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Lynn Lincoln Luna and Sam had gone to the Loud house to try and recruit Lisa and Lana's help in repairing the instruments, it was Lynn's best idea she had, though at the sake of secrecy they had snuck the electric instruments in thanks to Lincoln distracting the family members that had been home currently, having left the damaged drums in Sam's borrowed van for the time being, since their damage was rather straight forward Lisa did not need to examine them, so for now the genius just focused on the pair of guitars.
"So can you fix them?" Lynn decided to ask for the truth bluntly, Lisa was looking over Luna's electric guitar, the damage to the body was worse and the internals were thankfully spared, Sam's on the other hand, had far more damage done to the parts within it.
"I won't lie, when you first made this request, I thought it was rather ridiculous to even consider." The child prodigy began, she adjusted her glasses, she was sat at a table that she normally had her chemistry equipment on, though had cleared it off to allow her to view the damaged electric guitars. Sam and Luna both felt their hearts sinking rather quickly upon hearing that. "... However, upon inspecting the internals and how they work, they are rather trivial to repair. The drums are no problem either due to their simplicity I presume." Lisa finished, turning around in her chair to look at her family members, at this point she treated Sam essentially as part of the family.
"And I've fixed way worse than this when working on the house, this should be a piece of cake!" Lana added proudly, she seemed eager to begin working right away. Luna and Sam looked incredibly relieved, pleasantly surprised. Lynn felt pretty proud currently, she had not actually anticipated things to be this easy, the opposite actually, both she and Lincoln were assuming that Lisa would need convincing to agree to this, Lana was easy enough to convince, yet Lisa did not argue against the request at all.
"We owe you dudes so much." Luna said to her siblings, it made the aspiring rock star happy to know she had people she could depend on; it made her feel bad for letting her sorrow takeover as much as it had done when she first discovered their broken instruments.
"You're the best band manager ever, Ace." Sam thanked the bucktooth boy again for his loyalty to their band, he had saved them before on several occasions, this was the biggest to date however.
"Thank Lynn, she had the idea." Lincoln decided to push the credit to his sports loving sister, while the brunette was distracted with her pride, Sam suddenly pulled her into a hug that was hard enough to make Lynn's injuries ache.
"I-I forgot she was huggy..." Lynn gulped, wondering how Lincoln even survived one week working as their manager with bear hugs like this. It did not help at all when Luna decided to join in on the little group hug.
"Now doesn't that feel nice?" The motherly personality rhetorically asked, sounding like a proud parent when hearing their child had done a good deed. "Enjoy it now, we still have to go have a talk with the ones who did this, they need to apologize for what they did." It continued talking in the 5th oldest Loud's head, she wished she could talk to it right now since that had been Lincoln's suggestion earlier today. Lynn had a big hunch that it was not going be as straight forward as her split personality wished for it to be.
Lynn let out a groan of relief upon being released by the older couple's double hug, Lincoln helping her keep balanced while she got her breath back.
"We'll go bring up the damaged drums." Luna said, going off with her girlfriend to go retrieve the last of the instruments, Lisa and Lana's confidence had been enough to renew their optimism.
"I'll go get my tools." The red capped twin could not wait to get started on this, leaving to go get her toolbox that seemed almost limitless with everything that was inside of it as far as the Loud family could tell.
"Alright Lisa, tell me the bad news." Lincoln suddenly spoke up when it was just him Lynn and Lisa within the younger kid's room. The aspiring sports start raised an eyebrow, there was not even a hint of any bad news in the last couple of minutes.
"What bad news? They just said they could do it." Lynn asked to be let in on the apparent hidden truth of the conversation, was it really too good to be true? Lana did not show any signs of that with her behavior. Lincoln knew better at this point and could read his sister's as well as they could read him, it was obvious to him that Lisa had not shared the bad news half of this situation due to not wanting to crush Luna any further than she already had been.
"As Lincoln guessed, we do have a minor problem. It's the materials." The young genius claimed, motioning her older brother and sister over so they could see, Lisa took out a small black marker and began drawing a few marks on the bench around the guitar, it could easily be cleaned up later. "Sam's guitar still has its initial shape intact, that makes it quite easy to handle. Luna's however... It's clear a few pieces of the fingerboard were splintered and fragmented when they were assailed." Lisa pointed it out to them, sure enough what Lisa was saying was correct, if they reassembled Luna's electric guitar with the current parts they had, it would come up short.
"It's missing some parts, you can work around that, right?" Lynn asked, not wanting to have to turn right around and turn this relieving moment into one of utter dismay once again. Lincoln put a hand on her shoulder, insisting for her to relax.
"Yes, me and Lana can do it, I can estimate the original shape with photographs Luna has, but between that, the drums, and the parts of the internals within Sam's guitar, this is going to roughly cost 200 dollars." Lisa elaborated further for her sibling's, she sounded disappointed in herself, the older Loud sibling's both winced hearing that, it was not the worst price in the world, but it sure was bad still for a pair of jobless high schoolers.
"Crud, I don't have that much saved up..." Lincoln held his head in regret, he had more a month prior, yet he had spent a fair amount of it on a birthday gift for a friend of his, the two teenagers had been doing better at saving money, however this was an unexpected development that left them all in silence. Lincoln felt like it was his responsibility to pay for the damages, he was the band manager after all, Lynn paused for a moment, her memories feel like they were drifting off to the fight from this morning, she had no clue why at first, until it hit her.
"Oh! Wait!" Lynn reached into her pocket and retrieved her wallet, looking within it and seeing the money she had taken from Tyler and Brandon this morning. Combined with what she already had prior to the fight, she had the amount needed for the repairs and a little extra stashed away in her wallet, the brunette found herself pausing momentarily, she sighed, removing all of the money out of her wallet.
"Here, just don't tell Luna or Sam, please. And you can keep whatever you don't spend for yourself and Lana." Lynn requested as she rested the money on the workbench, Lisa and Lincoln both staring at her in wide-eyed surprise, the aspiring sports star was not known for her charitable nature, nor for having a lot of cash, this was not natural at all to them.
"Erm... Y-Yes, of course. Thank you, I'll retrieve Lana and head out to get the materials immediately." Lisa took the money without any questions asked, normally the child prodigy would have a million inquiries of her own to make, yet this was a rare case where time was against them for the repairs, the sooner the materials were gathered the faster the guitars and drum set could be fixed.
"Hey, Linc, can I borrow that shark tooth?" Lynn requested once they were alone, her only brother took out the shark tooth from his pocket, the only evidence they had of the perpetrator that broke the instruments. Just as the sports loving Loud was about to take it, her brother closed his hand around it, a serious expression dawning his features.
"Where did you get the money, Lynn...? I know you aren't the best at saving." Lincoln requested she be honest with him, after all she had promised not to lie to him any further about anything involving the personalities, and it was obvious by his sister's nervous shifting that it clearly had something to do with them.
"He's already losing trust in you; it took him a lot more time than I thought it would. If he ever had any to actually begin with." The depressed personality made its annoying voice heard again, Lynn instinctively punched her bandaged hand against the nearby wall, it sent out another shockwave of pain up her arm, it felt like she had been stabbed in the hand, yet it shut the voice up for the time being. Lincoln was startled by the sudden behavior shift, yet assumed it was his sports loving sibling attempting to quiet one of the other personalities.
"I took it off Tyler and Brandon, after I beat them up." Lynn confessed the truth just as her brother demanded, her right hand gripping her left arm, she felt like she was being put against a wall now, she appreciated Lincoln being there for her, she was just scared he might get hurt in the process, he had trouble putting himself before others sometimes even.
"You didn't tell me you basically mugged them!" Lincoln stepped over to Lynn, clearly upset, while he was trying to be supportive, that was a pretty important detail she had conveniently left out, if the money was stolen then the faster it was gone the better, that did not make him feel any better internally about the fact it had transpired to begin with.
"Who cares? Those idiots paid their fee for losing." The aggressive personality laughed, clearly enjoying reminiscing about the fight this morning.
"I'm sorry, I didn't get a chance to tell you, I had a ton I had to bring you up to speed on as is! It just slipped my mind!" Lynn replied defensively, Lynn would wind up beginning to doubt the reliability of her own mind entirely at this rate. She knew why Lincoln was upset, beating up people and stealing from them a few days after they were victims of it themselves, with no remorse or care, was terrible. Whether they deserved it or not was irrelevant, to the white-haired teenager, the beatdown should have been enough.
"No, I'm sorry I just..." Lincoln held his head, pinching the bridge of his nose in frustration, trying to apologize for acting as aggressive as he did, it was not intentional, he just kept picturing himself and his older sister in that exact position in his mind, and it brought up nothing other than sour emotions to him. "I'm still adjusting to all this, so I'm sorry if I freaked out." He took the blame for this one, aware that if he stressed Lynn out too much, then her other personalities became far more prominent, if what she said was correct.
"Is everything okay, dudes?" Luna chimed up, her and Sam had come back with the drums finally, all in one trip too, though the rock band members were confused when they came back to no Lisa, no Lana, and just an unnerved looking Lynn and a somewhat frustrated Lincoln remaining in the room with the broken equipment.
"Uhh... Y-yeah, just a small hiccup, Lisa and Lana needed to go out and get a part. Don't worry, they'll get back before curfew." Lincoln covered for them by making it look like they had been discussing the current situation further, the white-haired boy handing the shark tooth to Lynn before stepping away.
"It's my turn to help Mom with dinner, if any of you need me, don't wait to come get me." Lincoln said, it was readily apparent to Lynn that he was aiming the end of that that comment towards her, the brunette just watched him leave, her gaze diverting down to the evidence in her palm.
"I need to lay down a little while, let me know when dinner is ready." Lynn spoke to her older sister and Sam, Luna nodded, assuming that her younger sibling had simply exhausted herself from more or less forcing herself through the day.
Lynn had gone straight to her room as she said, she was laying in her bed, her arms were behind her head as it rested on the pillow, she was just staring at the ceiling with one leg kicked on top of the other. While the girl with the ponytail would love to get a quick powernap in, she could not, her mind was rather all over the place currently. It did not help that Lynn was starving at this point, not finishing her breakfast nor going to lunch had finally caught up to her as she tried to ignore her stomach for the time being.
"So, we trick Luna or Sam into telling us where we can find this Adrian guy, and then we go break his face and break his band's gear, that ought to teach 'em a lesson." The aggressive split personality proposed what they should do, the sports loving girl assumed she had silenced the maternal personality with that good deed through the donation of money, right now however, Lynn was missing that maternal presence. Really the sporty Loud was in a good mood for the most part, half of the voices in her head were silent at the moment, leaving only the angry and obsessed ones left. Lynn sighed while beginning to ponder on what Lincoln had told her earlier today.
"Is talking to them really a good idea? They're all insane..." She murmured to herself, tilting her head to the right and seeing that Lucy was not in the room at the moment, the brunette was scared to even be considering this, it sounded insane, though what choice did she have, the sports lover wanted to make progress in her mental recovery and this seemed like the next logical step.
"How do I go about it though?" Lynn sat up on her bed, sitting with her legs crossed, after a short moment of pondering, she thought it might be best to perhaps pretend that it was not just her in this room after all, the sporty Loud closed her eyes in an attempt at trying to imagine what it would look like if one of these split minds of hers were sat across from her.
"You want that head of yours to be empty, right? Just give me something to dig my knuckles into and I'll be more than happy to be quiet for you for a while." That familiar tone of joyous malice from the aggressive mindset rung out in Lynn's head, her skull throbbed in pain like a nail had been driven into it, the aspiring sports star shook it off with a slight groan of pain.
"Why do you want to fight so bad? It's not fun to fight..." Lynn spoke back while opening her eyes, only to get an eye shocking visage of another person's body entirely. It scared her into falling onto the palms of her hands, there laying on their back across from Lynn, was, well, herself. They did not look exactly right though, they looked like a younger clone of herself, their hair looking like it had seen little care and was shorter, their body had this odd red hue of an outline to themselves. Her doppelganger was wearing an open leather jacket, and had an annoyed disposition about them.
"Wh... What?" Lynn's voice quivered in fear, staring down at her younger self as they lay there, her heart picking up speed instantly.
"What do you mean? Fighting is GREAT!" The younger Lynn replied while rolling onto her stomach, Lynn's pupils were the size of pins now as she swore she heard the voice of the aggressive personality come from the clone, she could only hope they were restricted to her fractured psyche.
"Why else are we great at wrestling, blackbelts in karate, and masters at kickboxing, if not to fight?" The aggressive clone requested an answer, while sounding half rhetorical at the same time.
"F... For sports, and self-defense! I don't like fighting!" Lynn retorted, she remembered when she first started learning karate at a very young age, in her mind she had done it so she could protect her family, that had been her younger self's motivation, the 5th oldest Loud was not able to deny that she had used those moves for self-gain as well whenever a fight broke out with one of her sister's that got physical.
"You can't blame it on me, I mean, you were pretty proud about letting me take over... Was that just so you could pretend there was someone else to blame?" Lynn saw the aggressive split mind of hers beginning to crawl towards her on the bed, she felt her heartrate increasing further and further the closer they got and with each word they uttered. In only moments, they were face to face, the younger Lynn's completely carefree expression at the discussion of violence was unnerving, the worst part was, it all felt real to the actual Lynn.
"No, cause it's fun to see someone quivering beneath you, to admit they're weaker than you, to make them know that you can end everything about them in that moment... And knowing we're strong enough to do that?" The aggressive Lynn began to raise their hands around the real Lynn's neck, she was not even aware of this until she began to feel her breathing getting rougher and shallower. "It's exhilarating."
"Ghk!" Lynn coughed, feeling her throat getting clamped down, tears starting to fall down her face as she grabbed at the hands on her throat in an attempt to break the grasp of the one strangling her, to no avail, there was no reaction from her younger self, Lynn was pinned against the headboard of her bed.
"Lynn? Lynn!" Lucy's voice suddenly caught her attention, Lynn sat up panting and looking around, realizing it was just her again, the brunette took notice of Luan standing in the doorway too, the goth and comedian both looked equally concerned.
"O-Oh, wh... What's up, Lucy?" The aspiring sports star tried to calm her breathing, Lynn guessed she had fallen asleep on accident and had a bad dream, though how real it felt made her terrified. The aspiring sports star wondering why her sisters looked so worried and scared for.
"Dad told us to come wake you for dinner, you were making a lot of sounds in your sleep..." Lucy tried to explain, Lynn wondered why they both looked so worried.
"You were crying a lot, sis." Luan stated, the sporty Loud finally registering the dampness on her face as she reached up and started drying it off with the sleeve of her shirt, embarrassed to even be seen remotely like this.
"I-I'm fine, I just w-was having a nightmare, that's all." Lynn stood up from her bed, feeling rather ashamed to even admit anything, she was hiding her bandaged hand behind her back though. "I'll be down in a sec." She told her sisters, Lucy and Luan did not say anything further, just heading off, as much as they wanted to pry deeper into the matter, Rita had insisted that Lynn needed some space to herself.
When they were gone, the auburn-haired girl wasted no time tearing the bandaging off her hand, she did not want dinner to be turned into an interrogation because of her injuries, though the brunette groaned when realizing her left hand now showed heavy bruising. While internally panicking on how to cover it up, she had an idea suddenly spring to mind when she looked at Lucy's makeup that remained on the goth loving Loud's bed.
"Make up... That's it!" Lynn smiled with an idea coming to mind, as much as she hated makeup, this was her best idea in the panic to cover up her bruises. Normally Lucy gave the stuff she would not use to Lola, Lynn hoped that all of her family was downstairs already, otherwise her sneaking into the younger children's room was going to garner a few questions.
"You know I'm right." Lynn heard that familiar aggressive voice once again, it spooked her enough to make her feet freeze in place by the doorway, she looked over her shoulder, the room was still empty, Lynn breathed a sigh of relief, brushing it off and ignoring it before continuing on her way to sneakily borrow some of Lola's makeup.
Lynn had managed to do a good enough job of quickly covering the bruises on her left hand with makeup, it was a rough job, but she doubted anyone would remotely notice unless they got a closer look at the injury site. After she had done it, she had come downstairs to join the rest of her family for dinner, the sports loving Loud seeing Sam had opted into joining them tonight, at the insistence of Luna and to no one else's protest, though usually it also was a subtle way of getting permission to have Sam stay the night too.
"How did school go today?" Rita tried to strike up conversation, normally that was not a hard thing to do, usually it happened automatically, Luna and Sam were still a little out of it from the shocking day they've had, not being able to talk about it did not help. Lynn was also heavily shaken up from her nightmare as well, though the sporty Loud could tell the query was more aimed at her and Lincoln.
"It... wasn't the best." The brunette honestly began, swearing she could feel the eyes of her family looking to her as if anticipating some news of something bad happening, Lynn was happy knowing they cared, she was simply nervous because she knew how overprotective her many siblings could be for one another. "Clyde was with me for most of the morning, he helped stop people from bugging me, but I basically spent all day zoned out, apparently what happened to me and Linc is all over online." Lynn tried to redirect their worries away from herself, assuring that Clyde had helped her through her woes this morning.
"I would advise not dwelling on it; the news will pass but your reputations shall remain increased." Lisa tried to assure that it was simply a matter of time thing, by next week someone else would most likely be the talk of the school for any number of reasons. "It might even prevent anyone from even considering picking on you or Lincoln either." The child genius added, that benefit at least sounded nice to the Loud siblings.
"Mine went alright too; it was kind of strange to be popular like that." Lincoln commented in reply, sure he wasn't unpopular, but it was weird to have so many more people interested in hearing about his story of the traumatic events.
"Well, don't you two worry about it, like Lisa said, it'll get better." Lynn Senior insisted. Lynn Junior was trying to focus on the plate of food sat in front of her for now, her left hand throbbed or surged with pain whenever she did anything with it, the sports loving girl simply put up with it though, as if the protection the pain gave her from the depressed personality was more relieving than anything.
"You think we can trick Lincy into feeding us dessert?" The obsessed personality chirped, Lynn just held her sore head, she was finding her hatred for that one split mind of hers specifically was increasing rapidly. If the girl with the ponytail could talk to it right now, she would be screaming inquiries at it, still putting faith in Lincoln's idea about talking with the split personalities, despite the nightmare she had earlier.
Dinner had been pretty uneventful, full of idle small talk that Lynn more or less had drowned out with the most minimal effort, she had been more focused on the other hundred things going on in her head right now. She was wondering what to do tonight too, she was considering hunting down Adrian and his band, really, Lynn had no clue what was motivating her to do it, she just felt like it was the right thing to do however.
At that moment, Lynn was sat with Sam and Lily on the couch, watching television. The many Loud siblings had scattered to do their own various tasks, Lincoln had gone to his room, Luan had to work on a new comedy routine she was meant to do in a few days at a club, Luna had gone to their room to try and focus on writing new song lyrics, though Sam and Lynn knew that was an attempt at distracting herself from her shredded guitar. Lana and Lisa had begun working on said damaged instruments, Lucy had gone to work on her poems, and Lola was stuck helping clean up after dinner since it was her turn tonight.
"Now's your chance to get some info outta Sam, she's really easy to talk to after all." The aggressive personality nudged for Lynn to interrogate Luna's girlfriend for information, the brunette was uncertain about this, Lily was there for starters, Lola was only in the kitchen and might hear as well, though the aspiring sports star knew that she needed the information if she wanted to do anything, something inside of Lynn just told her it was correct to do it.
"Hey, Sam. Luna talked about Adrian like he was a friend, did you ever know him?" Lynn spoke, trying to disguise her queries as if it was a simple conversation. Lily tilted her head in slight confusion, though she remained quiet while listening.
"Huh? I mean, I met him a couple of times, he was a cool dude, but if you didn't sync up with him, then he wouldn't really be interested in hanging out with you." Sam exclaimed, while not really being against talking about it, the suddenness of the conversation topic felt rather random and forced.
"What would he do to the people that did get along with him?" Lynn quirked, the blonde girl with the blue streak in her hair scratched her head, trying to remember exactly.
"Well, I remember before he turned into a total tool, he mentioned that he had found a perfect place to practice, an old abandoned factory downtown that shut down half a decade ago. Me and Luna never really were friends with him though, he would jam with us sometimes in music class, that was about it. Him and his buddies would always play down there though." Sam described what she remembered to the best of her ability; Lynn grinned from ear-to-ear hearing that, having fished up the clue she had wanted.
"Don't worry, I'm sure he won't mess with you guys again." The brunette commented while rubbing Lily's head, making her giggle from the tickly feeling of Lynn's hand running through her hair.
"Why is that?" Sam suspiciously raised an eyebrow; the blonde teenager was happy when Lynn comforted Luna, however the Sharp girl was becoming more and more confused on just why the sports star was acting so weird lately. They might not have the most time spent together, yet even Sam could tell when someone was behaving strangely.
"Because he'll be too cocky, he's probably thinking he's taken you out for good. If he's anything like I imagine, he'll be terrified when he sees you guys show up like nothing happened." Lynn lied in response; covering it up as a simple pep talk, Sam gained a small smirk on her face.
"Well, I am looking forward to seeing his reaction to us showing up at the competition." Luna's girlfriend lightly laughed just imagining it, she saw Lynn get up from the couch while stretching.
"I'm going to go start getting ready for bed, I'll see you in the morning." The brunette declared, wanting to go get a shower in before the late-night line had a chance to form. Before she could go far however, she felt her left wrist get grabbed, stopping her. Lynn looked and saw Sam holding her limb, she had a soft smile on her face.
"Lynn, I just want to say thank you, I don't think I've ever seen your softer side before, you've done so much for Luna and me today. I owe you and your family big time." Sam expressed her thanks, Lynn wanted to make a joke initially about how they truly did not know how much she had spent to get the instruments repaired, though the brunette kept her mouth shut.
"It was nothing, really. I just hate seeing my future sister-in-law upset, after all." Lynn grinned after giving her joking response, the mention of becoming an in-law made Sam's face begin to heat up, the sporty Loud having struck the most nervous nerve in Sam's body.
"H-Hey that sort've thing is not happening for a few more years, I'm sure..." The blushing blonde said in a fluster, she obviously had thoughts about marrying Luna plenty of times, she did not want to do it before they were ready though. Lynn did not say anything more, having significantly embarrassed her friend for the time being, she left the living room to continue upstairs.
"Wow, you played her like a kazoo, even made her forget about the conversation afterwards." The aggressive personality cackled, praising Lynn for her efforts, as much as she hated hearing it, she could not deny she felt bad for manipulating Sam to any extent, even if it was just for information, but Lynn felt like she could not leave this incident ignored.
Lynn hated not being able to tell which part of her was going to take priority in this though, it was either the maternal split personality wanting to try and talk Adrian and his bandmates into apologizing, which sounded ridiculous to the sports loving Loud, or it was the aggressive personality looking for a reason to fight, and simply capitalizing on the opportunity as it presented itself.
"I really need to talk to Lincoln before I do anything." Lynn decided to herself while stepping into the bathroom, aware that Lincoln was probably still absorbing everything he had learnt today about his older sister's current mental health issues, right now Lynn was wanting to try and just take it easy for the night, she was starting to feel exhausted from how rather crazy today had been, and that nightmare had basically undone any energy she gained from that nap.
Lynn found herself staring at her reflection in the mirror over the sink, she kept her eyes fixated on herself, as if expecting anything to change, but all the brunette could wonder to herself was the same two questions, over, and over again.
"Would they like me more if that maternal one took me over forever...?" Was one that kept coming to mind, so far everyone seemed to love seeing Lynn be gentle instead of being as rough as she was.
"What if one of the voices ruin my family?" Was the other fearful query that kept popping up to the front of the brunette's mind, Lynn would rather die than let the secret reach anymore of her family than it already had, she just prayed that with Lincoln's help she could get an actual grasp on the situation before it got further out of control. Lincoln already had unintentionally sworn to keeping the theft and violence Lynn had gotten tangled into today secret, Lynn felt like at this rate she would wind up owing him a lot more than she could ever repay. All this did was make Lynn feel like the one thing she never wanted to be in her entire life, a burden.
After Lynn had gotten out of the shower and changed into her night clothes, which just amounted to one long shirt, she found herself in her bed once again, with her back to the wall, her hair not even in a ponytail now, her long auburn hair currently flowing down just past her shoulders in length. The shark tooth of evidence resting on her night stand. She was currently writing away in her journal, Lucy was in her own bed, writing poetry, the gothic Loud was a little weirded out when seeing her roommate for many years also writing a large amount, Lynn was not known for doing it often outside of taking notes for class.
"What are you writing?" Lucy spoke up, deciding to try and strike up conversation, while the two did not get along the best, Lynn was not a fan of all the depressing goth stuff, it had been getting a lot better between them lately. Lynn just hoped she was not interrogated about her bruised left hand, expecting it to be a lot better by tomorrow morning.
"Hm? Oh, it's my... My diary." Lynn answered honestly, not seeing a point in lying, the many siblings in the house respected each other's diaries, nobody dared look inside one another's, while they all had their own unique ways of hiding them, most of the family saw it more like a personal friend that was meant to keep the secrets within its pages. And everyone of them knew that if one diary was weaponized, it would be a practical apocalypse in the Loud house since they all would be inevitably.
"Huh, I thought you hated diaries. I tried giving you one a while ago, I remember you gave it to Lily to use as a drawing toy." Lucy recounted that very well, it resulted in Lynn staying in Lincoln's room a few days, not because the roommates fought, but more so to avoid one breaking out. The brunette internally cringed, feeling bad recalling that.
"Sorry... I just have a lot on my mind lately, getting it on paper helps get it out of my head." Lynn responded while apologizing, the raven-haired Loud was finding it strange how easily her older sister was apologizing, normally she would be stubborn about that sort of thing, not that Lucy was personally insulted, it was just strange to her.
"If you need someone to talk to, you can talk to me." Lucy offered, yet was aware her sporty sibling would most likely not turn to her when it came to confiding in others, Lynn did find it rather hard to talk to someone that regularly did occult rituals, the brunette never enjoyed being in the room when those were being done.
"Thanks Lucy, but don't worry, I'm fine." Lynn reassured her younger sister, returning her focus to the current entry she was making for today in the diary. It only took another minute or two before she was done, the sporty Loud giving it a look over to make sure she had not missed anything she felt was important to write down.
"Today started off weirdly, I woke up feeling tired, I figured it was because I had not slept for a few days. I helped Mom make breakfast today, the maternal voice basically called me a wuss and that was enough to get me to give it a shot, it was actually pretty fun! Mom said someone messed with the laundry downstairs, I guess someone tripped and spilled the second basket when taking it down and forgot to clean up? I don't know." The first part of the page read, the sporty Loud feeling her eyes drifting downward to the next part of it, the night getting darker and darker with each passing couple of minutes.
"I was thinking about not going to school, but that obsessed personality had to say something during breakfast, if I had stayed home, it would have made Lincoln stay too, I really don't want to be alone with him either... I had to get away from Lincoln, so I walked to school. Clyde was there to welcome me back, I won't lie, I never really know what to think of him, he always surprises me, one way or the other. I ran into some of the boy's football team members, Tyler and Brandon, they are close friends of the one I hurt the same day me and Lincoln got attacked, I tried apologizing to them... They weren't happy, Clyde tried to calm things down but wound up getting hit in the face because he stood up for me. He really isn't that big of a wuss; I need to thank him some time. I wound up giving into my aggressive personality though when I fought Tyler and Brandon, I took their money too... I hate how good it felt, I hate that I don't feel worse about it more." The first page went on to describing the early morning parts of her day, the sporty Loud flipping to the next page where it continued.
"It was hard to get through the first day back at School, the depressed personality talks a lot more when I'm doing nothing or just boring stuff, it drowned out the other voices too. I nearly broke down; Lincoln found me and convinced me to tell him the truth in private, but by that point the depressed voice was about to take over, I could feel it. The second he was gone I had to slam my hand in my own locker to stop it from talking, my hand is still really busted up and I don't know how long it will last... I felt like I was losing my will to live." Lynn was not happy recounting that part of her day, she remembered the notes she took in one class turning out so bad that it was glorified incoherent rambling.
"I was able to get through my classes like normal, the pain kept the depressed one quiet and made me feel a lot better... Man, I sound like a freak when I write it that way. Lincoln and me met in the chemistry classroom after class, he really is good at making plans on the spot, he knew how to break in while it was locked and everything! Lincoln wouldn't promise to keep quiet unless I promised to tell him the truth about what was going on and no longer lie about it, he really is cheesy, in a good way, of course the obsessed personality made me want to run out of the room, it feels wrong to be alone with Lincoln, like my heart wants to burst out of my chest... I miss when my brain was in one piece. Lincoln took the truth pretty good, well, about as good as I expected. He listened well and promised to do his best to help me." Lynn sighed when reading that, still pretty happy with how Lincoln had promised to devote his help to her, if she ever needed it. She hated depending on others, but in this case, she had no choice.
"Lincoln listened to me talk for an hour, but he got a text from Sam saying they needed help... Some jerk named Adrian and his band called 'King Woofer' destroyed Luna Sam and Sully's instruments, we have proof, but not enough to get the cops help, and the music competition is Saturday. I was able to make Luna cheer up after I took advice from the maternal personality, I still don't trust it, but it doesn't seem bad." Lynn flipped to the last page for today's entry.
"We took their gear to Lisa and Lana to see if they could fix it, Lisa said they can do it, but they needed money. I gave them everything I had on me, it was enough. Lincoln got mad when he found out I basically robbed Tyler and Brandon, can't say I blame him. I tried to take a nap but, I had this nightmare... It felt so real, it was like a younger and meaner me wanted to strangle me to death, I think it was the angry personality, but my memory of the nightmare is rough, it felt real enough that I can't just ignore it. Lucy and Luan found me in tears while I was sleeping, they had to wake me up. I thought about skipping dinner but my stomach was too noisy to ignore. I had to steal some of Lola's makeup to hide the bruises on my hand so no one would worry about me at dinner. After dinner I was able to trick Sam into telling me where Adrian probably practices, I can't decide on what to do about it though. I need talk to Lincoln about it tomorrow... Also, note to self, be careful with Sam's hugs."
With the diary entry done, Lynn closed it shut, looking over to Lucy and seeing she had laid down and rolled over to go to sleep already, the sports loving Loud having lost track of time, seeing the vague red glow of the numbers on her alarm clock. The brunette stuffed the journal away in the usual hiding place, before laying down herself, hoping tonight would provide some good rest for a change.