Now I am in school. I yawned loudly. I feel incredibly sleepy. I walk to my classroom or am I sleepwalking? Whatever... At the corridor, girls are staring at me and they even whisper to each other. Giggling while staring at me, is it my hair again? I over hear them...
"It's Kim Taeyeon. I'm surprised he's in school today I really thought he got kicked out."
"Hey don't say that! I'm glad he is here. He's such a total cutie!" They start giggling when I glared at them. What?! Girls are so weird. I just ignored them and enter our room, wait, is this really our room? Tcchhh... I don't even remember anymore. Here I am again in class, Physics, my favourite subject. But in truth, yeah I do like Physics. One subject I simply cannot stand is English. I mean, we're Koreans! English is unnecessary; it's like pledging allegiance to America. What a waste of saliva. So I sit at the back, near the window and doze off after a few minutes.
Lunch time came. "Oy Taengoo! Long time no see!" Sunny patted my back. Yeah, Sunny, my "former" partner in crime. We are known as the Dandyu Duo but when he found himself a girlfriend, he changed completely. He doesn't go out with me to drink or smoke anymore. He has become a "good boy". I smile at him awkwardly. The closeness is gone you know...
"Yep..." I then get my bag and head out. Time to find myself a place to stay.
"Wait up. Where are you going?" He asked as he grabbed my wrist.
"Dunno. Somewhere?" I replied trying to free myself from his grip.
"What? We still have classes!"
"Yeah, exactly..."
"Taengoo-ah! Get serious! We are going to graduate soon and go to college. Make it right."
"I am. I am not going to college and make my family suffer Man. I am going away 'cause nobody cares for me at home. No one wants me at home."
"They do care Taeng! I am telling you." I glared at him and pulled my wrist.
"Fine!" I raised my voice a bit.
"I'll let this pass, but I'm telling you, I don't belong here or at home or anywhere." I sit again and sleep. I hate it when people act like they're on the good side and I'm on the bad one. But it's true! Nobody cares for me. No one even bothers to ask how I really feel or what I really want to do. My life is just a big mess. It's too much of a mess to fix. There's no hope for a guy like me... Aish!
"Just go away already!"
Time went by, as usual, I'm bored out of my mind. The next class came. I just look around and stare outside. Then my classmate Yuri patted my back. Yeah Kwon, dark guy, quite tall and looks more handsome than me but... He's dum so whatever...
"You bored?" He asked. I just nod thoughtlessly.
"Yep."
"Hand me your phone..."
"What?! Hell no..."
"Trust me Kim. Euhehe..." So I give him my phone. He starts chuckling. Aish! I knew it was a bad idea. I grab my phone back. He must've broken my phone or something. Dumb Kwon! I immediately check if it's okay. To my surprise he sent me a number of videos... My favourite ones... Oooooh~ You know what I mean... I take back what I said. Kwon is a genius. He pats my back again.
"Told ya right..."
To just let the time pass, I watch the "goods" Yuri gave me. Don't get me wrong. I am not a byuntaeng like everyone thinks, although that is my nickname around these parts, the infamous "Byuntaengoo". I like all those butts and stuff but I am tired of seeing cosmetic abominations all the time. I am a man. A man has needs you know. I feel like going to the restroom right now to "do" some stuff. Euhehe... I head for the bathroom. After a few minutes, I decide to go home when I remember something. I forgot my things at my desk. I go back to our classroom to get them. My classmates are gone. I must have spent a long time in the restroom touching myself- I mean watching videos. Anyways, just when I was about to leave someone entered our room. I just ignore the fellow and pass by him.
"Wait, Tae-Tae?" So it's a girl.
I raise my head a bit, why does she look familiar? And why does she look so goddamn beautiful? Long black hair with full bangs and the most beautiful face I have ever seen. So perfect. Perfection personified. My eyes travel down to her collarbone, I swallow in my saliva. I inspect her chest and her legs with my eyes. Her legs are of the perfect shape and they are so smooth. Every inch of her is smooth and perfect. I gulp.
"Habadahabadahabada..." I say under my breath and I stiffen. I blink a few times.
It's my Tippani-noona! My eyes widened and my heart exploded when she gave her eye smile.
A memory flashed back all of a sudden...
"Pani-noona don't go!!! Please stay!" I kept crying while hugging her. I held her tight because I didn't want to let her go. She was going to migrate to America with her family. I won't be able to see her again! Pani-noona always played with me and taught me our lessons whenever she stays at our house. She is my sister's best friend. But I felt like she was more of a sister than my real sister. I promised to myself that I will marry her someday. She is mine! But why Pani-noona?! Don't go! I cry even harder but she rubs my back to soothe me. She kisses my cheek and wipes my tears. For one last time, I take in the memory of her beautiful face, her hair was short and it looked like an upside down bowl. Her eyes formed into crescents whenever she smiles... Her pink cheeks and her pink lips. She is the most perfect girl in the world!
"Baby Tae-Tae, it's okay. I'll be back before you know it..." She gives me a smile. I try my best not to cry anymore, I won't let her see me like this and trouble her. I know she will come back. Please come back soon Pani-noona... I stare at her and kiss her cheek. She pats my head.
"Bye bye Pani-noona. I... I love you." I said and blushed. She smiled at me again.
"Silly kid. Bye bye Tae-Tae... Be a good boy okay?" She said to me. I nod. My eyes started to water again.
"Oy, your babysitter needs to go!" Hayeon-noona pulled me and I watched as Pani-noona left.
"She is not my babysitter! She is my wife!" I smack her in the head. I wipe my tears and sniff a few times. She's gone. But, she will come back. I know she will.
"Yah! Let's go you little runt." My sister pulls my hair.
"OUCH!!!"
And now, She's back, after thirteen years. Me, an eighteen year old juvenile, and her, a twenty three year old goddess who descended from heaven. Did she really come back for me? ASDFGGGAJHSASSFFSAHSHSADD.
She is now standing right in front of me, wearing clothes that'll be leaving little to the imagination; a pair of hot pants and a white tank top. Man, is it me or is that see through... Gosh. I feel like my nose will be bleeding at any moment. She waves her hand in front of me. I blink a few times.
"Tae?" She calls me. Her voice still sounds sweet and angelic, although it has become a little huskier, a little raspier. Her voice makes me shiver. Oh man... She's all mature and freakin' hot now!
"Pani-noona?" My voice trembled a bit. I was holding in my desire to just squeeze her now with a hug.
"Waaaah~ Tae-Tae is all grown up!" She hugs me. Deep down, I felt like there was a pyromusical there with some parade music. You know when the hero gets reunited with the sexy damsel in distress? Okay enough. I have to end there. I have to admit, I've been watching too much movies lately, the mushy kind. What? I was curious! But forgive me. I am just so psyched that my noona is here! In the flesh!
Just when I was about to hug her back, she pulled away and stared at me.
"Wow! You're tall now!" What?! She thinks I'm tall?! I mean, I'm only a few inches taller than her but whatever! Still taller. I'm proud of myself. For once in my life, someone called me tall. I mentally pat my own back. But really, I wanted to grow at least six feet so I could carry her around easily and stuff or it'll be easier for her to lean on my shoulder or... She could even use me as a bed. Sadly, my growth hormones failed me, miserably. Now I am known as the "Evil Midget" as my evil midget sister calls me. Just wait! I'm still growing! Arrrgghhh!
"Yeah~ Ehehehe... How have you been noona?" I asked her.
"I've been fine. How's Hayeonie and Jiwoong-oppa? I missed them so much~" Aish. She just had to ask about the two.
"They're fine and dandy as well!" I faked a smile. My eyes wander again. I can't help but feel worried and uneasy with her clothes. Damn, she's so hot but I don't want other guys drool over her! Her tank top is just ummmffff... Plus the fact the she's not in California anymore, this is Seoul. She'll freeze if she doesn't put on some extra clothing.
I remove my jacket and offer it to her.
"Oh thanks Tae-Tae." She wears it and I smile at her. When our eyes met, I couldn't help but blush a bit.
"Umm... Let's go to your place." She suggests. Wait. My place? I get excited for a moment but then I realize... My place? Oh... OUR place...The evil midgets' lair, also known as the Kims' residence. Can we not? I want to spend more time with noona... By ourselves!
"Noona, let's go eat some ice cream first. I'm starved~ Don't worry, my treat!" I pouted and try to use my aegyo on her. I know I sucked on it, but it worked every time on her when we were younger.
"Aww~ Okay baby Tae-Tae! Oops... I shouldn't call you that anymore. You're a young man now." She ruffles my hair. Yeah! I am a man! I miss this. I miss her touch. I miss her, so much.
"Let's go!" I hold her hand as we head to the ice cream parlour.
I remember back then...
Me and Pani-noona go to the playground after daycare...
"Tae-Tae, why won't you let your Hayeonie-noona come with us?" Pani-noona asked while she was holding my hand.
"Because she is annoying! Unlike you Pani-noona!" I snuggled closer to her. We then sat near the sand box.
"Aigoo baby Tae~ If Hayeonie heard what you said, she will be mad." She pinches my nose.
"She's always mad at me!" I shout. She rubs my back to calm me down. I was seriously flipping out.
"There, there. You want some ice cream?" She asks me. I nod furiously at her offer. If there's anything I love most in the world, with exception to Pani-noona, it's ice cream!!!
Pani-noona bought me my favourite one, Vanilla. She always knows what I want. She always knows what to do to make me feel better. She always knows what to say to make the anger and pain go away. Most of all, she knows just how to make me fall in love with her.
After happily eating in the playground, we play at the swing! It was so fun! We played all afternoon, all sorts of games! But then my body betrayed me. I felt so tired and sleepy. We sit down and Pani-noona holds me in her arms. She caresses my cheek.
"Pani-noona~" I yawn and my eyes slowly close.
"Yep?" She replied.
"Sing me a song please~" I wanted to hear her voice before I completely fall asleep. She hums to me a song and it felt so nice; I felt so light. Then I fall asleep. Every time I fall asleep with her, I have dreams of us playing together.
We arrive at the ice cream parlour, we get a table and make our orders. I'm just so psyched! The sweet smell of ice cream and the sweet sight of my noona! Just wonderful!
"Tae-Tae stop staring" She then giggles. Arrrgggh! I must've have been staring at her unconsciously again. I shake my head. I can't help it though. She is stunning. All of this is surreal to me. I'm glad I never lost hope that she would return!
"What's wrong?" She asked me, staring intently at my face. She is just so beautiful when looks worried like that.
"Nothing noona. You just look different. That's all." I replied honestly.
"Do I look old?" I nod.
"Really? Do I have wrinkles already? " She touches her face.
"No noona! Not like that! You've matured. But you are still beautiful." What? Did I just let that slip? Aigoo Taeng, kill youself!
She laughs and covers her mouth. My face began to feel hot because of embarrassment.
"But it's true!" I tell her, rubbing the back of my neck. Great. Was I that funny?
"Oh you look more mature now too. I mean you look more handsome now and your voice got deeper." She complimented me; I would like think she did. I knew it. I wasn't the only one who was thinking that I was handsome! And coming from her makes it more gratifying. Euhehe~ Just then our orders arrive.
"Here you go miss beautiful, one strawberry and Vanilla for your 'little'~ brother. Enjoy!" Why does it sound like there's an unpleasant emphasis on "little"? Why Im'ma punch this guy right in the kisser! I glare at him.
"Thanks, he's not my brother though." Pani-noona smiles at him.
Oh boy is this stupid waiter in an awful good mood to flirt with my noona. He smirks. My eyes twitched in irritation.
"Oh he's not? But is he your boyfriend? Wait, couldn't be. He looks way younger than you. He doesn't suit a pretty woman like yourself." Okay. That's it. I clenched my hands into a fist. This guy's asking for a serious beating! Pani-noona signals me to calm down.
"Ahaha..." She weakly giggles.
"That wouldn't be your business anymore, would it?" She continues and smiles. Her voice sounded cold and scary.
The waiter raises his eyebrow and leaves. Probably scared. What a freaking chicken.
All the while, I grumpily ate my ice cream. It was silent while we ate. That stupid waiter should get fired. Arrrrrggghhhh!!!
"Hey Tae... Don't let that guy ruin the mood. Don't be upset anymore. Let's eat somewhere else next time okay?"
"I'm sorry noona. I won't get upset anymore. See, I'm smiling now!" I forced a smile. She pinches my nose.
"Good. Don't just go hitting people or overreact with simple things okay. Always think before you act, especially of the consequences." She tells me. I just nod silently. I can't help but think that she still sees me as a kid. I sigh again and we continue to eat our ice cream.
"Ummm... Noona, why did you come back to Korea? It's been a while..." I tried to break the silence. She smiles and stares at me. Oh my gosh, my eyes! Help! An angel is looking into my soul!
"Well, I'm here for a vacation. Plus I missed you-" Well I heard her say that, it was as if time stopped...
"... And Hayeonie and Jiwoong-oppa too!" She burst into an eye smile. Wow, she said she missed me and my ugly siblings... At least she said she missed me. I just gave a smile.
"We missed you too noona~"
When we finished, we headed to our house. On the way there, we talked and talked and held hands.
I wonder if she ever felt the same attraction that I did. Does it matter? All I know is that I'm the happiest guy whenever she's with me. I never felt this way with any other girl. I just realized something now. Screw what I said about not knowing what I want to be in the future, 'cause I do now. I want to be Pani-noona's husband!!!
"Oh my gosh! Fany-ah! You're finally here! Sorry I couldn't fetch you at the airport. I was preoccupied with some very important schoolwork! Can't believe you're here now!" Hayeon-noona shouted while hugging Pani-noona tightly. Aigoo... Doesn't she know my noona is tired; she shouldn't be stressing her like this!
"Hayeonie... I can't... I can't breathe..." My sister lets her go. I stick my tongue out.
"Oh sorry~ My baby Tae-Tae met up with you. Ahaha!" Hayeon-noona sounded like a witch who went bozonkers. Aish. How embarrassing. Can't she just act like a normal person...
"Yeah. Thanks to Tae, we were able to get here. I'm weak with directions you know!" Pani-noona smiled cutely. She makes me wanna pinch her cheeks and kiss her! Euhe!
"But you came here a little late than expected." Hayeon-noona looked puzzled... Her malicious smirk makes me nervous...
"Well, it's 'cause Tae and I ate first. The poor thing was hungry." Pani-noona replied.
Here we go. I knew it. I sensed it. Hayeon-noona's eyes narrowed.
"Ooooh~ Sounded like a date. Looks like dear Taeyeonie can't stop himself from spending time with Fany alone eh?" She elbowed my stomach and started laughing like an idiot. Arrrrghhh! Why am I even related to her?! Good thing Jiwoong-hyung is out for a company outing or else he could've added salt to the wound. I could have died of embarrassment!
"Before I forget, did you meet your English tutor after class?" My sister smirked once again at her statement. Why do I get the feeling that she's up to something fishy?
"Huh? What English tutor?" I asked.
"How could you forget?!" She hit my head. I glared at her. If she weren't my sister and Pani-noona, I would have tackled her.
"Euhehehe~ Not to worry. I guess you've already met her anyways..." She smiled sheepishly throwing a glance at Pani-noona.
I give her a weird look. What on earth is she talking about?! Is she a psycho? I haven't met anyone after class other than Pani-noona... Could it be... Could this mean?! My eyes widened. I shook my head in disbelief. Pani-noona held my shoulder.
"Tae-Tae, I'll be your new English tutor." She said enthusiastically and flashed an eye smile. I feel completely electrified.
I. Will. Never. Forgive. Myself. A blessing and a curse indeed. The wonderful opportunity to spend after class hours with the most beautiful woman in the planet, take note, one on one, but in exchange for... Are you ready for this? ENGRISH TUTORING?! I sigh deeply. I mean, it's not so bad right? I'll just embarrass myself in front of the woman I like, my potential wife, no, my future wife. Not bad at all right? Just perfect.
"Hahahaha~" I laugh nervously, I shot an angry look at Hayeon-noona. Thank you dearest sister for using my weakness against me. I will be forever thankful.
"Yeah, you'll thank me someday you runt." She whispers to my ear and elbows my stomach. She gives a smile to Pani-noona. Arrrrrrrgggghhhh~
After a gruelling hour of dinner jam-packed with Hayeon-noona's embarrassing stories, mainly focusing of how much of a delinquent I am, I allow her and Pani-noona to have some girl talk. I go to my room and leave them some privacy. I play computer games for a while. After I got bored, I watch stuff on my laptop, yep, the "good" stuff. You know what I mean. I have a pretty healthy stash in my secret external drive. Euhehehe~ Watching... Watching... Watching... Bored again. Aish! I remove my earphones and shut down my laptop. I heard giggling from the other room. My room is actually next to Hayeon-noona's, a thin wall separating us. So yeah, welcome to my miserable life. I suffer every night because she laughs crazy every time she watches her favourite sitcom. Oh. I heard Pani-noona's voice. I do some eavesdropping.
"That is so funny Hayeonie! But are you sure I can stay here for the night?"
"Of course! I'll drive you to your apartment tomorrow! I'm sure you're tired from jetlag and from my brother's antics! Let's watch my favourite show! It's the funniest thing ever! Haha!"
"Ahahahaha~" They both laugh.
I guess they started watching already. You know what's the funniest thing ever? It's my sister. That mad woman. I hope she doesn't brainwash Pani-noona into becoming a lunatic like her! But oh isn't it ironic that they're best friends? They're complete opposites. Pani-noona is an angel while Hayeon-noona is... Ehem... Ehem... Not an angel, at all.
Gosh Pani-noona is spending the night here... What?! That is just!!! Maybe I can peek when she's taking a shower or maybe when she's changing into her jammies... Ugh! I mentally slap myself, hard. Heck no! Don't even dare to think about it Taengoo! But omo she's so hot. She's making me sweat now. Aish! Brush if off. I guess I won't be getting much sleep tonight, knowing Pani-noona and I are going to spend the night together, but sadly, in separate rooms.
I lay on my bed, flat on my back with my hands under my head. So... I can't sleep. I guess it's 'cause Pani-noona's just in the other room. This is kinda like heaven and hell at the same time. You know? Near yet so far. Hmph. I just stare at the ceiling, imagining her pretty smile. I scratch my head and I try to close my eyes. Yep, I still see her. I keep twisting and turning in bed.
Maybe I should go outside and smoke for a while to calm my nerves. I take out my lighter and a stick from my backpack, no, maybe I should take three, maybe four. Four is enough I guess. I head out to our garden, sit on the concrete plant box and I put a stick in my mouth. Whoah it's cold out here but whatever. I light the stick and start to smoke. Oh it feels nice. It has been three years since my first one. My friends taught me how to smoke. I'm actually friends with sunbaes in our school. I was the youngest in the group then. They say I'm the only fifteen year bold enough to join them during that time. I guess I proved my worth to them. We're all the same there, a bunch of guys who like to have fun. But my siblings disapprove. Hayeon-noona thinks they're losers while Jiwoong-hyung thinks they're cool, but bad influences. They say I should find a new set of friends but that's not easy. I have a bad reputation in school. No one wants to be friends with a goof like me. I sigh at the thought.
A couple of minutes have passed. The smoke makes me feel calm. Suddenly I heard some footsteps. Omo! What do I do? If it's Hayeon-noona again, I'll get punched! Aish! I throw my cigarette on the ground and step on it. I hide behind the bushes. A figure steps out. That is not Hayeon-noona, that is Pani-noona. Resist must resist. Resist the urge to come closer to her. What happened? My feet betrayed me! I just walk to her without even knowing it! Aish! I was dazed.
"Tae-Tae? What are doing up so early? And... Oh gosh, you smell like smoke!" She sniffs me. Oh man! This is so freakin' embarrassing.
"Do I? Maybe it's the neighbours! They were making a bonfire!" I just made up some stupid excuse. She gives me a weird look. She immediately gropes my pockets. Hey watch what you're touching there noona! I might not control myself. She pulls out my sticks and my lighter. Arrrrggggghhhh!
"Aha! Bonfire? And don't blame the neighbours for this. Tae-Tae, I never actually believed any word Hayeonie said about you when we were at the dinner table yesterday. Saying you were a bad boy, smoking, drinking and getting into fist fights. That is so unlike Tae-Tae. You promised me that you were going to be a good boy after I left and I believed you. Now you're making me think twice. Look at this!" She crushes the sticks in her hand. She is really mad and I am scared.
"I'm sorry noona, I was just curious and I tried it. I will try to stop already. Please don't get mad at me." I pleaded. She is still flipping out. Gosh I am scared out of my pajamas!
"You better not promise. You should do it okay? No, I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at what you did." She tells me, her tone is quite scary. I nod and look down. Aish. I messed up.
"Yes noona. I will stop."
"Good. Don't feel bad, you're making it right." She rubs my back. I suddenly don't feel so guilty anymore. I guess she's my nicotine-free pleasure, the way she can calm me just like that. It's magic.
"I'm sorry if broke my promise noona." I apologize sincerely. It's actually funny. I get scolded by other folks, I ignore them but I guess Pani-noona compels me to do things. I would do anything for her.
"It's okay. Just make it right. Why are you even smoking at this hour? You should be sleeping."
"I couldn't sleep..." I couldn't sleep because of you... Oh man.
"Is that so? You want some warm milk?" Awww~ She's treating me like some five year old... But I like it! I simply nod. She pulls my hand and we enter the house. After a few minutes, she made warm milk for the two of us. The taste is similar to what she made for me when we were younger. I keep on being nostalgic lately. She then giggles. She moves closer and wipes the milk from my upper lips. I felt hot.
"Haha! You are so cute!" She pinches my cheek. I pout at her. Hnnnng... But I must admit that was a sweet moment right there.
"After drinking, go sleep okay?" I gulp the remaining milk and I nod.
"How about you noona? Go to sleep too."
"I will. Just go to bed now okay Tae-Tae?" She said it sweetly and smiled. I can just imagine spending every day of my life with this woman! Arrrrrggggh! She's too perfect!
"Okay noona. Bye~" I enter my room. It was amazing! The moment I climbed back to bed, I fall asleep right away...
"Pani-noona, I want some milk!!!" I demand her. I always want to drink milk with my chocolate chip cookies.
"Here you go!"
"Ouch!" Hayeon-noona hits my head. I cry because it was painful but I hit her back too.
"Pani-noona!!!" I kept shouting. I was on rampage. I kept messing up room and scattering the toys everywhere. It has been a month since she left but I felt like it was a year already. I miss her so much! Hayeon-noona covers my mouth to shut me up.
"Oy this little... Pani-noona is doing fine in the U.S., stop bothering her!" She tells me. I have come to hate almost everything at that point. Why did she have to leave anyway?! I miss her every day! No one treats me the way she does! Ever since dad went away and mom got sick, my siblings promised to take care of me but they're not doing their job! Huhuhu! Only Pani-noona treats me special.
Yawns* Waaaaah~ I feel like a billion dollars right now! Whoah! I look at the time; It's six o'clock in the morning. So I only got like four hours of sleep? Whatever! I feel so alive today. I make my bed, which was so unlikely, even to myself. Then, I head towards the bathroom and take a bath. Oh it was so refreshing! Lalalalalalala~ I sing in the bath then I heard Hayeon-noona shout from the other room.
"Pipe down you nini! Why are you so noisy in the morning! Ugh you ruined my day!" Huh?! Why is she always so rude! Arrrrrrrgggghh!!! I would usually yell back but I am not in the mood to right now. I finish my bath and put a towel on my shoulder. I wear my boxers and head out. I'm sure Hayeon-noona has made breakfast 'cause I could smell the bacon cooking! Wow! Bacon eh? American breakfast? Teehee! I like that! I need some meat. I dry my hair while heading to the dinning table. Oh shiz.
"Tae-Tae, good morning..." Pani-noona greets me uncomfortably. Wait. Ahhhhh! I'm only in my boxers! I run to my room and wear some sweat pants and a shirt. Damn! Why do I keep embarrassing myself. I head back to the dining table before I could sit, Hayeon-noona punches my stomach.
"Ummfff!"
"Good morning Tae, thanks for scaring your Pani-noona so early in the morning. Job well done." She grins. I turn red. I am a complete failure!
"Hayeonie, stop hitting him.." Pani-noona tells my sister. Yeah! Stop hitting me you violent... Ugh I don't even wanna say it! I smile at her awkwardly. We eat together happily, with exception to Hayeon-noona. She's only happy whenever she threatens people. Aigoo. Hayeon-noona breaks the silence.
"Fany-ah, I bet you wanna if what I told you last night was true right? Haha! Let's ask Taeyeonie directly." She puts on an evil smirk again. No. What the heck is she up to now? Pani-noona shakes her head.
"You don't wanna?" My sister asks her while chewing on her food. How gross. Pani-noona shakes her head again.
"No. I think I already know the answer." She looks at me and smiles.
Huh?! Girls are the weirdest creatures on earth! What are they talking about?! I hope she didn't say anything defamatory again! Or she could have exposed me... I hate you Kim Hayeon!
They smile at each other... I put down my chopsticks and man up.
"What are you girls talking about?"
"Well if you insist... Is it true Taeyeonie that for a long time already-" I immediately cover Hayeon-noona's mouth and fake a laugh. I knew that it was coming to that! How could she betray me?! I trusted her! Well, not that much, but I still trusted her!
"Oh gee! Will you look at the time! Ahahaha! I gotta go!" I run off to my room and speedily put on my uniform. I moved so quickly, so fast, I didn't even know if I was wearing it the right way. I grab my bag and head to school. Man! Why you evil little traitor?! I cannot believe you told that to Pani-noona! Ugh! I don't have any dignity anymore!!! I feel like getting a smoke! Wait. I can't. I promised Pani-noona to lay off the sticks. Aish. I am so stressed Man!
Anyways I arrive at school. Curse those giggling girls! I really wanna hit someone right now, well yeah, I wanna hit Hayeon-noona but I can't. I really just wanna shrug off this feeling but it's so hard. I enter our classroom and miraculously, I arrive early, fifteen minutes before the bell. The people were clapping and stuff. What?!
"Is the world coming to an end?! Kim Taeyeon is early for class!" My obnoxious classmate Sooyoung shouts. I glare at him. If I don't control myself, the only thing that will be ending here is, his loud mouth. I'm gonna punch him till he passes out! Aish this long kid! But whatever. I am a changed man now. I need to have self control, for my wife, for my future kids. That's right. Yes calm down Taeng.
In my effort to calm down, I try to close my eyes. Breath in, breath out. Alright. But then again, the unexpected happens. I fall asleep. Damn! I just missed half a day of our class! See! It's lunchtime now! Hmmm. I thought it would be a fine day but look what came about. This all Hayeon-noona's fault! I sigh knowing that I wasted time sleeping.
"Oy Taengoo-hyung!" I turn around and look for the person calling me.
"Yoong?" It's Yoong. He's one of the notorious members of our group. He's also a year younger than me. He's tall and skinny but good looking. Oh did I forget to mention? He loves to drink, and I don't mean water by that.
"Want some soju? I have some in my bag hyung. I mean... You looked more stressed than the usual. I could share it with you if you want." He pulled me and opened his bag, showing the soju inside. I think about it... Hmmmm... I won't get drunk. Maybe a few drinks will do. So we cut classes and drink in the store room. I hiccup a few times. But I don't think I am drunk. Yoong's face is pretty red. Haha! Well, I better get going. I shouldn't drink too much or a monster will get loose. I'm really unpleasant when I get drunk so I don't wanna try to.
"Yoong, I'm going now okay?"
"Alright hyung!!! Hahaha!" He laughs. Crazy kid, he is obviously drunk but I know he can handle himself anyways.
I head to our room. Why is everybody heading out? Oh it's dismissal time already! Shiz! I wasted too much time drinking again! I hate myself! I grumpily put on my bag and headed home. On my way home, a car stopped beside me, and as the car window went down, it showed a beautiful woman on the driver's seat.
"Tae! Going home?" She called me. It was my Pani-noona! I was shocked and glued to my feet. I just nod at her.
"Get in. We have English class together remember?" She smiles at me and signals me to go inside. I know, I know we have a tutoring session but I can't face her right now! I am so embarrassed. Aish. Being the good man that I am, I open the car door and sit in front. She drove us home. On our way there, she talks to me happily as though nothing happened this morning.
"So how was school?" She asks me while driving.
"It was... Awesome!" I told her, quite nervously though. I hope she doesn't notice it.
"Really? That's nice. How was English class?" She continues to ask, her eyes focused on the road. She was also smiling. Aish! I feel so guilty.
"Actually noona, I wasn't able to-" The car stopped. We arrive home, she excitedly removes her seatbelt and tells me to go out.
"So, we're here! Do you have your keys?" She asks me while smiling. She's so bright and radiant today. I feel like melting. Oh gosh that smile! I remember, Hayeon-noona and Jiwoong-hyung will be arriving a bit late. This means... Only me and Pani-noona are in the house. Us. Alone. Oh gosh. I take out the keys and excitedly open the door.
"Tae-Tae, are you hungry? I'll just order some pizza alright?" She takes out her phone and calls for pizza delivery. I just nod and smile at her. Deep inside, I was jumping up and down of happiness! This day isn't a complete waste after all!!!
"Before we get started, can I just take a look at your notes?" She asks me while we sit at the dinner table.
"Ahhhh... I don't have any noona." I look down and I feel so embarrassed! I know she will scold me again. I'm scared.
"Oh? But why don't you have any Tae?" She pulls my hand. Her skin is so soft and smooth! I involuntarily lift my head and look at her. For a moment our eyes met and I felt like I reached heaven and went back to the ground again! I blink a few times. Thinking, why the heck don't I have those freakin' notes?! Ugh!
"Well?" She smiles kindly. Oh she's not mad? Ahhhh!
"I can't understand it that well so I couldn't copy it." I replied honestly.
"Oh I see. But do you remember your last lesson?" She pulls her hand away from mine. I frown a bit. I want her to touch me more!!!
"I think it was... Sent... Ence... Kons... Tant... errgh... Syown... err..." I can't pronounce it!!! This is the start of my Engrish torture!!! I scratch my head.
"Ahhh~ Sentence Construction?" She pronounced it perfectly. I nod in amazement. She's so perfect! Her voice sounds as beautiful as she is! Her American accent is just amajing!
"Yah royt." I try to speak English. Damn so freakin' difficult. She giggles.
"Okay, we'll go through the basics. Don't worry; I am not a harsh teacher." She reassures me. Waaaaah~ She is so nice to me. Don't worry noona, I will give you my all! All of me noona! Take it all!
After half an hour, our pizza arrived.
"Let's have a break first." She points at the pizza. As usual, I just nod at her. Somehow I feel incredibly comfortable when I'm with her. She gets a piece and hands it to me.
"Thanks noona!" I smiled and took a bite.
"No problem. By the way, this morning..." I choked upon hearing her words. She pats my back.
"Want some water?" I shook my head.
"I'm okay..."
"Well, anyways, your Hayeon-noona told me that for a long time now you were..." I cough again. Holy cow! I don't, I'm not... Whoah!!! Okay Taeng, be a man. You can do this. If Hayeon-noona exposed me, I'll just confess to it and ask Pani-noona to be my girlfriend! That is a perfect plan!
"Are you really okay?" She asks again.
"Yep! Dandy as apple pie!" She giggles.
"Well your Hayeon-noona told me that..." I gulp.
"For a long time now you have been..." my eyes widened and my heart started to pound.
"... Having a really hard time in school, especially in English so I was more eager to be your tutor!" She excitedly finishes her sentence. Huh? What on blazes?! Arrrrrrrrghhhhh!!! Okay. At least it wasn't what I thought it was. Thank goodness! I owe Hayeon-noona an apology.
"Wow! Thank you noona!" I said in a cheerful manner. We both smile at each other and continued eating.
After an hour of lessons and exercises, we decided to call it a night. It was six in the evening already and my brain is drained. Damn English subject!
"Wow, you worked hard today. Good job! Okay Tae, I'll give you an assignment, is that alright? It's easy and I'm sure you can do it!" She says brightly and pats my back. Okay. I nod at her.
"Tonight, watch a movie, actually watch your favourite one so it would be a lot more easy. It has to be Korean okay? Then choose maybe two or three of the lines in the movie you liked most and translate them into English." She explains. Okay, easy. Wait, translate it in English? Ahhhhh! Easy as childbirth!!!
She then kisses my cheek and heads out, waving at me.
"Bye Tae! Do your best!"
"Bye noona, thanks!"
So I head to my room and one movie immediately comes to mind. She said it has to be my favourite one right? Euhehehehe~ Well, I like this one movie... It's called "The Secretary"...
Hrrrrm... I open my laptop. I am so psyched to watch this again! "The Secretary" is my most favourite movie of all time! It's actually about this really hot girl who applies as a secretary for this kinda old lawyer dude, they then... You know... They do it.
I sigh. It's 'cause it's kinda like the opposite of me and Pani-noona. I mean I am not affected with what people say about age but what if we hook up someday, and you know, it's not impossible, she might get hurt. But whatever. I'll fight for her till the end!!!
The movie starts. I can't wait till the makeout scenes. Haha! I skip to the great parts. Oh yeah~ I know this is sick but sometimes, I imagine myself and Pani-noona in the movie. You know. Arrrrrgghhhh! I mean we're bound to do it someday, make love. That would be the second greatest and happiest moment of my life. Marrying her and having kids would be the first. Damn. The scenes are so freakin' hot. Damn, I'm sweating. I wonder if I'll get a perfect score with my assignment... Oh oh oh wait! This is my favourite scene. This is usually the where my imagination goes wild. Oh damn noona, I say under my breath. Ugh. Wait! I have to find good lines! I can't write moans and groans. Maybe I could and put some American accent to it but Pani-noona will be mad again if I don't do it right. Sheesh, why do I have to get carried away so easily!!! Self control Taeng, Pani-noona likes a guy with self control.
So I watch the movie from start to finish, no skipping! I want to have a perfect score so Pani-noona will be happy. But I'm nervous! I hope I translate them correctly. After three torturous hours, arrrrrrrghhhh!!! I am so tired! My brainy is so damn tired. I turn off my laptop and decide to sleep. I already finished translating; it was like a total headache. I sorta wished Pani-noona was here. We could have watched it together, in my bed. The two of us, snuggling and getting touchy... Aish! I sense another wet dream coming. Get it? Coming? No? Okay. Hnnnnnng.
"Mr. Kim, you called for me?"
"Yes Miss Hwang. Can you kindly lock the door please."
"Okay Sir."
"Miss Hwang."
"Yes Sir?"
"It seems you have a lot of errors in your previous report..."
"I'm sorry sir. It won't happen again."
"I'm sure it won't. "
"Sir please let me keep my job. I promise to make it right. Please sir~"
"Haha... You don't have to kneel like this Miss Hwang but if you insist..."
"Sir..."
"Miss Hwang... Do you know what'll make you stay in my firm? What you'll do to keep this job as my secretary?"
"What... Wh-what is... It... Mis-mister Kim? Ugh! Ahhhh!"
"Assume the position."
Arrrrrrrghhhhhh! My alarm rings! Darnit, I was just in the middle of a good dream! Aish. Suddenly my Hayeon-noona opens the door. Ahhh! I was so excited to do my English homework last night! I can't believe I forgot to lock it!
"What! What happened?!" She starts to scream.
"Huh? What do you mean what happened?" I asked her. Why the hell is she screaming like that?!
"Babo! You kept on screaming noona! I thought something bad happened to you!" She pulls my hair hard. Ahhhh! My hair! I just suffered from a major headache last night and now this!!!
"Ow ow ow ouch! Let go!" I push her away. Arrrrrggggh! My head hurts! Maybe I should pull her hair to make it even?! But nah... Self control Taeng. Self control...
"This crazy little runt. Are you playing a prank on me?"
"I wasn't screaming noona."
"Yes you were!"
Wait was I? Ohhhh~ It must be because of my dream. I frequently, no, regularly have dreams about Pani-noona. Sometimes it is about the stuff we used to do when were younger, sometimes about my future family life with her, sometimes it's about me and her having se- Wait a sec! Another "Secretary Hwang" dream. Okay. I know why I was screaming noona. It wasn't for Hayeon-noona, I was screaming for Pani-noona! Aigoo~
"Ahaha! I remember! I was having a nightmare about you!" I lied. She immediately punches my stomach and storms out. I feel my eyes get teary because of the pain. Curse you evil Hayeon-noona!
And so I prepare for school. After my bath, I go eat breakfast. Jiwoong-hyung is already here from his company outing. I don't know whether I should be thrilled or disappointed. If you didn't know, I treat Jiwoong-hyung as my rival. When we were younger, he told me he had a crush on Pani-noona too. I was like what?! Back off man! That girl is mine! He keeps on bugging Pani-noona. I hate it! I mean fine, his age is right for her but whatever! He keeps on telling me that I'm too young for her and she won't consider falling in love with me because of my age. But dum hyung, newsflash: It's not the age you fall in love with, it's the person! Dammit! Ugh!
"Hey Taeyeonie, you free this Saturday?" He asked. We were now eating breakfast, thank goodness Hayeon-noona is nowhere from sight!
"No." I answer coldly.
"Well, I was wondering if we could go to the public bath together. You know, male bonding." He ignores my answer and I shake my head.
"Taeng, I won't give you allowance if you decline." What?! I hate you guys!
"Ahhhhh! Okay fine!"
"That's my boy. Haha!" He laughs like an ahjusshi. I am so pissed. Why? What is this about? What is he up to?! Or am I just paranoid?
After breakfast I then head to school. Yeah another freakin' boring day in school. But this time, I am proud of myself. I refused any offer to smoke or drink and most of all I did not fall asleep! I also took down notes and listened to my teacher. I am living the good boy life now. I deserve a medal for this.
Dismissal time came. I take a deep breath. It's judgment time later. My very first assignment will be under scrutiny with my sexy English tutor checking it. You know, the first cut is the deepest right? I am scared! My phone then rings, it's Pani-noona. Gosh I am gonna have a heart attack!
"Tae, in twenty minutes I'll be in school to fetch you okay. Wait for me!"
"Yes noona. Drive safely." She hangs up. My palms start getting sweaty. I am so excited to see her again!
When Pani-noona arrived, I got in the car but didn't go home just yet. We eat at a fast food chain first. After that, we head to our house. After a few minutes we arrive home. Now, the tutoring session begins.
"You remember your assignment right?" She smiles brightly. We are now seated at the dining table. I took out my assignment from my bag and hand it to her. She starts reading it. My heart is beating so hard right now!!! She raises her eyebrows and begins to read the English translations...
" Who's to say that love needs to be soft and gentle?" She says, I just stare at her and stay silent.
"If you were my homework i'd do you everyday in every possible way."
"Behind every great woman, is a guy looking at her ass." She finishes. She looks, I don't know. Kinda pissed? Arrrrrggggh! Is my assignment wrong?
"Kim Taeyeon, what kind of assignment is this?" She asks. I scratch my head...
I'm trying to analyze whether Pani-noona looks pissed, upset or disgusted. Well, I guess it's a combination of one or two of the three. Ugh! Is my assignment really that hopeless?
"Noona. I'm sorry if I did it wrong." I apologize with my head hung low. Aish, I messed up. I knew it. Now what am I supposed to do? Wait, I feel like crying. No! Be strong Taengoo! I then feel a hand pat my shoulder. I look up for a moment. I see Pani-noona's face, her eyebrows furrowed. Here it comes! I'm scared! She's really pretty though.
"Tae-Tae, it's okay. All of your answers are actually... Ummm correct... It's just that... Well, I think I forgot to tell you that they have to be at least well... Slightly conversational? But if these lines stuck out the most for you... What can I do right?" She gives me a warm smile.
Huh? I'm confused. A moment ago, her expression was strange. But! I'm glad she's not pissed like I thought! My assignment is perfect! I shed so much blood for that! You know... Headache... Nose bleeding while watching those incredibly hot scenes. You get the picture right?! Maybe if I explain why, she'll hear me out. Hrrrmmm~
"But noona, aren't these conversational enough?" I asked her. I try to act cute so it'll be easier for her to hear me out. My eyes looked like they were pleading.
"Ahhh... Are they? Look Tae..." She shows me my answers and points her finger on them. My eyes focused on those damn lines. But oh gosh, does she really have to lean a little on me while showing it me? I'm not complaining. I'm getting... Hnnnnnng~
"I mean, you wouldn't normally say these you know." She says. I just nod. But I loved these lines! They're the most memorable for me! I mean you would normally say these to someone hot. Isn't that logical enough? And having she heard of dirty talking? Hmm... I'm confused and I guess it's showing on my face. She sighs. Huh?! Did I disappoint her?
"Tae, these are... Quite... I mean where'd you get these from anyway?" She asks me again. I look at her.
"From the 'The Secretary'." I then smiled excitedly.
"From who?" She looked rather puzzled. I scratch my head.
"No noona. It's a movie." I answered proudly. I mean, you're not a man if you missed out on this masterpiece!
"Oh... How come I haven't heard of it yet?" She raises her eyebrows. Aha! She might think I was just making those lines up or something! Another brilliant idea pops into my head...
"Well, noona I could show it to you." I smile at her. She raises her eyebrows even higher. But what the heck! She's the most adorable thing on earth!
"Maybe you could. Do you have the DVD in the living room?" She looks at other direction, towards the television. I rub my chin.
"I don't have a DVD. But I do have a copy in my laptop noona." I said excitedly. Teehee!
"Okay... Where's your laptop? Let's have a look so we can also continue with our lessons." She holds my hand. I stand up from my seat.
"It's in my room noona." I point upstairs. I cannot believe that the possibility of having this hot woman in room is getting higher by the minute. Noona please say yes!!! Let's go to my room! She looks where I point at.
"Okay. Let's just do it in your room then." She lets me go and gathers her stuff from the table. Arrrrrrrrgggggh! Did I just hear that right? Let's just do it in your room... Let's just do it in your room... LET'S JUST DO IT IN MY ROOM?! Ugh! You know, my thoughts are filled with... Holy smokes! She'll be coming into my room. Get it? Who knows what might happen?! She looks at me like she's wondering.
"So... Let's go? I don't want to have you carry it here. Besides it's been a long time since I last saw your room. I wanna see it!" She exclaims. Omomomomo. I'm just so happy now!
A few years ago...
I hold Pani-noona by the hand and pull her into my room. I lock the door. She stares at me confusingly. I sit on the floor and start to cry. She approaches me and hugs me. I cry even more when she rubs my back.
"Baby, don't cry. Please stop crying..." She kisses the crown of head. It is just frustrating! I hate this feeling! I raise my head only to see her smiling at me. I wipe my tears and try to speak.
"Is it true noona? Is it t-tru-true?! You're leaving me?!" I ended up shouting. I was just so angry that she'll be leaving me. She's the only person that cares for me. I never felt happier with anyone else. I never felt a hint of sadness or loneliness whenever she's with me! Don't leave Pani-noona! She wipes my tears.
"I'm not leaving you... I'll be back... I promise." She reassures me. But she's still leaving! I can't take it!
"No!!! Don't go! Don't go please! Noona!!! Don't leave me!" I hug her really tight. She hugs me back.
"Tae-Tae... Please stop crying... Stop crying. Do it for me, okay?" I feel her nuzzle into my neck. I immediately stop and try to hold in the tears. But just then, I feel something wet on my neck. Ahhh! Is she crying? I'm so stupid! I made her cry!!! I hug her tighter. I close my eyes.
"Noona, I'm not crying anymore! You shouldn't cry too!!!" I try to sound happy. She giggles.
"I'm not crying! I just have something in my eye." She tells me. She pulls away and strokes my scalp. Her eyes are watery. A tear rolls down from her cheek. I wipe it with my finger.
"Thanks Tae-Tae. I know that you'll understand this someday. Just right now, don't... Don't be sad."
I pucker up the strength to give her the brightest smile I could. I know I look funny but whatever! She told me that she loves seeing me smile and it makes her smile as well. She smiles back, her eyes forming into crescents as she shows her teeth.
"Haha! You're so silly baby! A while ago you were crying, now this. But thank you!" She kisses my cheek.
Pani-noona, I would do anything for you. It is so hard for me to just watch you leave me. The thought of it stings like the injection of the doctor or the dentist pulling out my tooth! I love you! I love you! Please stay!
"Noona, I really love you..." I tell her. I know my whole face turned red at that moment. She stares at me.
"I love you too baby..."
"Here we are noona!!!" I said happily! Finally! You know what's so great about it? Not only is she in my room, we are also going to watch "The Secretary" together. Pretty amajing huh?! Arrrrggghhhhh! She sits on my bed. I lock the door. Haha! I stare at her as she feels the sheets.
"Tae?"
"Yes noona?"
"Why did you lock the door?"
Hmm... Why did I lock the door? Hehe... Because I don't want anybody to disturb us noona... Euhehehehe! Right now, it's just me and you noona, me and you... In my room. You're on my bed and gosh I don't know what to do right now.
"Ahh~ Force of habit! I always lock my door because Hayeon-noona always barges in without permission. Euhehe..." I tell her.
She looks so fine on my bed! Ugh! I just can't wait to lay her down. Oh gosh. Did I just say that?! No. I have to control myself... But... Hnnnnng~ I look at her now, she has a bewildered expression on her face.
"Oh... Okay then." She smiles at me. Whew. I'm nervous. I mean what if something really happens?! I don't even know how to kiss!!! I haven't kissed any girl yet except her. Well, that was when I was five and a half. It'll be so freakin' embarrassing! I get my laptop and sit next to her. I turn it on. My hands become shaky! I am so excited and nervous at the same time. She holds my hand all of a sudden.
I remember that awesome day...
Today, Pani-noona agreed to help me review for my upcoming exams because Hayeon-noona is sick and Jiwoong-hyung is stupid therefore making him unqualified to help me study. We sat next to each other at my study table. After a few minutes of explaining she asks me to answer the short questionnaire she prepared on the spot.
"Tae-Tae, here. Answer this okay?" She told me with a yawn. She looks really tired and sleepy. I nod at her.
"Pani-noona? Are you tired?" I ask her. She smiles at me. Her eyes were slightly closing.
"Do I look tired? Sorry baby. We were practicing all day for our dance presentation. I guess I'm a bit tired." She explains. Oh yeah! Pani-noona is a good dancer. She loves to sing as well. I have watched her perform in school. She's amazing and pretty! But she's tired now. I feel guilty for asking her to help me.
"Noona, you can rest while I answer this." I told her but she was already sleeping on my desk, her head over her arms. She is just so beautiful. Without thinking, I close my eyes and press my lips on hers.
"Mmmmm~" She says. But she's still asleep thank goodness!!! I pull away. Noooo! I kissed her without permission! I hate myself! She will never forgive me!
"Waaaaaaah~" I start to cry. She jolts up from the noise I made.
"What's the matter Tae-Tae? Are my questions too hard?" She rubs my back and wipes my tears.
"Noona, I kissed you!!! While you were sleeping!!! I am so sorry!" I shout and the tears keep on falling. She is going to be mad at me now!
"Baby, why did you do that?" She asked me, her eyes still half-lidded.
"Because I love you noona!" I kept on crying! I am so embarrassed and ashamed of myself. She pats my shoulder and giggles at my foolishness.
"Haha! It's okay. Just answer those questions." She sits up a bit, still smiling at me.
"You're not mad Pani-noona?" I stopped crying.
"No. Why would I be? It's okay Tae. I love you too anyways." She laughs and kissed my forehead.
"Now go answer those alrighty?" I nod. I am so happy! I am going to ace our exams! Why is she always nice to me?! I am falling harder for her every time. I am happy because she was my first kiss. These lips of mine are only for her!!!
"What's wrong? Are you okay?" She asks me.
"I'm just so excited!" I blurt out. Nice one Taeng. It just had to slip. Why do I keep on constantly embarrassing myself? Arrrrrghhhhh!!! She giggles. I just pout at her.
"Looks like you really love this movie. What is it about anyways?" She asks again. Hmmm... Where do I begin? I would like to tell her every little detail but why would I tell her... When I can show it to her! That's way better! Plus, I am not good with words. I'll just ruin everything.
"Euhehe~ Noona we could just watch it 'cause I'm not really good at explaining." I tell her honestly. She giggles again. She is just the most adorable thing on the planet!
"Tae~ You haven't changed. You're still the Tae-Tae who loves to show me stuff but never explains." She lightly hits my arm. Haha! You're still the most beautiful woman that I'll always love no matter what. Pani-noona is just so freakin' cute. Here we go... I hope she gets turned on I mean she gets the story.
"Noona, you want to move a little on the bed so it would be more comfortable?" I ask her. Holy... Come on noona, please!!!
"What do you mean? How Tae?" She looks confused again. I move upwards the bed while holding my laptop and sit with my back leaning on the headboard.
"Here noona, sit here." I pat my hand on the space next to me. She nods and crawls towards me. GOSH. I can see the cleave- Hoho~ I'm sweating. She sits next to me. And gosh! She sat on my favorite pillow! The one I love hugging! I know I'm gonna sound sick again but it looks like I'll be enjoying smothering myself on that pillow! I mean indirect contact with Pani-noona's butt. Shiz!!! I place the laptop on my lap so both of us could see. The movie starts.
"Wait Tae, this isn't one of those psychotic movies is it? 'Cause if it is, count me out." She holds onto my arm. Hnnnnng~ I blink a few times. Snap out of it Taeng! Don't let your hormones get the best of you!
"No noona... It's not. It's a romantic one."
"Well, based on the lines, I guess so... Is it a romantic comedy though?" She continues to ask me. I laugh. She is so curious! Does this mean she's that interested? I hope she'll like it though.
"You could say that..." I smile at her.
"But then again we can't watch all of it. We won't have enough time. How about we watch the scenes where you got your assignment?" She tells me. Awwww~ We won't watch it all?! But every scene is vital!!! I don't know if she'll appreciate it that much if she won't be able to watch all of it! But she has a point though. I am so upset now!
"Tae, don't be upset. We can watch all of it together some other time. Just not now okay? Let's go to the scenes where you got your lines. I still have some exercises for you to do." Damn. Like a hard slap on the face. Okay. I'm doing it because I love you noona. I skip on the scenes. Oh here we go.
"Ugh!!! Sir! I'm getting wet!!!" The girl screams. Wait, this is wrong. Let me just... Pani-noona hugs me and covers her eyes. I got surprised.
"Tae!!! What is this? Why are they naked?!" She shouts. What? Why are they naked? 'Cause they're making love? I never heard of people making love with their clothes on before. Hmmm... How should I say this to noona without freaking her out? Hmmm...
"... Noona they're-" I try to explain.
"I know what they're doing! Just go to the right part okay!" She tells me. I guess she's mad. Awww~ I ruined the mood. I can just kill myself right now! Aish I am so dum!
"Noona, let's just not... I feel really embarrassed..." I told her. She faces me and stares unbelievingly. I can see that her face turned red.
"Let's just get it over with. I'm sorry. I keep on forgetting that you're not a little kid anymore..." She rubs my shoulder. That's right noona. I am a man. I'm your man!!! I smile. Okay! I feel better now. She's so cute like that and nice to me. I thought she was gonna flip out again but she was just surprised I guess.
Finally I get it right. The first line I wrote down and translated was a scene with a doctor, then the other one when the old lawyer dude was talking to his secretary. The last one was like a naughty line from the lawyer dude. While skipping, we saw parts when they were making out and stuff. I could see noona's mouth was slightly open. Is it just me or was she turned on in any way? I hope she was! My friend from down under is getting a bit stiff. Hnnnnnng~
"Okay. I guess you're translations are pretty accurate. I'll give you a perfect score. But next time Tae... I don't know... Be at least general patronage?" She moves away from me and sits at the edge of the bed.
"Okay noona!" I said happily. I stood up and placed the laptop on my desk. It was on the other side of the room. Then I approached noona but strangely noona is covering her eyes. Huh?! Why?
"Noona? What's wrong?" I asked her. She points a finger...
At my crotch, still covering her eyes.
I look down and...
HOLY MOLLY HOLY MACARONI SHIZ!!!
SHIZ!!! Ugh! I immediately turn around. My best friend is standing straight and hard like a T-square. I didn't want her to see it this way! Man! What could be worse than this! Absolutely a freakin' disaster! I could really die of complete embarrassment right now. Aish. What could Pani-noona be thinking of me at this moment? I hope she's not disgusted with me!
"Ummm... Tae, maybe I should go. Maybe we could continue your tutoring some other time..." She tells me. It was like she was hurrying to leave. I could hear her gathering her stuff from my bed and just when she was about to go, I stopped her. I grabbed her wrist and it causes her to drop her bag.
"Noona, don't go. I'm sorry..." I said, staring intensely at her. Ugh! I hope I didn't scare her! But I was so turned on! It just hardened by itself! Damn!!! She looks at me like she was really scared. She suddenly spoke.
"I understand you Tae... And what happened to you was just natural I guess. But the timing is just really bad!" She then closes her eyes again, looking away.
I'm still holding her wrist but then without thinking. She just looks down, trying to release herself from my grip. I wasn't thinking, I just didn't want her to leave... I was afraid she won't come back... But...Ugh! My pained little friend is waiting to be set free. Well, I wouldn't say it was that little. 'Cause if it was, Pani-noona wouldn't be scared like she is right now. Euhehehe...
When I was younger, my siblings would always tease me as CockTae. Stupid guys! That is just the most embarrassing nickname! Because of their teasing, my other relatives would call me that wretched nickname!!! Every family reunion is like the CockTae party! Damn relatives! But it isn't my fault I was born with a huge problem like that. Growing up, I was burdened. I always had to wear slightly tighter briefs so it won't catch too much attention. Don't you hate it when people are staring at your crotch! Damn it! But it's different with Pani-noona, she's afraid of it. It's strange!
I remember when I went to relax with my friends in the hot spring. It was near my friend's ancestral house in their prefecture...
I actually told my siblings that I'll be sleeping over my friend's house for the weekend. Yeeeeahh... My friend's house... In Busan. Euhehe~ We dip ourselves into the water. All four of us, completely naked and enjoying the warm soothing hot spring.
"Whoah! The water feels really nice!" Hyo shouted.
"Hell yeah! It's warm and relaxing!" Sunny then splashed in the water. We started playing like we were in the kiddie pool or something.
"Hyung, you know it also feels warm and relaxing when you know... You go inside... A girl!" Yoong said in a sleazy tone. Why this little pervert! And he is the youngest here! Isn't he embarrassed?! Stupid kid. I hit his head and he groans in pain.
"What the heck is wrong with you?! Why would you say that?!" I shouted at him but he knows I was just doing that to play around with them. I usually do that.
"Tae-Hyung! Why did you hit me?! I mean you should know that. I know you've scored so many times already. You're the oldest here!" He whines, rubbing the part of his head that I hit. The other three nod in unison.
"Not to mention he has the biggest plug here! Haha!" Hyo said.
"Humungous disco stick!" Yoong blurted
"Hey stop listening to Lady Gaga Yoong! That's right! I am so jealous! Yours is like twice as big as mine! God is so nice to bless you like that! Women like big ones." Sunny butted in. I just give them a disgusted look. What?! They have been looking at my crotch all this time? Are these guys serious?!
"Damn you guys! And you say that I am the number one pervert here! Look who's checking out my cock! And if you guys didn't know, I still haven't done it yet! I'm saving my cock for someone special." I tell them while splashing the water at their faces. They just continue laughing like idiots.
"Hoho~ Hyung that special someone's really lucky! She'll get a huge one!" Yoong exclaims. I dip his head into the water. I turn red upon imagining Pani-noona's beautiful smile.
"Aish this kid!!! Hell right she's lucky 'cause I will love her right and no, size doesn't matter you kid!" I yell.
"Oy Taengoo! If you're talking about your beloved Pani-noona, just shushers! Your age difference is too problematic! Hahaha!" Sunny said while laughing really hard.
"Sunny-ah, age doesn't matter, size does!!!" Hyo butted in. I turn all red and all of them burst into laughter. Gosh, I thought these guys were my friends... Arrrrrrrgghhhhhh!!! Fuuuuuuu!!!
"Tae, let me go." She sounded like she was giving an order. Oh damn I guess she's mad at me. I just let go. I didn't want the turn of event to be more crappier than it already is! Out of my fear and love of noona, yeah it's possible to feel those both at the same time, I let go... I sighed looking at her.
"Sorry noona, I didn't know-"
"Tae, just... Don't explain okay? I told you, let's just meet some other time okay? I need to leave." She storms out of my room. I really wanted to freaking chase her but something inside me told me to just stay glued to my feet. Fuuuuu I feel so dumb!
"You useless good for nothing fluuuuucker!" I shout at buddy. I guess he was soooo embarrassed, she grew soft again. Aish... No shecksy time for you!!! Now my noona hates me!!!
Gosh this was the most painful day ever. I mean it's practically torture... I tried to call noona and I keep on texting her. No replies... I just wanted to apologize and let her hear me out. I really don't want her to hate me and stop talking to me. I kept on blaming myself. I should have had more self control. Gahh! I pull my hair out of severe frustration!
"Mister Kim, do you have a hard time with this problem?" Our Math teacher suddenly calls out my attention. Everyone was just looking at me.
"Yeah sir, I'm really a hard time with this problem!" I didn't realize it but I kinda raised my voice which kinda freaked out the teach.
"Okay... Maybe you need to go to the clinic... You look terrible Mister Kim... Lay off the pot." My classmates started to laugh their butts off. What pot? Pot-bellied pig? I don't eat that... What's so funny huh? I furrowed my eye brows.
"I'm fine sir." I slump back at my seat. Did I just say this freaking day is just torture... I can't get noona off my mind. I can't stop worrying that she won't ever ever talk to me again. Aish.
I grumpily got of class. I was just not into it today. So not into it that I was unconsciously glaring at everyone. Yeah, Yoong told me when I bumped into him at the corridor. Gosh, I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. I was so pissed! And yeah, I was pissed at myself for being so goddarn stupid! Noona, please... Just please...
"Tae." I bumped into someone again. Gosh why am I so freaking stu-
"I'm sorry." I was looking down and continued walking.
"Wait Tae." I felt a light grip on my arm, wait a sec that angelic voice... I hesitantly looked up.
"Hey, umm we have a tutoring session remember?" It was noona and she was smiling at me. Huh? Is this an illusion someone slap me! I must be caught in a daydream!
"Noona?"
"Yes?"
"Noona?!"
"Tae, are you okay?" I had to slap myself. Gosh! It hurt! I was waiting for noona to vanish, just in case this is a sick dream. No, she's still there and yes she looked scared. Okay! She's talking to me!
"Yeah! Fine! Absolutely! Yeah I'm okay! I really fine-" Noona covers my mouth.
"Okay. That's great. I guess we can go now? I mean kinda promised Hayeonie that I'll help you get a high grade in your exam so... Shall we?" Gosh this is so amazing! Arrghhh! I blink a few time and just nod excitedly at every single word she just said.
"Okay."
"Ummm... Are you hungry? Want anything to eat?" Noona asked me while we went in her car.
"Want you..."
"What?" Noona turned her head to face me. What? What did I say?
"You want what?"
"You?"
"What?" Pani-noona asked one more time... Fuuu! Can't believe I let it slip again! I should learn how to keep my dirty mouth shut. Well, yeah I just practically spoke my mind out that I wanted to eat noona, you know what I mean by that!
"You? I mean what do you want noona? Euhehe~ I'll eat anything you're gonna eat." Wow... Why does everything that comes out of my mouth sound so nasty.
"What I want? Oh but I wanna kinda thinking the same thing." Noona replied. Thinking the same thing. I couldn't help but widen my eyes, I never thought thinking about food would lead to me thinking about eating something else, yes it's pink and creamy and I'm not talking about strawberry cream cake...
"Euhehehe~ Anything noona, I'm fine with anything." I brushed off my thoughts. I hope she didn't notice I was freaking out. I can't help but think of dirty things when noona talks to me and I don't know why. Maybe 'cause she's so amazingly hot and fuuuuuu don't think too much Taengoo! Your inflatable buddy might cause trouble again!
"Oh okay. Ummm, how's about pizza?" Noona gives a high voltage eye smile... Oh my gosh it's so freaking bright and vivid! My eyes! My eyes!!!
"Yeah! Pizza! I love pizza! I love all kinds of pizzas! Gotta love those pizzas!" I excitedly exclaimed.
"It's settled then, let's eat before we start the tutoring session." Noona smiled and started the car. We drove off to our place. Well not exactly "our" place but I'm thinking when me and noona, you know enter a relationship; I want us to move in together. Euhehe~ So I can take care of her and everyday... Every single day... I would... You know... Of course watch over her and love her. Euhe!
After finishing the pizza noona has order, we proceeded to taking our clothes off. Just kidding. We proceeded to the freaking engrish hell lesson I so do not wanna do. Right now, the only I wanna do is noona... Oh hot daaaamn.
"Tae, I'm gonna give you a lot exercises today. Well, as a sort of punishment as well." Noona gets several sheets of paper from her bag. Noooooo! I'd rather take a geometry test than do engrish exercises! I tried to hold it the disappointment... Isn't noona gonna teach me first?
"Ohhh... But noona, aren't you gonna discuss first?" I tried to take a chance to convince her. I was googly eyed and used my fail aegyo but whatever, she likes that! Well when I was five years old... Hmm.
"Tae, I'll continue after. Don't worry these are just left overs and assignments you were supposed to do in sentence construction. I wanted to focus there since it says in your pointers that this has a big part in the exam. You were supposed to finish them last night. I guess we should have not watched the movie..." I scratched my head... About that... This is my chance to apologize.
"Noona, about that. I'm really really sorry. Now we have a lot to catch up on because of me." She just looks away as though she didn't want to remember what happened. I mean who would right?! I wanted to completely erase that from my memory too! It was so freaking embarrassing!
"Tae, it's okay. It's natural. I mean I keep on forgetting you're not a little anymore. "
"Yeah but I really screwed up and-"
"Tae, just answer these please. I really don't wanna talk about it and it's really alright so just forget about that." Noona's tone sounded a bit scary so I just nodded and took the papers she handed me.
"Okay noona." I began to 'answer' the goddarn questions. Fuuuuuuu! What the?! Why is it like I didn't take this up?! Oh no! I shouldn't be like this! Only question number and I'm totally freaking out! I looked up at noona who is just across my table. She was busy writing stuff. Man, she's pretty when she looks serious. I love when she's focusing on something, her mouth is a bit open and her eyes looks so nice when they're a bit squinted. Euhehe~ Cute too!
"Yes Tae?" Noona noticed that I was looking at her.
"Oh nothing noona, I was just trying to remember something. Euhehe..." I pretended to answer my paper.
"Oh okay. Tell me when you're finished okay? I'm just preparing the next lessons."
"Yes noona." I carefully raised my head again and looked at noona. I can totally imagine myself waking up every morning with this beautiful face next to mine! I blush a little at the thought. My eyes trail down from her pretty eyes to her cute nose, I just wanna pinch it and kiss it! Then I stare at her lips... Yeah... Those lips. I wanna bite them. Euhehe! Hmmm... I pucker my lips.
"Hmmm..." Noona suddenly makes a sound so I return to my paper. I peeked and she was busy writing... I took my time to stare at her again. I missed her and she's changed a lot~ I mean appearance wise but she's still the noona I fell in love with. Gosh... I licked my lips as I stared at hers. I wonder what they taste like. Euhehehe! My eyes went down again. This time to her neck. Man, what I'd do to just nuzzle over there and shower it with pecks! I might even leave a mark there... Hmmm... I really wasn't sure but you know how sometimes, your hand have a life of its own? And yeah I was giving my buddy a treat under the table as looked at noona. You're probably like 'the heck Taengoo! You sick perv!!!'
Well, my friends don't call me 'Bate' for nothing... 'Master Bate' that is... Euhehehe! Get it? No? Okay your mind is pure and innocent... So congratulations you have won my admiration! I mean fuuuu... How can I resist touching myself at this moment... Noona is steaming...
"Ugh." I gave a grunt but I tried to keep it as inaudible as possible. Stroke stroke stroking my buddy as my eyes went down further. Her hot collarbone makes me wanna give it a few licks~ Skin sooooo smooth! Like the vanilla ice cream I enjoy so much! Yum yum!
"hmp..." I stroked faster. Geez my naughty eyes reaches their destination. That valley of happiness that nestles between those two round fun bags~ Omomomomomo. Spell perfection? B-O-O-B-S. Euhehehe! That's when my best friend stiffens. Shiz. What I'd do to be noona's little hungry baby right now! Tsk that cleavage isn't helping me answer these freaking papers; it's helping something else... You know what it is! Something that occurs when the blood leaves a man's brain and goes to his cockadoodledoo!
"OH MY GOD." I hiss and my left eye closes. Shiz! I stroked faster. Looks like noona isn't gonna bother checking on me, she's way too busy with what she's doing. Fuuuu am I really finishing off under this table? Aigoo. I just stroke faster as I imagine the fun things I could be doing with noona... I'm crying inside of happiness.
"Tae?" Noona unexpectedly looks at me. I blink a few times and halt the stroking. I blushed hard! Noona looks at me with a puzzled expression. Shiz shiz shiz! What now? Fuuu! What to do?! Master Bate is caught in the act!!! Panic!
"Tae?"
"..." I gulped and stayed silent.
"Is it hard?"
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU... HOW DID SHE KNOW I WAS HARD?!!