Sarah Black Pov

*Later That Night*

Walking into the dance beside Hazel and Daniel, I looked across the gym room where Henry and Keira were dancing.

"Looks like uncle Seth and aunt Taylor allowed Henry to come to the dance." I smiled.

"Yeah, all of our parents are suckers." Hazel joked.

"Come on, let's dance." Daniel said to Hazel as the song "I Want To Dance With Somebody" by Whitney Houston played from the speakers. I only knew this song because my grandpa Billy always makes me dance with him, when it comes on at the cafe.

"Wait, I don't want to leave Sarah alone." Hazel said hesitating on leaving.

"No it's fine, go ahead. Embry is on his way. He's just got held up at the house, Jeremiah's death is hitting everyone hard." I stated.

"Are you sure?" Hazel asked.

"Yes, go dance. Have fun." I said pushing them away.

Daniel laughed and I was pleased that he and Hazel made up.

"Sarah?" I heard someone say my name and I looked to the side door of the gym.

Ethan stood there, wearing a long sleeve plaid snap-up shirt and black jeans.

"Ethan? What are you doing here?" I said walking towards him. He completely overdid-it with his hair gel, but he reminded me of a teenage Adam Beach with shorter hair.

"I thought I'd come just in case your imprinter bailed on you." He said and I rolled my eyes.

"Embry would never do that."

"Oh yeah?" He smirked. "Sure about that?"

I sighed, not in the mood for him. "Just go home Ethan, I really do not need you putting doubts in my head."

He shrugged. "Those doubts were already there before I came here." He stated.

I sighed. "Excuse me, I need some air." I said pushing passed him out into the student garden.

I needed to get away from him. I couldn't let it show that I was nervous about Embry coming.

I did have doubts but I'm hoping that he would shut them up.

The light on the ground led me towards a bench by a fountain.

I wanted to sit, but I was afraid of getting my strapless tiered dress dirty. White and dirt always ruins a night.

Ethan being here was unexpected, I didn't want to stand there and allow him to make me doubt Embry. Not when Embry and I are doing better than we had before.

I know eventually he will show up.

After dropping me off at school this morning I knew he wanted what I wanted, and that was to be best friends again.

"Sarah, are you okay?" Hazel was walking out of the gym towards me.

"Yeah, I'm fine."

"Are you sure? I saw Ethan."

"I'm fine, just waiting for Embry." I replied.

"I know that look on your face. Are you afraid he won't show?"

I sighed. "I asked him here and he couldn't pick me up like it was a real date." I said honestly. "I don't think he's coming."

Hazel shook her head then looked over towards the muddy parking lot.

"Speak of the devil and he shall appear." She said, staring away and I turned towards my right.

Walking towards us was Embry.

Wearing a black tuxedo with a teal color tie, Embry smiled over at me.

"And that will be my cue, see'ya." Hazel said, quickly disappearing back towards the gym.

I smiled showing my teeth and I knew I looked ridiculous.

I can't believe he actually came.

"Hi." I said staring in his gorgeous brown eyes as he came so close I could smell the spearmint gum on his breath. No doubt he spit it out when he got out of his car.

"Hello beautiful." My heart was hammered.

Flinging myself to him fast, I hugged him so tight like I've never done before.

"I'm so happy you came."

"Of course." He said rubbing my back smoothly. "I'm sorry I took so long."

I shivered at his fingertips on my skin.

"I've missed you." I said, completely happy and glad Ethan was so wrong about him.

"Those three words are what get me up and going." He said and I leaned back.

"For the last few weeks I have been feeling different about you, and I've been so frustrated." I admitted.

"Me too." He confessed.

I loved him and I should be pleased that I wouldn't have to go through all the boyfriend dramas and worry about finding the right guy. I already had him.

We were made for each other and I knew that he was mine for my whole life, but was it too soon for our happy-ever-after?

"I want to ask you something." I say.

"Alright?" He continued to hold onto me.

"Saying yes to coming tonight isn't part of the goodbye process, is it?"

Embry narrowed his eyes confused.

I will never be alright saying goodbye to him, though if he isn't ready to be with me then I have no choice but to wait.

Earlier in school Hazel mentioned that she can't wait to get back on track with Daniel so they could have alone time. Which could only mean one thing, so they could have sex. Hazel is no virgin but I am. My mom doesn't mention the birds and the bees often -out of fear I want to experience it way too soon. Though I remember once when I was eleven, watching 'Sleeping Beauty' I knew I needed a first real kiss. Never had it with someone I loved. I know Embry may not want to leave for good without something to remember me by, so just maybe, he can truly make this night a magical one.

The other night when I touched him by accident, he was alright with it. It was like he was turned on by it, I could sense it. The physical attraction, Hazel said, she herself could see the sparks between Embry and I.

"Out of all times, Why now? Why tell me you wanted to come to the dance and be late? Did you change your mind? You have no idea how this is for me."

"Sarah-"

"Your hot and cold Embry." I say cutting him off. "I need to know, for me to give you my heart then soon forget about me would crush me. I'm hoping you don't want me to say I'll be happier without you because I won't be."

"No. No, No, I swear to you this isn't a game for me Sarah." He said honestly. "That day in the cafe and the night at the bonfire.. is what I miss most about us." He says.

"I know... It was like old times," I agreed. "But am I supposed to save that in my many memories of Embry Call' my imprinter who left me?"

"Sarah-"

"If it is because of her then I don't want any of it." I said, speaking of Amy Uley. "She asked me if she could help change your mind but I don't want that if you don't want us yourself."

"Wait, What? Who?" He said completely lost.

"You know who?"

"Amy?" He said, already knowing. "Why in the world would she say that? When did you even talk to her? And who says I'm still leaving town?"

"You tell me."

"Sarah-"

"Just please tell me the truth!" I said cutting him off again practically yelling. "I'm tired of having hopes for us and having Ethan gloat about you disappointing me."

"I told you to stay away from that egghead." He said and sighed. "Truth is when I look at Amy, you're all I see. You are the one that I love, and I'm not going anywhere. I don't believe I ever was. So as far as Amy goes, she's nothing but another face in these woods."

I glanced over at Ethan who was dancing all by himself in the gym as everyone stood around and watched. "I know the feeling."

"How could you go to that club with him?" He asked and I looked him in his eyes.

He was frowning at my horrible decision. "I didn't. I mean, I went with Hazel. I was just so sad at how much you were treating me like a child. I wanted to have fun."

"I'm sorry, I never intended to make you feel that way." Embry said lowering his head for a second then back up to look in my eyes. "I just couldn't let go of the little girl part of you, that part was the easiest and made more sense. I'm 37 years older than you are. Old enough to be your parent, anyway… I didn't mean to make you feel like I was treating you like a child. No matter what I will always protect you even if that means keeping away so you can make your own decisions. That's the part I always had in mind. You mean the most to me, you know that."

"Yes, now I know." I nodded.

"The night when you left the campfire I felt I'd let you down and lost you."

"No," I shook my head. "You could never lose me."

"I love you." He spoke.

Ah, did he say what I think he just did? No way.

"What?"

"I said, I love you." He repeated.

I closed my eyes, smiling then reopened them. "I heard you, I just wanted you to repeat it."

I felt as if a wrecking ball lifted up off my heart.

"I'm done fighting against it anymore." He said honestly and I let out a huge huff.

"Those words definitely sounded different in my head." I smiled.

"Tomorrow, What do you say for lunch we will go to the spring carnival?" He asked.

"Like a date? A real date?" I muttered trying to keep my excitement down.

"Yeah. I mean I know Jeremiah just passed, but we should take things slow."

"Yes." I said fast. "Yes, I would love to, it'll be so great to go with you." I smiled, squeezing him closer, then leaned back a bit. "More than cool actually."

Embry leaned his lips down to mine and I froze. Not moving a muscle.

Our skin touched.

Feeling my heart beating out of my chest.

It was happening.

My very first real kiss.

Embry lips were cold and dry but tasted super minty as they came against mine.

It wasn't as wet as I imagined.

I leaned back a little, reopening my eyes, "Spearmint…."

He laughed. "Hush."

His lips were once again on mine and I mimicked him, moving my mouth as slowly as he did.

He stopped and I stumbled when he backed away. "Let's get out of here. The Syfy channel is airing Aliens' in ten minutes." He says.

I smiled at that. "Alright, but I probably should inform you that that was my first real kiss."

"Liar. I remember your brother's friend Shane's truth or dare game." He says.

I laughed. "That does not count, I was like seven and completely caught off guard."

Grabbing hold of my hand, Embry turned and we started running towards the parking lot.

Good thing I wore flats.

His car was not so far from the student garden, we stopped running as we got to his police cruiser. "Jeez, how romantic is being whisk away in this." I said sarcastically.

Embry laughed, opening the passenger door. "Funny." He smiled.

"Thank you." I said getting in the car.

"You're welcome." He took a bow as if I was a princess. I smiled at that.

*Two Hours Later*

"Don't you just love Sigourney Weaver?" I said looking at Embry as he stuffed his face once again with fried plantains with cheese.

"Yep, love her." He replied as the credits on the T.V rolled.

"So what do you want to watch now?" I asked.

"It's getting pretty late, I'm going to go and change my clothes. I'll take you home afterwards." He said getting up off the sofa, then slowly turned to walk down the hall towards his guest room. It's his second bedroom for when he's too lazy to climb the staircase.

Perks of owning his own house, every room is his to do as he pleases. Ever since his mother died he's been alone here.

The guest room was manly for his aunt Agnes, whenever she came to visit but she never truly used it to sleep in. She always preferred the couch, because this is where the television is. I haven't seen his aunt Agnes in two years, she was always such a hippy-nomad.

I frown at the thought of this night ending, I didn't want to go home.

At the dance not only did Embry show up, but he made it clear he wasn't leaving La Push and that he loved me.

I sighed. He really surprised me tonight.

I didn't want to go home yet.

Embry showing up at the dance all good looking and perfect, was just what I wished for.

Him telling me that he loved me and that he didn't want to fight against the imprinting anymore, I couldn't be more happy about it.

A part of me knew it, Especially from the night when we held hands in front of everybody at the bonfire.

He was different the way he moved, it was all different.

I knew something had changed that's why I invited him to the dance this morning.

I didn't want that beautiful moment to end.

Walking towards Embry's room, there were paintings on the walls of drawings I had made when I was young.

He framed, and hung them all.

The sound of music from a radio was playing as I got to the door of Embry's guest room.

He was standing in the middle of the huge room, undressing.

Shirtless he took off his tux pants and sat on the end of the bed. I was beyond attracted to him.

Walking into his room he looked up at me surprised.

"Hey." He said as I paused in front of him. He looked so hot and amazing.

Embry is quieter and more shy than some of the other guys on the Reservation. He is playful, but still comes across as being more reserved.

I wanted to kiss him all night while watching the Alien movie, but I held back.

Right now, I wanted to do more than kiss him.

I wanted to show him how much he meant to me. I wanted him to touch me, like boyfriends and girlfriends do. To hold me in the most intimate way possible.

"Were you afraid of never belonging to yourselves anymore? To know that this has nothing to do with genes." I said slowly climbing on top of him, straddling him.

"Sarah?" Embry said, embarrassingly uncomfortable.

"I was never once sad with you, just a bit afraid that you didn't feel the same…" I said, wrapping my arms around his neck. "Now that I know that you do. I'm happy."

Gently putting my hands in his soft black hair, he sighed. "Sarah, I know with almost shifting you have some heightened hormones.. or whatever but making out right now will be moving too fast."

"You care about me don't you?" I ask, caressing his cheek.

"Yes, I care about you.." He says low. "Deeply."

"Okay, If you're going to tell someone you love them... then you have to live up to those words, right?" I say, continuing to look him in his eyes. "Because love needs to be shown, not said." I gave his cheek a touch with my lips, then massaged his hair with my hands gently.

"What do you want me to do?" He whispered.

"We agreed this night will be one to remember, right?" I said kissing his neck.

This morning in the car when he drove me to school he was happy about the dance, happy about being around me.

When I was thirteen and learned about adult relationships through an R-rated movie, I asked him about it. He was freaked, but never told my parents. "You said my first time should be with someone special." I whispered.

No one is better than him. His name is the only one that comes to mind when I dream about my first time.

He sighed.

Embry moved his hands to my thighs. "Sarah? We can't." He whispered as if we weren't alone in the house.

"I don't trust anyone but you." I said, putting my lips to his, kissing him as gently as I could.

He kissed me back, his lips softer and wetter than the first.

I knew he wouldn't be sure if he wanted to do this or not, but from what I can tell…. He's been celibate for years.

His last girlfriend was Haylie, before I was born and that was a long time ago. There haven't been any rumors of anyone else.

"Don't you want to take care of me?" I asked. He's the only one I know to do it right.

"Yeah." He breathed.

Kissing him once more, putting my tongue in his mouth, he pulled me closer allowing our tongues to play.

I couldn't taste much, except warmth and softness.

Embry groaned when I grind up against him. It wasn't long until he was hard beneath his boxer-shorts.

"Please?" I begged. "Just this one time." I spoke. I was ready.

Embry sighed once more, not saying a word and I kissed his neck once more, then put my lips to his ear.

"Please? I need you. I promise." I whispered.

I let him go just enough for him to reach down to the rim of my dress, unzipping it in the process.

In that instant he gripped my thighs so tight, swinging my entire body down on the bed. My arms steady around his neck.

I laid against his pillow as he kissed me, and slid off every single piece of clothing I wore with a tug.

Thank goodness our shoes were off the second we came into the house.

Feeling a sense of whiplash I stared up at the ceiling, nervous on how my naked body must look to him.

He has seen me in a bikini before but never like this. This was a different ball game.

He breathed against my uncovered skin. I smiled and he reached around my back, holding me.

I arched back. His hands felt so nice against my body.

It was like he knew what my body was saying to do.

He massaged my back, dedicating his mouth to my neck.

The pleasure I drowned in and loved.

Embry then worked his kisses to my ear.

I've never done anything sexually with anyone in my life, and I'm happy I made sure to save myself for him.

A new level of want and need washed through us and a small shiver ran down his spine.

He kissed his way back to my neck. Softly I breathed out, "I want you so badly."

He reached down, rubbing my entrance and for the first time I tensed up.

Pulling me close, I didn't have to glance down to see if he removed his boxers yet.

I felt it, I felt him. His naked body.

Pushing open my legs, I inhaled, closing my eyes tightly.

Shoot. This is going to hurt.

What am I doing?

His warm hand rubbing in between me, I sense the pressure already.

Leaning my head up to find his lips, I kept my eyes shut.

'Just do it. Just do it. Just do it. I thought and felt his hard penis press in between me.

He seemed so relaxed.

Of course he was, this wasn't his first time.

Digging my hands into his ribs. I pushed myself into him in hopes it could help, but it didn't as he stopped kissing me and I opened my eyes.

Both of his hands gripped my thighs as he thrust into me hard and I bit my lip in pain.

His hand moved up my body, caressing me. It felt so nice that it took my mind off his thrusting.

Why am I thinking so much?

With hands gripping the bed sheets tight, I buried my face slightly into the pillow as best I could as the thrusting continued against my wall. Damn this pain.

"You want me to stop?" He said speaking for the first time.

I shook my head.

In that second, opening my eyes I felt the room spinning but could hear his heartbeat.

He had an odd look on his face that I've never seen before.

I wanted to say 'No, It's alright, keep going, I love you.' but my voice was shot.

Was he done trying? Was he tired?

I pulled him into me more, moving my hands to the back of his neck.

Shaking my head once again. I didn't want him to stop. I wanted him to kiss me.

Putting my tongue in his mouth, he french-kissed me back and it all felt good again.

I caressed his skin lightly, then suddenly cried out when he pushed himself inside me again.

Putting my chest to his, I bared my face on his shoulder as the pressure lightened up fast.

Taking a breather I tried my best to move with him but it was hard to tell if I was actually doing so.

I moaned at the way he was inside of me. It felt so good now.

I smiled, as his pace slowed down.

After what felt like minutes Embry stopped and I looked up at him.

Not looking me in my eyes at all- he glared down, I assumed investigating what he had done.

Slowly as he pulled out of me and I sucked in my stomach in so tight, at the tenseness.

He reached over the bedside for something and I looked up at the ceiling.

Did this really just happen?

So fast it was, I just lost my virginity and it wasn't as bad as I thought.

Exhaling, I felt his fingers go over me and I closed my eyes. His touch felt nice. I moaned.

Still not able to say anything, Embry also didn't say a word and I felt him remove his hand and I loosened up.

"How do you feel?" He asked low and I looked from the ceiling to his eyes.

"Great."

"Sure?" He said moving from over top of me to the side.

I turned to lay on the left side of my body. "That was amazing, at first it was... you know... but then it felt amazing." I said, unsure of any other word to use to explain it.

"Do you ache?"

"No. Before I was aching because I was thinking too much. Until you kissed me and my mind was clear."

Embry didn't smile or frown.

His facial expression was unreadable.

"Thank you." I said touching his hair.

"I love you so much." I said leaning in to kiss his lips.

"I love you too." He slowly kissed me back, but it was obvious he wasn't into it as he was before. Now he was like a robot. "Come, get dress."

I leaned away. "What's wrong?"

He licked his bottom lip. "Nothing."

"Embry?" I asked as he wasn't happy.

"It's late. I should get you home." He said lightly touching my thigh.

I rolled my eyes, throwing my head hard on the pillow, as the bed moved and it seemed less heavy.

This night was now ruined. Placing my hand on top of my stomach, I wanted to feel below my waist but my hand wouldn't move.

I sighed.

"Was it that bad?"

"No, get dressed." He said too fast.

"You're moody again." I said looking at the ceiling. "Where's the other Embry?" As if there were two. "The one from the bonfire. The one who allowed me to touch him."

"Sarah?" He said my name with a dispiriting tone.

I felt angry. He ruins everything.

"It was so perfect. How could you not be happy? I just gave myself to you." I mumbled and felt the need to cry.

"Sarah."

"Stop saying my name like that." I yelled sitting up fast. "Tell me the truth."

"Go get cleaned up." He said, tightening his towel around his waist and grabbing my dress off the floor.

Standing from the bed I slowly moved towards the bathroom.

"I hate that you're like this." I said pausing, glancing back to see him stripping the sheets off the bed. "Pretty sure aunt Agnes isn't coming to visit anytime soon." I stated. "Not like she sleeps on this bed anyhow."

Embry sighed, looking at me and I turned for the shower.

His bathroom was clean as the rest of the house. Guess it would be since no one else lives here except him.

In the shower I just let the water run down my body, just allowing the hot water to wash away every part of me that was innocent and pure.

I sighed. Maybe it was too soon. Maybe I should've waited until he asked me to marry him, then again... I would be waiting for a long freaking time for that. I practically just had to plead for him to be with me in the first place. He barely wants to kiss me now.

Oh no. I can't and shouldn't feel bad about this.

I'm his imprint. He owed this to me, and hey... it could've been worse... I think.

Turning off the water, I stepped out of the tub and walked back to the bedroom.

It wasn't that cold like it usually is. It felt nice.

Not bothering to grab a towel I looked over as Embry walked back in the bedroom from the hallway.

He glared over at me surprised then abruptly turned for his dresser, obviously avoiding my naked body. "I'm happy it was you, just to make it clear." I said and he tossed some clothes on the bed.

"Put those on, I'll drive you home." He said then walked out of the room.

I rolled my eyes. "Thanks." I called out.

Walking to the bed to grab the clothes, physically I felt nice but emotionally my heart was breaking.

*Moments Later*

The drive home was short and quiet.

Embry didn't say a word as we were parked outside my house.

I turned my head to glare at him, though he kept his head down.

Oh no... he definitely was feeling guilty.

I couldn't help but smirk, seeing him naked was the highlight of my day.

He must be sad about what people would say about us being intimate.

I always imagine what I would say when I saw him naked. But I can't remember what it was that I thought after having steamy dreams about him. Which started last year.

"Do you see me differently now?" I asked.

Embry looked up out his windshield to keep from looking at me. He didn't say anything but I knew he did.

"Do you regret me? Is that why you're upset?" I whispered knowing he did and knowing that was why.

Closing his eyes for a second, he then turned to look at me. "I love you, Sarah. I would never regret being with you... but you cannot tell anyone. Alright? Not even Hazel."

I nodded. "I know." I'm sixteen and he's clearly too old for me. Imprint or not, he feels this was too fast for us.

"You promise?" He asked.

"Yes. If you're not comfortable ... then we don't have to ever be intimate, like ever.. at least until I'm eighteen, or... way older." I say awkwardly.

"You should go ahead inside. Your parents are probably worried about you." He said putting emphasis on the word parents and I narrowed my eyes, instantly hurt. "We'll talk tomorrow." He said and I knew he had no intentions of speaking with me tomorrow.

Not only was the best night I had in a long time ruined, but he's forcing me to promise to keep it to myself.

"You know, don't bother. You can hate me all you want right now, but you and I both know you wanted it just as much as I did. So when you're done being a butthole, then come talk to me or leave town like you planned on doing." I stated.

Opening the car door I got out fast, then slammed it shut. Turning for the house, I ran across the lawn and up the porch steps.

Wanting to look back at him, I knew it would make me seem weak. He clearly was the wrong one to share my first time with.

I should have chosen Ethan Uley, at least he would have been happy.

Opening the already unlocked door, I went inside.

It wasn't long until I heard Embry's car driving away and was met with many eyes.

Mainly mom's eyes. "Holy."

"Had fun?" She asked.

"Sure." I mumbled.

"Embry gave you his clothes I see."

"Yep, movie night after the dance." I said fast.

"Oh." She nodded.

"I'm tired, I'm going to head to bed." I say stepping on the stairs.

"Alright, but if you get hungry, dinner is in the oven. One of your favorites, homemade Hawaiian pizza." She stated.

"Thanks, but I ate over at Embry's." I answered walking up the staircase to my room.

For the first time tonight after all I've been through, the cold blooded murderous look in Embry's eyes shook me.

I flopped down on my bed.

Why didn't he want me? I thought he wanted me. Wanted us.

The feeling of love wasn't with us at the moment. I thought he cared for me as much as I cared for him. I was wrong.

This was in fact more than I could handle.