Chapter 34

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April 7th (continued)

Ryuzaki didn't say much as we drove off, he seemed to be pretty deep in thought the entire ride back to the hotel, but once we stepped foot into our suite, he changed.

"Do you mind if we talk about today? I know you must be tired…" I stop and turn to look at him glancing at my watch quickly.

Man it's really late…no wonder I'm exhausted…all I want to do is crawl into bed…but how long could a talk take?

"Yeah, I guess so." I sigh tiredly and prepare myself.

"Would you like me to bring you something, Miss?" Watari is standing behind us. When Ryuzaki had asked me we had literally just walked inside.

"Sure Watari, something to drink would be nice, thank you." He nods before heading toward the Kitchen. I take off my boots and slip my feet into the slippers that I had left by the door, before heading to my room. "Alright, c'mon Ryuzaki."

. . .

Ryuzaki follows me into my room and I shut the door behind him. He takes his place on one of the chairs by the coffee table and once the door is shut I walk over and take a chair opposite him.

"So where do we start?" I sigh as I speak. I kinda want to start at that girlfriend comment…

"Well, the beginning I suppose." Ryuzaki shifts uncomfortably in his chair.

Why is he so fidgety?

"Let's see…" I lean back in my chair and cross my legs as I think back to today's events. "Well, I guess the first thing would be that you never told me that you were raised in the UK or that you played tennis…was all that actually true or a lie you made up to tell Light?" Ryuzaki raises what would be an eyebrow if he actually had any. Not that that bothers me…his hair covers them so you don't even notice…

"It was the truth, but it surprises me that you would start with that…"

"Would you rather talk about the serve that almost killed me?" I see that he visibly cringes.

"No…and I apologize for that."

"Anyway I guess my point was that you opened up to Light faster than me…I've been here for months but you're still an enigma…" I sigh slightly flustered and annoyed.

"Did I? I hadn't noticed. If you ever want to know something all you have to do is ask you know." His tone is soft, as if he's worried about me or about me getting angry.

Was it that easy all this time? All I have to do is ask him?

There's a knock at the door. "Come in!" I say it loud enough for whomever to hear, even though it's probably just Watari. The rest of the team is home for the night because of what happened to the Chief.

The door opens seconds later and sure enough Watari enters with a tray. "I hope I'm not interrupting, Miss." I shake my head no at the old man as he places the tray on the coffee table. He gives Ryuzaki a piece of cake and a mug of coffee, the bowl of sugar following close behind. He turns my way and places a soda can in front of me followed by what seems to be a PB&J. My mouth begins to water as I realize how hungry I actually am. "Will there be anything else you two require?"

"No, I think that will be all Watari." Ryuzaki pulls the cake toward himself and I smile at Watari.

If I'm this tired I can only imagine that you're dead on your feet…come to think of it, Ryuzaki had a hell of a work out today, why is he still awake?

"Then I will retire for the night." I open my can gently.

"Goodnight Watari." I sip the can, happy for some caffeine to keep me awake.

"Goodnight all." Watari leaves and we sit in silence for a while as we eat our food. Apparently both of us were hungrier than we thought.

Once I finish my sandwich I wipe the jelly from the corners of my mouth and watch Ryuzaki stir sugar cubes into his coffee.

I have to know…

He glances up at me, clearly aware that I've been staring at him. "Was there something you wanted to say?"

No turning back, just suck it up and do it.

"Y-yeah, but it's more of a question." His eyes show minor surprise.

"Oh, well go on then." I clear my throat uneasily.

"Y-you told Light that I…that I'm your girlfriend. I need to know, Ryuzaki…if you were being serious or if it was just something you came up with on the fly because if it's just some kind of joke to you-" My eyes begin to fill with tears as I try to get the words out fast enough. "-then that is really really messed up-"

"I was serious." His words tear through me like a knife and my heart lurches in my chest.

"What…?" He glances up at me with his onyx eyes, his normal porcelain complexion showing slight pink in his cheeks as if he's embarrassed. My heart skips again just looking at him.

"I was serious…to be honest…I had planned on asking you out on White Day…but as you probably already surmised…I'm new to relationships and lost my nerve. However they all thought we were a couple anyway so I thought that maybe you'd come to me. I've been thinking of different ways since, but nothing seemed to work. Not everyone is as brave as you, Suzuki, when it comes to matters of the heart…I was still trying to think of a way to ask you 'out' when Light presented the question to us. To be frank I didn't even know what these feelings were when they appeared…I have no idea what to do with them…I just know that I…feel better when you're around and I'd like you to stay around. However I see now that I didn't think it through all the way, I thought you may have had some feelings left over from February, but I guess I was wrong. I'm sorry, because you were so revolted by the thought of being with me that it made you physically ill…so if you want I can back off and we can go back to our work relationship and forget all this ever happened." He trails off and I just stare at him as my eyes fill with happy tears. Ryuzaki seems instantly worried. "I'm sorry, did I say something wrong?" I wipe my tears on my sleeve.

"No you big idiot. I didn't get sick because I was revolted by you; I got sick because bacon, Caesar salad, lemonade, and don't mix." He relaxes and his eyes light up with hope.

"So then…you didn't reject me?"

"Of course not, silly." He smiles from his normal sitting position and it's the cutest thing I think I've ever seen.

"I must warn you…I'm not familiar with the terms of relationships…seeing as how this will be my first one…" I smile and it takes every ounce of my being no to hug him.

"It's alright Ryuzaki, we can take it slow…an there really are no terms in a relationship, you just spend time with each other and do what makes you happy." He nods as I sip my drink with a smile.

"So um…was there anything else you wanted to talk about?" My heart stops as I remember.

Oh no…Ryuk…

I set my can down gently and lean forward, resting my arms on my knees. "You have to promise me that you won't get angry…"

He seems confused for a minute. "I promise I won't get angry…what is it Suzuki?"

I take a deep breath and sigh it out. "The Shinigami found out that I can see it…we had a conversation for a while…" I pause and Ryuzaki puts his thumb to his mouth, a clear sign he's in thought. If he's angry there are no signs of it yet.

"Go on…"

"It turns out that his name is Ryuk…he mentioned something called a Death Note, he didn't say anything about it other than normally a person has to touch one in order to see him. I can draw you a picture of what it looked like later. However, and this is the scary part, he knew my real name…apparently Shinigami have the power to see people's names and lifespans above their heads like some sort of video game display. He promised me that he wouldn't tell Light about me or reveal our true names…something about how he's not here for you or Light but because of entertainment and apples…so…when you said that I had just seen a ghost you were kinda right." I stop and watch Ryuzaki mentally shift through the information.

"So it seems that Light may in fact be Kira after all…but unfortunately there is no proof of this conversation nor of this Shinigami's existence. Quite frankly knowing this information without evidence is just as useless as getting evidence unlawfully…we can nothing with the evidence you've gathered." I sigh feeling defeated.

I already knew that…but hearing you say it kinda sucks…without knowing how Kira kills we have no evidence against him…and without the Death Note only I can see Ryuk…

"Never-the-less…it seems that even though your cover was blown you were able to get some decent information, well done. Although…knowing this information about Light and Kira is going to drive me insane, because I can't do anything with it."

Well done? He thinks I did a good job?

Ryuzaki stands and shoves his hands in his pockets. "You should get some rest Suzuki…you've had quite an exciting day." He begins to walk toward the door, passing me.

"Wait!" Without thinking I jump up and grab his arm, he stops in his tracks and looks at where I'm holding him, then looks into my eyes.

"Is something wrong?" It's almost like he wants me to say something…I let go realizing what I've done.

"Ah…no…but I…" I try to speak but the words just jumble in my mouth. You know what you want to do, just do it.

I quickly go up on my toes and plant a kiss on his cheek. "Um…goodnight Ryuzaki…" I step back and watch as he moves his hand to his cheek, completely surprised. After a few seconds he turns to me and smiles softly.

"You never cease to amaze me Suzuki…goodnight and sweet dreams."

Well that's the end of Chapter 34 ^^ I'm not sure how I like this Chapter; Ryuzaki doesn't feel like this is how he would respond. I wanted more of an 'I don't know what these feelings are…I don't really know what feelings are.' So I eventually might redo it, but for now here ya go stories/books/fanfictions always have a way of writing themselves, the characters become alive and do their own thing, so maybe this is what was meant to be…Anyway onto the favorites follows and reviews Looks like MegaAnime FanGirl and Idan Phoenix favorited ^^ Thanks guys. Looks like Idan also gave me a follow along with LunaBishop. Looks like I have two new reviews from MegaAnime Fangirl and hateme. *reads fangirls* XD Thank you I appreciate it, and I am indeed a girl. Surprise! *reads hateme's* Yeah she will probably have to do that a lot. She doesn't flaunt her smarts so they often forget that she is almost as smart as Ryuzaki. Well that looks like all I have for now. The next chapter takes place on April 13th on Suzuki's birthday but I still have no idea what is going to happen so if you have anything you want to see, pleeeaaasssseee leave a review with some idea, I'm dyin over here . okay I'll see you guys later, and like I said if you wanna talk to me or follow me go ahead and send me a PM or pm me on Tumblr, I have the apps on my phone so I'll respond pretty quick, I'd love to hear from you guys