Chapter 50

"You didn't know? The name of the second Kira; it's Misa Amane.

May 25th (Con)

As I walk into our suite the silence grips me with it's cold fingers and sends shivers down my spine.

What the hell?

Normally it's quiet, but we have three TV's on with various news stations for background noise and in case of Kira news…but this is eerily quiet. I pull out my phone and check the time.

It's midnight, but everyone's normally still working. Terror shoots through me as I go through all the possible scenarios. Is it possible that Light told Misa our identities and she took some of us out?! No, she would only need one and then could use that person to get rid of the rest…could she have gotten the Chiefs name and a picture from Light's room and used him to kill the others?!

Suddenly my ears catch noise coming from the kitchen and I kick off my boots, drop the Chiefs bag and run to it. As I round the corner I see Watari at the sink doing dishes, he turns and notices the terror on my face, immediately he stops what he's doing and rushes to my side.

"Oh Miss Matsui, what's wrong?" Seeing him alive and well calms me enough that I'm able to lean against the door frame.

"I-It was so quiet, I feared the worst…where is everyone?" My voice shakes with adrenaline as I look into his eyes, still frightened out of my mind. He reads me, and his face softens as if there's nothing to worry about.

"Come, have a seat, and I'll get you something to drink." I nod as he leads me by the arm to the kitchen table. Once I'm seated he turns and heads to the fridge where he brings me back a Dew. He sets it in front of me and then takes a seat in the opposite chair. I pull the can toward me and open it with a 'hiss'.

"Thank you…" I take a small sip and set the can down, cupping it with my hands. "So, everyone is alright?" He nods, and relief starts to take the place of my previous terror.

"Yes, Chief Yagami, Mr. Aizawa, and Mr. Matsuda all went to another room I rented to get some proper rest." I take another sip.

"And Ryuzaki?" He frowns slightly making my heart skip.

"Honestly Miss…he's been locked away in your room for quite some time. It's because he wouldn't come out or let anyone in that the others decided it was best to leave and get some rest." I look at him confused, his face only shows concern.

"Really? That doesn't sound like him…he won't even let you in?" He shakes his head 'no'. "Weird…I wonder what's wrong…" I cup my can and stare down at it as if it has all the answers.

"Miss Matsui…If I may be so bold…" I look up confused. "I think that you are the reason he's acting this way." My heart flutters.

"M-me?!" I stutter and the old man nods.

"Ryuzaki has been and always will be a bright young man, perhaps even bordering on genius…but that knowledge only extends so far. Things that require experience, people skills, or communication skills, don't come easy to him. So, with that in mind, I think Ryuzaki's 'temper tantrum', so to speak, was brought on by the fear that what happened to Mr. Ukita, will happen to you." All at once the pieces fall into place and I find it hard to breathe.

I could have died…I was dangling my life out like a worm on a line…practically taunting them with it…

"Oh my god…" My voice is a whisper and I put my head in my hands. "I seriously could have died…"

"I think perhaps that Ryuzaki is confused by these new feelings and because he doesn't understand them and doesn't know how to handle them, has locked himself away." He pauses and smiles gently at me, like a father or

grandfather would. "But I'm just an old man, what would I know?" I look him in the eyes and think about all the signs Ryuzaki has shown and everything he's said thus far…that I've seemed to ignore.

The old man is right…I've been such an idiot…

I sigh again, feeling like a complete ass. "He's probably still in my room, huh?" Watari nods and I stand up and pick up my can before heading to my room and thinking about what I'm going to say.

It's not that far from the kitchen to my room so it doesn't really give me a lot of time to think so when I reach my door I just stand in front of it for a minute.

What the fuck am I even supposed to say? 'I'm so sorry I worried you, I won't put my life in danger anymore?' I can't even say that because it's my job to risk my life to catch the bad guy…come to think of it, that's been my whole life…it's basically who I am…

I stare at the door trying to think of what to say but nothing comes so I just take a deep breath and knock gently.

"Suzuki? Is that you?" My heart flutters at the sound of his voice.

"Yeah Ryuzaki, it's me, can I come in?" The door opens and before I even understand what's happening, I'm pulled inside and find myself nestled in his arms with his chin in the crook of my neck, luckily through all of this I don't drop my can.

"R-Ryuzaki!" The=rough my shock I manage to stutter out his name.

"Thank you for returning home safely…" His voice is quiet and relieved as he holds me tight. It takes a second before I register what's going on and wrap my arms around him.

"Y-yeah, no problem." He suddenly realizes what he's doing and abruptly let's go.

"I-I'm sorry…" He doesn't give a reason why, just takes a step back.

I sigh and go to set my can on the coffee table before it has an unexpected meeting with the hotels carpet. I turn and for some reason see Ryuzaki as if I'm seeing him for the first time.

Tall and lanky, skinny but defined, raven black hair, dark eyes that not only have the ability to pierce your soul, but if you know how to navigate them, can give you a glimpse into Ryuzaki…and right now…they're telling me he's frightened.

I sigh again, he looks exhausted. "Ryuzaki…when was the last time you slept?" I take little glances at him as I head over to my dresser to get some clothes to sleep in. It's a warm night so I take out grey shorts and a black spaghetti strap tank top. When I turn around fully he has his hands in his jean pockets and looks utterly miserable.

"About 36 hours ago…" I stare at him, my jaw nearly dropping to the floor.

Three days ago? Holy shit…but that means he had to have slept the day we went to Aoyama…

"And when you fell asleep, how long did you stay asleep?" Clothes in hand I turn and head to the bathroom, stopping in the door to look at him.

After all this stress I just want a hot shower…

"About six hours…" My heart aches as I finally understand how tired he really is and that his 'temper tantrum' was probably a product of a few factors including worry and exhaustion.

"You must be exhausted by now…" He nods like a child in desperate need of a nap. I sigh and force a smile even though my heart is breaking. "Okay, let me take a shower and when I get out we can lay on the bed and I'll brush your hair until you fall asleep, just like before. Does that sound good?" He nods again, and I head into the bathroom looking forward to washing away the stress.

I wish I had the time, I'd take a bath…

I step into the bathroom and close the door behind me before setting my clean clothes on the counter and going to turn the water on. This shower isn't all that different from the other suits we've rented, but my bathroom has a separate shower and tub. The tub is actually more of a Jacuzzi though and the shower is a walk in with a frosted sliding glass door. So, in order to turn the water on I have to open one side and get in another.

I turn the handle and water rains down from the shower head above. After some fiddling I manage to find the right temperature and steam begins to fill the room. I take a deep breath and feel the misty air fill my lungs, relaxing me slightly.

Since the water's ready I carefully unclip my spy belt and let my pants fall to the floor before unbuttoning the mahogany dress shirt Watari bought me the other day that I decided to wear today. Once that's done I let it drop off my shoulders and kick it and my pants into a pile by the wall. Not long after my tank top and mismatching set of bra and panties joins the pile. As for my necklace, I gently untie it and set it on the counter next to my clothes.

I slide the glass door back and step into the opposite side of the shower before testing the water with my foot. It hasn't seemed to decide to scald me like my shower back in my shitty apartment would of so in one movement I step into the stream of water, careful not to get my face wet. The warmth sends a collective shiver throughout my body as I adjust to the change in temperature. Unlike shock though, this feels really nice and I close my eyes and turn so I can wet my hair. I run my fingers through my bangs and push them back out of my face, so I can wash them.

Ugh I never want to get out…

The warm water cascades over my body in a mix of rainfall and massage settings. I internally groan as I reach for my shampoo remembering that I have to make this quick because Ryuzaki is waiting for me. I lather up my hands and run them through my hair, massaging my scalp but being careful not to get soap in my eyes. The smell of apples fills the air, hitting my nose, and making me smile.

Not only does it smell good, but it makes my hair nice and smooth.

I rinse it out thoroughly and am about to reach for my conditioner when I hear the door creak open. My heart skips in fear but then I realize that it's most likely Ryuzaki and I calm down.

"Suzuki…?" I can barely hear his voice over the roar of the water. "Can I come in?" I crack the glass door, letting a lot of warm air out. I shiver slightly but not exposing myself is more important than the heat at the moment. Not exposing myself and Ryuzaki's condition…and he looks miserable.

"Yeah Ryuzaki, c'mon in." I shut the door and return to my shower, reaching for the conditioner as I listen to the door open enough for him to come in then shutting.

I turn to face the water as I run conditioner through my hair, watching the silhouette of Ryuzaki make its way over past the shower and to the toilet, where by the sound of it, he takes a seat in his normal sitting position. I sigh and try to gather my thoughts as muscle memory takes over the rinse.

What do I say? Should I ask how he's doing? I doubt I could make him feel worse than he already does…

"Ryuzaki…you doin' okay?" With my hair now covered in conditioner I reach for my loofah but stop when I hear him sigh.

"I'm sorry, I just wanted to be close to you…I don't know why…" He sounds sad and I don't know how to respond.

"Oh…" My shoulders droop and I grab my loofah, putting ample amounts of my shea butter, vanilla, moisturizing, foaming, body soap on it. Normally this is something I'd never pick out but Watari took me shopping and we both agreed it smelled nice. I rub the soap until it makes a good thick foam and then lather up my body, scrubbing some pen on my arm that I have no idea when it got there or how. I turn and rinse the loofah and then myself, forgetting briefly that Ryuzaki is in the room.

I hear the shower door slide open a little and I whip around just as Ryuzaki steps in, fully clothed, but outside the reach of the water.

"Ryuzaki! What are you doing?!" A whole slough of emotions flood through me, but I can't think of anything other than covering myself up.

He takes a step forward but doesn't say a word. I look down and watch as the water begins to pool around his feet and slowly starts to travel up his pant legs. Some water droplets splash off my body and hit him, leaving little specs on his otherwise pristine white shirt. The longer he stands there the more water lands on him the faster his white shirt becomes transparent, showing me what's underneath. His normally untamable hair becomes flat as other water droplets find their way to it, making his bangs stick to his forehead.

"R-Ryuzaki, you're getting soaked!" Still covering myself I try to take a step back, but any farther and my head will be underwater. There's nothing to do but stand firm, covered, and utterly confused.

He takes another step forward, his shirt wet enough to where I can see the skin it's sticking to beneath. I try to look away, but my eyes are glues to him and I feel vulnerable.

He lifts his hand and I watch as it makes its way through the water and up toward my face. I look between his eyes and his hand, but as his hand caresses my face my fear melts away. I lean into his touch and close my eyes, but as soon as I do his hand is gone. I open my eyes and see something has changed in his. He stares at me a moment then turns to leave.

"I'm sorry, I-I don't know what came over me." He slides the door open and my body moves on its own grabbing his arm. He stops and turns.

"Don't go…"

Don't go? What the hell am I thinking?

He looks at me, his face hiding shame, but also a twinge of hope. "You want me to stay?"

I wasn't ready for this to be a Q and A, my body acted on its own…but yeah…kinda…

I drop his arm and he stands there waiting for me to respond. I cover myself again feeling once again vulnerable.

He had the chance to do whatever he wanted to me and all he did was caress my face…

"W-well you might as well take a shower with me since you're soaked anyway." He looks down and pulls at his shirt realizing it's sticking to him. He looks back up at me with blush dusting his face as if he doesn't know what to do. "Just go out and put your wet clothes in the sink then come back in." As I realize what's about to happen my heart begins to pound. He nods and steps out through the sliding door leaving me alone for the time being.

I sigh and watch his silhouette pull his drenched shirt up over his head and heat a wet smack as he drops it in the sink. He then pushes his bangs out of his face and leans forward to mess with his pants button. I roll my eyes and turn to rinse the conditioner out of my hair, I hear another wet slap and assume it's his jeans.

After another minute or so the door opens a little and Ryuzaki's face pops in, panda eyes and all. His cheeks are tinted pink and it appears he's embarrassed which is different from his behavior before this point, considering that one time he got sauce on his shirt and stripped right in front of me.

"Would you mind turning around?" I smile at his apparent and new insecurity and do as asked. I listen as he steps in and shuts the glass door behind him, trapping us together with the steam. I can feel his radiating warmth as he steps closer and as I feel his breath on my back I shift to the left, so we can share the water.

"Can I look now Ryuzaki?" He doesn't respond right away, and my heart continues to pound away.

He thinks he's nervous, we're both nervous…I don't think this has happened to either of us before…I've always been too busy for boys and the only boyfriend I ever had is now a druggy and a sociopath…My heart is pounding so fast I'm afraid it will explode out of my chest.

"You can…" His voice is quiet, and I feel his breath on my shoulder, but I try to ignore it and slowly turn so that each of us has a shoulder in the water.

My breath catches in my throat as I'm able to see him naked for the first time. Our eyes lock momentarily before he blushes and looks away embarrassed. I watch as water makes its way down his chin, down his neck to his collar bones. It continues down his hairless toned chest, and part of my thinks I should look away, but I can't. I follow it down his framed abs and ribs until it meets his hip bones and that amazing 'V' that they create. I force myself to look back up, so I don't stare and look at his mop of black hair as he pushes it out of his face again. My whole being just wants to reach out and touch him, run my hands up and down his chest and all throughout his hair and kiss him 'till we're out of breath but my arms are too busy covering myself and I don't want to scare him.

His eyes seem to wander, finding something interesting in everything but me. Suddenly, he locks onto my eyes and visibly relaxes. His blush intensifies slightly, and he awkwardly crosses his arms.

"I-I don't know what to do with my hands…I've never done this before…" I can feel myself blushing, but I ignore it and smile.

"Neither have I, but perhaps we should just do what our instincts tell us…if that's what you want of course…" The water begins to feel cool and I absently reach over to turn it up. I'm about to cover back up because I realize what I did, but he grabs my wrist loosely, that hungry look from earlier back in his eyes.

He takes a step forward and I find my back meeting the cold wall. I'm nervous, but something about the way he's holding my wrist tells me he'd let me go if I tried to escape. It's almost like he wants me to tell him to stop because he can't control himself any longer.

He leans down and places his forehead on my shoulder, his wet hair cold against my bare skin. My pulse like a drum in my ears, my body stuck in place, the anticipation slowly killing me.

Just kiss me…

He raises my wrist above my head slightly and his other hand comes to rest on the small of my back. I swallow as his lips come up to rest on my neck with a kiss. I close my eyes as he begins to kiss upward toward my face instead of down like I thought he would. He plants small kisses up my neck and around my jawline and everywhere but my lips. My whole body shakes from want and anticipation as he separates and let's go of my wrist only to caress my face again. I melt into his hand once more as his other hand moves to my hip holding me in place. He gets close enough to kiss my lips and it leaves me aching as I try to reach my lips to his. My heart skips wildly as he then moves teasingly to place a kiss on my forehead before resting his to mine and sighing peacefully.

"Everything is just telling me to hold you tight and never let go…" His voice is soothing and for the first time tonight I can tell that he's happy.

He drops his hand from my chin and both arms come around to embrace me. I wedge my arm out from between our bodies and wrap both arms around him, the embrace tightening.

"Then don't…" He puts his lips to my shoulder again and I feel him smile on my skin just as something brushes up against my hip. I try to pull apart to see what it is, but he holds me in place.

"I-I'm not ready for you to see that yet…" I laugh as I realize what it was.

"Okay then. Why don't you turn around and kneel and I'll wash your hair for you? Then I'll leave, and you can wash your body without me seeing anything you don't want me to." Even though I totally got a glimpse earlier when you were avoiding looking at me. "It'll feel a bit colder and you'll smell like a girl, but at least you'll be clean." He nods and turns around to kneel.

"That's fine, I like the way your hair smells…" I smile and begin o pull his hair back revealing, to my surprise, very light eyebrows. I reach over and pour some apple flavored shampoo on my hand and prepare to wash the hair of my personal Sherlock Holmes.

. . .

As Ryuzaki stands back up to rinse the shampoo out of his hair I hand him my spare non-foaming body soap that smells like cucumber melon and prepare to leave as I said I would. Before I slide open the door I turn and try to keep my eyes to his and not on the package waiting to be unwrapped below.

"I'll meet you in bed." His eyes go wide for a minute before blush appears and he nods sheepishly.

I grin and step out, closing the door behind me and watch as the black outline washes his body. I can see the silhouette of what he was so nervous about, but I don't really understand why. I shake my head with a smile and wrap a towel around myself before drying off.

It doesn't take long before I'm dressed and, on my way, out. As my hand reaches for the door knob Ryuzaki turns the water off and pokes his head out the sliding door.

"Suzuki…" I turn, curious as to what he has to say. "May I have a towel? My clothes are wet, and I need to go to my room to get more." I nod and go to the small closet where the towels are kept.

"An who's fault is that?" I say it with a smile and hand him the white hotel towel. I turn to leave but he grabs my arm, turns me around and places a kiss on my forehead.

"Thank you…" I look at him suspiciously.

"Who are you and what have you done with Ryuzaki?" He wraps the towel around his waist behind the glass and then comes out looking disappointed.

"You told me not to fight my feelings…am I doing something wrong?" I shake my head no feeling like I just accidentally kicked a puppy.

"No, I'm just not used to it, it's like a complete 180 from normal."

"I can sto-" I cover his mouth with my hand.

"No. You're fine. Just go do what you gotta do and I'll be waiting." I take my hand away and he nods before heading off to his room.

What have I created?

. . .

By the time Ryuzaki comes back I'm already in bed, sitting under the covers, aimlessly playing with my phone. The door creaks open and his frizzy-air dried-ebony hair popes in and as he moves it out of his face I see those panda eyes I love so much.

"Is it still okay-" I give him a death glare.

Shut up and get your ass over here.

"C'mere." He nods nervously, but as he comes in and turns to shut the door I see a smile form on his face. I also laugh slightly as he's changed into an exact replica of the clothes he had before.

"Is something funny?" I shake my head as if it's not important and pat the bed next to me. He takes the hint and walks to the foot of the bed then stops. I stare at him questioningly, but then he pulls is shirt over the top of his head sending my heart into overdrive. He tosses it aside onto one of the chairs in here and looks down to unbutton his pants. He lets those drop too revealing silk black boxers that get a smile out of me. I must reveal more on my face than intended because as he climbs across the bed he laughs a little. I flip the covers over and he climbs underneath snuggling up close to me and resting his head on my lap on top of the covers. He seems utterly content and I sigh as I begin to run my fingers through his soft hair.

He moans slightly setting my heart on fire as I make another pass through his hair. "That feels really good, thank you for this." My heart can't take anymore but I pull his bangs back and look into his black orbs he calls eyes.

"You're very welcome." I catch a yawn and continue to pet him, suddenly a question pops into my head. "Ryuzaki…" He mumbles a blissful 'hmm'. "What so you want most in life?"

"Most in life? Well that would be to catch Kira."

Shoulda known…

"Yeah…"

"Without the threat of Kira, we could go back to California or my other home in Westchester. We could solve other less dangerous cases together, side by side." I smile softly, understanding where he's coming from now.

Not quite what I had in mind but at least he included me in his plans for the future, so I'll take it.

"What about you Suzuki? Is there something you want?" He turns his head and looks up at me with these eyes that say that if he could he could, he would give me the world.

Something I want? Well I guess to catch Kira, so we can be together…

"I guess I also want to catch Kira, so we can be free." He makes a face and I chuckle. "What?"

"That's my wish, pick something else." I laugh again.

"Well excuse me princess. If you're that serious about it, gimme a sec…" He sits up startling me slightly and then lays on his back. I scooch down and lay my head on his bare chest and listen to the sound of his heart. It takes him a minute to come to terms but then he slowly wraps his arms around me. I still can't think of anything I want.

He takes a deep breath and sighs it out. "I think I wan to change my wish…" I look up at him.

"Oh yeah?"

"I want to stay here like this, forever." My breath catches, and I can't believe I'm hearing this. He might not think it means anything but It's actually a big deal.

Me too…

"C'mon Suzuki, you must want something…" He sounds slightly serious.

Okay jeez…what do I want? Well the obvious answer is that I want you Ryuzaki, but I can't go around saying that…is there something I want? Actually…there is…there's something I've wanted since I was a little girl…

"Actually Ryuzaki…" I pause second guessing myself.

"Tell me…" He looks down curious and encouraging.

"I've always wanted to know what happened to my parents. I don't remember anything other then my adoptive parents…I don't even remember what orphanage I went to …They told me my parents died, but I want to know for sure…" The beat of his heart soothes me like a lullaby and before I know it I'm drifting off into a sound, dreamless, sleep.

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