Leah Clearwater Pov
*Dream*
Dark gray skies were clear.
Laying on the forest floor.
How did I get here?
Yesterday it felt as if I was nineteen years old, and heartbroken.
Confused. I stood to my feet.
The worry of how I was going to get home crept into my mind.
"I knew I'd find you here." a husky voice said coming from behind the trees.
I looked towards my right….
Jacob.
Long black hair and tone muscles.
"Let me guess... you're trying to make an escape." He smiled, showing his pearly white teeth.
Taking off his dark gray T-shirt, I felt myself glance away awkwardly not wanting to stare.
"Not really. What are you doing here?" I asked, thinking about why he wasn't home. "Where's the kids? Why are you taking off your shirt?"
"What? Who? Where? Why so many questions?" He laughed too amused. "Can't I just be here because I've missed you?" He said, taking hold of my hand sweetly.
His touch is so gentle and warm.
My stomach tightened.
Butterflies.
I felt like a young school girl seeing her crush.
Jacob Black was amazing to look at.
Russet skin. Long black hair. Chocolate brown eyes.
"You can," I smiled. "I guess…. but you never wanted to come out here before."
Jacob hated the woods. He hated being a wolf. He was just like me.
Everything I felt, he felt as well. It wasn't always like that, like this.
"Can you blame me? These woods are too painful." He said looking around at the trees. "The kids shouldn't be exposed to this. After all these years …I still don't know how you can sleep out here alone." He said looking back into my eyes.
"Hold on, them being exposed to what exactly?" I ask, narrowing my eyes.
"You know." He said then slowly turned to glare back over his shoulder.
I followed his glare but saw nothing except dark green trees.
"Everything about you Leah Clearwater is more beautiful than words could ever explain." He said. "I'm so lucky to have you."
I smiled.
"Are you trying to butter me up?" I asked suspiciously, my eyes flirtatiously.
"And what could possibly make you speak such words?" He said, leaning his lips slowly down towards mine.
I laughed, moving my face away from him. "Giving me a compliment out of the blue just screams I'm trying to butter you up." I say and he smirked.
Then suddenly his smirk faded into a frown.
"It's getting pretty dark. Isn't it?" He said and I looked up at the sky.
It was so bright and blue.
He can sense something, I could not.
Jacob's frown stayed. I wonder what it is that he wasn't telling me.
"Do you think we should move?" I asked hoping that's not what he wanted to do.
"Actually… that's exactly what we need, it's not safe here anymore." He spoke slowly, quickly moving from me.
"Jake, Jacob, wait. Where are you going?"
"Leah, we have to get out of here! We can't stay right now!" He yelled, grabbing hold of both of my arms.
His soft hands were suddenly rough and cold.
Why is he acting like this so suddenly?
He's scaring me.
What could he be afraid of? I thought as he glanced over my shoulder.
"What Jacob? What is it?" I yelled, glancing back still not seeing anything then looking back into his dark brown eyes.
Fear was all around him
"Lee…" He whispered.
I could tell he was breaking up in a sure panic. He never calls me Lee.
It's too close to "Lee Lee" which is what Sam calls me.
Jacob backed away from me slowly, dropping my arms. "Jacob, What's wrong?" I asked worried, inching towards him.
"I can't do this." He said low, suddenly grabbing at his heart, then dropping to his knees.
"Jacob?"
"Stop!" He yelled as I leaned down towards him "It's…it's… hap…happening again." He stuttered, bowing his head down in pain.
In that second I knew what was happening.
"No," I whispered, dropping to place my arms around him.
It was his heart.
"No! Just breathe, okay." I said putting my hand hard on his chest as if I could slow his attack down.
He grabbed hold of my arm so hard I thought to let go. "Leah."
"Jacob, you have to listen to me and just relax. Okay?"
"Leah, I can't. Not this time." He said gasping for air falling back on the cold wet grass.
I need help. With frantic eyes I searched the woods panicking but still saw nothing but trees.
There's no one. No one to help us.
In silence now, I looked down to Jacob who made no more movements.
"Jacob." I whispered, running my hands through his long jet black hair.
His eyes just glared up towards the sky. "JACOB!" I yelled trying my best to hold back tears.
Shaking him.
But I knew he was gone.
"Please…. don't… leave… me." I sobbed.
"He's gone." I heard my mother's voice from behind me.
I did not think to turn.
"He's better off." She spoke again with a cold hard tone.
Not able to move one bit, all I could think about was Jacob wanting to leave.
Him being so afraid of something. Something that I had a clue of.
"Leah, we should go." Sue said.
"Leave me alone." I said still not wanting to look her way.
The pit of my stomach where butterflies flew, were now bee stings.
"Leah Clearwater, you get up off your feet. Now!" She spoke with such anger.
Even if I wanted to leave... with her was not where I wanted to go.
She wasn't my mother.
She was different, more evil, she was who Jacob feared for moments ago.
"Jacob is gone. You can't hold onto him forever." She spoke in a much lighter tone.
"Just shut up." I said low as the tears ran down my face.
"The kids are better off with one adult figure in the household. Just look at when Harry had his heart attack and died…. we got by just fine. Didn't we?" She said, and I knew for a fact that my mother wouldn't say such words.
She wasn't Sue Clearwater. She was something else being disguised as her.
"Dad just didn't have a heart attack from eating too much spaghetti." I said angrily. "It was those stupid vampires." I muttered.
"Yeah? What's Jacob Black's excuse? La Push hasn't seen signs of vampires in a long time. What's the reason now?" She spat and I suddenly felt a tug on my hair.
I screamed.
*End Of Dream*
...
"Mom!" I hear and feel someone shake me awake. "Mom, wake up. You're having a nightmare." I hear opening my eyes completely.
"Daniel." I say meeting his eyes, grabbing his arm tight in almost panic.
"Are you alright?" He was very worried.
I now realized that I've been sleeping for a while.
"I'm fine, just had the most bizarre nightmare ever." I said sitting up on the hotel bed.
My vision was blurry.
"Tears again?" Danny said as I wiped my face. "Sure you're alright?" He asked and I nodded.
"Yes, I'm fine. Hormones remember?"
Out the window it was pitch black.
After our book signing and meeting this evening, I came to rest while Daniel tied up some loose ends, to explain why we are cutting the book tour early due to my unplanned pregnancy.
It's been two days and I haven't yet told a soul. Only person that knows is Daniel.
"You know you were calling for dad." He said sitting on the edge of the bed.
"Was I?"
"Yeah, What was it about?" He asked.
I sighed. "Just the tragedy of losing him in the woods." I muttered sarcastically.
The thought about Jacob and my conversation the other day had made me upset, that I couldn't shop around or do something fun with Danny, so I came to relax.
Slept most of the day.
I do worry for Jacob being back at home doing things alone. I hate being here without him.
I hate not having him hold me, and tell me how happy he is for me.
I'm unsure how he will feel about me being pregnant, though I can never get him outta my head when he's being such a selfish jerk.
I hate that I can't hate him for it.
I honestly would feel the same if it was him traveling far from me. I love him so much and am sad that I'm not with him right now.
If there was a choice of him being here instead of Daniel I would be on cloud9. I have this amazing opportunity of being successful and I can't even share it with the person I love most in this world.
Every time something else amazing happens I wish for him to be beside me to witness it. Instead he would rather stay in Washington.
How can I pursue my passion sanely on my own if he's not with me? It sucks. I was so furious at him two days ago for wanting me to go home, but now I think of how upset I would be if he was doing fine and better off without me there.. not to mention the surprising baby news.
It just kills me when it's about me he's completely oblivious, but when it's about him it's the end of the world.
His complex of 'I want you to be happy, it's just I want to be the only one thing in the universe to make it happen'... furthermore, for some strange reason I feel guilty for practically abandoning him.
"Mom. Come eat, I ordered dinner. I know it's late, but you haven't really eaten. There's one more conference in the morning before our flight back home." Daniel said and I smiled up at him.
With his brown hair cut short like it was, reminded me of how Jacob looked when he first shifted.
Daniel keeps his hair short because as a wolf, his fur would be longer.
"Thank you. You take very good care of me."
He smirked. "Of course, Mom."
"You haven't told Hazel we're coming home early, have you?" I asked.
"No, I think I'll surprise her." He says, as we walked to the small table with plastic containers. "It's roman and soup. No seafood at all." He smiled. "You eat, I'll be back in a little bit."
"Wait. Where are you going?" I asked.
"To call Hazel, she's having lunch at this time." He said I frowned, I hate having to keep him away from his imprint. I've never seen someone so in control like that.
Embry was so attached to Sarah, that he couldn't go four days without seeing or hearing her voice.
I guess all wolves and imprint relationships are different. You could say the uniqueness is what makes this entire situation a bit beautiful.
Like for instance, me being the very first female shapeshifter in the tribe's history, at first I didn't find it much of an honor. It was a curse, but now I embrace it. I see things a whole lot differently now.
Seventeen years ago I wrote my first book, an autobiography called 'Lenten Moon: A Tribe Against The Cold Ones'. It was seen through my eyes and everything I went through. Self publishing wasn't easy but before I knew it people across the world were curious about the supernatural creatures that unknowingly walked among them.
A year ago I wrote my second book, a fiction story called "The Sun: A Life That Would Be Worth Living". It's a story of my imagination of how life would be without vampires and wolves. It didn't make the bestsellers list like my first book had but it still has a very grand fan base. The number one question I'm asked now in interviews is 'Why did it take many years to write another book?' That question was always simple, my family.
*Flashback*
16 years ago
The day after my speedy wedding, normalcy was somewhat back in the air.
"How does it look, Caleb?" Daniel asked Caleb about his hair who was sitting behind us, eating a sandwich at the kitchen table.
"Umm… I don't know, I can't see." Caleb replied back.
I had decided to cut it more than I did yesterday. I was too afraid that I would mess up his hair on the day of the wedding, so I decided to finish it this morning.
"Alright, I'm done. You can go look at it now." I smiled, picturing the look on his face when he saw his new hairdo.
"Wow. Mommy you-"
"Shh– don't. Let Danny go look at it." I said to Caleb and Daniel turned.
"Can I look at it in your room?" Daniel asked, jumping from the kitchen chair.
"Sure, go ahead." I said as he turned to run towards the hallway.
"It looks just like mine." Caleb whispered.
"Yeah, but he has a little more than you." I said running my fingers through his short cut hair.
"I think he's going to love it." Caleb said, biting into his sandwich.
"If not he'll just have to wait till it grows back." I said placing the scissors on the table beside Daniel's hair-locks.
"How do you like it Danny?" Caleb said and I turned as Daniel walked back in the kitchen looking completely different than before.
"I like it." He said not sounding too excited.
"But?" I stated.
"Nothing. It just looks weird." He said, scratching his head.
"What did Daddy say?" Caleb asked.
Jacob was still asleep when I woke up.
"He didn't see, he's in the shower. I don't know, I think I have to warm up to it I guess." Daniel admitted.
"I thought you wanted your hair short." Caleb asked him.
"I know." Daniel said, walking over towards me as I picked up every little piece of hair. "So what are you going to do with it? Throw it away?"
"No. We can donate it. Have someone make it into a wig." I suggested.
"To who?" He asked, scratching his new cut hair once more.
I shrugged. "There's a lot of different causes around for kids with Cancer, I'm sure they won't mind us donating."
"Really?" He said intrigued. Daniel was such a sweetheart.
"Yep."
"What's Cancer?" Caleb asked.
"A killing disease." Daniel answered.
"Disease? And it kills kids?" Caleb asks.
"It can kill anyone." Daniel stated.
"Why?" Caleb asked.
"No one really knows except for scientists. Grandpa Jeremiah once told me it's the chemicals in processed foods and nasty soda. So stick to your natural fruits and veggies." Daniel answered back.
It's odd that I didn't even have to correct him. Jeremiah has always been a father to me after Harry died. Probably once Sarah begin to crawl, we'll take a family trip down to Makah Reservation and spend some time with the tribe down there.
"Exactly, now stop talking and finish eating your sandwich." I said to Caleb, grabbing a plastic bag and placing the hair inside.
"I bet. If I let my hair grow, then you cut it again mommy -it can make up to a hundred wigs too." Caleb smiled.
Daniel laughed. "Cabe, your huge imagination is so funny." Like most five year olds.
"Right, that's too much." I smirked at Caleb. "Danny, go put the plastic bag on top of your dresser."
"Okay. I wonder what grandpa Billy is going to say when he sees my hair." Danny smiles.
"I'm pretty sure the old man will be speechless." Jacob said from the living room and I glanced back.
Walking into the kitchen dressed up to leave, he glared over at Daniel.
"Do you like it?" I asked him as he bit his bottom lip.
He made a strange face. "I don't dislike it."
"I know it's weird, huh!" Danny said to him.
"Weird is not really the word that comes to mind." Jacob mumbled.
"I'll be back, I have to take my hair and put it up." Daniel said, racing to the steps to head upstairs.
"Can I go to work with you today?" Caleb asked Jacob who walked towards the refrigerator.
"Not going to the shop today bud." Jacob says, putting a hand on his shoulder. "Where's Sarah?"
"She's upstairs with Rebecca. Where are you going?" I asked suspiciously and he pulled me in for a quick kiss.
"My dads." He said turning to grab a bottle of water, then shut the refrigerator door.
Glancing down at his mother's ring on my finger that Billy gave to him two nights ago. It was a silver diamond- gorgeous and I'll wear it to my grave.
"Can I come?" Caleb asked him.
"Of course, then we'll go to First beach. Go change out of those clothes first." Jacob said, and Caleb jumped from his seat to run upstairs.
I look at the kitchen table. Caleb is never able to eat without making a mess.
He once used to eat everything off the floor by dumping his plate onto it.
"Do you feel like coming with us?" Jacob asked moving towards me and I shrugged.
"I was thinking of watching a movie and ordering lunch. You guys can just stay here with me. What are you and Billy talking about doing? Is he having second thoughts about the ring?"
Jacob chuckled. "No way. Him and I… we decided to make spending days together a habit. Guess you can say we've had a heart to heart about parenthood and relationships. We even spoke about my mother a bit." He stated.
"That's huge, Billy always usually avoids talking about Sarah." I say.
Jacob nodded.
"I never understood why it was so hard for him until now. It's like my brain was always needing him to say something, but I hadn't thought of his pain at all that he could still be trying to heal from the loss of her." He says, and the dynamics of his and Billy's relationship made sense. "Anyway, It's nice out today, fresh air and sunlight. We could go swimming before going to my dad's for lunch?" He said, wrapping his arms around my waist pulling me closer to him.
"We own a swimming pool." I reminded him. "Just tell Billy to come here."
"I know but the beach is different." He stated. It's also more crowded.
"You go with the boys. Have some male bonding time with your dad and your sons. I don't feel like getting dressed today. I'll stay in with Sarah and Rebecca." I said as it was already 12:00pm in the afternoon.
Rebecca came over early this morning to bring breakfast for us. Josh and Jacob were the only ones still asleep, as Caleb wanted to play with Sarah before I decided to do Daniel's hair. Jeremiah left late last night, Embry had driven him back home.
"Are you sure?" He asked with pleading eyes.
His body was so warm, I caressed his arms smoothly with my palms.
I nodded. "Maybe you can come back early and we can have some alone time. Some dinner... then a massage..." I flirted.
Jacob smirked. "Or I can call Haylie over to babysit while we go out for a date night."
I shook my head. "No, that's okay. Just come home and I'll make something new and special for you. Go enjoy the day with your dad and the boys."
Jacob nodded. "Okay, whatever you like. Also after my massage let's talk about this honeymoon, I can't wait to get you alone."
I smiled leaning up to kiss him and he quickly put his lips to mine. My amazing husband.
*End Of Flashback*
Embry Call Pov
I threw myself down on the bed.
I was exhausted. Hadn't slept since my last patrol, but still knew I wasn't going to get any sleep until I saw her.
Sarah.
I closed my eyes and she was all I could see.
Pink lips, long glossy black hair.
Skin so beautiful, curvy body, like coppery silk, her dark eyes, wide, set above her high cheekbones.
The sharp scent of sweet pineapples filled my nose as if she was laying right beside me.
I opened my eyes, exhaled and felt my blood tickle with both anxiety and stiffness.
I miss her. I need to be near her.
It's been too long since we were ourselves. She's most likely in Math class right now, unless she skipped. She's not so good at math.
Two weeks ago she was called down to the principal's office, Elena called Jacob to notify him about a meeting but he called me instead of going to ask if I could fill-in for him. I went and it didn't look so good from Sarah's end.
For the last three months Jacob has been swamped at the café and car garage.
Since Leah's been traveling due to her book tour, Jacob has been running everything with the help of Caleb. I can't imagine the amount of stress he's going through, and I didn't make things easier by dropping my dilemma of Sarah on him the other morning.
I couldn't help it. Out of all people, Jacob knows what it's like to imprint on a child. In my case now, the child is growing more and more everyday… sadly so have my feelings.
Sarah's adventurous though cautious and slightly sensitive. I have no idea how badly this can go between us. Her feelings are what I fear.
I once had normal dreams of her. Generally, when she was younger she was always very friendly, playful, and carefree, now she has become the complete opposite but that doesn't stop me from wanting to be around her. She is also a bit of a tomboy, possibly a result from being around her brothers.
Though now it seems she hates softball, there hasn't been a softball game of hers that I haven't gone to. She's great at it, yet she's changing. The fact that she quit speaks volumes.
When I'm not with her I dream of being with her. These days it has come to the point that I dream of her in the most sexual way possible. Even in the thoughts of her now, every inch of me gets excited. Makes me want to take a cold shower, but the last time I tried I was in there for two hours.
It's a bit sick because she's only sixteen. I've completely gone over the edge.
Every minute, every second of the day, I think of only her.
To everyone in La Push I'm practically her second guardian, to anyone else I'm her boyfriend-figure. I can't take it.
Lifting my head to glance at the alarm on my wooden nightstand, it read 12:00pm.
Which meant I had two hours to rest before I had to pick Sarah, Hazel, and Henry from school.
Seth asked me this morning if I could give Henry a ride home, and since Hazel and Sarah are always joined at the hip, I couldn't leave her.
It's still funny to think how Jacob's daughter is a year older than my ex-girlfriend's daughter Hazel, and Henry who is Seth's son, cousin of Sarah, is a year behind them.
I already miss going to Sarah softball practice, I just need to get back to the days where we are us again. That's the only way we can deal with our feelings.
I laid down, and closed my eyes.
*Dream*
Water crashed against the sandy beach.
The weather was warm.
"I'm so sleepy." I say.
"Embry, Guess what?" Her shy voice asked jumping on top of me.
"Aw." I groaned in a bit of pain. "Sarah, you're too heavy."
"I'm sorry." She apologized, then helped me sit up.
"Look." She said looking up. "It's about to rain. I like the rain, it's nice."
"I hate it. It rains and never stops." I complained.
"I can take your mind off of it." She says, glancing around the beach. "We're alone now."
"We're alone because it's about to rain. We should leave." I say back.
"Soon." She laid her body down onto the sand and I wanted to be with her.
I did the same.
"It's nice laying with you, you know." She says.
I smiled at her. "Yeah, it's great."
She leaned over kissing my lips fast and I froze.
Her soft pink lips brushed against mine.
"Embry, follow me." She said against my mouth.
I did as she said.
Closing my eyes, I kissed her back pressing my lips to hers.
What started out so gentle quickly turned rushed.
Before I knew it I was on top of her, kissing her.
She trembled under me as I tried to catch my breath.
She pulled me closer and I feared I was too heavy for her.
"You okay?" I asked her softly, stopping our kiss.
She nodded her head. "I'm okay." She chuckled.
Filling the rush I knew it was going to rain at any moment. "Maybe we should wait."
"I'm okay." She repeated, then pulled my neck to continue kissing.
This felt good.
I want to try to keep her happy.
"I trust you." She says stopping our kiss, then taking my mouth forcefully.
I groaned as her legs wrapped around my body.
I didn't want to go too far.
"I love you," I whispered against her swollen lips.
"Love you too."
I loved her so much.
"Talk to me." I said breathlessly kissing her.
"I am." She said low.
"Tell me what you need me to do." I kissed her sweet lips again. "I want to make you happy."
"Now?" She asked, running her fingers through my hair.
"Yes. Tell me." I say kissing her neck.
"My clothes." She said kissing my cheek then brushing her lips with mine.
I paused not kissing anymore.
"Embry. I'm okay." She said and her hands ran over my chest. "Kiss me." She said and I leaned my head down as she asked.
Kissing her lips yet again, she kissed me even harder. Moaning and moving her hand down in between us, to my pants.
"Sarah."
*End of Dream*
...
"Embry?"
I heard a female voice say from my hallway and I jumped out of bed.
Clumsy, almost tripping over my own foot, I moved to the doorway.
"It's Haylie." She called out and as I spotted her at the top of my staircase. Long wavy black and brown hair, the sun peered through the hallway window directly on her.
"What? What are you doing here?"
"You left your front door open? Are you sleeping?" She asked.
I sighed, rubbing my eyes. "I was. What do you want?"
"My car broke down, right down the street. Can you help me?" She asked.
"Yeah, sure." I said then I thought of Sarah. "No, wait what time is it?" I asked, glancing over my shoulder into my room. "I have to pick Sarah up from school." I said then realized she wasn't supposed to be here. She was posted to be at school, that's all the reason why I agreed to also pick up her daughter Hazel even though she and Sarah are always together. "Wait, Why aren't you at work?" I asked her.
She works at the high school as the guidance counselor. "I had a doctor's appointment, so can you make a call to the shop and see if someone can tow my car?"
"Yeah sure." I said reaching into my jeans pocket to grab my cell.
"Thanks." She said turning around and going back down the steps.
Searching through my phone the only person I knew was at the shop right now was Paul, who only started working at the garage two years ago.
I pressed the call button as I myself went to walk down the stairs. "What?" Paul said through the other line. Good thing Jacob still has the caller idea, or the auto shop would have no customers because of Paul's rudeness.
"I need you to get the truck and come pick up Haylie's car. It broke down."
"Ugh. Just when I thought I was going to have a good day." He whined.
"She says it's not so far from my house, so come and she'll be waiting. I have to go pick Sarah up from school in a little bit."
"Hahaha." He laughed.
"What?" I was confused about what he found funny.
"Your ex girlfriend is at your house, wait until Sarah finds out. She's gonna roast ya." He laughed and I pushed the end button as I got to the bottom of the steps.
Haylie was standing in my kitchen.
"The truck is on its way." I said to Haylie as she looked to my refrigerator door.
"Thanks."
"No problem." I said back.
"This is so cute, you know." She said pointing to the fridge and I glanced at all the little paintings Sarah did and pictures of us from years ago.
"Yep." I said taking a green apple from my fruit bowl that was in the center of my table.
"How are you guys doing?"
"We're fine." I stated.
"Are you sure? Because Hazel tells me that she hasn't been seeing you guys together lately."
"Haylie, you're the last person I'll talk about my relationship with." Even though there's no actual relationship when it comes to me and Sarah at the moment.
"You know, the worst feeling in the world isn't realizing the person you're in love with is falling out of love with you. The saddest part is, you don't ever see it coming." She stated.
"What does that mean? Who says Sarah is falling out of love with me? Did Hazel tell you that?" I was a bit worried.
"Look, Embry. I know you're afraid."
"Of what?"
"That you'll be as heartbroken as Jacob was when his imprint cheated on him."
I didn't say a word.
"It took awhile but Jacob found love again, in Leah. So if things don't work out with you and Sarah, don't lose hope."
I snorted, rolling my eyes.
She's the last person I need or better yet want to talk to about imprinting with. "Bye, Haylie." I said turning away from her.
"Where are you going?" She asked.
"To pick my imprint up from school."
No one, let alone Haylie, can imagine what I'm going through right now.
I was her first and only real relationship before the half-leech Noah came along. Haylie practically dumped me for him, but it wasn't such a loss on my end.
She's just as annoying as she was years ago. If it wasn't for her daughter being friends with Sarah I would never see her or her husband.
Haylie is as fake and delusional as the drama she creates. She barely speaks to Jacob and Leah anymore because Leah isn't too fond of Noah near Sarah or any of her kids.
Haylie had to learn that when you bring a hybrid-leech around wolves, there's bound to be trouble.
In my car, driving towards the reservation high school thinking how I never felt bad for how things ended with me and Haylie.
I cared for her, though I was never in love with her. I knew she wasn't the one for me ages ago.
When you meet people, a light goes off which informs you that they're special and will have a grand effect on your life.
Haylie for me wasn't one of those people. She was just nice and sweet, but talked a lot and never ever made any sense to me.
When it came to her and Noah, it was hard to accept the truth when the lies were exactly what I wanted to hear. In my mind I wanted to believe that she didn't want some bloodsucking leech more than she wanted me, and that's what disgusted me most. That she could become such a leech-lover.
First with Aiden before she died, then Noah. I felt like Haylie would've picked them bloodsuckers over her own kind, as Jacob did years before that. I couldn't fully give my heart to Haylie. I couldn't trust her.
Unlike Sarah. I believe that even if I didn't imprint on her, she would be the center of my entire world. She's reliable, trustworthy, honest, funny and has an amazing taste in music.
When I look at her I see a mirror reflection of myself, but then I see someone who's the total opposite of me.
She loves tacos and oranges while I like hoagies and blueberries. She sleeps with her T.V on and I prefer silent darkness.
On her birthdays she loves going to the same pasta-seafood restaurant even though I'm allergic and hate seafood, but I still go with her for takeout.
I am afraid everyone believes how wrong it is to fall in love with your best friend's daughter, but to enjoy it. A huge part of me feels ashamed. I'm afraid of never again feeling the way I feel when I'm with her.
Deep down I'm afraid that this isn't real to her like it is to me. Also that she will use my feelings as a game. I love her, and I'm afraid that I won't be able to make her happy.
*Flashback*
16 Years Ago
It's Jacob and Leah's wedding day and things are crazy.
"Jake, are you ready?" Jeremiah called from the kitchen. He only arrived here twenty minutes ago and he's in a hurry. Little does he know that Jacob has never been late for anything, well except for school once or twice.
"It's going to take an hour and a half to get to the chapel, not to mention grab a suit and tux." Jeremiah said as Jacob came from the bedroom into the living room.
"I'm ready, Lets go." He said wearing a pair of tan khakis and a dark blue shirt.
"Wait, ahh..." I said standing on my feet. "So what's the plan?" I asked, knowing those two were heading to Port Angeles but wasn't sure of the time.
Leah was actually up stairs now getting dressed with the help of Haylie and Billy. "There's a Church called Mother Earth that I heard of In Port Angeles. I've already called and they have an opening at 2:00pm. The faster we get there the quicker this thing can happen." Jeremiah said moving towards the front door as Jacob did.
"Remember, soon as Rebecca, Rachel and Elena leave Damon's funeral, tell them they should be there at 1:30pm." Jeremiah said to me and Jacob paused at the door to look over.
"Make sure you guys are on time."
"Don't worry Jake, we'll be there and on time." I promised and he turned and opened the front door.
"Here comes Elena right now." I guess Damon's funeral was fast. "Seth, Quil, Paul and Mason will be with us." Jacob added.
"Right." I said understanding. "See ya." Flopping back down on the couch as Jeremiah and Jake left, then came Elena into the house. Her and her husband Mason are new friends of Jacob and Leah. They just moved to the Reservation with their son Shane, two years ago. Mason works at the sheff station with me.
"Hey, Embry." Elena greeted me wearing a bright blue strapless dress and a baby-gap bag in her hand. "Where's Leah?" She asked as her long brown hair was pulled up in a bun. She looked really nice.
"She's up stairs getting the boys dressed. You left Damon's funeral early?"
"Yeah, though it is pretty much over now. Besides, Mason and Shane were worried about Jacob." She said and I just nodded. Her husband Mason, and son Shane often go on father and son fishing trips with Jake and Josh once in the bluemoon.
A few days ago when Haylie and Jacob went to save Leah. Jared and Damon went to help. Jared and Haylie told everyone how it was Cole, a hybrid member of Sam's pack, who killed Damon and was working with the bad guys all along. In the midst of the fight Aiden, Damon and all the other vampires were killed. All except the Cullen's.
"Leah dressed yet? Where's Sarah?" Elena asked.
"Yeah as far as I know Leah's almost dressed and Sarah is up stairs with her and Rebecca."
"Okay well I'll just go up then."
"What is that you have there?" I asked, eyeing the bag in her hand.
"Oh, Leah asked me to buy Sarah a cute dress for the wedding. You want to see?" She said getting ready to open the bag.
"Ah no, no that's okay. You go ahead up. You look amazing by the way." I commented. If she wasn't already married with a son, I would definitely take her out to dinner.
"Thanks." She smiled slowly moving up the steps.
Thirty minutes ago I ran home to grab the only suit I owned and shoes, then came right here.
I sighed, reaching over to grab the T.V remote, then switched on the news channel.
Hopefully it'll be clear-skies at least until the wedding is over.
My best bud is finally marrying the love of his life, one day I can only wish to do the same.
*End Of Flashback*