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I stared up at the ceiling, just trying to process everything that had happened in the last two hours. I'd agreed to trying this boyfriend thing. He'd been completely perfect and had been satisfied with backing off if I told him to. Again. We'd had sex three times. Almost four. My heart was thundering in my chest, just thinking about it. It had definitely been good and I wanted to do it again. It was like we were insatiable for each other. The feeling was foreign to me, but also left me feeling excited. Wanting him like that was a thrill. I'd never imagined I could ever be so drawn to someone. I felt my cheeks flush warmly. Axel definitely knew what he was doing, and I liked being handled by him. My body felt light, and I could feel arousal humming through me. Which was a good feeling. Something I wasn't used to, but it was nice. Bottoming had been better than I'd been expecting. Much better. But now, I really needed to figure out how to focus on something else because I could already feel my entire body heating up dangerously, just because I was thinking about it. I did not need to have an erection when he got his sexy ass out here. I took a deep, determined breath.

Okay, so, focus Roxas. Think about something gross. Like Sora and Riku kissing. Yeah okay. Good. I took another deep breath and moaned in despair. Even that wasn't working because I was lounging in Axel's bed, in comfortable clothes, listening to the patter of water while he showered. I was trying so hard not to imagine him naked but couldn't. I had been in there with him and we hadn't been able to keep our hands to ourselves. Hence me, being on his bed while he finished up. Even my disgusting fantasy about my brother had morphed into us. My brain was officially broken. You know, I hadn't ever thought about having sex in a shower until almost experiencing it today. And I was deeply regretting running away before that could happen. But I'd needed time to think and to decide how I felt about what we were doing.

Don't get me wrong. Axel's great. Amazing even. But we'd just barely gotten together, and it was a bit tentative. I didn't even know what we were thinking. I'd known him for less than a month, just weeks, collectively. What was I thinking? How could I expect this to work? And I was sure as hell that none of this would be helping my whole predicament that had gotten me here tonight, once I was home. If anything, wanting him was probably going to get worse. A million times worse. I groaned miserably and muttered under my breath. But… I liked it. A lot. I liked him a lot. I knew I did. But was I getting carried away? Would I regret this? The water shut off and I went completely still, my compulsive thoughts finally being silenced, and I found myself listening to every little sound he made. My heart was fluttering in my chest as I waited in anticipation.

The door clicked open and my eyes locked with green ones automatically. Axel was standing in the door frame. He smiled at me and I felt myself swallow hard. He was wearing a towel around his waist and nothing else. It was a deep blue. His hips swayed teasingly as he approached me. I couldn't say or do anything. I was staring at him, transfixed, frozen in place while my heart hammered against my chest, faster with each step he came closer to me. The only thought in my head was that this gorgeous creature was mine. Warm lips found mine and I shuddered helplessly. The rush of pleasure I felt had me moaning automatically. "Mmn Axel I..." His lips quirked up.

"Yea?" he murmured.

I felt the bed dip down beside me and clicked my teeth shut. I'm in no way afraid to admit that I wanted this. To myself. But, I was being completely stubborn and refusing to give in to him. Not yet, not when I still felt so vulnerable. He was mine now, but how long would that last? Did I really dare to think of him that way? He also seemed to be getting enjoyment out of teasing me, and was determined to make me say that Sora was right as frequently as possible. That I liked being dominated by him, and that I wanted more. I hadn't expected him to be just as stubborn as me or to be such a tease about it. Or for his antics to be such a turn on.

"I don't think this is going to help stop me from wanting you once I'm home," I answered honestly. His smile only widened, and his eyes sparkled in a mixture of amusement and mischief.

"Are you saying that you're enjoying yourself, Roxas?" he asked archly, making me swallow involuntarily because the was entirely correct. "Because if you are, and you're afraid of wanting more when I'm not around, I can always come take care of you," he lent close, like he was about to tell me a secret. "I promise I'll be discreet," he purred. Just like that I was short of breath all over again. His lips found mine, and I was extremely grateful that I didn't have to answer yet. Our tongues tangled together and I tugged him close, fully intent on occupying his mouth. Axel had other plans. He was breaking away from the kiss, his warm hands sliding up my stomach and pushing my shirt up. My body was responding automatically to his touches. My back arched and my nipples were hard by the time he was kissing my neck.

"I bet you say that to all the blond boys you have sleep overs with," I said sarcastically. He looked up, brows raised and a sexy grin on his face.

"Only the one in my bed," he told me, winking. I shuddered helplessly. It wasn't fair how sexy he was. Then his mouth latched onto my left nipple and he suckled hard. I arched back, mewling. It was embarrassing but I was too aroused to care. Axel chuckled, circling the stub with his tongue before nipping with his teeth. It felt so good, but I had a nagging feeling and I needed to know if he had been seeing anyone else. It wasn't a good feeling... but it wasn't like there had been anything stopping him from seeing other people. We barely even knew each other. I bit my lip as the truth of that thought gave my heart a nasty twist.

"Just… me?" Green eyes flashed up wryly.

"The one and only," he told me. His voice was soft and serious, "I would never cheat on you by having a sleepover with someone else." I snorted, unable to help myself, and rolled my eyes. He sat up, frowning thoughtfully. "Wait, you don't really think that, do you?" I shrugged, avoiding his gaze.

"I never asked you to be exclusive. I never expected you to be." Somehow, the words stabbed at my heart as I said them. He was still frowning. I could see it in my peripheral vision.

"I wouldn't do that to you." He sat back, looking uncertain and I felt horrible. "Sorry if I was being too forward or if I gave you the wrong impression. Roxas, I..." Our eyes met. He blushed and then smiled at me endearingly. My heart melted at the expression. "I've never felt this way about anybody before." Just like that, I felt the uncertainty I'd had fall away. I wanted to see him smile at me like that every day for the rest of my life. I sat up and he waited, almost looking vulnerable. I grasped either side of his face and he blinked.

"Me either," I admitted. He met me in a gentle kiss. When he broke away, he was smiling softly.

"I want to see you more, especially now that I can call you mine," he told me. I felt warmth blossom in my cheeks, spreading to my chest and leaving me feeling tingling. His eyes were searching mine, like he was looking for an answer. "Even if it has to be a secret." My heart was fluttering in my chest. "Is that okay?" I found myself nodding tentatively.

"I'd like that," I whispered back breathlessly. Axel smiled at me for a moment, his nose brushing against mine just before our lips locked together in a gentle kiss.

"Good," he purred back in satisfaction.

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