than one night to get through pain like this.
"We let our guard down last night, and it's going to be a struggle but I want you to trust in me again." He says ever so softly.
I smiled at him. "I want that too. I want to trust. No matter how mind-boggling and nerve wracking last night was, telling you the truth about why I left La Push and never came back made me feel so good." I admitted. "At one point I started to deny my salacious feelings for you, but of course you weren't having it. That's how I knew it was time." I say, moving closer to him again, collapsing on top of his ribs.
Everything was envisaged like he really spilled his guts out to me last night, in hopes we could build something. If I wasn't the one who left to hide my true feelings I would've thought he was yearning for me, but it's obvious that that was just underneath.
"I don't want to feel this... the want to go back in time and change things." He says.
Thinking about how sensational he made me feel, it would really suck if he changed his mind about the thought of wanting me.
Already knowing how much overwhelming sorrow I would feel if another leech came into town and he did all he could to be with her. My tragic story of us even being friends would be over.
"Then don't. Just know that it never felt like my place to be here, to want more from you.. for me to ever think to be an us."
"Leah, your place has always been right beside me. No matter what insecurities we have or had. Here is home, it has always been your place." He corrected me.
"I see that now." I said scooting myself up to his chest and laying my head underneath his chin.
"I love you." He said, kissing the top of my head and the butterflies in my stomach went crazy.
I waited so long for him to say those words.
"I love you too." Those words were now easier to say out loud than to imagine in my mind.
"I have work tomorrow."
"I'll take you." Jacob says fast.
"And allow your boss Daniel Camlens to dislike me before he even gets the chance to meet me? No thanks."
"I'll introduce you. To him and his teenage daughter Cassie. It'll be fine. Besides, I've met your boss." He stated.
I nodded. "Spencer is not my boss, he's my manager. You remember my old friend Ginny? She's in a secret relationship with him and also works with his family who owns a bakery shop in the mall cafeteria."
"Good, on your lunch breaks I'll come and we'll make a daily date routine."
I laughed. "You're outta your mind, Black."
He smiled.
"Though I look forward to spending my lunch time with you." I smiled happily.
His kissed my forehead and suddenly out of nowhere, we heard laughter coming from downstairs.
Jacob sighed. I tightened my arm around his waist.
"Great." He said placing his left arm on my lower back.
I slowly lifted my chin towards his neck. "What?"
He could hear much better than I could at the moment because he's been shifting lately. I, on the other hand, haven't been on four paws in years.
"They are talking about us, and pretty soon the entire reservation will know that we spent the night together." He inhaled heavily and I put my left hand on his chest. "Everyone here gossips more than young grade school girls."
"The pack?" I ask.
"Yeah, all downstairs."
I sat up a bit to be face to face with him.
"What are they saying? Are they talking about how much you cried like a baby last night?" I said jokingly and he laughed.
"Cried? You were the one screaming half of the night." He smiled, leaning into me to kiss my lips.
"Yeah, right. I don't recall that." I lied with a grin.
His body and mine feel so good, he couldn't keep his excitement and I couldn't keep my pleasure last night quiet.
"No you wouldn't, would you? Good thing Sam wasn't here or he would have blushed with envy. He isn't saying much downstairs but I know he's here." He said with a hint of cockiness.
I mean he did mention yesterday that it was okay for him to believe that I was staying away so long because of Sam, or that he thought now that I was back.. that I wanted to join the council because Sam was on it. "Sam's still jealous?" I chuckled. "As if. He has Emily for that. Besides, neither one of us has feelings like that."
"You haven't been here in years, Leah. You have no idea what's gone on. Nothing has changed."
"Yet, it's all very different." I say. "You and Sam? What happened? You two bonded over my abandonment of both of your packs?" I ask.
When I left Sam's pack years ago to join Jacob's.. many emotions were clouded, yet it was clear that when I also left his pack as-well, Embry said that Sam was surprisingly hopeful that Jacob had done something to make me leave. Little did he know it was kind-of right, everyone knew I just couldn't stand by and watch the person I loved be in love with someone else.
"Jacob, please don't have this pissing contest with Sam. You don't have to rub in the fact that you're once again above him." I stated.
"I don't have to try and rub anything in, Leah," He said, feeling uncomfortable. "We both grew from a lot of things, at least I think so." He says.
"I'm just happy that I can move on from him and you can move on from the leech and her precious descendant." Even though he made it clear last night that he didn't care about any of them anymore, I feel it's good to remind him that he was better off.
Jacob didn't say anything and I looked up at him.
The expression on his face read he wasn't bothered by my comment. Though I didn't want to mention them as much as he didn't want to think of Sam.
"You are truly over it right?" I ask. "I'm really trying hard to keep the bashing to a minimum but they were a huge part of why I went away and I need to know that that door is closed." I say.
Jacob snored. "I get it. That door was burned down years ago. The Bloodsuckers are history, you haven't hit a nerve, just continue to tell me how you really feel. I can handle your sugar coated insults. I told you yesterday, my feelings for Bella and Renesmee were another lifetime. They don't matter, so you don't have to walk on eggshells just because we slept together." He said as if that was the only reason.
"Trust me, I won't. I just need this... us, to mean more to you than anything." I confessed.
"Trust me, Leah. You are number one. Now and here on out. I don't want to lose you again."
"You won't. It's just the more I mention the bloodsuckers the more I prove they still bother me." I say. "Your feelings are my feelings and they hurt just as bad. They did five years ago and they do now. After all this time, I need you to understand this." I stated.
Jacob cleared his throat, glaring deep into my eyes. "I hear what you're saying, Leah and you can trust me. Trust in my feelings for you." He said and I nodded as he kissed my cheek.
"So.. you and Sam had years to get close but what's the real reason you two don't talk?" I ask.
"I think you already know the answer to that." He stated.
"Actually... . I have no idea." I retorted, other than the fact that Sam was my past and I wanted Jacob to always be my future.
"Is it something you saw or something you overheard in his mind?" I asked hoping he'll answer me honestly.
"I don't know."
"That's not an answer."
"I can care less about Sam and his thoughts." He said.
"Liar. Tell me."
"Look, if you want the truth... I can't give you that. All I can say is that you obviously saw something in him that was worth loving, so I'm not going to say he wasn't good for you because I don't know.. as of now, definitely not."
"So you're not holding anything against him?" I asked.
"What? No."
"So why don't you like him? I mean you never did, but I wouldn't disregard you if you knew something that no one else knew." I said and waited for him to comment.
It was enormously clear that he was blaming our former Alpha for something.
Jacob took a deep breath. "This is stupid." He stated low merely to himself. "I'd rather just let it all go."
"Good, let whatever it is go and tell me." I am curious.
"The reason is you." He said and I leaned back a little to look at him confused.
"Me?"
"Yes, you." He retorted. "He thought about you way more than he did Emily. He thought after so long he could hide what he was thinking deep inside but he couldn't. I saw it, I saw it every time he entered the room. You're Sam's first love, Leah. He may never recover no matter how many children he has with Emily. Every time I shift around him.. I see his thoughts."
"Jacob, Sam may have been with me first but I'm his past."
"It's more than that." He says.
"How?" I asked, tilting my head, glaring at him.
"I don't know. Just think of it as how you felt when I was in love with Bella."
"That's different." I clarified.
"Only slightly. You were still jealous."
"No, I wasn't entirely." I disagreed.
"Yes, you were. Bella might have been someone you hated and still hate but even back then, she had someone that you wanted. Me." He said with a shrug. "You wanted the devotion I had for her... you wanted someone like me.. to feel for you like I had for her."
I nodded, truly agreeing with that.
"Now, think of Sam's emotions... Even though he has an imprint." He says.
I completely understood.
"When I look at you I don't see Sam, I never did." I confessed.
"I guess that's the thing. You coming back was too simple. Sometimes I forget exactly who I don't want to be, but then I turn around and be that guy. This place brings it out." He said sadly looking away, and I was a little confused.
"A guy like who? A doormat that pleases everyone around him? You are not that." I say.
"I'm not like Sam and it kills everyone." Jacob stated.
"Not me. I like who you are. Thank heavens you're not like Sam. I don't love you because I think you're some kind of illusion that I made up in my head that's just like him. I don't want you to have to think on what Jacob Black should be turning into five years after Bella Swan or, three years after Renesmee Cullen." I stated. "Sam always does what's expected of him. You make your own choices and make up your own mind. I like that you know how to laugh and be happy. I don't want us to fall apart anymore because of the past. I don't know what it is that we're supposed to do about Sam's so-called feelings for me but if you say that they're there... Then I'll take your word for it and keep it in mind while he's around." I said honestly.
"You see?" He smiled. "This is what I know, and it never made any sense to step away from one another for so long. We belong together."
"Well if we didn't then you couldn't have possibly decided on what it is that you needed or wanted."
"That was clearly years ago." He stated.
"You mean three years ago when the imprint broke?" I ask.
"No." He shook his head. "I knew before that. I had doubts... and maybe still do a little." He confessed slowly.
"Wait, why?" I was confused. "Why are you doubting anything? Especially after last night, and now."
"Because I'm afraid you'll leave again. I need to hear you say you'll stay no matter what." He whispered. "I want to hear you say it." He says, glaring into my eyes. "Just to quiet my anxiety." He grinned.
I nodded. "How clear do you want me to make it? Just to quiet your anxiety and feed your ego..? Alright, here it goes... I left because of you, and I came back glad to finally get everything off my chest. I want this, I want you.. so I'm staying." I stated.
"Then you should move in with me." He says.
My eyes widened. "What?"
"Just hear me out." He smiled.
"Oh, yes. I need you to explain this enormous proposal." I am amused even more.
"Yesterday you mentioned how much you didn't want to live with Sue, and from what I see this room is small and I know I live an hour away- but I want to get to know you again. I rarely come here to La Push, and I may move closer now that Rebecca has gone back to Hawaii for a while. My Dad doesn't say it but I know he's lonely, I want to watch after him and be with you."
"Jacob, if we move in together then we'll be a real couple."
"Mmm-hm." He nodded. "So what do you say? Come move to my apartment with me? Be with me indefinitely?"
I smiled. I literally just came back to town.
Yet, I didn't want to say no or waste anymore time away from him.
"You don't still snore, do you?" I grinned.
He laughed. "Guess you'll have to find out. Though I should warn you.. I like to stay up late to workout before bed."
I sat up, getting on my knees -crawling on top of him. "That's alright with me, I like to stay up late too."
Jacob looked at me confused, but he then leaned back as I lifted my leg over his body to straddle him.
"I know where I stand, I know what I want." I smirked wrapping my arms around his neck.
"Is that a final yes?" He asked.
"Yes! I'll move in with you." I smiled. "When do you want to leave?"
"After we get some breakfast." He shrugged with a smile.
He was once clueless and didn't get it, and I was the first to spot a wretch a mile away.
Even when we were the leeches guard dogs, I swallowed my pride and stayed because Seth needed me, as did he. I was happy to breathe his air.
"You don't know how many dreams I had of you reminding me that you cared about me." I said leaning into him, and kissing his softly angelic lips.
"Yeah? Well every inch of me feels I will always love you." He said and I nicely gripped a handful of his beautiful hair, kissing him sweetly.
"I can't wait to move in with you." I said gently, placing my tongue playfully in his mouth.
He groaned, moving his hands to my hips. "Good, because I can't wait for you to wake up beside me and have more mornings like this." He blushed. "Leah Clearwater, everything about you is more beautiful than words could ever explain. I'll go rent a van in town and help you pack."
Jacob stared at me and I felt an intense pull for me to make love to him again. He's so sexy when he gets all mushy and passionate-eyed.
"I'll start packing after breakfast."
"No rush.. I'll help you when I get back." He says.
I can tell by the alluring look in his eyes that he didn't care if I agreed to move in with him or not. He'd still be around.
He was going to show me how much he wanted me in his life, no matter what.
Jacob leaned into me. I met him halfway.
He smelt divine.
My cold palms on his skin. His heat was warm and I felt like I was burning from the inside out.
Touching him was lovely.
He moaned.
"I once dreamed of this moment with you." He confessed. "This doesn't seem real, that we're finally here." He breathed.
Our kiss increased into something more desirable as our hands intertwined.
He wanted me as much as I wanted him. "If only you would've kissed me like this five years ago, then I definitely wouldn't have let you leave." He says, and I laughed but did not speak a word.
"See, right here has always been your place. I've always needed you. I've always wanted you, even when I thought I didn't." He whispered pausing from our kiss once more.
He took his tongue beautifully caressing mine and I thought about how smooth and experienced he was, which made me want him even more.
To think we both only had been with one person, but I shudder to think how many times he thought about spending nights with Bella.
I moved closer into him, at the same time putting my hand to the back of his neck.
Kissing him feels like eating my favorite food…. so unbelievably good.
His hand on my cheek was exquisite. "You're warmer than before."
"That's because I'm ready for round four of our... sweet homecoming." He flirted.
I could feel the tickle of sweat dripping down my neck. I could feel the blood through my veins as if I was shifting. My legs trembled with urgency.
"Jacob?" I moaned with a hint of a smile. "I want you just as badly as you want me, but there's too many wolves with super hearing downstairs."
I can sense it and so could he. He held me tightly.
In his arms I feel whole. I remember every feeling I had calling his name in anger years ago, feeling completely hopeless.
We had never reached this much of an understanding of each other. Back then I'm sure none of these emotions would have come to light. This moment had to be now. Me in his arms like this, It seemed like I had no worries that my petition would be fulfilled. To have him with me like no one had ever been before. I just rather us be alone like we were last night.
Pulling me into him, he nibbled hard onto my shoulder. "Maybe your moans will make them leave."
I breathed. Needing his composed warmth to take over this lust feeling that I had. Jacob's hands passed over my waist.
I shivered. "Jacob?"
He groaned as if he was struggling to stop himself from doing something. Our bodies were so close that I could feel him getting harder with every breath.
Smiling with fire on my tongue, trying not to break our kiss, I thought about how every second made me feel lukewarm, but if I were to stop kissing him I just might turn into an atomic bomb and explode.
His muscles tighten all around me. Being with him like this was brand new to me. Something I couldn't even dream of in my wildest fantasies. If I could, I would pinch myself just to make sure this was actually real.
His hot hands rubbed smoothly against my outer thighs, and when I felt his tongue in my mouth once again, I sorta lost my concentration.
We needed to stop before we continued what we were doing last night.
Jacob must have thought something was wrong because he pulled back, but I didn't want him to stop.
"It's like we've been kissing for years."
The last thing I wanted was to stop even though we needed to.
"Well, let's do more than kiss." He says.
"No, we can't right now."
"No?" He teased me.
I tightened my grip on his hair and shoved my tongue in his mouth. He leaned back involuntarily and I pulled him towards me.
"What if I told you they were leaving?"
"Are you sure?" I ask.
"Yes." He smiled, kissing my lips.
I was nervous last night, but now I'm more confident knowing we can go as far as we'd like without any regrets.
"Much as I'm getting a lot of pleasure with our makeout session, all I really want is to-"
"Make love to me again?" I say cutting him off.
Kissing him was great, but I'm craving more of him as well.
"Yes." He smiled.
While running my hands through his hair, I rubbed my body against his. Not fast, but slow... really slow.
Our bodies were talking and I liked it.
He whispered something that was hard for me to understand as I moved my tongue in and out of his mouth. In the hints of licking his lips teasingly, he grabbed my bum hard for me to stop killing his buzz. I laughed pulling him closer while he smiled.
I knew he wanted to lead but I was getting a bit restless.
"I like being in charge." I muttered rubbing my body against him again and he moaned loudly, but kept on kissing me.
He just seemed so delicate, like if I were to act on the insane lust that was shooting through me I wouldn't get the chance to feel his warmth.
Wonder how for so long he managed to stay single, or how in the world anyone would choose something cold and sparkly over him.
When he tossed the cover across the room, he brushed my hair back. Running his fingers through my roots…
I tilted my head, closing my eyes.
It felt so relaxing. I smiled, sighing with pleasure.
I loved the way his hands felt in my hair. I should let him wash it for me from now on. "That feels so good."
"Someone's getting impatient," He grinned. "You're beautiful but I'd rather lead." He spoke in the most amazing mutter ever. I shuddered when I felt his smooth lips on my neck, kissing gently down towards my chest.
When he reached my cleavage I knew that we were getting closer to what I was dying for.
I sighed as he continued kissing down my chest, and worked his way back up to my shoulder, then neck.
I kept my eyes closed as his warm lips brushed against the now tiny scar on my throat, and I whispered his name. "I want you." I couldn't help saying it out loud.
When he slowly moved his lips to my ear and gently licked, then sucked my earlobe- I accidentally pulled his hair a little too hard.
I realized it didn't bother him as he continued to kiss my skin. "I love to enjoy this.. and then take my time making love to you..." He says, as my heart hammers. "But I would rather not." He rolled us over so that he was lying on top of me.
Jacob's hand softly trailed down my stomach, I twisted my hands in his hair.
I stopped our kiss by rolling us over so that he was on his back and I was on top. Jacob looked at me confused.
"Relax. I'm just switching places." I smiled seductively, putting my hands gently on his neck, kissing him and he instantly laughed amused.
Letting my guard down wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.
I kissed his collarbone sweetly and the heat from his body intensified.
He brushed his fingers across my nipples, and I sucked down on his neck.
Jacob's eyes closed, as I made a cute little sexy noise against his skin.
I lowered my lips down towards his abs letting my tongue sweep over every line on his chest as possible.
Jacob tried hard to keep his groans to a minimum while I caressed his body, but like most guys it won't take long before he just took over again.
I gripped his shaft gently, massaging my hand up and down.
The Big Bad Wolf loved it.
Suddenly, he rolled us over.
"Are you trying to stop me from making you blush, Black?" I said smirking and he didn't say anything as I looked up into those sexy dark brown eyes.
"Maybe.. or maybe I just want to please you first." Jacob leaned down towards me and I closed my eyes as our lips touched once again.
The kiss was sweeter than the first. He held my cheek and eased his shaft between my thighs. Gently but fast, I gasped as his eyes never left mine.
Picking up his pace I moaned as he reached between us to massage our wetness, not just mine.
The fact that I haven't thought of using protection with him had me second guessing at the thought. "Jacob?"
"Yes?" He whispered nonstop.
"Babies... Have you ever thought about them?" I said and he paused.
"I know last night we didn't have time to think about it, but we have to think about our actions from now on don't you think?" I say quickly.
Jacob shrugged.
"Then the question is... If I purposely impregnated you, would you be upset?"
Babies so soon? I don't know if he is joking or not.
"Purposely? Like on purpose?" I say. "Jacob?"
"Think about it."
"Jacob, I just got home. I can't get pregnant right now. I'm not working, and I just agreed to move in with you. What is the rush?" I tried and failed to lift him off me.
"Leah, calm down. I was just joking. I have enough self-control to pull from you before I get too excited. Alright?" He said too calmly.
The kissing then continued and I moaned into his mouth.
"Wait." I say leaning away. "Maybe we should talk about this?"
"Or maybe you should get out of your own head, Clearwater. I love you, don't worry so much." He says.
"Though just the thought, I'd love to have mini pups with you someday. Just not today." I say fast, and Jacob leaned his head down to mine and kissed me harder than ever.
"Of course, whatever you want." He smiled.