"Fany? I'm home!" Taeyeon called as she opened the door to their apartment. It had been the longest Monday and Tae was exhausted. She hung up her coat and sighed before leaving her bag on the stand near the door. "Hi!" Tiffany chirped, peeping from the kitchen as Tae walked in to greet her. Tae smiled to herself when she saw Tiff whipping around the kitchen, preparing dinner, tasting as she went and concentrating hard as she stirred.
"Hey…" Tae sighed as she wrapped Tiff up in a warm back hug while she stirred a pot on the stove. "How was your day?" Tiff asked with a smile, adding some salt to the pot. "Hmm…better now that I'm home with you…" Tae said dejectedly and plonked her head on Tiffany's back. "Aw…poor baby! Do you wanna talk about it?" Tiff asked in concern, turning around in Tae's arms and offering her a taste of sauce from her finger as Tae shook her head to say no.
Tae looked into her eyes and smiled before taking Tiff's finger between her lips and licking it gently. Tiff laughed and wrapped her arms around Tae's neck, leaning in to kiss her lips gently. Tae groaned into the kiss and laughed before pulling away and kissing Tiff's forehead. "Tastes good…" Tae sniggered out before unlocking her arms from around Tiff's waist and stepping away.
"How was your day baby?" Tae asked Tiff as she leaned back against the kitchen island. "It was ok I guess…spent most of it with Key in the studio and one of my new models, she is quite the inspiration!" Tiff said with a laugh. "Yah, should I be worried?" Tae asked playfully as she raised her eyebrow. "Anniya! She's 18 oh my god Tae!" Tiff laughed out and knocked Tae's forehead with a wooden spoon, making her chuckle.
The couple had been married for a year now, together for a total of 9 years. It shocked both of them that they could still be so in love with each other after all these years. Although they were both working beyond hard, they still made their time together count. Tae felt her heart swell when she would think of her relationship with Tiff, she was her life, family, everything. Tiff was of the strong opinion that most of the positivity in her life and the achievements she had worked for had been because of Taeyeon supporting her, pushing her to broaden her scope and to work hard no matter what. They were in a good place and they felt as if they could take on the world together.
"Tae, come and eat," Tiff called to Tae who was freshening up for dinner. Tae dried her hands and pulled out her chair, getting ready to enjoy the dinner her wife had prepared with love. "Thanks babe, it smells great! My turn tomorrow right?" Tae asked, earning a nod and smile from Tiff. "Wine?" Tae asked as she stood up to pour them their usual glass of wine. "No…um thanks, I'm ok…" Tiff blurted out before Tae could start pouring for her. Tae gave a confused frown and sat back down to start eating.
They chatted quietly while they ate about work, family, their friends, their plans for the weekend. Tae released her loud ahjumma laugh as Tiff told her how Key had chased a model out of the studio when his pin poked her butt. Tae wiped tears from her eyes and she had to put down her chopsticks to take in the hilarious story as she screeched with laughter.
Tae offered to clear the dishes away and she sighed as she sat back down at the table, offering Tiff a blueberry from the bowl of fruit she had brought with her from the fridge. Tiff cutely took it between her lips and Tae sniggered, leaning in to kiss her cheek. "Dinner was amazing baby…thank you…" she whispered before kissing her cheek.
Tiff moved her head and replaced her cheek with her lips, catching Tae by surprise at the tender kiss. Tae smiled and kissed Tiff's nose gently. "Tae…" Tiff said softly, looking down at her hands. "Yeah?" Tae answered casually as she took another blueberry and popped it into her mouth. "I…you're happy right? We're in a good place right now aren't we?" Tiff suddenly asked, taking in a deep breath nervously.
Tae frowned and leaned forward to look into her eyes, holding her hand with a lob-sided smile. "Of course we are…I love you!" Tae said with a laugh. Tiff smiled and then looked down at her hands again, making Tae touch her thigh in concern. "Hey…is everything ok?" Tae asked, starting to get worried as Tiff was acting really strange.
"I just…I…" Tiff took a deep breath and closed her eyes as Tae looked at her quizzically. "Tae…I'm pregnant!" Tiff blurted out with her eyes squeezed shut. She cracked one eye open to find an utterly shocked and bemused Taeyeon staring at her blankly, eyes wide and her mouth hanging open. "Yah Taeyeon-ah!" Tiff exclaimed as she shook Tae's arm.
Tae gulped and shook her head to get out of her daze. "Yah! You're pregnant! Oh my god! Fany! I'm so…I'm so happy!" Tae yelled, lunging forward to wrap Tiff up in a tight hug. Tae let out a goofy laugh as she hugged Tiff and kissed the top of her head. "Wow…when did you find out baby?" Tae when they eventually let go of each other. "I took a test today…well 6 actually…" Tiff laughed nervously, looking up at Tae with a shy smile.
Tae smiled and wrapped Tiff up in another hug. "Baby…this is amazing…we're gonna be parents…there's a tiny Fany-ah in there…" Tae said, looking down at Tiff's stomach and making Tiff giggle into her chest. "Wow…I still…I'm shocked…" Tae gulped, touching her own forehead and smiling contently. "I know…me too…I'm so excited Tae, we've been wanting this for so long babe…" Tiff said softly, saying exactly what was on Tae's mind.
The couple had always wanted to have children but they wanted to get married and be stable before they decided to take on the responsibility. About 7 months after they got married, they decided that Tiffany should see a gynaecologist and they began discussing artificial insemination. They chose the donor together and Tiffany went through the entire process. They both knew that, although it was definitely a scientific thing, their love and positive energy would also be important in making the pregnancy happen.
"Fany…this is the best news ever…thank you…for…for everything…" Tae said as she looked into Tiff's eyes and kissed her lips gently. Tiff smiled against Tae's lips and hugged her around the waist, snuggling into Tae.
"I know a few doctors we can see but I think you should choose who you're most comfortable with baby," Tae said as she pushed her chair in at the dining table. "Yeah, we should make an appointment as soon as possible," Tiff said with a nod as she followed Tae to their bedroom.
"So how far along do you think you are?" Tae asked as she got undressed to take a shower. "I'm not sure, maybe like a month and a bit? I've skipped 2 periods…you're just that potent…" she said slyly, giving Tae a naughty wink. Tae paused and looked at her before breaking out into a loud laugh.
They both showered and got ready for bed, chatting about their plans to change their spare room into a nursery. "Do you want a boy or a girl?" Tae asked curiously as Tiff brushed her hair in front of the mirror. "I don't mind…but a boy would be so adorable…I can already feel myself holding him…" Tiff said as she looked down and put her hand on her stomach.
Tae chuckled and slipped under the covers, running her fingers through her dark hair. "Yah, I'd love to see a 3 year-old Tiffany playing with fabrics in your studio…" Tae mused, making Tiffany whine at the cute image as she slipped off her gown and puffed up the covers, getting in next to Tae.
Tae smiled and slipped her hand across Tiff's waist, the touch feeling so much more significant now. Tiff giggled and placed her hand over Tae's. "Have you told anyone else?" Tae asked as she kissed Tiff's shoulder. Tiff shook her head and got comfortable under the covers. "I think we should tell your parents though…I need your mom's help with this…" Tiff said softly as she pressed her forehead against Tae's. They both realised that Tiffany's mother wouldn't be there to see their children. It made them both gulp but Tae smiled with a nod and kissed Tiff's forehead.
"I can't believe this is us right now baby…we were those goofy college kids…carefree and young…now we're gonna be parents…it's crazy…" Tiff mused as she rolled onto her back. Tae sniggered into her neck and rubbed along her waist, a fuzzy feeling creeping into her heart. "I love you…" Tae mumbled, making Tiff smile and look over at her as she nuzzled her nose into Tiff's cheek. "I love you too…" Tiff said before kissing Tae's lips gently.
Tae frowned and kissed Tiff back, cupping her cheek and capturing her lips. Tae pulled away and caught Tiff's top lip between her lips. "Yah…are you really in the mood right now?" Tae mumbled cutely with wide eyes. Tiff gave an eyesmile and laughed. "Baby…you're a doctor…don't you know that pregnant women are like permanently horny…" Tiff mumbled in between kissing Tae's lips.
Tae sniggered and pulled her closer under the covers. "Wow Fany…" Tae laughed out before leaning in to kiss Tiff slowly. They were lying on their sides facing each other as their kisses got more intense. Tiffany frowned as she cupped Tae's neck to pull her closer. She let out a soft moan when Tae slipped her hand into her underwear, rubbing her pussy up and down gently.
Tae breathed against her lips as she moved her fingers up and down slowly. "You're so beautiful baby…" Tae mumbled against her lips as she eased her fingers past Tiff's outer lips. Tiff gasped and gripped into Tae's shirt before sliding her hand down Tae's abs and mirroring what Tae was doing to her.
Tae groaned softly and bit into her bottom lip, squeezing her eyes shut as Tiff touched her. "Fany…" Tae moaned out as Tiff caressed her clit gently. Tiff gulped and pressed her forehead against Tae's as they lay together. Tiff closed her eyes and leaned in to kiss Tae, both of them breathing in the same air as their touches got more intimate.
Tae squeezed her eyes shut as she concentrated on rubbing Tiff's clit in gentle circles and Tiff bit her lip as she stroked Tae's slippery pussy up and down. "I'm so close…don't stop baby…" Tae panted out breathlessly as she buried her face into Tiff's neck and bit into her skin.
Tiff kissed Tae cheek and breathed against her skin, unable to vocalise how she felt in that intimate moment. She whimpered and groaned softly as Tae flicked her clit gently, driving her crazy. "Tae…I'm…Taeyeon!" Tiff moaned breathlessly as Tae pressed her fingers to her clit, gently hitting all Tiff's pleasure spots.
Tiff's body jerked and shuddered against Tae as she came and she gave Tae's clit a perfect upward stroke, sending Tae hurdling to her climax after groaning her name in pleasure. Tae hissed and bit down hard onto Tiff's neck, leaving purple and pink bite marks on her skin as she came.
Tae groaned and kissed Tiff's skin gently, feeling exhausted and satisfied. She slipped her hand out of Tiff's underwear and caressed Tiff's waist under the covers. They were both breathing heavily, their chests heaving and their bodies trying to recover. Tiff could barely open her eyes and she kissed Tae's forehead after running her wet fingertips up and under Tae's shirt, along her back and waist.
Once they had both recovered, Tae sighed and shuffled back to her pillow, looking into Tiff's eyes in their dimly lit bedroom. They didn't say a word but their eyes communicated how close they felt in that moment. Tiff smiled before leaning in and kissing Tae's lips in a sweet kiss, making Tae give a cute grin and caress her arm. Tiff kissed her one more time before turning around in Tae's arms and allowing Tae to wrap her arm around her waist, snuggling her comfortably until they both fell asleep.
The next month was blissful for the young couple as Tiff got into her second month of pregnancy. They had only told Tae's parents the good news as they were both waiting for the first trimester to pass without any complications.
Tiffany loved being pregnant and she would smile every time she looked in the mirror and saw the tiniest bump begin to form. Taeyeon did her best to cater for all of her Fany's weird cravings and deal with Tiff's roller coaster of hormones.
One night in particular that was memorable for Tae was when Tiffany asked for tuna kimbap…. "Baby, I'm gonna prepare dinner, is there anything else you want?" Tae called to the living room where Tiff was sitting as she washed her hands to prepare dinner. "Uh babe…could you put some chocolate sauce over the kimbap please?" Tiff called back casually, making Tae frown and raise her eyebrow.
"Neh?" Tae asked with her eyebrows and voice raised, she was utterly confused. Tiff then shuffled into the kitchen with a cute smile. "I know…it's weird and should be illegal but my body is asking for this right now baby…pleeease?" Tiff asked with a cute eyesmile as she leaned in to kiss Tae's cheek. Tae laughed her ahjumma laugh and nodded, beginning to cut up the vegetables for the kimbap.
It was a strange meal to say the least and it got even stranger when they were relaxing on the couch after dinner. Tae sipped her tea as they watched some random variety show. She was startled when Tiffany suddenly took the cup from her hands and set it on the coffee table in front of them before shifting to straddle Tae's hips.
Tiff touched Tae's cheeks and leaned in to give her a sloppy kiss. She took Tae's hand and led it down to between her legs. "Baby…" Tae mumbled between Tiff's kisses. "Fany…wait babe…" Tae said, gently putting her hand on Tiff's shoulder to get her to slow down. "What's wrong?" Tiff asked as she began to unbutton Tae's shirt and kiss her neck.
"Baby…we…we've done it every night this week…I've just worked a 20 hour shift…I can't…unless you wanna go for it while I'm sleeping…" Tae said with a snigger as she brushed her fingers through Tiff's black hair. Tiff pouted and kissed Tae's cheek. "It's not because my breath smells like tuna is it?" she asked as she kissed Tae's jawline. "Well…" Tae gulped, "…that's not helping either…" she said sheepishly, earning a gasp and a playful smack from Tiff.
"I'm sorry…I know…I just…I'm horny like all the time and seeing you in your cute shirts and tight jeans doesn't help me, Dr Kim…" Tiff said with a smile and a bite of her lip and she buttoned Tae's shirt up again and neatened it out. Tae groaned and threw her head back against the couch. "Oh my god! Why am I not 19 right now! Damnit!" Tae exclaimed, feeling frustrated by the entire situation.
Tiffany was about 2 and a half months along in her pregnancy when Tae came home at about 9 one evening to find her wife laying down on the sofa, half-asleep. They had been attending regular appointments at the gynaecologist and the couple were happier and close than they could ever remember being.
"Hi…" Tae whispered as she sat down next to Tiff, shifting Tiff's legs to be on her lap. "You're still up?" Tae asked as she ran a hand through Tiff's hair and kissed her forehead. "Yeah, I couldn't fall asleep without you next to me…" Tiff explained groggily, looking ridiculously adorable as she sat up and rubbed her eye sleepily. Tae smiled and kissed her nose. "Aw babe…ok, let me go and take a shower and then we'll head to bed ok?" Tae said, to which Tiff nodded and drowsily shuffled to their bedroom.
Tae smiled when she slipped in next her love, wrapping an arm around her protectively and kissing her lips. Tiff sighed and gave Tae a sleepy kiss back, nuzzling her nose into Tae's chest to get comfortable. "You smell nice Tae…good night…" Tiff breathed out before knocking out completely. Tae switched off the light and drifted off into an exhausted sleep.
Tae groaned in her sleep, reaching out to hold Tiffany closer to her that night. She frowned and cracked one eye open when she realised that she couldn't feel Fany in their bed. "Fany-ah..?" Tae groaned sleepily, rubbing her eyes and looking around the dark room. The clock on her nightstand said 1:26am. She switched on the bedside light and sat up, running her fingers through her hair, figuring Tiff must've gone to the bathroom, pregnant women did pee a lot after all.
She frowned and got out of their bed when she didn't hear any signs of Tiffany coming from the bathroom. Tae left their room to go and check on Tiff. She knocked on the bathroom door and folded her arms before resting her head on the door. "Fany-ah? Gwenchana? I need to pee too," she sniggered out tiredly.
Tae's eyes widened when she heard a whimper come from inside the bathroom. She was suddenly wide awake and she pushed the bathroom door open. The sight Taeyeon saw made her gasp in horror, clap her hand over her mouth and stand there paralysed for a good 5 seconds before her brain registered Tiffany standing there in a pool of her own blood that was dripping down her legs as she cried and leaned over the sink in agony.
"Tae…" Tiffany sobbed out, knocking Taeyeon back into action when she heard her love's broken voice. Tae ran over to her and tried to hold her up, almost slipping on the blood that was on the floor. She held Tiff's hand and looked into her tear-filled eyes with a concerned frown as Tiffany cried out to her. "Tae! I'm bleeding! The baby…our baby…." Tiff gasped before she collapsed onto the bathroom floor in a heap.
"Fany? Tiffany? Baby? No no no no no! Please baby…Fany please wake up…" Taeyeon sobbed as she held an unconscious Tiffany in her arms on their bathroom floor, which was covered with blood. Taeyeon sniffed and patted Tiff's cheek trying to get her to wake up but she was not responding. Tae was paralysed with fear and panic and her experience as a doctor temporarily flew out of her brain as she held her unconscious and pregnant wife in her arms.
Her logic and survival instincts soon kicked into action and she left Tiffany for a minute to go and call an ambulance. Tae could feel that Tiffany was still breathing, which was a relief but her heart went cold when she thought about what the blood meant and how much of it Tiffany had lost.
The ambulance soon arrived and Tiffany was rushed the emergency room at Seoul General Hospital, where Taeyeon worked. She followed the staff into the emergency room with Tiffany and tried to compose herself as their gynaecologist and Taeyeon's good friend, Dr Lee Jinki, informed her of Tiffany's condition.
"Taeyeon, the good news is that Tiffany is going to be ok, we have stabilised her and she passed out from the shock, anxiety and from losing a lot of blood. She should be awake in a few hours. The bad news is that she is very weak because of the blood loss and I'm…I'm afraid the baby didn't make it…I'm so sorry Taeyeon…" Jinki explained as he hugged Taeyeon who sobbed in his arms quietly.
The news hit Taeyeon like a speeding truck when Jinki left her to tend to Tiffany and to give her a chance to process everything. She sat on a chair in the waiting area and cried as she stared blankly ahead. She didn't know what to do or how to break this news to Tiffany, her heart was crushed and she was still trying to get over the shock of her wife collapsing into her arms.
It was now about 5am and Taeyeon was sitting at Tiffany's bedside, exhausted but not wanting to be asleep when she wakes up. She touched Tiff's cheek as Tiff slept soundly, not moving at all. Taeyeon started to think about what would have happened if she had lost Tiffany and if she could've done anything to help her in the hours before. She cried some more as she watched over Tiffany before sighing. She decided to take a walk to get herself some coffee and call her mother to break the news.
"Eomma?" Tae said into her phone, trying to stop her voice from cracking. "Taeyeon-ah? What's wrong my child, you sound stressed," Tae's mom always knew when she was going through something. "Fany…Fany um…we lost the baby eomma…" Tae breathed out, failing to hold back her tears and wiping her eyes with her sleeve as she told her mom what happened as Mrs Kim gasped and cried on the other line.
"Taeyeon we're coming to you right now! No I don't want to hear it! You need me…you both do…please wait at the hospital…I will take care of everything," Tae's mom insisted. "Neh eomma…thank you…eomma but how should I…how should I tell her when she wakes up?" Tae asked helplessly, trying to avoid crushing Tiffany's heart the way hers was shattered. "Taeyeon-ah…she is your wife and you know her best…you will know the best way to tell her gently…stay strong my child…I will see you soon," Tae's mother said comfortingly.
Tae sighed and gloomily walked back into Tiff's room with her coffee. Tiff was still asleep and she was hooked up to many drips and machines to monitor her progress. Tae sat down and frowned as she took Tiffany's hand in hers, caressing her fingers and she kissed the back of her hand, feeling empty and helpless. They had so many plans and now everything was shattered.
Tae zoned out and almost fell asleep but she was suddenly startled when she felt Tiff squeeze her hand and let out a groggy groan. "Taeyeon…where's Taeyeon…" Tiff drowsily mumbled, barely able to speak. "Hey baby…I'm right here…" Tae whispered with a relieved smile as she kissed Tiff's forehead and her eyes began to well with tears again. Tiff could barely open her eyes and she shifted slightly at the slightly uncomfortable feeling in her stomach, her insides felt wrecked and she felt so drained.
"I'm so happy you're ok…I love you so much…" Tae sniffed as she pressed her lips to Tiff's forehead and closed her eyes letting her tears fall. Tiff sighed and tried to figure out where she was and what had happened before she gripped Tae's hand and suddenly gasped, holding her stomach. "Tae! The baby! Is the baby ok?" Tiff shouted, looking into Tae's wet eyes in horror.
Tae bit into her trembling lip and gripped Tiffany's hand tighter. She looked down and shook her head, her tears falling when she heard Tiffany cry out in a broken whisper in sadness. Tae looked up and moved closer to Tiffany and pressed her forehead against her cheek as they cried together, Tiff was gripping into her hand tightly as she sobbed for their loss.
"Shh…it's gonna be ok…we're gonna be ok….shh…I know it hurts…I'm right here…" Tae sobbed out, nodding against Tiff's cheek as she held her in her arms, trying to comfort her. Tiff was inconsolable and she was mumbling incoherently in between her sobs. Tae could feel her chest caving in, as if her heart was really breaking. She held Tiffany's hand as tight as she could and nuzzled her nose against her cheek as they wept together for their unborn child.
"Tae…I loved him…I loved him so much…" Tiff sobbed out as she clenched her fist over her stomach, feeling hollow and helpless. Tae gripped Tiff's hand on her stomach and nodded as she sniffed. "I know…me too…I loved him too…" Tae said as she kissed the side of Tiff's head. Neither of them knew how they were going to move passed this.
They sat together for another 20 minutes, just crying and not saying a word as they mourned for their baby. Taeyeon didn't know what to say and she could see that Tiff felt nothing but sadness. Tae felt so helpless, wishing she could just snap her fingers and reverse the entire incident to take away Tiff's pain.
"Knock knock…" came a kind voice from the hospital room door. Taeyeon immediately looked up and recognised the voice as her mother's. She sighed in relief as she watched her mother, father and older brother file into the hospital room with flowers and teddies for Tiff.
Tae's mom went over to the bed and hugged Tiffany tight, whispering words of encouragement into her ear, which Tiff just took in and didn't respond to. She was still in shock from what had happened. Tae's mom turned to Tae and held out her arms, making Tae lunge forward and bury herself into the embrace, breaking down her strong wall and sobbing like a baby.
Mrs Kim ushered Tae out of the room so they could talk alone for a while and Tiff just stared blankly ahead, her tears still flowing after finding out that she had had a miscarriage. "Taeyeonnie…gwenchana?" Tae's mum asked as she tucked Tae's hair behind her ear. Tae looked up with her teary eyes and shook her head, making her mom hug her again. She cried into her mum's shoulder and held her tight. "What are we gonna do eomma…what are we gonna do…" Tae sobbed out sadly.
"Well first, we're gonna go home to your place and get a change of clothes for Tiffany, then you're gonna take a shower and come back here to support your wife Taeyeon, ok?" Mrs Kim said as she kissed her daughter's forehead. Tae nodded and wiped her eyes with her sleeve again, sniffling as they went back into Tiff's room. "Babe…we're gonna get you a change of clothes ok…I'll be right back…" Tae said as she squeezed Tiff's hand. Tiff didn't even turn to look at her, she just stared blankly out of the window as Tae's father and brother watched over her. She was a wreck.
Taeyeon sighed heavily when she unlocked the door of their apartment, the memories of the last few hours still fresh in her mind. She froze with wide eyes when she got to the bathroom door and saw some blood still on the floor. Tae's mum quickly tried to distract her. "You go and pack Fany's clothes and I'll clean this up before you shower then I'll make you something quick to eat…go on dear," Tae's mum insisted as she stood in Tae's kitchen after Tae got dressed. Tae nodded and slumped away to do what she had to.
About 30 minutes had passed and Mrs Kim was beginning to get worried when she hadn't heard Tae moving around in their bedroom. She cautiously opened the bedroom door and peeked inside. "Taeyeon-ah?" she gasped when she saw Tae sitting on the floor in a corner of their bedroom, holding one of Tiffany's jerseys and sobbing with her knees pulled up to her chest.
"My baby girl…I'm so sorry about all of this…" Mrs Kim said as she sat next to Tae and wrapped her up in a hug. "You have to be strong for Tiffany, I know it's hard but you have to be strong for her…she needs you now ok?" Mrs Kim said as she kissed the top of Tae's head. "But who's gonna be strong for me eomma? Our baby…we lost our baby…I should've done more, I should've woken up sooner…" Tae sobbed out in her mother's arms. "Yah, there was nothing more you could've done and…I'll be strong for you ok? You've got to be there for Tiffany right now…She needs you Tae-ah…" Mrs Kim said, making Taeyeon promise to be strong for Tiff during this terrible ordeal.
Tae felt a bit better as they made their way back to the hospital. Her family soon left and she stayed the night sleeping by Tiffany's side, not wanting to leave her for a second. Tiff would wake up groaning and then start to cry again when she remembered that their baby was gone. Tae would just hold her hand and try to comfort her and soothe her back to sleep. It was the most painful experience they had been through and they both felt helpless.
After 3 days of treatment, Tiffany was discharged from the hospital and Taeyeon took 2 weeks off to take care of her and sort out the house and her studio while she was resting. They barely spoke to each other, Tiffany would cry herself to sleep and refuse to get out of bed despite Tae trying to make her feel better. Tae would drive herself crazy, her thoughts running away with her as she tried to understand what Tiffany was going through.
Tae concluded that Tiffany was in a state of depression, she refused to eat, leave the house or speak to Tae about what she was feeling. It was a horrible time and their apartment felt like a ghost town, the two of them just passing each other without any words.
Tae would try and hold Tiff close at night and ask her to talk about how she was feeling but Tiff would simply push Tae away and roll over, not offering any explanation to Tae. It was beginning to hurt and cause a strain on their relationship. Tae knew that Tiff somehow blamed herself for what happened despite Tae telling her that they couldn't have done anything to prevent it. She also knew that there was no way she could even begin to understand the pain and loss that Tiff felt. If it was worse than what Tae was feeling then it must have been a recurring nightmare for Tiff.
About 3 weeks after Tiff's miscarriage, Tae came home from work at around 7pm and she thought she would take Tiff out for dinner. "Fany? I'm home…" Tae called, trying to sound cheerful and make this a positive night for them. She hung up her coat and made her way to their bedroom to find Tiff sleeping in the dark, her back facing Tae.
Tae sighed and felt her chest squeeze when she saw how sad Tiffany still was. She was lying there in a heap, she hadn't gotten out of bed the entire day and Tae wasn't even sure if she had eaten anything. Tae took in a deep breath and refused to let anything falter her good spirit. She went over to Tiff and wrapped an arm around her waist, kissing her cheek from behind and trying to snuggle up against her. "Tae…don't…" Tiff said softly and she threw the covers back over herself. She didn't even look at Tae and she removed Tae's arm from around her waist.
Tae frowned and gulped, still willing herself to try and make this night into something good. "I thought we could go out to dinner…my treat…" Tae said, putting on a cute smile as she stared at Tiff's back, just hoping she would turn around and leap into Tae's arms with her perfect laugh and beautiful eyesmile, as if none of the last 3 weeks had ever happened.
"Fany? Did you hear me? I said I thought we could…" Tae began before Tiff snapped at her. "I don't wanna go out ok…I can't," Tiff mumbled sadly as she opened her eyes, feeling Taeyeon's presence behind her.
"Tiffany, you haven't left this apartment in 3 weeks, it's not healthy baby, please…let's go out? Even if it's just for a little while…please Fany," Tae pleaded, beginning to get desperate and concerned that Tiff was slipping deeper into some kind of depression. Tae reached out to caress Tiff's arm but Tiff pulled away quickly and swatted Tae's arm away. Tae felt hurt and confused and frustrated that she couldn't help Tiff get over this.
"Fine, we don't have to go out…will you at least watch a movie with me?" Tae asked with a sigh, just wanting Tiff to get out of bed and think about something other than their dead unborn child. Tiff turned around and sat up, looking at Tae with an angry frown. "You don't get it do you? You can't just make me forget about this with dinner and a movie and make me smile to make yourself feel better…it happened Taeyeon…our child is dead…" Tiffany blurted out in anger and frustration.
Tae gasped and backed away, a lump beginning to form in her throat as the memories of that night came flooding back. "Fany…I…I'm just trying to help you…tell me how to help you…please…" Tae said sadly, her eyes beginning to well with tears. Tiff frowned again and held her knees up to her chest. "You can't…you can't help me…I did it…I killed our baby…I was too weak to carry him…I did it…" Tiff said over and over, her tears starting to fall and her voice breaking with sadness.
Tae shook her head and moved onto the bed to comfort her, wrapping her up in a hug and rocking her gently. "Don't say that…it wasn't your fault baby…Fany…please stop doing this…stop blaming yourself…you're hurting yourself…we need to move on from this…we have to try…" Tae said as she cried with Tiff, not knowing how to process these raw emotions.
"I…I think we need some time apart Tae…I can't do this…every time I look at you I think of him…of what happened and I…I can't move passed it like this…" Tiff cried out as she unwrapped Tae's arms from around her. "I'm sorry…I'm sorry for everything…please…just go…you deserve better than this Taeyeon…" Tiff said in a shaky whisper as she cried.
Tae looked at her with wide teary eyes and sniffed, not even comprehending what Tiffany was saying to her as the initial shock took over. "Fany…what are you saying? I love you…please don't do this…don't shut me out…please baby…I love you…please just…just talk to me…tell me what's going on…I don't wanna leave…I can't leave you…we need each other…" Tae sobbed as she cupped Tiff's cheek, swiped her tears away and tried to kiss her lips desperately but Tiff pushed her away as she cried too.
"Tae…no…I need some space…I love you too but I can't be a part of us right now…it hurts too much…I…I'm sorry…" Tiff said in between her sobs as she held Tae's wrists. Taeyeon sniffled and hung her head, her world was falling apart and she didn't know what to do. They sat there for a long time, just crying quietly, each of them left with their own scary thoughts.
"Is this really what you want?" Tae mumbled as she stood up and wiped her eyes and sobbed. Tiff looked up at her, her eyes red and full of tears. They just stared at each other and Tae knew what it meant when Tiff didn't say another word. Tae squeezed her eyes shut and wiped her tears away before letting out a heavy sigh and packing a bag to stay with her parents for a while. Tiffany couldn't stop her tears and she curled up into a corner of their bed and sobbed herself to sleep when she heard the front door click shut as Taeyeon left for…how long…neither of them knew.
It had been 2 days…2 entire days since Taeyeon had had any contact with Tiffany. She lay on her bed, contemplating their life together and how they could possibly be apart at such a life-changing time. She felt her heart constrict at the thought of not being with Tiffany anymore.
Taeyeon was in shock about what had happened. Of course they had fights before but not like this…now they were married and together for 9 years and…they had lost a baby, this was serious. Tae sighed and frowned sadly as she thought about what Tiff might be doing at that moment. She curled up even more under the covers when she realised that Tiff must be hurting even more than she was. She grabbed her phone and typed with a sniff.
Message sent: "Fany…I know you don't want me around but at least text me back so I know you're ok…please…"
Tae dropped her phone onto her chest and looked up at the ceiling, waiting for a reply. She didn't care if Tiff didn't want her there, she would care about Tiffany until the day she died no matter how much Tiff tried to push her away. Tae put her hand over her eyes and sighed deeply, feeling a lump form in her throat and her head throb when she thought about what they had been through.
She was startled when her phone beeped with a message. Tae opened the message with wide eyes and bit into her lip as she read.
Message from Tiffany: "…L…"
Tae let a tear fall and she tossed her phone aside. She was about to roll over and shut everything out when the bedroom door creaked open. "Taeyeon-ah? I brought you some ginger tea, love…" Tae's mom offered as she shuffled into Tae's teenager-esque room and sat at the side of her bed.
Tae looked up at her mom from her pillow and mumbled a "thanks" before sitting up to have her tea. "Eottosaeyeo? How are you feeling?" her mum asked as she comfortingly ran her fingers through Tae's hair. Tae closed her eyes and she sighed before shaking her head and staring into her teacup.
"What if she wants to split up? What am I gonna do?" Tae asked her mother flatly. She was tired of crying, she felt empty and useless. She had failed Tiffany and their child as a wife, mother and doctor, she couldn't protect them from this hurt and she didn't know how to go back to normal.
"Anniyo anniyo," Tae's mum said as she shook her head vigorously. "There's no way you two will split up, she's your soulmate Taeyeon-ah. You know you're meant to be together. This is just a hardship that you both have to move past. All couples go through these things, I promise," Tae's mom offered as she squeezed Taeyeon's hand reassuringly.
"But you didn't see her mom…lying there every day…it's not her…it's not my Tiffany…she's broken and I…I don't know how to fix her…I just feel so helpless like I can't understand what she needs…" Tae explained sadly, pressing down on her eyelids to stop the tears that were about to fall. Tae's mom hushed her and hugged her tightly.
"Yah you'll see…she'll call you soon. She loves you Taeyeon and maybe being apart will make her realise how much she needs you…how much you both need each other…" Tae's mom explained wisely. Tae nodded and tried to have some hope that Tiff would come to her senses and ask her to come back. Tiffany was her world, her everything and Tae couldn't eat or sleep, knowing that they were apart because of something so sad.
Back at the apartment Tiffany's sadness was consuming her. She was alone and she felt guilty about what had happened between her and Taeyeon and about their baby. She was still devastated and she was clueless about how to begin recovering from this.
She could hardly eat or sleep as her thoughts ran at their own pace, analysing and rethinking the harsh words she and Tae had shared before she asked Taeyeon to leave. She ignored Tae's calls and messages and cried herself to sleep for those two…or three nights…she wasn't even sure anymore.
It was a rainy night when Tiff decided to make herself some food. She gloomily emerged from the bedroom and slumped around in the kitchen, tossing some Froot Loops and milk into a bowl without a care. As she ate, perhaps the sugar gave her the urge to drag herself to the living room and switch on the tv. Tiff surfed through the various channels and sighed, looking around when she realised there was nothing worth watching.
It felt weird being alone in their large space and she found herself missing Taeyeon sauntering around and shouting random cute things at her as she passed. Now there was nothing…silence…emptiness. Tiff shook her head to rid herself of thoughts of Tae and she decided to just press play on whatever DVD was in the machine. She figured Tae had probably left in some Disney movie and it was likely to cheer her up a little.
Tiff ate a spoonful of Froot Loops and pressed play, frowning when what came on the screen looked familiar…it looked a lot like…their apartment…their living room. She froze when she realised that it was a short video of Tae's last birthday party at home. Yoona, Jessica, Donghae and Tae's family were all there.
Tiff watched with wide eyes as screen-Tiffany gave Tae a cute kiss on the cheek before giggling and beginning her speech for her love after Jessica who was filming had screamed for her to do so. Tiff gulped as she watched herself express her love for Tae, still looking shy after all those years together.
"Hmm…Taeyeon…what can I say about this creature next to me…" the Tiffany on the screen joked as Tae punched her shoulder in protest to her teasing. "Taeyeon…baby…I love you…more than words can describe, you've changed my life and I really can't imagine going a day without being with you. You make me feel so special and loved and I'm really grateful for everything you've done for me. We've been through a lot together and I just…I wanna spend my life with you…I don't need anyone or anything else. I hope you have an amazing birthday and…please don't get too drunk so we can have sex later!" screen-Tiffany joked, resulting in a whole lot of hoots and hollers from the small crowd of their closest friends.
Tiff watched as Taeyeon blushed and laughed, holding her around the waist protectively and kissing her cheek. She looked so adorable with that stupid birthday hat on and Tiff wanted to just switch this video off because it hurt too much to see how they used to be. "Yah Tae, give us a speech jusaeyo?" Jessica said from behind the camera. "Neh…" screen-Taeyeon said as she cleared her throat and held Tiffany close to her.
"Thank you all for coming. I know I'm getting old but all of you keep me going and keep me young…I'm very grateful to be able to spend my birthday…every birthday like this…I feel very blessed. Mum, dad, Jiwoong, Haeyeon…I love you all and thank you for believing in me always. Tippani…my Fany-ah…" Taeyeon said as she locked her arms around Tiff and kissed her cheek. Screen-Tiffany had the brightest eyesmile while Tiffany watched on with tears forming in her eyes.
"Baby…you are…the most amazing person I have ever known. It still shocks me that you're mine sometimes. I feel like I don't deserve you…I love you with everything I have and I know for a fact that if we're together, then we can make it through whatever the universe throws at us. I don't want to go a day without loving you Fany…thank you for being my vitamin…life without you wouldn't be life really…and I promise I won't get too drunk!" Tae said with her ahjumma laugh as she smiled against Tiff's cheek, kissing her gently as the crowd cheered.
Tiffany sat on the sofa in tears. She couldn't believe that she had watched that video by chance and her heart broke when she thought about what she and Tae were going through after seeing how happy they used to be. She ran her hands through her hair as she thought about Taeyeon. They couldn't split up…neither of them would survive without the other and without Taeyeon, she had nothing, no one to support her, no one to share her life with.
Tiff felt a wave of guilt hit her when she realised how wrong her actions were. She sighed and looked up, feeling the tears pool in her eyes. What was she thinking when she pushed Taeyeon away? The baby was as much Tae's as it was hers. She had no right to minimise the hurt that Tae was experiencing. They needed each other, Tiffany couldn't deny that she needed Tae there with her.
She suddenly began to panic when the thought of Tae not forgiving her passed through her mind. She looked down into her almost-empty bowl of fruit loops and paused when she saw just one pink and one orange piece of the ring-shaped cereal floating around in the bowl. Tiff bit her lip with a sad smile as she recalled how Tae has proposed to her that random Saturday morning with a pink Froot Loop serving as a temporary ring.
Tiff felt her cold heart suddenly start to warm up to the thought of Taeyeon and she stared ahead, deep in thought as she played with the wedding ring on her finger. She missed Taeyeon…she missed so much about her, the way she was always so happy to see her after work, her kisses and stupid jokes, the way she was so protective over her and their random conversations about life. Tiff felt her heart race and she knew she had to do something to make things right….
Taeyeon groaned as her phone vibrated loudly on her bedside table. She rubbed her eyes sleepily and checked her clock. 12:09am….God, who was calling at this hour? Didn't the hospital know she was all the way in Jeonju, Tae thought as she yawned before absent-mindedly answering her phone and temporarily forgetting about her and Tiff's situation for a second before she heard the voice on the other line.
"Yeobsaeyeo?" Tae croaked out as she leaned on one elbow and rubbed her eye. She hadn't slept properly in about 4 days, ever since she and Tiffany separated. "Tae…" the husky voice on the other line said. Tae immediately woke up and sat up when she heard Tiffany's voice.
"Fany…are you ok?" Tae stuttered out, running a hand through her dark hair. "Tae…I..." Tiff stuttered out as she sat in the dark, unable to fall asleep. "What's wrong? Did something happen?" Tae asked in concern after hearing Tiff's broken voice. "Tae…come home please…I can't be alone anymore…please come home…I need you and…I'm sorry…" Tiff said as she started to cry.
Tae gave a heavy sigh of relief and anxiety at the conversation they would have to have when they met again. "I'll be there in a few hours ok?" Tae said, making the decision to drive right then. Tiff sniffled on the other end. "Tae…wait!" she said before Tae dropped the call. "Neh?" Tae asked softly. "I...I love you…" Tiff breathed out, making Tae squeeze her eyes shut and cry silently. "I love you too baby…I'll see you soon…" Tae said, a sad smile coming to her lips.
Taeyeon quickly packed up her things and grabbed her car keys to head home. It was about 12:30am and she slipped on her jacket, getting ready for the long drive back to Seoul. "You're leaving?" Tae jumped when she heard her mom's voice coming from the kitchen.
"Eomma! Wow, you scared me!" Tae said with a sigh as she held her chest and smiled. "Neh…uh…she called like you said she would…she asked me to come home…" Tae explained as her mom made herself some tea. Mrs Kim gave a knowing smile and nodded her head. "Are you sure you don't want to leave in the morning rather?" she asked in concern, it was really late and not the safest time to go on a 3 hour drive.
Tae just gave her mom a blank stare and she smiled when her mom shook her head and laughed. "You know, the moment I saw you two together all those years ago, I knew, Taeyeon. I knew from the way you looked at her that she was the one," Mrs Kim said as she walked over to where Tae was standing.
"You're a good person Taeyeon-ah, and so is Tiffany. I hope you both find the happiness you need. Go to her and make things right!" Mrs Kim said as she gave Tae a tight hug and kissed the top of her head. Tae nodded as she shed a few tears and thanked her mom for everything she had done before getting into her car and heading home.
It was about 4am by the time Taeyeon reached their apartment in Apgeujeong. She quietly unlocked the door and slipped inside, finding the apartment in darkness. She dropped her keys, her bag and jacket and headed to their bedroom, figuring Tiff must have fallen asleep while waiting for her to arrive. She creaked their bedroom door open and slipped inside quietly.
Tae looked around the room and suddenly thought about all the happy times they had shared in there. Countless laughs and intimate moments, their small fights and the times they made up. She gulped when her eyes fell on Tiffany's body snuggled under the covers, fast asleep. She wondered how Tiffany was feeling, had she gotten over it, was she more depressed than before or was she going to be positive. Tae had no idea.
Tae gingerly sat down on the side of the bed that Tiff was sleeping on. She gulped and turned the bedside light on before taking Tiff's hand in her own and kissing it gently. She frowned sadly when she noticed that Tiff's face was stained with tears…she had cried herself to sleep again and Tae felt helpless.
Tiff frowned in her sleep when she felt Tae's gentle kisses on her hand. Tae closed her eyes and leaned forward, planting a sweet kiss on Tiff's forehead, making Tiff whimper and wake up slowly. "…Tae…?" Tiff croaked out. "Hey baby…I'm right here…" Tae said with a sad smile as she stroked Tiff's hair. Tiff gulped and stared at Tae sitting at her side through her half-lidded eyes.
Tiff suddenly sat up and wrapped her arms around Tae's neck, hugging her tightly and burying her face into the crook of Tae's neck as she sobbed quietly. "Tae…baby I'm so sorry…I love you…please forgive me…" Tiff mumbled into Tae's neck, wetting Tae's skin with her tears. Tae squeezed her eyes shut and locked her arms around Tiff, rubbing her back to soothe her sobs.
Tiff sniffed and pulled away, pressing her forehead against Tae's. "I'm sorry for pushing you away…It was stupid…I wasn't thinking straight…I love you Taeyeon…I love you…" Tiff cried out in her hoarse voice. Tae swiped Tiff's tears away with her thumbs and pulled away to look at her. "Hey it's ok…I love you too…" Tae said with a sad smile and a nod.
"No it's not ok!" Tiff said as she shook her head sadly and held Tae's wrists. "He was your baby too…he was yours too and I sent you away…I didn't think of how you were hurting too…it hurts so much Tae…it still hurts," Tiff said as she cried quietly. Taeyeon nodded and wrapped her up into another hug. "Shh…I know it hurts…I know Fany but I'm here and we're gonna get through it together ok? I'm here for you always baby…please let me love you and be here for you…" Tae said through her tears and she kissed Tiff's cheek as they cried together.
Tiffany sobbed and hugged Tae closer, feeling relieved that she was back in her arms. She pulled away and looked into Tae's sad eyes and sniffed back her tears, dropping her head to look down at their joined hands. She played with Tae's wedding ring and then wiped her eyes before looking up at Tae. Tiff gulped and leaned forward to plant a gentle kiss on Tae's lips, Tae's eyes drooping closed for a second.
Tiff leaned in again and this time she cupped Tae's cheek before kissing her lips softly. Tae inhaled sharply and held Tiff's arm as they kissed, tilting her head when she felt Tiff's tongue brush along her top lip. "Babe…wait…" Tae asked as she pulled away and looked into Tiff's eyes. "Maybe we should talk first…I…" Tae started before Tiff interrupted her with another succulent kiss. "We can talk later…I'm tired of talking…and crying…and feeling so empty Tae…please…I need you…" Tiff said as she shed more tears and pleaded with Tae, kissing her palm gently.
Tae gulped and wiped away her tears again before leaning in and kissing Tiff delicately, brushing their lips together and placing her hands on Tiff's waist as they moved back onto the bed. Tae instinctively ran her hands up Tiff's shirt, sighing at the feel of her soft, warm skin before she slid Tiff's sleep shirt up her body and tossed it aside.
Tae looked down and Tiff followed her eyes as she watched Tae run her fingertips along her neck and breasts before wrapping an arm around her waist. "Beautiful…you're so beautiful Fany…" Tae breathed out as she lowered them down so that she was on top with Tiffany underneath her. Tiff sighed as Tae settled her waist between her legs and kissed her neck.
Tiff slid her fingertips up Tae's back and lifted her sweater, forcing Tae to sit up and slip it off. She leaned back down and caught Tiff's lips in a sweet kiss. "I missed you…so much…" Tiff whispered when Tae pulled back to look into her eyes. She brushed her palm across Tae's cheek and Tae smiled, leaning into the gentle touch.
Tae pulled Tiff's top lip gently and kissed her slowly as she slid her hand down Tiff's waist and into her underwear. Tiff gasped into her mouth when she felt Tae's fingers against her skin. "Baby…are you…are you sure about this?" Tae mumbled against her lips before going any further. She wasn't sure where Tiff's mind was in terms of them being intimate after everything that had happened.
Tiff bit into her bottom lip and pushed Tae's hand against her pussy, making Tae stroke her up and down. Tae bit her own lip and looked into her eyes before Tiff sighed and pulled Tae down for another kiss. Tiff let out a soft moan against Tae's lips and spread her legs wider when Tae gently circled her opening.
Tae groaned before slipping a finger into Tiffany and burying her face into Tiff's neck when she felt how wet Tiff was. "You feel…amazing…" Tae breathed out as she felt her finger get sucked in gently as Tiff moaned and bucked her hips. They got into a gentle rhythm as Tae began to gently thrust her fingers in and out of Tiff, their bodies rocking together slowly.
Tiff whimpered and didn't open her eyes as Tae kissed her jawline and suckled the skin on her neck as she caressed her pussy. She held Tae's head against her neck and gasped as Tae's thrusts got harder, Tae breathing deeply against her neck.
Tiff began to moan and squirm as her hips bucked into Tae. "Taeyeon…" she whispered as she locked her legs around Tae's waist and dug her nails into Tae's shoulder blades. Tae grunted into her neck and lifted her head to catch Tiff's lips in a sloppy kiss before slipping her fingers out and stroking Tiff's clit in the slowest strokes.
Tiffany groaned and hissed, mumbling Tae's name over and over before her body went rigid and her breath hitched as she came hard against Tae's fingers. Tae gripped into Tiff's waist and gently rubbed her clit as she came hard crashing and thrashing from her orgasm. Tiffany's hips rose off the bed and her breath shuddered as her climax ripped through her body.
Tae bit into Tiff's neck and gently pulled at her pussy lips as her orgasm died down. Tiff twitched and trembled against Tae's body as she tried to recover. She squeezed her eyes shut and shed tears, feeling overwhelmed from the emotional rollercoaster they had been through. Tae felt Tiff's warm tear hit her cheek and she lifted her head to try and comfort her love.
"Fany-ah…don't cry…I love you…I love you so much baby…" Tae said as she kissed Tiff's eyelids and wiped her tears away. Tiff sobbed harder when Tae kissed her forehead and she held Tae close as Tae hushed her and kissed her cheek to comfort her. "Shh…it's gonna be ok…I promise you…"Tae said softly as Tiff hugged her close and cried into her shoulder.
The emotions between them were overwhelming them both and Tae just hugged Tiffany in her arms until she stopped crying. When Tiff was finally silent, Tae sighed and she felt their heartbeats against her chest as they lay together, she could feel them reconnecting but there was still so much to deal with.
Tiff shifted and Tae took it as a signal to roll off of her and wrap her arm around Tiff's waist from behind as Tiff just snuggled up to her instinctively. Tae brushed her lips against Tiff's shoulder and planted a sweet kiss on her shoulder blade as they held each other. They shared no more words and Tiff just simply intertwined her fingers with Tae's that were wrapped around her waist and they both fell asleep almost instantly.
Tiffany rubbed her eyes as she woke the next morning, feeling groggy and exhausted. She was grateful that she had at least one proper night of sleep in the last week. She sighed as she played with Tae's fingers that were wrapped around her waist. She was so relieved to have Tae back home and she knew they had to start moving on from this terrible experience. They had to see it as something that would make them stronger as a couple.
Tiff smiled when she felt Tae plant a gentle kiss on her back and her neck. "Morning beautiful…" Tae said as she kissed behind Tiff's ear. "Hey baby…" Tiff groaned as she turned in Tae's arms to face her. Tiff felt her heart sink when she finally saw Taeyeon in the light of day. Her eyes were puffy and sunken in, probably from crying and she had dark rings around her eyes, probably from not being able to sleep.
"I'm sorry for hurting you when you were the only one who understood how I felt…" Tiff confessed as she kissed Tae's palm. Tae smiled and kissed her forehead. "It's ok…it's over now…I love you Fany…" Tae said with a gentle smile as she cupped Tiff's cheek. "I love you too…more than you'll ever know…" Tiff said as she held Tae's hand against her cheek.
"Tae…you've always said that we can make it through anything together…did you mean that?" Tiff asked with her eyebrows raised innocently. Tae smiled and nodded. "Neh…with all my heart…we're gonna be ok…" Tae said confidently with a nod.
"I've been thinking and I…I wanna try again…I want us to try again…for a baby…" Tiff explained slowly, watching Tae's reaction carefully. Tae's eyes widened and she gulped. "Babe…are you sure about this? Fany, there's no rush, we don't have to…" Tae began to worry before Tiff kissed her lips with a smile. "Not right now pabo…in a few months but I definitely want to…for us…for our family…" Tiff said as she gazed into Tae's eyes.
"Baby, I'll support whatever decision you make…as long as we're together, that's all that matters to me," Tae said with a smile and they shared a sweet kiss. "I really missed you Fany…I missed the real you…I want us to be like how we used to be…" Tae admitted as she held Tiff closer under the covers. "I want the same thing Tae…I miss us just being…us," Tiff said with a frown. "Well let's change that then, let me take you out for breakfast hm? Get some fresh air?" Tae suggested with a cute smile. "I'd like that…" Tiff said with a bright eyesmile as she watched Tae's excitement. "Omo, there's my Fany-ah!" Tae exclaimed before tackling her into a playful kiss, which made Tiff squeal and laugh loudly as Tae tickled her.
The next few months saw the couple reuniting and getting back to a healthy place in their relationship where they were both happy and still in love with each other. They would have romantic dinners every second night, go out with friends or family almost every weekend and they were both working hard in their jobs, trying to build their life together into something great.
Tae was reluctant to go through with it but she agreed when Tiff suggested that they return to Dr Lee Jinki to discuss going through the artificial insemination process again. Tae offered to go through the tests to check if she would be more suitable to carry their baby but unfortunately, the doctor informed them that Tiffany was much more fertile than Tae and the pregnancy was more likely to be successful if Tiff was the one carrying the baby.
They were both scared and nervous and Tae didn't react at all like the first time Tiff told her she was pregnant. "Don't you want this Tae?" Tiffany asked in anger as she frowned at Taeyeon. Taeyeon had just nodded and said a slow "ok…" when Tiff told her she was pregnant again. "Baby, of course I do…I'm just worried that's all. But we have to be positive too. I'm sorry about the way I reacted, I'm just concerned," Tae said as she dropped her head dejectedly.
Tiff frowned and sighed heavily. She understood where Tae was coming from. She went up to Tae and hugged her, wanting to avoid another painful and useless fight during a time when they were supposed to be supporting each other. They left it at that and carried on living their lives, trying not to expect the worst.
Weeks passed and then months passed and before they both knew it, they were celebrating Tiffany's fifth month of pregnancy at Tae's parents' home in Jeonju. The couple were ecstatic and relieved that they were in the safe zone and they could now move on to properly planning for parenthood.
They soon found out that they were having a boy and Tiffany let her artistic side run wild as she and Tae decorated their spare room and converted it into a nursery for their little boy. They were of course going to name him Dongwoon, after Tae's patient who's passing from cancer had made her gather up the courage, seize life by the horns and ask Tiff to marry her all those years ago.
It was a blissful time and the couple were so grateful to have the support of their friends and family. Tiffany was going for regular check-ups and there were no complications that Dr Lee could foresee when the time came for her to give birth. But no matter how many classes they attended or lists they made, nothing could have prepared them for the actual day that it all went down….
"Fany? I'm going to get some groceries ok, I'll be back in an hour baby," Tae called from the kitchen when she saw that they were running low on a few supplies. Tiff waddled out of the bathroom and walked towards Tae, wrapping her arms around her doctor's waist. "Can I come with? I'm so bored here and I want some fresh air," Tiff whined cutely as she hugged Tae's waist. "Of course baby…but you are like…9 months pregnant…will you be ok?" Tae chuckled out, kissing Tiff's cheek and rubbing her tummy lovingly.
"Are you calling me fat, Kim Taeyeon?" Tiff asked, feigning rage before she gave Tae a cute smile. "Yes! But with all the love in the world of course!" Tae said and she kissed Tiff's lips gently before they headed out to go shopping.
It was fairly quiet at the grocery store and Tae was able to grab whatever they needed while Tiff followed her, waddling cutely and holding her tummy as she huffed. They had just about reached the dairy aisle when Tiff reached for a bag of frozen peas and froze as she gripped the bag. "Tae…" Tiff whispered with wide eyes. "Hmm…baby, should we get soy milk or normal? What do you feel like?" Tae asked absent-mindedly as she tapped her chin and studied the different milk cartons.
"Taeyeon!" Tiff shouted to get her wife's attention. Tae whipped her head around and her eyes widened when she saw Tiff standing there and gripping a bag of frozen peas with liquid running down her legs. "Tae…I think my water…just broke…" Tiff stuttered out, making Tae comically burst into action and bolt them to the car.
"Push baby! Push!" Tae yelled as she breathed with Tiffany who had her hand in a vice grip as she lay on the hospital bed, about to give birth. Tiff was sweating profusely and she was looking at Tae, huffing and puffing as she tried to control her breathing and push the baby out. Tae was trying her best to smile and act like everything was ok but she was freaking out internally. Yes, she was a doctor but this was her wife giving birth, this was it…Tae gulped and shook her head to clear her thoughts before gripping Tiff's hand again and breathing with her.
"Tae it hurts!" Tiff screamed as the baby's head began to show. "I know Fany I know but you're almost there come on!" Tae encouraged her and kissed her sweaty forehead. "We're almost there Tiffany, you can do this! He's almost there!" Dr Jinki encouraged as he prepared to pull the baby out.
After about 3 more hours of pain and pushing, Tiff gave one final scream and their baby boy made his way into the world. Jinki held him carefully as Taeyeon and Tiffany watched their son cry his first cry and squirm in the doctor's arms. He was handed to a nurse to get cleaned up before he met his parents.
Tae felt Tiff squeeze her hand and she looked over at her exhausted wife. Tae let out a goofy laugh when their eyes met and she kissed Tiff's hand as a tear rolled down her cheek. Tiff could barely catch her breath and her hair was stuck to her face. "I love you…" she mumbled through a hoarse voice and her eyes began to droop closed but she was suddenly wide awake when the nurse announced her return with baby Dongwoon in her arms.
Tae gulped as the nurse handed her son to her. She took him carefully and cradled his head while she smiled uncontrollably. She couldn't believe she was holding him for the first time and she felt overwhelmed with emotion. She looked down at his tiny hands and cute nose and cooed at him, feeling ridiculously happy and proud.
The nurse adjusted Tiff's pillows so she could sit up and she held out her hands for Tae to hand their son over to her. Tiff cradled him gently and Tae kissed her forehead as both their eyes welled with tears. "We did it baby…I can't believe he's ours…" Tiff whispered as she looked up at Tae with a smile. Tae nodded and sat next to Tiff on her bed, wrapping an arm around her shoulder and chuckling as she introduced them to her new born son.