Chapter 20: Darkness
I moaned as soon as Dimitri's hands met my shoulders, his hands were so warm and so strong. He was working out the knots that had formed from our level of intense workouts. His thumbs started rubbing down my spine, occasionally stopping to massage a knot that he could feel. I kept moaning because he was hitting all the right spots and he groaned "Roza, you can't keep moaning like that, it's driving me crazy."
"Sorry, Comrade" I said as I laughed "but you keep hitting the right spots".
Once he hit the base of my spine, his hands came back up to my shoulders, then he went to my arms and was rubbing down to my hands. He started rubbing on the outside of my back. When he got to the base of my spine where my towel was, I felt the loss of his hands and then shortly after I felt the loss of my towel. I shivered; it was partly due to the loss of the warmth but also the anticipation of what he was about to do.
The first thing I felt was the towel being draped over my back, next I heard Dimitri squeeze the lotion bottle on his hands. The bed dipped by my feet and then Dimitri starting to massage my right calf and I moaned again. I could feel Dimitri falter while he massaged my calf as he let out a groan.
"Roza, you are killing me." Dimitri said.
All I could do is giggle at him, until his hands started in on my thigh and he was getting higher up my leg. Once he got to the top of my thigh, he paused and then I felt an open mouth kiss on my right butt cheek. I turned my head into my pillow and practically screamed. I was so turned on that any touch was driving me crazy and went straight to my core.
The next thing that I felt were his hands on my left calf and by the time he got to my left knee I was shaking. He hadn't even touched me where I needed him the most.
"You okay Roza" Dimitri asked with that deep accent he gets when he is turned on.
"Oh god" I screamed into the pillow as Dimitri was massaging my thigh and then he placed an open mouth kiss on my left butt cheek as his hands reached the apex of my thighs where he brushed my clit and I shuddered. He was finally were I needed him, but the contact was too little for my release.
"Comrade please" I moaned at him.
"Yes Roza" Dimitri said as he was kissing up my spine "Tell me what you need."
"I need you, please." I begged.
Dimitri turned me over and gave me a passionate kiss. He then started kissing down my neck and then down between my breasts. I tried pushing my breasts towards his mouth, but he stopped kissing me and said, "Not yet Roza, I have another destination in mind."
Dimitri kissed down my stomach and he positioned himself between my legs and he spread my legs apart. He started kissing me on my right inner thigh, slowly getting closer to my core which was dripping wet by now.
"Roza, you smell so good, I am going to kiss you here" he said while his mouth was so close to my clit that I could feel his hot breath on my pussy. My hips bucked involuntary when I felt his breath and he placed arm across my lower abdomen to keep me in place.
His tongue licked my clit for the first time which caused me to moan and open my legs further to him, which he in turn groaned at. "Oh my god Comrade" I said breathlessly.
"Are you doing okay, Roza?" Dimitri asked with a thick accent.
"Uh, huh" I moaned as I was beyond any ability to form words.
After that Dimitri went to town lapping at my clit using his tongue to circle around my clit. He used his tongue to penetrate me and then he started the process all over again. I was too excited to last long at this rate and as my breathing hitched, Dimitri concentrated on lapping at my clit as I felt two fingers pumping in and out of me. Within minutes I was coming hard as Dimitri continued his ministrations, helping to prolonging my orgasm.
As I recovered, Dimitri climbed up my body kissing my abdomen and then between my breast. He finally kissed his way to my right breast where his mouth enveloped my nipple lightly sucking it as his hand cupped my other breast. God how could this man make me so turned on again so soon, he truly was a god.
"Dimitri" I moaned.
"Hmm" he said as he kissed across my chest to repeat the same actions on my left breast with his hand going to my right breast.
When he felt that my breast had had enough attention, he began kissing up my neck and said with his thick accent "Roza, I'll try to make it last, but I am so turned on right now."
"Me too, Comrade, me too. I am not sure how long I will last" I said as Dimitri mouth overtook my mouth and he penetrated me at the same time. My cry of ecstasy was absorbed by his mouth as he set up a brutal pace. It did not take long for my body to tense up signaling the start of my orgasm and Dimitri followed very quickly after me. He rested his full weight on me as we both came down from our high. I loved feeling the full weight of Dimitri on me after our love making and shortly thereafter, he rolled off me, but he pulled me with him. We both fell asleep quickly as exhaustion from the day consumed us.
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I was sleeping when I was pulled into Lissa's head. She was dreaming about the accident that killed her family again, but it seemed darker. She was seeing it from the other driver's point of view, and it was Christian in the driver's seat and he was laughing like a crazy person saying he was trying to kill her and her family.
Lissa finally woke up and saw Christian above her trying to wake her up. But instead of being relieved she screamed out of fear. I was able to get out of her head once she was calmed down by her guardians. Back in my head, I extricated myself from Dimitri and put on his t-shirt and my panties. I grabbed my new phone and went out to sit on the couch while I called Lissa.
Lissa answered and said "Rose, you have to help me Christian's trying to kill me."
"Liss, calm down, he's not trying to hurt you, okay! You were just having a nightmare about the accident. Have you been practicing a lot of Spirit at Court?"
Lissa replied happier "Oh yes Rose, Adrian and I have been working at it a lot."
I saw Dimitri walking towards me in a pair of sweatpants and shirtless looking incredibly sexy, but I was trying not to let myself get distracted. I put my index finger to my lips to let him know to be quiet, then I mouthed "Lissa".
He nodded and sat down next to me picking up my legs and lying them across his lap.
I put the phone on speaker so Dimitri could hear Lissa's ranting dialogue. I watched as Dimitri took out his phone and started texting.
"Lissa, you just had a bad dream, Christian wasn't driving the other car."
"Are you sure" Lissa asked.
"Yes, I got pulled into your head. Christian is not trying to hurt you Liss. I think it is the darkness from you practicing spirit with Adrian." I stated.
"But we have been doing so well with the Spirit" Lissa pleaded.
"I know Lissa but remember there is a consequence to using Spirit" I reminded her.
Dimitri kissed the top of my head and he headed back to our room. I was enjoying the view of his bare back and his ass, while I let Lissa rant. But to keep watching my man I had to lean over the side of the couch and maybe I fell over it to the floor.
"Roza" Dimitri asked as he turned around and saw me on the floor.
"Rose, what happened" Lissa asked.
"Nothing Lissa, I just dropped my phone, I'll call you later today okay?"
"Okay Rose, bye" Lissa said.
"Bye Liss" I said and I hung up the phone as I laid on my back, just then Yuri's head came into view.
"Hey Rose, whatcha doing?" Yuri asked me with a smirk on his face.
"Hey Yuri, just talking on the phone to Lissa, what are you doing" I said nonchalantly.
"Coming to get breakfast with you guys" Yuri said.
That's when Dimitri came into view. "Roza, what were you really doing?" he said with a smirk on his face and his eyebrow raised.
"Do I have to tell you?" I asked with my best maneater smile.
"Yes Roza, what were you doing when you fell over the couch" Dimitri asked. I could tell he was seconds from losing it.
"I was watching you walk down the hallway" I said hoping that would be enough of an explanation.
"What part of me were you watching Roza?" Dimitri said with a thicker accent.
"Your ass Comrade, I was staring at your ass when I fell over the couch, happy." I yelled out.
Both Dimitri and Yuri started laughing and Yuri was actually on the floor laughing, but Dimitri picked me up and threw me over his shoulder.
"Oh, this is a much better view" I said happily.
Dimitri plopped me down on our bed and says "Come on, let's get ready for training. I told Pavel what was going on with Lisa. He told me to get Yuri and Celeste up and we are meeting him in the main dining area. Pavel said he was going to let Court know what is going on with the Princess."
I nodded and went into the closet to get dressed, and then I felt strong arms surround me from behind.
"Talk to me Roza" Dimitri whispers in my ear.
I turned around in his arms.
"Sorry Comrade, I love Lissa, really I do but sometimes it's a …" I paused.
"I know Roza, I'm sorry for everything you have to go through. Do you think you can take just a little darkness" Dimitri asked?
"Yes" I responded even though I wasn't sure I was actually telling him the truth.
"Let's get dressed" Dimitri said as I pouted at him because I didn't want him to cover up his lovely chiseled chest.
"No pouting" he said in his mentor tone.
This only made my pout get bigger. Dimitri leaned in and then lightly bit my lip and cupped my face as I closed my eyes and just as he was about to deepen the kiss, he said "Get dressed Roza".
"Tease" I said as I got dressed.
"That my dear Roza is not teasing. But if you like, tonight, I can show you teasing." Dimitri said as he looked at me with lust and a little bit of a challenge.
"Maybe, what time is it anyways?" I looked at my phone and saw that it was 4:30am. "Ugh, 4:30, it's like back at the academy."
"Roza, you were never up this early at the academy." Dimitri said shaking his head.
"True, but at the academy, you were not keeping me up late at night." I replied.
"Do you like me keeping you up at night?" Dimitri countered raising his eyebrow up at me.
"Yup" I replied.
Dimitri and I finished getting dressed before we could take our bantering any further. As I was putting my sneakers on, Dimitri took our gym bags and stocked them and then the four of us left to meet Pavel in the main dining area.
I was surprised that there were so many guardians in the dining area at this time. I got nervous as we walked in because the level of the noise dropped to almost a whisper. Dimitri, my rock in this ever-changing world, put his arm around my shoulder pulled me closer to him and directed me to an empty table.
"I'll get us food" Dimitri said as he headed to a buffet station.
"Thanks Comrade" I said, I love how he noticed the little things.
Yuri went with Dimitri to get food for him and Celeste and I said to her "Sorry for the early morning."
"No problem, we have switched from moroi time to human time plus flown to the other side of the world. With the jet lag I am still trying to adjust" Celeste said wearily. "I think coffee is in order for all of us".
Dimitri and Yuri came back with plates piled high with food for Celeste and me. Dimitri then got us juice, water and coffee for the both of us. I swear sometimes I think Dimitri can anticipate my needs even before I know what I want.
I started picking at my food, the stress and worry of taking Lissa's darkness was starting to get to me and I was losing my appetite.
Dimitri whispered in my ear "Eat Roza, at least a little bit so you have some energy and we'll take the afternoon off and I will make you anything you want. Actually, I have a better idea." Dimitri said as he took his phone out and started texting someone.
"Like what?" I eyed him.
"You'll find out" he said with a smirk.
Dimitri got up to refill his coffee mug at the same time that Pavel entered the dining area. He obviously commanded respect from the guardians that worked for Baba and him as the dining area became quiet. As soon as Pavel sat down at our table the room of guardians went back to eating and quiet conversations.
"Morning Rose" Pavel stated with a hint of concern.
"Morning Pavel" I responded.
"Celeste, Yuri" Pavel stated with authority.
Celeste and Yuri responded almost in sync "Pavel".
Just then Dimitri sat down next to me, he had his coffee and then placed a mug of hot chocolate and two chocolate donuts in front of me.
"Thanks Comrade" I said.
Pavel started "So Dimitri informed me that Lissa is experiencing darkness from using spirit and that Rose can take it away. We are getting some experts out here to help us explain about Spirit but let me know about your personal experience."
"Roza, why don't you start" Dimitri said as he grabbed my hand for support.
"When I go into Lissa's head after she has used a lot of spirit, I notice that she has a buildup of darkness, the darkness takes the form of negative thoughts and she starts cutting. When I take it from her, I also have the negative thoughts, but I just usually want to spar" I said as Dimitri squeezed my hand.
Pavel looked at Dimitri and asked "How are her fighting skills when she takes the darkness."
"Rose has less focus and her hits become sloppy, but her power about doubles" Dimitri stated as he squeezed then kissed the hand that he was holding. "It took a lot for me to take her down" he said as he looked at me.
"Sorry Comrade" I said as I looked down at my uneaten donuts and realized I had no appetite."
"Roza" Dimitri said "look at me" as he put his hand under my chin. "It's no big deal, we can't change the fact that you are bonded with Lissa, so we will face these obstacles together." I took a deep breath and nodded.
Pavel spoke "This is what I am planning and let me know what you think. It sounds like sparring is the best and only way you know how to diffuse the darkness at this point. I suggest that Rose will be surrounded by four guardians to spar with so that we can wear her out and then there will be two extra guardians in each group that can be swapped out."
Dimitri pulled my chair with me in it closer to him and he put his arm around my shoulders and kissed my temple as he asked "Can we have the place cleared; she can be taunting like a strigoi".
"Oh god Comrade, what did I say?" I asked dreading the answer.
"Nothing that I didn't deserve at the time" Dimitri responded as he kissed the top of my head. Dimitri continued "Guardian Walker, who I sparred with, can he be the fourth guardian in the first group with us?"
"Yes, I had the same thought. Let's head on over. I have the groups all set up and one of the doctors are standing by if needed, plus four retired guardians will be advising when to swap out guardians. Dimitri, since you know Rose the best, you and I will be calling the shots" Pavel stated.
"Come on Roza" Dimitri said as he picked up our duffle bags and tucked me under his arm. He led me over to the gym and once inside I noticed there were about 15 guardians stretching out, waiting for us.
"Celeste, Yuri, do you mind giving us a few minutes" Dimitri asked.
"No problem" Yuri said as he and Celeste walked over to where the rest of the guardians were gathering and they started stretching.
Dimitri pulled me over to the side and said "Just take a little at a time so you can blow it off slowly. Christian will be watching Lissa with the guardians and let us know how Lissa is doing." Dimitri paused and then said "You don't even have to do this if you don't want to, but I know you and I know you love her and want to help her".
He dropped his forehead to me and said "I love you more than I ever thought possible and I don't want to lose you to darkness".
"I know, I love you too. Just don't let me hurt anyone okay?" I took a deep breath and asked "Why don't I remember saying bad things to you and how bad was it."
"I don't know why you don't remember, it was just after Spokane and there was a lot going on."
"You are not answering the other part of the question" I pointed out.
"I know, but we can talk about it later." Dimitri stated.
"Can I ask a you a question?"
"Anything"
"What is the first thing that you want to do as a couple now that we are in your hometown?" I asked.
"That's easy, I want to take you on a real date. There is a restaurant/bar that has dancing after 10 pm that I would really like to take you to. What do you think, are you interested?"
"Yes, that sounds perfect" I said "If you have to talk me down talk about that okay?"
"Okay, should I describe the outfit I want you to wear?" Dimitri said with a smirk on his face as he raised one eyebrow.
"I am sure Pavel can't wait to hear that" I smirked back at him.
"Oh yeah, I forgot about that part, I leave that out until later." Dimitri said.
Dimitri gave me the sweetest kiss ever, but it ended to soon. He gave me a hug and whispered in my ear "I love you with all my heart, Roza"
I whispered back "I love you too Comrade".
As I went to get myself ready, I saw Dimitri and Pavel whispering back and forth. Hmm, I wondered what that was about. I went to the middle of the mat and I was surrounded by Dimitri, Celeste, Yuri and Guardian Walker. There were two guardians behind each of them to tag out if needed. Every group had a retired guardian to watch the guardians in their group and Pavel was overseeing it all.
I looked at Dimitri and he nodded and said "Whenever you are ready Rose". I closed my eyes and found Lissa, she was in her bedroom at court and beside Christian there were five guardians. She was screaming at Christian saying that she was cheating on him. Yeah right, Christian would never cheat on her.
I could feel the darkness in Lissa's head and there was a lot of it, so I started by taking a little. I opened my eyes and I caught Dimitri's attention "Rose, how are you feeling?"
"Okay, so far, she has a lot of darkness, she is screaming at Christian that he is cheating."
"Do you want to spar with the darkness that you took or do you want to take a little more?" Dimitri asked.
"Let me take a little more" I said and when I opened eyes again, I looked around trying to decide who I wanted to fight and I realized at that point I had taken too much darkness.
Dimitri stepped forward going on the defensive but I hadn't seen Guardian Walker step up behind me. I rushed Dimitri punching his right shoulder twisting away from him and hitting his left shoulder before trying to land a kick to his ribs. Dimitri knew all my moves too well and easily defended my attacks. But it was a double edge sword as I knew all his moves as well. As we separated and went back into a fight stance facing each other getting ready for our next attack, I caught a slight nod that Dimitri gave to the person behind me and before I knew it I felt a kick to my ribs from behind me. I quickly turned around to find my other opponent Guardian Walker who was behind me. I looked back at Dimitri seeing the worry in his faces. I realized the goal was to quickly exhaust me by not allowing me any time to recover.
At that point, I became a blind rage kicking and punching anything and everything I could find within my reach. I didn't see faces, just body parts that I was trying to land hits on. That's when I heard a loud crack followed by a female screaming.
I just barely caught Pavel giving a signal to Dimitri and the next thing I knew Dimitri, Guardian Walker plus two other guardians took me to the ground as the doctor stabbed my arm with a needle. I was hurling every possible swear word I could think of towards anyone when I heard Dimitri say "Roza, that's not very lady like. That's not the sweet Roza that I want to take to dinner and then go dancing".
"Fuck you Dimitri, go back to Tasha" I screamed and then my world went black.
I woke up and noticed I was in my bed and I could feel and smell Dimitri next to me. I took a deep breath as I remember what had happened. Dimitri turned my body to him once he realized I was awake and asked "How are you feeling?"
"Like an asshole" I said.
"Roza" he said as he kissed the top of my head "You have no control over this, you never asked to be shadow kissed, we all get that".
"Did I hurt anyone?" I asked fearfully
"Well, we are all definitely sore" Dimitri said as he paused and I looked up at him and could tell there was more. "Celeste's wrist is broken".
I turned away from Dimitri, I couldn't believe the monster that I was. Dimitri turned me onto my back and then he laid on top of me essentially immobilizing me. Under normal circumstances, I would have loved it but not after what I had done.
"Roza, look at me" I turned my head towards him "I love you" he said. I started to say something and before I could, he put his finger to my lips and said "I love you".
He looked at me so intensely and asked me "Who do I love?"
"Me" I whispered.
"Louder"
"Me" I said quietly.
"What do I feel?" Dimitri asked.
"Love" I said a little louder with a small smile.
"Can't hear you" Dimitri said as he smirked.
"You love me" I said in a normal voice.
"Yes I do" he said as his lips crashed down on me. When we broke apart so that we could breathe, Dimitri said "If you are up for it there is a surprise for you in the kitchen".
"I don't know" I said. I didn't really feel up to seeing anyone right now.
"Trust me you want this surprise" Dimitri said.
I got up off the bed and noticed that I smelled horrible since I hadn't showered after sparing. "Eww Comrade, I need a shower".
"Come on, we both need one."
Once in the shower I asked "Have you talked to Christian or Lissa? Is she okay?"
"Yes, she feels much better and said to call her when you feel up to it."
Dimitri and I finished showering but no extracurricular activities at this point. We both got dressed in comfy clothes and Dimitri guided me out of our room and immediately I could smell the most delicious scent and it was quite noisy in the kitchen.
As soon as the kitchen came into view, I noticed the entire Belikov family was there. Olena, Karolina and Sonya were in the kitchen cooking what I was assuming was Russian food. Olena came over to me and gave me a big hug and whispered into my ear "Are you okay Rose?"
I nodded at her and then I heard a high-pitched scream yelling "Dimka" as a mass of long dark hair went by me and launched at Dimitri. He easily caught the girl belonging to the mass of long dark hair and he yelled "Vika" in return.
After a minute or two, Dimitri placed the girl back on her feet and asked "Vika, what are you doing here, why aren't you at school?"
"Mama called me to tell me to come home this weekend because Rose and you were finally in Russia. I didn't want to wait till the weekend, so Mama cleared it so I could come home a few days early. Besides what better education could I get than being around all these guardians."
"Okay, but that means we are going to practice while you are here and actually, I'm glad you are here we have some family things to discuss later. But first, Vika this is Rose, Roza this is my little sister Vika."
"Hi Rose, I can't believe you are finally here! You were all Dimka could ever talk about I can't believe he actually got the courage to make a move!"
"Vika!" Dimitri yelled as I saw a slight blush creep up his face as laughed at her candor.
"What?" Vika replied as we heard "Uncle Dimka" and running feet as Dimitri bent down and caught Paul lifting him up in the air. "Hi Auntie Rose"
"Hi Paul" I said back, just then Karo who was carrying Zoya came over to me and gave me a big hug, then she thrust Zoya into my arms and walked away.
"What, wait, don't leave, I'm not good with these things" I said.
"You'll figure it out" Karo called from the kitchen. I looked desperately at Vika as she followed Karo back into the kitchen to help.
"Comrade" I said panicking.
"Yes Roza" Dimitri who was still holding Paul came over to me.
"Uh, Comrade, help"
"It's okay Roza, you're fine, come on let's go sit on the couch. I walked slowly to the couch worried that I would drop her. I sat down and Dimitri put Paul down and then Dimitri sat next to me putting his arm around me and started making faces at Zoya which made her laugh.
"Here put your hands under her arms and let her stand on your thighs" I did as Dimitri said. "That way she can practice standing and she can look around more. Can't you Zoya" Dimitri said in baby talk as Zoya let out a squeal.
After about 20 minutes of baby talk, making faces and laughing, I felt a lot more relaxed than I had since this morning.
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