Ambrosia

by AyaxRoses

'Love. To truly love, that was one of the only things in this world that would never die. Even if you wished it to. Subaru and Kamui had grown to understand this painfully well.' An alternative ending to the final battle and a future for Subaru and Kamui to be happy together. SubKam SubaruxKamui BL-Yaoi-Shounen-Ai Past Fuuma/Kamui.

29. Love-in-a-Mist

Ambrosia Chapter 29: Love-in-a-Mist

Flower symbolism: delicacy, embarrassment, 'kiss me', perplexity

With powers of binding love, love spells

Chapter summary/segments: Hurt/comfort, Subaru experiences a nightmare/a returning memory that makes him doubt himself. He voices his concerns to Kamui.

The ongoing semester at CLAMP proves to be busy with projects. Featuring AU cameo versions of Clover characters. Subaru busied himself with work and finds it harder than expected to find information about his lover's mysterious family, let alone a spirit willing to talk with him. And of course, after everything, these two lovebirds take a weekend getaway for Valentine's Day.

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-Nightmare-

Pink, bright, soft, light as air, seemingly pure and entrancing…Pink petals flutter through the wind. Yet, it's cold out now, this shouldn't be. Still, the young boy can't help but approach the beauty of it.

Like a moth to a flame, a young boy, pure as snow, walks closer and closer to the beautiful, and fatal Sakura tree.

The young boy had dressed properly in ceremonial robes and beads, preparing for a bright and brilliant future. His eyes gleamed with innocence and hope to make his family proud. He would work effortlessly to ensure his grandmother that he would grow. He'd become a worthy successor of their prestigious clan.

"The Cherry Blossoms are beautiful," a young Subaru voices his thoughts aloud. His emerald eyes brighten and shine in wonder, as they take in the full, elegant flowers, seeming as though they had only just bloomed. But that was impossible, right? It wasn't near Spring, and yet the tree appeared frozen in time, not aging, only holding such vitality. The source of that though…

"Do you like Cherry Blossoms?" The low voice of a stranger comes bellowing forth, calling to him.

The young Subaru whips his head around. With a naive and brightened smile, he answers. "Yes!"

The remains of the young boy's freedom, innocence, and life become tainted here.

The cool and hauntingly alluring voice goes on.

"But did you know?" He begins, entrancing his target further. "They say… buried underneath every Sakura tree is a corpse…"

Suddenly, the mood and scenery begin to shift. A cool shiver runs down the innocent boy's body, unable to comprehend just what was unraveling.

"A corpse?" Subaru questions, watching as the very petals of the tree begin to fall. The flowers begin framing and surrounding the mysterious young man.

"Yes, the reason the Sakura Bloom so beautifully, every year," He begins calmly, lifting a hand out to catch the petals. "Is because of the corpse buried underneath."

The words have yet to fully sink into the innocent onmyouji. Just a child, yet even still he can't manage to look away. There's something so dangerous, yet he's still drawn in.

"So do you know why Cherry Blossoms turn pink?" The stranger asks him, a meticulous smile, taking over his features.

Even now, this innocent and young Subaru finds himself drawn further. A dangerous attraction, the first that's ever pulled him this strongly. The boy shakes his head, chest a hint for a reason he wouldn't grasp for some time.

"Because they drink the blood… of the corpse beneath." He explains so easily, so calmly as though it were simply a fact of life all ages should know. For a Sakurazuka, perhaps that was the case.

"But isn't that person… in pain?" Subaru expresses with such glowing serenity and concern. His emerald eyes glisten and waver with unspoken tears for those he never knew. A child's innocence, and naivety but with such empathy, a level many adults would never come towards being in their lifetime.

It catches the boy off balance. The strong reactions of horror, fear, and revulsion towards such a violent subject don't come across. At the least, those emotions are overshadowed by the strong feeling of concern and pain for another.

The young keeper of the Sakura tree loses his breath for a second. He can't calculate nor understand this level of purity. Still, it intrigues him further.

Their destinies become further intertwined, as the older boy smirks, finding himself truly alive, and with a purpose beyond his fate. A choice he was making, a promise.

"I'll make a bet with you…" He kneels before the young onmyouji. They meet eye to eye, neither grasping how deeply the threads of fate had tied them here. "If you and I should ever meet again…"

A gust of unsettling wind follows his words. The cherry blossoms grow wild, drawn, and unruly at the sight of their next target.

"I'm sorry I couldn't hear you… the wind…" Subaru politely responds, and apologizes even, his purity astounding. A child so light is yet drawn to such darkness. It could never end well.

Those words before making their meaning through the wild breeze... And memories slowly resurface of the remaining process.

"If you and I should ever meet again…" Sakurazuka's voice breezes through, icy and calculated. "Let us live together for one year."

Subaru's eyes widened, something unsettling within.

"My heart is the direct inverse of yours," He explains, smiling in that same meticulous manner and looking into the boy's eyes. "You are kind, pure, and honest. And I'm sure that is how you will continue to grow up."

A hand begins to reach 45for the innocent boy's face." So if we should ever meet again…" a chilling touch caresses tender cheeks. "... I will try my hardest to love you."

Frightened emerald eyes widen at the words.

"For just one year…"

Love was supposed to be kind, right? Falling in love wouldn't be a plan and not something feeling this devious. At least, his childish brain had thought, knowing of love from storybooks Hokuto had read to him.

"And after that year... If I can consider you special… You will have won and I will not kill you." The hand retracts, bringing an aching sensation to the boy's core. Longing and unbearable sense of loneliness.

"But if I decide… that I cannot consider you special to me…" He turns back, with Subaru's eyes following and freezing at the second sight of the innocent child, sacrificed. "If I cannot distinguish the difference between you and that corpse… Then…"

A break of bitter silence, as the fatally beautiful petals, begin to stir in the air.

"I will kill you. And so today." The same eerie smile returns. It's somehow not ingenuine; twisted happiness but it was there…. Yet, this form of happiness was so very cold, self-serving. The lights in Subaru's eyes began to dim. "I will let you go."

The haunting words and smile somehow manage to vanish with the cooling breeze of the wind. The scars which have come from it would not.

With a single promise. His world has shifted, Subaru finds himself in the body of his 16-year-old self, watching and somehow feeling the events of the next year playing out so quickly.

All the happy memories, the sad and downright agonizing. Yet, still, they were his memories…

His vision blurs, and soon Subaru finds himself, older, more broken, and tied down against the Sakura tree. He opens his eyes, fully prepared to free himself, yet…

As he finds the figure approaching, there's something strange. There is such pain, yet that wish, was no longer stirring his heart, and the illusion began to shatter like shards of glass.

He returned to a world of emptiness now in his current adult body. The cherry blossoms now surround his form. But the petals turn a deep red, drops of bloodied rain begin to taint the seemingly pure Cherry Blossoms.

Those flowers swirl and twist around wildly, forming a sort of hurricane. They continue only swaying towards the sight of the one he grew to love… Subaru's body wasn't reacting to what he told it to.

The curse of the Sakurazukamori possibly-but-that couldn't be right… Subaru wasn't… Seishirou- and no matter what curse, he wouldn't harm the one he loved.

Quickly, Subaru runs further from the Sakura tree and towards his precious Kamui. But as soon as he reached out his hand, the smiling face he came to love and everything… shatters… leaving him helpless but to watch his remaining light slip away. All he could do was cry out-

"Kamui! " Subaru cries, voice breaking painfully. He panicked jolting to sitting upright in bed.

"Mnn… Subaru?" Said the male woken abruptly by his partner. Seconds earlier he held a blissful smile, and contently snuggled in those loving arms before rolling off towards the side. The sweet sight of his lover yawning and rubbing at his eyes calms his heart. It's almost scary how quickly it does so.

"Subaru?" Kamui tries again, this time softer, cooing and voice dripping with deep love. He doesn't wait for a response. The younger man takes one look at his lover's face, eyes widened and devoid of light, threatening to spill tears, and lips shivering.

The smaller male wastes no time in scooping his lover up into his arms. His hand curls over the back of his lover's head, pulling the broken man to rest against his chest. Subaru's trembling eases, as he finds himself listening to a heartbeat, his reality. Kamui was alive and here with him, as it should be. Long legs tangle and wrap around Subaru's own legs and hips, embracing him completely.

"A nightmare?" Kamui asks, intuitively, knowing more than questioning. Perhaps breathing the words- nightmare, helps the older male to cope that what he saw was just that. A cruel nightmare but not a reality.

Subaru nods, wrapping one arm snuggly around Kamui's middle. He clutches one hand within Kamui's pajama top, fingers tangling and twisting the fabric.

Subaru nuzzles against his lover's warm chest and breathes in his lover's reassuring scent.

"I love you…. So so… much Kamui…" Subaru professes, so hurriedly desperately it makes his lover's chest contract.

"I love you, Subaru," Kamui returns with a calming assurance, though there's worry seeded in his eyes. "You know that…" His fingers brush through strands of black and deep green hair. His legs and arm surrounding Subaru, tighten pulling him in as close as possible. "I always will…"

Subaru shifts in his hold, head brushing up and nuzzling his lover's chest. His eyes closed, focusing on his other senses to assure him Kamui was here, and the past could be just that.

"I need you," Subaru expresses, his warm breath meeting the small bits of exposed skin beneath Kamui's pajama top. A hand clutching Kamui begins to travel slowly down. Tender hands caress around a sensitive chest, stomach, and hips, finally coming to rest on Kamui's lap."M-more than I can say…" Subaru leans up slightly kissing and lingering wherever they can reach.

"Su-Subaru," Kamui swallows, blushing at every touch, and smooth caress. His body melts every place Subaru touches. An involuntary shiver forms from the attention, before a familiar heat, takes over. Even knowing his lover's intentions are innocent, his body, and his hormones couldn't tell the difference between this and a more sensual touch. 'The worst timing for this…' He thinks, biting down on his lips.

'Not now…' "S-Subaru," Kamui shakes his head, ignoring the growing heat in his core. One which seemed to be at the ready, every time Subaru's touch lingered like this.

Kamui glances down, seeing his lover linger beside his chest. Hands upon his body hold him tightly, seeking reassurance. "I'm here, Subaru. Right here with you…"

"Mn…" Subaru murmurs something into the welcoming chest. His gentle hands brush circles around his lover's hips and legs tangled up with his own.

"And I need you too," Kamui follows up, tangling his hands further into the tousled locks of green-black. With a small curl to his lips, he adds, "Just as much as you do, if not more."

"Hm…" A soft chuckle vibrates against Kamui. Subaru nuzzles him again, kisses that same spot over "That's impossible."

Kamui mocks offense, sulking, or more so pouting. "I do need you."

Subaru calms his already quiet laughter. He shakes his head, hair tickling Kamui's skin."I'm not doubting you…" He assures, tenderly. "I just feel I need you so much…maybe more than I should." He admits with a sardonic laugh, as drops of emotion began to well up in his eyes again.

"I don't think so," Kamui responds, gently, and looks down trying to meet his lover's vulnerable eyes. "I mean aren't people in love supposed to need each other more than anything? It's like a couple's thing." His cheeks burn up, feeling hands starting to caress his arms and legs.

Another soft breath of laughter escapes. His deepest feelings only solidify, at the words. 'Because you are you… Kamui… I'll always need you'

While he'd feel mourning and hurt if someone else in his family, or a fellow dragon of heaven passed, he knew he could survive it. Anything really so long as he still had Kamui.

The fondness of Subaru's laughter wasn't quite understood by his partner. Kamui's bottom lip lifts up in a slightly sulky manner, his eyebrows lower.

"I know what I said was… embarrassing but, it's how I feel." The earnestness in his voice, and clarity in his eyes, confirm this statement all the more.

"Oh, no no no, Kamui," Subaru looks back up, gazing and failing to not get lost in a sky of violet-blue. "It's just…"

'Honestly, adorable.'

"I loved what you said… your words have such an effect on me… I guess I don't know how to react. I just feel lighter with you."

Kamui's sullen expression softens hearing these words. His hands continue to stroke through his lover's hair. Violet-blue orbs dazzle at the beautiful contrast of a dark green and black falling over his milky skin tone.

"If that's the case… it makes me happy," Kamui professes, calmly and truly. His heart sings at the feeling of familiar hands caressing his sides, and a weary head leaning to his every touch.

"I'm glad," Subaru says with a soft little smile. A small light peeking through the darkness and pain. The nightmare would stay that…and nothing more.

Kamui was content and patient, happy to allow his boyfriend to lie over him. With hope, it would be relaxing to Subaru after the rather brutal wake-up.

When it seems calmer, Kamui offers, sweetly, "Do you want to talk about it?" No pressure, just unwavering devotion, the door was always there, open whenever his love needed to come in.

"It…." Subaru pauses, wondering whether continuing would help or simply reopen old wounds. Looking into loving eyes and a beautiful smile, Kamui reserved just for him, he felt himself become calm. "It was the same dream I've had for a while now…"

Kamui's eyes shiver, having a good guess as to the subject. Still, he waits for his lover to continue, patiently. One arm encircling Subaru's waist pulls him closer. While his free arm continues to pet and card through Subaru's soft hair.

"When I was… a small child, and I first met -" Subaru's heart clenched, his body beginning to tremble more. "I first met…"

"It's okay, Subaru," Kamui consoles, guiding his lover's head to lay back down on his chest. "I know."

'Of course, because somehow…you've always understood.' Subaru's amorous thoughts flood in.

"I… was just a child then, everything changed since that meeting… even if I couldn't recall it fully for the longest time."

"You've had to carry these burdens for far too long…" Kamui laments, kissing the crown of his boyfriend's head. "I'm so sorry…"

Raw sincerity and the pain casting from violet-blue eyes send shivers down Subaru's spine. While intense, there's a pleasantness to these reactions, to know how deeply someone cares for him.

"It's nothing you've done…" Subaru murmurs, nuzzling Kamui. Had he a bit more strength he would have come back up to kiss those worried lips. But now, he settles to kiss over where his lover's heart was fluttering. "You're only brought good into my life."

Kamui reddens at the comment, biting his lip to hide any embarrassing reactions. "Subaru…"

"That's why I can't lose you ever," Subaru professes, returning to the somber mood. His eyes wince closed, as his hand clutched harder to Kamui's clothes.

"You won't lose me," Kamui promises, moving the hand on his lover's head to brush reassuring circles down his lover's arm. He clasps Subaru's hand in his own.

"I…need you so badly," Subaru confesses the overflowing feeling once more. "It's terrifying. I couldn't stand to lose you-especially not after coming this far, everything we've been through…"

"Subaru," Kamui calls him, melancholy, breathing a sigh. He laces his fingers with Subaru's own. "I don't know what happened in your dream but…it's not true. I'm not going anywhere."

"I… I always assumed those I've loved would be there for a long time… but it wasn't the case with…" Subaru groans in frustration, feeling tears welling at the mere image of his elder sister and the one who stole and shattered his heart so seemingly easily.

"Or at least that they would remain the way I grew to know them…"

"I'm not sure I understand…" Kamui's violet eyes lower, his lips curling down. "I know you've been deceived and betrayed but please know that…I could never-"

"It's not that.," Subaru quickly interjects, not able to meet Kamui's eyes. "I know and trust you. I guess ... I worry about myself…"

"What do you mean?" Kamui asks softly, giving his lover's hand another squeeze.

"I mean… I don't want to become like… him."

Ah. So this is still bothering you.' Kamui comprehends this same fear was returning. "I don't know if there's anything I could do to convince you, but you're not and will never be him."

"But… Still what if I-"

"Subaru! You are your own person," Kamui breaks out, desperately trying to break through the shadows of doubt. "No matter what title or curse you've inherited… you're still Sumeragi Subaru, and no one else."

"I don't want to ever lose who I am," Subaru confesses, unable to shake this worry. His eyes gloss over, shaking and vulnerable. "I never want to do anything that will hurt you!"

"And you won't!" Kamui cries out and finds his heart torn. This frustration took over, he hoped more than anything right now he could banish the fears his lover holds.

"The relationship you had…" He bites his tongue and pauses for a breath. Just saying those words left an odd feeling. "It's different. What you and the former Sakurazukamori shared is not the same as what we have, not even close."

"I… I do understand that much… I just want it to stay that way… Seishirou started out so differently… so very kind and warm… yet after that year everything changed."

"Subaru, you're not like that… putting up some front…You're so kind, wonderful…" Kamui professes, blushing an obvious red, but he can't hide it nor the soft smile that comes after. "I know you, the real you and just as you are… that's exactly how I fell in love with you."

"Kamui…" Subaru returns with a shaky breath. His heart began thundering, overcome with everything he felt for Kamui. Those fears and anxiety couldn't hold a candle to this feeling, they became drowned out.

"And besides we've known each other for longer than a year… and I know you're the same Subaru I love," Kamui expressed, heart entirely exposed, but he can feel his lover finally looking into his eyes again. "And hopefully," his fingers dance their way over to Subaru's cheek. "You see me that way as well…"

"Of course I do!" Subaru blurts much louder than intended.

"Then it's settled," Kamui confirms, laughs, and caresses the soft cheekbones. He lights up with a dazzling smile, taking his boyfriend's heart hostage.

'How many times do you plan to make me go weak like this?' Subaru was already shaken up, and vulnerable but Kamui being so comforting and doting… was making him melt into the embrace.

"I'm weak…" Subaru professes, finding himself so easily broken and healed by emotions, by even a few words… a single touch.

"You're not weak at all," Kamui ensures, this time tilting his lover's face at an angle so he could finally see him. Such vulnerability, as always when Subaru cried. "I think you're perfect as you are…and besides…you should know that…" Kamui feels heat rising to his ears, blood flushing over his features. "You're my strength."

And like a shot to the heart. Subaru found himself only falling harder. Here he was snuggled up in his younger lover's arms, crying, shivering, and barely able to stay calm. Kamui somehow was calling him his strength.

Yet, the way it was spoken, the fact Kamui was the one who expressed this.

"And for the record, I have those worries too… I get protective over you and worry when you go out on those risky jobs all alone." Kamui professes, frowning a little bit. "I worry I could lose you… but I choose not to believe either of us will let that happen. I trust you'll come back home to me… and when I work with you I'll be there to keep you safe."

"My Kamui," Subaru calls tenderly, finding enough strength to lean up and finally connect their lips. "I won't be going anywhere…I will do everything to make sure I can be with you for a lifetime… " Maybe beyond…

"I believe you," Kamui returns, violet orbs glossy with a deep sense of faith. "And I hope you too can believe in yourself, see yourself the way I do."

"I'll certainly try harder to," Subaru smiles at this, cuddling into his lover's arms and shifting so they could finally return to sleep.

He needed to continue to believe in himself, as he did for Kamui. What they had here was too special to ignore.

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School Project

The new year brought out a very full semester at CLAMP school. The idea of work-hard-play-hard certainly applied to CLAMP school. Outside of rigorous studying, there was almost always some excuse for a party of celebration. The campus was already filled to the brim with paper hearts and flowers all over campus. And it wasn't even February.

The ballroom dance brought out some nice memories. But as for now, things were too occupied with new assignments to think more about it.

Kamui had his current assigned project in front of him. The bad news is it was a partner project, and he couldn't simply do the rest at home when he felt like it. The good news is his partner was reserved, overall kind, and focused on the task.

His current project partner, 'Ran', held similarities to Kamui. From the glossy raven-black hair and sleek and elegant face. His demeanor was similar to Kamui, quiet though a bit more polite… formal. Definitely introspective.

If nothing else one could see major differences between the two young men by their eyes. The mysterious boy possessed dark grey-blue eyes which held an air of kindness and hospitality. Though all the same, they held a melancholic sheen, seeming to drift off between the present and his wandering thoughts quite often.

"I think if we write about the Edo period then…" Kamui began, looking through the pages they'd have to go through. He paused and frowned. The young man across from him seemed to drift off, a hand under his chin as his gaze averted outside the window.

From the angle he was leaning, Kamui caught a glimpse of a rather unique mark. A supposed tattoo of a three-leaf clover on him… or what looked like one.

Brushed off as being 'just a birthmark' and a unique one at that. Kamui found no need to dig in any further. What mattered here was the present.

"Ran?" Kamui called for him, worriedly. The latter male took his time to respond.

"Oh? I'm sorry," Ran expressed, a polite note of his head. A polite smile is put on, hiding whatever else he has felt. A little bit of that made Kamui think of Subaru. "I did get a bit lost in thought there."

There was a lingering sadness, behind those eyes, he couldn't block out as he did with his smiles. A sense of immeasurable pain, Kamui could sense it. Clearly, the young man had his own story to tell behind it all, and hopefully, it could have a happy ending.

"It's fine," Kamui shakes his head. He glances towards the corner of the room and sees the clock. "We've been working on this for a while. Probably overdoing it for a break."

"Thanks for that," Ran responds warmly, his smile smaller but more at ease. His long arms stretch up and out the ceiling. "Perhaps, we should break for tea?"

"Alright," Kamui agrees, finding his mind spinning from all the schoolwork.

'He always looks really focused when I see him in class. And earlier too… whatever came to his mind must really be important…' - Kamui's thoughts flood in, filled with curiosity for the other man.

Ran worries, gathering up the various folders, papers, and textbooks into his school bag. Kamui does the same, clearing the table in their library for a much-needed break and to a cafe.

A short distance outside of the library they approached an open room. A small Cafe booth in the corner, several tables and chairs filled the space.

The cage was cutely decorated with their school mascot painted next to a cup of coffee with 'CLAMP School Cafe' displayed at the top of the booth.

"If you like, I can make a good recommendation of the drinks here," Ran responded in a confident yet courteous manner.

'I don't see why not.' Kamui nods, finding his curiosity growing by the moment. "Okay."

There was something natural about how the other male came in, with the cups in hand. He brought them to the table, gracefully.

"It's a kind of Royal Milk-tea, unique to our campus," Ran exhibits a sense of pride in this tidbit. "They always make them fresh, with Assam and Darjeeling tea leaves. Even using a more traditional milk pan at least when they're not too busy."

"You seem to know a lot about the drinks here," Kamui notes with mild intrigue. That and feeling lighter to hear the other boy talk with a sense of lightness.

"I've had my practice making them at home," Ran assured, closing his glistening eyes and staring off with a sense of fondness.

'He looks so happy… ' Kamui mentally notes. Just the mention of home could make it much more upbeat, but with Ran, it was different from usual. There was a change between the polite smiles and those coming from the heart. Something softer.

"You sound happy," Kamui voices the thought aloud, seeing curious glances directed his way.

Ran blinks at the insight, before gray-blue eyes settle with a light sheen of warmth. "Perhaps, I do…" He considers the comment with a curve to his lips. "It can't be helped. As much as I admire the school, I'm most at ease with the one I care for most."

"Oh…" Kamui replies, quietly, feeling relief the seemingly pained young man had someone precious. "You aren't on campus either then?" he asks, more seeking to confirm than anything.

"Mn-mmn," Ran shakes his head, taking a long breath. "It would be too lonely to be away…"

"I see, " Kamui returns with understanding. The vision of his cozy home comes to mind. His precious Subaru's smiling face surfaces, along with his arms open, always ready to take Kamui in. "I can understand that."

"It's important to keep those you love close…"

"Keep them close…"

"Yes… Do you have any siblings, Kamui?" Ran voices suddenly, there's an intensity brimming in gray orbs.

"No," Kamui returns. It's for the best. The thought of having more family meant even more to lose. And of course… his lineage… there would be far too many dangers.

"I see," Ran brushes the topic off. For some reason I felt… we might have had a connection with that. "I had a twin brother…" He admits with a sense of melancholy.

"Oh…" Kamui focuses on his reflection within the tea. "I'm sorry…"

"No, no. I'm not saying this for sympathy. Just my experience." Ran explains, holding a hand up to keep Kamui from appearing or feeling more guilt. "And in many ways… he's still very much a part of me."

"You both must have been close," Kamui returns, taking a soft sip of the sweet milk tea. He indulges in the flavor letting his senses calm before finishing. "I… never had siblings or cousins… So I can't say I know what that connection feels like. But with those you love… they always stay a part of you."

"I feel the same," Ran returns, openly and with a bittersweet smile. His hand wraps around the cup, squeezing it lightly.

"My boy-ah… someone close to me was born a twin so…" Kamui quickly corrects himself, flushing red, wondering if there was a point to do so at this point. He feels if he should mention this, his boyfriend's past was tricky. He keeps them vague. "Perhaps…there's something special connecting twins."

"Oh," Ran considers seriously. Maybe that's what I was feeling. Or maybe he wished to know someone else holding and healing from similar pain. "Perhaps, I shouldn't say things without complete certainty. But I feel somehow those connected in this life will reunite in some way in the next…"

"I hope so," Perhaps, the afterlife holds more kindness than their world did.

"For your boyfriend's sake?" Ran returns with a laugh, unable to suppress the reaction.

Kamui flushes a harsher shade of red, at the direct statement. "Yes… but not just that… it's for me as well… I want to see the person I care for so happy…"

And maybe…. In that afterlife, I could meet Subarus's sister. Kamui's cheeks redden up to his ears, having such a mushy thought of meeting his lover's dear elder sister. Being able to reassure her, Subaru would always be loved, that he wasn't alone… those were things he'd strive for.

"I can see that…. I, as well-"

-Briiing Vrrring Vriiing.-

The sound of a phone buzzing cuts off his thoughts. He reaches into his pocket pulls out a flip phone and smiles fondly at whatever appeared on the screen.

"I'm afraid I may need to cut this study session short," Ran explains, bowing his head in apology. "Unexpected… but someone's here to pick me up….I guess work was shorter for him today."

"That's alright," Kamui answers and he returns to take the remainder of his tea out in a to-go cup. "We still have plenty of time to finish it anyway."

'And I don't mind working and talking with you.' Kamui thinks, finding intrigue in this new possible friend.

"I'll head out with you," Kamui ensures. Closely, and quietly they exit the library. Violet-blue eyes take immediate curiosity at the 'someone' coming to pick up his project partner.

Outside the building was the aforementioned man. Someone so tall, strongly built and holding an air of mystery about him. His hair is a natural-looking yellow-gold. His eyes were covered by dark gray shades, giving him the appearance of some secret agent… or perhaps a bodyguard of sorts.

The blond appeared to be a bit older than Ran somewhere in the late 20s or so, giving a bit of an age gap between the two men.

'I guess we have more similarities than just looks.' Kamui thinks watching the pit exchange glances, only one of them having their eyes visible. Yet the gentle curl on previously stern lips remains telling.

Gingetsu, Ran's…Friend? Boyfriend? He was intimidating. He stood diligently at the building, arms crossed.

Though Ran beamed at him as though he was all the good left on this earth...

'Maybe to Ran, this man was just that to him…'

"You're close," Kamui mentions warmly, thinking aloud. He sees the way Ran's eyes light up like fireworks at the sight of the mysterious man outside. The gentle little smile playing on his lips was quite similar.

"Of course we are…Gingetsu is my-," Ran looks at him, noticing the hint of oblivion on Kamui's face. He then laughs. "Oh, you don't know?"

Kamui shook his head. Though he held a few assumptions.

"I thought rumors spread everywhere by now," Ran lightly banters, shaking his head. "He's my partner." The tone comes out with pride, leaving the other man smiling brightly, for the first time honestly.

"Oh," Kamui's thoughts are confirmed. The more he thinks about this, the more he realizes no other feeling to describe the connection. "I'm guessing that's not just with work," He says, lightly, though quite certain, what his classmate felt.

"No, it's in the romantic sense," Ran returned so calmly, seemingly unaffected by whatever way Kamui would react. Though it was likely rumors, Kamui's confirmation on also having a boyfriend helped the words fall so blissfully.

"I'll see you next time, Kamui," Ran bows his head politely, walking up to his beloved. "Take care," He waves a quick goodbye, eager to return to his partner's side.

"I'll see you," Kamui waves, watching with a sense of hope, seeing the pair come together.

"Gingetsu!" Ran calls as though the two hadn't been eyeing each other for the past five minutes. They whisper a few words between them before heading out. Ran golds a gentle smile, resting his head upon his partner's arm. They head towards an exit gate on campus.

'There's a different path of happiness for everyone.' Even with those going through pain and loss. Kamui held experience first hand, but there was a different type of hope blooming seeing one who had their share of pain, returning happily to their version of home.

---

Disappearing Act

The young Sumeragi leader was not one to let those he loved go. And thus he was devoted to using the scraps of information he could find on Kamui's family.

'I'll be Home late' ~ The text message read, receiving the 'wrath' of Kamui, eyes steeled and glaring at the words icily

How many times had Kamui heard those words, in the past week? Month?

This time around, Subaru had kept his word to Kamui about being honest. The younger man was hardly fond of what his lover did (especially when it meant more time apart) but he was at least aware.

"He's gone again, Hana," Kamui looks down at their cat and groans, letting his head fall back on the couch. His school bag was left off haphazardly on the floor, books slipping out.

"Subaru…."

But the young student couldn't bring himself to care. The curl over Kamui's lips, the one Subaru always brought him, was replaced with a sunken frown.

"Why do you try to take on everything yourself, still?"

They've connected in all senses, mentally, emotionally, spiritually as well as physically.

"Why does he do that, Hana?" Kamui turns to the curled-up feline. Though readying for sleep, there's a sense of loneliness about her. Her head hung low, and a high little meow escaped.

"I know you miss him too," He validates, petting the little furball on his head.

"Mreeow," A little squeak falls from the kitten's lips.

"I'm not remotely motivated to finish any assignments…"

Doing homework was never as enjoyable as it was being around his lover. Even if they weren't talking, just working on their own thing, the little smiles exchanged, coffee and tea brewed for their work sessions were nice.

Of course, Subaru was a vital part of his grades being as high as they are now.

Kamui recalls the image of earlier days. The little day breaks amongst the storm. CLAMP school, its own world, away from the crumbling world. The gazebo they promised to meet under.

Oh, how his heart would race. Granted it was so with nerves but still wildly whenever he ran late, only to see a compassionate gaze.

And… 'tutoring' sessions since getting together, could turn into fooling around was a guilty pleasure. They did get the work done, eventually. Kamui found himself in a much better mood to study just about anything afterward.

But none of those scenarios was an option.

Their world was never simple. Not even close. But those moments it felt like the sun shined down a bit brighter. There was space to breathe.

Diiiing.

Lost in a blend of memories, the sound broke Kamui from his thoughts. Violet-blue orbs shimmer longingly, and his heart feels shaky.

Finally, the door slowly opens. Kamui lets out a small breath, relieved to his lover, worn out, but in one piece.

"Welcome Home," Kamui greets gently. A part of him wants to stay upset, to let Subaru know how worried he'd been and how he needed to stop working himself like this. But… seeing a tired, gentle smile, melts that frustration away.

"I'm home," Subaru returns the gesture, tiredly but full of tenderness. The tone came out only for Kamui.

The younger male couldn't help himself. His emotions overridden all else. He lunged forward and wrapped his arms tightly around his lover's shoulders.

"I missed you," Kamui confesses, finding this feeling between them to matter most.

When Subaru's arm circles around his waist and his lips brush Kamui's, their house feels like home again.

"I missed you too," Subaru ensures, kissing those plush lips sweet, soundly, and languidly, never wanting to part.

"I…" He breathes against soft lips. Gradually their lips move just apart enough to speak. He sees the worry, the shiver in Kamui's fluttering eyes, waiting for his response. "I'm so sorry, again..."

"Subaru…" Kamui breathes into the addictive warmth. Their lips take turns welcoming each other home, melding perfectly.

"I know you…. Worry," Kamui softens, and lets their lips brush once more before cuddling closer. He buries his face into a warm familiar chest. "But I want you to stop taking burdens on your own. No matter what, we can handle it together."

"Kamui…" Subaru coos, pulling his lover in til they flushed together. "I-" His response was swallowed up by insistent lips.

"You can lean on me," Kamui whispers, letting his nose brush, before leaning up on his tiptoes.

Subaru already knows, he's lost himself further. Words to protest his need to work, keep Kamui safe, faded into the night. Kamui's addictive lips stole his own again,

"Mreow." Their kitten cries out to her owner, brushing against his legs. He smiles sweetly at their house cat. Their little family would have time catching up… cuddled up on the couch.

For now, his attention came to bestowing dozens of kisses on Kamui. His place of belonging was here…

Leaning more on you… For their future… he could certainly work towards that.

"We do work well together," Subaru breathes between their lips. Kamui blinks, unsure how that came up, but agrees. As their lips brush, they continue to embrace, somehow all they could face seems possible, while together.

---

Change of Plans

This year will be different from the last. Kamui's heart, while still torn up at times, had continued healing, growing stronger.

This year he and Subaru were not simply 'roommates' if they ever were that, to begin with. There was such a closeness the word somehow seemed more distant than what they had. Roommates typically didn't sleep in the same bed, snuggled up…a lot like…lovers.

Now, the pinks, reds, and whites seem to shine even more so. Color continues to fill up the prestigious CLAMP school.

All the flowers, paper hearts, and dangling decor took over the hallways where Kamui slept.

Posters on campus advertised the yearly celebration for the holiday. As with many other pieces on campus the posters were designed by students in the art departments.

The beautiful drawing of roses of all colors created a frame around the poster. Every corner held a beautifully crafted rose, pink, white, red, and a blend of all three. In the center of the poster were silhouettes of two figures, facing one another, arms positioned to be dancing.

"St. Valentine's Day celebratory Festival and Dance"

The masquerade from last year was absolutely Subaru show up was the best surprise of the night.

The attire required was much more formal. This year students were encouraged to come in more casual or formal as they liked. Casual wear is likely going to be chosen for the festival.

Kamui was stuck between what he should do that day. He could attend the festival and dance, taking up the remaining Valentine's day. Or he could spend the day out on a date with Subaru.

Or Maybe? Visit for part of the festival. Perhaps a balance between the two would help.

It was hard to know about and-

"Good morniiiiiiing~" The delighted female voice calls out to him. A familiar brunette skipping happily down the halls appeared closer and closer. At least until Kamui took a step back, knowing his friend's lack of concern for personal space.

"Good morning, Yuzuriha," Kamui greeted, although his words felt a little dryer in comparison.

Upon closer inspection, he noticed there was something different. Yuzuriha's eyes lit up brightly, and her toothy smile didn't seem to fade anytime soon.

"You seem to be in a good mood," Kamui noted, unsure if he found himself more jealous or frustrated that someone could have so much energy on a Monday morning.

Still, he held nothing against seeing someone so happy. Yuzuriha's ability to come out of grave situations and smile was power all on its own.

"Oh, I guess I have been," Yuzuriha responded with a bit of a pause. Her cheeks were stuck to hold up such a bright smile, but they were burning a little pink. "I'm excited for Valentine's Day!"

"Why… is that?" Kamui asked, wondering if he'd pulled himself into a long conversation.

Soft brown eyes turned down and batted. It was not characteristic of the young girl. She didn't lessen the curl on her lips but her cheeks did burn up.

"Oh, well…" Yuzuriha's hands folded together, fingers curling and falling to rest at the center. Her eyes were sparkling, eyelashes batting while she looked away through the window. "This year I'm going out with Kusanagi! He's actually going to be free for the day from his work, and when I asked if he was free to spend the day at the park, he said yes!" Her tone was nothing short of euphoric finishing the answer.

"I'm happy for you," Kamui spoke honestly, there was certainly a connection between the former dragon of heaven and dragon of earth. Even if the feelings weren't quite the same, the older man brought a smile to Yuzuriha's lips. Kamui had an inkling things would be different than last year. "So… you probably won't be going to the festival then?"

"Aww, are you sad I won't be your date this year?" Yuzuriha chirped, giggling as she leaned up to pat her upperclassmen on the head. They did have pleasant memories going as friends…but the 'surprise visitor' overshadowed everything else that night.

This earned her an icy glare which she was too euphoric to even notice.

She continues teasingly, shaking her head at her friend. "You make a horrible 'date' for anyone who isn't Subaru, even a friend-date." She stuck out her tongue playfully, happily ignoring the glares and groans from her friend.

"I wasn't that bad…"

"I'm pretty sure you ditched well… everyone the second you see your boyfriend," Yuzuriha concludes all too cheekily, with an added wink, she took no offense. If anything she encouraged the two to get together from day one. Her smile showed she quite enjoyed teasing Kamui over this.

"He… wasn't my boyfriend then," Kamui weakly defends. It's the only part he can honestly dispute.

"Yes, yes. But there was still a lot of chemistry there. So it was cute to see you running after him." She adds on lightly revealing her true emotions of the manner.

"I wasn't being cute…" Kamui argued, only indulging in that word when it fell from Subaru's lips. Even though… there were countless friends and students alike who would use the word to describe him.

"If you say so~" She continued playfully. "Still, I will miss this year's celebration but… it's what I'm choosing to do." What makes me happiest.

There's something bittersweet in the way she looks away. "It's… not officially a date but I'm happy I can spend time with Kusanagi… but even still the age gap might draw a bit too much attention on campus."

"Yuzuriha…" Kamui spoke a little worriedly. It was true, the age gap was bigger and more noticeable than the one he had. But still… There was a shift with the usual happy lights in her eyes.

Yet, quickly she shook it off and spun around on her heel. Her hands lace together and fall resting her back while she leans up and down on her tiptoes. She glances around happily at the flowers and hearts surrounding the classroom. "It's not all bad. I am going to be with the person I love most, so I can't bring myself to feel sad when I remember that!"

Her usual energy returned, being ever an optimist for things like these.

"I'm glad," Kamui returns warmly and places a hand on the girl's shoulder.

She blinks, seeming surprised at the soft gesture.

"You've always been supporting me and Subaru," Kamui explains a little meekly, not finding the words so easily. "So… I want to do the same for you."

"Kamui~" Yuzuriha's eyes begin watering and wavering. She quickly tugs her friend into a hug. "You're the best!" She cheers, squeezing her friend a little too tightly.

Riiiiiiing

The school bell chimes, allowing Kamui time to be freed from the sudden hug attack.

"I'll see you after classes," Yuzuriha returns, rushing down the halls to her own classroom. "We'll still have to make chocolates together alright?" She says skipping her way to class and waving.

Kamui weakly waves back, shaking his head at the exuberant girl's energy.

I do want you to be happy. Everyone, especially those plagued by the end of the world, deserves some happiness. If Yuzuriha is going to be out too, maybe it won't be so bad if I only go for a bit of the festival…

He could at least see Keiichi there and the kindly director. But the majority of the day… and their first official Valentine's Date as a couple was coming up. Having this alone time might be nice.

Valentine

Only a few more days. The date of their first official Valentine's Day as a couple!

"It's almost Valentine's Day," Kamui meekly brings up, handing his overworked boyfriend his own mug of coffee.

"It is," Subaru gives that same melting and adoring smile, as he looks back up from his keyboard.

The Sumeragi leader overworked himself, even cutting his work time by a fair amount to live life with Kamui… well there would always be work. Kamui knew just how to unwind him.

Kamui saunters from the loveseat. "Subaru~" he coos the words flirtatiously. Blatantly he stands behind his lover's chair.

Subaru finds himself hugged from behind

"So…." Kamui's hands not so innocently began slipping lower, teasing his lover's body. "Where are we going?"

"You'll see when we get there," The only response as Subaru feigned to have some control left. No matter how he glared towards the paperwork, he couldn't bring himself to read any of it… not with Kamui being quite amorous. Something he'd become more and more comfortable with.

Kamui huffs, and a sulk forms on his lips. Dark eyebrows narrow and fall. "Worth a try."

Subaru turned to the side of the office chair. "I can't disclose where or what we are doing." Kamui's hands continue teasing, on his lap. The younger lover held on to an innocent front.

"You're way too good with this," Subaru deems to return his lover's sultry actions. With a mischievous glint in gold-green orbs, he turns the chair about just enough to snatch Kamui.

"Oh?" Kamui blinks, eyelashes batting. He enjoys this little teasing moment, draping himself just enough over the chair to drive his lover mad. It was working. "What do mea-annnh!" Kamui yelped, finding his teases had gotten his lover riled up.

In a blink, Subaru had Kamui lifted, and comfortably deposited to lay in his lap. The place where those teasing hands had been. Securing Kamui he lightly spins the chair around, Kamui laughs, enjoying being spun around and on his lover. While the chair stopped in front of the desk, work would wait. This moment is too sacred, this freeness.

"You make me come undone… so easily…" Subaru finally answers, exchanging a few gentle unhurried kisses. Kisses that are all too eagerly received. Kamui wraps his arms more securely around his lover's neck.

"I can not tell you all the details for our trip…" The topic returns, bringing a half-pouting Kamui. He couldn't quite stop the smile which lifted each time his pout was kissed away. "What I can tell you is that the hotel we'll be staying at will be quite enjoyable. ."

Kamui blinks, letting redness flow up to his cheekbones. A rush of deep cherry red, surgings on his cheeks, across to his ears.

"I mean… that goes without saying," Kamui can't help but speak so fondly. Even if his eyes shifted for a moment while answering.

"Why-would…" Subaru nearly misses the mature insinuation. 'It's not exactly what I was referring to but…' He blinks for a moment and beams. "Is that so?" He voices in a softer, even playful manner.

This side of Subaru only I get to see… Kamui melts, and his hand reaches out to caress. Fingers brush longingly over the soft curve of his lover's lips. Tender hands run up and down the younger man's sides. "Subaru…"

Subaru returns the soft whine with a lick to Kamui's licks. The touch is far too brief, leaving much more to be desired.

"Yes, my Kamui," Subaru purrs the title with intent. He feels a sense of pride, watching Kamui gasp and bounce around feeling hands suddenly close.

"Do you… really like sweets?" Kamui questions hesitantly, pausing the heated moment. 'Words come out easier when we're like this…'

"What?" Subaru blinks, eyebrows lowering, and his lips turn to a line. The scrunched-up lines on his confused boyfriend's forehead make Kamui laugh.

"I mean… for Valentine's day? Do you really like sweets or do you just eat them to be polite…" Kamui shared his concerns, hand tangling through his lover's silky hair. "I can make something else if you prefer… it's not the usual, but with you giving so much I at least want to make something you'll really like."

Subaru shakes his head fondly. Lips seal over the forehead, heating beneath.

"I love the sweets you make me." Sincerity radiates through the words. A near blinding smile forms.

"But…"The vagueness of the answer makes Kamui frown. He leans in closer, their noses brushing, before searching closer in his lover's eyes for the answers he wanted. 'You say you love everything I make you…."Do you really love them? Or do you love them because I made them for you?"

Subaru leans in, kissing his eyes, nose, lips, cheeks. "Two." He says lifting his index and middle finger.

"What?" Kamui was perplexed, somehow asking questions made things more confusing. He waits for his beloved to explain.

"There are two people in this world I've accepted sweets or well Valentine's chocolate from," Subaru caresses Kamui's cheeks, gazing into his eyes. Tells his lover they were the only two in the world. "You of course, and…as a kid… from Hokuto."

Kamui melted, feeling his lover's voice softening at the name of his sister. He had known from last year but the way Subaru brought this out so openly, it made his heart leap.

"The only chocolates I've accepted and tried were made by the people I love immeasurably," Subaru admits, fondly falling into violet eyes. His gold and emerald eyes zero into a deeper, solemn sort of vow. Pupils blow up the longer they take in Kamui. "So I've always found myself loving them. I know I'll love any you make this year just as much if not more so."

Kamui's lips quivered from a lovesick smile to a frustrated pout. "I feel I'm not getting my answer."

Subaru chuckles fondly, kissing Kamui's lips for a solid moment before adding, "If it makes it easier I do enjoy the taste of different sweets, though I don't have quite the sweet tooth my boyfriend does."

Kamui partly sticks his tongue out at the (accurate accusation). Only they're close enough for that tongue to be swallowed into their kisses.

"I don't have that much of a sweet tooth, '' Kamui denies, in light banter.

"You do, and it's adorable," Subaru says, kissing away every word of denial possible. Kamui became lost in their love as well, they lingered for some time.

They were in-between spaces. Not yet, hot enough to turn these kisses into much more. But there was definitely more caring with cuddling or chaste kisses.

Then… after a few moments. A spark.

"But the taste I love the most," Subaru purrs, his hands grasping Kamui's hips possessively. He loves to see a flutter of violet eyes as they look towards the response with curiosity. Subaru seductively leans his lips close. He whispers the words hotly into his lover's ear. "Is yours."

The flare beneath his lips heats up again. Neither is quite sure who dove in for their first ravishing kiss. Kamui finds himself placed on top of the office desk, amongst the kisses, shirt partly undone and looking entirely debauched.

Kamui's little plan to get answers about their mystery getaway had gone out the window. Neither minded now. Clothing flies all over the floor before either of them notices.

"Ahh, ~ S-Subaru!" He cries out wildly, laying back to feel his lover deeper.

Kamui becomes lavished with kisses and fingers preparing him at the best angles possible. Subaru cups Kamui's face, looking towards his beloved, fully aroused. The younger man nods, legs spreading out invitingly, as he bites his lip.

There's something about…doing it…in the office, he was meant to work at, which drove Subaru crazy. Every single time. Fully hard and dripping, he can't begin to hide how affected he's become here.

"I love you, Kamui," Subaru calls sweetly, reaching for Kamui's hand, holding it tightly, bound. He leans in distracting his lover with kisses as he slowly slides himself inside. They're connected.

Any plans for the holiday… so long as they were together would turn out just fine.

---

Be Mine

A blissful morning sleeping in a little more, needed after last night. The tossing and turning, vivid dreams last night, left both lovers with broken-up sleep. Even more so with the 'comfort' sex needed to feel safely connected and fall back asleep.

Subaru instinctively clutched Kamui protectively, so they were facing each other. Their legs entwined in an enchanting way, as though fate designed it.

Kamui had cuddled up against his lover's chest, feeling his entire body heat by just how close they had been lying. His cheeks were reddening, his heart accelerated trying to figure out the unknowns today.

Violet-blue orbs blinked open, tiredly. He shivers into the touch feeling hands at his lower back and inner thigh. Kamui couldn't decide if his heart or body was more aroused by how firmly and assuredly his lover touched him. But it was too early for that… he needed to get out of bed… get a few gifts ready.

When he saw Subaru's sleepy face, seeming so at peace he couldn't bring himself to move just yet. Skin so clear, an expression so blissful, preventing the admirer from doing much else

'I might just melt before we can get to our trip… '

This morning brought out a sense of bliss. Their life would never be perfect, and Kamui hadn't been spared from his usual nightmares, just because of the holiday. But overcoming all the pain only made them grow as a couple. And today was another day to become closer.

Kamui lingers for a moment. His fingers brush upon his lover's sleeping face. Gradually, he loses himself brushing every silky strand of hair into place. With a final peck on his lover's lips, he begins slipping out of bed.

This holiday and White Day were decided to be holidays where they celebrate giving to each other.

His lover had insisted upon at least providing a trip for the holiday. Kamui busied himself with gifts, and homemade chocolates-which he gained experience from last year. They were shaped into stars, hearts, and even little roses. Homemade dark chocolates, which his lover held a fondness for were covered by a thin layer of tissue before being sealed up in a heart-shaped box. The candy box was even bigger than last year; Kamui found more confidence in his work.

A small bundle of red roses, tulips, and pink lilies, fresh from CLAMP school's garden. By the stems, all the flowers were laced together with pink ribbons.

'Subaru's given me flowers plenty of times now…and I think he'll really like these.' Kamui thinks on this hopefully.

The florists around Tokyo certainly had lavish and beautiful displays. Yet, Kamui found his lover didn't care for how flashy or fancy the gift had been. The sentiment mattered above all.

Kamui even took out time volunteering with the gardening club, in exchange for the freshest, most vibrant, and most beautiful flowers he could pick for his lover.

The small bouquet is wrapped up with a plastic covering. The flowers are taped to a small pink envelope. Subaru's name was written neatly on the front surrounded by little hearts. Kamui's face mirrored the image of the card, deep red roses. The card is shaped as two hearts intertwined with 'My Valentine' written in curly lettering in the center. It wasn't the card itself as much as the contents inside…that made the young man so flustered.

Kamui started out simply writing how he looked forward to their first Valentine's Day as a couple. Then how he cherished last year's celebration with fondness, and of the spontaneity of it all. Words of love, how perfect he saw Subaru followed up, and Kamui's heart couldn't calm.

'I love you. I'm so happy to spend this year…and the rest of my life with you. I am always yours.'

Steam puffed out from reddening ears. Kamui covered his face with his hands, mumbling the 'sappy' and 'mushy' words of love. Though he decided on keeping the card just like this, the words no matter how they sounded, were sincere, right from the heart. And the thought of them making Subaru happy, left Kamui sealing the envelope closed.

Imagining that soft smile, made every part of him feel full, so loved up. Kamui placed the heart-shaped box, card, and bundle of flowers into a small red bag, adorned with hearts.

"I still have some time before he wakes up," Kamui reasons, finding he kept his lover up. The images of Subaru filled his mind. His lover wakes up jolting from sleep, no words of complaint of his exhaustion, no he calls Kamui's name. Speaking in a soft cooing manner, while wrapping around Kamui into an embrace, he felt his heartstrings pull on repeat, the more he reflected.

"Right, I need to focus, make breakfast," Kamui psyches himself up, shaking his head to keep himself in the present. Quietly, working his way into the kitchen, Kamui first brings out all the pans, bowls, whisks, and plates. All the ingredients are taken out and placed on the counter.

Kamui leans up on his tiptoes, reaching for one of the cookbooks on the higher shelf. Knowingly, he flips to the page with themed recipes. Over the next hour, he finds himself drawn into the rather cathartic cooking session. The thought of his lover's smiling face, made time seem to race. He doesn't realize until now he even realizes how long he's been at this.

"Kamui?" Subaru calls softly, spotting his lover in their kitchen. His fingers rub against his eyes before letting out a long yawn. "Good morning, my love."

Subaru professes those words incredibly warmly. He closes most of the distance between them, waltzing up behind Kamui, hugging him close.

"Morning, my Subaru," Kamui purrs, feeling himself warming from the slightest of touches to his sides. 'Perhaps, it's the mood of the holiday…but lately, all I want to do is… ' he ponders, though isn't given time to analyze. His lover spins him around so they face each other.

"Happy Valentine's Day," Kamui expresses, tenderly, as his eyes glitter the longer they look up. Subaru holds his lover's gaze and rests their foreheads together. Kamui relishes in the gentleness, arms entangling around his lover's neck, keeping him in place.

Their noses brush while losing themselves in the moment. Arms protectively encircled Kamui's waist, until they flushed, chest to chest, hearts beating audibly. Violet-blue fluttered close enchanting, leading orbs of gold and emerald to follow suit.

Kamui leans up the moment his lover leans into him. Their lips brush, left to right, unhurried, gently and in a blissful moment. The need to touch further, keeps their lips melding, pressing in with more pressure. Open, languid, and enraptured, kisses continue. Subaru's lips take in and move to capture Kamui's lower lips. Kamui's mewls vibrated between lips, as he angled himself, and tangled his hands in silky locks of black, behind his lover's head. Tugging a bit on his lover's hair, Subaru moans into his mouth, kissing Kamui harder. They become pulled into this seemingly endless game of give-and-take.

Everlasting…surely, they would stay right here. If Kamui's nose hadn't twitched picking up the scent of something burning. Hurriedly, the pair part, turning off the stovetop and disposing of the burned pancake.

"The rest are better," Kamui assures his beloved, and waves towards a plate full of heart-shaped pancakes with the perfect texture. The soft words, pink expression, and an angelic smile, only make this little mishap into an endearing memory. One treasured, always.

"They're adorable," Subaru compliments, taking a better look at the stack of perfectly fluffy, golden pancakes.

"Thank you…" Kamui returns, a little nervous at how his lover admires every centimeter, every crumb from his breakfast display. "Should I be jealous?" he quips, following his lover's admiring eyes.

"Of course not," Subaru laughs freely, stealing his lover's lips before another word. Gradually, they make it to the destined breakfast table. Needing that closeness, their chairs are scooted together, so their sides brush.

A drizzle of light brown syrup falls over the stack of cakes. Kamui takes in the first forkful, bringing it to his lover's lips. Time around them seems to still, as they relish in the simple, yet sweet moments.

"Oh, I can't forget before we go," Kamui remembers, as they finish drying the last few dishes. He blushes, smiling and ducking his head. 'I can't forget that.' "I have gifts for you"

"Oh?" Subaru can only manage to say before his lover rushes out towards the adjacent room. He watches fondly, at Kamui kneeling down to grasp a gift bag.

"These are for you," Kamuisoftly presents, holding out a red gift raven-haired boy licks his lips a little, before pulling them up for a private little smile. "Happy Valentine's Day, Subaru."

"Kamui…" Subaru curls his fingers over his lover admiring the bag his beloved held.

Gold-emerald orbs first spot the soft pink heart-shaped box. A beautiful red ribbon ties the box together.

"My Kamui…"Subaru fights the urge to clutch his chest. He deems it appropriate to sit and take it all in. Kamui takes a close seat, cuddling up.

"Thank you, so much " Subaru's hands graciously accepted and held the gift bag. His hands brushed over Kamui's for some time before focusing on his present. Taking out the miniature 'bouquet' of flowers, the older man's lips quiver, emotions wishing to overflow. He turns and kisses Kamui's soft temples. "I love you so much."

"I love you too,".Kamui fondly returns, the words, of course, familiar, but feeling novel. "They're from CLAMP school's gardens."

"They're beautiful," Subaru ensures, kindly. Long fingers brush along the petals of the vibrant flowers. He remembers Kamui's little 'jealousy' over the attention he gave his cooking. "You're the most beautiful." He assures, grasping Kamui's hands and pressing them to his lips.

Kamui falls between a laugh and purr, while his lover looks deep into his eyes. "I have more for you," he redirects his beloved, finding his stomach doing flips. Gingerly, Kamui pulls out the heart-shaped box, presenting it as an offering.

Lips brush amiably, smiles exchange, while the ribbons are gently undone. Subaru's eyes glaze, dazzling at the intricate sweets. The shape of the molded chocolates is just perfect, with no excess and the perfect texture.

"I love them, they're almost too beautiful to eat," Subaru admits, only half-joking. All the clear work was put into this. if only he could savor them longer. "And knowing why you're giving these to me. What kind of chocolates they are this year….makes it special,"

True feelings Chocolates.

"That's right…" Kamui returns, his memories of last year involved making chocolates, perfect ones for Subaru. His focus had been not on the intention behind gifting them, but merely to give something Subaru would really like. "Though, you already know how I feel about you, so they're not really part of a confession…"

"They're perfect as they are," Subaru ensures, kissing his lover's temples. "Hearing how you feel for me…I don't think I could ever be unaffected by how that feels."

Kamui bites his lip, holding a hand to his cheek. He can feel the flare beneath it as his lover looks so intensely. "You still have to try them."

"Oh right," Subaru says almost dreamily. Even while processing the words, he can't help but insist on putting Kamui, first offering the box in his direction.

"They're for you," Kamui insists, waiting for his lover's reaction to that first bite. There's a stubbornness in the way Kamui crosses his arms, waiting.

"Alright," Subaru chuckles, taking out heart-shaped chocolate. He presses the treat onto his lips. Gem-colored eyes remain closed, blissfully. He lets the candy savor, brushing against his tongue, taste filling all over his mouth. Starry-eyed, "Amazing."

"I love you," Kamui whispers, cradling the side of his beloved's press chastely.

"I love you too, Kamui so so much," Subaru coos the words, finding his heart leaping and body heating up. He insistently takes Kamui's lips between his own, deepening the kiss within seconds. Neither is sure who moves things further, but hands start clutching tightly all over. Their lips become searing and Kamui finds himself, lying back on the couch.

Subaru hovers over Kamui, a heated gaze following through. "Kamui I-

Ding-Dong~Diiing-Dong

"Of all times," Subaru says with a frown, he takes a deep breath, calming the heat in his core.

"Well, I guess it could be worse," Kamui laughs awkwardly. And you did ask them to come here. He's biting his lip at the sight of his lover walking to the door, with wrinkled clothing, and the not-quite-yet signs of arousal.

"That's true…" Subaru sighs with a sense of defeat. This was an important outing for them after all, there would be plenty of time to indulge themselves in the evening. He glances fondly at the gift bag, placing the flowers and candies gently within. "And I still need to read your card," he voices, looking

"Ah, that…" Kamui coughs, turning around to avoid eye contact. He focuses on the floor beneath, grasping the handle of his bag.. 'After writing all those embarrassing things…' "Y-you can read that in the car!" Kamui hurriedly insists, leaving his lover blinking. "Or whenever there's no rush…"

Kamui feels his heart pounding against his chest. 'The things I wrote out…sound way too close to a proposal.' He comes to realize the more he thinks about it. There's a curious gaze at his

back.

"Kamui?"

The younger man finds his heart is so exposed now, that he can barely manage to put on his coat and grasp for his suitcase.

Subaru stops his lover's scrambling, wrapping an arm around Kamui's chest and middle, holding him from behind. He presses a few soft kisses, on the younger man's neck, wanting to stay right here in the moment. "Alright, I'll read it whenever you're ready," He whispers with assurance, instantly calming his lover's nerves.

You're unfair…Kamui reflects, chest aching. Now, all I want is for you to read even more about how I feel for you.

Diiiiing~

The doorbell urges them on, leaving their amorous moment postponed. Subaru calms, holding Kamui's hand tightly and opening the door for them.

'It will be worth it to see Kamui's expression.'

---

Getaway

Soft lush greenery took over the usual sites of skyscrapers and buildings. The vision of Tokyo and its fast-paced, crowded scenery begins to shift.

Kamui looks fondly outside of his window. His arm rests inside the car, the palm of his hand propping up his chin.

"You're really not going to tell me ahead of time, are you?" Kamui asks, turning to see his beloved, busting himself with some folder of papers. Reservations perhaps? Or a schedule of events?

The younger man couldn't say for sure. Though he did feel a heat spring to his core, at the touch upon his hand. Subaru brought Kamui's hand up to his lips. He smiles, ensuring to lock eyes with his impatient lover before lavishing the palm with lingering kisses.

Kamui bites his lip for a moment. He turns his gaze towards the window, cooling himself.

"Sorry," Subaru expresses, seeming anything but. His eyes sparkled with a light so whimsical. All the while his heart flutters at the adoring pout following. "But you'll see soon enough. I think you'll like it. "

"Subaru…" Kamui murmurs, and melts a little, watching his lover. Subaru's lips work to the back of his hand, kissing every knuckle up to their fingertips. "Okay…"

"You'll see very soon," Subaru assures, lacing their hands tightly together. His lips delicately caress Kamui's temples. The younger male's lips curl up as he squeezes the hand in his own tight bringing it to his lap. Their lips meet chastely before they divulge in a comforting sense of quiet.

A gentle weight falls on Kamui's shoulder. Subaru leans towards the side, resting his head and cuddling close. Lips press sweetly to Kamui's neck before nuzzling. They fall into this comfort.

Kamui's focus falls back towards the window as the scenery becomes less and less like Tokyo. Still, there's familiarity in the tall trees, blossoming flowers, and streaming rivers around.

"I think…it's… Kyoto?" Kamui questions, feeling the familiar weight still on his shoulder. "Subaru?" he calls softly, having an idea as to what happened. Those warm puffs of air heating at the crook of his neck.

"Of course, you'll be tired," Kamui coos, gently and adoringly. The lights in his eyes sparkle at the peaceful and innocent expression on his lover's face. The weight on his shoulder is nothing short of comforting. The younger man deems it necessary to keep close, grasping both of Subaru's hands into his own.

"Sleep well," Kamui purrs, kissing the side of his lover's head. Gradually, he finds himself sinking into the warmth, the comfortability, as his head rests over his lover's.

It's only as they approach their first stop that the pair awaken from their much-needed rest.

"Oh," Subaru yawns, blinking sleepily. He rubs at his eyes, not willing to move his head just yet. "We're already here."

"We are," Kamui laughs softly, watching his love bury his eyes into the side of his neck. Still, so sleepy. "Kyoto?" he guessed to confirm.

"Mmm-hmm," Subaru hums, nuzzling Kamui's neck. He glances up towards their enclosing destination. "We're here."

Surrounded by calming nature is a traditional-looking brick building. They drive past what appears to be tons of gravel, surrounding a line of train tracks and into a private-looking parking lot where their driver stops. "We'll be at our first stop of the day."

"A train station?" Kamui blinks, taking in what he can recognize. Though there are nowhere near as many people as expected, even with tourists.

The sign above the old brick station reads as follows: "Train Romantica" - A Romantic Train Ride.

Their first stop is towards a 'Romantic Train Ride', though the train itself seemed more luxurious, private. The expected floods of people on this holiday don't come out as they step out of the car.

It doesn't take too long for Kamui to realize they are far from being a regular tourist attraction. While it held the environment of one thing, it was even more pristine.

Whilst the station they walked through held an air of history, traditional stalls for food and drinks around the small station. There was only one destination, an exit, revealing a very new and modern-looking train.

Only a handful of other couples were waiting outside, for boarding to begin. Curious and admiring eyes took on the sight of Subaru and Kamui heading out together. The beautiful pair seemed to always catch attention. Even amongst this group of couples, who at least dressed the part as being very well off.

Only at the sound of a whistle, did the gazes turn back. A beautiful, luxurious, and spacious-looking train sounded off. The soft lilac and white paint upon it seemed to sparkle with the sunlight.

Subaru and Kamui waited for a few other couples to pass through, wishing to take their time.

"Train Romantica?" Kamui asks, raising a brow, the name itself brings a curl to plush lips. He lifts his head, gazing up at the sign above.

"It's one of our destinations today," Subaru confirms, seeming rather confident in his plans.

"You've certainly planned this out," Kamui notes fondly, leaning up, on his tiptoes to kiss his lover's cheek. With a tug on the older man's hand, he beckons. "We should probably get on board soon."

Their stop outside of the station has emptied. Subaru and Kamui are the only people left at the waiting spot.

"Right," Subaru agrees, readily taking Kamui's hand and climbing up the steps to their train.

"I think I've heard of a train like this before," Kamui notes as they walk down the halls, leading despite not knowing where their cabin lies. 'Though it's not this luxurious… or private. '

"There are similar ones," Subaru says, gingerly brushing his thumb on the side of Kamui's hand. Gold and emerald eyes narrow, looking towards a rather empty ring finger. He can't help the thoughts that come, blame his clan's influence on such matters.

'Maybe one year… that will change,... you'll have proof… of our devotion to each other.'

Bringing Kamui into his family brought out an incredibly warm feeling, like his heart was being embraced.

Imagining being together years later… planning to ask such a question, one he never deemed would occur in his life brought a different feeling. An unneeded tightness in his chest persists, as his mind is flooded with worries.

But maybe proposing one year on Valentine's Day would be cliche? Or if he were to go that route, perhaps Christmas eve? And-

"Subaru," Kamui grumbles, inspecting his lover's features, the way those eyes became lost in space. He explains the sulk over his lips. "I've been trying to ask you something.

"Sorry," Subaru apologized, bowing his head. He can't find a reason not to be honest, Kamui had caught him after all. "I was lost in thought."

"Well, I hope they were good ones," Kamui playfully responds, a little smirk on his lips telling his lover he wasn't that upset. Though he did want Subsru's attention today. Violet-blue orbs begin unconsciously batting toward the older male. Kamui relished in how quickly his lover gazed back at him.

"They were," Subaru assures, heartily and with a sweeping desire glistening in his eyes. "About you."

"Oh…" Kamui blinks, lips parting as though to form a retort…. Anything. Instead, he bites his lower lip, feeling the rise of pink on his face. He clears his throat, walking on ahead, avoiding eye contact until his cheeks cooled.

"I was… ah…. Asking before where we are supposed to sit?"

"Oh, anywhere you like here," Subaru answers, feeling a little bad not mentioning it before… while Kamui kept walking down the hall. "These last few cabins are all reserved."

Subaru's hand curves around the train car in a sweeping gesture. Kamui's eyes raise almost comically. That is almost the entire car of the train is for themselves.

"All of this?" Kamui asks, raising his arms out and, slightly turning to showcase just how much space here was reserved for them. And all of this on an already private train Violet-blue eyes begin looking around in a sense of awe.

"I know it's a lot… I just wanted to be sure we had privacy," Subaru explains, abashedly, seeing his beloved look around with wide, starry eyes. After a moment, Kamui pauses, blushing wildly.

It takes just a few seconds… Subaru's cheeks burn up at the insinuation. Kamui all too fondly bats his eyes, lips melting to a curve. "Ah, not that-I mean so we can enjoy the tour without worrying about it being crowded… we'd have our space. Not that I'm expecting to do anything that's -

"I wouldn't mind," Kamui cuts in, surprising himself and his lover with honesty. 'It's too late to take back now… ' He ponders biting upon his lip, in a way that draws his lover's attention in.

'Though it's probably best I pay attention to at least some of the sights… Subaru planned for this.' Kamui blames his hormones for having that being his first thought. That and the unfinished make-out session they started earlier

"Subaru - we should… woooah!" Kamui attempts, finding his balance slipping at the sudden movement of the train. He's fortunate only to fall back into his lover's arms.

"We should pick our seats," Subaru finishes the thought, protectively wrapping Kamui right to his side, as they enter a cabin.

Their seats appear brand new. A similar lilac color to the train, as the material seems to practically shine beneath the sunlight.

Kamui slides into his seat near the window. He beams, feeling his lover follow after cuddling close.

"This is so sweet of you," Kamui, at last, finds the words. He gazes out towards the trees, holding such natural beauty and color even for the colder season. Those bare trees are surrounded by a colorful array of leaves around them.

The younger man turns back, they linger in a sweet and slow kiss.

"I'm glad you like it," Subaru replies with a sense of relief. "We've talked about going to Kyoto, outside of work… so I thought this would make for a nice surprise.*

"You're right," Kamui confirms adoringly as he glances at the changing scenery

The windows of the train were able to open completely from their cabin. With no inclement weather, they could open it entirely, and take in the vast beauty outside.

The cool, soothing breeze only adds further to the atmosphere. "Kyoto really is beautiful," Kamui comments, awing as their train seemingly glides beside a sparkling river.

Birds express a soft morning song, whilst various fish splash about, hopping up only to return. Nature's symphony plays on.

"It's almost like stepping into another world outside of Tokyo," Kamui mentions, bittersweet as his gaze remains towards the collection of trees and winter flowers blooming around.

Subaru claps Kamui's hand, squeezing it tight. Lips pepper all across the young man's head, sensing the bits of melancholy within.

"Everything seems so pure here… untouched," Kamui further elaborates, one hand gripping tightly to the edge of the window sill. "Like nothing ever had to change. So different from how Tokyo had been."

The earthquakes, floods, and natural disasters left Tokyo in disarray. Kamui could see that side of the infamous city all too well. No matter how much had been restored.

"Kamui," Subaru feels his heart sink. The torn-up sigh, and bitter laugh that follows. Hurriedly, he wraps both arms around the younger man, making him gasp. Kamui is pulled back, feeling a warm chest pressed to him. He can hear his heart race. As much as he may try to brush things off, or attempt to form some distance, it's to no avail.

Subaru holds him incredibly tight, nothing on this earth could pull him away. Not even Kamui himself had the power to fight this.

"My love," Subaru professes, words bold and burning against the shell of Kamui's ear.

'Whenever Subaru gets intense like this…'

Subaru tucks his lover in until they flushed perfectly together. Gold-emerald watery orbs shiver. He can't keep himself in check, not when he feels the pain in Kamui's tone.

"What happened to the earth, the harm done has been amended now, the city as it was then at the least physically…is in the past," Subaru consoles, brushing light circles over his lover's back. In the past…There's a phrase he never would have pondered before… not until Kamui. "Your power, and desire to protect, restore the earth… healed far more than you realize."

Kamui turns back unconvinced. He frowns, though finally sinks back into the tightened embrace.

"You may not see it this way, but I'll gladly remind you until it's something you can believe," Subaru expresses, burying his face at the back of Kamui's neck. Lips settle there, causing a shiver from the younger man.

"Kamui, the world is beautiful because of you." Another lingering kiss follows. Lips trace out every inch, and curve of Kamui's sensitive neck. "Things are healing, but it's for the better.

Feeling Kamui reclining against his lover's firm. He rests his head back, tilting it up to look into unwavering eyes.

"To me, you are the beauty in this world," Subaru's words pour over enchanting. Plush lips worship the younger man's temples. An angelic smile and nearly ethereal light to dual-toned eyes keep Kamui's gaze there. He loses his breath.

"Subaru…" Kamui whispers as though it were the only word he ever knew.

'I never know how to respond to things like this…'

Subaru never presses him for more. No, patiently his lover keeps him tight and protective in this hold. Visions of color fill his mind, as he looks back out, seeing nature's beauty as it's meant to be.

There are fields of soft pink peonies, red camellias, and surrounding plum blossoms just starting to bloom. All of the beauty becomes a memory wrapped deeply within Kamui's heart, as the warmth around him has been.

The world's savior can hear his heartbeat over the entire trip. Be finds it alright, Subaru's is just as vocal

"My precious Kamui," Subaru calls, as soon as they have their time alone, outside of the train and into the beautiful garden. The embrace keeps the younger man close.

This wasn't the end of their journey. They picked out a few snacks before approaching a private park. A stop for lunch, snacks, and drinks to enjoy at one of the park benches. It's all serene.

As they finally settle down, Kamui speaks the only words to come close to that feeling on their train ride. As Subaru comforted him again.

Kamui breathes the words, hopelessly lovesick.

"I love you, always."

---

Evening

Amorously, the sunsets. Everything flows together, all the colors blending, painting the sky. Kamui's head rests on his boyfriend's shoulder.

They arrived at a little park, enjoying the boxed lunches, teas, and outdoor scenery. After an afternoon strolling through the park, admiring the gardens, they were here. At an unrushed blissful moment.

"I love you, Kamui," Subaru coos, eyes reflecting the reds, pinks, and yellows from the sunset. Watery orbs display a kaleidoscope of color, entrancing the younger male.

"I love you too," Kamui returns all too happily, eyes sparkling. He can't begin to hide the beam on his face. Not after such a day with Subaru entirely to himself, no worries for spirits of the haunting past. They could be here. Together.

"Thank you…" Kamui waves around the park. "For all of this."

"It's not over just yet," Subaru announces, earning a (cute) quizzical look.

"No?" Kamui tilts his head off to the side. "You have more planned?" He purrs, elated at whatever may come whether another romantic surprise or 'simply' getting to their hotel. Both were so so good in their own ways.

"I do," Subaru ensures, lacing his fingers snuggly with Kamui's own. They spend a little moment watching the colors paint the sky, the sun slowly falling towards the horizon. Dusk begins to settle. All until the stars rise above.

"It's a little walk from here," Subaru begins, starting to lean up. He slips an arm under Kamui's legs and around his waist. With seemingly no effort he lifts his love, carrying him bridal style.

The way he was being held, and the fire felt beneath his lover's fingers. Kamui believed his boyfriend's next 'plan' was to bed him, asap. He only buried his head into his lover's neck, perfectly accepting of that, so long as they got to privacy.

Subaru lingered, taking the long, more private route through the park. They had quite a bit of time to themselves, to enjoy being like this. Only when they approached a docking area did Kamui insist on going back to walking.

"So we're here…" Kamui looks around, seeing a small stall up at the front with a sign listing various times and prices. Beside the sign are several images of long riverboats and the design seems to have frozen in time. The pictures displayed a tour guide of some sort standing at the helm with a long wooden oar. The boat appeared floating above a dark blue lake, surrounded by beautiful petals from the trees.

"We're taking a boat out?" Kamui voiced, looking out towards the pure water. Considering, the lack of couples crowded in,

"Mhm, the evening I've heard is one of the best times to come out," Subaru confirms upon this, seeming slightly unsure. "Unless you don't want to of course then I-"

Kamui laughs softly, rising to his tiptoes and stealing his lover's words straight from his lips.

"I want to," he confirms, resting back into his heels. A hand brushes at his neck. "I've just never done this kinda thing before…"

. "You've never done this before?" Subaru asks with a breath of relief. Curiosity certainly settles in. Though he concludes it makes sense, the rivers here provide a different atmosphere from the sea surrounding Okinawa.

Even if similar events took place, he doubts Kamui had the time to go out for such activities. Not when he had to become prepared for the world's fate, in a few short years from then.

"Never," Kamui responds, sweetly smoking his head. His hand brushes up his beloved's arm before grasping it. "So this is my first time… with you." Again. Kamui's mind supplies.

"It's the same for me," Subaru returns, awing as they went on to experience another memorable first together.

Everything feels so harmonious. Even with the senses, Subaru had become accustomed to, the spiritual activity seemed relatively low around, especially in comparison to just about anywhere in Tokyo.

Subaru boarded the boat, holding Kamui's hand to help him safely on. There was a little shake, as expected when their feet touched the bottom, but mild. It didn't hurt to have an excuse for Kamui to cling to and linger a little longer beside his beloved, as things still.

Their guide, held a polite smile, listing off a few safety protocols, before announcing the departure.

"You'll be able to see a lot of the natural beauty across the Kyoto Prefecture," He begins, seemingly rehearsed but still seemingly enjoying his work.

While not yet Spring, there were still plenty of trees whose petals floated below, creating a beautiful ring of colors in the river.

The stars above, and the soft sound of the river flowing created a place of zen. Hovering over the lake, seeing the Lilac, pink, red, and yellow petals. Enchanting. Beautiful. Unhurried, like they could stay here forever.

While not completely alone, the atmosphere was comfortable to be as they were. Two men reserving a rather romantic and private boat ride, on Valentine's Day, likely gave away their relationship. Remaining closely tied, the couple's sides brushing up, hands linked.

"Thank you for this," Kamui whispers to his boyfriend's ear. Before testing his head against his lover's arm, smiling at the sight of fish swirling about and families of ducks and ducklings swimming peacefully, comfortably.

"Thank you for being with me," Subaru shakes his head, humbly, as though he hadn't spent countless hours making calls using his position as the #1 Onmyouji to ensure everything today would be perfectly in place. "I'm happy you like this."

Classic sights of different shrines, temples, and shops appeared closer as they reached the end of their voyage. Being dropped off at a port closest to their next destination.

"Thank you," Subaru expressed towards their kind boat guide. Generously, the older man was given a plentiful tip, enough to make his eyes widen and shake Subaru's hand with sincere gratitude.

"You two have a good evening," He tells the couple, finding himself swept into the peaceful and tender atmosphere the couple brought out. Countless lovers would come aboard but it wasn't every day you'd take out a couple who you just knew was fated to be. "Come again, any time, you are in the area." He bows his head politely.

"Thank you," Kamui quietly, expresses. His gaze goes from their host and naturally backs up to his lover. Any tension felt in prior days seems to melt away into the crystal clear streams.

"Are you hungry now?" Subaru inquires about his younger lover. Glancing down at the shorter male, whose eyes glistened catching his own

"A bit…" Kamui admits, with slight redness. The color blossoms further, and his stomach continues to confirm his statement. Insistently, Kamui adds on. "And if you've made reservations we should definitely go at the time." He didn't want to throw their schedule into disarray.

"We'll be fine, our table and room are on reserve for the better part of the evening," Subaru ensures, pausing for a moment to turn and face Kamui. In a grand sweeping gesture, Subaru scoops up his lover into a full embrace. His left hand gradually moves up to caress tender cheekbones and under Kamui's chin.

Violet-blue eyes flutter close, entirely willing and waiting for what was to come next. Tender plush lips puckered out to entice slightly thinner ones, inching in closer and closer… all until they reached connection.

The motion is slow, intent, and far from lacking passion. A spark flies in at the feel of the younger lover licking the seam of Subaru's lips.

Kamui finds himself wandering with his lover further out of the woodlands area, to continue further, deeper kisses. He leaned up as possible, arms surrounding strong shoulders, to bring his lover lower to meet him. Subaru had been more than happy to meet him halfway, lips searing as they devoted themselves to Kamui. Hands traveled needily down Kamui's sides and hips.

A sensual embrace, hands reaching all over, and lips only breaking for a millisecond before melding together again.

"I'd been wanting to do that," Subaru explains the sudden yet welcomed display of affection,

'It had been a few hours on the boat ride… ' Kamui reflects, now feeling what they started but didn't finish earlier this morning. "Me too."

Subaru laid their foreheads together, allowing them to catch their breath. Their noses brushed in a few innocent 'kisses' of their own.

The restaurant was beautiful. Subaru held open the door to see an atmosphere more akin to a royal ballroom than a restaurant.

Ascending up the stairs, by a formally dressed waiter is a journey on its own. Kamui looks around, seeing countless patrons dressed fancily, laughing and clinking their glasses of wine.

A restaurant surrounded by those with an air of being very well off. Kamui never imagined he'd go to places like this in his lifetime, and though accessible, he knows Subaru never cared for going out to places as luxurious as this. Well, Not before dating Kamui….

'It's a lot like….' Or exactly like. 'Subaru really wants to impress me today.' Going out of his way to ensure they'd have all the privacy and romantic time they'd like.

'Way too cute…' Kamui reflects, rather helplessly as they reach the top floor of the restaurant. Their room is surrounded by crystal clear windows, showcasing the stars and moon-like a kind of observatory.

"Kamui," Subaru calls tenderly, holding out the chair for his beloved to sit.

"Thank you…" Kamui takes the open seat gratefully. "You don't need to feel like you have to do these things all the time." 'I want to care for you too. '

"I want to," Subaru ensures as he always had, helping to scoot in his lover's chair.

"This feels familiar," Kamui voices, opening up the fancily embroidered menu. The chandeliers, silk tablecloths, and pristine dining ware.

"Ah, like where we went to CLAMP school, for your birthday?" Subaru recalls.

"Yeah, it was really nice like this," Kamui comments fondly, curling his lips.

"Director Imonoyama certainly does know the best places on campus," Subaru mentions a bit sulkily. He tries to hide what he even finds as irrational envy. Others could certainly spoil and care for Kamui… he just preferred when he was the one doing it.

"I love everywhere I go with you because I can be there beside you," Kamui insists, hiding a soft was a different atmosphere, nice as private, but even more out of the hustle and bustle of the city. The stars are entirely clear to view from Kyoto.

"I'll always treasure places like this… because it's what you picked for me." Kamui professes, not intending to feel this much. His heart becomes fully exposed as he holds a closed hand to clutch over it.

Subaru seemed entirely satisfied with their answer. More than that, he was practically beaming, unable to hide just how much that boosted his ego.

"Besides, Nokoru isn't someone you need to worry about. For one he has supported us being together for… a long while… " Kamui coughs into his hand. He lowers his gaze to the table. Countless visits talking about Subaru resurfaced in his mind. His cheeks dust cherry red.

"He has always held a deep preference and fondness for women, and certainly all females on campus. So there's nothing to worry over. And it's quite unlikely he'd be with a guy…. well except for…."

"Except for?"

Kamui abruptly stops himself, holding a hand to his lips. Now his lover was all too curious, raising an eyebrow, unsure if the Director supposedly liking another male, mattered here. So long as there were fewer eyes on Kamui.

"Kamui?" He voices.

"Mmm… No one, just a rumor I've heard," Kamui insists, finding himself snorting. His beloved's sulk turns into a full-blown pout. "The guy is not me so you don't need to worry."

Thankfully, their server had the time to come around to their table. Giving off orders, and being given some sparkling waters. They indulged in the view, turning their chairs out and beside each other to lookout

"But you do know, you're the only one for me… right?" Kamui breaks their silence with a quiet confession. Violet-blue eyes shimmer over, endearingly.

Subaru's eyes soften, and he reaches across the table to hold his lover's hand tight. While curiosity abounded, what mattered most now was being here together.

"You're all I need," Subaru professes, kissing the top of his lover's hand devotedly before holding it to his lap. The mood seems all too set.

Being in their own private corridor, they have more chances of intimacy. Kisses, cuddles, and gentle touches as they wait for their orders to arrive.

The multiple tiers of food are served on a platinum-looking platter. Every leaf of lettuce, drop of soup, or an ounce of steak seems to be of only the best quality.

"Would you care for dessert?"

There was a question they didn't need to think through. Kamui's sweet tooth was still quite present and eager. Subaru could deny him nothing.

They're close enough to finish their meal anyway. But there's a certain desire lingering that comes about as the pair share a decadent chocolate cake, with warm syrup flowing all around it. The rich, indulgent sweetness was for some an aphrodisiac, which sparked the fire that was already lingering.

Moments past…as they finished things up.

"Subaru?"

"Yes?"

"Can we… go back to our hotel?"

"Sure, is everything alright?" Subaru swallows, feeling a heat between them.

Kamui flusters, keeping his gaze downward, to the table… 'I can't be the only one craving this… '

They spent the whole day together, so intimate, and romantically involved… never going beyond kissing…. It was bound to take effect.

"It's fine just… I want a little… more privacy with you." Kamui's eyes dazzle, leaving their object of affection thoroughly seduced. They were on their way, checked out, and off to their room in record time.

---

-Hotel-

Subaru and Kamui remained somewhat composed on the trip. Beside each other innocently, until they reached their suite. As the door closed behind them Kamui found himself instantly backed up against it.

Their lips meet in a searing and far more passionate kiss than any they shared earlier. The younger of the two, found himself eager, forward, and moving things faster. Kamui was the first to initiate their deeper kisses, licking through light pink lips. Hands moved back to cradle Subaru's head and caress the elegant face.

Being allowed entrance always brought out a thrill. Kamui found himself moaning at the fiery and instant reciprocation.

Kamui's tongue brushed every little curve and sensitivity he could find. His lover's mouth kept quite reactive, every moan being swallowed up. Gradually, Kamui moves on and licks the older male's tongue, all over, enticing it to come and play.

"Mnn! K-Kamui!" Subaru cries out, finding himself swept up by a very passionate lover. He doesn't hold back, not for their kisses, their lips have been accustomed to one another for what feels like a lifetime. The kisses come out deeper and harder. He can feel Kamui's plush lips being pressed so tightly and devoured in the act. Their tongues take part in a tango of their own, lips around them reconnecting dozens of times, barely pausing for a breath.

"You're far too seductive," Subaru tells him, affirmatively and with a heated, darkening gaze. His lips ravished and came forward to claim or at least take their time dominating the kiss. Nips on Kamui's bottom lip made him mewl helplessly. His voice comes out at its highest and loudest during these times.

"Subaru!" Kamui cries out to his lover. Panting, red, and breathless, the epitome of aroused. All those words and touches keep fanning the flames, creating an intoxicating fire. A fire only Subaru could be the one to start and finish. Violet-blue orbs darkened with desire, pupils were blown up.

"You're… incredible," Subaru tells his lover with certainty, breathless but sincere. The last words are to fall before the older lover insistently pulls him up. Hands tuck Kamui's pillow-soft inner thighs.

With no hesitation, the younger man allowed himself to be lifted up higher and higher, pressed insistently to his lover's body. Hands possessively squeezed the sensitive thighs, fingers curving into Kamui's skin through the fabric.

"Ahhnn!" Kamui screams out heartily, he finds his body heating up, reacting to every little squeeze. The lips coming to ravish him are adding fuel to the fire. Plush lips part invitingly for their older lover to take part.

Moans, mewls, and desperate cries were swallowed between the lover's lips.

"I love when you touch me like that…" Kamui admits the moment he has the breath. His words fall hotly over his lover's lips.

Kamui purrs at the motion, wrapping legs and arms sensually around his lover's waist. though quite happy to allow any and everything his lover wanted tonight. Still, he also loved the idea to do something a bit different. To give back a little…

Subaru groans at the vocalization, the words from his love's lips becoming more erotic by the second. The idea that his beloved was becoming more confident in this area brought out a variety of feelings.

The heat in his core is aching, cock coming to full hardness, as the younger male grinds his hips with every little touch. Neither are in a controlled state, Kamui's straining erection can be felt through his clothes.

Boldly, and overcome by the passionate turn, Subaru backs his lover back firmly to the wall. Looking into heated violet-blue orbs, glazed with lust, he proceeds to grind their lips together hard.

"Please…" The younger lover replies, relishing in every second, closing his legs tighter. Always encouraging his partner.

"Kamui…" Subaru groans, feeling their bodies being only brought closer.

Kamui becomes 'trapped' between a wall and a heated body, a strained erection poking at him, wanting to get inside of him as soon as humanly possible.

"Mnn... Need you" Kamui calls out between untamed kisses. The heat became scorching with the barriers between their bodies. Every piece of cloth needed to be removed and right this second.

"Take me," Kamui voiced quietly, and flushed, but entirely decisive. The serious look in violet orbs made their lover's orbs shiver. Subaru returned it wholeheartedly seconds later, his hands already moving under Kamui's shirt to strip.

Kamui followed suit, as they found their way onto the bed now, quickly removing and tossing the remaining clothes on the floor.

"How… should we do this…?" Subaru questions after they're entirely bare and his hand reaches into a bedside drawer. Hands grasp the tube of strawberry-scented lubricant. The heat spreading throughout his cheeks gives Kamui the courage to respond honestly.

Well, there are far too many things Kamui planned to try with his beloved… but this was on the top of the list.

Alongside… very embarrassing… positions.

But saying these things… out loud, only made things burn up more. Kamui's body felt like fire turned on beyond belief.

"I want to feel it… really deep," Kamui confesses, so quietly, whispering as he keeps his face. The fact Subaru was very much on him, made it possible to hear every word.

"R-right… I… let me prepare… you then," Subaru found himself breathless, already, guiding Kamui to turn around. Though he doesn't expect to find his lover on his hands and knees, the tight entrance facing him. Subaru swallows hard, resisting to stroke himself, seeing his lover in such a state.

Swallowing, he cools himself just enough to work this through. The first finger, spread with lubricant, slides in with no resistance.

"M-more…"

It's only a moment? But… his own desperate need and Kamui's cries convince him to move things along. He enters a second finger deep inside of his lover, fingers scissoring and spreading him perfectly.

"You can… add more…" Kamui bites his lips, burying his face into the pillow. The 'shameless' lewd position makes him ache. 'We could do it like this as well…'

Subaru continues though his pacing increases, but it's not nearly as quick for his desperate lover.

"Please!"

"I will… I don't want to hurt you."

Now adding a third… and experimenting gently with the fourth finger, making his lover extra spread out, brushing that spot inside Kamui just enough to drive him wild.

"Ahnn~" Kamui's cries are so unrestrained, hips moving with every finger inside. "W-wait!

"Kamui…" Subaru restrains the movement, slowly removing the fingers from his lover.

"Subaru I… I want to…" Kamui speaks out first, feeling prepared in such a position but now craving even more. He gradually turns around, looking his lover deep in the eyes. "Like this…"

His long bangs fall over his eyes hiding his expression. The stream of pink across his cheeks does remain visible, spreading wilder by the moment.

"Lie back," Kamui finds the courage to express, blushing madly all the way. Still, entirely prepared inside and out, he places a hand flat on his lover's chest. Subaru is gently pushed to lie flat on his back.

"Kamui…." Subaru didn't even know the words to follow after this. Part of him assumed this must be a very lewd fantasy, seeing his lover so incredibly erotic, gorgeous, and overcome with desire.

"You've… haaa…. Done so much for me all day," Kamui begins between heated pants. He bites his lip, opening the tube of lubricant and spreading it between his hands. It's warmed up between brushing hands, before being spread all over his lover's hardness. "Let me do this… for you… all the work… you can… enjoy it."

'If I don't die from embarrassment…. ' Kamui angled himself over his lover's tip. No matter what he read or researched, nothing could really prepare him for how this might feel.

Here goes.

"Alright, I'm going to… ahhh~" Kamui cries out, just feeling the eager tip, meeting with his entrance, impatiently making itself home.

"Ooh~" He slowly sinks himself onto his lover. Every centimeter of the cock moves to stretch and brush up inside him.

"You feel so good…" Subaru moans, feeling squeezed that much tighter for the words.

"Almost…" Kamui speaks, though more to himself, reaching the halfway point and keeping grounded. Finally, Kamui sits himself down entirely, his lover buried completely within. "Ah… I'm gonna… st-start…" He says, looking down at his lover who reaches for his hand, another tightly holding Kamui's hip.

Though this position… being in control of things… was rather nice. Kamui found a thrill, seeing his lover on his back, accepting every move and pace Kamui would make. All the while being filled to the brim inside.

The motion before is slow, sensual, and a bit uncertain. It took a moment to begin a new pace, with Kamui moving up and down the shaft, all too hot and erotic. For assurance, he squeezes tightly to hand in his own, as he continues to learn to ride.

Until the slow and experimental motions started hitting Kamui exactly where he needed it most. Finding himself comfortable to relax, he slid himself at the perfect angle. His lover's hardened tip struck him in his most sensitive region.

"Ah-ah Subaru!" Kamui calls for him, lost in the sensation. Overcome with pleasure over uncertainty, he begins moving deeper, faster, searching for that perfect touch.

"K-Kamui… you are… incredible," Subaru makes out. He is helpless when his lover swallows him up in time. It makes his hips jerk up, occasionally thrusting up a little extra hard inside his beloved, as he found his legs shaking, taking in much.

"Ahnn~ When you move that way…" Kamui breathlessly moans and cries out. Feeling the thrust up inside, brought incredible pleasure, in between the motions he was in full control of.

"Pl-please…" Kamui murmurs, tears straining the side of his eyes, finding himself coming closer and closer. He can't seem to take his lover in without hitting that sensitive part in some way or another. 'I don't want to come now if we can't…' "I want… to kiss you when we…can you come up here."

Subaru felt a tug on his chest. He smiles at the loving request, and mutual desire.

As delicate as he tried to sit up, with Kamui very much over him, it was to no avail.

"Subaru!" Kamui screams his name, feeling the already heated erection grinding all over inside of him. The shift to positions, not leaving that point of connection, was beyond words.

"My perfect Kamui," Subaru purrs, loving and so far gone with his lover. Loving hands grip Kamui's hips tightly, keeping the younger man firmly in his lap.

"Let's move together, alright?" Whether the offer was meant to be more endearing or seductive was unknown.

But Kamui couldn't care for those details right now. "Yes!" He cries out, heated, breathless, and moving up and down his lover in timing.

For that last round, the pace of thrusts, Subaru becomes active in their passion, sealing his lips over Kamui's reddened ones. Slowly, at first Subaru bucks his hips up, hitting Kamui firmly where he needed it most.

"OH Subaru - Ann- I-"

He was close, seeing things were okay. It was time to speed things along; they moved together beautifully. Every time Subaru would rise up inside him, Kamui would follow the pleasure and the motion. All of Subaru's starting thrusts became harsher, harder to follow, or understand, just reaching that blissful feeling filled their minds. Subaru begins moving uncontrollably up into his lover, who gives his all from the position.

"Subaru! I-" Kamui couldn't even finish his warning. His lover thrust into him so fast, deep before he could do so much as move. Subaru moved so incredibly deep and harshly struck his prostate at a rapid pace.

"Subaru!" Stars covered Kamui's vision, as he found himself spurting white. His body couldn't calm orgasm lasting longer than he planned. He hugged his lover tightly for those last few thrusts.

"Kamui… I'm going to come inside you," Subaru assured so sensually, as a promise. Kamui bites his lips, orgasm still racing through his body, only getting hotter at the words.

"I love you…" Subaru pulls him into a kiss for those final moments. Moaning into Kamui's mouth as he finishes inside, hard and wild bursts of his essence fill up. They seem endless, keeping the younger lover on edge, feeling full and now hypersensitive.

Finally, that last ribbon of white comes deep inside of Kamui, letting him cry out.

"I love you too," Kamui returns, having caught his breath from their lovemaking. He collapses in his lover's embrace entirely spent, connected, and loved up.

~~~~~Pillow talk. ~~~~~

After getting the much-needed sleep. The pair found themselves, contented, waking up only to look into each other's eyes. So peaceful, and natural.

Kamui paused for a moment, before deciding. Though his heart wouldn't ease up enough to voice things now. He dove headfirst into his lover's chest, holding his lover as tightly as possible.

"Subaru…" Kamui mumbles, feeling the heat rising all around his face.

"Yes, my Kamui," Subaru calls tenderly, carding through the messy hair on Kamui's head. The younger man whines at the words, being all too effective.

'After what we did… this shouldn't be embarrassing… '

Kamui tries to reason with these rapid feelings. Love certainly didn't make sense. With time he should be used to all these fluttering feelings and quite direct attacks on his heart. On the contrary, the more time spent, the more these feelings came to grow, deepening their sense of devotion and commitment.

'I do want to be with Subaru… always. I know he knows this…' Kamui becomes lost in thought only letting out whines and murmurs as he comes to terms with things. 'But still, the things I wrote on his card are embarrassing.' Even more so the fact his heart couldn't calm enough, words flowing one after the other, not feeling right until he expressed all he felt. Well, up until the card ran out of space.

"I still haven't given you your Valentine's card," Kamui murmurs, still hiding within a safe and warming body. Arms protectively tightening around him, that screams nothing short of love.

"Are you sure? You seemed… kinda hesitant before?" Subaru asks carefully. Gold and emerald eyes shimmer, portraying his true desire to read and receive everything Kamui was willing to give.

"I'm sure," Kamui nods, peering up a little bit to see a radiant smile. He had to return to his hiding place, letting his heart calm and cheeks cool. "Words I wrote … came out… embarrassing… but that is how I feel…so…."

"Then I know I'll love reading every word," Subaru purrs, grasping for his lover's arm before he can leave the bed. He pulls the younger man in a deep, ravishing kiss. Finally, when left ravished, reddened, and breathless, he let Kamui go.

"I…" The younger love has to take a minute, controlling his breath, while his head's spinning from the kiss.

"Of course, you would say that…" Kamui reasons, taking a few nervous breaths. His lover went above and beyond for a holiday. And treasured every gift, no matter how simple, when given by Kamui. Subaru already planned out so much, on a holiday most boyfriends were not expected to reciprocate.

'Though we are both men… but… ' Still, he assumed they take turns giving to the other on either Valentine's or White day.

Giving his lover the remainder of his gift was the least he could do.

"I'll go get it then," Kamui assures, nuzzling his lover's chest for a few moments.

"Are you sure you're not…" Subaru's cheeks reddened harshly. "Too sore or anything…"

Kamui couldn't look his lover in the eyes after that. A meek, "I'm fine" was all he could muster. Slipping out from the sheets, certainly used to this feeling post-love-making. He manages to walk a few feet over to grab the red envelope from the bag. "Here."

"Thank you, " Subaru takes the card with deep gratitude. His other hand reaches for Kamui, helping him back into their love nest.

At last, Subaru reads from the card Kamui wrote. His tuckered lover now accepted, he'd been a melting mess.

Dual-toned eyes scanned over every single character on the card with an intensity. The emotion wavered from them, emerald and gold glossing over with absolute love.

His heart clenched, reading through the latter words. Seeing them written out, so boldly, and perhaps without restraint, made him a beaming mess.

'I love you. I'm so happy to spend this year…and the rest of my life with you. I am always yours.'

Subaru didn't know what else he could do. How else could he respond, besides wrapping his lover up into a tight hold, and kissing him until he was left breathless?

Subaru offers his profession in response to Kamui's heart.

"This year and every year after… I want to be with you, just like this, Kamui."

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Magami

Those eyes again. Deep blue-violet, magical, entrancing, and truly dangerous. It shouldn't be… that there were still so many traces of his family left, even if they weren't of the living realm.

This time around, Kamui was weary and far more insistent on going with his boyfriend for their work.

The next few days would be busy, all leading up to Subaru's birthday, which was promised to be taken off completely.

'If this has to do with my family, it only seems right I should go along too. ' Kamui reflects.

Of course, he has his curiosities and questions….but sadly there were a lot of restless, angered spirits who were far from communicative.

"Stay close to my side," Subaru tells his partner, extra protective after the past few nightmares he's had.

Kamui lets out a soft yelp, his boyfriend tugging him to his side. Their legs brush and a familiar yet almost spiritual warm ignited with the skinship as their minds were connected. It didn't hurt that Subaru's natural magic could be felt through the power he shared with Kamui.

'Perhaps I could give Subaru that same warmth one day.'

Kamui keeps this hopeful thought. He didn't know the potential of his powers, nor perfectly control them. Though, when he did notice a spirit, angered and having the audacity to harm Subaru, he understood some extent of those powers.

High school couldn't finish fast enough. Soon he'd be able to learn more and work alongside his lover all the time, without worries of exams or homework.

Considering the remaining spirit had a death wish, seeking to harm Subaru, things would end quickly. Kamui began to glow with a near heavenly golden light, using just a fraction but still far more than needed power to exorcise the angered spirit.

Their work was done. Subaru seemed pensive, eyes wide, heart accelerating, and hands shakily grasping for his Kamui.

Looking into soft violet-blue eyes, he breathed with deep relief.

'You've gotten better with controlling them now… 'Subaru thinks with a sense he could truly breathe now. Though Kamui was shaky, exerting power, he remained fully conscious.

Violet-blue eyes blinked tiredly, he reached his arms out, towards his beloved.

"Mmn… Subaru?" A meek voice falls from Kamui.

"Kamui?" Subaru calls with concern, feeling his lover nearly collapse against him.

"I'm alright… just tired," Kamui ensures, arms wrapping snuggly around his lover. With assurance, he places a kiss upon his lover's throat. "But I really am fine." he weakly, but still devotedly holds a hand to his lover's cheek.

Kamui doesn't have to make the request. He simply gazes into the deep gold-emerald eyes drowning in emotion.

Subaru takes the initiative to hold Kamui close, an embrace fully supporting Kamui's weight giving him the rest needed.

Gradually, he leans down, arms wrapping carefully around and under Kamui to lift him up. Now, carrying him the way back to their hotel.

"You've done well, you should rest," Subaru ensures, feeling relief at the arms wrapping securely around him.

Kamui nods, smiling and nodding off knowing his lover would be alright, that this wouldn't be another scare like when they first worked together.

'I'm glad I was here. I want to be with you like this, always… '

/End/

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I hope you enjoyed this chapter. A lot of fluffy/romance scenes for the Valentine's Day theme of the chapter and Kamui becomes more confident in the bedroom and asks his lover what he wants to do and try.

The next chapter will involve fluff/romance and some angst with Subarus's birthday, a bit more Kamui being involved with Onmyouji work, and learning bits and pieces of his family. Also, I will have a moment of Kamui being a 'top' for the first time and all that stuff so stay tuned.

I have a few more romantic scenarios and ideas for these two being together before I finish this long story. I'm also going to have an epilogue as I love these two very much. So there is still more SubKam content on the way. Thank you all for reading!