Heaven only knows where you been. But I don't really need to know. I know where you're gonna go
Taeyeon sighed again for the nth time that day when she finally found the person she was looking for. Her first love.
She walked closer to the girl who was carrying a flower bouquet, facing a flat headstone. When the girl glanced back over her shoulder, Taeyeon felt her heart stopped for a beat as their gazes met each other's. Taeyeon continued her walk closer to the girl before she also squatted in an arm-reach far from the squatting girl.
Since 7 years ago, Taeyeon has always know where to find her whenever she's trying to run away from everything. Even though Taeyeon knew it would hurt herself so bad, she would still go and find her first love there. In her first love's first love's 'place'.
That time too, Taeyeon's heart was breaking at the sight of her first love's mournful state. Taeyeon saw how her eyes were glistening with tears, how she kept on biting her lip just to stop herself from crying. And how her hand was supporting her beautiful face by her cheek.
But it was a whole lot better than the previous years. Taeyeon was there for her when she cried all night long, Taeyeon was there to feed her even though she was pushed away countless times, and Taeyeon was always there to stop her from following her past lover.
It was a lot better that time. There were no tears spilled, and as usual, no words needed.
A small but comforting smile broke out in Taeyeon's face when she was faced with a bitter smile from the latter. Then a hand was reaching out for Taeyeon. She didn't waste even a second to hold it, and giving it encouraging grips along with another smile.
They needed no words.
And the best part was Taeyeon knew that it also goes the same way for the latter.
They stood up at the same time, and walked to Taeyeon's old jeep hand in hand with no words to be heard.
Driving away, Taeyeon couldn't help but to steal glances to the passenger on her side every minute, or every second possible. She still looked stressed, with her hand supporting her head that Taeyeon believed was filled with thoughts of her past lover. And like usual, her leg was up folded in the seat, and the other one was up the dashboard.
"You're gonna end up crashing the car if you keep on looking at me instead of the road"
Finally.. a voice Taeyeon was dying to hear. Taeyeon snapped out of her daydream and smiled shyly when she also saw a smile from the latter. She diverted her gaze back to the road while her mind was still daydreaming about that girl's smile. Probably it was because Taeyeon was still got a little hint of hangover from last night, but Taeyeon really liked that smile. It seemed like the brightest she had ever seen, and ofcourse it made her heart race faster.
"I'm a pro" Taeyeon replied with still the same shy smile, and she was soon got a reply in a form of a chuckle.
Her heart felt like bursting anytime soon. She looked at her left hand that was out of the window, fingers playing with the wind, reminiscing the feel of the hand that held hers earlier.
How Taeyeon wished she could make the latter laugh daily that easy. But, oh—if she really want that to happen, she had to hard practice not to crash herself instead everytime she hear that voice and see her smile. She still wasn't too much of a pro in that field.
-xxx-
On my heart where
You're resting your head
And you just look so beautiful
Just like you were an Angel
It has always been that way. If the girl fell down, Taeyeon would be there to catch her. If the girl distanced herself from everyone, Taeyeon would follow her, until the girl gave up and let Taeyeon save her.
All of that, will end in Taeyeon's embrace.
That day too, for example.
Right after they reached their apartment, they fell into their bed, with Taeyeon embracing the latter to assuage her.
Taeyeon learned that the girl really liked it when she caress her head, fingers running through her long hair, or when her thumb move slow above her ear constantly. She always wondered whether the girl realized her heartbeats that only meant for her or not, whether all of what she does to her was enough to keep the wingless angel by her side or not.
That girl was like an angel who lost her wings, and Taeyeon was ready to give her a pair of wings to fly away if she asked for it. Taeyeon would do it. She would give her wings to fly and leave her side if that was what the angel needed. Even though Taeyeon knew well, that it meant she will have to break her own wings to give the wingless angel her wings.
For the past 7 years, Taeyeon has always been carrying her with her own arms wherever she goes. Taeyeon didn't mind at all. She would be happy to take her wherever she wished to go.
Like that day too, for example.
"I want to go to our old high school. And the beach too"
"Go get ready"
With that, Taeyeon smiled when she saw a smiling face leaving her chest as she unwrapped her arms away from around the girl's body. She then watched her leaving their bed that used to be Taeyeon's only. The girl left the doors open, indirectly helping Taeyeon to actually keep her eyes on her as she was getting ready.
Taeyeon really want to hug that back whenever she sees it. She wanted to hug her just because she could, not because the girl was seeking peace from her. She wanted to give her surprise hugs that always make a romance movie's heroine smile.
Walking pass a sleeping white male maltese she gave her for her birthday, Taeyeon leaned on the bedroom's door frame. She was unconsciously admiring her once again, and stopping herself from hugging the other girl that was in the bathroom four steps across the room. All of that was stopped forcefully when their eyes met through the bathroom mirror. Taeyeon caught another small smile from the girl before she swung the bathroom door close.
-xxx-
Just right after they walked across their high school's quiet parking lot, the rain fell down harshly. Taeyeon almost ran back to the jeep to get an umbrella, but a hand stopped her by her wrist. She was confused, but she stayed still as she saw the latter took off her high heels and held it in one hand.
The girl started to tip toe, and turning around graciously, like she was a ballerina on her dream stage. When she saw Taeyeon was still stuck to the ground with a bewildered and amused smile, she took her hand, and pulled her to follow her dance steps.
Under heavy skies in the rain
You're dancing
In your bare feet
Just like we're in a movie
With her shoes in one hand and Taeyeon's hand in the other, she danced her heart out, like she haven't been dancing for her whole life, and like it was her last dance. Taeyeon must admit that she couldn't really dance. But if that what the girl wanted, she would do it with a smile.
It was relieving for Taeyeon to see the latter smile that wide just because of a simple thing. But she was more than relieved when the girl took finally a pity on the clumsy dancer and ended the dance show.
Drenched, they went in to one of the school bus that was parked near them. They left wet trails along the bus' floor and Taeyeon could only hope nobody will catch them red handed. She followed her who walked to the end of the bus, and sat on the right seat, while Taeyeon sat across on the left one and took off her drenched coat immediately and hung it on the seat infront of her.
Those seats were the ones they used to sit on whenever they were on the way to school and back home. Taeyeon usually sit alone with her books and MP3 player, while the high school sweetheart sat across, with her past lover. Just like that, for a whole high school years.
Taeyeon could still remember well how she felt. She clearly knew how it felt when her first love slash her best friend was dating her another best friend. She couldn't do anything but storing her feelings inside, and showcasing her best smile outside. It was for the best. She needed to sacrifice her own happiness for her best friends' happiness.
Her first love was her best friend. And probably her only love, because she tried. But she didn't find herself loving anybody else like she does towards her.
It hurts, of course. Even thinking about it made her chest felt stuffed.
A soft rustle brought Taeyeon back from the past. She looked to the side and saw her taking off her wet oversized coat before she hung it on the seat in front of her. Then, Taeyeon noticed the dress she was wearing. It was the dress that Taeyeon bought for her a week after she saw the latter falling in love with that dress on a storefront display. What made it meaningful was how Taeyeon had to skip few lunches because she didn't have that much money back then. But all of the smiles in the end made it worth all the efforts.
Taeyeon looked at the empty seat beside the latter and wondered if she could fill that spot. That spot her past best friend used to sit on. But before she could wonder even further, a voice filled her ear
"Taeyeon.." She heard her calling, and she saw her hand patting the empty seat beside her. Taeyeon silently gulped down the knots in her throat as she rose and sat beside the girl. As much as her surprise, she soon felt the girl dabbing the water off her forehead with a dry handkerchief attentively, to her nose, cheeks, and even her hair. But Taeyeon liked it. A simple care from her could make her whole day—no—week.
When she was done, she smiled to express her appreciation. And she got a smile in return, followed by a body pressing close to hers, head on her shoulder, and a hand that intertwined itself with Taeyeon's.
"We've never sit side by side like this in a school bus" Hearing that, Taeyeon gulped, and sighed the pain off her chest inaudibly.
Of course, because she always had her by her side.
"It's such an honor to sit beside the queen Tiffany now. Even though it's a little bit late" Taeyeon said with a giggle and the girl called Tiffany followed along. She squeezed their intertwined hands and snuggled close to Taeyeon, not minding her dampened body.
Didn't know what to do with her other hand, Taeyeon once again played with Tiffany's hair. Her fingers ran along the length of her dampened hair, while her head slowly turned, and secretly slipped a secretive kiss on top of her head before she rested her cheek there to cover what she did a second ago.
But Taeyeon seemed to be caught off guard when Tiffany lifted her head off Taeyeon's shoulder. Their eyes locked, no sound was made. The only thing that could be heard was the collision between the raindrops and the bus' roof and window. Maybe, Taeyeon's heartbeats too when they unknowingly leaned forward until their foreheads rested against each other. With their eyes closed, Taeyeon gently tucked Tiffany's hair behind her ear before her hand travelled the softness of her cheek.
Breaths were hitting each other's lips, until it finally stopped when Taeyeon tilted Tiffany's chin up and pressed her lips on hers. Then Taeyeon saw that familiar fireworks once again. The ones she always saw whenever she kissed her—no matter how long she was allowed to stay. She relished the feeling as much as she could, expressing how much love she has for her, just in case she would get pushed away in the next second. Just like how it always happen most of the time.
When she felt Tiffany held her hand tighter, Taeyeon was preparing to pull away before Tiffany would stop her. But what came up next surprised Taeyeon and made her feel like she was on top of the world. Tiffany's free hand cupped Taeyeon's cheek as she pulled her closer to share bolder kisses. That was definitely the first time Tiffany allowed Taeyeon to stay longer. A frown was visible on Taeyeon's face when she felt Tiffany's hand moved to her nape, and up to tangle in her hair. Those fingers massaged Taeyeon's scalp in the same pace as their kiss. It couldn't get any better, until the need of air made Tiffany slow it down and broke their lips contact.
Also for the first time, Tiffany was the one who pulled away nicely instead of pushing Taeyeon to stop everything. Nobody can blame Taeyeon if she felt her hopes rising. Didn't know where she got the courage from, Taeyeon decided to confess her true feelings once again
"I love you, Tiffany. I love you so much"
Too much that it hurt so bad, to be exact.
But all she got was another silence, like usual. It would only be a matter of seconds before Tiffany would say something like she always say. Like,
"I'm sorry. But I still love her so much. I just can't forget her"
"I know" Hearing her reply, Taeyeon opened her eyes to Tiffany's. She tried to look for an explanation in her eyes. But before she could find it, the same tug on her nape pulled her to place her lips back to on Tiffany's.
Was that an explanation ? Taeyeon didn't know.
All she knew was giving everything the latter ask for.
-xxx-
"We've known each other for a long time. Three years is a long time, right ?"
"Well, yeah.. of course"
"I really like you, Taeyeon.."
A silent song sung by waves steps away from them filled in as the pretty girl with guitar on her lap spoke. Taeyeon froze and turned her head away from the girl who was sitting beside her. She was only just took 3 seconds to admire the sea in front of her, she felt her hands being pulled and sandwiched in between two cold nervous hands.
"..I know that—"
"Way to go, mate ! Get the girl !" The girl beside Taeyeon was cut by a loud scream, followed by giggles and smiles. When she turned her head to the voice source fast, she saw one of her best friend, and also the other—Tiffany.
She looked so beautiful smiling with the afternoon sunray showering her figure. And she looked so happy giggling with her lover, arms wrapped around each other's shoulder and waist.
Taeyeon quickly pulled her hand away from the girl beside her and place it on her own lap awkwardly. It was weird, but Taeyeon really didn't want to be seen that way.
"See ! I've told you not to disturb Taeyeon-ie. Now she's embarrassed"
She wasn't embarrassed, she just didn't want Tiffany to see her that way. It felt like 'cheating on her', even when Tiffany was somebody else's.
She wasn't Taeyeon's.
"Man up, man !"
"Oh shhh you, let's go"
With that, Taeyeon witnessed Tiffany pulling her playful lower away by her arm that was draped over her shoulders, away from Taeyeon, leaving her heart in a mess.
"I know you love her" The girl broke the silence after a while. Her gaze didn't left Taeyeon's face even for a split second, even if Taeyeon didn't spare a glance towards her.
"But she's someone else's, Taeyeon. Can you just give me a chance ?"
"I'll make you forget her"
That was what she said. She just wanted to save Taeyeon from the hole she was in.
It was a surprising thing for Taeyeon to ever go to that beach ever again. Because she knew, that it was their beach.
"Coffee ?"
Even though she wasn't really in the mood for coffee, Taeyeon nodded and accept it with a smile. She just wouldn't miss any chance of being 'taken care' of like that by the latter. After she took a gulp from the canned drink, she handed it back, and saw her immediately took another sip. Even if they always share whatever they have, Taeyeon still couldn't deny the butterflies in her stomach whenever it happen.
It felt like they were a married couple—well, almost.
"Are you cold ?" Tiffany said as her hands were ready to take off Taeyeon's coat that was covering her legs. Because it was rather windy and her legs were exposed due to the dress she was wearing, that was why Taeyeon insisted to.
"We can just head back now—"
"No, I'm okay. Let's just stay here for a while for the sunset. You wanted to see the sunset, right ?"
Even though Tiffany didn't really say it, Taeyeon knew it.
The fact that was said by Taeyeon with a smile, brought a smile to Tiffany too. Then, Taeyeon felt a body pressing close to hers, and arms wrapping around her waist.
"I can warm you up" Tiffany said as she snuggled her head to Taeyeon neck. Being caught off guard once again, Taeyeon tried to bring back her soul that flew away from her body due to the happiness that exploded inside her. Didn't know what to say, she just let out a nervous chuckle.
"Taeyeon" Responding to her call, Taeyeon only turned her head to face her just to realize that it was a careless move, because Tiffany's face was so close to hers, that she literally could feel her world being stopped forcefully by her beauty. And when the world finally turned again, it moved ever so slowly, that she could see Tiffany's eyelids open and close, her eyes that sparkled to Taeyeon's once in a while.
"Thank you"
Taeyeon didn't even know what it was for, or she didn't even realized Tiffany's hand that was on her shoulder. It gripped on Taeyeon's shirt, and when she finally snapped out of it, she was pulled closer to Tiffany who had her eyes closed, until their lips touched once again.
Maybe she didn't have to know what was that for—for that time being.
-xxx-
The sky had turned dark when they were driving back home—or waiting for the jammed street to move so that they can go back home. All Taeyeon could hear was the hum of the car's engine, and occasional honks from cars around. On her side, Tiffany was staring into blankness once again, hand supporting her head by her chin, and legs were up folded on the seat. A sudden turn of her playful side surfaced up, and she just really needed to get it fulfilled.
"Boo !"
Tiffany's body jolted when she felt Taeyeon's hand on her arm to shock her. Then, a smile broke out on that beautiful face that was out of emotions a second ago.
"Ow" Also on Taeyeon's, as she was punched on her arm, followed by a pinch on the same spot. She then witnessed Tiffany rested her head back to the headrest while closing her eyes. Thinking that the latter was just tired or simply tired from a long day they had, she just let her be, giving her time to rest.
As it turned silent, Taeyeon wondered how would it be if she really was her 'boo'. Calling her that, not saying that just to shock her. She was brought down by that thought, until she looked to her side again and saw her face. She was glad that someone finally filled her passenger seat, even though it was her 'best friend'.
Wait, actually, someone did filled that place before.
That girl.
Thinking about her first girlfriend ever, never failed to drown her in the biggest guilt. Because she shouldn't have done that. She shouldn't have give that girl a chance, or a chance to save herself when she already knew she couldn't at the first place.
'Taeyeon-ah, don't work too hard and remember to have dinner at our usual place tonight at 7, ok ? I love you'
'I'm waiting inside'
'Where are you, Taeyeon-ah ? It's almost half an hour'
'It's already 9. I have to go home. If you're reading this, no need to go to the restaurant'
"Look, I love you so much but it doesn't mean I can accept what you kept on doing to me !"
"I'm sorry, okay ? I've told you that I didn't mean to do all that—"
"You didn't mean what ?! Kim Taeyeon, you made me wait for hours in the restaurant, you said you would pick me up after college, but I had to wait again for hours, and in the end I had to walk back home. ALONE. In the rain. And it didn't happen just once or twice ! I've lost count on how many times you forget that you even have a girlfriend !"
"I'm sorry, I just had a lot of things to take care of"
"But I bet you never forget about that Tiffany no matter how busy you are"
"Hey, don't talk about her that way"
"Why ? You don't like it when your girlfriend is mentioning a girl who is always being so clingy to you ?! Does she even care that you're someone else's ?!"
"She is my best friend. I've known her way long before I met you. Don't make such a huge fuss about it. She just lost her lover and she needs someone to take care of her for the time being—"
"THEN DO YOU THINK THAT THE ONE WHO NEEDS YOU IS ONLY HER ?! HOW ABOUT ME ?! I'M YOUR GIRLFRIEND ! SHE'S JUST YOUR SO-CALLED-BEST FRIEND"
The girl that was sitting on the passenger seat had disappointment written all over her face. And Taeyeon could only stay silent, she just couldn't reason out. She wanted to defend herself from all those screams, but what she said was all truth.
"Do you even know how much I love you, Taeyeon ? Does my love even matter to you ? Because it doesn't feel like that"
"I'm sorry"
"Keep it. And keep your money to buy something useful for her instead of giving me 'I'm sorry' roses every time you hurt me"
"You won't need to care about me anymore. I've had enough"
"I've experienced how hurt it is so I hope she'll return your feelings someday. Have a good life ahead, Taeyeon. Thank you for the chance"
Taeyeon stared blankly to the steering wheel, she didn't even dare to look at the door when it opened, and only looked back to her side when it was being slammed close again. Her hand reached out to a dozen-roses bouquet that was being left on the previous spot occupied by her girlfriend—oh, ex.
There goes her story with her first lover.
She rested her arm on the steering wheel, before she rested her head there. For some moment, she closed her eyes, before she sighed out. Inside her mind, rang Tiffany's voice she once said as she hooked her arms on her lover's, the one that left a massive scar on her
"Come on, Tae. You can't forever date your books and headphones. Try ! Even though I don't mind you being our third wheel, it will be fun if we can have double date sometimes ! Don't you want to have someone to hold like this ?"
She sighed once again, before she whispered
"I tried, Tiffany. Just like how you told me to"
And she drove away, from the house she never dared to pass by, up until forever.
"BOO !" Tiffany screamed rather hard as she shocked Taeyeon by her shoulder. Either to make her pay for what she did to her before or to dismiss her from her heavy thoughts.
"Yah ! What if I crashed the car ?!" The shocked girl scolded as she held her thumping heart, feeling like it gonna fall off soon because of the rapid beating. But all she got was a laughter. Looking at the passenger, a small smile soon bloomed on Taeyeon's face as the slight annoyance she got from the shock fade away fast.
Laughing freely like that, Tiffany just looked so beautiful.
Taeyeon wouldn't mind having her heart falling off if she could get to witness Tiffany's smile in return. She would do anything to make her smile.
"Just now, who did you think about ?"
But Tiffany just had to ask that, eyes fixed on Taeyeon.
It was rare for her to be asked that kind of thing. Felt good to be 'cared' that way, but felt bad at the same time. Just like usual, it felt like cheating on her, even if Tiffany wasn't hers.
But Taeyeon, she was the one who never lied for her own good.
"Her" She answered shortly and honestly, still didn't dare to turn her head and look at Tiffany.
"Her ?"
"Junhee"
"Oh.."
"Sorry, I should've concentrated on driving—" Even though her car could still barely move due to the traffic.
"Do you love her ?" Being cut with that kind of question, she finally turned her head to her right and looked Tiffany straight in her eyes
"Do you love her, Taeyeon ?" She asked her once again when she didn't get any kind of respond from her. Looking at her unwavered gaze, Taeyeon knew that Tiffany really meant to ask that, and she demanded an answer. She looked away and sighed as she tried to focus on the street again, even if the car was barely able to move due to the jam packed traffic.
"I tried" Taeyeon finally answered softly, eyes locked to the car's bumper in front of her as she didn't know where to place her gaze.
"I tried to"
She tried, she really tried to love someone else.
But she always found herself running back to Tiffany, giving her everything even if she didn't asked for anything.
Different than before, Taeyeon's heart that started to turn upside down due to unpleasant feelings turned good once again when she felt Tiffany took her hand in hers and intertwined them, followed by a head that rested on her shoulder. When Taeyeon's hand gave a soft squeeze as an approval, Tiffany's other hand moved to her arm, and slightly pulled her so that she can hug her arm more comfortably. She sighed, and snuggled her head closer to Taeyeon's
"Taeyeon ?"
"Hmm ?"
"You don't need to try for more"
-xxx-
Taeyeon was the second to came inside their shared apartment. Infront of her, she saw Tiffany bent down petting and greeting the white dog with her cheerful voice that made it enthusiastically wag its tail to welcome them home. She quickly reached to the cabinet to fill the dog's bowl with dog food as she said an apology for the delayed dinner. When the dog had started eating, Tiffany stood up and went inside the bathroom. Usually Tiffany would shoo her away or close the door by herself to avoid ruckuss whenever Taeyeon had her eyes stuck on her. But not that time around. She let Taeyeon waited for her in the corridor, and sometimes she didn't even think twice to look at her straight in her eyes.
When she was done, she walked pass Taeyeon and went into their room. Taeyeon planned to go to the bathroom as soon as Tiffany was finished. But in the end she couldn't tear her gaze off her instead. Tiffany stole a glance of Taeyeon over her shoulder. And when she was sure that Taeyeon was watching her, she zipped down her dress, leaving her in her underwear. The revelation of her body got Taeyeon in awe. She was stuck to the floor, her brain had stopped working.
"Taeyeon"
All she realized after that was Tiffany sitting on top of their bed with less clothing, inviting her to join. Taeyeon could only think to turn the lights down low, and closed the door behind her.
Can I stop the flow of time
Can I swim in your divine
Cos I don't I think I'd ever
Leave this place
Taeyeon took off her plaid shirt she was wearing, leaving her in her sleeveless tee and jeans before she went on top of the bed, kneeling in front of Tiffany. She tried hard to look at nothing else but Tiffany's eyes. But she couldn't help it, in the down corner of her vision, she noticed how her skin was glowing under the moonlight that seeped from the window behind her back. Her hand reached out to cup Tiffany's cheek, and her thumb gently caressed her. When their eyes finally met, Taeyeon felt her heart beating faster, hammering through her chest. Tiffany was the most beautiful to her. Nobody could ever replace Tiffany in her heart.
She smiled to expell her shyness. But it turned out to be a very sweet one that elicited blush on Tiffany's cheeks. Then Tiffany held Taeyeon's right hand that was on her cheek, and closed her eyes as she leaned on her palm. Arrows were shot right through Taeyeon's heart. She always loved it when Tiffany lean on her, or when she won't let her go all night long. It made her feel needed—or wanted.
She wanted to feel needed in more than way a friend would.
A sigh was heard when Taeyeon inched forward to press a brief and light peck on Tiffany's other cheek before she nuzzled her face to the side of Tiffany's face.
They wanted to say something, but nothing came out.
Taeyeon just wanted to kiss and wrap her arms around her forever starting that night, but she was afraid because it wasn't her right to do so.
But then Tiffany pulled Taeyeon's hand off her cheek and intertwined it with hers, while the other took the chance to caress Taeyeon's cheek in return. Tiffany pulled her head away from Taeyeon's slightly just to come back again. She pressed her forehead to Taeyeon's, nose brushing against hers, and quivering breaths were hitting each other's lips. Tiffany tidied Taeyeon's messy bangs to the side before her hand came back to Taeyeon's cheek once again.
Their lips were just a centimeter away, and ofcourse Taeyeon was holding herself back from meeting those lips. But little did she know, Tiffany was waiting for her to make a move.
When Tiffany couldn't wait for any longer, she crashed her lips on Taeyeon's, catching her off guard—and Tiffany couldn't believe she did that either. It was the first time that she actually kissed Taeyeon that way. Far from platonic kisses on her cheek just to say thank you.
They frowned at the feeling, and tried to stop the feeling from flying away. Their lips moved feverishly in sync, spilling their hidden emotions through the kiss. Taeyeon was showing her longing for the love of her life, while Tiffany finally felt free from braving herself to give another try on love.
After years of grieving her past lover and receiving love from her best friend without giving it back, she actually started to fall from the latter. But Tiffany was scared, she was scared that the past memories will get in her way from returning the love back and forth between them.
And moreover, she was scared to be left by someone she love once more.
But holy heavens, kissing Taeyeon felt so right, her love felt too good to be true.
She started to wish that she would never run out of it.
And starting on that moment, she was making sure that Taeyeon would never run out of it too.
Because Tiffany would give her all what she deserved—her all. Taeyeon deserved her all for giving her all for the past years.
Also, Tiffany had started to like the idea of it.
Tiffany slowed the kiss down and pulled back slightly. They let out heavy and ragged breaths as their eyes met each other. Tiffany squeezed their intertwined hands gently, while the other caressed Taeyeon's heated cheek up and down, sometimes tucking her hair behind her ear. Then, she smiled at her. A smile that was full of relieve, and faith. Faith of starting a new once again, a celebration of a new love.
Taeyeon couldn't really tell what that smile meant specifically because she simply couldn't read minds. But one thing for sure, she liked that smile. Oh scratch that, she loved it. So she also smiled at her, widely, brightly, as she had never felt that free before.
They leaned in to meet each other's lips for the second time that night. That time around, it was slow and gentle. Just like summing up how Taeyeon always treat her.
Tiffany's left hand let go of Taeyeon's right just to circle her arms around Taeyeon's neck before she pulled her to lay on top of her body. The kiss went on still in the same slow pace, because the night was still young, and the whole world was theirs that night.
When they broke the kiss to take some air in, Taeyeon finally realized that Tiffany was down only in her underwear. The sight burned her ears, to her neck, and down her back. But she was still in her right mind to not let Tiffany being on that state all alone. She slowly left from on top of Tiffany's body and kneeled on the bed. With their eyes locked, she grabbed her tee from the back of her neck and pulled it off over her head, leaving her in her bra and jeans.
That side made Tiffany unconsciously bit her lower lip. Her hand reached out for Taeyeon's abs. The tip of her fingers traced the subtle contours of her muscle, resulting it to tense at the touch. Tiffany then placed her palm on it, loving the feeling of the tensed abdominal muscle. Their eyes finally met, and they noticed that each other eyes were already glazed with want.
Tiffany arched her back and her hands went behind her back. When Taeyeon started to wonder what she was doing, she saw her pulling her bra straps down her shoulders, one at once—slowly. They maintained their eyes locked but Taeyeon was the first one to break the locked gazes when Tiffany pulled the piece of undergarment off her body, and let it fall down to the floor.
Taeyeon took her sweet time to marvel the half naked body under her. She wanted to put her hands on her, and adore the flawless skin with her lips. But she was still hesitating, and hit by the reality that her body wasn't hers.
A grip on her left hand snapped Taeyeon back to the reality. Then she felt her heart thumping against her chest when she realized that Tiffany was slowly guiding her to her asset. Her heart finally stopped and her face was burning when she placed her palm on the warm flesh. She looked up and saw Tiffany's blushing face. She was sure that it mirrored her own as well.
Taeyeon then complied to the pull on her arm to lay her body back on top of Tiffany's. Their lips met immediately. The kiss was strong and fast paced, making the both of them feeling lightheaded. When Tiffany realized that Taeyeon's hand just stayed still without any movement, she placed her own hand over hers, and gave it a gentle squeeze, silently telling Taeyeon what she want her to do. Taeyeon got that quickly and fulfilled her request. Moans vibrated on their lips for the first time as Taeyeon got her job done. She kneaded the mound softly, feeling the peak harden under her palm.
Taeyeon's other hand went behind her own back and struggled to unsclap her bra. She broke the kiss when she finally succeeded. Their eyes met, and another shy smiles were exchanged. Taeyeon also threw her bra down the floor before she followed Tiffany's pull by her neck. Her hand moved off Tiffany's chest when she got pulled closer by Tiffany's arms around her neck to press their lips together. She took Tiffany's upper lip in between hers and she soon felt nibbles and soft sucks on her lower lip.
A gentle push by Taeyeon's shoulder indicated that the woman under needed to take a breath. So Taeyeon pulled back immediately. When she finally did, she found herself adoring Tiffany once again. Tiffany had her eyes closed, and her slightly swollen lips were parted. Her face has turned into shades of her favorite color and Taeyeon could feel her heaving chest against hers. She couldn't help but to lean in once again and press a kiss on her forehead. It was a gentle, lingering one.
Feeling too much love from the simple kiss, Tiffany opened her eyes to a sight of Taeyeon's neck. She snaked her arms behind Taeyeon's back and pulled her closer for a hug. Taeyeon pulled away from the kiss when she felt that. The next thing she felt was her heart stopping as Tiffany buried her face on the crook of Taeyeon's neck and arms tightened around her. Taeyeon then kissed the side of Tiffany's head before she snuggled her head there.
Even during times like that, they didn't need words. Because their eyes spoke for them.
They exchanged smiles and smiled to the kiss when their lips were pressing against each other once again. After some moments, Taeyeon moved her lips to Tiffany's cheek, ear, and to her jaw. She could hear and feel heavy breaths hitting her ear on every contact her lips made on her skin.
Butterfly kisses were sprinkled around Tiffany's neck while her hands were tangling on Taeyeon's blonde hair. Her lower lip was taken in between her teeth as she felt Taeyeon's kisses started to grow into soft nibbles. When Taeyeon finally gave her pulse point a wet suck, she arched her neck to provide her more space and hummed out in pleasure.
Once she couldn't hold herself back from going down, Taeyeon trailed her kisses down Tiffany's collarbone, upper chest, until she got to her mounds. She started to latch her mouth on her skin when she didn't found any rejection in Tiffany's eyes. Her right hand went to cup her left, and knead it immediately in the same pace as her slow kisses. With their eyes locked, Taeyeon stuck out her tongue and moved upward the mound. The grip on Taeyeon's hair tighten every second passed, until her tongue reached the peak.
Tiffany let out a soft whimper and held onto Taeyeon's head tighter when Taeyeon put it inside her mouth, sucking and wetting it gently. After some moments and when she was satisfied, Taeyeon moved to the other before she went downwards once again. She trailed kisses down Tiffany's flexing and twitching abdominal muscle until she was on the same level as the hem of her underwear.
Taeyeon looked up to Tiffany's face just to get an immediate nod. With a thumping heart and a smile, she sat up. More smiles were exchanged even though nervousness was written on their faces. They held their breath in when Taeyeon slipped her fingers under the waistband. Taeyeon kept her eyes on Tiffany's as she slowly pulled the garment down Tiffany's legs while Tiffany lifted her legs to assist her. She couldn't help but to shift her gaze downwards for some seconds, and her breath hitched when she gazed at the fully bare body in front of her eyes.
She was so beautiful.
Her face was flushed—everybody could tell that she was very embarrassed to be in that state. But Taeyeon didn't see her trying to cover herself. For Taeyeon, she felt like she was given the full authority to claim her all.
When she locked her eyes back to Tiffany's shy ones, her hand started to fumble on her belt. She didn't want Tiffany to feel so open alone.
As rustling sounds of button being popped open and zipper being pulled down tore the quiet in the room, it was Tiffany's turn to gaze downwards to where Taeyeon's hands were. Her cheek heated up at the slight preview of what behind those jeans and quickly looked back up at Taeyeon's eyes. They ended up looking at nothing but each other's eyes as Taeyeon joined Tiffany into bareness.
Once she was completely bare, Taeyeon crawled up to hover Tiffany's body and followed the pull by her cheek for a kiss. The kiss was hard and impatient that time, but a hint of gentleness was still there as a prove of their care towards each other. It was soon broken breathlessly when Taeyeon accidently bumped into Tiffany's centre.
Just before she could speak her apology, she was pulled once again into a kiss. That time around, the kiss was 180 degrees different than the one before. It was soft, slow, but still able to leave them breathless when it was broken. Their eyes met, Tiffany's hand that was on Taeyeon's cheek caressed its way down Taeyeon's neck, shoulder, and stopped at her chest. Her hazy eyes was conveying things before she whispered it out
"Take me"
Never in her whole life Taeyeon expected to hear that from Tiffany. Usually she only asked for hugs, jokes, or late night drives. Definitely not what she just said.
And I would give you everything baby
Can you feel this energy take it
You can have the best me baby
Taeyeon always give the best in everything she asked, with no doubt. But that time, she needed more assurance.
The assurance she needed came in a form of kisses along her jawline, soft caresses on her skin, and another kiss on her lips.
"..Taeyeon.."
The name owner shut her eyes close and furrowed her brows when she heard that voice once again. Almost the same with the one she heard earlier that night before she turned the lights down low. She nuzzled her face to the side of Tiffany's head as she took a hold of herself and press it to the anticipating entrance.
Sighs were heard. The slight pleasure led Taeyeon to rub herself in between Tiffany's legs. She started to sigh out heavy breaths and swallowed her incoming groans as she felt how wet the latter was. When she was just about to give in to the temptation, a thought that they were just 'best friends' hit her. It made her froze in contemplation as she was fully sober to the fact that she wasn't hers.
But then she felt nods, followed by Tiffany's arm hugging her close by her neck.
So, she finally made up her mind.
Whatever she was to Tiffany, Taeyeon just want to show her how much she loves her that night.
"I love you, Tiffany"
With that whisper near Tiffany's ear, Taeyeon started to push her way inside. She felt the hug tighten as her tightness was wrapping around her. It felt perfect, too perfect.
Even though she was going in extremely slow and careful, it felt too good to be true that she lose her mind as the pleasure washed all over her. Until a soft yelp of pain was heard, along with the feel of the tightened hug around Taeyeon's neck.
Taeyeon shot her eyes open as she realized that she had just broke pass her barrier.
Oh shoot.
How can she be so careless ? Taeyeon started to curse herself endlessly for not paying attention to that matter.
Taeyeon felt her heart sunk down to the deepest layer of the earth when she was faced with the tears flowing out of Tiffany's closed eyes. She immediately wiped the tears away and felt tears brimming on her own eyes
"Tiffany.. You-.. I'm- I'm so sorry.. I didn't know. I thought, she—"
She thought, she had took it in the first place. But she was dead wrong.
"No. You're the first" Tiffany whimpered the words out, before she cupped both of Taeyeon's cheek and both teary eyes were looking straight at each other.
"You're my first, Taeyeon"
Hearing Tiffany replaying the fact, Taeyeon felt her inside was dying. She didn't know what she felt. But one thing for sure, she was definitely felt honored.
Well, she was her first love. And now she took her first. Or more like she was given her purity, something that people really treasure.
Caresses on her cheek brought Taeyeon back into reality. Through the tears in her eyes, she could see Tiffany smiling at her. It made her world stop for a while, before she leaned in to press a kiss on her forehead, to her cheek, and downwards to meet her eyes. When Taeyeon just didn't know what to say or do, Tiffany leaned up slightly to take her lips with hers lightly before she pulled away a little bit, still letting their lips brushing against each other before she kissed her once again. Harder, and broken with a soft pop.
"Continue" She whispered to Taeyeon's lips before she rested her head back to the pillow. Her eyes were closed, lips parted, and shades of pink never left her face. Another kiss on her flushed cheek came right after, followed by Taeyeon's whisper
"Please tell me if you want me to stop" Tiffany nodded still with her eyes closed, and held Taeyeon's head close to hers. A sigh was heard when Taeyeon's mouth started to work on her neck. She held Taeyeon tighter when she slowly felt Taeyeon continued to fill her.
Even though she still could feel faint pain under, she was so high on Taeyeon's love. She couldn't deny that finally braving herself to let Taeyeon in and for herself to be loved that way felt too good.
She finally realized that Taeyeon was already fully inside her when she only feel her kisses on her neck and sometimes her collarbone. The pain was long forgotten as Tiffany started to enjoy her kisses. Her soft lips travelled all around her neck, only leaving wet marks on where she believed it was her sweet spot. But then Tiffany felt her trailing kisses up towards her ear. She licked her lips wet as Taeyeon got closer, she bit her lip as she went more, her breath was getting heavier, until she involuntarily let out a moan and grasped Taeyeon's hair when Taeyeon sucked the untouched spot behind her ear. A jolt of pleasure went in between her legs, and she heard Taeyeon's hum vibrated on her skin as Taeyeon gave that spot another suck.
"Do you like that ?" Taeyeon whispered sultrily near her ear followed by another wet kiss. She smiled when she felt a nod together with a sigh, and the grip on of her nape pulled her closer. Her lips made more contact with Tiffany's heated skin, to the spot she confirmed she liked, and down to the crook of her neck. The body under her squirmed when she sucked the spot closer to the back of her neck.
As she wetted her dried lips because all the sighs she let out and sharp breaths she took, Tiffany's hands loosen their grips on Taeyeon's head before it went down Taeyeon's body, roaming her heated skin, before they stopped at her stilled hips. She gently and slightly pushed her hips. But before Taeyeon thought that she told her to go, Taeyeon felt herself guided to push back in again, as gently as before.
Finally after some time of waiting, she was given the green light.
She lifted her head off Tiffany's neck to see her right in her eyes. Her knitted brows immediately loosen up right after she caught Taeyeon's gaze. And when Taeyeon smiled at the beautiful sight under her, she also smiled at her, but not losing her glazed puppy eyes. Taeyeon shifted a little bit to hug the body under her comfortably, and leaned down to meet Tiffany's lips halfway as she also leaned up for Taeyeon.
The first kiss was just a soft brief touch. They pulled back slightly for some seconds before they met once again. Their lips molded into one in a slow motion, in the same pace as Taeyeon's hips. A soft tracing line went down along the curves and bumps of Taeyeon's spine, resulting the shudder she experienced under Tiffany's fingertips. It made her heart burn, and the rush to feel more of her washed harder.
She hummed out into the kiss when she felt Tiffany's hand that was on her shoulder blade dug its nails down her skin, finding the odd surges of pleasure the pain brought. Her eyes opened immediately at the abrupt lost feeling of Tiffany's lips. The clouded mind inside her head was quick enough to be filled with the thought of the pain the woman under her most probably experiencing. She was just about to stop everything when she heard heavy breaths, and saw her almost swollen lips parted, eyes shut tight
"Faster"
But then she heard that clear whisper. So she did what she had been told to. She moved in constant thrusts, a time faster than the previous, but still slower than their heartbeats.
Taeyeon bit her own lip when she witnessed the change her facial muscle made. She witnessed how Tiffany's jaw dropped slightly as she moaned. It was a music to Taeyeon's ears.
She really liked how that husky voice of hers sounded. She loved how she seemed to be shy at the voice she just made, how she closed the gap in her mouth by biting her lower lip. She thought it was a sight to die for when the bite on her lip tried to suppress a slight satisfied smile.
"Oh, Taeyeon.."
And damn, when she finally couldn't stop her name from escaping her lips.
The name owner would do everything just to bring all the pleasure in the world just for her to feel.
Tiffany blindly cupped Taeyeon's cheeks in her palms and pulled her for a kiss. She let out that kind of sound once more when their lips touched. It was a hard and a short one, but undoubtedly broken breathlessly.
Then it was their eyes turn to meet after a long closed eyes and admiration. Both pair had turned hazy with want, but Tiffany could still find that look dominating Taeyeon's eyes. Just like how they always look like whenever Tiffany was happy, and how Taeyeon look at her during those times. She knew well that Taeyeon always said her 'I love you's because she yearned a chance to be let in inside her heart, not her pants.
"I love you"
Just like that. Even when they were in that state, even when Tiffany opened both for Taeyeon to have. Or even when Tiffany still only can give her a small smile as an answer, that look in her eyes had never shut out.
Feeling grateful for not being given those usual heartbreaking respond, Taeyeon put a lingering kiss on her cheek to express her relief. With their eyes locked, Taeyeon took her in her hold and sat up. The other woman quickly put her arms around Taeyeon's neck to keep her from falling, even though she soon realized that Taeyeon wouldn't let that to happen. All that ever happened was Taeyeon catching her with her own arms whenever she fall.
Being given all of the control, Tiffany was clueless at the first. Her senses seemed to float away as the closeness that overwhelmed her from sitting on top of Taeyeon's lap made her feel like she was the ruler of the world. She unwrapped her arms from Taeyeon's neck and pulled away slightly to look straight down Taeyeon's eyes. Her heart couldn't deny the flutter it felt when she saw Taeyeon looking at her like she was the only girl in the world. But it was exactly what was on Taeyeon's view. She could only look at her. No matter how hard she tried to look away.
Their eyes do the talk as Taeyeon tucked Tiffany's hair behind her ear. Her gaze was lost in the love of her life who was on top of her. She gulped down the knots formed in her throat from admiring the beauty right in front of her eyes. Nothing could stop her from falling head over heels for the latter over and over again, not even when the warmth under was screaming for relief.
Taeyeon was brought back to the reality when a caress landed on her cheek, and a soft kiss on her lips. Her eyes fluttered close as she started to enjoy her lips, also the thought that she was kissed, not the other way around. The knitted eyebrows above her eyes rose in the lightheaded feeling left by Tiffany's lips when she slowly parted. She unconsciously followed the pull still with her eyes closed, until a feeling of Tiffany's forehead against hers stopped her. Their noses were brushing, and she felt breathing on her lips as a throaty chuckle was heard. The fact that she could hear her chuckle under that situation, put a smile on her face too.
That smile on Taeyeon's face was quickly taken away by the return of the pleasure burning her whole nerves system. She let out a sigh near Tiffany's parted lips as she felt her closing all of the remaining spaces between their bodies. She loved how the body on top of hers was rocking gently against her, drowning her slowly with the building pleasure. Her hands moved up the smoothness of Tiffany's thigh that trapped her hips in between, and up to the curves of those hips that moved to and fro.
The pace rose gradually. Their breaths were getting heavier.
They panted close to each other's lips before Taeyeon was pulled to meet her lips by her cheeks. She groaned to the kiss as she had her lips being devoured feverishly. It didn't took too much of a time for the silence. Taeyeon couldn't help but to let out her own moans against Tiffany when the latter herself was making Taeyeon hear her every now and then. She gripped at her hips that started to do different motions tighter, up and down, much to Taeyeon's liking.
There were no spaces in between them, all that was there was the high.
Tiffany circled her arms around Taeyeon's neck tight as she broke the kiss to catch her breath. She let Taeyeon hear her breathless voices up and close to her ear.
And all that was left for Taeyeon to hear was
"I love you"
She whispered out clearly, before she pulled away slightly to look her straight in her eyes that were filled with disbelief. Disbelief of her own hearing.
"I love you, Taeyeon"
So she repeated once again. But all she got was silence from the latter.
"I'll love you for more. Don't stop- please.. never stop loving me"
Never in her wildest dream Taeyeon could think of doing that.
"Don't.. don't leave.. me"
Never.
Tiffany was finally answered by a kiss, stopping the quiver on her lips because of the fear. She just couldn't imagine how she would be if she ever being left once again. Moreover, if it was Taeyeon who left her.
Close to her, she could see Taeyeon closed teary eyes. So, she closed her own too, and felt tears streaming down her cheek. But then she felt Taeyeon's hands cupping her cheek ever so gently, and ushered those tears away. Just like she always expected from her.
All she felt next was her back finally resting the soft mattress once again, as she couldn't hold the fire inside her from burning brighter. She felt Taeyeon deep inside her, she held her tight, as she finally experienced the biggest pleasure ever. She screamed her name, and shuddered under her tensed body. Tears escaped her eyes once again, but that time, it was because of the pleasure Taeyeon brought. Clear and blurred, she felt Taeyeon sent all of her love over, leaving her full—physically and mentally.
Taeyeon's world was stopped for a while as she kept on hearing Tiffany calling her name, she could barely move because of the force Tiffany couldn't hold in. Never thought she would ever witness Tiffany in that state, covered in sweat, eyes shut closed, and jaw hanging to let out pleasured sounds and her name.
Still trying to come down from her high, Taeyeon still maintain her gentle thrusts. The body under her still twitched once in a while, so she tried to calm her down by hugging her close, leaving kisses on every inch of her skin she could reach. She got a contented sigh when she moved her lips that were on the corner of Tiffany's lips to the spot behind her ear before she relented to her pull.
Taeyeon felt Tiffany tightened her arms around her back, while her head was buried in the crook of her neck. So she snuggled her head close to hers, while she enjoyed her breathing that had slowed down drastically from before, and occasional tickle her finger land on her back.
Turn the lights, turn the lights
Down low
Now I'm feeling you, breathing slow
Cause baby we're just reckless kids
Trying to find an island in the flood
Just turn the lights, turn the lights
Down low
Taeyeon was Tiffany's island when the flood first came. While Tiffany, was Taeyeon's island since the day that they met.
When she finally unburied her face off Taeyeon's neck, she cupped her cheeks still with her eyes closed. Then, she felt the wetness on Taeyeon's cheek as she put the tip of her fingers to float on her skin. Didn't know who broke the contact after that touch, Tiffany found tear stain on Taeyeon's cheek after she opened her eyes. It was the first time, that someone's tears could cut deep into her heart. It didn't feel good to witness that.
So she placed her lips on hers. And for the first time, she wiped the tears off Taeyeon's cheek. Just like how Taeyeon always does to her.
By then, Tiffany was sure that the new beginning has started. She would do things Taeyeon used to do to her only, and probably more. She was ready to try to give Taeyeon more than she ever did to no one else.
They stayed in each other's embrace while enjoying the silence, until they got their feet back to the earth after a long flight. With the last heavy breath and the very last muscle spasm because of the leftover of the ecstasy they first encountered, Taeyeon snuggled her face more to the side of Tiffany's head before she left a kiss of graditude on her cheek and rolled away from on top of her body. She went to the side of the bed she always sleeps on, sprawled, and eyes locked to the silence that covered the ceiling.
What was that ? She couldn't feel nothing but the remaining of how perfect Tiffany felt.
Was that just a dream ? That means, she would have to wake up soon. And probably—
She turned her head to her left when she felt something on her left hand. It was Tiffany's right, bumping into hers. Then she felt shy fingers timidly and modestly trying to get a contact. The back of their hands were pressed, and fingers were finding a comfortable minimum tangle.
Taeyeon thought she should really do it when her heart was telling her mind to turn on her side and hug her. But no, she was just a jittery mess inside when Tiffany actually went closer to her, and leaned her head on Taeyeon's shoulder. After some moments of silence, Taeyeon could finally place a lingering kiss on top of Tiffany's head before she rested her cheek there while her hand moved to take Tiffany's in hers firmly, properly intertwining their hands.
What were they ? Best friends ? Or what ?
Taeyeon didn't have the guts to presume.
Should she say something ? Should she stay quiet to give Tiffany the chance to talk first ?
But not long after that, a scratching sounds on the wooden door was heard, along with dog whimpers that sounded too sad.
That what they always got when they forgot not to let the highly spoiled white maltese in.
Tiffany was the first to giggle at the thought of her dog. Her dog that was given by Taeyeon to cheer her up. She could remember well the time where Taeyeon went home, and randomly pulled out a white small fur ball from behind her winter coat.
"I'll let prince in now or we might have to cheer a sulky pup all day long" A voice cut Tiffany's thoughts off, she looked to her right and saw Taeyeon having a smile on her face before she sat up and turned to the side of the bed. But before she could even leave the bed, a back hug stopped her. Her body subtly jolted in shock at the action, receiving a giggle from the latter. Pair of arms wrapped around her body, one across her stomach and another one across her chest.
"Taeyeon ?"
"Hm ?" Taeyeon melted into her embrace and moved her hand to caress Tiffany's arm
"I love you"
And that melted Taeyeon even more, better than everything else. Then she felt a kiss on her shoulder, and a warm cheek resting there. She was blushing. Taeyeon could tell that Tiffany was blushing. She guided Tiffany's hand to her chest where her heart is located, where she always rest her head on. Taeyeon let Tiffany feel her heart that was beating erratically hard. Just so that Tiffany knew how much in love with her Taeyeon was. And to remind her that it was beating only for her.
The message was delivered successfully. Taeyeon felt the cheek heated up, and when Tiffany shifted to press her front to Taeyeon's back tighter, she could feel her thumping heart.
"I love you too, Tiffany"
If it all was just a good night sleep's dream, Taeyeon had to find a way to keep her away from waking up—fast.
-xxx-
People say that first love left the deepest memories. Whether it could be something hurtful, beautiful, or either both.
While Taeyeon, probably all that her first love left was a dream.
The first thing Taeyeon saw when she woke up was the empty space beside her. She groaned, thinking that she just had the most beautiful dream ever, that it was just a mere dream of her finally hearing the magical 3 words from Tiffany.
Tiffany, right. Where could she possibly go that early in the morning ?
Taeyeon quickly sat up as her mind kept on thinking about the places she should go to find Tiffany.
First heartbeat, Taeyeon's world seemed to slowed down.
Second heartbeat, she started to feel the gravity sucked her figure stronger than ever.
Third heartbeat, every breath she took stung her chest.
Fourth heartbeat, Taeyeon was already a mess once again.
She walked out of her bedroom feeling her heart burned at the thought of finding Tiffany in her past lover's grave once again. But it could be worse, she ever got a call from her, crying, saying that—
"Taeyeon" Hearing her name, she quickly looked at her right, and her thoughts were stopped. She felt tears stung her eyes at the sight of Tiffany's concerned face. Tiffany was still there. She stayed.
And she could smell a beautiful scent of fresh pancake. Usually it was Taeyeon who cooked for the both of them. Or Taeyeon didn't even got the chance to think about having breakfast, because she went out to find Tiffany right after she woke up in the morning.
Having Tiffany preparing breakfast for her, was so rare. So rare that Taeyeon would cry in the shower silently after she done eating.
"What's with the rush ? Are you okay ?"
"Ye- yes.. I just.. I'm okay" She lied. She wasn't okay. She was scared to death that they would be back to the way they were.
Tiffany turned off the stove and put the pancake she was cooking into a plate, before she turned to face Taeyeon. She noticed the tears brimming in Taeyeon's eyes, and how she tried to stop them from falling by making silly smiles. Without any words, she closed the distance between them and put her arms around her.
"I'm here, Taeyeon"
That was like the best feeling Taeyeon had experience beside of hearing the latter saying I love you—like in her dream last night.
Dream, right.
Taeyeon nodded against the crook of her neck and hugged her tighter by her waist. If it was just a dream, Taeyeon would never want to wake up.
Then, a sob was heard. Taeyeon was crying. For the whole friendship since they were just in the pre K, Tiffany had never really hear nor see her crying.
Oh wait, she did. The night before. She did felt her crying. But it was far better, it wasn't this bad.
Tiffany soon realized how much misery Taeyeon had bottled up quietly, how many hell she went through just to stay by her side, how many years long she had to love someone without receiving back.
But now that Tiffany was ready to love again, she would give Taeyeon back what she always got from her.
"I won't leave anywhere without you knowing"
Taeyeon practically spilled all of her emotions by then. Wrapped around Tiffany's arm just like that, she had never felt so free before.
"I love you, Taeyeon"
Oh.
So.. last night, wasn't a dream.
It was a dream come true.