(Estelle means "Star" in French and Spanish. Related names are Stella, Estella, and Esther. Saint Estelle was a martyr irl. See the connection to the Estelle in my story?

First Love:

…People around me warned me…even my parents, but I was young and dumb…

Knock Knock Knock

"Senora, Senor Sanchez is here," my maid informed me from behind my gold crystalized room door.

I hurried myself by checking my makeup and dress in my crystal mirror before running out my room—startling my maid—and downstairs.

"Miguel!" I shouted as I ran towards him.

He turned around, "Ay, ay, ay, Senora Estella! Slow down!"

I jumped and glomped him, knocking him down to the floor.

"Why do you keep calling me Senora? We'll be married in a couple months, papi~."

"Heh, we're not be married yet, Senora, and it's respect towards you because you.." he kissed my forehead, "..will become Miguel Sanchez's Queen~," he said and pulled me closer to him..if that was possible.

"Ay caramba~."

He got off the red velvet flooring, then helped me up, "Oh, I almost forgot…does your parents still approve of me despite my family's recent sudden bankruptcy?" he asked with a hesitant smile.

"Who cares what they do and don't approve of. Te amo, Miguel."

"Si, mi amore, te amo, mi bonita Estella."

…He took it that night of our wedding…

"Aah~! Miguel~…M-muy~," I begged.

"Si, bonita," his husky breath whispered in my right ear.

…He took what was left of it, bit by bit…

"Mi amore~, do you think you could help me? I need to pay back un amigo, I borrowed some money from him a month ago. The business hasn't given me my paycheck yet."

"Si, I'd do anything for you~."

…He took my love for granted…

"Gracias, mi cherie. You know I'm in love with you, right, Estelle?"

"Of course I do, Miguel. The main reason why I am in love with you, and only you."

…He took my life…

"I'm so sorry, Estelle…but I needed the money…"

My body laid on the street in a pile of red that was sliding down from my body, trying to cling on to what little life I had, as he stared down at me with eyes full of hurt and sorrow…

But I didn't believe that for a millisecond, not once his mistress began to hug up on and kiss him…and that bastard responded to it as if he did not just beat me with a boulder to near death…

"Let's go, honey. I don't even know why you bothered with her, just a girl. You need a real woman, such as I, and I am here to provide that…as long as you keep bringing in the money…" I heard her mumble the last part.

With one last longing look at my body, Miguel left with the woman pulling him along.

'I was so foolish…Why didn't I listen? Carmen, Madre y Padre, business acquaintances, they all warned me, but it was because of love, that I was blinded. Never…never again will I fall for a man out of pure love.'

"I..I don't want to die, Demicas, not yet…Yo soy veinte-tres, Yo no esta veux jeune…"

A blurry figure appeared over me when I blinked my eyes…I was so sure they were about to close for eternity.

"You don't have to, Estelle. I can give you life. Unlike God—who is much more cruel and would let you die—I will help you get revenge."

"Re..revenge?" I asked after coughing up blood.

"Yes. So? What do you say?"

…Greed consumed me…

"AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHHHH! Make it stop! Please! It hurts so much!"

"Yes, yes, I know, but this pain is nothing compared to the betrayal felt in your heart, is it?"

"Yes..yes, I want revenge!"

…And greed consumed him…

"She is dead. I will be taking over the Ruby business that you, Mr. Ruby, left to my dear Estelle," I heard him announce to my family and the staff.

With my bright red eyes that were soon to see his red, I kept them only on him as he navigated his way to my old room with the woman behind him…whom my family seemed to question, seeing as they didn't know who she was.

…Greed as well as consumed her…

"Oh! I love this room! Thank you, baby! Just one thing, how will you break it down to them that I'm your new fiancé?"

"In a few months, I'll tell them. Just leave it to me."

"Okay, Miguel. I'll be leaving now because I have a friend named Carmen giving me some money to buy this new dress I'm sure you'll love! I'll tell that girl's family you're mourning over her by staying in her room, bye, love you!" she said quickly, then sped out my room.

"….I killed her for her money…I was supposed to be heartless about it because I'm desperate, so…why I does it hurt so damn much?"

I found this to be the perfect opportunity to strike…

Crawling through my balcony's doors, I crawled on to the ceiling and above my canopy bed, then quietly got on the top.

"Do you know why it hurts so much, Miguel?"

"! Wha—Estelle?! Is that you, mi amore?!"

"Yo soy no mi amore, Miguel. I am someone you know longer know, who simply seeks revenge."

"Re-revenge?! B-baby, wait! I was just desperate, and that woman, Maria, she pressured me into doing it! She said she would make my family bankrupt, like before! I didn't want you to see me as a failure, Estelle!"

"And you thought it was okay to beat me, to kill me? The woman's name is Maria? She tarnishes the Virgin Mary's name as well as Mary Magdelin's—you are no exception either. You tainted the Arch Angel's, Michael, name. *Sigh*…Don't worry. I forgive you, Miguel…"

"You do, mi cherie?"

"Si…but I can't forget what you did to me: raising your hand up at me, then slowly killing me…Payback is a b*!"

Leaning over the canopy to reveal my malicious expression, I enjoyed his screams before pouncing on him.

…The greed kept consuming me for years…

No Love:

His eyes scrutinized my form as my body twisted and turned passionately.

Despite the cold, I still moved to the beat in my heart, canceling out the cries.

I didn't know what he found so interesting about my dancing…Dancing in general, but…I assumed it was because of the red that splattered as I danced.

When I took a sip, I saw his eyes had narrowed…Was he disgusted? If so, I didn't care.

"Estelle, stop."

"Why stop? They're attacking us, Urd."

"How will they do that..if you keep ravaging their dead bodies?"

Confused by what he said, I looked down before me to see limbs scattered in different directions and red snow.

"…Oh..I hadn't realized."

"Estelle."

Looking back to him, I was a bit startled that he was in front of me.

Before I could take a step back, he cupped my cheeks, wiping the red off my cheeks and into his white gloves as he stared down at me solemnly.

"Those eyes may be red, but they're sweet…like a red strawberry. This act, those before, and those I hope to prevent, does not suit you. I can provide you with everything…and still make your death look like an accident in order to hide you away from this cruel world."

What a tempting offer that I thought my friend was never cable of being considerate…

"Urd, you know I-"

He licked my lips, tasting the red that had splattered on them, then licked again and again as his eyes stare deeply into mine.

Who could blame him—someone who was dead inside—for becoming too attached to someone who will die that seemed like a minute to a vampire, and eras to a human?

Placing each hand on the sides of his head, I looked up at him with fervor for a couple seconds, then hit my head against his, making him take a step back from me.

"You know what I have to do…and you've known me long enough to know that I am hellbent on something once I know it's for the better good. I am grateful that you thought about my situation, but in order to...become human…you have to give up your humanity."

But I denied that consideration…which would eventually turn into love, then no love…

Desire Love:

As I watched my long time friend, Carmen, give the announcement about me handling an agreement with a human on the surface about the Imperial Moon, I felt eyes specifically burn into me another way…

Glancing through the crowd, I saw his red eyes, in them was filled with lust…and something else I couldn't identify.

Getting up from my throne chair used for announcements, I jumped down next to Carmen on her left side, nearly startling her, then I whispered in her ear.

"Finish up here, I'm gonna go."

"Where are you going?"

I leaned away from her with a small smirk, "You know where." I looked to our audience, "Nothing to fret over, my followers! Karnstein shall continue!"

I jumped back up to the second floor and went through the curtains. After exiting through the door that led to the terrace, I was grabbed by the waist from behind. He licked my left ear and bit it lightly.

I giggled, "Crowley, wait until we get to my quarters. You're feisty for a vampire~."

"Well…how could I resist you wearing those fishnet stockings, and you folding your leg over the other…are you trying to show off?"

"Hehe~, maybe~."

"Estelle."

"Yes, Crowley?"

"I don't just lust after your body and looks…but I desire your love, too," he whispered in my right ear.

Silence*

"Crowley," I said as I turned around in his arms and gave him a small smile, then cupped his cheeks, "I like you very much, I do, that's why I asked you to court me, but…I'm not ready to love. My heart was broken in the worst way I find possible so long ago, it's shut down for repairs...it'll take baby steps to get me to love so passionately again."

He hugged me closer by my waist, "I empathize with you on that, and I'm willing to help you in order for you to return my feelings, Estelle."

"I admire your offer for help; although…I'm afraid this is something I have to do myself…" I told him with a frown after moving my hands back to my side.

"Estelle."

Stiffening up and glancing to my left, I saw Urd and Karr—who seemed to just end a conversation with a noble—trailing behind him.

"…Oh, $#," I mumbled under my breath

He glanced to Crowley, "What are you-"

"Urd! What a pleasant surprise!" I looked to Crowley, "Unhand me, Eusford!" I yelled before slapping his left cheek with my right hand.

Thankfully, he didn't make more of a scene and let me go, holding his cheek that had a red handprint.

"Aww~, Estelle~! When will you ever succumb to me~?" He made it seem like he was trying to come on to me, and I wasn't fond of it

"Never, you pig! And it's not Estelle!" I said, then kicked him in his left side harshly, making him fall down before my feet. "That's "my Queen" to you, hmph!"

I turned around with a closed eyed smile.

"You're as harsh as ever…" Urd told me.

"Was I supposed to be gentle? C'mon, Urd, out of thousands of vampires, you should know me best. I don't take too kindly to flirtation and being called by first name by lower class."

"Then, why must I call you a "Queen"?" Karr questioned with narrowed eyes.

My smile widened, "Simply because I don't like you, pipsqueak."

"Tch. Urd, you negotiate with her. You know how much I can't stand being in her presence nor her niece's. I'm going for a walk," he said, then walked away.

Urd didn't even take his eyes off Crowley.

"…Um, Urd?"

His eyes moved to me, "What."

I slowly recoiled back while putting my hands on my hips, lifting my left eyebrow up, "Uh-uh, check yourself before you wreck yourself, my friend, because if you use that tone with me one more time, those pearly white fangs of yours will be my new earrings."

"Where did you even hear that?" he asked with a confused expression.

I shook my head cluelessly, "I just made it up. Now, follow me to my throne room. We'll discuss the matters of the humans experiments more in depth," I said, then walked away with him following not too far behind.

~Tiny Time Skip~

"I'm sorry about earlier. I had to make it look like you were trying to seduce me, or Urd would've suspected something being off."

We're in my quarters.

He sat on my bed, but I was on my knees because I was wrapping Crowley up with bandages around his sides since I kicked him so harshly that it left a bruise.

"Don't worry about me, I'll be fine, and I understand…but what I don't understand is why would that guy be so interested in what you're doing other than shared business, especially with me…"

I chuckled a bit, "Haha..Me and Urd are like—as humans say—"best friends". He understands me."

"Better than I do?" he asked curiously.

I looked up at him with concern as he stared down at me with seriousness. My concern turned into a mischievous expression.

"You needn't think so much about that, Crowley, what you should think about…" I kissed his left cheek, "..is how I'm going to make you feel better~."

Climbing on his lap, I wrapped my arms around his neck and jerked my hips into his, making him groan in pleasure.

"Estelle, stop trying to avoid th-!" I bounced on the tint that was forming in his pants. "Mmn~, ohh~. Estelle~, baby~. I can feel you getting-"

"Hehehe~...Crowley, let me go get..comfortable~."

Getting off his lap, I walked into my bathroom connected to my room, closing it.

I put my hands on the counter and leaned forward, letting tears slip down my eyes…

"…In all of my time of living, I never thought there were vampires capable of loving…or is it me that's interesting to love, something about me? If so…I can't feel it, I will not make the same mistake."

True Love:

"Ryota."

Those handsome golden eyes looked at me with such simplicity, yet they held great hidden emotions.

"What is it?"

"…Nothing important, I just love staring into your eyes."

"Vice versa for me, too. Estelle, can you remember when you fell in love with me?"

He looked away, "It's alright if you c-"

"February 14..1900, you were trying your hardest for 500 years. I've loved you for over one hundred years, honey."

He stood up from the roof we sat on top of to share the beautiful scenery of the sunset, staring up at the scarlet sky.

"Valentine's Day?..I'm trying to remember what I did that day and year."

"It's not what you did, it's what you said, and it's what I will make possible. "Even in death, we will never part, Estelle, because you are my star that guides me in times of darkness and light", that's what you said."

He looked down at me, then looked away, "I can't believe you remembered that. At the time, I thought you weren't paying attention to my attempts...turns out I was wrong."

"Ouu~, Ryota, are you embarrassed?"

He turned back to me with light pink cheeks and narrowed eyes, "Kinda," he said before pulling me up by my hands, then kissed me affectionately.

I returned the kiss as I entwined my fingers with his.

'I am his star, he says. He's going by name...then..what is his name to me? Well, "Ryo" means "clear", "distant" and "refreshing" in the kanji his parents gave. And "ta" means "big" or "thick". Either he was a big baby...or them thighs are thick~, which they are~.'

Letting a pleasurable groan rumble in my throat, I realized I had pushed him closer to my body and I was inhaling his scent.

"Ryota...you make me feel so good about almost anything..so good to the point you're my clarity.."

He locked his strong arms around my waist and gave a light squeeze, then leaned down to kiss my forehead.

"So I'm your clarity, huh?..Were you trying to figure out what I am to you, like you to me, sweetheart?" he asked with a handsome smile.

I smothered my face in his well-defined chest out of embarrassment. I could feel Ryota's chest rumble as he chuckled...

"You're so adorable..and I'm glad I'm the only one who can evoke that, as well as other emotions you don't express around others," he whispered in my right ear.

His hands moved down to my bottom; as he bent down, he exposed some of his neck—making me lick my lips—so I learned forward to lick and suck on his skin for a few seconds.

"Need blood?" he asked.

"That, and.." I pulled away to look up at him bashfully. "I want you..to make love to m-me tonight..."

Ryota chuckled, probably because he found my shyness cute, again before turning into his snake chimaera form.

Hop on so we can get home quick, baby.

"Okay," I said, then did so. "...I'm so in love with you..words can't describe this overpowering feeling in my heart.."

Heh...I'm in love with you, too, Estelle, to an extent..I don't understand myself.

(I've been thinking about including this in the story since November, and I finally came to that decision that I should in order to give reader-chan/kun insight on what happened between Estelle and her first love to make her acrimonious towards males, the love no one knew about, what the [gf/bg] relationship was like between her and Crowley, and to show what Estelle and Ryota's relationship was like after he regained his memories months after they went into hiding from both societies.)