Chapter 55

May 31st

Day 3 of Misa's confinement

I yawn and rub my burning eyes. It's day 3 of Misa's confinement. She's been quiet, holding out. She's refused all food and water and only asked to go to the bathroom when it was an emergency. I tried countless times to get her to at least drink, but eventually Ryuzaki told me to stop trying and just wait for her to ask. So here I am, watching the monitors, waiting for her to need something or pass out from dehydration and hunger.

The door behind me opens and I turn to see Watari with a box of doughnuts. He smiles and I return a tired one of my own. He shuts the door behind him before making his way to me and setting the box on the counter, then he reaches for the kettle in front of me and pours himself some tea. I open the box and pick out a plain doughnut with strawberry frosting and sprinkles.

"Has she said anything?" I take a bite and shake my head 'no'. I finish my bite and sigh.

"She's been quiet…" He sighs sadly as he sits down and begins to sweeten his tea.

"Poor child…" I nod and continue to eat my breakfast.

"Kill me…" My eyes snap to the monitor.

Did I just hear something?

"Kill me…" Misa's voice comes through the speaker hoarse and broken. I look at Watari who nods and I take that as a sign to go check on Misa.

I open the confinement room door and the Shinigami meets me with horrified eyes. The speakers crackle as Ryuzaki establishes a connection; Watari must have told him after I left the room.

"Misa, can you hear me?" He's still using his voice modifier.

"Yes…Please, kill me now…" Her voice sends chills down my spine, and I can tell, she's at her breaking point.

Did I cause this? Did my words to her the other day make her want to kill herself?

"Does this mean that, in the face of overwhelming evidence, you are acknowledging that you are the second Kira and are giving up?" My eyes flick between Ryuzaki's camera, the Shinigami, and Misa.

Does she really want us to kill her? Or is it possible that she's asking the Shinigami to kill her?

"No, I don't know anything about that…I just…I can't take it anymore…I'd rather be dead." She pauses for a second and I stand by the door motionless. "Now! Hurry! Kill me!" Her outburst startles me out of my shock. "You can do it immediately, right!"

"Misa…do you mean…?" The Shinigami looks at her in disbelief.

"Yes…kill me…"

She is talking to the Shinigami…

"You want me to kill you?" The Shinigami looks horrified like it never imagined Misa would jump to this. I don't blame it.

"Yes…Kill me…I can't take it…kill me." I stare helpless as Misa begs this God of Death to end her life.

"If I kill you then I'll have to kill Light Yagami too. This is all his-"

"No! No…kill me…"

Misa would you really die for him?

"I was supposed to die on that day anyway…I could die happy right now, while I'm in love and young and pretty…so please…just do it…just kill me."

With every beg my heart breaks more. How can I fix this? She's not much younger than I, but she's still so naïve…she'd sacrifice herself for scum like Light…this is all wrong…Misa, I'm so sorry you ended up this way…

"Now that I think about it, had I not given you that notebook…They say 'Humans possessed by Shinigami meet misfortune'…maybe it really is true…I'm so sorry Misa."

"I don't care! Just kill me! If you won't-!" Misa opens her mouth wide and before I can even register what's going on, I find myself by her side shoving the side of my hand between her teeth. She clamps down hard as if she were trying to bite her tongue off and I cringe as pain shoots up my arm. My eyes water from the pain and I look at the Shinigami then to the camera desperate for help, but the Shinigami just stares.

"Do something! Help her!" Even though I'm facing the camera my words are aimed at the begins to whimper, upset, but I'm not sure if it's because her suicide attempt failed or she's just broken.

"Misa, I can get you out of your bonds, you could escape." The Shinigami is clearly heartbroken and grasping at straws, but Misa only shakes her head 'no', my hand twinges in pain and I grit my teeth. "I refuse to kill you…and since you won't let me help you escape, there is only one other option; you must relinquish ownership of the Death Note." Misa shakes her head 'no' and her cries become more desperate. My hand is on fire, searing with pain, but I can't remove it for fear she'll try again. "You would lose all memories related to the Death Note. The memories related to killing with the Death Note and of Light Yagami as Kira will vanish, meaning you will have no secrets to betray." Misa starts to struggle against my hand, but I hold steady and she starts to cry. "You'll no longer be able to see Ryuk and I, but your love for Light Yagami will remain…" Misa gives up the struggle and I blink back my own tears. "This is the only way o save you Misa and it will not negatively effect Light Yagami…so…do you wish to relinquish ownership of the Death Note?" Misa nods lightly, smiles, and goes limp.

Misa shows no sign of waking up so I gently remove my hand to assess the damage. She didn't break the skin, so I'm not bleeding, but you can see the bite mark amidst the black and blue bruising. I know I'm being watched so I turn and check for a pulse, a tear slides out from under her blindfold. I glance up at the Shinigami who just stares blankly, as if saying a final goodbye. I sigh and stand, looking at the camera.

"It's alright…she's just unconscious…" I look back at Misa as the speaker crackles.

"How's your hand? That was quick thinking."

Yeah it was 'cept my body just on its own, there was no thinking involved…

"It hurts…that's for damn sure…" I look at the damage again and sigh.

"Go wash it off and have Watari look at it, I don't think Amane will be going anywhere anytime soon." I smile at Ryuzaki's attempt to break tension before giving Misa one more look and heading toward the bathroom.

. . .

I wince and swear as I wash my hand. It might not have bled, but it wasn't far from it. On the bright side it's not my dominant hand. I dry it off lightly and open the first aid kit I brought with me. I pull out the gauze and tape, but something in the mirror catches my eye and I look up and scream, dropping everything. The tape bounces off the counter and onto the floor rolling somewhere.

Shit…I wasn't ready for the Shinigami to appear and it didn't make a sound…

"So, you can see me…" The Shinigami looks down and picks up the roll of tape with its bony fingers and holds it out for me. I sigh, turn around and put my hand under its hand, it drops the tape lightly into my palm.

"Thanks…" I turn back around, pick up the gauze and start to wrap it around my hand.

"How can you see me?" I look up at its reflection in the mirror and shrug.

"Honestly, no idea…but it's not just you…I can see Ryuk too."

"You've never touched a Death Note?" I finish wrapping my hand and affix the gauze with the tape before putting everything away and turning to the Shinigami.

"Not that I'm aware of." I fold my arms and lean back against the counter.

"You're not afraid?" It seems confused.

"Are you going to kill me?"

"I have no reason to."

"Then no, I'm not afraid. You just startled the hell out of me." Something about its voice, it's actions, the way it almost mothers Misa, confirms to me that it's a female Shinigami. "But y'know…now that my cover's blown I gotta tell you the same thing I told Ryuk. Despite you being able to see my real name I go by Suzuki Matsui and I want to take Light down. He's a murdering piece of garbage who has everyone fooled, especially Misa and his family." She nods and I sigh. "What's your name so I can address you properly from now on."

"You may call me Rem."

Hmm, Rem and Ryuk.

"Alright Rem; now that the secrets out and Misa doesn't have a Death Note anymore, what's the plan?"

"I care not for your petty squabble, I only wish to make Misa happy and to keep my promise to Gelus. I promised him I'd watch over her."

Gelus?

"Another Shinigami I take it?" She nods.

What if Rem played for our team…and in return I protect Misa? I can't do much, but maybe I can get her to go for it…she seems to hate Light enough, maybe she could report back to us.

"Rem…"

"Yes?"

"You don't care for Light do you?"

"I don't know what Misa see's in that insect. If it were up to me, I would have killed him already."

Wow she really hates him.

"So yeah, okay, what do you say to helping us?"

"Helping you?"

"Yeah, you go back to Light and pretend to be on his side, but report back to me and tell me what he tells you."

This isn't my style, but it's what Ryuzaki would want me to do.

"Betraying Light Yagami in order to defeat him?"

"Something like that."

"As much as I hate Light Yagami, doing something like that might make Misa unhappy…so I cannot agree to anything at the moment. I'll have to think about it." I sigh.

Well Ryuzaki, I tried.

"That's okay, I respect that."

"However, if I feel there is something, I can say to help Misa, I will. If that falls in line with your plans to 'take him down' then so be it." I nod.

"Can't ask for anything better than that." I push off the counter and immediately regret it as the pain radiates up my arm. I huff and pick up the first aid kit with my other hand.

"Well I should get back before they get suspicious, you should go to Light and tell him what happened to Misa, but not about me. See what he has you do and play along, if you can tell me, great, if not, no big deal. I'll stay here and try to make Misa's time here bearable. I assume now that she doesn't have the Death Note, nor her memories of it, as you said, she might seem like a completely different person." Rem nods.

"It's a possibility." I sigh again.

"Alright Rem, I'll see you later." She nods and walks through the wall and I head back to Watari.

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