Jake and I end up having first period Biology together. The girls trumped what little confidence I had left. Why am I here? I don't belong here, like I never belonged in the tribe. It's going to be the same as it was last time. Years and years of taunts starts to come up to the surface. I've buried those years deep. I have always tried to stay as positive as I can. Kids do those kinds of things, most of the time they don't remember what they did years later anyways. It wasn't their fault for saying what everyone was thinking.
No matter how hard I'm trying to forget about it, I can't. I'm on the edge of losing it, I can feel it. We are almost to class, I can't start this right now. Calm down, I keep telling myself. Everything's going to be fine.
In the midst of having an internal battle with myself, I notice we stopped walking in the hall. I'm looking forward, while Jake's looking at me. There's no one in the hallway anymore. Everyone's in class. Just us left.
Jake can feel me freaking out, I know it. He's hugging me a little tighter. I slowly meet his gaze. There's a soft, admiring, tender look in his eyes. He never misses a thing.
"Everything's going to be okay." He whispers in my ear, as he slowly moves his other arm around me. Jakes hugs are the best hugs, they're safe, warm and always, always, always make you feel better. All things that make Jake who he is. No one can get to me here. That's when I feel my body start to shake, tears rolling down my face. My body letting go of everything that was building inside. I'm too comfortable with Jake, the fear of crying infront of others isn't there with him.
"Shhh, I'm here." He says stroking my hair. Yeah Jake, that's the problem. I start to laugh at my consciousness, then I start to laugh at myself. I'm crying in the middle of the hallway outside of class, which had to of started at least 5 minutes ago. So pathetic, Andie, get it together.
I start to come to my senses, I pull away from Jake's chest. Wet marks from my tears are left on his t shirt. I pull my hands away from the small of his back, pulling them to me, but not without noticing his hard, defined back muscles. I instantly feel my face heat up. Why did I just think that?
Jake pulls out a tissue from his backpack for me. Avoiding his gaze, I take the tissue, and start wiping the wetness from my face. There goes the makeup I did today.
"I'm sorry, this is-" Jake cuts me off.
"Don't worry about it, sis." Jakes lopsided smile is on.
"Alright, c'mon." I grab his arm and start walking, I smile even though I really don't want to, but I do at the same time.
Jake grabs the door handle before I reach it, and holds open the door for me. Here we go.
I walk with Jake into the room. All eyes are on us. Jake walks ahead of me towards the back of the room, there's empty seats in the back row. The teacher is calling names for attendance, luckily, he seems to not have passed my name yet.
I finally get to a seat next to Jake. The awkward part over.
"Aiyana Lahote." The man up front says after a couple of more names were called.
I raise my hand. "It's Andie, please." Eyes follow his gaze to me.
He smiles, the kind of smile your grandpa gives you with his eyes crinkling. "Very well, I will write it down."
He keeps going through the list, then starts the class after he lectures Jake to be on time. syllabus and every other boring thing you do on the first day.
The day goes by slow, 2nd and 3rd period I alone with unfamiliar faces. After 3rd there's lunch, I meet up with the boys at a table in the outskirts of the cafeteria. I'm guessing this is their table. We're all eating our sandwiches from home. A couple jokes get passed around, mostly eating though. These growing boys can eat. I think Embry's on his 3rd sandwich?
I feel quiet. Maybe it was the horrible start to the day, or just being me and zoning out. It's the one thing I can be really self conscious about, not always being someone that brings something to the table at every moment. My quiet trait has never been a bad thing to me, others may feel different about it. What others think of me have never mattered to me much, but I don't like being around those people that are negative and rude.
Speaking of rude people, the brunette girl that called me that ugly name is walking past the table now, with 2 other girls. They are all beautiful. They are definitely the girls at the top of the pecking order here, when they pass by everyone looks. Including Quil, who seems to be drooling. Then again, if any girl walked by he'd be like that.
The girl in the front took notice to our table as they were passing by and started to slow down.
"Hey, guys." She said as she came to a stop, whipping her hair. The whole posy took to her every move, stepping back so her hair didn't hit them. Gahhh, how terrible would that be. Following around a girl, who probably doesn't like any of them.
Quil has already kissed her feet by the looks of it. "Hey, Amanda. Lookin' good today." He winked.
Men are driven by their hormones I swear.
"I know." She said without any shred of doubt. "How was your summer, Jacob?" With Her brightest smile on, she continued on to look at Jake.
Jake looked a little dumbfounded she was talking to him, "Good, just working on my car."
I focused on my food now. It hurts to see how easy it is for some people to be so effortlessly beautiful like her. She's so self assured and flirtation, I'm jealous. I don't think I'm ugly, but I don't think I'm the kind of beautiful that guys like. Having no confidence doesn't help, and no flirting skills for that matter.
I felt a nudge to my left. "What classes do you have?" Clearly Embry can see I don't want anything to do with the current conversation.
I take out my schedule from my pocket, "Bio, art, english, gym, math and then history."
"We have math and history together!" I cracked a smile. Ending the day with Embry won't be so bad.
I heard the conversation stop, I looked over to Quil and Jake to find the girl looking over at Embry and I.
"I don't think I've met you yet, Aiyana right?" She reached out her hand to me. "I'm Amanda." She says with the kind smile. I reach back hesitantly. This girl knows exactly who I am. I recall my name being "skank" to her earlier. I don't know what kind of games shes playing, but it won't work.
I shake her hand. Maybe I misheard her this morning. She might be super nice.
"Yeah, I go by Andie actually." I think I've said that about a million times today.
"Oh, what a shame, that's such a pretty name." She said with a hint of malous. Okay, maybe she doesn't like me? I don't know, this girl is confusing me.
"Andie's a pretty name." Jake said casually, he should he's the one that gave me the nickname.. No one else seems to be getting the underlying riff off her.
Andie stop being so damn paranoid. I really should just let it go, and give the girl a chance.
"Oh, I'm sure it does." Her flirtation singing voice is back on. "What are your plans this friday? There's going to be a back to school party on first beach. You should come." Something tells me that, that invite is for Jake and Jake only.
"Hangin' out with these guys. Could they come?"
"Yeah, everyone's invited. Well, except the pale faces obviously." She briefly looked at me.
Ow, that kinda stung. Everyone knows I'm friends with the Cullens, that's why everyone looks at me like I'm crazy. I just don't see them the way everyone else does. Even the guys have a hard time understanding why I don't care what everyone says.
Before I knew the truth, I thought it all was a lie, a legend the Cullens simultaneously fell into. Now that I know the truth, my views haven't changed. They are still the same to me. It may have changed for Edward, he may not want to be my friend now that my family has a hate so deep they don't even know where it started.
"Duh, no one wants them there anyways." That was salt to the injury, thanks Quil.
"I could think of someone." Amanda says under her breath.
Jake tentatively looks over at me, he feels bad I can tell. I mouth "I'm okay" quickly. He rubs my back for a few seconds like he's putting strength in me to get by. Jake turns back to Quil and the girls talking.
Although Jake hates the Cullens just as much as Quil does and everyone else in the tribe, he can't and won't get in between what I love. If he knew the truth he may get a little angry, say I'm stupid or reckless, especially since Edward's with Bella. Jake's in love with Bella. It's cute to see how he is with her, he acts his age, being all goofy and googly eyed. Bella's beautiful I see how he gets that reaction.
All three of us, Jake, Bella and I, used to play as kids, since our parents were friends. Every summer, Bella would come visit Charlie. She stopped visiting when she started middle school. She always said she hated the weather, but she'll never admit the days we spent on the beach in summer. She didn't hate the weather then!
It was nice to see her again when she chose to come back a year ago. Felt like nothing changed. Childhood friends are like that, no matter how long apart, everything stays the same.
Now, I'm officially out of the conversation. I'm not going to be the center of attention in this one. As Amanda gets done talking to the boys, she rests her hand on Jakes bicep as she walks away with a flirty "See you around, Jacob."
She's finally gone and Quil can't contain himself any longer.
"Dude, she is totally into you."
"Really? I don't think so."
"Yeah, really."
"Looks like she's got the hots for you, Jake." I bust with laughter and put my hair behind my ear.
Jake is booming with laughter now. "Whatever guys. Not my type."
"If she ain't your type I don't know what is." Quil looks back after the little trio leaving the cafeteria. "Like c'mon, look at them."
"Way to be more obvious, want some binoculars too?" With all my tension, I need to crack some jokes at Quil. He is too easy.
"Or some water? You look a little thirsty." I look over at Embry laughing.
"Now that's a good one."
I needed a good laugh right now. I'm having a pretty bad day to say the least.
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Since I've been behind I finished what I had so far, it seems a little rushed I might do a continued chapter for the next one, not sure yet. We will see.