Hello.
Its been a minute, hasnt it?
I've been avoiding this discussion because it was extremely depressing to go through, but I've stalled enough. I haven't updated in years, which was due to a lot of new things happening in a nearly endless stream irl. From losing loved ones constantly, to adding a new baby to the family, to moving to another state, and also dealing with lots of health issues. There have been plenty of scares, depressing news, and hurdles to cross. I'm alive, but there were times when I wasn't sure I was going to stay that way. I am currently dealing with the most pressing of my issues: I've gone legally blind. Well, technically I have been legally blind for two years now and just refused to post anything about my condition because talking about it made the situation more grim, real, and infinitely more depressing.
I can no longer see much of anything, even with very thick glasses and my face inches away from whatever I am trying to squint at. I can't drive at night, or in the rain. I'm no good at measuring distances. I can't watch tv, read, write, or play video games. I can't even go outside to toss a ball around with my kids. My eyes are mostly for decoration nowadays, sadly.
I can no longer see the print I use to write my stories, and I and can't work with the much larger print I would need because seeing gargantuan letters engulfing my documents is too distracting. I have become extremely sensitive to light as well, so forcing myself to look at the screen was giving me severe migraines, nausea, and vomiting. I'm one of those people that can't finish chapters unless they are done in one sitting. That's been an impossible feat for some years now due to these useless eyeballs of mine.
We did get some good news towards the end of last year: My degenerative corneal condition could be stabilized (medicine has advanced so much since I got diagnosed as a child), and I could even gain some vision back after the procedure. The bad news is that the healthcare system is atrocious, and we have been going back and forth with our insurance trying to get them to cover the cost of surgery. I can't afford to pay 9k out of pocket for each of my eyes, so it's been a time-consuming and draining experince. My family and I had to resort to a GFM to fund my surgery. So, while I'm getting surgery on my worst eye on February, I am still going back and forth with my insurance. Due to all of this happening, I haven't had time to even consider coming back to write.
Still, now that the surgery is scheduled I'm a bit more optimistic about the future. Once my vision stabilizes, I will be back with all the chapters I had re-written and plenty of new ones for all my stories. It's just a matter of me tending to my health first.
For anyone who still follows my stories or has commented with encouraging words, thank you. Truly. I love this ship, and I love to read and write it, and it's always a pick me up when I see there are still fans of the ship out there. I can't promise perfection when it comes to my fics, but I can promise to write for the ship for as long as I possibly can. I hope you stick around, and that you also take a chance on the pairing and add to the ship's story collection here and in Ao3. I would love to have more Cho/Harry to read!
In the meanwhile, you are always welcome to pm me questions about anything story related, or even the ship. :)
Sorry for any typos. I can barely see what I'm typing here.
Love,
x TTC x