Ambrosia
Chapter 2-Camelia
Camelias or more so Pink Camelias have the meaning of "longing." Lots of Subaru pining and the two enjoying being close to one another. Kamui's heart is healing, but there is always a natural comfort he and Subaru feel around each other.
Morning.
Sunlight crept its way through the slits in the blinds. Subaru had been the first to arise, eyes bleary and blinking awake. He was softly groaning as he noticed the bright red numbers on the alarm clock. Still way too early for this. Sleep filled eyes glanced down. His heart fluttered.
"Kamui…" His voice was barely a whisper. Arms that had loosened during sleep we're fully embracing and indulging in the warmth. A mop of messy raven hair was pressed against the older male's chest. Soft orbs of violet-blue we're hidden away by closed eyelids.
Kamui nuzzled his face against the older male's chest, causing his breath to hitch. Heart accelerating. Long eyelashes fluttered slightly. The boy's nose wrinkled and twitched. Half opened eyes glaring the sun away before closing shut.
A soft hand was clutching at Subaru's chest. The younger boy continued to bury his face into the warmth. A forehead pressed more snuggly against Subaru's chest. The older male could just feel soft, velvety skin pressing and cuddling closer. The touch warming even through his clothes.
Kamui let out a huff at the sliver of sunlight from the morning rays. Lips pouted cutely. The hand not flushed against Subaru's chest, reached several times before succeeding in clasping the warm blanket. The boy pulled the comforter up higher. Subaru felt the boy's temples pressing further into him.
Kamui had taken to using Subaru as his personal shield from the morning ray. The latter couldn't deny he was quite enjoying it. The foolish smile on the man's face screamed nothing short of love-sickness.
Subaru let out a breathy laugh. Fully giving in to the temptation to brush his hands through the messy locks of black-blue hair. Silently, he thanked whatever God, spirit, or angel allowed Kamui (and consequently himself) to finally sleep peacefully.
Cries of "Fuuma" followed by mumbled words of broken love bled into the night. The older man held the boy tight in his arms, noticing the boy shaking wildly.
"Shhh... it's alright Kamui, " Subaru hushed, gently pulling the boy close. Kamui's back pressed flush against the older man's back.
"F-fuuma...I…" Sniffled followed breaking up the pained words. "I need you...please! Please! Fuuma!" Kamui screamed till his voice started cracking. Subaru stayed silent, knowing fully well how rough forcibly awakening one from a nightmare could be. A hand trailed up from Kamui's stomach, brushing against the boy's chest and over his heart.
Subaru gently held his lips to the boy's shoulder. The hand settled, carding through the boy's hair. Gently caressing and rushing the boy until his screams settled or at least his hoarse voice could no longer keep up with the broken heart's demands.
That had repeated nearly every 20 minutes. Some nightmares lasted longer than others. Subaru was at war with himself whether or not to just wake the boy and take whatever consequences followed. Kamui was fully convulsing against the sheets, back arching painfully hard.
The older man settled for rolling the boy to his side, facing him. Subaru embraced the boy tightly. He leaned down and whispered a few soft words of affection into the boy's ear.
Soothing hands brushed and caressed Kamui's back. Moving up from his upper to lower back with a pattern of soft circles. Subaru quietly chanted a calming spell. He sighed finally feeling the boy ease from his shaking.
"I...love you…" Subaru could try to block out the last part, to hear what he wanted. He knew the words were coming. "Fuuma." Yet, they didn't sting any less.
"Mnn," the boy groaned. Violet-blue eyes fluttered open to awareness. Small and sleek fingers grasped blindly in front of them. Eyes widened open before settling as they clasped tightly at the wrinkled clothing. One which he seemed to have all too comfortably nestled against.
A gentle, endearing smile fell over Kamui's face. He watched his protector's gentle breaths of air puff through soft pale lips. He noticed Subaru's arms holding to him so snuggly, even while he slept. The older male's chin rested upon his head. There was something so comforting about being wrapped up within the larger body.
Kamui had easily pulled the blanket up over part of his face, hiding away. He had given….well...he wasn't going down that rabbit hole. But enough to bring the world to its current state of peace. Anything else the world could wait for.
How long had it been since he let himself be within another's arms like this?
Images of the all too raw reality resurfaced in his mind. The boy shivered, tangling his hands into the soft silky fabric of his new housemate's shirt. Soft warm puffs of air fluttered over the younger male's hair.
With each painful and gruesome image resurfacing...Kamui tightened his hand against the fabric, already thinking of apologies that would follow for stretching or tearing the clothing. His grip twisted tighter and stronger against his sleeping companion.
Kamui's eyes were forced shut, and he leaned in close, hearing the gentle-hearted symphony pounding against his ears. Like this, the rising and falling movements of Subaru's chest seemed to move Kamui's nuzzled head along with it. The gentle rocking of their cuddled bodies helped to soothe those unnerving thoughts, ones that kept him up for hours last night, at ease.
"Thank you…" Kamui professed too softly to expect a response. He gasped feeling arms tightening and bringing Kamui every bit as flushed to the older male as they had been at the start of their night. The shivering feeling soothed upon seeing closed eyes, parted lips, and a rising chest. Before falling once more.
Vulnerability all too easily set in. Kamui breathed deeply, greatly accepting the comfort and affection of the man who shared a quite similar type of pain. Well, perhaps as close as one individual's pain could be to another.
The younger male leaned in close. Fully accepting his own neediness, for this moment at least. He nuzzled his face against the man's chest. His ears listened closely to the soothing heartbeat once again and his own beating chest seemed to move in sync.
Kamui kept close like that for several blissful minutes. The arms and warmth surrounding him gave him the feeling of being something beyond what his destiny made him out to be. As he was precious for being Kamui, and not just Thee Kamui.
Kamui felt the body around him shifting. The figure he snuggled against was stirring. Arms loosened only slightly, but Kamui hadn't allowed the distance, huddling to close any made distance. He buried his face into the Subaru's chest, hiding his vulnerable expression. A sudden feeling of shyness overcame Kamui.
"Kamui…" A husky voice breathed into the boy's form against him shivered before cuddling deeper into the other.
"I'm so glad you were able to get some sleep…" Kamui heard. The tone was so very kind. The warm breath escaping from Subaru's lips blew over the younger male's cheeks. It seemed to caress his very ears with a warm puff of air.
Kamui missed the adoring smile his protecting and housemate gave him. Subaru leaned down getting a better look at the boy. And God.
There had to be a warning that came for an image like that. Kamui's face was buried between his neck and shoulder. His cheek nuzzling into the warmth. The younger boy's lithe form was closely cuddled against his chest. Intimately close. Soft bubblegum pink lips parted slowly with soft soothing breaths. Cheeks were dusted beautifully pink. Those beautiful sleek fingers, ones that could easily have been mistaken for a pianist, were curled into his nightshirt.
Long eyelashes fluttered open languidly. Beautiful, shimmering violet-blue eyes looked up a bit shyly.
"Good Morning, Subaru." Kamui's soft sleep ridden voice greeted him. The boy smiled softly. A gentle curve of his lips shining under the rays of sunlight escaping into their room...
The older man swallowed hard.
Subaru Sumeragi had never once in his life had a clear image of what he wanted his future to be like. Not a future where he could fathom happiness. Not until this very moment.
Things had always been day by day. Wishes had fluctuated throughout the years. Wishes to save others. Wishes to understand and take people's pain. Wishes for a career he denied in favor of his current obligations. Wishes to not be hated by his precious person. A wish to die by the hands of his beloved...Yet, those came with a painful feeling stabbing deep into his heart. One's that drained him the longer he yearned for them.
This new wish or perhaps dream...was entirely warm. Whole. Serene. One he would wait, years, decades, or even a full lifetime to make into his new reality.
"Subaru?"
The flustered man opened his mouth to form some kind of response. Before closing his lips tight. Subaru had forgotten how to speak. Soft, endearing violet eyes widened and quivered with worry. The older male nervously shifted and opted to nod. He could feel the fire threatening to burn up to his features. Subaru fought down the flush the best he could.
Lips curled gently, more naturally than any smile had felt in years. His fingers reached down to grasp one of the smaller hands tangled in his shirt. He concentrated his thoughts on the very present moment. Dual toned eyes softened and watched as the boy moved with him naturally, their fingers lacing together.
Their hands never failed to twine together so perfectly. Even when they both were yearning for another. It was terrifying. A sign their bodies knew beyond what their minds could not even begin to comprehend. At least in his case...
"Morning…" Subaru's voice at last allowed the words. A gentle squeeze on his hand followed.
Kamui hummed something to himself, eyes shyly casting away for a moment. Those same mysterious violet eyes glanced around the room. The younger male's nose scrunched up and eyebrows furrowed.
"ah…" Kamui paused for a moment, staring more intently at the chest he laid against than the owner's face. He opened his mouth, before quickly closing it and taking a breath.
Subaru watched the boy's antics with curiosity. A blissful smile approaching as their eyes finally locked again. "Kamui?" He prompted, lifting a hand up before threading fingers through sleep ridden hair.
An exhale escaped. He opened his mouth once more before shaking his head. "Wh-what time is it?" He settled.
The older man blinked. Hands stilling, tangled up in the soft hair below. "Oh, " That was it...right. "It's still only 7:30.."
"Mnn…" Kamui licked at his lips. Subaru lifted an eyebrow and waited for more.
"Something wrong?" Would only feel so redundant here. When they both knew what broke the boy to this point.
Subaru remained silent, hands returning to caress and smooth down messy locks of shimmery black hair. Light eyelids covered an emotional display. "That's good then...When are we going to meet them…?"
Subaru couldn't blame the boy for forgetting their previous conversation. If anything, a warmth fled to his core. To be of help, even if it was only for menial tasks...felt refreshing.
"Not until 10." He supplied, a bit selfishly relishing in the way Kamui buried himself against his body again. Even if their hearts we're not in alignment just yet, the notion didn't fail to send a spark through his chest. Revitalizing the once numbed heart in a way Kamui did so effortlessly.
"We have time to rest a bit longer…" He whispered, an arm loosely slung over the boy's side brought him closer. Their hands had unlocked at the movement, for just a moment.
Kamui shuffled closer at the action. The smaller male grasped and held tightly to the hand now resting on his waist. "Thank you…" He paused, biting inside his cheek. "I don't think I can fall back asleep though…"
"Mnn.." Subaru acknowledged the boy. His mind became easily lost in the feeling of their joint hands. Kamu was absently playing with his long fingers before locking them in place. Lacing them neatly. The younger boy's thumb traced soft circles over the top of Subaru's hand. "But I...think I'd like to stay here a bit longer.."
Subaru squeezed his hands tightly. "Of course…" His head bent down slightly, nose nuzzling against the younger boy's hair where his hand had rested.
Kamui's hand that was not linked with his dear protector, clutched tightly against the fabric before him. Trembling hands moved around hesitantly, brushing up and over the sleeve of the older man's shirt before settling on a strong shoulder blade.
Subaru pressed his lips softly to the crown of the boy's head. Kamui kept close, soft ascending hums and controlled breaths being the signs the boy stayed awake in his arms.
The currently clumsy older male had busied himself within their kitchen. A bit at odds with himself. The cabinets, fridge, and entire room honestly felt barer than he remembered. How had he lived like this for so long? Perhaps, prior to realizing his precious someone to protect, he hadn't truly lived. Just a mere existence.
The raven-haired spiritualist, chalked up a mental note to go shopping later on. If nothing else than for Kamui to feel better. Though if last night was an indication of anything, he doubted the young savior would allow him to forsake his own health.
Soft pale lips quirked up. Subaru found himself torn between feeling embarrassed and enamored. He felt soft, violet eyes following him with every step he made.
Honestly, if it has been anyone but Kamui he would have been unnerved. Having trained since being a child to be wary of those watching him. To keep his distance but keep track of the vengeful spirits and humans alike who would target the Sumeragi clan.
Yet, it was Kamui. So it seemed all his cautions and lessons he had learned went right out the window.
And God, he just wanted to melt meeting the vulnerable yet sweet gaze of his beloved. An urge to tuck back stray strands of hair behind Kamui's ear was becoming a bit too much.
Subaru nervously coughed into his hand. His heart was racing as he felt those same eyes boring into him even harder.
Feet shuffled a bit anxiously through their steps. The sound of steaming water dripping into the coffee pot managed to occupy his mind. "Do you drink coffee?" The older man asked, biting inside his cheek, feeling a bit bad for not knowing the boy's preferences. He knew the boy was not a child, in his late teens so it was likely but…
"Ah, yeah. Please…" Kamui replied, not minding or at least not mentioning the way his housemate's voice raised an octave higher as he spoke to him.
"Of course," Subaru added, looking up through the pantry. Way up on the top shelf, he noticed the pair of coffee mugs. Each adorned with a heart. One displayed a silver heart in the layer with a gold backing, and the other an inverse of the color pattern.
One of the many gifts Hokuto brought for his old apartment… Knowing just who they were both intended for curved his lips south. He could at least admire the thought from his incredibly kind older sister. Not being the same flustered shy teen, he could see some appeal in the matching idea. Perhaps...one day he could bring himself to box up those mugs, as he did most of his treasured possessions from his sister.
Maybe he'd even buy a new pair, make new memories if the opportunity ever arose. Pink dusted over his cheeks. He shook his head lightly, taking notice of the way his bangs splayed longer against his cheek. His forefinger and thumb subconsciously grabbed a long strand of hair. There was something familiar. A look a bit reminiscent of his younger self.
Subaru breathed a sigh, lost in his mind. He'd complete the task at hand. Before worrying his companion. He supposed, looking up a few simple recipes for the future would be a good start. He found his gaze lingering off into the distance. Images of the countless nights resurfaced. Those of Hokuto and Seishirou coming over with arms full of groceries, coming over to help prepare a meal for him. Truthfully, he doubts he would have remembered to eat without that.
Now, though...things have drastically changed and perhaps a change of his own could help.
There was a hope he would stay with it, no longer caring for just himself.
Soft and bittersweet memories, flooded through the older man's head. He absently found himself lifting up the handle of the metal bread box. A few slices of bread were placed into a toaster.
Mind in the clouds, it was no surprise he missed the footsteps approaching him. The way worried eyes came closer and closer.
"Subaru?" Kamui bolted the older man from his thoughts. He cursed inwardly, realizing just how exposed he left himself with Kamui. Those violet eyes were gleaming. Black eyebrows lowered with worry. "Are you alright?"
Subaru noticed his hand reaching forward, lingering, and hovering at the space between them. Just what was he planning to do? He pulled his hand back to retract it before feeling a familiar hand grasp onto him. "I've been calling for you," Kamui professed, eyes lowering before holding Subaru's orbs captive. "I was worried."
The young male might as well have shot an arrow right through Subaru's heart. Everything was shivering. Subaru found his lips parting, again wordless.
The object of his affections was way too close. Well, not close enough, if he went by his emotions over logic. But keeping the boy's vulnerable state in, he quieted his mind. Shyly, averting his eyes and closing them. Like the two of them hadn't spent the whole evening and early morning cuddled up in each other's arms. "I'm fine...just a bit lost in thought."
"I see," Kamui replied, not pressing further. He glanced around the kitchen curiously.
"Ah, sorry…"
"Why?" Kamui pursed his lips tightly together. The worry never ceased to fade from those soft violet-blue eyes.
"Cooking isn't exactly my forte," he blushed, again shifting his gaze towards the sound of a ding. Springs popping up from the toaster. "So, it'll be a bit...simplistic."
Kamui shook his head and settled for a soft affectionate smile. "I don't mind." His lips rubbed together in a motion that kept his admirer entranced. "I can help you if you'd like...I learned a few things when we all were first transferred here."
Kamui willingly omitted the words of his late friend Sorata being their instructor...and of course, being told he would make "a great wife" one day.
Subaru beamed at that. The image of the world's savior partaking in something so ordinary and domestic brought out a fluttering feeling. Squeezing the boy's hand tightly, he answered. "I appreciate that, but let me take care of this, for now, you can rest and relax…"
"I don't want you taking on too much. Kamui's lips quirked at the words. "You know I won't fully relax until you're back…" Kamui assured, knowing quite well how Subaru would push himself to the brink before. His heart so kind and full of love, he'd easily care for another's sake before his own.
Not that the boy realized how that level of kindness was now reserved exclusively for him.
Subaru placed his hands and clasped them on the boy's shoulders. He didn't trust his heart to not betray him and pursed his lips tightly. Kamui let the older male turn him around and guide him to the adjacent dining room.
"Well, I'll wait for you then," Kamui told him sweetly. Violet-blue orbs sparkled. Those soft doe eyes were gazing up at him. A hand reached out to brush against the older man's cheek before retreating.
Dear god. Was Kamui trying to kill him?
"I know you didn't get much rest last night because of me…" Kamui bit down on his lip.
Subaru felt his brain stutter. Yes, yes he absolutely was. Unconsciously or not.
The older male willfully turned on his heel. Hands unconsciously reached towards his side for a cigarette to soothe his nerves. Hands came out empty, and the thought was quickly squashed down, knowing he'd only worry his house-mate further going outside now.
Escaping that same gaze became a higher priority. If he wanted to refrain from making an utter mess of himself. Subaru walked further into the kitchen, walking towards the far end of the room, hidden by the adjoining room's wall. He let his head tilt back against the wall. Kamui wouldn't be able to watch him here. The spiritualist took several deep, mindful breathes, soothing his being until it settled. His stomach muscles, finally, ceasing from performing somersaults.
Subaru exhaled softly one more time before bringing himself back into the boy's line of sight.
Easing his pounding heart was another matter...one that would take far longer.
Thankfully, Subaru still had the breakfast at hand and not screwing it up after turning down Kamui's offer.
Subaru sighed, seeing as Kamui politely took the plate in his protector's hands. He nodded his thanks, eyes scanning over the golden brown toast, orange, and slightly charred eggs. "Thank you, Subaru." He told him sincerely.
Subaru buried his flustered face behind the coffee mug. It hadn't helped that he completely lost focus hearing soft footsteps and a gentle voice speaking out in sole concern. Especially, at the light scent of something burning.
Still, though Kamui only thanked him, assuring him not to remake anything. Not even once had Kamui voiced a complaint. "I honestly, can't thank you enough…"
Subaru lowered the coffee mug on the table. His linger fingers loomed over and rested atop of Kamui's hand. "I should be thanking you…" He responded tenderly.
"Still, you wouldn't have had that scar if I hadn't taken my wish to heart earlier…" Kamui admitted, hand sadly retracting from the hold. Downcast purple eyes missed the crestfallen look on the other's face.
Subaru breathed out slowly. He stood up rather abruptly, palms landing firmly on the oak table beneath.
Moving swiftly over, the older man managed to return the favor. Catchings Kamui by surprise. Strong arms wrapped around the younger male's shoulders.
Subaru relished in the sound of the boy gasping as he was made to lean back in his chair and towards the warm body behind him.
"Subaru?"
"You've saved me Kamui, in more ways than I can say…"
"What do you mean?"
"It's hard to explain…"
Kamui titled his head back and up, looking at the protective man. "But you will tell me?"
Subaru paused, biting down on his lips before deciding. Arms tightened around Kamui's shoulders, slowly lowering the chair back bringing the boy back to gravity. "I will...someday."
"We still have an hour before meeting up with the others, right?" Kamui asked. He turned towards his housemate, eyes lingered over the way those long nimble fingers buttoned up his black dress shirt.
The younger boy turned his gaze away. Eyes downcast to the floor.
"Yeah, a little over that...why?" Subaru looked back at Kamui. Lips curved into a frown. The younger boy hadn't looked up at the sound of footsteps or even the feel of the larger hand brushing over his own.
"Kamui?" Subaru's breath ghosting over his cheeks caused him to bolt. Vulnerable blue eyes gazed into the soft emerald and gold eyes.
"Y-yes?..." Kamui's mind caught up to him before Subaru could part his lips. "Ah- I was thinking it might be good to take a bath beforehand...since…"
The boy didn't finish the thought, both knowing painfully well what would follow. Kamui flushed at the closeness. Subaru leaned down and closer to his face barely catching the hushed whisper at the end.
Emerald and gold eyes shifted and lowered. He caught a pang of sadness as Kamui bit down on his lips. Those petite, slender hands we're nervously fidgeting with the top buttons on his school uniform.
"A-are you sure…?" Subaru asked with hesitance.
A nod and a squeeze of his hand followed. "I'm sure...I don't think I'll quite be ready to wash these though…" Kamui explained, gazed fixed over the dark round buttons he began unclasping.
"You don't have to…" Subaru assured. His hand clasped over Kamui's before trailing up to his shoulder. "There's a lot of meaning that comes with them and everything...that happened." Subaru's voice grew quiet. He willed himself to stop, not mentioning the final battle or the name of his crush's beloved.
Kamui nodded at that. "You-you were there…and I can't say I'm thankful enough."
"I don't think I could have turned away from you even if I wanted to…." Subaru's mind had a way of blurting out the words.
Both sets of jewel-like eyes raised at the admission. The two males turned away from each other a bit flushed.
"I-I still am thankful, " Kamui stated, gaze slowly lingering back to the older man's face.
Subaru met the gaze lingering over him. He raised both of his hands up and slid them across Kamui's cheeks.
"Back there I-" he hesitated before gazing deep into his beloved's eyes. "I wanted nothing more than to be right at your side…" He confessed. A fluttering feeling overwhelmed him as he felt the heat from pink cheeks within the palms of his hands.
"I'm so glad you were there, Subaru…" Kamui smiled one of his most gentle and serene smiles. His facial expression was glowing, lips were barely curved up. There was something so private about it all.
Subaru swallowed. The two of them far too helpless not to look into the other's eyes as whatever this was, took them over.
Thankfully, Subaru stopped himself from leaning down further. And dear God. He could feel that gentle, warm breath from Kamui's parted lips.
Subaru jerked his head back and turned a bit to the side. The eyes burning into him were going to be the very end of him. He knew it. The older male exhaled, finally breaking the silence. "I'll draw your bath then…"
Kamui nodded. Footsteps followed closely after the older male. "Subaru?"
Said male was helpless to do anything but look back. His dual-toned eyes lingered more than necessary.
"Yes, Kamui?"
A sudden warmth overwhelmed him as slender arms looped themselves around his neck. Kamui pressed close to him. His eyes closed and he buried his face in his protector's shoulder. "Thank you…"
"Kamui…" He managed to breathe out. Not trusting his words, he hugged the boy close to him. Parting only to take his beloved Kamui's hand in his own and guide him down the hall and towards the bathroom.
The older male turned the knob on the door and revealed the spacious room. Flipping on the light switch, it revealed the shower stall and large acrylic soaking tub. Several stools were off to the side alongside lower sinks. A tall marble sink was off to the side. Close to the initial entrance was a door to an adjacent room which Kamui assumed to be their cloakroom for changing and laundry.
Subaru smiled softly over the lingering gaze of those soft violet eyes widening in awe.
"Ah-sorry it's just a bit different than what I had back in Okinawa. It's really beautiful, well your whole house is…" Kamui turned his face away mid rambling.
"Our house," Subaru tenderly reminded the boy.
Kamui shivered a bit at the words and sudden close contact. Yet, he found he didn't really mind it. The younger male turned towards Subaru. He glanced shyly up to the incredibly tender expression.
"I-it might take some time to get used to that…" he softly admitted.
"That's perfectly fine, " Subaru spoke with gentle sincerity. Kamui nodded.
Their eyes met again. Their lingering gazes became painfully dangerous for both males to fall into for too long.
"Well then..I-I…" Kamui inwardly cursed his own stuttering. This kind of warm affection was taking a lot to process. He cleared his throat. "I-I should probably get started so we aren't late."
Subaru hummed in agreement. "I'll go finish cleaning the dishes...call me if you need anything."
Kamui nodded, pursing his lips tightly together. He watched the older male turn on his heel and reach for the doorknob. At the sound of the closed bathroom door, Kamui took a few calming breaths.
He hurriedly turned towards the cloakroom. Which of course, was as elegant and spacious as the rest of the bathroom. Kamui exhaled softly, concentrating on the feeling of his breath over his lips.
Carefully he brushed his fingers over the buttons on his shirt. A wave of melancholy overcame his features. "Fuuma…" Kamui painfully recalled the events from two days ago, vividly. A hand reached forward, unconsciously brushing over his lips. His touch still lingering.
"Wh-why did it have to end like this…?" Kamui let the storm run wild. Tears were spilling out and blurring his vision. His hand reluctantly returned back to his stained uniform. Kamui carefully held the buttons between his thumb and forefinger, whilst his other hand gingerly held the other end of his uniform.
Several top buttons were undone, stained with warm drops of water, pouring down from Kamui's eyes. Fuuma…
His soft smile and gentle embraces came to mind.
Fuuma…
Alongside the harsh pain of being thrown and pressed up against a flat surface with wicked hands trailing over his body and squeezing at his neck.
Fuuma…
Finally, those last few moments. Feeling their very first kiss against his lips. The warm stirring feeling of his Fuuma's voice calling out to him. Those lips he longed for were dripping words of love.
Knees gave in weakly and Kamui fell to his knees. A loud thump emitted.
He swallowed harshly, sniffling as his hands hurried before he decided to gently finish unbuttoning. slide off the fabric holding the last remnants of his Fuuma.
A waterfall of emotions we're flooding across his features. A tear at his chest formed as he felt the long black sleeves sliding off his body. He carefully folded his shirt as though it were something sacred.
He shakily managed to raise himself and sit upon the lavish, cushioned bench at the side of the room. Hands moved quickly before regret settled in as he managed to sit up and slide off the dirtied black fabric.
Kamui breathed a few labored breaths before pulling his knees close to his chest.
From the other end of the home, Subaru halted at the harsh thud sounding from where Kamui had been. His mind fought a quick battle on whether he should give the boy his time and space, before worry over him being hurt set in.
Long toned legs rushed forward and down the halls. "Kamui?"
The gentle voice reverberated through the young boy's mind. "Su-" He had started. The delay must have been deafening as soon enough the doorknob was twisting. "Baru…"
"Kamui…" he called out to him. Dual toned eyes shivered at the sight of his precious person balled up on the bench. Teary purple-blue eyes were shaking, and a bitten lip quivered.
"Kamui…" Subaru rushed over and sat right up against his distraught beloved. The younger boy hadn't pulled away. He only looked up bleary at the protective man. His protector.
Arms encircled and closed around Kamui tightly. His nearly bare body was pressed close into a warm chest. "Shhh…" Subaru gently brought their bodies closer and Kamui uncurled from himself.
"Kamui…." My beloved. "Kamui, I'm here now for anything...however you're feeling. So please, you don't need to hide when you're in pain like this."
Kamui's eyes flooded over and reddened. His hands clutched at the man's chest, burying his hands and his face snuggly against the protective warmth.
Subaru brought them flushed together. Gently, soaking in every tear, cry, and breath of Fuuma, Kamui needed to get out of his system.
He stayed close and held Kamui until the storm stopped and some minutes after.
"Subaru?"
"Hmm, " he nuzzled his face against the boy's unruly raven locks. Breathing him in.
"I think I'll be alright now…." Kamui started, with a part of him wanting to laugh at the eyes lowering and pursuing in disbelief. A small broken up laugh did escape his lips at the feeling of the older male stubbornly hugging him tight. Huffing when Kamui pulled away just a few millimeters.
"I'm serious. I'll be alright to take a bath...and I will call for you if things get bad again…" He promised. Soft hands were brushing over the male's cheeks, lingering to softly caress the pale skin.
The older male seemed to accept the answer. His hands lingered over the smaller ones. Dual-toned eyes cast down and Subaru's eyebrows furrowed. He looked up, fully facing Kamui before coming to his decision. "Alright…" he breathed out softly, capturing Kamui's lingering gaze, and taking Kamui's hands fully into his own.
He languidly took one of Kamui's hands and brought them up to his lips, silently vowing his all to the boy before him.
The younger boy gasped at the gentle movements. Subaru's lips kissed firmly over his hand. By the time he could process Subaru repeated the gentle lingering touch and kiss with his other hand.
"I'll go start your bath…" Subaru insisted, hugging the boy tightly before closing the door and giving him his privacy in the changing room.
Kamui blushed. He breathed out softly, removing the remaining underwear on his body and placing it in the wash. He quickly reached out for a towel and tied it around his waist exiting the room to face his protector.
The younger boy thanked the older man squeezing his hand. They stayed in soft silence.
With reluctance and several more intimate touches of the younger boy's hands and face, Subaru nodded and gave the boy his privacy.
Apparent. Oh, had it become so very apparent now. Kamui didn't have a change of clothes. He did whisk the younger boy over here without thinking of details. They would have to go back to Kamui's old dorm on campus and retrieve his things.
For now, though two options surfaced. Kamui would either have to go back to wearing those same bloodied clothes that would sting at his core….or Subaru would have to lend him some of his own clothes, at least until they arrived on campus.
The spiritualist breathed out a long shaky exhale. He pressed his forehead to the wall before him, calming his racing heart.
Kamui wearing his clothes. Pink flooded Subaru's features.
What am 16? He berated himself, not that it helped his thundering heart. Dual toned eyes widened with inspiration, the flushed feeling slowly dissolving as he recalled just what he would be doing.
That's right. I still have those…
Subaru turned towards one of the empty guest rooms. It was stacked with boxes of his old things. Boxes that hadn't been opened in nearly a decade now.
It's for Kamui… Subaru reasons, his lips quirking up on their own.
Carefully, he opened one of the markless boxes and sorted through some of the clothing.
Clothes, his sister lovingly made for him. He assured himself she'd understand. This was a matter of the heart. Fond yet bittersweet memories resurfaced of their days together, and his own flustered expression having to don both more feminine and masculine clothes. A chuckle escaped his lips.
He took a matching pair of black silk pants and a short-sleeved top. With it, came with a light violet vest that cropped right below one's chest.
Subaru turned scarlet, imagining how the vest would go perfectly with Kamui's eyes. The dark silky fabric would fit so well with Kamui's smooth light ivory skin. Scooping up the remaining clothes, Subaru came to a decision. He walked down that same hall.
A hand knocked on the door. Unknowingly starting the boy soaking in the warm water. "Kamui?"
"Yes?" The boy brought his legs up against his chest, preserving what little coverage he could get.
"Can I come in? I have some more towels and some clothes you could wear if you wanted to."
Kamui blinked at the admission. "You can come in…" he voiced softly.
Subaru let out a breath of relief. He turned the knob and placed the folded clothes on the counter of the changing room. "I'll place them here. They're some clothes I had from when I was a teenager...I think they might fit you well or at least better than my current ones." Indulgent images of a Kamui draped in one of his longer shirts came to mind. He shook his head fervently.
"Thank you, " Kamui expressed, eyes lingering on the steam surrounding the tub.
"Ah it's n-no problem, Kamui, " Subaru stumbled, flushing red before closing the door behind him. Kamui simply hummed an acknowledgment before closing the door.
Kamui bit back the grin on his face. That was really cute…
Realization dawned on him. Soon, he came to realize he'd be wearing his gentle protector's clothes. Clothes with so much meaning. Cheeks flushed a bit. He pressed his lips closed.
Knowing how dear his sister was to him...to have to dig out something from his past. It must have been painful. He made a mental note to continue to thank Subaru for doing that when he got out.
An odd exchange of painful emotions and this new warm feeling were overwhelming his senses. Kamui took a breath before burying part of his face under the water. Taking a moment to make sense of things.
Subaru knew his old clothes would fit at least relatively well. Just not that well. Those silky black dress pants hugged perfectly around his slender hips, and the shirt accentuated his sleek form.
And of course...the purple vest matched with his beloved's eyes exceptionally well.
"It probably looks a bit strange on me…" Kamui reddened at the lingering gaze. "But I appreciate you doing this."
Subaru caught the curious narrowed gaze. He finally answered. "Oh, No, no, no…" Subaru shook his head quickly, strands of raven-black fell over his face. "They look nice…" He coughed into his clenched fist, heart pounding at those sweet doe eyes lingering. "Really, they suit you."
"Thanks…" Kamui whispered quietly, still looking uncertain. Purple eyes were downcast, those soft and incredibly alluring eyes turned away from Subaru's.
The older man took a few steps forward. He cupped the boy's small face in his hands and guided Kamui to look back up at him. "I mean it! I..."
Kamui reflected the smile Subaru could feel burning on his lips. I love you. His mind was screaming.
"Thank you, Subaru, " Kamui breathed his name so tenderly. Subaru's breath hitched. He cleared his throat and a rather lovesick brain from straying further.
"Of course, " Subaru paused before reluctantly pulling his hand back. He startled, feeling Kamui grasp it back into place.
"Kamui…" Subaru already regretted the words that formed. "We do have to go soon…"
"I know, " Kamui said a bit sadly. Brushing his smaller hand over Subaru's. "It's just…" The boy shook his head.
Dual toned eyes widened as they lifted up.
You're so warm.
"It's...hard getting used to things now…" Kamui opted to speak. It was the honest truth. He clasped and captured the larger hand with his own, bringing them down to hang at their sides. He watched the way Subaru's earlier smile curved south. "It helps to have you near, " he amended. Both pairs of jewel-toned eyes were widening and blinking a bit wildly. Before they fully settled and gave into each other's gaze.
Subaru grasped the boy's hand tightly in assurance. Lacing their fingers together perfectly. His last puzzle piece put into place. The older male kept his mouth agape. Heart pounding loud enough where he could hear it ringing in his ears.
"Thank you, I…" he took a breath, glancing away only to be sucked back into to orbit surrounding his beloved. "I am really glad to have you here with me, " Subaru paused. For bringing me back, in a way beyond what a lifetime of the perfect words could hope to convey.
Regretting eyes curved down, starting at the flashing numbers on his watch. "We really are gonna be late now."
Kamui laughed softly and nodded in agreement. "We will get going then, " he agreed. Not at all commenting on their joined hands as Subaru swiftly led them through the halls and out the door.
CLAMP Academy was buzzing with students. A sense of ease formed over the students beaming faces. Talks of the world's stability and finalizing with those bizarre earthquakes were spoken in relief.
Kamui and Subaru walked more leisurely than they were supposed to back to Nokoru Imonoyama's office. The sight of the sparkling fountains and beautiful flower fields drew them in. Although Subaru's eyes always found themselves straying back to look at Kamui, watching with absolute adoration at the younger boy's expressions.
They finally approached the large lavish building on campus. The chairman's right-hand man, Suoh Takamura, came out to greet the last guests to arrive. His business attire was immaculately clean and pressed. Suoh's blue hair seemed to sparkle in the sunlight. The warm morning rays did bring out the amber color in his eyes. Even if they did have a steely gaze. His arms were crossed over his chest.
"Nokoru was worried you two wouldn't make it," He noted with a bit of a reprimanding tone.
Eyes lingered down and began softening a bit at the boys' joined hands. He knew Nokoru would have a field day with these two, at some point or other. Imonoyama certainly loved love and setting others up. If he and Nagisa were anything to go by.
He turned to them both with a slightly amused smile. "Well, now that you've arrived, I think it's time we discuss a few more matters."
"Right, I am sorry, " Kamui addressed formerly before bowing his head. He squeezed Subaru's hand gesturing for him to do the same.
Amusement sparkled in softening eyes. He held back a laugh. Seeing the now-infamous Sakurazukamori and famous head of the Sumeragi clan wrapped around the boy's finger was rather entertaining. It certainly soothed his nerves, he and Nokoru both worrying for Kamui after everything that occurred the past 24 hours. He waved it off, the boy's nervous expression, suppressing a chuckle. A hand fanned over his lips.
"Now, there is no need for all that. Nokoru won't let me hear the end of it if I 'scare' off our guests," Suoh bemused. "We just are glad you are here.."
Both males lifted their heads up. Subaru nodded his thanks before following Suoh through the doorway and up the staircase to the student council rooms.
They were greeted first with Yuzuriha's beaming face. She waved them over from one of the sofa's she was sitting on. "Subaru, Kamui! You made it!" She squealed. Slender arms were quickly wrapped around Kamui in a tight hug. With a second of resistance, Yuzuriha shook off her thoughts and turned to the tall male.
She leaned forward and hugged the taller male. Subaru was their friend. She knew his heart was fragile, gentle...And clearly, he meant a lot to Kamui. Subaru seemed a bit stunned at the friendly affection. Kamui held back a soft laugh.
The cheerful chairman stood up from his desk and beamed at the males. "Shirou Kamui and Sumeragi Subaru, I am so glad you could make it!" He welcomed them, closing the space between and extending his hand. Subaru and Kamui took their turn to shake the blond's hand.
Finally, the Dragons of Heaven were sitting down. Arashi sat beside a chattering Yuzuriha. Karen and Aoki were seated on the adjacent chairs, leaving one spot open. Kamui and Subaru, sat closely together, on the open loveseat. Their thighs brushed when Kamui scooted closer. Subaru voiced no complaints.
A knock followed, and the sound of the knob turning open.
Several staff members and students opened the door and slowly stepped over the threshold. They bowed towards the campus President. Males and females were starry-eyed to see the famous Imonoyama Nokoru, face to face.
Nokoru smiled and waved it off. He laughed with a look of innocence, much like his school detective days...Before the promised day was revealed.
"Come in, come in, " The blond called cheerfully. The staff members returned the kind expression and went back out to grab several carts.
Elegant teapots and matching cups were placed on the top of the cart. Several more silver carts were rolled in, with a clear coffee pot, several more cups, and what appeared to be a variety of several fruits and sweets.
Walking along with who seemed to be a student was soft locks of dark green hair. His voice came out gently. "I've personally worked on these deserts, with our culinary arts department just for today. I hope our guests will enjoy them."
"Akira," Nokoru smiled at the baking prodigy. He titled his head to the side, the sun seemed to highlight the blond strands of hair to light gold. Most of the students couldn't keep their eyes off of him. "In that case, I am sure they will be wonderful. And I trust it you've made your famous milk tea to go with it?"
"Well, of course," Akira answered with a sheepish grin. He walked over towards his friend and began chatting amiably. Several staff members brought out a cart specifically for Nokoru and Suoh. Akira poured them both a cup of award-worthy tea. They talked for a bit quite animatedly, regarding something with an upcoming festival.
Nokoru's sky blue eyes wandered, looking over each of the former seals. A Cheshire cat grin sprung over his lips seeing Subaru and Kamui sitting intimately close on the couch, their hands still joined. Suoh, knowing his best friend far too long, caught the scheming glint in his eyes. He sighed.
The former seals were offered their own choice of drinks and sweets. After taking up their offer, the carts were wheeled back. Akira waved goodbye to the group and began talking with his students about some new recipes.
"Thank you, " Nokuro called out and waved to the staff, students, and friends he seemed to hold to like family. "Now then, since you're all here we can discuss the living arrangements, as I know there are changes," his blue eyes gazed over the two raven haired males. He noticed a shiver run down Kamui's spine.
The blond's tone softened. He waved his hand forward, dispelling some tension. "Which is fine, you're always welcome to come back on campus or the connecting apartments, if you wish. That goes for all of you."
"We should be thanking you, " Aoki added politely. The gentle editor gestured towards the group who gave their nods in agreement. The brunette smiled up at the blond president.
"Well, then as for me…"
His expression lowered to neutrality as he continued. The brunette pressed his hands together and held them before his face. "You'll have to forgive me, as I won't be able to stay for long. I've gotten back into contact with my wife and daughter. I'm hoping to make amends and be returning to our former home."
"That is completely fine. I am happy to see things are working well for you," Nokuro, beamed ever the supporter of love. "My offer remains the same for all dragons of heaven.." Nokoru finished before looking over the others and nodded.
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Karen, who had been sitting next to Aoki, smiled. She clasped her hands over the man's hands smiling brightly. "That's so great...You're finally able to return to them!"
Aoki rubbed at the back of his head, laughing sheepishly.
Kamui huffed a bit looking over the two. How could it be that the oldest of the dragons of heaven, is this oblivious? The eyes Karen held for the older man were sincere yet pained. How can he not notice her feelings? And such obvious feelings from someone that close to him?
She'd always been so close, the voice always calling out with love, all the while keeping boundaries set, knowing and wishing for the happiness of the other above all else.
Subaru turned down and looked quizzically at the boy. His face revealed an array of emotions, yet now he seemed lost in thought.
"Kamui," Subaru whispered. Hand absently brushing through soft locks of hair. Kamui leaned up and into his warmth. Subaru barely refrained from snorting. Kamui being quite reminiscent of an affection-craved kitten. "Are you alright?"
"Ah, yeah…" Kamui responded, trailing off, before returning to the conversation.
"I can't thank you enough, Imonoyama," Karen spoke out, and turned towards the absolutely glowing director.
"Just, Nokoru, please" The blond insisted. He titled his head to the side. "I'd hate to be known only so formally by such a wonderful lady such as yourself."
"You flatter me," Karen laughed, waving her hand down before herself. "And I certainly can't thank you enough for the job offer on campus. Of course, I won't be on the main high-school campus," Karen paused with a laugh and looked tenderly over the teenagers in the room... "So, I'll be happy to stay close in the nearby housing units. Someone needs to keep an eye on the youth," She teased, biting down on her tongue. Her eyes lingered over the high school students.
Nokoru clapped his hands together cheerfully, resting them against his cheek. "And CLAMP academy will be honored to have you with us! A beautiful woman such as yourself here is an absolute pleasure. You're all quite lucky to have one such as Karen Kasami looking out for you here."
Yuzuriha chimed in. "Of course, I'll be happy to see you around more!" Karen softened at that, patting the soft black locks of hair on the girl. She was always so very sweet, and Inuki nuzzled up against the older woman's legs.
Arashi breathed a sigh, "I appreciate the sentiment. But I will be fine. I'm already 18, now" She professed assuredly. Yet, there was no malice in her tone, seeing the concerned gazes from their friends on her. As though she wasn't always constantly reminded of her love's sacrifice during the battle. The long-haired priestess did stop, to lace her hands together in her lap. "I do plan to finish my final year in high school...Although, I plan to take some time off."
"To Mount Koya?" Kamui already surmised.
Arashi nodded, her gaze softened and fell over her lap. "I think going back to his hometown could be the least I could do...and it might give myself a sense of clarity." The soft-spoken priestess nodded at her decision. She ignored the worried gazes of her friends while knowing they meant well, her mind weighed her down enough. "Don't worry, I plan on going back to the academy in a few month's time if that's alright."
She turned towards the headmaster, looking into the genuine compassion in those soft blue eyes.
"Naturally, our doors will always be open for you," Nokoru professed, with an award-winning smile. "We'll be excited to have you back on campus. And hopefully... we will get to see that beautiful smile of yours again."
Arashi blinked at that statement before, awkwardly shifting her gaze and bowing her head. "Ah...thank you."
Yuzuriha's eyebrows furrowed a bit. "I am gonna miss having you here…Miss Arashi," she admitted sadly. Arashi smiled fondly, placing her hand gently on top of the younger girl. "Just Arashi." She softened.
Yuzuriha, sniffled, her lips pouting up, as a wave of emotion took over her eyes. She shook her head, and her fingers started to dry her eyes. Arashi gasped, finding her arms full as the younger girl rushed in. She hugged her friend tightly, resting her head on the older girl's shoulder.
Inuki came back to rest beside his partner's legs. Nuzzling his head against her knee. Yuzuriha laughed softly, before petting the affectionate spirit.
"So then... I'll be looking forward to when you come back!" Yuzuriha concluded. She felt gentle fingers, from the elder girl brushing through her hair.
Arashi smiled, "I'll be back to finish my final year…" To feel so much kindness, when she nearly cost the young girl her own precious person. It was incredibly obvious how the one she loved, the former Dragon of Earth, had been swayed by Yuzuriha.
"Good!" Yuzuriha answered, squeezing the older girl into a tight hug before releasing her. She brushed at her cheek, sheepish. She turned towards Kamui. "It looks like it'll be you and me for the first few months of high school here."
Kamui nodded, and let his lips curve up. The energetic girl's charisma was infectious. "I know I...won't be living on campus," He turned to the girl apologetically. After knowing the warmth and protective feeling that came with living with the man sitting next to him, he knew he'd never be able to regret his decision. He would never be able to go back. "But, I'm sure I'll be seeing you on campus a lot. And I have a feeling we'll be running into Keiichi again as well." He added fondly, fully hoping his caring friend had been doing alright.
"Keiichi?" Yuzuriha blinked a bit at the name, briefly recalling some mentions of him in the past.
Kamui explained further. "He's a good friend. I'm sure you'll see him more with us both being in the High School division." And we're no longer separated, so we can actually go to school without the end of the world hanging in the balance.
"Ah, that's right," Subaru reflected on the rather cheerful classmate of Kamui's. They were certainly close. Subaru may have snaked around Kamui's waist, quite snuggly, as he did so. "We saw him back when I was tutoring you."
"Mhmm," Kamui nodded, not at all bothered nor negatively reactive to the way he was pulled closer and tighter to the older man's side. The former leader simply let himself be held closely, enjoying the warmth.
"It'll be nice to go back to school life again, not to mention the cute uniforms…" Yuzuriha giggled cheerfully to herself. "Still, it'll be a bit lonely...in the dorms without you guys…" A pause. Arashi and Kamui frowned, looking guiltily towards the oddly quiet girl. Her Inuki cuddled close against her legs, muzzle resting on her knee.
"But-" She perked up, feeling a bit more positive at an idea. "I guess that means I'll have to come by and visit you all more often!" She reasoned and clapped her hands together in a form of satisfaction. "And of course we'll have to meet up before our first classes-" She trailed off, already making plans.
"Of course," Kamui assured. "I'll definitely have to visit you at the dorms as well."
Arashi was the next to speak out. "And, when I come back to Tokyo..Perhaps, we'll be able to be roommates again."
"That's no problem!" The girls looked over at the sound of hands clapping closed. The cheerful chairman finally, chimed in. "It can be arranged easily…"
Nokoru's right-hand man shook his head muttering something about his policy "doing anything for a lady in need", and its consequences on his productivity.
"Now, then... regarding you two,." Sparkling blue eyes lingered at the pair, more so keeping watch over the dual-hatted spiritualist. Then there was the hold he held over the still fragile, or perhaps equally fragile, Kamui.
There was something there that changed between the two. Even knowing the destined position the protective man held, he could cast aside the fear of Kamui being his prey. The Sumeragi head, acted far too clumsy and vulnerable around the younger boy for that to be the case. Not to mention, Kamui's wish granted his protector, freedom from the usual duties to the Sakura tree.
Nokoru hadn't been happy to hear that Subaru, simply left the Dragon's of Heaven for some time. But he seemed to be atoning and doing more than enough for their very world. He did come back in the end, at least for Kamui's sake. The older seal showed the older man clearly felt for the boy, risking his life and coming back during that final battle.
"I have no qualms about you two living together," Nokoru assured, confirming with himself. His smile turned a bit devious while looking towards Subaru. He had quite the resources at his disposal to keep track of the talented Sumeragi-head should anything go awry. And with such precautions taken care of, he found himself already rooting for the two of them.
The two males being hurt quite enough for one lifetime. A little happiness was well earned.
Subaru shuddered, visibly at the look. Calming, only when he felt a soft hand entangling with his own.
"I trust you'll take the utmost care of Shirou Kamui," The blond chairman eyed the older man carefully. Nokoru felt a smirk creep up his lips at the shy blush of pink that fell between the two of them. He found the older male to be painfully obvious. Yet, it wasn't to say the former savior wasn't attached in some way. Time would tell.
Subaru's emerald and gold orbs looked firmly towards the chairman. "Of course, I will." He vowed earnestly. He clasped the hand, in his own, tightly. Locking eyes with the boy he finished. "If there's anything you need Kamui, you don't need to hesitate to ask, you know that right?"
Kamui's eyes held an ethereal glow. The boy's lips curled up shyly. He nodded. Blue-violet eyes began lingering over the warmth he continued to feel upon his hand.
There was something far more private about whatever was happening between the two. The room's occupants averted their eyes from the intimate scene. Kamui leaned up and whispered something that seemed to make the older man melt.
Nokoru finally cleared his throat, not that it broke the two quiet males out of their trance. "Well, with that out of the way then I think we can start arranging classes and living situations for those who will be staying here…"
The younger members of the group were brought up towards the desk first, a large computer screen showing detailed information about the academy campus, and departments. Paperwork had been given off to the majority of the group. Both Yuzuriha and Kamui were given additional contact information for their academic advisor, for when they were ready to start school life again.
"Sumeragi?" A familiar voice called the older male out of his thoughts. Subaru turned around to see an unnerving smile on Karen's lips. "I'd just like to have a talk with you for a bit. Is that alright?"
Her eyes were dead set. It was hardly a question.
Subaru sighed and came to an agreement. "Of course," Dread was already creeping in. Subaru called out to the boy. "I'll be right back," he assured and waved at Kamui.
The younger boy frowned for a bit, earning a soft giggle from Yuzuriha. Ultimately, he nodded in confirmation, looking suspiciously over Karen and even Aoki walking out the door. The fiery woman's smile was far more devious, though.
Kamui already planned on getting every detail he could out of Subaru, for whatever that conversation was.
"You can relax, Sumeragi," Karen assured, fanning her hands down, in a gesture for him to sit beside herself and Aoki. They were a good distance away at one of the CLAMP academies rest areas, besides the sparkling fountain.
"I'm fine." Subaru remained standing a fair distance away, leaning his back against the tree. He hummed, his nerves racing far too much to be at was quite obvious just whom the conversation would gear towards.
The red-haired woman simply rolled her eyes. Youth.
"Alright, fine I'll cut to the chase," Karen stated. Her voice was still filled with a sense of warmth and concern. She had seen some brightness and life returning into the eyes of the reserved man. There had been something void and dimmed in the distant seal's eyes, even if they had only seen each other a handful of times.
"We're concerned for Kamui," she started, gesturing to herself and the quiet editor beside her. Subaru opened his mouth to respond; Karen held out her hand."I don't mean to say it's a concern because of you-I can see Kamui's quite attached to you for one reason or another, and well," She waved her hand around vaguely in circles, gesturing towards Subaru. "There is...whatever you two have going on now. But...he's in a fragile place, with everything he's gone through after the final battle, and the loss that came with it."
Subaru's gold and emerald eyes steeled. He didn't try to suppress the cold stare that followed nor the bitter tone from his lips. "I'm quite aware, I was the one who was there with Kamui," he professed, protectiveness over Kamui blurring out his senses. "I was the only one there to see him break down like that when-" He slapped a hand over his lips, and cursed himself. As though the other Dragons of Heaven were in any condition to fight further, everyone surely risked their lives during the battle. And while he had left behind the person he cared so deeply for.
"I'm sorry," Subaru professed, sincerely, bowing his head. "That came out all wrong…" he lamented, trailing off and avoiding the saddened looks of the older adults.
Karen shook her head, "You aren't wrong. We weren't in any state to fight further and help Kamui at that final battle…" She crossed her legs and sighed. A gentle hand placed itself warmly over her own. Karen smiled at the gentle-hearted brunette at her side. The two shared a soft look, and Karen continued. "But...still you might want to work on articulating, especially if you're planning on winning over Kamui's heart one day," she teased, quite pleased with the blush that followed.
Subaru's mouth hung ajar, yet he kept speechless. His heart began racing so frantically, blocking out the sound of his own thoughts. Dual-toned eyes shivered and shifted away from the knowing stare.
Thankfully, the kind-hearted brunette finally took his turn to voice his thoughts. He decided to redirect things. "Well, what I believe we were getting at was that we care for Kamui, and yourself as well. I assume I'm correct with that, Sumeragi?" Aoki rubbed at the back of his neck.
"More than anything," Subaru professed, instantaneously.
Aoki smiled at that. "Then I am relieved. Unfortunately, I won't be able to see everyone as often as I'd like. So it's good to hear firsthand that he'll be in good hands." He expressed clearly, looking into those mismatched eyes to see nothing short of sincerity, and affection at the very mention of Kamui. "It seems you being with Kamui has been a positive experience for yourself as well."
Subaru pursed his lips and nodded.
"You seem happier," Aoki added, "And I think we can all agree Kamui chose to stay with you, quite willingly."
Karen turned towards her precious person and sighed. "Well, I do believe you care for him," She paused, and smirked. Subaru certainly had it terribly bad. The male's pretty and flushed face was very much glowing with love. "But first I want you to promise something," she resolved.
Subaru raised an eyebrow at that. "Promise?" he repeated warily.
"Kamui is quite attached to you. The boy has had terrible luck in losing everyone he's done just that to. I don't think he could stand being hurt again…" The older woman laughed at that. His emotions displayed themselves very much as obviously and clumsily as Kamui's did. "Promise that no matter what happens you will take care of Kamui, and stay by his side. That you won't leave him, betray his trust, and cause him more pain."
"I could never leave him…" Subaru thought aloud, his eyes glistening. "I'd rather die than betraying."
He'd never repeat the past pains, his first love had given to him. He could never live with himself...
Subaru let out a lingering breath. "I can promise that." He turned towards the two, "parents" of the group, and looked both of them in the eyes. "I will do everything I can for Kamui…"
Karen mumbled something about him and his 'hopeless' attitude. "He cares for you too, deeply. So try and love yourself a bit more...make sure you're both taken care of."
The soft-spoken man nodded. A fondness overcoming him at the mention of Kamui's own concern. He. gazed up at the bright blue sky up above. His lips curved. Hopeless. He could see that same color reflected in his beloved Kamui's eyes...
After what felt like hours, a soft knock came to the door. "Sumeragi, you can come in," Nokoru added knowingly. The knowing response left even the gifted spiritualist quite a bit unnerved.
The doorknob turned with some hesitance. Subaru stepped into the room, seeing Yuzuriha and Kamui discussing something with the young director that had made the raven-haired boy smile.
The young male turned around, his smile growing ten-fold at the sight of the returning male. "How did things go?"
Subaru's swallowed. His chest throbbed. The older male felt the heat rise to his cheeks. He couldn't even speak a word to the now concerned looking boy.
Kamui titled his head a bit to the side. "Subaru?" he voiced in concern. His slender hand reached out towards the older male, only for it to be snatched up by a larger hand.
"Subaru…?" Kamui asked again, worriedly.
Subaru gently bowed his head towards the soft-hearted director. The blond eyed the two curiously, suppressing his grin behind a widening fan he held over his face. It seems some habits would never change.
"Subaru?" Kamui attempted for a third time, feeling the insistent hand pulling him further out towards the door. He sighed in defeat, opting to adjust their linked hands in a more comfortable position. Subaru's eyes widened before settling. His features softened, looking back at their now evenly clasped hands.
"Did something happen?" The younger boy asked, with a bit of irritation at the silence.
Kamui waved over to Yuzuriha as he felt the hand around his wrist pulling him further away.
Finally, Subaru spoke out. "It's not that-" Not entirely. "I just wanted to…" What did he want to do? His heart moved ahead of his mind, as he had quickly dragged the boy out of the office and into a secluded hall.
Words were hardly his strong suit, and now it felt impossible. "Suba-" Kamui was cut off by warm arms swiftly pulling him up and into a tight embrace. "-ru.." he finished, feeling a hand on his head, being guided to rest against the older male's chest. Fingers brushed through his hair. Kamui let the older male do as he pleased for a few moments, finally, feeling the arms around him loosening to a more comforting embrace.
"Are you okay now?" Kamui persisted, arms that hung loosely at his side came to rest gently on the older and taller male's shoulders. The boy leaned back and looked up to see a fragile yet endearing glint reflected in those gem-like eyes.
"I'm fine," Subaru at last assured. His cheeks dusted pink. Kamui gave in to the urge to reach out a hand and touch them. The younger male became entranced, feeling the heat react to his touch and the color changing. "Subaru…" Kamui called for him sweetly.
"I guess I was just missing you more than I realized," Subaru at last professed. The hand entangled in Kamui's hair left to hold the smaller hand upon his cheek. Countless emotions fell behind those gold and green eyes.
Kamui felt his lips quirk. He pondered over saying how Subaru had only been gone for 15, maybe 20 minutes? But he wasn't in quite the state to say anything. He certainly felt himself craving a familiar warmth the second he heard the turn of the doorknob.
"I missed you too," he expressed. Kamui features seemed to glow and soften under the lighting. His smile turned up, a bit shyer than before at their proximity. Kamui felt his fingers linger and tap against the soft skin beneath it. The slender hand at Subaru's shoulder slid up, tangling itself within the raven-black hairs at the back of his neck.
The silence felt oddly comforting. The soft sounds of the other breathing were all that could be heard. The white noise calmed Kamui's nerves and earlier worries. He subconsciously pressed closer to the warm body surrounding him. Subaru closed his eyes, lingering into Kamui's soft touches.
The younger male reflected on the feeling.
There was always something natural that came with their touches. Right from their first meeting. Kamui found himself surprised to feel so warm and at ease to feel the older, exhausted male lying on top of him. Hands holding each other or giving soft caresses-it came instinctively when around the other-to the point where it felt wrong to be close to the other without some form of physical contact.
Now, it seemed the desire to be close had only become more severe. Kamui returned to pressing his cheek against the man's shoulder. A chin laid on the crown of his head. The two fell into each other.
The horrors of the past days and worries for tomorrow would just have to be on the backburner. At least for the next few moments….
CH 2 END