Chapter 13: Hold Me

Dimitri scooted down in the bed and turned on his side to face me. He had one arm out for me to rest my head on and the other was wrapped around my waist and his fingers had slipped underneath the tank top and he was drawing random patterns on my lower back.

"What do you want to talk about comrade?" I asked.

"I just want to see how are you feeling? You have been through a lot. Spokane and Mason, now your parents are in your life and finding out you are being hunted by humans, moroi and strigoi?"

"Yeah, that's a lot I guess. But having you here with me is a big help" I said looking up at him.

"I'm glad I can be here with you too and being together out and in the open is more than I could have ever imagined." Dimitri stated as he kissed me on my forehead.

"I love you" I said "Before you I didn't know love like this was possible."

"I know Roza, I feel the same way. I love you so much" he said as he gave me the sweetest kiss.

"I can't wait to meet your family. They sound wonderful after everything you have told me especially your Mama."

"I can't wait for you to meet them either, they are going to love you. I think you and Vika are going to be thick as thieves, I might need to watch out for two" Dimitri laughed.

"Have they ever met any of girlfriends before?" I asked cautiously.

"No, Roza, I never felt this serious with anyone. You will be the first to meet them. They are going to love you."

"How do you know they are going to love me?" I asked.

"I try to skype them at least once a week and when I first brought you back from Portland, I usually mentioned you. Then after a few months, they all just started asking me about you. They probably realized I was in love with you way before I realized it" Dimitri said with a big smile on his face.

"Really? Wait, but if we are together out in the open in Baia, won't that put your family in jeopardy? I can't let that happen" I started getting upset at the thought and started rambling "maybe we could go somewhere else or maybe you shouldn't come with me or"

"Roza, shhh, Roza"

"But Dimitri I can't put your family at risk, they are too important ..."

Dimitri shut me up the only way he knew would work was to kiss me. He kissed me hard and pulled me tight to his body and my hands pulled at his t-shirt to pull him close to me. But much to my disappointment he broke the kiss.

"We will figure it out Roza, we will make sure my family is safe. But you are not leaving my side whether you like it or not" Dimitri said as he smiled at me.

"Like it" I replied to him jokingly.

"Don't worry we will talk with Pavel and your father about your concern. Okay?"

"Okay, thanks, it would kill me if something happened to them because of me." I said.

Right then Dimitri's phone started to ring and he used his long arm to reach it on the bedside table. He had a weird look on his face and before I could ask him, he said "It's my family calling, they never call unless it's an emergency" Dimitri answered the phone and said "Privet?"

"Dimka, bring the girl to Baia, it will be the safest option for everyone."

The caller hung up and I said "Dimitri, who was that?"

"That was my babushka, remember how I told you she was like that fortune teller from Court?"

"Yeah"

"Well, I think that was her, telling me to bring you to Baia. Don't worry if she says its safe then its safe. But we will still address it with Pavel and your father."

Dimitri reached back over and placed his phone back on the bedside table. "How do you feel about leaving Lissa?"

"I don't know, a part of me knows that if I am in danger I will put her in more in danger. But I haven't been away from her in forever and not since I became shadow-kissed. I am a little worried about the darkness building up in her, I don't necessarily like taking it but I think I can handle it better than her. When the darkness gets to bad she used cut herself, at least I can go to the gym and beat the crap out of a dummy to get rid of it."

"It scares me when you take her darkness but I will be here for whatever you need. We need to check and make sure that your parents are aware that you are shadow-kissed. I don't know if Alberta let your mother know about it or not." Dimitri stated.

I sighed, why couldn't my life be easier.

"What Roza?"

"All I ever wanted was to be Lissa's Guardian. Not shadow kissed, chased by strigoi and a mobster's daughter."

"I know milaya, but I will be here every step of the way."

"But what if you get tired of my crazy life and realize you could have had a family? You are gorgeous, you could probably have any moroi or dhampir woman that you wanted."

Dimitri put his index finger on my lips and said "Stop Roza, I don't want any moroi, dhampir or human woman that isn't you. I won't get tired of your crazy life, if I wanted out it would have been when we first started training when you loved to push my buttons. But honestly, I was already too in love with you at that point to leave."

"So, have you ever been in love before?" I asked cautiously, not sure I wanted to hear his response.

"I have never felt the love I feel for you before. I did date a girl at St. Basil's and I thought I was in love with her at the time, but I now realize it was more strong caring then love." Dimitri took a breath and continued "She was my first."

"How old were you?"

"Sixteen, we were both juniors at the time. Ivan had gone home for the weekend so he left me his key because he had a suite all to his own. But it was all awkward and not really pleasurable for either of us the first time. We continued dating for about three months, but we sort of drifted apart after we both went home for the summer. When we returned for our senior year she started dating a moroi, which was fine by me because I really wanted to concentrate on training so I could guard Ivan."

"Do you keep in touch with her?" I asked worried about his answer.

"No, she died her first year out in a strigoi attack."

"I'm sorry, that must have been hard."

"It is what it is, that is the life of a guardian." Dimitri plainly stated.

"And were there others?"

"Yes, I had a few flings after I graduated and was guarding Ivan. I am not exactly proud of them, but that tends to be the only relationships that guardians have."

"Were they dhampir or were any of them moroi?" I asked trying to gently probe.

"They were all dhampir and no Tasha was never a person I was ever remotely attracted to. When Ivan and I were in Russia, Tasha would occasionally hang out with us. I always thought she was interested in Ivan, I had no idea she was interested in me until she made me that offer."

"Did you ever consider her offer?" I asked.

"For a second maybe, but I knew I could never be with her after I had met you. No one was ever going to measure up to you. And I was prepared to wait for you no matter how long it took" Dimitri said as he kissed my forehead, then my nose and then placed a soft kiss on my lips.

I sighed happily, my Russian god was all mine.

"So, how about you?" Dimitri asked.

I started blushing "Um, pretty much what you saw when you found Jesse and I in the moroi common room. That is the farthest I have ever gone."

"Roza, don't be embarrassed, you were also on the run for two years with Lissa. I kind of like that I will get to be your first when you are ready."

I couldn't find the words to respond so I kissed him instead. I took my hands that were on his chest and went up to his neck and into his hair as I held his head to mine. I swiped my tongue on his lower lip and he granted me entrance as I massaged his tongue with my own.

I pushed him on his back and straddled him as his hands went to my hips to hold me in place. I couldn't help myself from moaning and Dimitri started kissing me along my jaw to my earlobe where he lightly bit it. My hips jerked forward when he did that and I heard Dimitri groan as l felt him hardening beneath me.

"Dimitri, I need you" I moaned as I reached for the hem of his t-shirt.

"I know, baby, I know, I need you too. Are you sure?" he asked, his accent was so much thicker than usual and his chocolate brown eyes were almost black with lust.

"Yes, I'm sure. I want this with you" I moaned.

Dimitri sat up with me still straddling him and he pulled his shirt off and threw it over the side of the bed. I went back to kissing him and his hands went back to my hips as he guided me to grind on him. That sent a shock to my core and I could feel myself getting wet.

After a few minutes his hand slowly started up under my shirt till he met the swell of my breast and his thumbs swiped both my nipples. "Yes" I screamed as my head flew back and I grinded a little harder against him. Dimitri immediately attacked my neck when my head went back nipping and licking to soothe the bite.

I raised my arms up for Dimitri to rid me of my shirt, signaling to Dimitri I was ready. I felt completely safe with him. I knew Dimitri would not do anything unless he had my permission and he would never pressure me. He pulled my shirt over my head and threw it in the general direction of where he threw his. He slowly pushed me back on the bed so I was on my back and he was hovering over me.

Dimitri kissed down my neck to my clavicle ending up in the valley between my breast and he looked up to me with questioning eyes and I nodded yes. He kissed over to my right breast sucking, licking then biting softly as his hand found my left breast squeezing it then ultimately rolling my nipple between his thumb and fore finger. I couldn't help but moan and arch my back into him. He slowly kissed his way to my left breast repeating his actions as I was holding his head to my chest.

After he spent a fair amount of time devoted to my breasts, he kissed his way back up to my lips. As he kissed me passionately he rocked his erection into my hip which caused his leg to also rock against my core giving me the friction I needed.

He kissed his way down my neck, between my breast, over my abs and down to the top of my panties and pj bottoms. He looked back up to me asking my permission. I nodded yes to him as he pulled both my pj bottoms and panties over my hips, past my knees and off my ankles. He looked at my panties and said "so exited Roza" and then he bunched them up and brought them to his nose and inhaled deeply.

"You smell so good Roza" Dimitri groaned. I thought I would be disgusted by that but it turned me on even more.

I was completely naked in front of my Russian god and he was looking at me with such love and devotion. I thought I would be embarrassed my first time completely naked in front of him, but I wasn't, it excited me.

Dimitri kissed back up my legs alternating between each leg. As he reached my inner thighs, I was moaning and trying to move my pussy towards his mouth where I desperately needed him. But with a smirk on his face, he skipped my pussy and reversed his path kissing my abdomen and up my neck until he met my lips.

"You doing okay Roza?" he asked.

"Yes, better than okay" I said breathlessly "But you must feel left out. Teach me?"

Dimitri moved from hovering over me to resting on his side and he pulled me onto his side so I was facing him.

"Are you sure about this Roza? We can take this at your own pace."

"Yes, I want to touch you!" I said as I started kissing him down his neck to his chest and then I repeated his actions and sucked, licked and lightly bit his right nipple. He hissed at my actions and his hips bucked into me. "I take it you like that" I said.

"You have no idea how good that feels milaya." Dimitri stated.

I gave him a shy smile as I was happy to be giving him as much pleasure as he was giving me. I moved over to his left nipple and repeated the same actions and received the same response.

Dimitri grabbed my face and kissed me passionately. When we broke apart to breathe, he looked at me and I nodded at him. He took my hand and guided it to his cock. He placed it on the outside of his flannel pj pants. He put my hand flush against his erection and put his hand over mine and slowly helped apply pressure while moving my hand up and down. I couldn't believe how big he felt and his cock seemed to be getting longer and harder under my touch. I looked up to Dimitri's face, his eyes were closed and he was biting his bottom lip.

After a few minutes, I pushed him on his back and slowly kissed him down his neck, down his chest and his abs where his muscles were so defined. When I reached his flannel pants, I looked up at him and he nodded. I put my thumbs in his waist band and pulled down both his flannel pants and his boxer briefs. As soon as I got them past his hips, his erection sprang free and there was a drip of pre-cum on it. I pulled his pants and briefs all the way down his legs and once they were off, I threw them off the bed. I started kissing him back up his legs and once I got close to his cock, he grabbed me and pulled me up to kiss him.

We were still both on our sides but I was slightly leaning on my back and Dimitri was slightly hovering over me.

"Dimitri" I said when we broke the kiss and he started sucking at the pulse point behind my ear. I thought I would be daring and I took one of my hands and lightly traced a path down his chest to his abdomen. I could feel his muscles tightening as I touched him. When I got to his cock, I wrapped my hand around his erection. It was so hard bit the skin was so soft. As I started to pump him up and down, he hissed and bit my ear lobe which caused me to groan.

"Am I doing it right?" I asked Dimitri.

"Yes" he moaned. He took his hand and covered mine showing me how much pressure to use and how to pump it up and down. Once he felt that I got the hang of it, he took his hand away. I could hear and feel his breath picking up and he was gasping for air, while I pumped him.

After a few minutes, his hand came back to mine and he stilled my actions. I looked up at him and asked him "Did I do something wrong?"

"No, on the contrary, you are doing everything right, but I won't last much longer if you keep this up."

"But Dimitri, I want you."

"I want you to Roza, but I need to prepare you for me. I am sure you are tight and I am a little bit bigger that average male. I want to do my best to make this pleasurable for you. There is going to be pain especially when I break your hymen, but I want to minimize it as much as possible."

"Comrade, I don't think you need to worry about my hymen." I said as I looked at him.

His face went from angry to confused "What do you mean Roza?" he asked cautiously.

I giggled a little at his facial expression and decided to put him out of his misery as I said "When I was eight years old, I was playing around on the balance beam and I fell and I still remember the pain today. I was also freaking out because there was a little blood in my underwear. Alberta explained to me what had happened.

I watched the relief come over Dimitri's face as he said "Oh, poor Roza, but we will still go slow. Not to toot my own horn, but I am a little bit bigger than average and you will feel stretched. You need to be open with me and let me know if it is too painful or if you need a break. I love you and I don't want to hurt you."

Dimitri kissed me passionately and he traced his index finger down my neck, between my breasts and past my abdomen. At first his hand just cupped my pussy, letting my get used to him being there. He then used his fingers to separate my lips as my breathing started picking up. Dimitri was kissing my neck when his thumb found my clit and started drawing circles around it.

"Oh my God, Dimitri" I said trying not yell as I didn't want to alert anyone as to what we were doing.

"I take it you like that" Dimitri said while his mouth was still near my neck where he had been kissing me.

"Yes" was all I could get out as his thumb was assaulting my clit. And then without warming he slid a finger in me. I just made animalistic noises at that point as I was incapable to speaking anymore. I could feel Dimitri laughing against my neck.

"So wet for me Roza" he said.

"Uh huh" which took all my effort to say.

He then slid a second finger inside me as he continued to circle my clit. I started rocking my pussy against his hand as I was panting. I had no idea I could feel this good. Everything was tensing up and I needed a release.

"Dimitri" I moaned.

He responded by slipping a third finger into me and said "Cum for me Roza" he said as he attacked my right breast. And cum I did, I exploded, and my pussy clamped down on Dimitri fingers. He kept up his ministrations helping me to ride out my orgasm. I was trying to slow down my breathing when I felt the loss of Dimitri's fingers and I opened my eyes to see him licking his fingers.

"Mmmm, Roza, you taste so good." He was hovered over me again with his lips so close to me without actually touching mine.

"Do you want to taste yourself, Milaya, you taste wonderful" Dimitri stated.

"I don't know" I honestly answered him. If anyone else had ever suggested, I probably would have been disgusted, but because it was Dimitri, I was a little turned on.

"Trust me, you taste divine" he said and I gave him a slight nod and he kissed me slowly and deeply. I was surprised that the taste didn't repulse me and I moaned into his mouth.

"How are you feeling?" Dimitri asked me. I could still feel his erection pressing into my hip it was hard and smooth at the same time.

"Wonderful" I responded to him with a blissed out look.

"We don't have to go any farther if you don't want to" Dimitri said.

"I need you Dimitri, please" I whined.

"As long as you are sure" Dimitri stated "You can tell me to stop at any time if you want to."

Dimitri was still hovering over me holding some of his weight on his elbows which were on either side of my head. He shifted himself on to one arm as he grabbed his cock and ran it along my slit to coat it in my natural lubricants. He slowly pushed the head of his cock in as he brought his arm back up to support his weight. He was watching me intently looking for any sign that I was uncomfortable, but he felt so good I knew he wasn't going to find anything.

He slowly rocked his way in and out, slowly moving in more with each stroke. Eventually I felt his sack hit me and I realized he was all the way in. It didn't hurt, but he was right, I did feel stretched, but it was a good kind of stretched. I looked up at him and was tense because he was trying to hold back, so as not to hurt me.

"All good?" he asked.

"Yes" I moaned "You can move faster."

He started to pick up the pace slowly at first. He would pull almost all the way out and then push back in slowly. But after a few minutes, I said "Harder, Dimitri, faster."

Dimitri really started moving at that point, pulling almost all the way out and slamming back into me and I loved every second of it. We were both incapable of speaking at that point. I had my head turned to the side panting and moaning and Dimitri's head was to the side of my head in my hair. His mouth was right near my ear and he was panting and making little grunting noised which was spurring me on.

I braced my legs against the bed and started to buck up to meet Dimitri's hips stroke for stroke. Dimitri realizing I was close and his movements were getting sloppy meaning he was close as well. He snaked one of his hands between us and rubbed my clit. It probably only took fifteen seconds before I exploded around him, milking his cock and then I felt his hips still as he released into me.

After what seemed like an eternity, which in reality was probably 30 seconds, our orgasms subsided and Dimitri put most of his weight on me which I loved the feeling of. The only sound that filled the room was our heavy breathing as we came down from our high.

Dimitri pulled out of me and I immediately missed the feeling. He got up off the bed and I heard the water in the sink briefly turn on. He walked back in the room and used the warm washcloth to clean me up from our love making.

He threw the washcloth back in the bathroom and crawled back into the bed and rested on his back as he pulled me to his side with my head on his chest as he held me tightly.

"Thank you Roza, for trusting me to be your first."

"I can't imagine doing that with anyone else" I replied.

"I'm sorry that it wasn't romantic as I would have liked it to be. I would have loved to maybe go out to dinner and dancing and then maybe stayed somewhere romantic" Dimitri said while not meeting my eyes.

"Dimitri" I said as I pulled his face towards me with both hands and made sure he was looking at me in the eye. "It doesn't matter where it happened as long as it was the two of us. And it was romantic, you made me feel so cherished and loved. I will remember this for the rest of my life."

And that is how we fell asleep, in a lover's embrace.