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Chapter 18: Fear Landscape.
I move the new piercing in my lip. It stings and it's swelling, but doesn't hurt as much as I thought. I had the guy put a hop thingy in so I can feel it when I shut my mouth and not be tempted to play with the back. It's a strange feeling. Again, I'm up pretty late. I shouldn't be. Tomorrow, or should I say today is our fearscapes. Oh well. I walk into my brother's room and he isn't in here. So I take the liberty to flop on his bed and going to sleep.
I wake up to the door opening. I sit up and look around. Bass walks in and he looks a little upset.
"What, you don't want me to go after Peter and them in their sleep. I would." Bass simply points to the floor. "Fine." I roll off the bed and my body hits hard. Dang. Bass strips off his shirt and lays on the bed. "Where were you anyway?"
"Out." I nod slowly. "With Tris."
"That explains why I couldn't find her." I mumble as I adjust myself on the floor. "Had a nice train ride?"
"Shut up and let me sleep." He mumbles. "I will talk to you later about it."
"That important, Huh?" I yawn as I let myself sleep.
000
"What the hell is on your lip?" I wake up to my brother pulling on my lip ring.
"Damn it." I slap him hand. "That hurts. It's still swollen." I bring my lip into my mouth and suck on it a little.
"Why did you do that?" He asks as he walks to the bathroom.
"I don't know. I been wanting one for a while and Christina suggested for me to get something on my face." I explain to him before he closes the door. "I'm going to go." I shout as I walk to the door. There is no reply, so just walk out and back to the dorm. In there, no one. I simply change and walk to the Dining hall. Uriah will see my lip piercing. I can't wait. The pit is a mess already, but thanks to long legs. I can get through with no problem. Once in the dining hall, I find the group and walk to them.
"Where have you been the last few nights?" I hear Will ask as I sit down next to Uriah. He saw the lip ring last night, so it doesn't faze him.
"Brother's room. Do you really want me to get kicked out of Dauntless because I killed three transfers?" I ask him seriously as I grab a muffin and take a bite out of it. At first I bite on the metal. I need to be careful with chewing.
"No. But it's like you're not there anymore." Christina says. "I miss scaring you in the morning." I shrug my shoulders.
"I don't." I tell her when I swallow. I glance past Uriah to Tris. She looks tired. I smirk. "How was your night, Tris?" She glances at me and then takes a bite of her toast. "Thought so." I laugh.
"What?" Christina is lost.
"She stayed up later than me last night." I tell them. "I saw her before heading to my brother's room and she was wide awake." I lie smoothly and Tris doesn't say a word. I take another bite out of the muffin and I feel a hand wrap around my chin and makes me look at him. "What?" I ask with a full mouth. "I can't really chew when your hand is around my jaw, Uriah." I know that sentence didn't come out correctly.
"You pierced your lip." Uriah states.
"Yeah." I wiggle my head away from him and chew. "Why?" I ask after a swallow.
"I was going to ask you the same thing." I shrug my shoulders.
"Wanted to for a while. Thought I should celebrate getting into the dauntless faction." I tell him before taking another bite. He doesn't seem convince.
"Did you cut your hair too?" I nod.
"Brother attacked me with scissors yesterday." I tell him. "So I fixed it."
"It's… nice." He says before eating. Oh well. I knew he wouldn't like it. We finish eating and don't know what to do. We walk into the noisy pit and look around. Suddenly, I feel a hand in mine and feel it being pulled to a hallway. I turn and see its Uriah. So I let him take me… where ever he is taking me. The hallway gets darker and darker as we go.
"Where are we going?" I ask him.
"To our hallway." He says as we walk. Why? We turn the corner and before I know it, I'm pinned to the wall again. It's dark, but I can see his frame. I watch as his hands grab my face and he kisses me. The lip ring move as we kiss and I can't help but laugh. "What?" He asks as we part.
"It moves and tickles." I giggle out. "I didn't do that."
"Whatever." Uriah says before kissing me again. This time I feel his tongue touch my lip ring and it feels funny. Then he bites it.
"What are you doing?" I giggle out as I pull away.
"Go with it." He says and I let him kiss me again. This time he bites my lip and is careful not hurt my swollen part. I feel his tongue again at the entrance to my mouth. What is he doing? His tongue goes into my mouth and it feels weird as his tongue traces my teeth and my tongue. I pull back and look at him as he lost it.
"What in the hell?" I say.
"Sorry if it's too fast." Uriah pulls back a little bit.
"What were you doing?" I ask him so confused. "Remember, I'm from abnegation. I haven't kissed anyone before." I remind me.
"Thanks." Uriah laughs. "I forget easily. I just saw the lip ring and I could help but think how it would be kissing you with that. My body got a little carried away."
"I'm still not sure what that means." I tell him truthfully. I watch his hand start to rub the back of his head.
"Well… I got a little turned on seeing how dauntless you are. Seeing part of that tattoo on your back was hard too." He says. What?
"I'm still confused, and I didn't know I had that there at the time. So…" I shrug my shoulders.
"Andy, I like your body. You know how to do things just right to drive me insane." He says a little rushed.
"Oh, well… um… Thank you." I tell him in a stutter. "Sometimes you need to be blunt with me. My brother says I'm a little slower than most people."
"Yeah, just a little bit." Uriah says in an embarrass voice. I reach my hand out and touch his face.
"Sorry, Uriah. I'm getting better." I smile weakly. "I got the lip ring so you would notice the hair cut, it was prompted by Christina saying I needed to do something drastic." I explain and then kiss him. I try to mimic his movements and bite his lip. His mouth opens and I slowly slip my tongue in and I feel his rush into my mouth. Sometime later we have to part for air. "Sorry, I don't like that." I breathe out. "It seems a little weird."
"Then we won't have too." Uriah says before kissing my forehead. "Some people don't like it."
"I think I'm one of them." I tell him as I try to breath.
"Thanks for trying." He says before kissing my forehead again.
"No problem." I finally catch my breath.
000
For the rest of the morning, I stay with him. Just walking around and making jokes. Then we met up with Marlene and Lynn and I found out why she shaved her head. Boys didn't take her seriously for being a pretty girl. Makes sense, but I wouldn't cut my hair… that willingly. After lunch I swap places and went with Tris back to the dorm room, I sit on her bed with her as we eat.
"Am I in the wrong faction?" She asks suddenly.
"No. Why do you ask?" I ask her after swallowing some of my chicken.
"All I'm eating is abnegation food." I look at her plate and she's right.
"You're used to it. Simple as that." I tell her. "Look at my food." It's the same thing. "Habit."
"Okay." She says after a second.
"You're ranked first. You are doing something right here. So don't worry if there is still some of the 'stiff' in you." I nudge her shoulder. "It's still in me; I just know how to hide things." I laugh a little bit.
"Andy, can I ask you something?" Tris sets her plate down. She looks deep in thought.
"Ask away." I tell her before eating some chicken.
"Are you Four's sister?" She asks. I knew she was going to ask it some time. I shake my head no.
"I'm Bass's sister." She looks confused. "Bass is my nickname for Tobias." I explain as I eat some more. Her confusion leaves but she looks upset. Then she suddenly hugs me.
"I'm sorry you had to go through that." I shake my head and push her off of me. "It explains everything about you."
"I hope not. He doesn't define me." I scoff then laugh. "But thanks."
"I was wondering why you always stood up for me and why you treated me like you needed to protect me. I'm not weak. So I was getting upset, then after going through his landscape, I started to think you knew him before hand. But yesterday… hearing you say his father's name.." She can't go on.
"I don't need you pity. And that's how he wanted it. I do as he says out of respect." I explain. "That's the only reason why I'm here. I promised him two years ago that I would follow him into any faction he went to. Dauntless just happen to be it. When I got here, he told me that they weren't supposed to know that we were related." She just nods.
"Okay. I'm sorry. You're strong enough to handle yourself." She says.
"You know. Christina almost found out. She knows that I was abused, but she hasn't put Bass and me together… yet. I'm hoping to keep it that way." I explain to her. "So what was up with last night? He kicked me out of his bed and made me sleep on the floor."
"He took me out to talk." She says quickly. "I can't tell you." I shake my head.
"He told me that he will tell me later." I say before finishing eating. "So what do you think about kissing my brother?" I ask with a smirk and she coughs.
"Kind of creepy after you say that." Tris says before smiling. "How is it kissing Uriah?" I set my empty plate on the floor and sigh.
"He stuck his tongue in my mouth today. It was gross as hell. Don't let Bass do that to you or I will cut his tongue out. It's a creepy feeling." I tell her. Tris was trying to get me uncomfortable. That failed.
"Gross. I shouldn't have asked." She says as she shakes her head. "When did you first kiss?"
"The night you were attacked. That's why I got there fast." I deadpan. "That's why I told you after you woke up that night." She nods. "So two or three days ago. I don't remember. He is so kind. He is willing to keep our relationship from people until I can convince my Abnegation brain to let me be open and comfortable with it."
"Did you give him the hair cut?" I smirk.
"He can't cut his hair worth shit. You will need to do it for him. I can teach you how he likes it." I inform her.
"That's funny." She laughs. "Does he know about you and Uriah?" I shake my head no.
"He would kill him for what he did today. I was confused on what the hell Uriah was telling me. Something about being turned on." I shake my head again "Anyway, he got a little carried away and then had to explain what was going on with him. I still don't understand it. But I don't think I care." Tris coughs.
"I don't think I want to hear about Uriah getting carried away." She says and then swallows hard. "What do you mean you don't understand?"
"The only guy that ever touched me like that, or close, was my father. My mother left a long time before and Bass wasn't going to tell a fourteen year old girl what a relationship was." Tris just looks to the ground.
"So all those stories are true." I nod.
"Most of them. No he never raped me and I was never pregnant. I would have killed him right then and there."I tell her bluntly. "I'm glad Bass didn't ask me about that."
"That explains why you didn't want to see him during visiting day." She says quietly. So I smack her.
"Don't pity me." I tell her with a smile. She laughs and holds her face as I lie down and curl up into a ball.
"Why do you do that?" She asks.
"I don't know." I tell her before passing out.
000
The door opens and I wake up. My fellow transfers rush into the room to get ready to go. I sit up and stretch as Christina shakes Tris's shoulder.
"Time to go." She says in a worried voice. I feel well rested and no headache. This is going to be interesting. I stand up and brush my hair out with my fingers and Tris gets ready. I'm fine the way I am. Loose pants, tight shirt and my knife resting between my hip and waistband, right where my tattoo is. Once my group is finished, I walk out with them to the busy pit. The smell of alcohol fills my nose and I am a little tempted. But I have something to do, so I ignore it and go with the group up to the glass floor. So many people are here, I look at Tris and she is sweating and having a hard time walking.
"Do you want me to carry you, little legs?" I ask her with a smirk. She laughs and I pick her up and carry her with no problem. Being one of the tallest, I can see above people's heads and now Tris can too. Everyone is watching the screen where Marlene is being shown, just like how it was for us yesterday. The screen flashes and people cheer. One screen shows heart rate and the other shows her. The one next to the one showing her flashes a time and I smirk. She is doing well. I continue walking to one of the doors next to the fearscape where I see my brother holding the door. He looks at me and rolls his eyes. I can't resist sticking my tongue at him as we approach. "Don't be jealous of her. I wouldn't be able to carry your heavy ass if I tried." He shakes his head as I walk in. There are a lot of people in this room, good thing it's big enough. All the chairs are taken and I notice the front row is for the leaders. I walk over to the wall and lean against it as I look at the screen that looks the same as the ones out there, but there is some wires connected to it. The leaders are watching it. Crap. I feel my face pale as Bass stands next to me. His hand touches me shoulder.
"You'll be fine. They aren't allowed to tell anyone." He whispers so only Tris and I can hear.
"Do they know we are related?" I whisper. "Since they have seen yours." He shakes his head no.
"And they won't. They see so much that they forget." Bass assures me.
"Come on. You think they will forget mine anytime soon?" I ask him pointedly.
"No. But they won't know about us." He says as he looks at Tris. "I'm assuming you two talked."
"Briefly." Tris says.
"Tris, Andy." I turn my head towards Uriah's voice. "One of you can sit on my lap." I glace as Tris and set her on the ground.
"I don't think you want to anyway." I smirk before walking past some people. Good thing he is in the last row so I'm not blocking people. I sit down and wrap an arm around his shoulders to give me better support and rest my head on the wall. "How is she doing?" I ask.
"Good. I already went in." He says with a slight smirk.
"Is that why you smell like sweat?" I laugh.
"Very funny." He rolls his eyes and the light turns on the fearscape. Marlene is in a crouch and the leaders are waking up. They walk out of the room and to her to congratulate her on finishing. "Here you go."
"Transfers, the order in which you go through the final test was taken from your rankings as they now stand." Bass announces. So I'm second. "So Drew will go first and Tris will go last."
"I'm second to last." I say as I snuggle into Uriah's shoulder. "Wake me up when I go in. I don't care to watch people on a screen as they face their fears." I tell him before drifting off to the sound and feel of his laughing.
I wake to the sound of Molly screaming. My eyes snap open.
"Dense idiot, some people are trying to sleep." I mumble into Uriah's neck as I shift my weight and fall asleep again.
"Andy." I snap my head up to the sound of Eric's voice.
"What?" I stretch and look at him. "I'm ready." I stand up and look at the collected leader. He rolls his eyes and leads me out of the room.
"I don't understand you." He mumbles as we walk into the fearscape.
"I don't really want you too, sir." I tell him as he stops. I tilt my head to the side and welcome the needle. I get to freak him out first hand. I feel the needle go in.
"Ready?" he asks.
"Are you ready?" I ask him and he pushes down. I am able to watch him leave the room before I shut my eyes and take in a deep breath.
000
That's when I hear the screaming of my brother. I sit on the ground and curl up into a ball. I still can't handle the hits. Now the leaders will hear the screams I dread and the hit of the belt I fear. The lashes happen soon enough and I wince with every blow. Tears run down my face as I tighten my arms. I can't do anything that will cause my heart rate to go up. So I remain still. Bass said we are supposed to be aware it's not real. So I breathe in and out with each hit of the belt.
"Your pathetic excuse of a child." I hear him shout out to my brother and I wince when I hear the metal part of the belt hit him and he screams out. It's painful, but I got to breath. I focus on my breathing and count down from ten. Ten. Hit and cry. Nine. Hit and cry. Eight. Hit and scream. I count down and bite my lip. "Why are you still alive? You are worthless and cowardly." I hear the belt snap against something other than the body of my brother. "You should learn your place like your sister." I'm glad Bass can't hear this. I let a choke leave my lips "Shut up. Or he will get it worse." I got to get out of here. I have to do something different.
"Do it!" I snap. "Do it!" Bass knows who I'm saying that to. "Do your worst." I scream. The smell of smoke fills my nose now. I didn't open my eyes at all during that last one. I slowly open my eye and see myself in the burning field. I got to get this one over with. This one isn't that good. I start to run without thinking towards the trees in hopes I can get there with no problem. I was wrong. I trigger the wall of fire much sooner and it is moving fast towards me. Bass said it was good to face my fear. So I keep running right into the wall. I feel the burning for only and moment and I'm in the marsh again. Bugs. I let a shiver go down my back as I look around. All that I hear is the flap of the wings, the tapping of their little feet on the ground around me and the snapping of their teeth. Last time I was over whelmed with this one and let them get to me, I think I gave up and had a heart attack or something. I passed out that day and Bass had to drop some water on me when I was back in the room. So I take in a deep breath and run. I can't help but remember last night and Chris and the moth. I said something, what was it. Fire… fire is good. So I run to the water run into it. Fire, I need to find some. I run in the swallow water. I need fire now. I shut my eyes as I hear the bugs get louder and I begin to feel the flying ones land on me. I need fire. I drop down into the water and the bugs leave me. I get up, soaking wet and keep running. When I open my eyes I see something orange to my left. I run out of the water and run straight to the low burning fire. I jump over it and land in the middle of the circle of fire and curl up in to a ball.
"Hold still." My eyes are blinded by the bright light of the hospital room. It's hard to control my body as it jerks back and forth away from the nurse who is only trying to help me.
"It hurts." I hiss out in pain. As if Simulations can cause pain.
"I know. We are trying to help you, so hold still." I feel a pair of hands pin me to the bed. I breathe in as I clear my head. Simulation. This is as simulation. They can't cause pain. This is fake. My body jerks out from underneath one of the nurses and I sit up. I kneel on the white bed and hang my head as I breathe in. I wasn't bitten so I shouldn't be in pain. I never went to the hospital. My breathing slows down and the light dies down. I am able to stand up and I look around at the almost faceless crowd. Rejection. That's what this is. I look around and I see my group of friends. My body runs over to them and it's almost painful to stop, but I am able to.
"I won't do that to myself." I turn and run in the other direction. I remember how bad it was for me last time. "They don't hate me. So why bother asking." I'm thrown into the white room with Peter in front of me with Christina and I chained to the wall.
"Your weak and can't save her." I'm not weak. I am stronger than you. "Try to get out. Just try, you won't be able to save her." The knife is to her throat. I have to get out of this one; I have to break the chains. Bass's identity is on the line. I sink to the floor. Then I stare at him as he cuts her throat. Blood scatters everywhere and I prevent myself from thrashing, that's a waste of energy. I will have to build up to it. Uriah should be enough. Hopeful Tris is enough, but I'm not sure. One by one I stare and feel their blood hit my face and pool up around my knees. I need to control myself. "What the hell are you doing? Given up?" He laughs as Drew and Molly walks out with Tris and her bag covered head. I will have to try now, before I watch her die. I shut my eyes. I can break these chains. I am not weak. My father is a liar. I am stronger than him. I'm stronger than Peter. And I'm stronger than these chains. I take in a deep breath and yank my hands forward as hard as I can. Something snaps and I fall forward and my face hits the pool of blood, the fake blood. I stand up and walk forward and the chains on my feet break easily. I look at Peter's face and smirk.
"You were saying?" I wipe my hand down and I hear the splash of the chain on the ground. Before I know it. I hear a painful screeching sound and I sink to my knees. When I open my eyes, I see I'm in the pit. "Shit!" I snap out as I cover my ears as another goes off. I can't find the source of the sound. How the hell do I get out of this one? Calm heart rate. That's the only way. I start to breathe in and imagine the sound getting quieter and quieter. Nothing. So I concentrate on my breathing. Ten, nine, eight. Screech. Seven, six, five. Louder screech. Probably hurting the leaders ears. Can I deaf myself? I can't hear a thing. I can't hear a thing. Nothing happens. "Damn it." Four, three, two. Nothing, here's my chance. I take a deep breath in and one. My head is knock to the side and I fall on my side. My eyes open and I see I'm in my old room. "What?"
"You are stupid and need to learn your place." I look around and see the one I didn't want to see. My father. I crawl to the head of the bed and curl up into the fetal position.
"Shut up and leave me alone." I cry out. "Leave me alone." Please let this not be what I'm thinking. I shut my eyes and feel his weight on the bed. "Leave me ALONE!" I scream as I throw a pillow and run off of the bed and fall on my face. "SHIT!" I scramble to my feet and I feel his hand grab my hair and pull me back to the bed. A scream erupts from me from my mouth as I'm thrown onto the bed, next to him. "I'm going to kill you if you don't get away from me." I growl out as I glare at him. My heart is racing badly. I can't get out of this fear. "I will kill you." I snap as I throw a fist. It is easily grabbed and pinned behind me.
"Just stop and let it happen. It will be easier that way." He says as he caresses my face. I turn and bite his hand and bite down as hard as I can. I feel his blood in my mouth as he screams out. My head gets slapped with the other one that was holding my hands back. I bite down hard as I punch him the best I can with my eyes closed. Another blow to the head and I let go. I open my eye and spit the blood into his face and laugh. "Bitch! That move will cost you." He grabs my throat and my laughing stops short. I am shoved against the bed frame as he inches closer. I need to breath; no I need to get out of his grasp. I watch him inch forward and see he is in line with my knee. I push my knee up and get him right in the crotch. His hand slips from my throat and I smirk as I roll off the bed and on my knees.
"Bitch? You step yourself up for that." I laugh out before running towards the door. I'm stopped by him grabbing my hair again and I'm thrown into the floor. His face is covered with my blood and spit and I notice he is moving slower.
"I will enjoy this." he smirks as I watch him undo his belt. Shit. It is what I think. I look around frantically. I need something to defend myself. My heart rate is even faster now. Look under my bed and I see a belt. I need to kill him. I roll under bed as he is about to pull his pants down. I grab the belt from under the bed and I get to the other side. He is glaring at me and me at him. "Do you enjoy making things worse for you?"
"Do you like making me hate you?" I scoff out as I hide the belt and walk around the side of the bed. I need to kill him. He watches me carefully, before lunging at me. I let the belt strap from my hand and hold the buckle and hold it at my throat. I land on the ground and wrap it around his neck as he tries to grab my hands. I pull the belt strap through the buckle and pull as tight as I can as he starts to paw at his throat. My heart races faster and faster as he struggles less and less, until, I know he is dead. I push him off of me and stand up. I gather more bloody spit and spit on his dead body.
The scene changes and now I see myself in the training room with beaten up people around me and blood all over me. I look at the faces closer and they are my friends.
"Don't." I hear a cry come from Christina's mouth. I look at her and see a belt in my hand. "Don't kill me." I drop the belt and step away from her.
"I won't. I wouldn't." I stutter out as I back away. My back hit something hard. I turn around and see Uriah, beaten and bloody.
"Calm down, Andy and breath." He winces. "This isn't you." I feel tears well up into my eyes. I did this to them. I hurt them. The people I care about. Love. My body shakes as I back away from him and run into a punching bag.
"I couldn't have down this. Not to you." I turn and see Al.
"You did it to me. You beat me and then screamed at me and made me kill myself." He says in his calm voice. "What makes you think you wouldn't do it to the others?"
"You went after Tris." I tell him as I back into the bag again. "You let them hurt her."
"So you're only loyal to The stiff?" He asks me. I shake my head and cry.
"Al, you know why I protect her the most." I start to sob. "I couldn't have done this. I don't hurt people that I know shouldn't be. I don't hurt people I love." Al looks at me cold.
"You didn't love me?" He asks in a chilling voice.
"I loved you, but you weren't yourself anymore. I.." I choke. "I was trying to find out why you let them hurt her and you told me you didn't know." I snap. "That wasn't the Al I grew to love as a brother. That was a coward and a fraud." I bite my lip. "You're dead, so leave me the hell alone." I push him away and he vanishes. Thank God he's gone. I didn't hurt any of them. I did nothing to them. I breath in and as I let out the breath. I see the lights turn on and I'm back into the Fearscape. I have a fear to causing pain to others, death, bugs, hospitals, rejection, being weak, loud sounds, abuse, and hurting people I love and care about. Nine fears. Only nine. I look around and breathe in calmly as I look at the word Dauntless on the wall. I can't help but laugh. I get it now. It's the first thing you see coming out of you landscape. The door opens and I turn and go to grab my knife. My hand on my hip and I'm slightly crouched. First person I see is Max. I stand up, but still keep my hand on my hip. Eric and someone others file in. They look a little pale too me.
"Congratulations, Andy." Max speaks up. "You have successfully completed you final evaluation." He says. I nod my head and remain eye contact as I start to walk. "Before you go." I stop. I watch as a woman with a black box appears and hands it to Eric. He opens it and there is a needle in it. I raise an eyebrow at this. It's a dirty sick orange color. I never seen anything that wasn't a simulation has color to it in a needle. Granted, I only been in a hospital twice.
"This is a tracking device that will be activated only if you are reported missing." He says as he walks over to me. My hand tightens and ready as he stops next to me. His hand glances at the hand and I think he has an idea of what I have. I turn my head to the side and he wipes my neck with something cold and then puts the needle in me. "This is something new that all the factions will be getting soon." he pulls it out and places a bandage there.
"Banquet is in two hours." Max tells me. "Your ranking will be announced there with everyone else." He says. I crack my neck and walk out of the room. I see Uriah there ready for me. I walk over to him and let his arms come around me as the room shouts.
"You like to cuss." He whispers into my ear.
"Only when I'm over the edge." I laugh a little bit as he leads me away from the crowd. "So, how did I do?" I ask quietly.
"Good. Pretty fast too." He tells me as he leads me past the group of people and down to the pit. I'm tired, on edge and smell. I want to sleep.
"Good, I feel tired." I tell him as we walk down the stairs.
"Good, I'm taking you to my dorm room to have you get some peace and quiet." Uriah smiles down at me. "And so you can shower." I elbow him in the gut and walk faster down the path. "I'm just kidding, Andy."
"Sorry. I'm on edge right now." I tell him as I let him catch up. No one is down here. Everyone is up there.
"Care to tell me about the new fears?" He asks. I slowly nod. Talking helps a little bit.
"Loud noise, rape, and hurting my friends and making them fear me." I tell him quietly. It takes him a second to respond.
"I pray for the poor soul that tries to rape you to get a brain before you kill them." He says and I know it's to cheer me up. "Was that the one you kept spitting?" I nod.
"I bit his hand so hard that it flooded my mouth with his blood." I explain as a shiver goes through my body.
"You okay?" Uriah's arms wrap around me.
"Just don't like the thought of how real it felt." I tell him simply. He nods and leads me to his dorm room. Bass will be there for Tris, so I will have to go to him later and talk with him about my messed up mind. It bothered the leaders. "Uriah, why where the leaders pale when they came in?" I ask him.
"Well." He starts off. "Something seemed to get them off guard. I noticed Eric pale first." I nod as we get to his dorm. Lynn and Marlene are in here, packing. "Hey, look who just got out." Marlene looks up and runs over to me and hugs me.
"How did it go?" She asks in my ear. I pull away from her and rub my ear.
"Fine. A fear I have is loud noises." I tell her as kindly as possible. She smiles shyly.
"Sorry. Can't help it much."