Ambrosia: Tulip~ Ch 9
(Symbolism: absolute romance, declaration of love, eternal love, sensuality...are some of the most common ones. Red Tulips=eternal love, declaring love, undying love. Variegated=you have beautiful eyes.) We are getting fluffy and romantic here.
Subaru and Kamui grow closer. Romantic tension ensues, after months of dancing around each other with every touch and near kisses. Both are very much ready to cross the line, although the idea of the other's reciprocation causes hesitation. Kamui comes to a clear realization and plans and attempts to finally get his feelings across. This chapter/arc ended up way longer than planned! I'm splitting the chapters up (they're still long even then) since there are a ton of events going on. Both parts are finished though and will be up today.
Ambrosia: Chapter 9- Tulip
Healing….
Winds gently bristle flowers throughout the grassy field. Comforting hands hold painfully tight. Kamui manages to lead towards the resting place of his childhood friends.
"Thank you," Kamui turns back to the taller male behind him. It would be the first time since Fuuma's passing, Kamui had come here with someone. Exposing absolute vulnerability like that- it could only be with Subaru.
The protective man was exceedingly quiet. He had been since they left home. The first stop at the florist was draining, to say the least. Seeing someone he loved so distraught, and broken up, made his heart plummet.
That first stop should have been quick and easy. Kamui even cracked a very tiny half-smile. The first smile that day. Subaru had only been honest. He insisted he wanted to be there with Kamui, to pay his respects, pick out whatever flowers Kamui would find most suitable for his late friends. That little smile counted as a victory.
When they walked into the shop, things shifted. Being as close as the pair had been, it was a common mistake. The elderly woman at the shop assumed she'd be gathering flowers for some kind of anniversary.
Under better circumstances, Subaru would have cherished the mistake. Kamui flushing scarlet, at being referenced as the older male's "shy girlfriend," was cute. Though things were short-lived. Beloved violet-blue eyes were starting to tear up, and changed the mood entirely.
The atmosphere tended to change at the mention of loss. The death of a loved one. Subaru didn't make Kamui talk to respond since they went in. The younger male hadn't said a word since they left the house. His head held down for the walk.
Kamui had been insistent on the cleaning aspect of things, thoroughly cleaning and honoring his lost loves. A brief stop home followed up gathering necessities to keep their place clean. Kamui quickly collected clean rags, a bucket, and incense to burn.
Living with a well-known spiritualist had many benefits. The excess and variety of incense to choose from certainly helped.
"You're ready?" Subaru asks softly, running a hand up and down Kamui's arm. The latter only nods, torn between openly tearing up now or brooding until they arrived. Subaru's soft comforting hand cards through his unruly locks. Violet-blue eyes close at the gentle caress.
"Alright," Subaru says sweetly. He quietly brushes his hand over Kamui's. "Would you like any help?" He refers to the arm full of supplies.
Kamui lingers on the question. Though he decides to accept the offer, bowing his head slightly.
Silently, Subaru grasps the heavier of the items. The silver bucket and ladle aren't exactly heavy but bulkier. Subaru knew well how strong Kamui had been, but what mattered was keeping Kamui as unburdened as possible.
Subaru felt his heart lurch as they came on campus. The beautiful botanical department seemed dimmer than usual... Kamui all but collapsed in front of a valve. Shaky hands slipped and dropped the bucket he'd been holding.
"Kamui…" The caring man knelt beside him, hugging the smaller figure to his side. With a few guided breaths, Kamui manages to lift the empty bucket and try again.
Assuring steady hands covered shaking ones. Subaru assisted Kamui in turning the knob and holding up the empty bucket. With hope, Kamui wouldn't take his offers the wrong way, didn't want to take over too much of what Kamui deemed important.
Seeing those beautiful hands trembling, brought a strong urge within the protective man. An urge he could never quite resist. His larger hands continued to clasp over Kamui's, guiding them through a simple yet draining process.
Kamui glanced at Subaru quickly. The hand holding his, guided Kamui to release the bucket's metal handle. Torn-up, trembling and broken violet eyes looked up for answers a sense of hope things would be alright.
Subaru grasps for Kamui's hand, still shaking, clinging to the ladle on the side of the bucket. Nimble fingers eased Kamui's grip. He took the trembling hand, placing it at Kamui's side.
Lips were shaking as badly as Kamui's body. He couldn't even kneel without falling back to his bottom. There was a brief moment of silence, the two men fell into each other's eyes. Emerald and gold comforted pleading violet-blue eyes. The pain was inevitable, but the older man planned to lessen the suffering as much as possible.
"K-Kamui?" With a yelp, Subaru had a half-second to see Kamui lunge towards him. The younger male squeezed him hard, arms locked under Subaru's. Kamui buried himself in the other's arms. He sought clarity in a steady heartbeat.
Subaru protectively embraced his beloved. Hands brushed loving circles up and down Kamui's back. Silent tears dripped upon the comforting male's black turtleneck.
The time that passed hadn't mattered. Kamui would make the calls today. He stayed in the comfort, a warmth that soothed him. Soft little gasps and breaths came out.
Subaru waited for Kamui's breathing to settle to check his face. The heartbroken boy looked up at him, then went right back to his hiding place. A few moments later, some heartbeats later Kamui leaned back up, propping himself up with unsteady arms. With slowed breathing, he could expose his vulnerability once more.
Pain outpoured from sensitive, watery orbs. Deeply enamored, Subaru brushed his thumb over every little drop of emotion that would fall from his beloved's eyes. The feeling of Kamui's arms still looping around him encouraged him to continue.
When they did rise from the ground, Kamui clutched at his source of safety, hugging Subaru's waist. The older male knelt down, to grasp for the bucket and ladle. Kamui's hands were also far too unsteady to hold tightly to the washcloths or boxes of incense.
"Thank you," Kamui finally spoke, though very meekly. A bit of shame and guilt curls his lips downwards. His eyes search for any hint of exasperation but there is none, there never has been. The remaining materials needed, are neatly tucked under the steadier man's arm.
"It's no problem," Subaru assures. It really wasn't trouble. Although, Subaru did have to quickly shift hands to carry the full bucket, when Kamui suddenly clung to his arm, spilling water. Violet-blue eyes hid away in his sleeve.
There's no room for argument when Subaru carries the necessities the rest of the way up the grassy hill. Kamui is reluctantly given the bouquet to hold when they are close enough.
Much like at the garden valves, Kamui dropped to his knees. Subaru placed the bucket down gently, followed by the box of lavender incense, and washcloths.
The smaller male took a moment, clutching at the flowers. His eyes stared off for a moment, fingers absently playing with petals. Subaru partly wished he brought extra flowers if nothing else just for Kamui to have something to hold to. To keep.
"I'm…" Kamui begins. His eyes redden further, before placing the flowers to the side. The younger male seeks shelter again, this time his arms loop around Subaru's neck. Kamui's teary face nuzzles against an accepting shoulder. He's partially aware of his actions when he inhales the other man's scent.
"I should start…" Kamui follows up. He releases the protective man from his hold. Kamui already knew he'd spend countless hours cuddling up to him after.
Less shaky than earlier, long slender fingers curl and grasp for the ladle. Very gingerly he sprinkles some of the water over a dustier part of Kotori's gravestone.
Next Kamui grasps for the washcloths. Carefully, he scrubs the sides clean following the front and back. There isn't a tedious amount of work needed, having been cleaned days ago.
Kamui repeats the process. He takes a new washcloth and starts moving it up and down the stone.
Subaru only waits beside Kamui. This was something incredibly important, he knew Kamui would come to him if and when he wanted help.
It never feels like enough, but Kamui does put the used cloth down beside the bucket. Finally, Kamui turns back. His hands grasp for the box of incense sticks.
The shaky male divides the sticks into two equal cups, one for each loved one.
"Um… Subaru?" Kamui asks hoarsely. His voice shakes a bit.
The older male complies, coming closer towards the finger beckoning him near. He nods, putting it together. He brings out a lighter from his pocket.
Kamui takes it, his shaky hands nearly give Subaru a heart attack.
"Kamui!"
This goes especially so when trembling fingers lose control, turning the lighter to its side and nearly burning the grieving male's hand.
Quickly, a longer hand encompasses Kamui's. Subaru positions himself to sit directly behind Kamui. Guiding the younger male carefully, he peers over Kamui's shoulder, helping him light the incense.
The scent of lavender emits. The soothing effect calms Kamui enough to take a long shaky breath. Followed by two more. With each breath, Kamui becomes a bit more steady.
The process accelerates as he feels arms encircling him from behind. His back is pressed to a warm chest that feels like home.
"Subaru?" Kamui whispers, tenderly
"Hm?" The protective man acknowledges, nuzzling the back of his neck.
"I…" Red circles become clear around tearing violet eyes.
"Shh...it's okay," Subaru softly hushes him. His hold is even more protective, for the moment it's all that keeps the world's savior grounded. There's that speck of light in the darkest cave. Kamui finds the light becoming clear the further he went.
"I really…" Kamui's trembling again. He states at his own hands in agony. The blood imprints of the holy sword linger there. He feels it when coming here.
"I really loved them…" Kamui laments, fingers digging into the dirt. This time Kamui isn't alone. It was a little easier to breathe.
"I know," Subaru says, wrapping the other's heart up alongside his body. His head falls to Kamui's shoulder, breathing him in.
When lips settle between his neck and shoulder, Kamui feels something spark. He hurriedly turns around in the embrace. He lunges fiercely, overwhelmed by emotion. Violet-blue eyes are foggy, pained, fighting the urge to fall apart over and over again.
The taller man is knocked back against the ground. Kamui's smaller current wraps snuggly around him, not letting go. Crying again in front of his protector was already scary. Yet, Kamui couldn't even stop himself from full-on sobbing. "Ugly" crying, emotions drench from his eyes, nose, and redden his cheeks.
Subaru finds his balance, placing his hands on the side of him. He props them both up, letting Kamui settle between his stretched out legs.
"I… Ha…" Kamui whimpers, breathing more shallow and worrisome.
Subaru whispers a few soft phrases. Sweet nothings in Kamui's ears.
You're incredible. I need you. You mean the world to me. Take all the time you need. I'll be here. Every thought that comes to mind is caressed into a warm ear.
"I really L-loved them both. So…" Kamui takes a breath. He buries himself into the man's neck.
"So much…"
"I know," Subaru consoles. He hugs Kamui tightly. "Your heart is so sincere, kind…Beautiful." He lets the thought slip amorously. Sparkling lights in those gem-hued eyes are enough to make Kamui breathless.
"Everyone who's been blessed to have a place in your heart…would tell you the same."
"Subaru… " Kamui looks up, seeing watery dual-hued eyes. His heart clenches. The mourning male squeezes and presses his body deep and hard against the other.
At some point, they end up back on the ground. The younger male is the only person capable, allowed to keep the Sumeragi head pinned down like that. Upon the dirt, and for as long as he pleased, it was accepted.
Kamui falls asleep briefly, vaguely remembers sitting up, offering prayers. Though it's hard to see through misty orbs. At some point, things are cleaned up. A part of him wants to be selfish and ask Subaru to carry him back home, just as he did that first day.
Though the kind man's arms are already fully carrying everything. Kamui opts to hold on and press himself tightly against Subaru's arm.
Returning from the memorial grounds leaves both of the men drained. Kamui rests his head in his protector's lap, stirring awake. Subaru combs fingers through his hair as one would a small kitten.
"Thank you…" Kamui mumbles more than a little abashed recalling how untamed he had been earlier. He turns his head so he's looking directly up to a smiling face.
"I'm happy I was able to be there with you," Subaru expresses, a tender and private smile follow. Gentle hands guide Kamui's head to lay back down fully. Fingers brush over tired eyelids, urging them to go back to resting.
Kamui laughs lightly at this but indulges in resting for a moment longer. Subaru watches, waits for beautiful violet eyes to relax, for long fluttering lashes to close.
Things feel calmer. Gentle emerald-gold eyes hold him tenderly when he wakes up again. Kamui yawns, mouth outstretched wide like a lion.
Subaru softly chuckles. Kamui's lips curl at the breathy sound and find his hand stroking the taller male's cheek. His protective housemate, his person, brings a hand up to cover his.
Kamui's unclaimed hand is joined with Subaru. Lips pepper soft little kisses throughout. Kamui blushes, face heating more and more, as the older man locks eyes with him for every little kiss.
"Do you want to rest more?" Subaru asks softly against the hand. The once seldom kisses to his hand, are repeated countless times. Every press overflowed with Kamui's senses.
"What?" Kamui asks, face warm and dreamy.
"Would you like to rest for longer?" The gentle-hearted man reiterates.
"I… Should probably take a bath…"
"You should?" A curious raven eyebrow lifts. "But you do want to?" There's a tiny little playful smile, that makes Kamui caress the cheek in his hand even more.
The dreamy-eyed male softly laughs. "Yes, I want to." Kamui clarifies sitting up from his seat.
"Then I'll draw you a bath," Subaru offers, slowly helping Kamui up. The hand on Kamui's lower back lingers. The smaller male beams, feeling himself cradled. Something is entrancing about how neatly Kamui fits right into Subaru's arm.
"Thank you," Kamui says, yawning again as he finally does stand up.
Subaru does sit up fully. He kisses Kamui's hand a bit more firm, devoted. The audible sound of lips smacking lightly on his skin makes Kamui shiver.
Subaru's thankfully not pressed up against him, doesn't comment on the reaction. A gentle smile surfaces, Subaru retreats down the hall.
Kamui props himself up, to look over the couch. He watches the retreating back down the hall. Violet-blue eyes trail down admiring the slender figure. They linger on the other's broad shoulders, back, strong arms that lift him so easily.
Very quickly and shyly Kamui steals a glance of the older male's firm backside. Just about every inch Kamui admires is so firm and lean. He turns back quickly, as though he'd be caught for lingering a second longer. Though curious eyes linger on the way lean muscles contract and extend.
"Kamui?" Subaru asks curiously, oblivious. "Are you alright?"
"Yes…" Kamui responds mousey. He ducks down behind the couch. His mind tries to find an excuse for what he was doing, as he hears the bathroom door close. There was some other explanation he could muster, besides checking his housemate out.
Though Kamui doesn't quite trust himself not to blurt out something stupid. He grasps for the television remote and presses a button for a random channel. He sees some kids' anime on-screen, Kamui takes a bit of interest. The rival character looks a bit like a teenage version of Subaru.
When the real Subaru returns, Kamui hastily changes the channel. It's not like Subaru could or read his mind, he thinks, but it's better to be careful.
Subaru's eyes raise a tad bit curious as to why Kamui quickly changes from what seemed like a rather innocent show. Still, today should be about making Kamui happy, and embarrassing him as little as possible (even if it caused quite entrancing expressions). So, Subaru doesn't voice his curiosity.
"Your bath's started," Subaru tells him. Kamui nods.
"I'll be there in a minute," Kamui says, a little too comfy now, on the couch.
Emerald and gold eyes sparkle as they see the one they love cozy on the sofa. Having Kamui move just yet would be a shame. The older male walks towards the front of the couch and lifts Kamui's legs.
A cute little squeak emits from Kamui. He doesn't know what to say when he feels moved so suddenly. Subaru is pleased to hear another squeak when Kamui's suspended legs are guided to lay back down across his lap.
He reddens, eyes glued to the screen, even if it was on a rather plain cup-noodle commercial.
His observant housemates follow his gaze the idea sparks. "It's almost time for dinner, I thought we could do takeout, or whatever you're in the mood for?"
"Takeout is fine," Kamui complied, a little tired of cooking. He glances up at the clock, sees how late it's gotten. "Maybe sushi?" Kamui's stomach gurgles a little.
"Sushi it is," Subaru is already reaching for the phone.
Kamui smiles at this as he leans up. The flushed face inches closer, growing pinker by the millimeter, but he wants to do this. It seemed like Subaru didn't mint it.
Plush lips press against Subaru's cheek. Kamui beams victorious, seeing the older male redden that fast. He might have enjoyed seeing that reaction a bit too much.
"Thank you, Subaru," Kamui says before swinging his legs up and out over the couch.
Still, processing the kiss, Subaru's eyes linger at the space where Kamui had been. He's quick to turn around. "Have a nice bath," Subaru calls and slumps down with his back against the couch.
Looking up a few restaurants online, Subaru comes to a decision. He feels especially like spoiling Kamui, so the finest food was necessary.
Kamui comes out of the bath a bit later. His cheeks flushed from the steam in his eyes are relaxed. By the time he comes out, a small towel on his head, the smells of fresh food floods his senses.
Kamui licks at his lips. The smaller male walks towards the table in front of the dining table, wraps his arm around the other's waist. Subaru smiles at this, tugging at Kamui's arms and spinning him around so they're face to face.
"I wasn't sure what you'd want tonight so a variety seemed good. We can eat wherever you'd like." Subaru spreads out the various displays of the colorful and expansive tray of different sushi rolls. Packets of soy sauce, and lidded cups of dipping sauces, wasabi, and ginger, surround the main meal.
Kamui reaches for the rainbow roll first. Overanalyzing his quick decision, he feels himself flush, his friends would tease him about that.
"It's nothing…" Kamui shakes his head, laughing a little, seeing curious eyes. The pair take a few paper plates. Placed on are various pieces from the trays of sushi. Chopsticks and lidded cups of dipping sauce sit nicely on the side.
Admitting, it brings them closer to cuddling on the couch again is a little too much for Kamui to handle. Not vocally saying more, he goes back towards the lower table before the TV set.
Subaru sits down beside Kamui. Their thighs brush up against each other. A more action-themed anime movie plays on the TV.
After pressing their hands in prayer fashion giving thanks for the meal, they start in. Neither talk over the show, but their gazes don't focus too much on whatever is happening either. The atmosphere between them is tranquil and zen.
"Are you enjoying your food?" Subaru happily inquires, smiling at the way Kamui's lips and side of his are covered with brown dipping sauce. A long finger extends to wipe the side of Kamui's mouth.
"Mhmm!" Kamui nods while devouring another savory piece. The younger male, oblivious to his power over the other, dips out his tongue. He enthusiastically licks his lips, a tiny moan follows at the taste.
"Ah, sorry!" Kamui takes a napkin both hiding and wiping his messy face. Cheeks paint pink, realizing his improper display.
"No need," Subaru holds up a hand. "I'm glad you like it," he says. Gold and emerald eyes linger, watching with interest.
Kamui, beautiful, sweet, perfectly oblivious Kamui speaks without thinking anything through.
"Do you… want to taste it?" He asks, licking his lips subconsciously, drawing heated eyes to them.
Self-control was certainly being tested tonight. At some point, Subaru might need to talk to Kamui about his word choice. And hopefully, in the future, thoroughly explain those euphemisms and work through some of the "reading materials" Kamui brought home the other night.
That moment is neither here nor there. Now, there are innocent sparkling eyes, that he fell in
Love with. The sweet way Kamui extends his chopsticks, cradling a piece of the sushi roll, to the other.
The unintended tease squeezes at Subaru's heart and a heated coil in his stomach. A bit insistent of seeing the reaction. Another part of him wants to return the favor and feeling Subaru had been left with. Subaru parts his lips taking the food into his mouth, languidly.
Kamui's hand trembles at the way his very close housemate leans in. Subaru's hand holds his wrist steady. Lips linger, closing over the tip of the chopsticks. With widening doe eyes glued to his every move, it's enticing to continue just a bit further. Lips close a bit tighter, briefly sucking the instrument raw.
It's gotten to feel far too hot. Kamui's toes curl, a dream with a very similar action took place not long ago. Of course, that hadn't involved utensils.
Kamui is blushing cherry-red from ear to ear. Blue-violet eyes watch as soft pale lips clap over the tips of the utensil, licking the remains of the sauce clean.
"It's very good," Subaru comments, eyes with bright mirth. Gold and emerald eyes lock on Kamui as he gives it one last lick.
The change in atmosphere was not entirely planned but hopeful for his fantasies. Kamui was far more reactive than he imagined. The pretty blush overflows cherry-red up and down Kamui's face.
The younger male squirms, pressing his legs closed and taking the utensils back. Hurriedly, he shoves a bite of food into his wasn't about to answer questions any time soon.
Thankfully, the older male didn't tease or press Kamui further. He wanted the person he loved actually able to eat, without passing out from heat exhaustion.
Though a satisfied smirk flooded his lips as he saw his beloved still in his head. Kamui, was still, so reactive, and rubbing his thighs together. Subaru was left with a realization. He might have possibly kind of, totally aroused the person he loves so dearly. As hot as that felt, Subaru wanted to do things right. Work up to something more suggestive, and claim Kamui's heart fully first and foremost.
"I-I'll be right back," Kamui rushes out and down the hall to the bathroom. Determination to keep himself calm before fully reacting, overthinking things was strong.
Subaru groans are low as he hears the door close behind his love.
The consequences of his actions become abundantly clear. Subaru forces himself to cool off, mind-calming in a soft meditation that was never intended for this.
But it was quick and effective. Subaru let out a low breath. He could clear through less heated eyes when Kamui came back.
It took a full hour for Kamui to look back up at Subaru. Perhaps, that was a bit too far.
"Kamui?"
"Hm?"
"I really am sorry," Subaru commits to breaking the tension. burning up.
"For what?" Kamui returns shakily. Darkened violet eyes glancing ahead at whatever was on screen, clearly knowing a bit more than he let on.
"For earlier," Subaru says, hearing a little squeak from Kamui.
"There's nothing to apologize for.." A pause... "Not at all," Kamui waves his hand very defensively in front of his face
"But, still I…" It didn't seem productive to continue further. Continuing the conversation also would mean admitting to getting aroused for one another.
The older male shakes his head. He wraps an arm around Kamui's shoulder, cuddles him close. The younger boy eased in the hold, looking up a bit before turning his gaze away.
When they did finish eating and cleaning up the clock dictated it was still rather early in the evening. It was the weekend to boot.
"Do you have to get back to anything… work?" Kamui hesitates, hating every bit of how his voice squeaks out like a cliche schoolgirl.
"No," Subaru responds quickly. Not if it meant taking time away from whatever Kamui planned.
"Would you like to… I don't know… Watch another show or movie… Or something …." His voice breaks up softer by the word. And cuddle… is very much implied. Shy violet eyes dart towards the couch, feeling extra exposed.
Thankfully for Kamui, his housemate doesn't delay on the much-appreciated invitation.
"I would," Subaru confirms, brushing their noses together. Kamui brightens at that, pressing his lips closed."I'll get a blanket."
Subaru says, revealing a cozy plush blanket he knows Kamui adores curling up in. Countless late nights coming home to see his love, asleep and bundled up like a cocoon attested to that.
After plopping the folded blanket on the side of the couch, they sit. The mood being cooler and calmer makes it easy for Kamui to lean in a little more.
Whatever movie played in the background was forgotten. Small conversations faded, an arm as a Kamui's waist brought him close. Subaru guided him as he leaned down, lying flat on his back. Kamui fell with him, pressing his cheek to the older man's chest.
Their legs tangled up slowly as Subaru brought the comfy blanket over Kamui. Laying on top of the man who'd driven a million emotions out of him, he hurriedly hides his face away.
"Kamui…" Subaru whispers fondly... All too comfortably he allows Kamui his hiding spot. He brushes his fingers through Kamui's soft hair, pulling him back to sleep.
Certain, of Kamui's sleepy state. Subaru stretches out his arm to grasp for the remote and press off the power.
There's a pleasing little smile and sigh that escapes Kamui, from whatever he is dreaming.
"Kamui…" Subaru whispers the boy's name. Sniffles and light snoring are all that fill the silence between. The protective man leans his head back against the pillows, closing his eyes.
"I love you," Subaru murmurs. Gentle lips pepper kisses on the crown of the raven-black head. Kamui was too far gone in the realm of sleep to hear.
Kamui subconsciously cuddles up and nuzzles his cheek on a warm chest, breathing out the older man's name. They might be in a little too deep.
Invitation
There was a little over a week to get this done. The Spring Festival at their school was fast approaching. Everyone around the abashed student seemed to have already confirmed his plans for the day.
I can do this… Kamui prepares himself for the nth time this week. It was a simple question, and Subaru was so kind, it's not like even a rejection would be said in anything but a compassionate way. Even if things didn't quite work out...it would be fine.
"Umm...Subaru?" Kamui knocks gently on the side of the office door.
"You can come in Kamui," Subaru responded gently, beckoning him over. The angelic-smile following left Kamui's knees to buckle. He clutched to the side of the door frame for balance, before breathing in softly.
"Right…" Kamui murmured. It was increasingly hard not to think how he'd been here not long ago, comforting Subaru, sitting in his lap. That same then innocent heartwarming position just had to be eroticized by the books he had.
Kamui settled for taking a seat where he still had some space. Something is calming about the gentle glances and smiles exchanged.
Yes, they were close, always had been. If Kamui had any say in it, they always would be. Lately, it only felt they were growing even closer, more comfortable with proximal intimacy. That didn't mean things had to change, of course. Things weren't necessarily going to change.
Plenty of friends were close and could cuddle and… Kamui swallows. He sees the taller male rising from his seat, walking closer.
Plenty of friends...possibly...would Feel their heart racing like crazy. Those heart-beats surely skip when their "friend" is inches away from their face, cupping their cheek. Right...
"Lost in thought?" Subaru's words ring through his mind smoothly. Kamui feels his smile melting against his cheeks.
"I… wanted to see if," Kamui averts his gaze feeling it all too easy to drown in those gem colored eyes. That could lead him to say something stupid that might ruin what they've had. Absently, Kamui's tongue licks out to clear his lips of their dryness.
There's a heat coming from Subaru's eyes as they blissfully take in everything regarding Kamui. He was a bit tempted to just say "yes" to whatever Kamui wanted, but saw it was something Kamui was working on getting out.
"I wanted to see if… You would…" Kamui's thoughts attempt to talk him through it all. Just ask him about the Spring Festival. It'll be over before you know it.
"It's alright, Kamui," Subaru assures the younger male to whatever it is. His sparkling eyes entrance Kamui, up close it's easier to notice how full the other's lashes were. "Just take a moment to breathe…"
Kamui is hugged tightly. He gasps, being lifted only to be placed right by the taller male's side. Something was calming, feeling their legs brush.
"Okay…" Kamui takes the earlier advice. He closes his eyes and feels the light pressure of his lips on his temples. His breathing does calm, as he slowly exhales and feels his hand being held so tenderly.
When he does open his eyes, Kamui worries for his heart. There's something about the adoring smile and shimmering eyes that makes his heart skip countless beats.
"I wanted to know if…" Kamui begins more calmly than before. There's nothing but tenderness in gold and emerald orbs as they glisten. "You'd want to go to the Spring festival…With me?"
Subaru looks somewhat surprised at the request. So that's what's been worrying him. The innocent request and Kamui's earnest eyes looking up at him decide for him.
"Of course, I'd be happy to go with you," Subaru answers. He feels the heat radiating from Kamui's pink cheeks. It matches his own as Kamui's lips curve to a bright angelic smile which only takes his breath away.
"Really?" Kamui asks much more at ease.
Subaru nods, not trusting himself to blurt out everything he loved about Kamui that second.
Kamui leans in close. "Thank you…" His eyes flutter close, pressing a gentle kiss on the other cheek. He feels a burn under his lips. "It's next Saturday. I know your schedule has been busy lately. So I understand if something comes up…"
Fingers trail under Kamui's chin. The younger male is coaxed to look up. There's nothing short of kindness and adoration in gem-like eyes that only darken in their color. "That won't happen," He assures.
"I know work can be unpredictable and-"
A finger presses to Kamui's lips.
"I'm keeping the day entirely open."
Kamui pouts, not wanting to be entirely selfish. He doesn't know why he argues when the words only make his chest feel warm. Carefully, Kamui takes the finger off his lips. "But...it's okay if there are changes know there are so many people who might need your help and-"
"Kamui," Subaru calmly soothes him. He hushes, tugging Kamui close to his side. "It's what I want to do. It's not as though I'm the only Onmyouji in Tokyo."
"But-"
"It doesn't matter even if I was or had a million requests that day," Subaru insists, tone a bit more firm. There was a very precise gaze on the younger male that drew him in.
"Kamui…"
Kamui shivers at the intensity of dual-hued eyes boring into him. Looking into those eyes, pupils blow up, nearly shielding all of the gold and green. "What matters to me…" More than anyone or anything.
"All I want to do is," Subaru rephrases his words, seconds from declaring how deeply he's fallen for his former leader. Though no matter his word choice it comes out helpless, and lovesick. "Is to be there with you."
Kamui pauses, pressing his lips together. His lips feel as dry as his throat. A pink tongue slips out, licking his lips nervously. The younger male's gaze stays on Subaru but there's a certain shyness glistening in his eyes. There's no way for Kamui to hide the pleased smile on his lips.
It's only one day too. It's not too selfish… Right? Subaru certainly seemed more than okay with it.
"I'm glad then…" Kamui sweetly admits. The profession replays in Kamui's mind over and over. He shakes his head, confirming with his heart. "I… I'm actually really happy." Kamui softly admits, glancing down, nervously running his fingers through his hair.
"That you can go…" The admittance is so soft, meek, and mouse-like. Kamui shifts his gaze, glancing around the rooms, taking interest in the mundane walls, floor ceiling. Or whatever could keep him calm.
"You're the one who asked me to, Kamui " Subaru proclaims, tone falling to a whisper. Their faces are centimeters apart, hearing and feeling each other's words wasn't a problem.
"So of course, I'll be there…" There's a hint of vulnerability, exposing a bit of his weakness for the younger male, the one who only seemed to make him fall harder.
"Besides... I just..."
I don't think I could say no to you. Certainly not over something like this.
"I want to be with you, Kamui, " Subaru confesses, heart wide open. Exposed, dual-toned eyes start trembling, seeing beautiful blue-violet studying their every move. Kamui is the one to lean forward. Temples kiss softly.
"S-Subaru…" Kamui processes the feeling sparking behind those words. Something far beyond a simple festival.
Words like that...A profession like that, and the raw emotion burning through Subaru's gaze, was powerful. Something one would only expect to see in an overly emotional BL series. Kamui felt the burn on his cheeks. His pink face only seemed to draw out a stronger heat from the older male's eyes.
This was entirely real, raw, and more heart-throbbing than any BL or shoujo series could prepare him for.
Kamui's breath came out shaky. It was way too much to try and look directly at those sparkling gems of eyes. The way they kept taking him in, devouring everything he had made his stomach twist, coiling up with a far too embarrassing heat.
Subaru's eyes flare with a passion, irises darkening and changing. All the while, they better contrast with white gleams in his eyes.
Kamui never expected to feel a look like that this way. Countless emotions danced through gold and emerald orbs. They weren't solely protective, caring, or gentle. There was something a bit more alluring, seductive even.
Calm down. Think this through.
It wasn't technically a confession in that way. They weren't a couple… They were supposed to still be heartbroken over their past loves, right? Not evoking something possibly even stronger than before.
"Kamui," Subaru whispers a bit slowly. His lips caress his name with such deep devotion as though anything less would be unworthy.
Raw tenderness of the words, clarity in how real they were, made his legs start to tremble.
There was definitely a certain feeling they evoked.
I think I might be… Kamui feels his heart thundering. A gentle hand guides his chin up. When Kamui does glance back, his eyes look into tender, slightly heated gold and emerald. Subaru gingerly leans down in time with Kamui looking up bit by bit. Warm breaths ghost over the other's cheeks.
Beautiful violet-blue eyes dip. Full, dark lashes bat sensually before fully closing. Kamui feels his mind go dizzy, surrendering to a feeling he hadn't yet named.
They were already so close. Somehow this made sense, maybe it was even inevitable.
"Kamui…?" Subaru feels his heart synching alongside his younger love. A part of him was convinced this was only a fantasy. It had to be.
Blue-violet delved within glistening gold and green watery orbs. The light in their eyes shivered. Kamui's eyelashes seemed longer than usual, it was a little difficult to think.
"You're so…" Beautiful. Subaru can't finish his thought. When Kamui's smile goes so tender, so shy like that, he feels certain. A gentle look alone could bring him to his knees, and surrender everything to Kamui. Whatever he hadn't given already, would instantly become the property of his heart's unknowing keeper.
Millimeters away from Kamui's lips, Subaru assessed. Kamui seemed willing and open to accepting the gentle touch. But… still, something didn't feel quite right. This moment should be one do with absolute certainty, they could look back on fondly over and over again.
Subaru loses a bit of clarity as to the warm puffs of air teasing his lips. There's a soft hand squeezing his own. Although it's only trembling slightly, it tugs at the older man's chest. Subaru's takes it into his own, squeezing it gently, as their fingers laced. Kamui's hand started to still, and ease into the hold. Neither had made a move to finally close the gap. There was so much left unsaid between them.
Not yet… Subaru reigns himself in, quite torn. He presses their foreheads together, keeping his lips pursed and at a distance. Something about that feels wrong.
Kamui's eyes blinked dreamily awake. There's a sunken curve to Kamui's lips, as he feels the older male pull away. The moment is broken up, settled by pressing butterfly soft kisses across his temples.
No, it didn't feel entirely right for them to have their first like this. His lips craved, with a passion to brush over Kamui. Still, did their feelings really align, or was this the heat of the moment. It couldn't be done, not without knowing this was mutual, and for the long run. It felt like Kamui really did want this, but what if he was only seeing what he wanted to.
"I should…. probably start back on some work from today," Subaru hushes the mundane excuse. Eyes dart to the computer, hoping a little space between will dissolve things as gently as possible. Then with more clarity maybe they could get to the heart of the matter. Regret and guilt, tear at his chest. Watery, violet-blue eyes, dip before turning away.
Subaru knew he was too fragile to take a chance just now. He needed to know with certainty, that their feelings aligned well enough. He wasn't sure he was strong enough to find the one he loved was only swept up in the moment or being nice. Insecurities rose to make this seem much more of a possibility than the reality.
What is this fleeting fancy? Or painfully worse...a rebound of Kamui's late love. If he kissed Kamui now, it would be far too hard to ever go back to the way things were. . It would be hard to think of stopping, craving more and more.
There wasn't a chance in hell, he could stand seeing Kamui fall or any other, and for them to drift apart
"Thank you, Kamui." Maybe it would be better if he finally told Kamui how much he meant to him. If he finally let out what he's kept pent up since he came back for the fateful battle.
"I'll be looking forward to it, " Subaru expressed, awkwardly avoiding the crestfallen and perplexed look on Kamui's face.
"Oh…" Kamui says, slowly. Disappointed and fragile eyes keep away. Kamui then heats up knowing just how easily he let himself be swept away. So he was overthinking this moment. "Yeah… Me too.."
There wasn't any part of him that could find regret if they did move that short distance closer. It seemed right, but that had to go both ways.
Kamui hadn't found or said the words to explain what's been going on with him. It wouldn't be fair still if Kamui hadn't told Subaru how he truly felt. It was time to start acknowledging what his heart wanted.
Kamui's legs show weakness, shaking slightly as he intended to stand back up. It's to no surprise the protective male stood up beside him, steadying him with an arm around his lower back.
"I am really glad you can go… I should probably get back to studying now…" Kamui quietly relents. He wriggles out of the loosening hold around him.
"That's true," Subaru agrees with reluctance. His face returns to a more neutral state as they parted, contrasting greatly with the storm of emotions inside. Their hands were still linked.
Subaru wants to ask if Kamui is alright. He wants to pull Kamui back in with a proper and tender kiss.
But he doesn't. Kamui looks a little sad but puts on a half-smile.
"Well then, let me know if you need help with anything…" Nothing really seems right to say now. Maybe he did make a wrong call. "Ah...Take care," he calls distantly, eyes focused ahead. Subaru's hands ball up, clutching to the side of his pants.
"You too…" Kamui bites his lip at this, slowly unblinking their hands.
So stupid… Kamui berated himself. He stands and turns to exit the room, not looking back. I was just overthinking things. What was I expecting?
Kamui promises himself to sort things out as soon as possible, for both of their sakes. For now, though, Kamui was left to his own devices, he went back to their bedroom.
Why does it hurt this much?
Closing the door behind him, Kamui leans back upon it. Quietly, he slides down to the floor, leaning his head back. He presses his fingers to his lips where they almost kissed.
Kamui's lips quiver. Torn-up violet eyes start watering. There's an overwhelming emotion. I really feel like I'm falling…
Proposed Date?
"Kamui?" Subaru's soft voice emits, knocking lightly on their bedroom door.
It had been less than an hour. Hearing the sniffling, quiet sobs, and labored breaths, it felt far too long.
"S-Subaru?" Kamui shaky replies. He hurriedly stands back up to his feet, wiping the staining tears as best as he could from his cheeks.
"Can we talk?" There's a hesitation with the question. Kamui nods, despite still being on the other side of the closed door.
Slowly, he dusts himself off. Kamui walks over to turn the knob, slowly. He doesn't look up, nor take in the older man in the eyes. Earlier, he left himself far too open, maybe even seeming needy. Kamui's hands start shaking.
"Kamui?" Subaru's voice sounds pained. There's a hesitancy before Kamui looks him in the eyes. "Were you- "
The sight of puffy red eyes, sniffles, and trembling lips stab right through his heart.
"Kamui," Subaru whispers his name, overwhelmed to think clearly. Protective arms wrap themselves around Kamui, tightening their hold until he's fully embraced. A familiar intoxicating warmth takes over Kamui. He buries himself in his protector's arms, hides his watering violet eyes against a warm chest.
Fingers gingerly card through Kamui's hair, soothing him. The soft, yet steady heartbeat calms Kamui's senses, especially as he's brought deeper. A millimeter of space between seems too much.
"I'm sorry…" Subaru's voice sounds pained. He won't let Kamui look up to see his eyes.
"For what? You didn't do anything wrong…" Kamui asks, more guarded. Physical intimacy is impossible to fight against. Kamui gives in, wrapping his own arms around the other's shoulders hugging him tightly.
I'm the one who got carried away. I haven't even figured things out myself, let alone told you anything...
"I feel I've...made you cry," Subaru worries. What is wrong with me? Thoughts tear into Subaru. He exhales a long heavy sigh. Kamui can hear the pain in his breath. When damp drops of emotion start falling on his head, it's clear.
"It's not like that!" Kamui is quick to defend his protective housemate. Sunken, misty eyes come at the teary-eyed male like a punch to the gut. "I've been...overthinking things…"
"I'm making you cry as well," Kamui murmurs, looking up enough to see the few tears falling. Subaru's eyes widened a bit surprised by his own reaction.
"I'm not even sure what's making me cry. I've had a lot on my mind…" Kamui trails off, shakily. "It's like there are things I want to say, but I don't understand them as well. And it's frustrating" Kamui sighs, burying his eyes against the fabric over Subaru's chest. "I'm probably not making any sense."
"You're fine," Subaru says, hugging him close.
"There are things I want to tell you too," Subaru begins, testing the waters. Possibly, they were on the same page with this. "For a while now…" Kamui doesn't look away, he cuddles a little closer. "But, I don't want it to be too much. Or to say the wrong things and push you away….I would never forgive myself if I were to lose you."
Beautiful violet-blue eyes continue to glow and glisten. Kamui's heartstrings feel a pull at the words. How could he ever think Kamui could fathom being apart? If he lost Subaru-if they were to be apart then-. Kamui shakes his head wildly, hair falling messily in front of his face. That was a future he couldn't even entertain. "You won't lose me, Subaru." He shakes his head firmly, his hand trails gently down the taller's male's arm. "Not ever."
"Kamui…" Subaru cups tear-stained cheeks, words don't seem to be enough. Kamui's eyes look so vulnerable, shaking and tearing up as they look at him. I love you so much. One day he'd have to say those words. It was tearing at him, breaking him!
Maybe they were making things more difficult than they needed to be. Tonight had seemed hopeful, things might be progressing in a way he had only dreamed of prior.
I'm not so sure I can keep this from you for much longer. Subaru finds his thoughts breaking through to him. His breath hitches. Kamui leans up on his tiptoes.
"Subaru," His lips kiss where he can reach, caressing the side of his chin. "I'm a little out of sorts lately, but…"
When...I finally figured this out...soon. I want to tell you. Kamui's heart calls out to him. It's better to be certain. Being swept up further into intimacy, and not being able to name this feeling wouldn't be wise. "I have things I plan to tell you... when I sort things out," Kamui found himself understanding just why they parted. "So please, promise you'll always stay with me?"
How is that even a question? Subaru reflects, hugging his own precious person close, unaware their hearts and minds were in sync.
"Of course, I will" His words fall sincerely. Subaru kisses the tip of his nose. There's a fond, amused smile seeing the cheeks beside it pinking. Kamui quickly ducks his head down, murmuring something quietly.
Gentle, skilled hands card through silky raven locks, which cradle the back of Kamui's head.
Kamui emits a very soft, tiny mewl, but it's heard. Subaru is left with a certain satisfaction in seeing how reactive the other could be. The younger male is pulled snuggly, allowed sanctuary and time for as long as needed.
They wouldn't be without each other,
If tonight was as interpreted, then they might finally cross the line.
Just two days before the spring festival. Students from all over the campus were setting up their booths. Those in the horticulture department had their work cut out for them in the gardens.
Kamui sighed, listening to the idle chatter and giggling of stupidly lovesick students. And he couldn't exactly go home, being occupied with a group project.
His project partners kept him school-bound. Two of which were engaged in their own idle chatter. He stares off, noticing a particularly large amount of roses being carried out towards the garden.
Projects like these seemed designed to cause more stress amongst students. More forced interactions and study sessions. They were never Kamui's strong suit.
At least, he did get to be in a group with Keiichi. Though the other two, he partnered with were a bit frustrating.
They couldn't seem to do much else but bicker amongst themselves. Well, that was true until their arguments diffused, and the two were falling all over each other.
The smaller of the two, a feminine blond, Kazahaya Kudo. He was the more vocal of the pair, certainly a bit easier to talk with. With sleek ashy-blond hair, amber eyes, and a pretty face, it was no wonder he had a fair share of admirers. Though for Kamui it was nice to feel some of the attention of himself.
Granted, this led the blond's "friend" beside him to sulk. Tall, dark, and handsome, Rikuo Himura sat intimately close beside the expressive blond. He was certainly an instigator amongst the two when it came to all the arguments and flirting.
The protective arm around Kazahaya was a bit amusing. Though, his feelings hadn't seemed one-sided. While the blond would huff and roll his eyes at the other, he didn't seem surprised at the hold around him. He never pulled away either. It was obvious they had grown far closer than friends and classmates.
He had a habit of glaring at the influx of admirers, Kazahaya had, fully ignoring his own.
"Are you two going to the school festival as well?" Kamui recalls Keiichi asking. He can't help but keep his mind occupied, pretending to read the text in front of him. The thought of the festival just brought him back to the ordeal that came from inviting his date.
Sure, getting to know your project partners and being on good terms was ideal. Still, Kamui partially hoped he could go home.
"Yes, that is the plan. We were going to volunteer to help out and cook at one of the booths for a friend… But it might not be too possible depending on work."
Kamui hummed at that. He felt fortunate, Subaru and Nokoru made expenses th
"That sounds great. I'm really looking forward to it. Apparently, there's a bigger turnout than ever this year.
"Yeah, I've never gone before though," Kamui says plainly, tapping his fingers on the text of the book.
Kazahaya looks at Kamui, who's kept his head down. He feels sympathy, seeing the mutual feminine features, and gazes from many male students. "I'm guessing you two will be going?"
Kamui blinks. Well of course he would be seeing his friends there… granted with everything that's happened he might not have his full attention there.
"Yes, I'm going to be helping with the student council. We'll both be going but... " Keiichi responds cheerfully. "Kamui is bringing his own +1."
"Your date?" Kazahaya asks, curious. He and his 'close friend' share a private glance. The question hits the nail on the head. Kamui flushes and shakes his head.
"No-no-no, we're not dating," Kamui waves his hands defensively in front of his face. "Just someone I've known for a while." He tells the blond who seems to take it with some understanding.
The quiet dark-haired male adds in with a hint of amusement. Rikuo smirks, "Someone you like?" Something was amusing seeing the petite male's reactions.
Kamui wonders if the universe was against him. Or planned to embarrass him, burning his cheeks a darkening cherry red.
"No… just my friend and roommate," Kamui feels it as a lie slipping, not looking anyone in the eyes now.
Kamui generally hoped they could just get back to finishing up their parts for the project. He stares off to see another group of volunteers with their arms full of potted flowers, again mostly roses.
"There are so many roses…" Kamui says absently. Way too many. It's probably for something overly sappy.
"Oh, that's just the ones for the Rose Maze," Kazahaya
"Rose maze?" Kamui asks without thinking. He sees everyone else in the group nodding with understanding. He wonders where this information comes from.
"I'm a bit surprised you hadn't heard about it," Kazahaya says, honestly surprised. Even for a first-year, the rumors spread fast, surely someone as popular as the raven-haired teen would get an invitation to walk through there. "Especially seeing how popular you are around campus."
Kamui sighs at that. "Unfortunately…" Though he hadn't been told of it. Lately, even his admirers kept pointing out how he seemed to glow. Or his fans would gush, Kamui really did have someone he gave his heart to. Kamui buries his head in his hands.
"You do know, I was the one who had to tell you about it when we first transferred," The stoic male, beside the blond, continues. He mutters something about the other being 'oblivious'.
Even though there is teasing, Rikou holds a soft smile on his face as gentle brown eyes meet with Kazahaya's amber orbs. The latter huffs at the other but doesn't seem to be capable of staying upset at the other for much longer. The ashy-blond reaches for his boyfriends? hand under the table.
"It's pretty famous for the festival. At the center of the maze, there's a canopy and bench. Several red-roses arranged into a heart surround it. " Rikuo continues, not at all surprised by the hand on his own. Kamui guesses his assumptions were correct, and perhaps the assumptions made about him we're not so farfetched. "Students will go there to confess their love…no one is allowed to interrupt or eavesdrop on whoever is seen meeting there" He supplies, a bit, curious to see the boy across from him listening attentively.
"The day of the festival brings out some sort of good luck. Those who confess their love underneath are supposed to end up happily together...or something like that." Kazahaya finishes with a shrug. "So that's another part of the festival a lot of the students get excited about."
Kamui sighs in resignation. "That's sweet…" He adds simply enough thoughts running wild. His gaze turns to the book in front of him.
Kamui chooses to not look anyone in the eye. He can feel gazes on him already. It's hard for any of his group partners not to look a little amused by how affected Kamui had been by the story, burning up in his seat.
Stubborn, Kamui clears his throat. . "Although, it doesn't really have anything to do with me."
Hopefully, they could get back to their actual work.
Coat
Bright sunlight signaled another early morning. Kamui blinked his full lashes open. He smiles gently, seeing protective arms snug around his waist.
Leaning his head back a bit Kamui focused on, his very sleepy bedmate. He carefully studied the little scrunches of his nose, the curve of his lips, and soft breaths emitted. Carefully, turning in the hold, he hugs the older man back.
Pleasant warmth encases Kamui. He lets his eyes close for a few more moments, feels strong arms tightening, pulling him in deeper.
"Subaru," Kamui whispers the name. He rests his head against the thrumming chest. "I'm going to start breakfast," He tells the sleeping male, knowing it'll likely go unheard.
As unpleasant as it is to wriggle out of that protective hold, it was time to get started. The morning routine awaited, though domestic or simple-seeming was quite cathartic.
Taking a few moments to linger on the pretty sleeping face, Kamui kicks his legs out. They swing over the bed, Kamui heads onto the bathroom to freshen up.
Fingers grasp for a simple white comb, and the instrument is slid down bed-tousled hair. The bright lights from the ceiling reflect a bit more of a blue highlight in Kamui's dark hair. He fusses with his long bangs falling just above his violet eyes. The comb moves in various patterns, parting Kamui's hair on various sides, brushing it back. Though Kamui shakes his head, keeping with his slightly unruly style.
It felt better when certain skilled hands ran through it anyway to smooth it out. If his raven-haired was a bit imperfect. This might be an incentive for certain kinds of caresses to continue.
Kamui didn't know what he was doing, looking in the mirror. He'd certainly never fussed with his appearance growing up.
Perhaps short-lived and less mature but he had been in love before. The need to worry over little details and looks hadn't quite occurred to him then. Maybe because he'd known his first two loves since he was very little?
Kotori and Fuuma had seen him in all kinds of disheveled states since they were little. Kamui grasps for a bottle beside the sink, squeezes out a yellow lotion-like substance. Carefully, Kamui applies the facial cleanser over his cheeks, nose, chin, and forehead.
It's not like he felt he couldn't be at home here. Yet, lately, the desire to be noticed was becoming prevalent. Turning the knob on the sink Kamui scoops water in his cupped palms and rinses his face.
Apparently, there was a glow about him. Was there any truth to that? Did everyone see it? Or was it just a way of classmates teasing him to bring out a reaction?
Kamui might have still been in Highschool but he wasn't a child. He hadn't felt like he could ever be one, with his fate. Besides, being seen as one was disheartening to think of. He'd be well on his way to the University level soon enough.
Looking a bit more refreshed, Kamui brushed his teeth. He smiled a few different ways. His heart-shaped face tilts, at different angles before groaning. Was there really much of a difference? Smiles came rather naturally at home so it would be best to let it progress (and hope) it looks somewhat endearing.
When Kamui exits the room, he sees the older male draped across the bed. Violet-blue orbs glimmer with fondness. The protective man held a pillow up against him, being snuggled as a substitute Kamui. A shy smile forms as Kamui comes to Subaru's side. He lifts the comforter and tucks the older man in.
There's still time to linger. Whether he should or not was another story. Making breakfast now would offer more time to simply be before going to school. Maybe there might be time for a bit of cuddling up on the couch, drinking morning coffee and tea.
Perhaps, Subaru should still sleep. But when they could have that time it was sweet. Kamui cheerfully walks down the step. A part of him finds it hard to believe he's this happy overcooking a simple breakfast. Another part comes up with reasons why it's become rather rewarding.
Subaru does tiredly come to the table a few moments after Kamui finishes turning off the stove.
"Morning," Subaru yawns hugs Kamui snuggly.
"Good morning," Kamui returns the sweet greeting. "Did you sleep well?"
"Mhmm," Subaru responds. Lips keen on kissing the top of Kamui's head, lingering. "And you?" A more dramatic yawn escapes as he lets Kamui have space to move and set up their plates of food.
"I think I slept pretty well," Kamui says, not vocalizing how the other was a huge influence on his better sleep habits. They both knew it anyway.
"That's good," Subaru's lip quirk. He takes out a mug from the cupboards. Hands grasp for the handle of an already full coffee pot. He tilts the pot filling the mug with coffee. The sleep-dazed man places the mug down, at the feeling of tender eyes on his back.
Turning around, Subaru catches the younger man watching him. Arms reach out clutching Kamui. Soft laughter follows Kamui's little yelp with the sudden lift and hug.
"What was that for?" Kamui remembers himself asking, going lightheaded.
His answer comes in a tight little hug, and a kiss to his forehead. "Thank you. "
The pair take their plates to the table. A tired Subaru sips copious amounts of coffee before waking up, a bit more alert. When he does become awake, gushing begins.
"Your cooking always tastes incredible," Subaru fondly compliments. Many others are sure to follow, all over how talented Kamui was at this. Or how sweet and considerate Kamui was to do this and so early in the morning.
"It's like I have my own private chef." Gold and emerald eyes fixate on the flustering 'cook' across the table. "I'm quite lucky."
"It's not all that much." Kamui takes them in modestly, ducking his head down. There's a reflection in the steamy cup of tea. He sees the reddened cheeks in the cup in front of him. A hand reaches across the table for Kamui's. They fall into each other's eyes for a bit, a moment, or maybe quite a few more.
Whether their food stays warm or not is not of concern now. Soft melodies play from down the hallway.
"Oh, I should get that!" Kamui breaks from his dreamy trance. The dryer was ready.
"I'll clean this up then," Subaru follows up. Kamui wonders if it's normal to feel everything curl from a simple gesture.
Still, Kamui nods. Folding the laundry came naturally and easily. There was a satisfaction in seeing worn clothes come out pristine and pressed neatly.
Then there is something a bit heartwarming seeing their clothes folded into piles. The stacks of clothes show further proof, they're very much living with each other. The concept of that felt a bit more real. Kamui really didn't have to be alone.
Despite feeling things might be drifting further from them being "only" friends, it's come about rather naturally. The thought of things changing isn't quite as scary today.
After finishing the quick cleanup, the older of the two goes to assist Kamui with their laundry. He lays eyes on the peaceful, humming and moving within the laundry room. Things might be changing, their lives have changed considerably over the past year. Now, was the time. Kamui fits so perfectly into the picture, neatly folding clothing into separating piles, and humming a cheery melody.
Gold and emerald eyes are all too fond of seeing Kamui quite comfortable in a domestic setting. It's not an image one would consider of the world's savior, and one of the most powerful beings, if not most, on earth. To fond eyes, this seemed to suit Kamui. It seemed too much more than him being forced onto a merciless battlefield, with impossible choices and responsibilities thrust upon him. If up to the protective spiritualist, Kamui would never need to use his powers again.
Orbs only brighten coming closer. A part of it felt like a dream. He was actually able to live together with someone he loved. The fear of betrayal or loss wasn't even present.
Subaru walks up quietly behind Kamui. "Do you need some help?" he offers, voice husky. The taller figure walks closer until his chest touches Kamui's back.
"I-Subaru!" Kamui squeaks at the feeling of arm hugging him from behind. He shakes it off quickly enough to not cause too much of a scene. His heart won't calm for the life of him.
There are hints of suppressed chuckles. Warm lips conceal within the shorter male's shoulder. , Kamui wishes he wasn't quite so fond of the sound of it. Hands clasp and hold over the ones in front of his stomach.
"No, I'm almost finished, besides you have your work pretty early today right?" Kamui replies. His hands retract briefly, gently folding up the last bit of clothing from the laundry basket.
"I should probably go in a few minutes," Subaru confirms, with a dramatic, elongated sigh.
Kamui's lips quirk up at the playful nature of it all. It's certainly something he never pictured Subaru could possess what with everything he's been through. Living so closely together brought about rather pleasant surprises.
"Oh? You don't want to?" Kamui asks with mild jest. This atmosphere was a little too nice, warm and easy for Kamui to lean back into. His head falls back against a warm chest, looking up to intrigued eyes.
"No…" Subaru admits with a pout. Soft lips feel all too hot breathing the simple words "I don't" right into Kamui's ear, testing the waters a bit.
"B-b-but! Y-you'll need to!" A playful smirk follows Kamui's stuttering. "I mean…of course I'm not telling you to… I don't mind you being here more often." Kamui stumbles a little meekly. Subaru beams at the cute admittance.
"It's just that now, you'd feel bad if you weren't able to help those people. There are so many people that need you." Glimmering white lights in Kamui's eyes leave the older male out of breath. There's so much sincerity falling off his lips, a chance for protesting the claim seemed futile.
The one he loved thought rather highly of him. It would be a lie to say that didn't boost his confidence.
"You're so sweet," Subaru relents a little bit. He nuzzles the back of the younger man's neck hearing a soft gasp escape. Kamui had been rather receptive as of late.
"But just know…" Subaru does allow himself to say. "If it's for you." He hushes the words again right into Kamui's ear. The enamored man relishes in the feel of heated shivers. It's easy to feel, the slender body flushed right up against him.
"If you are the one who needs me," Subaru mentally applauds himself for gushing like this without burning up too badly. Smoothly, he manages to spin Kamui around and embrace him fully. Chest to chest. Heart to heart. "Everything else will have to wait."
"Su-Subaru?" Kamui stutters. Violet-blue eyes explore every inch of the private smile and tender eyes caressing him. Geez...
"You're the one who's so sweet," Kamui mumbles. He keeps a little sheepish before burying his face into the taller man's neck. Always saying things like that, so easily.
"I'll miss you." No, matter how many times Kamui says that it never fails to leave the other a flustered mess. Heartbeats accelerate and there's a rush that makes him want to sweep Kamui off his feet, spin him around and kiss him breathless.
Subaru finds it will be better to tell Kamui much sooner than later. Still, he wanted to at least have more time free for both of them about confessing.
It was more a matter of when than if he'd do it. Kamui left him entirely hopeful.
"I'll miss you too," Subaru returns with equal devotion. He kissed the crown of the unruly head of hair and followed by brushing it down with his fingers. It's just the way Kamui likes as he all but purrs from the touch.
There's a lingering moment. Their eyes delve deep into one another. It's only a matter of one taking that extra step before it all comes to the surface. Soon...
They do have to part, but only temporarily.
"I'll be home soon," Subaru promises. As soon as he possibly could with the upcoming cases. It was amazing how efficient one could be when driven by the need to return to someone.
Kamui nods at that. "I'll see you then." He leans upon his tiptoes kissing a pinkening cheek. "Take care."
Subaru grasps Kamui's cheek, stroking it for a moment. Warm arms embrace Kamui one last time before he does eventually head out.
Fond little smiles curl up on Kamui's lips no matter how he tries to calm them. Having the home to himself for a few moments, he steadies his breathing.
Fingers absently trail over the pile of warm clothes. Kamui comes out to the living room to see his house mate's long white trench coat still draped over the couch.
The petite young man perches upon the arm of the couch. The clothing still feels warm upon his fingertips. Carefully, Kamui hugs it close, there's a calming aura there.
Subaru's scent. Kamui ponders. He should probably fold it, or maybe hang it up again to prevent wrinkles.
Although, it didn't need to be taken care of right away. He glances up at the clock. Kamui confirms still has fifteen minutes before he leaves for school. So Kamui grasps the long coat a little tighter. He leans his head down just a bit breathing in tiny bits of the intoxicating scent.
Kamui smiles, wanting to dive in that bit more. The scent of Subaru, subtle but still quite present just a little ashy from the few times he did smoke. Senses are overtaken by the stronger scent of mint, rosemary, and lavender.
"Mhmm…" Kamui hugs it tighter, his mind going numb. The scent felt a bit stronger than before. It was a bit more profound than the lingering scent upon their bedsheets. The new cologne his housemate had taken too mixed well with his natural pheromones.
Kamui indulges in burying his face in the warm fabric. The scent and warmth are still so comforting and prominent, it leaves Kamui to lose the strength in his legs and fall back on the sofa. The coat clutched to Kamui's chest, countless times of feeling the protective man wrapping it around him came to the surface.
"You're so…" Kamui stops. The seemingly sudden swinging of the door makes words die on his lips.
"I forgot my-" Subaru starts to explain, not seeing the alluring scene at first. Gold and green eyes burn in the sight of Kamui's nose nuzzling the long white fabric. "Co-coat…"
"I'm sorry!" Kamui squeaks, hurries, eyes about to tear up. His hands were still tangled up in the warm fabric, his senses were overwhelmed by the pleasant scent. "I finished the laundry and saw you left this so I…"
Subaru's smile is all too soft, fond. His cheeks are still a bit red, yet he can't fight this. "You know…" He looks up towards the sky. An angelic beaming curl to his legs, makes Kamui's legs shake. "It's nice out today. I don't think I'll be needing it after all."
"I'll see you Kamui," Subaru breathes out the words sweetly. Dual-hued eyes bore into the younger man. Kamui begins heating up at the very alluring sight.
Kamui can't find the words to respond. His mouth stays out, mortified he'd been caught and even started this in the first place. At the sound of the door shutting Kamui curls in on himself. His cheeks burn crimson, as he buries them against the side of the couch, the coat Subaru 'left' for him still on his lap.
Ambrosia: Tulip-Part I: End