Chapter 38

Hey everyone, I'm not dead. *Looks at last time I updated the fic* Theses no way that the last time I updated was November…is there? *Looks at last time I edited the CH 37 file* omfg I'm so sorry guys! Time flies so fast I can't believe I made you wait so long! T-T Well I have good news. YOU'RE GETTING THREE NEW CHAPTERS! My muse struck me, (as did the confusion of the discrepancies between the manga and the anime) so I have written until the end of basically episode 11 so :D don't hate me! Without further ado let's get to it!

"Y'know Suzuki…with you around I think I'll be alright…"

"Y'know what Ryuzaki? I think so too…"

. . .

April 19th

My eyes open slowly to a bombardment of light, I roll over with a groan and feel the area to my right; it's empty. I look through pained and squinted eyes and realize that what should be there…isn't.

He's gone…

I give a sad sigh and roll back over toward the harsh light; it's coming from a crack between the curtains and the wall, but as I reach for my phone my eyes begin to adjust and I'm able to see the time.

It's 8…wonder why no one woke me up…

I slide out of bed and push my arms through the sleeves of my back zip up hoodie. If they are here, then I can't imagine that they'd wanna see me in just a tank and sleep pants…especially Matsuda.

Barefoot, I make my way down the hall of our suite and toward where we normally gather. I expect to hear everyone as I get closer, but all is silent.

"Ryuzaki?" My voice cuts through the silence and in response I hear the rustling of papers and the creak of a chair. I continue toward the noise and turn to see Ryuzaki has moved the table over to the window again and is sitting at it with his laptop and a pile-er mess, of papers.

"Oh Suzuki, it seems you're awake." His tone strikes me as odd, as if he's embarrassed by something, but I've never seen him like that.

Is he embarrassed about last night? Or is he doing something other than work on that computer?

I cut my thoughts there and continue to approach. "Yeah, where is everyone?" I look around for any sign that they've even been here.

"I gave everyone the next few days off…" Completely taken by surprise I stop in my tracks.

"You did?" There's a slight surprise in my voice and he looks at me with sad panda eyes.

"I did…I figured that, perhaps they'd need it…after Ukita." My heart lurches as I remember the events that led up to Ukita's death.

"Yeah…him and Aizawa were friends after all. I didn't know him very well, but he seemed like a nice guy." Ryuzaki glances out the window as I come to sit in the extra chair across from him.

I wonder if he actually put this chair here for me on purpose, or did it subconsciously?

"So…what now, Ryuzaki?" He gives a sad sigh before turning to face me.

Something is definitely bothering him…

"I'm not sure, we essentially have four days until the T.V station airs the tape and then we'll see what happens…however," His eyes meet mine, reinvigorated with the fire of determination. "I have a theory I'd like to go over with you…"

He doesn't seem back to his normal self, but rather, trying to distract himself from what's really bothering him.

"Okay, go on."

"Well, first question; does anything about Kira's recent activities strike you as odd?" I answer without missing a beat.

"Well of course. Nothing that this Kira does makes sense-"

"This Kira?" He interrupts me, much to my surprise.

"I say that because…he doesn't do anything that would suggest he is the same person…no one changes their MO that much. Yeah, criminals are still dying, but the Kira before didn't have any interest in killing people who opposed him; only those who tried to catch him. Also, if we still think of Light as a suspect, why would he kill those officers and Ukita? He would have no reason, he respects his father so I don't see him killing any police as Kira out of respect. It just…doesn't make sense if we try to think of it as the same person." A smile crosses his face. "But you already thought about this, didn't you?"

"Yes, I did, but I was curious to see if you would come to the same conclusion, suffice to say, you didn't disappoint." I lean back and put my leg over my knee, thinking about it more.

"To be honest…all throughout the Kira tape stunt I kept telling myself that something wasn't right. The original Kira, who we believe to be Light, seems to demonstrate a child's ideology of a utopia; kill all the criminals and everything will be fine…he never once seemed to pay attention to the media, aside from using it to get criminals names and your Lind L. Tailor stunt. He never killed people who disagreed with him, he pretty much ignored them as if they were ants in the grand plan, but this Kira? This Kira is vindictive, the type of person who would crucify you if you chose to oppose them, even if it was in a passing comment…" Ryuzaki nods.

"Mm…so it's safe to say that you also believe that there are two separate people acting as Kira?"

"Absolutely." Or that Kira's power can be passed around…but there is no reason for Light to pass it on right now. Annnd I don't wanna think about it 'cause that would suck.

"I'm glad to know we're on the same page then." He smiles slightly.

"Was there anything else you wanted to talk about Ryuzaki?" His smile fades completely and I get the strangest feeling I've been shut out.

"Yes actually…I'm having Watari take care of everything for Ukita's funeral…his family requested a small ceremony, but it seems that we're still invited…that is if you wanted to go…"

Ukita…My heart breaks a little.

"Thanks for telling me Ryuzaki."

"And…if you need to talk to anyone…I've set that up as well…"

Ryuzaki…you really care about this team don't you…in all honesty you probably still blame yourself for Ukita's death…I know I do…I can't stop thinking that if I had run after him that I could have stopped him and he'd still be alive.

"Okay Ryuzaki, thanks again for letting me know." A silence falls over us for so long that I almost feel as though I've done something wrong. To avoid his endless sad-eyed-gaze I turn my head to the window and watch the city below.

It's such a bust place…it continues about its business day after day as if nothing's changed…but when in reality, an officer has died…Ukita…has died…I wonder what would happen if I were to die, because of Kira or whatever reason during this case. What would happen to me? My team? Would they go on without me? Wait…that's silly, of course they would, they'd have to…but then what about Ryuzaki? Would he miss me?

"Suzuki?" I break from my thoughts and turn to look at him, he's smiling for real.

"What?" His smile spreads like a contagion and one forms on my own face.

"You look so beautiful when you're in thought like that."

SOOOOO what did you think? I really hope you liked it. It's time to thank everyone, but before I do that I want to thank you all for reading my fic, I have 7k views on this and idk if that's because it's almost 40 chapters long or if you guys just really like it but I want to know that I appreciate every one of you and it's totally okay for you to run over to my twitter or Tumblr or what have you and tell me that you want another chapter, I'm actually disappointed in myself that I made you wait so long. I must have lost track of time while I was doing the other chapters for the other fic…but since that is an obscenely long wait let's see who commented, favorited, and stuff…(I really hope I still have readers…*bites nails*)

First the favorites- holy shit! Well I wanna thank Blackshadow390, 1030chloechen, and...*giggles* (I like this name) REBELTURTLE9-1-3 I want to thank you all for putting up with me being slow as shit and hope that you keep reading in the future and maybe check out some of my other fics as well.

The Follows- it seems I have just one new one, so thank you Tears of Forgotten Shadows for making it possible for me to annoy you for the next few days with emails of me updating this fic. *thumbs up*

Now…do I have any comments? Wow…that's kinda a lot more than I was expecting…well here we go.

Darcy18 –" I didn't see that last part coming, and it was so adorable :)"

Awe thanks ^^ I can't even remember what happened. *looks back* Oh the snuggles that's right.

heleana1 on Chapter 17 – "Having a friend named sora, calling parents heartless... Making references to kingdom hearts are we?"

Actually, Yes. :D calling the parent's heartless was just coincidence though. Suzuki is Samn Crisis my main OC who belongs to the Crisis Saga, a collection of fics that basically are her biography. One of them just happens to be a Kingdom Hearts fic, well…she's a keyblade bearer, and as long as Squenix doesn't change canon my Head Canon that she got her keyblade from mickey will still be safe. She mainly uses the StarSeeker but the Oathkeepter is her secondary.

MegaAnime Fangirl-"Awww such an adorable scene at the end -. It makes me feel like Suzuki is playing the role of mother for L as of lately thou, but it fits here. Sometimes L has mature moments but I like how this is played out."

Does it really feel that way? Hmm I didn't mean it too. But I'm glad you enjoyed the scene ^^

Hateme101-"ending was so cute"

XD it seems that you all really liked that huh.

Heleana1-"please update"

Sorry this was so late…

UnhappyHomicideExperience (Mr. Frog-Man)- Awww that was sweet- especially remembering the art you did when I read it. I just can't get enough of the fluff :3 sounds like their relationship is growing too which is nice. (But pork cutlet bowl will forever remind me of yuri on ice lol) and sorry this is late~

XD yeah I Love YOI ^^'

Looks like that is about it for now so I guess I'll get working on the next one. Tata for now.