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A/N: Hey there everyone, I finally have a non broken computer, so here I am. I was noticing this story was getting some love, so I updated this first.
Thanks for the support!
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What had I gotten myself into? Hell. That's what.
Waiting to see him again was torture. My friends, I could normally handle. I could always hide away if needed and use my beloved tree to sneak out for the essentials, like eating and going to class. What made the waiting particularly horrible was that my body had turned into a mutinous traitor in addition to their antics. I couldn't stop thinking about Axel. Or having sex with Axel. Literally. It was like he broke my brain or something. The worst part, aside from flashes of arousal, was waking up and being painfully aroused. Every morning. I hadn't texted him yet, and I was secretly thankful. Otherwise I'd probably be blushing like a schoolgirl every time my phone went off. I couldn't control myself and it sucked.
On one such morning my door rattled, the lock clicking as my brother picked it. I sighed in exasperation at my brother's whine when my new chain locks stopped him from invading my privacy. Yeah. That's right. Plural. As in five. I added an extra one for good measure. "Rooooxasss!"
"Yea Sora?" I asked with faux enthusiasm, watching with vindictive delight as he struggled vainly with my door. It was a beautiful sight.
"Why don't you looove me anymore?" I snorted, rolling my eyes.
"Drama queen."
"Oh yeah? Well you've been locked in your room for like three days. And there are extra locks on the door Roxas. Extra locks," he complained sounding absolutely offended. I shrugged about to retort about enjoying my privacy when he continued. "Did I make you that mad last weekend?" I blinked.
Wait. "What...?" Sora sighed.
"I know I was upset about you sneaking out… and I was teasing you about Axel too. I'm sorry, okay?" I stared at the door, my jaw a little slack. Well this was a new development. "Please come out. I thought maybe we could hang out today or something… Its just you and me. We can go get some coffee. My treat. Waddya think?" I sighed, staring down at my hard on and wincing.
"I guess..." I muttered noncommittally. "Give me a minute."
"Awe yea! Awesome! See you soon!" Sora chirruped. I could almost mentally see him doing a fist pump and rolled my eyes, smiling a bit.
When I was sure my door had clicked shut, I contemplated my current situation. I'd been taking cold showers and then hiding in my room while I tried to sort out my feelings, but that wasn't going to happen with Sora hovering nearby. No way. He wasn't going to give me the chance to shower or to sneak away. And I did not want him to see me like this.
I bit my lower lip, closing my eyes. I could practically see Axel, taste his sea-salt kisses and smell his musky scent as soon as I did. I groaned miserably and ran a hand through my hair, tugging. My mind kept going back to our last kiss and to that meaningful smile that put at least a dozen erotic images in my head. I took a deep breath, biting my lower lip. My hands trailed down my abdomen, itching to go lower, while I imagined larger, warmer ones in their place. My fingers were twitching. Axel was a vivid picture in my mind and it made my pulse spike. He was so gorgeous, so perfect. I really hated to admit it, but I couldn't wait to see him again. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I felt my face flush, my nipples hardening. I could already imagine his naked body on top of mine and sinking into those velvety depths, while he he moaned in ecstasy. I bit my lower lip to suppress another groan, my eyelids fluttering, my hands rubbing my clothed erection. I moaned softly at the rush of pleasure I felt, rocking my hips into my hands, imagining Axel on top of me, grinning down at me and leaning closely, teasingly, to take my mouth in a sensual kiss. I licked my lips, rolling my hips forward again, while shuddering uncontrollably.
Freaking Xion jumped on me, sinking her claws into my hands. My eyes snapped open and I screamed, flailing and falling to a heap on the floor while somehow managing to simultaneously fling her across the bed spasmodically. I laid there, trying to recover from the shock of it, muttering darkly to myself. "Ow. Devil cat…" I mumbled into the floor. My hands were burning from cat scratches. I lifted my head, my eyes scanning the room quickly and finding hers. We glared at one another for an objective eternity, her fur sticking up along her spine. Then, Xion stuck her nose up in the air and stalked off. I groaned, pressing my cheek against the carpet and laying on the floor for a full minute, my mood dissipating, now that I knew she was in here. It was actually more helpful than I wanted to admit.
When I finally drug myself up from the floor, I made myself mostly presentable. Minimal effort was fine. It was just going to be me and Sora. Whatever. I wasn't exactly in the best mood for this, but I knew that Sora wasn't going to take 'no' for an answer. Sighing, I grabbed my keys and phone, heading for my door and unbolting the locks. Sora jumped up, beaming in excitement from where he'd been waiting by the door. Xion bolted past me, and my brother brightened. "There's my baby!" he giggled, "I wondered what happened in there," he tittered. Unamused, I rolled my eyes and slammed my door shut, then walked past him. "Hey, wait up Roxas!" I stuffed my hands in my pockets, grudgingly obliging him.
We walked to a nearby restaurant in relative silence, thankfully in the opposite direction of Axel's workplace. I would have really been a complete clusterfuck if we went there. Plus, Sora didn't need to know where he worked. Ever. We ordered our coffees and found our seats. "So. What's up?" I asked moodily. On top of everything else, I was very sexually frustrated. "You haven't wanted to hang out in a while." Arching his eyebrow, Sora grinned and asked,
"I have to have a reason?" I thought about it for about half a second.
"Hmm yeah. We don't really do this just because, anymore." He pouted and I looked away. It was too hard not to give in when Sora pouted. I wasn't going to do that when I didn't know what he wanted.
"I'm sorry that we aren't close anymore," Sora murmured, sighing sadly. I stared at him, completely bewildered. I mean yeah we didn't hang out like we used to now that he had Riku, but I wouldn't go as far as saying we weren't close. He nervously tugged at his sleeve, his lower lip quivering as his pout deepened. "It's true. Ever since me and Riku got together, I haven't had as much time for you, and you've been so moody. We just want you to be happy. All you do is mope around the house." I stared at the table resentfully. There it was. The reason. Sora didn't want to hang out. He was pulling an intervention on behalf of everyone, and we were having 'the talk'. "All of us do. I feel like I can't ever make you happy if I'm with Riku because of y'kno. What happened." He sighed, propping his chin in has hand and staring at me.
I closed my eyes and massaged my temples, feeling a migraine coming on. My answers came out short and clipped. "Sora. That's not true. I do not love your boyfriend. Never did. Why can't you accept that?"
"Yeah well, you're always so grumpy and, well mean now that we're together-" he began, as if prepared to rattle off a long list of already thought out answers. He was cut off by my irritated, impatient sigh and I looked at him tiredly.
"I hate PDA. That's all. Its gross." He stared up at the ceiling contemplatively.
"You're always so uptight though," he murmured as if contemplating whether or not to believe me. "I think you'd be a waaay happier person if you followed our advice and got laid ya'know?" It took me a moment to process what he said. When I did, my face completely blanked, my jaw working uselessly, but he was too busy looking up at the ceiling, with his chin in his hand to notice. "Preferably on a regular basis. Unless you're asexual or something." He hummed thoughtfully. "That would actually make a lot of sense with your aversion to relationships," he added a bit vacantly. My face went red and I could feel my ears burning as the heat creeped down my neck. Axel's sexy, aroused face chose to flash across my mind right at that moment. Yeah. I was definitely not asexual. I didn't know what I was, but it definitely centered around wanting Axel. I took a drink of my coffee, hoping it would calm me down. I was mortified that I was getting aroused right now. "Maybe you should find someone you could fool around with. Like Axel." I squirmed a little and tried to ignore him, wondering how he could sound so innocent and not know what he was doing to me. Sora could be so stupid like that sometimes. "He seems nice. Plus he's related to Kairi, so if you ever got married, you'd practically be related and so would I," he murmured more to himself, brightening like he'd just realized this. Ignore him Roxas, just ignore him… "Oh my God, that would be perfect! You should totally try him out before dismissing sex altogether, you know? How are you gonna know if you never try?" I choked, going into a coughing fit. He stared at me in alarm while I aspirated on my coffee and tried not to die. "Um you okay Roxy?"
"Fine, just swallowed wrong." I wheezed, my face absolutely overheating. You should totally try him out. The actual fuck Sora?! What is he? A car? Sora gave me a funny look, humming as I tried my hardest to pretend to be indifferent. He was looking at me thoughtfully.
"Or..." I swallowed, not liking where this was going, "have you tried it?" He was looking me over with wide eyes, "Is that it? You hated it and discovered that you're asexual?" he asked, looking devastated. He processed this for a full minute and gasped, "Did I make you feel awkward?!" I cleared my throat and swallowed carefully.
"I am not having this conversation right now." I declared. My brother pouted. Then, he squinted at me and brightened.
"Wait. Are you…?" He gasped, looking absolutely delighted. "You're blushing! Roxas… Do you like him?"
"Not. Having. It," I reiterated. Sora pouted again.
"Awe c'mon! You have to have it sometime, Roxas," he complained.
"Today is not that day," I reaffirmed. Sighing, I added, "Just leave me the hell alone. Please. This is exhausting and embarrassing, I grumbled, hiding my head in my hands.
"I don't want you to be alone, Roxas… I worry about you," he pleaded. "Let us help you." Frowning, I shook my head.
"I'll pass," I mumbled. I've already had at least one stalker because of your "helping". Then I sighed, trying not to look at him, because I needed to say this. "If I'm alone, its because I'm happy being alone. When I'm ready for a relationship, I'll get in one. I don't need your help, Sora. I need to figure it out on my own, what kind of person I'd like to be with." I chanced looking at him and winced. He looked like a kicked puppy. Oh boy. I took a long drink of my coffee. To be honest, the only thing turning me off of relationships is being pushed to be in one. Sora's pout only deepened as I searched for the right thing to say. "I get that you have good intentions, but if anything, you're making me unhappier with your 'find Roxas a boyfriend' shenanigans." Sora shook his head, arguing his point.
"No, you just think you're unhappy when we try to help you. You wouldn't be saying that if you knew how great it is to share your heart with someone!" I closed my eyes, sighing heavily. He didn't get it. Of course not. Why would he? That would be too easy.
"We're gonna have to agree to disagree, Sora," I muttered.
"But Roxas-" I raised my hand in a gesture for silence and rose from the table. "Wait, where are you going?!"
"I can't do this right now. I'm sorry," I murmured, leaving my unfinished coffee and my brother behind.
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I tapped my phone against my lips restlessly, for what felt like the millionth time. I was walking, trying to clear my head, but my thoughts wouldn't stop. They were stuck on Axel. My heart was beating painfully fast. What was wrong with me? I didn't need to see Axel. I could hold out until Friday. Or longer. I just didn't want to be around anyone else, that's all. At least that's what I kept telling myself. Damn it I hated feeling so codependent. I was a loner. I'd never needed anyone like this before, and I liked it that way. But it wasn't like I had any other friends here, aside from my current living situation and Hayner hadn't answered. I sighed. Friends… Could I really just call him my friend anymore?
Sunset was approaching and I sighed in resignation. I really didn't want to go home but... the last thing I wanted was to scare anyone by being out after dark. My brother had completely freaked out last weekend. That left Axel's place. I stared at the screen, swallowing nervously as I gathered enough courage to press the call button. Its only a place to stay and he said it was okay. Only a place to stay…. Only a place to… "Hello?" Axel's silky voice drifted into my ear and my already erratic heart-rate doubled. My brain clicked off, then on again, enough for my mouth to word-vomit something like: uhmuhhiAxelcanIseeyoutonight and my eyes went wide in horror. Smooth Roxas. Real smooth.
"That is… uh If you're not busy..." I added awkwardly. My brain stopped working all over again when there was a chuckle on the other line. I almost didn't hear his answer over the sound of my own blood rushing.
"I was wondering when you would call," he purred into my ear, and it left me shuddering. I could practically see him leaning teasingly close. I took a deep breath and swallowed hard, but it did nothing to settle down the butterflies in my stomach. "Why do you want to see me? Do you miss me, Roxas?" he teased. I bit my lower lip to stifle a groan and didn't answer. The moments ticked by, neither of us saying anything and it was suffocating. His tone sounded concerned when he spoke again. "...Roxas? You okay? Are you there?"
"Yeah…" I murmured quietly.
"What was that?" I swallowed. Roxas… Do you like him?
"Yeah… I do..." Axel was startled into silence for a full minute and my eyes widened. I did not just say that out loud.
"Okay. Where should I meet you?" His tone was soft and serious, completely losing its teasing edge. My jaw worked uselessly for a moment.
"Well… I'm pretty close to HBU..." I answered tentatively.
"Walking?" He asked.
"Yeah I… I needed to get away." He hummed thoughtfully and I shuddered. What was wrong with me?
"Need to spend the night?" My heart skipped a beat.
"Possibly..." Axel chuckled.
"Okay. Just let me know."
"Thanks," I answered, relieved.
"Is it okay if I get there in about an hour? I'm finishing up some work for the restoration committee." My face reddened and I felt completely inconsiderate for not even thinking about whether he had plans or not when I called.
"Yeah that's fine. Meet me by the fountains. Thanks, Axel."
"Of course, Roxas."
I clutched my phone and stared at the water, lost in thought for the longest time. I was really going to see him again. My body was humming in arousal. That was it then. I liked him. I hardly knew him and I liked him. I wanted him like I hadn't ever wanted anyone else. I took a deep breath, trying to come to terms with my feelings. There was no way around it. I really… really liked him. Why else would I be feeling this way, thinking about being all giddy and cute with someone? I ran a hand through my hair, tugging. Oh God, I was turning into Sora. I hid my face in my hands, muttering "...Oh no no no no no..." only looking up from my brooding when I heard my name. My breath caught when I saw Axel walking towards me. He was wearing a dark jacket, with an orange shirt underneath and a yellow plaid scarf, jeans and his black converse. And he was so gorgeous that my mind completely blanked.
"Roxas," he smiled, looking relieved to see me, "thanks for waiting." I shivered feverishly. This was bad. I couldn't even look at him without reacting.
"Uh yeah, of course," I murmured. His brows furrowed and his pace quickened. Suddenly he was right there next to me. I swallowed hard, lost in green eyes.
"Woah, you're trembling, what happened? Who upset you? Are you okay?" he murmured gently, placing a hand on my shoulder, his brows furrowing in concern. Get it together, Roxas I kept telling myself but my mind wasn't listening. It wasn't even trying to work. All I could think about was Axel. How warm his hand was on my shoulder. How good he smelled, now that he was standing next to me. How his green eyes were warmer than normal, reflecting hues of gold from the setting sun. How the rays were illuminating his hair, highlighting its variations of red. I swallowed, my heart rate doubling. Why did just looking at him make it so much harder to breathe?
"Nothing. I'm sorry I… uhm," I muttered, looking down at my feet, and that was it. I literally had no words. He was short circuiting my brain. I said get it together, Roxas! Axel hummed thoughtfully, his forefinger hooking under my chin and raising it, while the other hand squeezed my shoulder. Our eyes met, my face reddening.
"Cold?" he asked. I nodded quickly, grateful for the excuse, and he smiled at me endearingly. Then, he was taking off his jacket and placing it around my shoulders. I turned away, facing the setting sun. I couldn't keep looking at him if I wanted to keep myself together. I swallowed hard when his arms wrapped around me from behind. He rested his chin on my shoulder. "Is that better?" I nodded stiffly, but otherwise didn't move, afraid I'd start shaking again. I was surrounded by his warmth and his musky scent. I closed my eyes, my heart in my throat. "Sorry for keeping you waiting," he murmured right next to my ear. "Do you want to get a coffee, to help warm you up?" I shook my head, trying not to be too jerky and failing miserably. He laughed warmly. His lips were brushing against my ear. I felt like I was going to melt into a puddle of goo. "No? To coffee? I never thought I'd see the day..."
"Mmn… Stop that," I protested, attempting to sound normal, but it came out as a breathy groan. My eyes opened wide and I looked up at him.
Axel blinked at me. Then green eyes took on a burning quality. Maybe this had been a bad idea. "Are you…?" He swallowed, realization lighting his eyes. He may have been ignoring my weird behavior before, but he wasn't now. "You're not cold, are you Roxas?" he asked me, his voice becoming completely husky. I shuddered at the way he said my name. I didn't have to answer. He knew. It was as if the air between us had become charged with sexual tension. He stared into my eyes and I was trapped. He was waiting for me to respond. When I didn't answer him, he murmured, "Do I have to be good?" My breath hitched, then quickened, matching my heart rate. Just seeing how turned on he was was making me hard. I could feel my hardened nipples rubbing against my shirt and my lips were tingling with sensation, ready to taste Axel's. I caught myself, slowly shaking my head.
"I can't stop wanting you," I answered, and it almost sounded like a plea for help. He smiled at me patiently.
"Mhm I can see that." He was purring and so, so close. His voice was so sexy that I was shuddering. He slid his left hand up until it was resting against my chest, feeling my erratic heartbeat. Then, his finger was circling and stroking a sensitive nipple. I moaned helplessly, the heat going straight to my cock. My hands found his fiery hair, my fingers burying into the soft strands and pulling hard as I yanked him toward me, our lips almost brushing. His breath was warming my lips.
"Stop teasing me and do something about it," I growled, surprising myself a little. But I was so tired of being sexually frustrated. He grinned at me, that Cheshire grin of his, and his eyes sparkled. His brows rose.
"Here?" he asked archly. I blinked, realizing what I was doing and hastily let him go. His lips softened to that endearing smile from before, and he looked entirely too handsome. Gently, he trailed his fingers up along my face, angling it and pressing his lips to mine for one… two… three… agonizing moments, and I could feel myself finally relaxing. But what he said next had my heart in a frenzy all over again. "Come with me, and I will."
He pulled away from me and I shivered at the loss of body heat. He looked back, his lips curving up into a smile and I followed, unable to help myself. My body was screaming at me over the loss of contact and my lips were tingling, dissatisfied that they weren't caressing Axel's anymore. "It's normal, y'kno," he told me, both breaking the silence and ceasing my racing thoughts. I tilted my head, humming questioningly. "To want more, if you liked it," he answered. My face flamed.
"I didn't just like it," I told him, completely embarrassed. Green eyes met mine. I ducked my head, bashfully.
"I don't understand," he answered. I swallowed.
"I like you, too." When I looked at him again, Axel was smiling warmly, his pale cheeks flushed. My heart spasmed against my chest. He wrapped his arm around me, holding me close while we walked.
"Good," he said finally. "So… do you wanna talk yet?" he ventured.
"Hmm?" I murmured back. He glanced at me sidelong.
"Well," he began, "I do think you missed me but… it's more than that, isn't it?" I exhaled heavily.
"You sure you wanna know?" I asked.
"Yep!" He answered. "So spill." Snorting a bit, I smiled, noticing that we were approaching his car.
"What if I don't want to?" I asked.
"Then you don't, but..." I glanced up at him. He was watching me seriously. "I'm here for you when you're ready." I processed this all the way up until we got to his car, I was sitting in it, and my seat belt was buckled. My eyes met his when he started the ignition.
I took a deep breath, sighing again. "To tell you the truth, this week has been awful… and its only Wednesday. I got "the talk" today about how great relationships are, my friends are worried about me, blah blah blah, and now my brother thinks I think I'm asexual or some shit. So he was trying to convince me to try you out before writing off relationships, and it was the worst conversation I've ever had to sit through because I do want you," I told him seriously. He reddened a bit but I couldn't look away. Why was he so gorgeous? Especially when he blushed. Focus Roxas. "I want you so much that it's all I can think about and I keep telling myself that I'm not like that. That I don't need to see you, that I like to be by myself. But it's a lie." I ran a hand through my hair and closed my eyes. Ugh that sounds so shallow. "Sorry Axel I… I don't want you to feel like I'm only using you for sex or some shit I..."
"Roxas..." his tone was gentle and warm. After another moment I dared to look at him. He was smiling endearingly. Looking handsome again. Sending my blood rushing to all the wrong places. "I would never think that." I let out the breath I hadn't realized I was holding, feeling my heart fluttering in my chest.
"Really?" Axel's smile widened, and he nodded his head.
"You feel better now? Ready to go?" No, not yet… because I need to tell you that it's more than that. I really like you, too… I can't get you out of my head, I...I've never felt this way before... it was on the tip of my tongue but I couldn't get myself to say it. So I nodded instead. I found myself staring out the window to avoid watching him longingly most of the time he was driving, my heart urging my mouth to speak but I was just too nervous. I'd never said that to anyone before. Then, we were there. My heart was hammering in my chest and I hoped Axel couldn't tell. "Ready Roxas?" Axel asked gently. I nodded, fiddling with my phone nervously.
"Yeah, just gotta text my brother," I told him shakily. I let Sora know I was staying at a friend's, refusing to disclose more. Axel must have noticed my demeanor changing as we argued because he gently tugged the phone out of my hands. I looked up, lost in a sea of green. I could feel Axel's breath fanning against my lips because he was so close, and swallowed hard.
"No need to get upset, right?" he asked, his lips curving upward. I nodded slowly.
"Right," I murmured. My pulse was racing. I was becoming aroused as I stared at him, and I could feel my face steadily reddening. We were here and had already practically agreed on what was going to happen. It was hitting me hard. My breath caught when fingers trailed across my face, his expressive green eyes soft and warm.
"Let's go inside, 'kay?" he murmured.
"Wait." He paused, surprised, then nodded slowly. "Axel I..." He hummed, encouraging me to continue, and I swallowed hard. Now or never, Roxas. "I really do like you." Axel smiled a bit.
"Yeah, you mentioned that," he purred. I shook my head.
"No I mean… I really like you." Smile widening, his fingers touched my chin, raising it.
"Good," he purred, his voice taking on a husky note, "I'm pretty obsessed with you too, ya'kno? Got it memorized?" he breathed, closing the gap between us. I shuddered, my eyes sliding shut. It felt so good to have is lips pressed to mine again. He deepened the kiss, leaving me completely breathless. His other hand cupped my straining arousal and I jolted into the touch, moaning into his mouth at the shock of pleasure. Our eyes met and his were burning. His tongue met mine and his hand stroked me sensually at the exact same time. I moaned into his mouth, kissing him back and getting lost as it went on and on. His tongue pressed against mine, rubbing and stroking, just like his hand, making my body heat up dangerously. When he broke the kiss, I was panting, lost in his eyes. His lips quirked upward mischievously. "Now, let me take care of you," he commanded softly. I was shivering feverishly as his large, warm hand continued to caress, the other unfastening my seat belt while he kissed me again. When he drew back, it took me a few moments to get my thoughts together. Axel exited the car, walking towards the house. He glanced back, a Cheshire grin on his lips, and I automatically followed.
We had barely gotten into the house when I found my back flush against the front door. His lips were on mine, and I kissed him back feverishly. I grasped his strong shoulders just to have something to hold onto, moaning into his mouth. He gripped my legs in response, hoisting me up. I gasped in surprise, breaking our kiss, and he slammed his hips into mine hard. I arched back, our chests rubbing together, and cried out loudly. Lips found my neck, teeth nipping gently as he worked his way up the delicate skin while he continued to rock against me, drawing out cries of pleasure while I tried to bite my lip. It would have been completely embarrassing if it didn't feel so good. He paused when he got to my ear. "Don't hold back," he breathed, his hands grasping my ass and squeezing sensually. The motion forced me to rub against him at a different angle, and I moaned helplessly at the friction. "Mmm perfect," he murmured approvingly. Teeth nipped my earlobe, and his tongue traveled along the outer shell. I was still processing the sensation, lost in a haze of pleasure, when he pulled away from the door, carrying me to another room. Before I could look to see where we were going, he was kissing me and I was lost all over again. It was only when I was lowered onto something soft, that I realized that I was on his bed.
Smiling, Axel tugged on the yellow scarf and it fell away easily. I stared at the newly exposed expanses of pale skin longingly. Then he was shrugging off his sweatshirt and grasping the hem of his shirt, pulling it up and over his head, tugging it off. I swallowed. He was just as sexy as I remembered. What was making me nervous was that he was here, and not just a fantasy. His hips swayed as he approached, his arousal straining his jeans. His nimble fingers teased the button, and I stared, transfixed, watching him.
"I told you not to tease me anymore," I growled, finding my voice. Chuckling, Axel came to the bed, bridging over me.
"You're eager for this, huh?" he whispered back archly. I blushed. Smiling wryly, he added, "That's a good thing, sweetheart." His hips straddled mine and he pressed them together. I whimpered in pleasure. "I won't make you wait anymore," he promised, his lips finding mine. Strong confident hands were undressing me. Trembling, I pressed my hands to his toned chest, feeling the muscles and savoring the sensation. Axel only pulled away again to finish undressing, but even then, I found myself unable to stop kissing or touching him. Axel was chuckling between kisses and fumbling for the lubricant. When we were both naked, he smiled at me endearingly, covering my arousal with the slick fluid. His fingers played with me tantalizingly, his thumb rubbing over the head in a slow circle. My fingers tangled in his hair and I yanked him toward me. He moaned, and I took his mouth with mine, feeling a rush of arousal. He kissed me back eagerly, raised himself on his knees and pressed down until I could feel his quivering flesh pressing against my arousal. I pulled my mouth from his.
"My turn," I murmured, pulling the red strands that were twined in my fingers, hard. Back arching, he moaned. My other hand grasped his hip and I pushed forward, leaving him gasping while I moaned at the feeling finally of sinking into him. Hazy green eyes locked on mine. Axel's face flushed and I shuddered as he fully seated himself, rolling hips in a slow circle. He lent close, rubbing our chests together, looking entirely too enticing.
"You're getting more daring," he purred. His lips curved up into a seductive grin. His eyelids fluttered and he shuddered as he rubbed that spot that made him feel good, rocking his hips slowly.
"So? What if I am?" I asked. His brows rose and his lips quirked upward but before he could say anything, I rolled my hips back and thrust forward hard. Green eyes widened in surprise before hazing over from arousal, and Axel moaned, arching his back. I liked it a lot. So much, that I didn't give him the chance to recover, and did it again and again, watching as he started to fall apart. Then, very intentionally, he squeezed around me. It was so intense that my toes curled. I involuntarily paused, moaning languidly. It was enough for him to catch his breath. His eyes found mine, and they were fiery and intense. I swallowed hard.
"Heh. That's fine. Do whatever you like," he told me with a sharp grin, and my mind blanked when he tightened around me again, rocking up and down over and over. "Just try to keep up." His voice was rough and deep, full of arousal, and I couldn't quite catch my breath. Then his mouth was on mine and his tongue was parting my lips to tangle with mine. His hands framed my face and he tilted my head back, delving in deeper, his tight body pushing me to the edge, making me arch up, before relaxing again. I grasped his shoulders, just to have something to hold onto, my eyes sliding shut. I had forgotten how good he was at kissing… and the kissing was enough to make me lose my mind. Everything else was testing the edge of my sanity. Then he started moving again, wild and unrestrained. When I pulled myself together enough to move with him, and his movements became more intentional again. His hips bore down, meeting my thrusts and I moaned, letting my hands slide down his lithe body while we moved. My fingers trailed past his clavicles, tracing along his nipples, stroking them. Axel moaned again and again as I teased them, breaking the kiss. Our eyes met, and we were both breathing harshly. Then, I reached down, taking hold of his arousal with my left hand, continuing to trail his body with the other. Axel's breath caught, just before I began to move my hand in time to my thrusting. His eyes slid shut, his brows furrowed, and he tossed his head from side to side, moaning in pleasure. I bucked my hips hard, attempting to flip our positions. On the second try, I held him close and flipped Axel onto his back, our bodies separating in the process. We were still close, chest to chest, my face dangerously close to his as I answered him cheekily.
"Don't worry, I will." Then I took his mouth in a heady kiss, instinctively letting my hand wander down his ribcage, my fingers playing with the lower ribs. I propped myself up on my forearm and cupped his face with the other. Axel tilted his head, keening into my touches and letting me deepen the kiss. It went on and on, gradually slowing down, and I realized that he was putting more feeling into it, more passion. It was leaving me breathless, and my heart was thundering in my chest. It was completely new and my body was humming in arousal. I broke away, just to breathe. He wrapped his legs around me, drawing my gaze back to burning green. His eyes lidded.
"More, Roxas," he moaned, making me shudder. Transfixed, I pushed into him slowly. Axel's lips curved upward, his pale cheeks flushing warmly. "Mmm yes, I like this," he murmured, finding a rhythm with me.
"You like it slower?" I asked, confusedly. He shook his head.
"I like you leading," he answered. I took hold of his arousal again and he gasped, moaning in pleasure. I groaned, making him laugh. "What?"
"You're so gorgeous right now, I can't stand it," I answered honestly. Axel blinked at me, his face darkening. It was both adorable and sexy. I quickened the pace without warning, moving my hand and jerking my hips forward relentlessly and he gasped, arching back breathlessly. Then he cried out, voice raising and tears gathering in his eyes, making them glisten, as he voiced his approval. His body began to spasm around me, and he didn't have to ask for more. I gave it, thrusting harder, then grasping his legs, putting them over my shoulders and going as deep as possible. Axel was sobbing and moaning incoherent versions of my name when he spilled all over our stomachs. I moaned, feeling his body loosening and tightening around me in time to the pulsing of his orgasm, and slowed my thrusting, savoring the feeling and watching Axel's beautiful face contort into pure pleasure, tears slipping out of his eyes. When it was over, he smiled at me blissfully, and was practically glowing. Axel wrapped his legs around my waist, rolling his hips with mine. Then he propped himself up on his elbows, locking his lips with mine in an intense kiss. It was enough to push me over the edge. With a moan, my eyes slid shut and I came. He groaned in pleasure, his lips caressing mine again and again, long after it was over. Breathing hard, and finding myself in his arms I murmured, "Do you even know what you're doing to me?" Laughing breathlessly he shook his head.
"Do you know what you're doing to me?" He asked, staring at me longingly. "I might not be able to let you go," he breathed against my swollen lips. When did that happen? Then he claimed them, kissing me deeply and rolling so he was on top of me. I moaned. "I might just have to keep you here forever," he breathed, "cos otherwise I might blow our cover." I laughed.
"Sora already caught me blushing today, during our talk," I admitted, "so I'm not doing so well either." Axel blinked then grinned.
"What did he say that got to you?" He asked. Groaning, I covered my eyes with my hand.
"Let's see… I'm uptight, so I should get laid because it would make me a happier person. Preferably frequently. By you. Which apparently would be perfect because then we could get married and he and I would both be officially related to Kairi," I muttered, which had Axel laughing. "And then at that point he saw me blushing. So he asked if I had tried you out. That's when he assumed I didn't like sex and I'm asexual. In a public place," I answered, completely mortified. Still chuckling, he lowered my hand, his eyes sparkling in amusement.
"Well, was he right?" he asked mischievously. I processed that for a full minute and then blushed darkly.
"Oh fuck you, Axel!" Chuckling, he rolled his shoulders, smirking.
"You already did, Roxas," he answered, purring my name. Then, he sat back looking me over thoughtfully and humming while I gaped at him wordlessly. He smiled that sexual smile that had left me frustrated all week. I swallowed hard. Oh no, calm down Roxas. Calm down, calm... "Actually you're right," he conceded. "It wasn't fair of me to ask that."
"What do you mean?" I asked, absolutely leery.
"Well, to fairly ask that, I would have to have you, wouldn't I? Preferably frequently." His tone was entirely innocent, but that wicked smile was still on his face, and I was erect, just like that. Then he winked at me and sat back, his expression mercifully fading to something more neutral. That is, until he saw just how aroused I was. Because I didn't have enough time to clam back down. Then it was right back, and even more lascivious, if possible, and I was shivering in arousal. His eyelids lowered, and his eyes locked with mine, sparkling with desire. "Mmm, I see. You'd like that, huh?" I wanted to disappear. Forever. I covered my face with my arm and could feel the heat radiating from my cheeks. Axel was still a vivid picture in my mind. Dammit.
"I don't know."
"Well..." he hummed thoughtfully, "We could try a few things, to help you decide first. You did like my tongue so..." my face reddened further. He hummed again. "It won't hurt, I promise." Slowly I lowered my arm, and groaned.
"Why do you have that look on your face? You did that at my place too," I complained. He chuckled.
"Oh? You mean the one that's turning you on?" He asked innocently. Taking a deep breath, I nodded slowly. "Because you're adorable, and I'm burning up at the idea of being inside of you," he answered, gesturing at his now matching desire and sounding absolutely contrite, all while his expression never changed. I swallowed hard, my heart thundering.
"It… won't hurt?" Axel shook his head.
"I'll take care of you. Trust me." I fidgeted nervously.
"You mentioned… other things?" I ventured. Nodding, he answered casually,
"Fingers, toys… lots of lube… I bought a set of starter plugs. You know. Just in case," he told me, winking. I blushed. "All you have to do is experience the sensation, and decide if you like it. If you don't, I promise I'll make it up to you," he purred. Red brows rose, his smile widening. "How about it, Roxas?" I swallowed.
"Why are you always so perfect?" I asked, pouting. His smile softened, changing to the endearing one.
"Is that a yes?"
"Answer me first." I told him. Rolling his shoulders, he smiled helplessly.
"I'm just being me," he answered, "but I'm glad you feel that way." I nodded slowly. "Your turn." I stared up into green eyes, feeling a sense of calm. That was just the effect he had on me.
"Okay. I trust you." Axel smiled at me warmly.
"'Kay, lay on your stomach, get comfortable." I nodded, listening as he rummaged for the things he needed. I watched as he squeezed a generous amount of lube on his hands, warming it on his fingers and trying to stay calm but my stomach was slowly climbing up my throat. "Ready?" I nodded hesitantly, readying myself. He touched me and I jumped a little. "Are you sure?" I nodded again. "Deep breaths, Roxas," he urged. I took a deep breath before closing my eyes and doing what he told me to do. I felt a warm finger touch me, stroking gently before pressing in a teasing circle, slowly easing into the muscle. He was mimicking my breathing, pressing in when I inhaled, out when I exhaled. Gradually, he worked the finger in. I made a face because it felt strange, but it didn't hurt, so I felt myself slowly relaxing. He was moving his finger around, like he was looking for something. Which was really weird. He was obviously experienced at this. Was my ass really that much different than every other ass that he had to go poking around? I bit the inside of my cheek trying to be be patient. But seriously. What the fuck?
"Uhm Axel. What are you doing?" I asked, quirking a brow up at him and trying to be polite. He tilted his head at me and looked like a perfect angel.
"Looking for your prostate." I gave him a blank stare.
"My what?" I got a Cheshire grin in response.
"Oh? You don't know?" he asked innocently. I scoffed at him, opened my mouth, and my scathing remark died on my lips, a moan coming out instead. "Mmm there it is," he purred. He rubbed it in a slow circle until I was a gasping, shuddering mess. My entire body was overheating. How could touching one little spot feel so good? Holy shit. Heat was washing over me in waves and I was trembling uncontrollably. He must have added another finger while he was playing with me because he scissored two of them slowly, loosening me up, then thrust them straight into my prostate. I cried out incoherently. His voice was close when he spoke again. "You still okay with this?" I nodded quickly, feeling my face redden. He pulled his fingers out. "Okay, I have a plug now, it's a little bigger than my fingers, it will stretch you out better." I nodded, listening intently as he talked me through three plugs and let me adjust to them, each a little bigger than the last, and flinching a bit at their initial coldness. "Does it feel okay?" I nodded, trying to find my voice.
"It's different… but okay," I gasped.
"Okay. How do you feel about this?" he asked, twisting the toy. I shuddered, and when it rubbed against my prostate, I moaned. Then he pulled it back, thrusting it back in. My eyes fluttered and I gasped, rolling my hips back to meet the next thrust. Axel chuckled a bit and I whined in protest when he stopped. I pouted up at him and he smiled that smile. I swallowed hard. "I can keep going, if you're not ready for me this time." He told me demonstrating and driving me crazy. "Or…" Oh God, he was so close… "If you are ready, I'm a little bigger than this." I shuddered. "And I'm absolutely burning up to get inside you." I moaned. "Mmm please say yes," he all but moaned back.
"Yes, Axel!" With my consent, he pulled the plug free. I felt so empty… but only for a moment because then he guided me onto my hands and knees. I felt his arousal press against me, hot and hard, dripping from the lubricant.
"Catch your breath," he murmured, right into my ear, his hands framing my hips. When my breathing evened, he entered me in a long, slow glide, angling my hips to intentionally brush against my prostate with his hot, hard, throbbing cock. I was gasping and trembling while he grasped my hips and moaned. He was in so deep. I felt so full. He shifted inside me, making me gasp. My back arched against his chest and I moaned. He pressed his lips to the nape of my neck. Then he pulled back and thrust into that spot hard and I half moaned, half screamed, gripping the sheets hard. He did it again, so many times that I lost count because I couldn't think, before he eased back into a gentler rhythm. That was just the beginning, he wasn't stopping any time soon. A large hand fit over mine. The other was still grasping my hips, guiding me back. Axel laced our fingers together, squeezing reassuringly.
Then, letting go, he found my arousal, pumping in time to the thrusting while his lips found my neck, kissing, biting, sucking. I moaned helplessly, my eyes fluttering shut, as he picked up the pace. He pulled me close, falling back on his haunches as he thrust all the way in, straight into my prostate, and stroked my erection, his fingers trailing to our balls. He cupped them, rolling them together, while continuing to thrust. All I know is that it felt so good that I thought I was going to die. Literally. I know that I was moaning his name enthusiastically. I know that I was begging for more. And I know that he gave it, making me lose my mind while he was at it. I looked back at him, tangling my fingers in his hair. My lips found his, and he kissed me passionately. I kissed back feverishly, moaning every time he pistoned his hips into mine. Strong hands held me close as we came together. I was drowning in sensation, shuddering as he came deep inside, and long after it was over. I flopped bonelessly into his strong arms, resting in his lap. He stroked my sweaty skin, smiling down at me gently. I was exhausted.
"So," he asked with a touch of amusement, his voice still deep from arousal, pulling me out of my thoughts, "was Sora right?" I didn't want to talk about this because it was too embarrassing. I smirked at him, thinking of the perfect loophole.
"One time isn't 'frequently'," I answered, looking up at him. His eyes were practically burning, and I knew that I had said the wrong thing.
"Okay then, let's change that," he purred back, his mouth descending to mine. My eyes fluttered shut and I melted into his kiss automatically.
I wasn't getting out of anything any time soon.
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