Chapter 39

Ready for another Chapter? Who am I kidding? Of course you are!

"You look so beautiful when you're in thought like that."

April 22nd

The last few days have gone by rather quickly, after Ryuzaki had called me beautiful he walked away like nothing happened and I just sat there redder than a tomato…As time goes by and I get to spend more time with him, I start to get the feeling that maybe 'Ryuzaki' is a separate persona from L. What I mean to say is that he's been acting…more human…when he's around me and when we're working or when we're around the team he takes on a more robotic nature. Now maybe that's just him being their 'boss' and over time with me that same mentality has melted away, but I'm thinking that 'Ryuzaki' is an act and the real L is in there somewhere, playing the roles of two different people.

Anyway…Ryuzaki didn't go with me to Ukita's funeral, part of me is glad he didn't though. Aizawa got pretty upset and kept blaming him, he also called him a coward for not showing up…I get that he was grieving and probably wanted to project, but I wanted to punch him in the face for even suggesting that Ryuzaki was "a heartless bastard" …his words not mine. To be honest though, nothing would have changed if he showed up, he probably would have been blamed just the same.

We had a small wake for the ceremony and then we all went to the cemetery to lower Ukita into his grave…Ryuzaki and Watari showed up then to pick me up even though I had told them that I'd ride back with Matsuda. I think that maybe it was Ryuzaki's way of saying goodbye; he may not have gotten out of the car but the flowers Watari brought over and set on the grave were definitely from Ryuzaki…

We've been given our time to grieve and now it's back to the grind. No one is really over Ukita…but we're past blaming one another…and by 'we' I mean that Aizawa can stay in the same room as Ryuzaki now and not want to strangle him...not that I'd let that happen.

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It's a bit late, around 5pm, we've been just kinda killing time until Sakura T.V broadcasts the stupid Kira tape. We've mostly done filing on the newest victims, we're trying to see if any new patterns present themselves, and looking at how crazy the charts are, the more I think that there is in fact a second Kira.

"And now, the latest Kira video, we were asked to play this today as a response to the last video. If you remember, Kira sent four tapes to Sakura T.V. The first one was instructions and then the second one we played on live T.V. Within the bag we received were two more tapes one was to be played if the police said 'No' and the other for 'Yes', so now let's see what they had to say."

I look up from the stack of papers I've been balancing on my knees and place the Dew I've been slowly nursing on the coffee table as Matsuda grabs the remote to turn the T.V.'s volume up.

"Hey! It's starting!"

Yeah, but we've already seen it, why are you getting so excited?

Kira's familiar graphic pops up on the screen and that electronic voice begins to talk. A mild irritation rolls though me and I can't help but roll my eyes.

Yeah yeah, you're angry we said no. Blah blah blah you want criminals to keep being broadcast, blah blah holding the world hostage…and then making us choose Ryuzaki or the Director of the NPA…anndd now it's over.

The screen blacks then returns to the reporters as they try to up the 'wow' factor by beginning to discuss who should, basically be sacrificed on live television. I wish I had the ability to go there and smack some sense into these assholes…they're talking about someone's life as if it's meaningless…but they don't even know Ryuzaki…

"You're not really gonna do it, are you, Ryuzaki?" Matsuda asks the question that I dare not, and it pulls my attention away from the T.V.

"Well that depends, if by 'it' you mean appear on television; I hope not to. However, if say, the heads of state intervene and demand that I do…well then, I won't have a choice. I'm sure though that as we speak they're contacting one another to determine their next move." He sighs. "Of course, I couldn't blame them even if they decided to hand me over to my death…it's easier to kill me, someone that they've never seen, than the Director of the NPA." I shoot him a glare that could kill.

"You shouldn't talk about your life as if it's meaningless and disposable like that. You've solved so many cases in the past, you're an asset to everyone. When cases are too hard that no one can solve them, they turn to you, you're a secret weapon, Ryuzaki. If you died this early in the case because some high-ranking jackass told you to, we'd have no one to lead us, not to mention I'd probably go to jail for trying to kick their ass…" Everyone's eyes are on me and behind those familiar sleep-deprived-panda-eyes, I see a flicker of life that makes my heart skip a beat. "What I'm trying to say is that your life isn't something you can just throw away, you need to learn to fight for it because, dammit, you're important, Ryuzaki. Important to the team and important to me." Everyone starts to smile at me and I realize what I just said. My face begins to heat up as Ryuzaki's mouth curves into a smile. I quickly look away from everyone, completely and utterly embarrassed. "Besides; you said before that we should value our lives…so maybe you should try taking your own advice for once…or something." I glance back at him out of the corner of my eye.

"Thank you, Suzuki, I will try to remember that from now on."

Well there we go 2 chapters in two days. Another reason I was giving them to you in short ones was because the timeline is screwy, and I hate to do chapters with multiple dates in them, it's easier for me to do each day as its own chapter. However, there are in fact times when a chapter becomes so long that I extend the day to multiple chapters…it's usually because Ryuzaki talks too much -_- But yeah.

Between last night and now I only got one review and that was from hateme. *reads* Awe I'm sorry it seemed slow. I was trying to figure out the best way for them to have a conversation about the second Kira because it's coming into play soon, and like I said about the timeline I was kinda like "Fuck it I'll do whatever I want" and threw the timeline away for a second. Hopefully this one was better.

*Rolls up sleeves* alright! Chapter 40 here I come! (Omfg 40 chapters…I might die.)