A/n: Thank you for you kind encouragement, I'm glad that you're enjoying this... I apologize if I'm a bit slow with my updates. I took a blow to the head around the time I was in the middle of final-reviewing this and got a concussion -_- and I'm still a bit limited. If I exert myself too much I get dizzy which makes me really sick and a migraine and really drained. I couldn't read or write for a few days without overdoing it.
xXx
The moment I walked in the door, I was ambushed. I screamed like a little girl, flailing and almost dropping pizza all over Kairi who was right there when I walked in, spying on me apparently. It was embarrassing as hell and I was sure that my face matched her hair. She was a little thing, five foot two, one hundred pounds, but she could be a thousand kinds of intimidating. Her lips curled upward smugly and I was really glad that I'd forgotten my rose in Axel's car. "What are you doing?" I asked, "Are you out of your mind?" Her grin widened and she was looking at me knowingly, just like she had when she had set me up with Axel. I didn't like it.
"So Axel brought you home, huh? That's a nice change. How was your date?" She asked sweetly. I rolled my eyes. Yeah right. She wouldn't be getting any answers out of me. She had seen nothing other than a platonic friendship and therefore she could prove nothing. So there.
"How do you think it was? I told you, never again," I grumbled back, giving her my most grumpy, obnoxious scowl. I could be just as stubborn as she was and I wasn't going to give in. She clicked her tongue at me in disapproval. Good. I was about eighty-five percent sure she'd bought it. Now I could eat my pizza in peace. Probably. Gripping it protectively, I shut the front door and eyed her warily.
"You're such a Grumpy Gus about Valentine's Day, Roxas. Did you seriously ruin it?" She asked, looking at me disapprovingly. I shrugged, shuffling past her.
"That's none of your business, Kairi. I showed up and that's all that matters, right?"
"Fine. I know Axel, so I'll just ask him, you ingrate," she shot back, smirking. "I know you guys did something because he dropped you off. I will find out," she promised. I nodded my head.
"Okay. Prepare yourself to be disappointed," I said, rolling my eyes. She put her hands on her hips.
"You need to stop self-sabotaging, Roxas, or you're never going to be happy!" she scolded me. She was a psychology minor and so she thought she knew everything there was to know about psycho-analyzing. I rolled my eyes.
"Yeah. Uh-huh. For the thousandth time, I am not gay," I muttered back grumpily. She shook her head at me and I edged closer to my room.
I was almost there, just a little closer and I could escape. I could practically taste freedom when Sora spied me from his spot on the couch, brightening. He gave me a funny look when he noticed my outfit. I raised my eyebrow at him, daring him to join in. It didn't stop him, of course. Why would it? "Hey Roxas, uhm, what's with your outfit? Were you trying to scare the guy off?" He asked, giggling and falling into Riku. "It must not have worked if he bought you food," he teased. Huh. He was actually onto something there. I'd have to do that on purpose if they tried this ever again. I shot Kairi a meaningful look and she rolled her eyes at me. Namine seemed to be missing, to my relief. She must have gone to bed instead of trying to spy on me, like a normal person.
"Your cat used my clothes as a litter box. Again," I said, scowling at him. "Dude you need to get your cat under control. Seriously, one more time and I'm putting her outside." Sora's eyes widened in horror.
"How could you threaten my baby?!" he cried. Riku quietly consoled him with, all I could assume was sweet nothings because of how my brother giggled, and shot me a glare. I rolled my eyes in disgust. My brother could do no wrong in Riku's eyes and it was nauseating. Kairi walked past me and sat by them, texting, probably trying to see what Axel had to say. I sighed tiredly.
"Whatever Sor. I'm going to bed. Your cat had better not be in my room again. I have a window and a tree. I will use them." Sora hurried up from his spot, and to my room to check. I frowned deeply when he came back with the black haired blue eyed demon, glaring at it, and walked down the hall to my room, slamming the door behind me. I tossed the pizza box down on my bed and stripped down to my boxers, and out of my hideously mismatched clothes. I was not very thrilled about having to rewash my clothes again. I didn't have time for that crap. Wrinkling my nose in disgust, I picked up the basket and set it outside the door before slamming my door again, for good measure.
I muttered under my breath about Sora's cat, Xion, and flopped down on my bed, rubbing at my eyes tiredly. That cat caused me way too much stress and was too dense to feel my disdain for it. Just like Sora, sometimes. My stomach grumbled and I opened the box of pizza, smiling a little at the mostly heart shape, despite myself. Somehow it was making everything a little better, at least. Just like Axel had today. I thought about Axel, and what we had done at his place, feeling a warm flash of arousal. It was embarrassing and confusing as hell but it had been really nice too.
I propped myself up and ate a piece of mostly cold pizza, chewing thoughtfully. The last time I'd kissed a guy it had been a good friend of mine, during my freshman year of college at Traverse Town. Well, the last time I'd kissed a guy back. Getting a surprise attack kiss from Vexen out of nowhere did not count. Anyway, I had chosen my friend Hayner mostly because he was someone I could trust when it came to experimenting with my sexuality but I just hadn't liked him that way. I mean, he was awesome but I just couldn't think of him like that. He wasn't bad looking... he was actually cute in his own way but not to me. I had preferred his personality to his looks, honestly, but he had been good enough at the time. It wasn't like his face was a bowl of oatmeal with two eyes and a mouth thrown in there or anything.
Why had I felt the need to do this if I wasn't gay? Well, I'd actually wondered from time to time if my friends had been right. When I had vented to him, Hayner had been awesome about helping me with trying to figure it out and settling the matter once and for all. Back then, kissing him hadn't felt like anything but I hadn't liked him as more than a friend either, so we hadn't done anything more than make out. We were still close, no hard feelings, and he's kept it a secret but that's why I was so confused now. I'd thought it'd given me the proof I'd needed to firmly deny everything my friends were saying but… with Axel it had been completely different.
I mean completely different. I was attracted to him both physically and to his personality and it wasn't something I had experienced before. I supposed that I hadn't had much to choose from in Traverse Town for guys but I had been on other dates, here, and no one had made me feel the way that Axel did. All he'd had to do was touch me and it was like getting struck by lightning. It left my body completely haywire. Then, when he'd kissed me, it had felt amazing. Thinking about it made me want to do it more. A lot more, unlike with Hayner. I really hoped he wasn't going to out me to Kairi because I actually wanted to see him again and I didn't want my friends to ruin it.
xXx
The next morning, I got my answer. I had been minding my own business and innocently eating my cereal when Kairi came into the kitchen, absolutely moping. I mean it looked like someone had completely ruined her entire day and kicked a puppy while they were at it. She looked miserable. It was really weird to see her so out of character. I munched away, ignoring her mostly and drinking my coffee, hoping that it meant she was going to leave me alone. She sat down across from me and stared at me until I was forced to acknowledge her.
"You're being creepy," I said without looking at her. Her pout deepened.
"What did you do to Axel?" She asked. I raised an eyebrow at her. Well, this was a new development… I shrugged pretending not to care.
"I don't know, what did I do?" I asked, my mouth full of cereal. She wrinkled her nose at me.
"That's so gross," she complained. I obliged her by closing my mouth while I chewed. "He said that all you guys did was hang out and watch a movie but I don't believe it." I stared at her and lazily ate another spoonful of cheerios. I shrugged.
"Whatever. I don't really care." She watched me for a moment.
"He scolded me," she said sounding offended, "and he told me to stop setting you up with guys. Why would he do that?" I looked at her, completely serious.
"We made out and cuddled like gay lovers. Maybe it gave him the wrong impression," I told her. I got the exact response I'd been wanting.
"Roxas, don't be a jerk!" I smirked at her.
"Well if you don't want to believe me…." I said, digging into my cereal. Kairi sighed in exasperation but not defeat. Not yet. I really needed to thank Axel for this. Sora walked into the kitchen, grabbing a bagel, taking notice of Kairi's demeanor.
"Hey what's wrong, Kairi?" he asked. She huffed.
"Roxas is rubbing his date in my face," she said with a pouty frown. Sora looked at me hopefully.
"I believe the word you're looking for is 'hanging out'," I corrected smugly. Sora's expression flat lined and he looked at Kairi pityingly. Namine checked herself over in the hallway mirror, fixing her hair as she walked into the kitchen.
"Don't worry, we'll find the right guy for you, Roxas," she said encouragingly. I took another bite of cereal.
"Maybe you should listen to Axel," I told them, "he said if I'm questioning my sexuality, throwing random guys at me isn't going to help." Kairi's expression lifted and I shot her down. "He was questioning you. The first thing I said to him is that I'm not gay," I told her smugly, watching her hopes crash and burn all over again. Today was officially awesome. Shattering their hopes and dreams of forcing me to admit that I was gay was epic.
Riku came into the kitchen and Sora bounded over to him like a goddamn gazelle, making a small noise of glee before giving him an Eskimo kiss. Ew. I rolled my eyes and stuffed the rest of my food in my mouth in case they had any more questions, putting my bowl in the sink and taking my coffee with me as I left.
xXx
I began to frequent the coffee shop where Axel worked, hoping to catch him at his job. I didn't know how else to find him without just randomly showing up at his house, which seemed really weird, so I settled for looking for him at his job. Yeah, I know, that sounded so much better... but I didn't know how else to talk to him without Kairi catching on. If I started looking for him at the university, she would know and then I'd be right back at square one. She had actually backed off because of what Axel had said to her and it was really, really nice. So I wanted to thank him.
It was a Friday night two weeks later when fate intervened. It was the night that all of us got together to play video games and eat pizza when I saw him again, actually. ...Or I guess you could say it was Saturday morning, technically. Namine was the first to ask if I had seen Axel again. It hadn't bothered me too much because it had been almost a whole three weeks since either he or my sexuality had been mentioned. When I had shaken my head, too distracted by Mario Kart to answer, Sora had made the suggestion that we should invite him to game night next Friday. I glared at him and lost my lead in the game, just as Kairi mildly intervened.
"We would have to change our game night around. Axel is always working on Friday nights until an ungodly hour, so he'd miss most of it," she told him. Sora wrinkled his nose.
"Ew. What does he do?" he asked. Kairi shrugged.
"He bartends part time somewhere. I can't remember the place," she said, sipping at her coke. I felt a ridiculous amount of relief and nodded, trying to sound indifferent, even though that information was extremely helpful and I had been really wanting to see him.
"That would be problematic, wouldn't it?" I asked, feeling triumphant as I threw a turtle shell and passed Riku's character. Riku cursed, trying to regain control as he spun out while Sora nudged me with his foot.
"You should invite him over sometime, Rox, that way we can hang out with your new friend too," he encouraged.
"He's not my friend Sora, we hung out once," I mumbled back. Riku's lips curved upward.
"That's why you should have him come over. Maybe if he gets to know you and your friends better, you guys will turn out like me and Sora," he cooed. I said nothing, huffing in frustration. I'd always preferred him 'silent and reserved', as Sora liked to describe him, all starry-eyed. I mostly just thought he was a jerk who didn't like to socialize with people he felt were beneath him. Unfortunately for him, he had to put up with me because of dating my brother.
Hah, yeah right. Pfft. As if. Like him and Sora…? Okay, even if Axel and I became something we would never be that disgustingly gushy about each other. Plus I was not going to invite him over here and scare him away. He seemed like a cool and understanding guy and was probably used to Kairi but I didn't want to lose our friendship yet by pushing it. I concentrated on the game but slipped to third place by the time I crossed the final finish line. I stared at the screen blankly, not wanting to deal with it anymore. Not tonight, not ever.
"I'm going to bed," I mumbled.
"Already?" Sora pouted.
"Yes," I told him with a scoff. I heard Riku say something about me not being able to handle being teased and sexual frustration as I walked down the hall and clicked the door shut, locking it behind me. I switched off the light for a lamp and flopped down on the bed with a sigh wanting to be anywhere else. I closed my eyes, listening to my friends murmuring in the distance and laughing here and there. I knew that they were worried about me but the harassment about my sexuality was getting old. I just wanted to get away from them and disappear for a while.
I checked my phone. It was only nine minutes until midnight and I wasn't even tired yet. My brother and our friends and I were usually up most of the night gaming. I just didn't feel like sleeping yet but I didn't know what to do. I thought about maybe seeing if Axel was around, now that I knew that he was working. I had been wanting to thank him anyway, at least, and I hadn't had luck running into him at his job yet. What he had done for me had been really awesome. Besides he was nice to be around and had cable and his own place. He also didn't bother me about whether I liked him or not and was really nice to talk to.
I thought about it and frowned. My friends wouldn't get it if I told them why I was going. That meant that leaving out the front door wasn't an option, so I put on my shoes and a sweatshirt and opened my window. I climbed down the tree that was outside of my room, just like I used to do back home when I wanted to get away. I had actually picked this room for that reason. No one would miss me anyway. They would assume that I was being grumpy in my room and avoiding the world and life, like the recluse I liked to be. Which would be perfect for once.
While I liked the idea of seeing Axel again, I hadn't decided if I wanted to go to Axel's workplace yet or not. I mostly just wanted to get away for a while. I was hoping that a walk would clear my head a little, anyway. The coffee shop was a few miles away, at least, so it would take me a while to get there. I would have plenty of time to decide.
The walk was nice. I didn't have to think about anything, which was amazing. I did feel a little bad about not telling my friends where I was going… but if they wanted to bother me I had my phone. So, I let my feet carry me and I found myself downtown, not far from the coffee shop. What was the name of it again? I walked by an antique store, a restaurant, a thrift sore, the pet store, and then my feet stopped at 'The Perky Parrot', humming at the name. I supposed that it made sense because it was in the same building as the pet store. Maybe Reno owned them both.
The advertising looked similar surrounding each store anyway and they had matching awnings. 'Dogs welcome, children must be on a leash' was written on the pet store door and I smiled a bit. It was kind of a topsy-turvy idea that continued into the coffee shop, one where animals ruled, and I liked it. I actually wanted to check it out sometime. While school kept the children away, of course. Otherwise it would be terrible.
I put my hands in my pockets, shivering a bit as I stared at the door to The Perky Parrot, hesitating for a long moment. Before I was ready for it, a tipsy couple staggered out, giggling. The boyfriend held the door for me and I smiled, thanking him before going in. I glanced back at them and watched them go across the street to another bar called The Afterlife. When they disappeared, I wandered into the shop. The music was loud, coming from a decent sounding live band, and the lights were dimmed. I was beginning to get a little nervous because there were so many people and I hadn't seen him yet. It had been about ten minutes since I had nervously checked to see if my friends had followed me and I was considering leaving because it could have been a set up to see if I'd go looking for Axel. I wouldn't put it past them to do something like that. Actually I really couldn't get that thought out of my head and was ready to get out of there when I saw a flash of red in my peripheral vision.
Axel's hair was hard to miss on any day but tonight it was tamer than usual because it was pulled back into a low ponytail. It still framed his face in the front but wasn't nearly as wild. He was behind another counter further in the shop that I hadn't seen right away. I watched him for a moment, unable to look away. He was just finishing mixing a drink and placed it in front of an awaiting customer, talking to the man with a familiar banter, as if he knew him. He hadn't seen me yet and so I looked around myself one more time. When I didn't see anybody I knew, I approached the counter and took a seat when Axel started cleaning up. It was just the two of us. His back was to me and my stomach was twisting nervously. He was wearing a black t-shirt with the bar's logo and a black and white print of a Macaw on it, dark jeans and those converse shoes. His clothes hugged his body just right, leaving little to the imagination and I found myself staring at him, trying to pull myself together enough to speak. He put a bottle of alcohol on the top shelf and I caught the flash of a tattoo on his left wrist that I hadn't seen last time.
"Hey there, bartender," I greeted finally. Recognizing my voice, Axel paused and then turned with a smile, his gaze falling on me immediately. His green eyes glittered with delight when he approached and he rested his forearms on the counter, hugging his biceps with his hands as he lent dangerously close. It was so unexpected that my breath caught but I didn't pull back.
"Hey there, cutie, I wasn't expecting to see you here," he teased. My throat went dry. Goddamn he smelled nice and looked sexy and he was all sorts of in my space so suddenly and... "What can I get you?" …and his voice was like honey. Holy damn. I swallowed, trying to concentrate.
"That depends, do you have a minute?" Axel smiled, those gorgeous green eyes never leaving mine, and my heart skipped a beat.
"Sure, I can take a break. Let me grab Reno." I waited, watching him go, burning up with anticipation. He came back a little while later with a red-headed man with blue eyes. If I hadn't known better, I would have thought they were brothers, they looked so similar.
Axel said something to him before turning to me with another smile. I hadn't seen him in about three weeks and I'd almost forgotten how attractive he was. His smile widened and he put his arm around my shoulders, guiding me to a private spot, away from the customers that were talking loudly.
"Thanks, for what you said to Kairi," I blurted out, suddenly way too nervous. Axel sat down and patted the spot beside him. Shuddering, I sat down next to him, fidgeting with the zipper to my sweater.
"It needed to be said," he replied, completely calm and relaxed. He watched me for a long moment and I stared into his beautiful green eyes, unable to look away. "What did you want to talk about?" he asked.
"That was pretty much it," I murmured back, feeling stupid. I really hadn't thought this through. His eyes seemed to sparkle.
"Oh I see. You came to my job and wanted to see me in private, just to thank me?" he asked. I swallowed, hesitating for a moment. My stomach flipped nervously.
"Well… I wanted to see you again," I admitted.
"Oh, I see," he murmured back, "well here I am." I nodded, feeling nervous. Suddenly, he lent closer and my breath was hitching, "Or did you have something else in mind?" he hummed.
"What else would I have in mind, Axel?" I asked quietly. My heart was racing. Axel shrugged his shoulders coyly with a furtive smile and it did weird things to my heart. Like make it skip beats and speed up at the same time.
"I don't know. You said I might be able to get you something if I had a minute," he teased. "Remember?" I swallowed. "Or did you forget?" Somehow the game he was playing was dangerous and exciting and I got caught up in it.
"What if I did forget?" I asked, playing along. Axel smirked and it made my heart hammer against my chest.
"I might be able to help you remember," he murmured back. My breath caught when his slightly parted lips pressed to mine, caressing them warmly. He didn't push. He waited patiently, those dreamy green eyes staring into mine, not advancing the kiss. It felt wonderful. After a long heartbeat, he pulled back slightly and I leant forward, automatically following but stopped myself. "Was it something like that?" he asked, smiling knowingly. My cheeks flushed scarlet and I thought they were going to burn right off of my face.
"M-maybe," I whispered back. Looking pleased, Axel murmured,
"Well, I'm off in about forty-five minutes. If you want to, we could go back to my place and I can refresh your memory." The heat in my face was going straight to my head and resettling in more inappropriate places. Axel was being so straightforward and unashamed, I was so turned on and my brain was so fried that I accepted. I mean, it must have been. There was no way that I had the guts to accept an offer like that in my right mind.
Axel's startling green eyes widened a fraction. He was just as surprised as me. Then they sparkled with approval and desire which worked me up even more. "I should get back now," he told me. I nodded. "I'll come find you when I'm done." I nodded again as I watched him walk away, not so sure that my voice was going to cooperate if I tried to use it. My mind was racing and my head was spinning at the possibilities of what he could have meant and what he probably did mean and it was the last thing that I had been expecting when I had come here tonight. Holy shit.
I still hadn't fully calmed down by the time he came back around two in the morning. It felt like it was happening so fast. Axel was wearing a sweatshirt with the bar's logo on it. He offered his hand and asked, "Ready?" and with a nod I took it, letting him help me up. We slipped out the back door and he opened his car door for me. I fumbled in the dark with my seatbelt, clicking it in place and anxiously watching him get in as well. When the dome light turned on he smiled and said, "Oh hey, you forgot this," plucking the rose from under his visor and handing it to me as he sat down. I took it, staring into his eyes for a long moment.
"T-thanks," I stammered back. He stared back until the dome light dimmed out before looking forward. God, what was wrong with me? I was okay with the idea of kissing him again. I mean I was really okay with that but I'd never felt this way about anyone. I didn't get worked up like this. Ever. I needed to relax. Axel started the car but didn't put it into gear yet. It was like he was looking for the right thing to say.
"I'm glad you came tonight. I haven't been able to get you out of my head," he said quietly. "I wasn't sure if I was going to see you again or not." I clutched the rose, my heart thumping wildly in my chest.
"Me too, Axel, I mean, I wanted to see you but I wasn't sure how I was going to see you again. Then Kairi said you were working tonight, so…" He glanced at me, smiling gently.
"Did you fix your phone?" he asked. I nodded, showing him. He took it from me, punching in his number, showing me the new contact information. "There, now I'm not so far away, right?" I smiled back.
"Yeah," I murmured back, "thanks for that." The light from my cellphone dimmed and Axel's gaze never wandered from my face. He was still holding onto it when he lent forward and kissed me, his warm lips caressing mine, and then again. My eyes slid shut and our mouths opened at the same time, our tongues tangling together connecting deeper and faster. I'd missed it, a lot. He set the device down on the dashboard and then grasped the back of my head, pulling me closer and steadying me. I kissed him back, completely lost in the moment until there was a knock on the window.
Reno was grinning at us and I died a little. Axel smirked back and rolled down the window. "Get a room, yo!" he teased with a wink.
"Creep!" Axel said with a laugh. I hid my face behind my hand, completely embarrassed, making Axel's boss laugh. I didn't even want to know what he thought about this.
"Don't worry Roxas, it's alright," he said with a grin. I blinked, startled, and turned my face toward him.
"Do I know you?" I asked, hoping that he didn't know about all the times I'd been looking for Axel at his shop. That would be so embarrassing. Reno shook his head.
"Now you do. It's nice to have a face with the name. Axel won't shut up about you," he said with a smirk that became wolfish as he pulled away, "have a good night Axel, and nice meeting you Roxas." Axel shook his head, watching him go.
"Sorry about that," he said, putting the car into gear. I shrugged smiling a bit, laughing aloud in amusement and relief as he rolled his window back up.
"He seems like a fun boss," I murmured finally, with a grin. Axel nodded.
"We're pretty good friends," he said, during the drive. I smiled, recognizing that we were getting close. It wasn't far to go by car at all.
"So you don't shut up about me, huh?" I asked. Somehow, it was really exciting.
Axel pulled into his driveway and parked before he answered me. "That's right," he told me. Our eyes met. He was smiling gently and my stomach was twisting itself into knots. "Does that scare you?" I shook my head and he grinned. "Still want to come inside?" he asked, "Please say yes." My heart stammered in my chest.
"Absolutely," I told him. Axel's smile widened. He shut off the engine and we both got out of the car, walking to the front door which only took him a moment to unlock. Axel tossed his keys into a bowl beside the door before shutting it behind us and flicking on the light. Then, he was kissing me again and stumbling a little, I looped my arm around him so I wouldn't fall. I kissed him back, melting into the kiss, and he grinned at me.
"Is that better? Do you remember now?" I smiled back, pretending to think deeply about it, and he kissed me, slowly, deeply. I was breathing a little heavily when he broke the kiss and hummed softly.
"I still seem to be missing a cheesy movie," I told him seriously. Axel chuckled and kissed me again.
"Hmm, how about tomorrow sometime," he suggested.
"Tomorrow?" I asked. Axel nodded.
"Yeah, wanna have a sleepover?" I laughed at him.
"Let me ask my mom first and then we can build forts and have pillow fights like good boys." Axel snorted at my sarcasm and I clutched at my heart, feigning hurt.
"Yeah, we'll have to behave ourselves like good children, now, or it just wouldn't be right," he said with a smirk. My heart pounded at the way he said it. "Right, Roxas?"
"You're so bad," I said, laughing aloud at the invitation in his voice. Axel's smirk widened and he took my hand, clasping our fingers together, tugging gently. I squeezed his hand back and followed him. As we went past the living room, to a new room, my breath caught. We were just outside his bedroom. My heart was pounding wildly as he turned to me with a grin and gently tugged me past the threshold and into a kiss. Then he was kissing me deeply, leading me until the backs of my legs bumped into something and I tripped on his bed. Axel guided me down and moved with me, never breaking the kiss, even as he climbed onto the bed with me. I stared into his eyes, my stomach twisting nervously when he broke away. He reached over and clicked on a lamp before looking down at me again.
"Yeah, but you're still here," he said softly, those green eyes swallowing me up.
With a defiant smirk, I shrugged and told him, "I can always go sleep on the couch and watch free cable in my own fort." There was nothing stopping me from getting away, it would have been really easy to get up and walk out. That is… until Axel's lips tugged upward and he lent close, making my breath catch.
"Okay," he agreed, and when I didn't resist, he closed the space between us. I kissed him back and it felt so good. He grasped the side of my face and kissed me more deeply, his tongue brushing against mine and I was breathless by the time that he pulled away. With a smirk, Axel pulled off his shirt and his sweatshirt, tossing them somewhere across the room. I swallowed, staring at his chest, at the muscles on his torso, catching glimpses of more tattoos, and felt my face redden. Axel's lips curved upward into a Cheshire grin and he let me appreciate his body for a moment or two longer. Then his fingers touched my chin, raising it, and his lips locked with mine while he set about unzipping my sweatshirt and tugging it off. Somewhere in between kisses I lost my shirt too. Axel straddled my hips, pushing me into the mattress. I was panting as I stared into his eyes and he lent down as his lips tugged upward.
Our chests pressed together and the skin to skin contact felt amazing. He kissed me deeply before moving down my neck, biting, licking, suckling where the base of my neck met my shoulder, making me groan and I held onto him tightly, my nails biting into his skin. My eyes fluttered shut when his hot mouth found one of my nipples, his fingers playing with the other, and I was moaning and gasping. It was all new to me and it felt so good, don't get me wrong, but I didn't know how far I could let this go… it couldn't be much more… I didn't know how to make him feel good if it came to that and the last thing I wanted to do was disappoint him. My hands buried themselves into his hair, and it was so soft. I pulled hard and he switched to the other. I was a gasping, moaning mess, and judging from the expression on his face, he loved it. I sucked in my breath sharply when confident fingers worked the button of my jeans, the fabric giving away.
He waited, working his way back up my neck, and when I didn't deny him, his hand touched me intimately, stroking tantalizingly slowly, kneading the heated flesh. I shuddered, arching into him. Any objections I had about going too far died when he kissed me deeply. His fingers wrapped around me, beginning to move up and down and I moaned into his mouth. I moved with him, jolts of pleasure shooting through me. I was shaking uncontrollably. He kissed me again and again as he stroked, teasing my lower lip between his teeth, not stopping until I was painfully hard.
Reluctantly, Axel forced himself slow down. He kissed my forehead gently and hesitated for a long moment, his hips pressing into mine when he pulled his hand away. He was just as hard as me. I opened my eyes, panting and staring right into emerald green. His arms were on either side of my head and he was propping himself up. Axel was unbelievably close and his eyes were sparkling from arousal, hot with lust, and it made my breath catch. I was just beginning to realize that he must have wanted me just as much as I'd wanted him when he spoke.
"I don't want to stop, but I don't want to make you uncomfortable," he told me gently. I froze, feeling my stomach do an icy flop, feeling like I'd failed. I'd let it go too far and now I was going to disappoint him. He must have seen both the panic and arousal in my eyes because he kissed me again, calming me as his tongue tangled with mine.
"But I… I don't even know how to do it, I…" I had never been so embarrassed and turned on at the same time in my life. Or so disappointed to turn someone down. His lips stole my words away as he kissed me gently.
"I know. That's why I'll show you," he murmured, our lips brushing, and I moaned. "All you have to do is say yes and I'll make you feel so good, I promise."
"…I don't want to disappoint you," I protested weakly. Axel smiled, looking entirely too attractive. His lips caressed mine and then moved along my jawline in gentle kisses.
"Even if you tell me to stop, you won't disappoint me," he said in my ear. My heart was pounding ridiculously fast.
"Are you sure..?" I asked. Axel nodded and my stomach was twisting nervously as I nodded back and told him yes. Axel kissed me deeply and thoroughly, rocking our hips together and pushing me further into the mattress. His hands were touching me everywhere with pleasurable caresses and when his lips traveled down my throat, I groaned, gasping when he went lower and lower with those burning kisses. I moaned as I became more and more aroused, the further he went, pausing at my naval.
He tugged off my shoes and then my pants and boxers. My socks went next and my face was flaming. I bit my lower lip as strong arms repositioned me, pulling me further onto the bed. I was completely naked and I didn't like feeling so exposed. It was terrible. Axel was sitting up, looking at me, his eyes fiery and filled with lust. Grinning sharply he grasped my legs, pulling them apart and into my chest when he bent down, which was worse.Or at least I thought it was until he began to explore the previously unavailable skin with his lips and tongue, tortuously slowly. I moaned my mind breaking a little when his tongue thrust inside of me, thrusting in and out, exploring thoroughly, leaving me trembling and moaning. My toes were curling because it felt so good. I was gasping for more, my entire body shuddering.
He grasped my erection in response, tracing the length up and down and then up with his tongue before taking it into his mouth. Then, he began to suck, moving his head up and down. It was the most amazing sensation I'd ever felt in my life and I was writhing in pleasure. My fingers were trembling and I moaned loudly, digging them into his hair and pulling hard but when I tried to move, he held me down, bobbing his head faster. I was shaking and moaning, gasping for more, ready to bend to his every whim. I felt so close to orgasming when he stopped that I groaned miserably. Smiling gently and breathing a little hard, Axel kissed the corner of my mouth and got undressed. My heart was pounding as I watched. Every part of him was perfect. He was gorgeous.
"Still okay?" he asked gently. I swallowed, nodding nervously. He smiled and I felt myself melting, even before he kissed me. "Good, because I want you now, and I can't wait anymore," he murmured against my lips, making me moan, "please say yes." I pulled his tempting mouth down into a kiss and he kissed me back, watching me with those beautiful green eyes.
"Yes, Axel," I groaned between kisses. Moaning softly, he returned the kiss. A sexy grin curved at his lips as he broke away and straddled my hips, raised on his knees. "Does it hurt?" I asked, worriedly. Axel's grin widened and then he held my erection in place and pushed down. I have to take back what I said before. This was the most amazing sensation I'd ever felt in my entire life. "O-oh my God, ah!" I gasped breathlessly, arching into him as he slowly opened around me, his yielding flesh taking me in. He angled his hips, rubbing a spot inside that had him moaning and shaking in pleasure as he gradually took me in. The noises he was making turned me on like crazy. His body was perfect, warm and tight… I was gasping and moaning and losing my mind.
"Only a little," he murmured back, panting as he went deeper. He was stroking himself looking sexy as hell and smiling at me blissfully. I wanted to move like crazy. He was so hot and a little slick and the pressure around me was so amazing as his body squeezed me with a velvety caress. It was so perfect... he was so perfect... that I knew that I wanted to do this again. Soon. I was still trembling and moaning when Axel clasped our hands together, his cheeks flushing as he took in more of me, moving up and down slowly, moaning in pleasure. Every shift, every movement, made me gasp from the ecstasy. I wanted more. Axel grinned sharply when he bent down and kissed me again. "I happen to be ready," he told me with a naughty grin, "because I've been hoping to see you again," he teased, "and I've wanted you like this since I met you," he admitted, his words going straight to my throbbing arousal.
"Holy shit, Axel," I moaned helplessly. Then he began to move his hips faster, crying out loudly in ecstasy. He was lifting himself up and then pushing back down hard, faster and faster. Awkwardly, I moved with him as much as I could and it felt amazing. I pulled him down into a kiss and he kissed back passionately. I liked it better like this, with his chest pressed against mine. It felt closer, more intimate. He gasped, moaning into my mouth when I began to thrust into him, becoming more confident as his moans encouraged me, and it was the sexiest thing I had ever heard in my life. I began to thrust harder and he threw away all of his restraint, moving against me wildly, making my entire body tremble. I didn't last long after that and as I got close, I felt the pleasure and the heat flood through me, pulsing powerfully. I cried out, coming hard, deep inside. He gasped in pleasure, his body clenching around me shortly after as he came all over my stomach, those beautiful emeralds glistening. He was drenched in sweat and his face was flushed and the unmistakable orgasmic pleasure made him look absolutely breathtaking.
His body was still trembling, even when it was over. Panting, he rolled onto his back, trying to catch his breath. We looked at one another and his lips tugged upward into a satisfied grin. I couldn't look away.
"Don't tell her this… but Kairi might have right," I told him tiredly. Axel laughed back amusedly. He opened his arm to me and I rolled closer, resting my head on his chest. It felt perfect. His heart was beating wildly and he smelled spicy and sweaty. It was driving me crazy. Axel's grin widened.
"Might have, huh? I'd be happy to help you figure out if you like it if you weren't satisfied," he teased, his fingers trailing along my skin. "Your secret's safe with me," he told me, winking.
"Yeah," I whispered back, feeling dazed.
"Yeah?" he teased back. I kissed him, pulling him closer and he grinned, kissing me back.
"I wouldn't mind learning more but I was, Axel," I panted. He blushed but smiled, pleased. "You were so amazing… I haven't ever been attracted to anyone like I am to you…" I admitted. Grinning, Axel kissed me deeply. "I can't believe that you wanted someone like me…"
Laughing in amusement the red-head shook his head, trailing his fingers through my hair. "Haven't you figured out how sexy I think you are yet?" he asked. My face reddened.
"What, you meant that?" I asked in disbelief. Nodding, Axel grinned.
"I still do, baby," he murmured back, his lips pressing to mine in a warm caress. I kissed him back. Axel grinned, kissing me more deeply. Then he smiled at me, looking satisfied.
"You know how horrible I looked for our date, right?" I asked, laughing.
"Well," he replied, smiling wryly, "I thought you might have done it on purpose at first. Kairi did warn me," he said, smirking, "but when you told me why, I felt really bad for you." He looked into my eyes for a long moment, his expression becoming serious. "Has she been better since I talked to her? No more setting you up on dates, right?" I nodded my head.
"Actually she's backed off. My friends weren't even giving me a hard time until tonight while we were hanging out. They said they were going to invite you over for game night and that we were going to end up like Sora and Riku, trying to push us together. More stuff I'm not ready for." Axel's expression became worried.
"You don't like the idea of being with me?" he asked carefully. I shook my head.
"It isn't like that, they're just pushing me so hard and I just wanted to go for a walk and get away but I decided to see you too," I explained. Smiling gently, he teased,
"And then you couldn't resist me, could you?" I swallowed, remembering, letting him kiss me. I didn't have to answer. He knew. Looking pleased he murmured, "Don't worry, I won't tell anyone." I looked into his eyes, feeling all sorts of emotions. Gratitude, anxiety, hope, and arousal felt really weird all mixed together.
"I just want them to leave me alone about it all," I told him. Axel propped himself up and lent over me.
"We're going to have to be careful if you don't want them catching on. Kairi knows that you're my type. That's why she was happy to set you up with me, no questions asked."
"I'm what?" I asked breathlessly. Axel's lips found mine.
"You're a sarcastic smartass, stubborn, little blond with blue eyes and every bit of it turns me on like crazy. I think you're adorable and sexy," he told me. "When she told me about how you'd responded to the dates you'd been on, I already knew that I was going to like you. I asked her to set us up so that I could meet you and so that you could get a break from it. Kairi, of course, was delighted at the possibility of us getting together," he said with a grin. I looked up at him, unsure of what to say. "That's how I knew it was you, when you backed into Aerith," he said amusedly, "but I meant what I said when I asked you to go on the date with me. I would have been satisfied, just being your friend." I stared into his eyes, completely captivated.
"Thanks again, for sticking up for me and not telling her what we did," I told him. With a grin, Axel nodded.
"Well, of course," he replied, "friends or not, they're overstepping their boundaries."
"Yeah they are," I agreed. Axel smiled at me, his fingers trailing along my skin.
"You're always welcome to come over if they're being like that." I smiled back gratefully and his thumb rubbed distracting circles on my hip bone, "and even if they aren't," he breathed. My breath caught and he pulled me closer, our limbs tangling together. I liked it a lot.
"For more pillow fights and blanket forts?" I asked sarcastically. Smirking, Axel added with a wink,
"Oh yes, Roxas, we'll be on our best behavior." Laughing, I kissed him.
"Sounds great."
With a satisfied smile, he covered us both with a soft blanket and switched off the light. I watched him as his eyes slid shut, in the faint light that was spilling in from the hallway while he held me. He was so warm and it felt so nice in his arms. His heart was thumping quickly against his chest, only slowing as his breathing evened, and his body relaxed. He was drifting off to sleep, but hadn't, not yet.
I looked up into his handsome face. It was like an artist had sculpted it, he was so gorgeous. I wanted to know more about him. It was occurring to me now that I had basically just slept with a stranger but somehow it didn't freak me out. I waited for it, but it never came. Huh. I barely knew him but somehow it didn't feel that way. It felt like we were old friends, coming together after years apart but nothing had changed. I wondered if he felt the same way.
"Axel?" The red-head hummed softly and I realized how tired he was. I could always wait to ask. When I didn't speak, he looked at me. I closed the space between us, kissing him. "Goodnight," I murmured. Smiling, Axel kissed me back slowly, his fingers trailing through my hair.
"Goodnight, Roxas," he murmured back, pulling me close and resting his chin on top of my head and soon both of us had drifted off to sleep.
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