Marry You DM x JD
For csenge_murillo – strong language warning. AU so previous relationships might not necessarily exist.
Danny's p.o.v
"So, tomorrow is the big day. I bet you're really nervous," George tells me. I'm staying at his home tonight in preparation for my wedding to Jorel. We have been dating for the last five years and got engaged last year. Every time we had a spare moment, we spent it on planning the wedding to make sure that it suited us perfectly. "You have no fucking idea, I haven't been this nervous since I played my first concert with you guys back in like two thousand and nine," I tell him. It was the truth; I don't generally feel that nervous anymore. Sure, I get butterflies when a new album or single is about to come out or we're about to go on stage, but it was nowhere near as much as I am currently feeling on the eve before one of the biggest events of my life.
"I'm sure it will go perfectly for the both of you. You have spent the last year planning every single detail from the color scheme to the way it's going to go and even your vows," George explains, and I was nodding my head all the while. I know what we had done, I was excited to see the red and gold themed reception and the wedding itself. We put a lot of time and effort and thought into it, and there was part of me that was genuinely excited to see it all pay off. I'll never forget the day he came up to me in the middle of tour on one of our dates and started singing Bruno Mars' song Marry You as loud as he could. I thought he was joking at first, but when he finished the song, he got down on one knee and proposed. I was a mess when I said yes.
He later told me that he honestly thought I was going to tell him to fuck off and that I wasn't ready for that kind of commitment. I was honest in my reply, telling him that you kinda have this gut feeling when you know the relationship was meant to last forever or not and I thought that it was meant to last for a long time. When Jorel Decker asked me to marry him, I knew I was ready, and I knew it was him that I was meant to marry. Jorel had wanted to ask me for an awfully long time, we have been dating for over ten years at this point. We were waiting for the law to catch up and for gay marriage to be legal here. The history of marriage in California for same sex couples has been up till now an extremely complicated thing. It is legal now but wasn't for a long time.
They first legalized it on June 16th, 2008, as the supreme court in California found that it was unconstitutional for these kinds of marriages to be barred. Later that same year on November 5th, 2008, all the way through until June 27th, 2013, they passed proposition 8 which amended the constitution and once again same sex marriage was barred. On the 28th of June 2013 same sex marriage was allowed to recommence and so far, it has stayed that way even though the proposition 8 is still in our constitution even though it is very much unconstitutional. "I didn't think this day was coming to be honest. When Jorel proposed I thought he was joking at first and every now and then I still think that" I tell him. I am going to be pinching myself for the next 24hours at least.
"When Jorel told me he had plans to propose to you I didn't quite believe it myself to be honest. I thought Jorel wasn't serious about it because he came across to me that he wasn't the type to be so committal," George told me, and he was right. I remember some of his friends telling me it was never going to work when they first found out we had gotten together. They would say he's only dating you because you're cute and he would leave me for a girl soon enough. It made bot hand Jorel and I terribly angry because there was a lot of talking that went on behind the scenes before I even said yes to being his boyfriend in the first place. "Yeah, but he kept proving everyone around him wrong," I reply to him. We had a lot to prove to a lot of people.
"You both did, I remember so many people being nasty about it and telling me that he was going to end up breaking your heart and how we were going to be left to pick up the pieces and that the band was going to get ruined. I just ignored them because I saw how much you two love each other and it wasn't something I ever needed to worry about it," he told me. I knew the band was never worried about our relationship because unfortunately it was very much obvious in the way that we had looked at each other and the way that we spent so much of our free time on tour being around each other and how much we loved each other. Each month that we had celebrated another month of being together it kept proving them wrong.
It was never about trying to prove the people around us wrong to begin with, we just wanted to love each other like we wanted to. Then there were people who said oh it was never going to work and never going to last another month and it turned into a little bit of a competition to prove them wrong and to show them that Jorel wasn't in it because I was cute or sexy or whatever and I wasn't in it for the fame or money or anything like that. How anyone would assume that I was in this relationship only for some more fame or for money was beyond me. I never did anything for money, especially when I know I am truly in love with Jorel. I knew there was no part of my body that would have been remotely interested in dating someone purely for money or fame.
"Some people are still nasty, we had to choose our guest list carefully which is a shame because I know that Jorel would have loved someone there but when we thought about it, we wouldn't want them to come because they would ruin it and disrupt it," I tell him. It took some of the joy out of the planning because we knew that we had to be careful that people wouldn't come in who were there just to be spiteful. Aron is one of those people we had to be careful of but there is a large part of me that knows I am not going to see him there tomorrow because he doesn't care that much about us. He was angry and wrote some pretty awful songs hating on us, but last I heard his more interested in being a piece of shit to other people.
"Yeah, but tomorrow is going to go perfectly, you have no reason to worry whatsoever. I know you are looking at me like the fuck. Or is George really drunk right now? And my answer is that I am completely sober," George tells me. I know he is sober; I didn't want to risk being hungover and late to my own wedding, so I didn't bring any alcohol. Could you imagine the headlines from all those music magazines like TMZ and Kerrang? Lead singer of Hollywood Undead turns up hungover/drunk to his own wedding to fellow member. I'd never live it down for the rest of my life, neither would Jorel or anyone else in the band honestly. Even if I didn't bring any alcohol with me, they would find a silly story to make out of it.
They don't quite know about when the wedding is, we proposed on tour during one of our days off and broke the news on stage the next night and then on our social medias the following morning. There were so many articles about it from what I could remember. Most of them happy for us and happy that we were finally getting married. The next day we had an interview, and we talked a little more about the proposal and our thoughts behind it. We didn't mention the California laws during it because we felt as if there was no need to. We were happier to just focus on the fact that we had been dating a long time and finally made the next step in our relationship. I saw a compilation video or two on YouTube with titles like every time Danny looked at Jdog and so on.
"Could you imagine if a fan tried to crash the wedding tomorrow even though we've never hinted at when or where it was going to take place?" I ask George, we had been checking everything over that we needed for tomorrow, like our suits. George put down the ties he was trying to choose between and looked at me. "It would be pretty funny, I think. I don't even know if I would be angry with them or not, but then again it isn't my wedding so it is down to you and Jorel what you would do in that scenario," George says, and I take a minute to think about it. What would we do in the event that a fan turned up to our wedding tomorrow.
I don't think Jorel and I would be angry, sure we would be a bit annoyed because we chose not to let fans know because we want some privacy and for it to be a bit of an intimate event between us, our family, and our closest friends. I could imagine what they would say though if we did let them stay, they might even make a fan fiction of it. You know those that appear on websites like Wattpad and other sites. "I was at Jorel and Danny's wedding, and this is what happened." I only know because I was curious one night at three am and search up Hollywood Undead fanfiction into google. No one else in the band knows about it, they would be horrified if they knew what I was up to on the long insomnia filled nights on the bus.
"I don't think I would be that angry to be honest. I would be annoyed that they managed to figure it all out because we have kept the details super-secret," I tell him. Then again, the fans are better than the FBI at times when they want to find something out about a boy band regardless of what genre they play. The more fans they have the easier they seem to find more and more personal information that we have tried to keep hidden from them. "Yeah but you know what the fans can be like," George says. He has a fair point I suppose. It was almost like he heard what I was thinking about without me directly saying anything out loud. "Yeah they can be scary sometimes. Like those people who manage to leak our albums before we get to release it ourselves," I tell him.
"Oh yeah like when Day of the Dead was coming out and the day before we released the single every time," George says, and I nod in agreement. You would search for it on YouTube and there wouldn't be much related to the band at all and then right before the song was supposed to come out the single would be on YouTube with three different lyric videos. "I am glad you two are having fun, now why don't you have some dinner," Asia tells us. It is hard to argue with her so George and I get up and walk towards the kitchen. Ava was already at the table waiting for us to join her and Asia. "Yay uncle Danny is staying for dinner," she says, and I chuckle. This is why I love being the favorite uncle to her, she is always happy to see me.
"I got even better news for you Ava, your uncle Danny is going to be spending the night before he gets married to Uncle Jorel tomorrow," I tell her, and she cheers even louder. We eat dinner while Ava excitedly tells me all about her day in school. Asia chuckles as I just listen and entertain Ava with her conversation and making her day a bigger deal than it was. Someone once told me that I would be a great dad one day. I wasn't in any relationship where I even considered being married or having children until now. I want to talk to Jorel about the possibility one day though. For now I am just going to take one step at a time. We aren't even married yet; it isn't the best time to talk about kids if I am being honest with myself. I don't even know if Jorel wants kids.
Dinner was pretty good, then Ava begged me to read a story with her at bedtime, so I agreed. I also decided to help Asia and George out by doing the washing up even though they really didn't want me to do anything for them. I felt like I had to because they were being super kind to me and were letting me stay the night for free and even giving me food. "You're so kind Danny, I didn't mind doing this myself," she tells me, as I put the last dish away. I just smile at her; I would feel terribly rude if I did nothing about it. "Well, it would be rude of me not too. I know it is not something a guest would typically do, but I had to," I tell her. Every time I stay over they should expect something like this to happen, I can't help myself.
"I thank you and I appreciate it," she tells me. Well she knows that she is very welcome any time. I walk to hang out with Ava before her bedtime. She loves having her uncle time and I will happily oblige as we have time for chit chats with George later on. I don't think there will be much to talk about though, apart from the fact that I might have some late evening anxiety about my wedding tomorrow. I will try and keep my calm though. I will be fine, totally fine. I am just marrying the love of my life and my soulmate tomorrow. Ava has her barbie dolls out and she is playing families as I watch on. She was telling me all about how they were married and how many children they wanted to have and things like that. It was pretty funny.
Then Asia called for her to get her pajamas on. That means that bedtime is about ten to fifteen minutes away. Ava puts her dolls away and goes upstairs and gets her pajamas on and rushes back downstairs, so she could squeeze in that extra ten to fifteen minutes of time before we go upstairs and brush her teeth before it's story time. I bet she will want me to do all of the voices for the different characters in the story. That is what she asked of me last time I was here long enough to read her a bedtime story and I don't expect this time to be any different. An uncle has got to do what an uncle has to do am I right? I would be buried six feet under quicker than you could say undead till I die if I dared to say no to her pleading eyes.
Ten minutes fly by and before we know it is bedtime for Ava. I go with her and supervise her brushing her teeth. Jorel has been texting me almost nonstop telling me how much he misses me and how much he can't wait to see me tomorrow. I am finding it hilarious how he is apparently struggling so much with being away from me for one night when we have been apart plenty of times before. We had been dating for about three years before we moved in together and we coped just fine back then. I have been out with friends overnight before as well with no issue. I think it is because he knows we are about to get married and he wants to just kiss me, and he can't tonight. I tell him that I miss him too, but we will be at the altar before we know it.
I read Ava her bedtime story and as expected she wanted all the characters to have their own individual voices. I did it, and she enjoyed every minute as George watched on with his phone out. I might regret asking him to be my best man now that I think about it, he has tons of blackmail material like this on me that he hasn't used once. My wedding tomorrow would be a perfect time to use some, after all it is the best man's job to openly embarrass the groom at their own wedding. Their speeches typically include something that we did when we knew them during childhood that they would have rather forgotten the moment it happened. I shake my head as I say goodnight to Ava as I leave her bedroom for her to settle to sleep.
"Is this where you tell me that you have an album for each of us on your phone when you have blackmail material on us for a special occasion?" I ask him. He smirks, but then shows me his phone where he had his messages open. I saw he was texting Jorel because Jorel had been talking to him about how much he missed me, and he sent the video of me reading to Ava and Jorel had noted how cute it was. Maybe there is a chance of a mini Jorel or mini me running around in the distant future. Still going to wait a while before I bring it up. "Maybe, but Jorel was getting needy for you to message him back and he wouldn't believe me when I said you were being the good uncle and reading Ava her bedtime story tonight," he tells me.
I do understand where Jorel is coming from though. Back when we first met I was terrified of speaking in public, so he tried recruiting his nieces and nephew to read to me and try and get me to read back and it was a struggle. Now it is no problem though, but I don't often do it when Jorel is around because it's usually for Ava as Larissa's children are a bit older than Ava is. That doesn't mean that they don't approve of mine and Jorel's relationship though, because we both know they do. They just don't want someone one to read them a bedtime story with extra voices added in when it provides no comedic effect to them at least. They'd much rather play video games with me and that is perfectly fine by me and Jorel because its something we both enjoy.
The nerves kicked back in as I was going to bed. This is the time where I tend to overthink things a lot. Like the moments where your brain likes to remind you of that thing you did ten years ago even though no one else would give two shits about it now. There is a very small demon with a powerful voice in the back of my head telling me that I am going to be left at the altar tomorrow. There will be this woman who is everything I am not, and Jorel will run away with her, and it will be like one of those movies where it is revealed that they have had an affair for years behind my back, just to make me look like a complete fool. I am trying to not let these thoughts get to me too badly, I am sure in the end it will all go completely fine.
Jorel's p.o.v – The next morning
Today's the day, the day I get to finally say I do to the love of my life and make him my husband. I have been waiting for this day for so long. As soon as we hit 6 months of dating I could feel it in my hear that he was the one for me. He was going to be the one I was watching walk down the isle to whatever song he chose, and he was going to be the one who I would be saying I do until death do us part to. I sit on our bed watching the video George sent me last night of Danny reading to Ava. He is such a natural with kids, he would make the perfect dad one day. I would love the idea of a mini Danny running around, they would be perfect just like their father. Danny has never brought up the possibility of kids to me before, but I know it is something he wants.
It is something I want too; I want to have a little mini me and Danny running around one day. It won't be any time soon but when that time comes I know it will be one of the easiest conversations I will have with him. It is something which I know we both want, so that means there isn't going to be a huge argument, or a huge amount of persuasion needed. I can imagine that conversation will come up in a few years' time though. We aren't even officially husband and husband yet, only a few more hours to go. I am starting to get nervous. Jordon has been banging on my door for the last five minutes whilst I have been watching videos George sent me of Danny. I had no idea that I was going to miss him so much, we have spent nights away from each other before.
"Finally, I was getting worried for you," Jordon says when he walks in after I finally had the chance to snap out of my thoughts and walk to the front door and let him in. "What did you think I was gonna leave my poor fiancé at the altar? I wouldn't dream of it. I know that I love him, and I also know I would be dead before the evening fell if that happened," I tell him. Between the rest of the band and a large majority of our fan base I would be signing a death warrant if I decided to be the ultimate douchebag and left Danny alone and broke it off. I have been dating Danny for over ten years now, I think I know this is what I want to do. "Maybe, I know you wouldn't though. Can't imagine you making that boy cry honestly," Jordon says.
"I wouldn't dream of making him cry other than happy tears. I also am afraid of the list of people who would come after me, starting with his mom, his brothers, you guys and then the fans screaming at me with pitchforks blazing. Honestly it's enough to give me nightmares," I tell him. In fact I am pretty sure it has given me a couple of nightmares the last week leading up to the wedding today. I just want the day to go perfectly. I saved money and worked hard with Danny planning all our details right down to the theme. Red for me and gold for him. We have subtle suits although Danny made a majority of his a secret so I won't be seeing it until later on today when I am standing at the altar waiting for his mom to walk him down.
My suit is more of a red and black theme than a red and gold. Didn't want it to be too overwhelming on the eyes. I have a little gold on the cufflinks and my tie clip, but gold is more Danny's color for this wedding anyway. "Today will go fine Jay, stop stressing over it or I will call George," Jordon says, I had made us both coffees and I was running though the to do list on my phone of what I needed to do before I left the house. Louie and Tiger are with pet sitters who are good friends of ours. I need to pack my overnight back for the honeymoon, I need a shower too so that I don't smell absolutely disgusting. I am starting to freak out now. "I know, I just feel a little overwhelmed you know. I wanted this day to come for so long and now it's here," I tell him.
"I know Jay, you have been in love with Danny since way before he started being in the band and that was clear for all of us to see when he joined. Today has been a long time coming and once it all gets underway you are both going to enjoy every minute of it. Everyone gets nervous on their wedding day. I would be very concerned if you weren't," Jordon says, and I agree. Danny had sent me a good morning text saying he loved me and that he couldn't wait to see me later. George had also sent me a text and said Danny was feeling a bit nervous and he was going to do his best to keep my love calm until we get there. I hate whoever decided that we had to be traditional and not see each other from the night before our wedding until we get to the altar.
"I know and I know Danny is just as nervous as I am. Part of me thinks this is a dream because I have waited so long for the day I would be able to make my dream man my husband," I tell him. Jordon smiles, and I down my coffee and wash my cup straight away. Jordon hasn't quite finished his yet and there is no rush for him to do so. We have another three hours before we have to be leaving for the wedding venue. Plenty of time to get through the to do list right? I am sure there is. I go upstairs into my room and grab my duffel bag. I best get the packing done first, then the shower and then I'll be nice and clean for the wedding. I have had some breakfast even though I didn't exactly have a great appetite when I first woke up this morning.
I didn't want to eat, but I knew it would go horribly wrong for me later on if I didn't make something like toast or a small bowl of cereal. My stomach would be growling by the time we left the house and if it got to the time where I was needed most I might faint, and I definitely don't want that. Now that I have overthought some more, and my bag is packed for our honeymoon I think it is about time that I had a shower. I usually listen to music, and I think I have the perfect song picked out for today. It is also going to be one that is probably going to be our first dance. We weren't one hundred percent sure, but we have a great DJ friend who was going to be helping us out later on this afternoon, so I have no worries. I just don't think a traditional slow dance song is our thing.
We are definitely having traditional dances with our moms. I don't think our moms would let the wedding go ahead otherwise. I can't wait to see my future mother in law with my gorgeous future husband dazzling the dance floor. "Hey Jordon, just gonna have a quick shower okay? Don't do anything stupid," I call out, just in case he had any ideas which may involve walking in on me naked or something similar. I know he can be sneaky with his pranks and sometimes it's just a genuine accident like that one time on tour he walked in on Matthew on our shower day and didn't get to live it down for the rest of the tour at least. I am glad it didn't cause as big of a fight between the two of them as it could have done. They tend to get along most of the time.
It's a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares, baby, I think I wanna marry you
I can't help but sing along as the song by Bruno Mars plays on my phone. It's such a good song and Danny introduced it to me as the potential first dance song. Obviously we would all sing boy over the girl parts because as cute as Danny can be sometimes, he is definitely a boy. Those kinds of songs haven't been written for our type of relationship yet. Not like I want to demand anyone to make that kind of song just for us. I am happy to change a couple of words here and there to suit me. I don't even care if Jordon can hear me right now. I am determined to make today the best day of my life and it's starting with the wedding. It's still a little too early to get into my suit so I just get dressed into the shirt and pants when I am out of the shower.
"I so can't wait to hear you in karaoke tonight Decker. You're not going to be able to worm your way out of it," Jordon says, once I reappear in the kitchen after putting all the dirty laundry on to wash. The last thing I want to do is leave dirty laundry waiting for us to come back to after being away for two weeks and I have time to get the cycle done. "Oh believe me Terrell you're not getting out of it that easier either, if I have to do it sober you're definitely doing it drunk or not," I tell him. If I was going to do something which made me extremely uncomfortable I wasn't about to let Jordon get away with it. Danny and I have promised each other that getting drunk tonight was not something we want to do. I want to remember the night as it happens.
I don't want me memories of tonight being just some drunken haze because I decided alcohol was more important than making those memories. Of course we will have a wedding video we can look on in years to come, but that is not the point. I don't want to remember being drunk on the best day of my life. I know I just thought that singing karaoke was going to make me incredibly uncomfortable because it does. It is completely different in my opinion than performing our own songs on stage. We know how all of our songs should sound, we were the ones who wrote them after all, we don't write the songs that we sing in karaoke. I think I would sound awful because I know Jordon is intentionally going to chose the worlds hardest song for me to sing, way out of my vocal range.
I remember the night that I proposed to Danny. It was our day off; we had a hotel booked for once which I was looking forward to the most. I had made sure that I was getting the room with Danny because for some reason they like to fight over who gets to share a hotel room with MY boyfriend. We had gone out for dinner with everyone after our date day, and I wanted to get back earlier than them to have some more alone time with Danny which everyone agreed to without complaints which was a rarity. Usually they would be making jokes about us having sex really loudly which was really embarrassing. I think Danny had a word with George one night and they spoke about it because they haven't done it since. Anyway, we got to the hotel room, and I put music on.
I think we're alone now
There doesn't seem to be anyone around
I think we're alone now
The beating of our hearts is the only sound
We danced along to it, just having the best time with literally no one else around us. I had a secret camera filming us so I could show the rest of the band later and we could use it in the wedding itself if everything went okay. Once the song finished I flopped on the floor pretending to be really out of breath whilst we were calming down, I got the ring from my bag and hid it behind my back whilst Danny was completely unaware of my intentions. Once he had finally calmed down and turned around I didn't even really need to say anything before he gasped in shock and covered his mouth. He really wasn't expecting me to propose that night. "Danny, you have been the love of my life since the first moment I saw you. Will you do me the honors of becoming my husband," I asked him.
I remember wracking my brain for weeks trying to figure out what the perfect way to ask was going to be. Something not too cheesy even though he was in tears regardless. "Yes, of course I will marry you," he replied, I got up off my knee and put the ring on his finger before pulling him in for a cuddle and a kiss. Then I went to turn the recording off and got back to enjoying the fact that I Jorel Lucian Decker got the one and only Daniel Rose Murillo to say YES to marrying me. "This are the kind of engagement videos that I'd happily watch over and over again. You can tell the love for each other was pure and it wasn't a massive show off," Jordon says, we had been rewatching the engagement video to see if it was worthy or not.
"Oh yeah, I wasn't about to waste thousands of dollars on the event when I know just what would make both of us happy and having a goofy little dance around a hotel room in Europe whilst being in our dream jobs was the best way I could have done it. I don't think I could have done it the next evening on stage with all of those eyes on me. Not unless I had about five beers first," I tell him. I probably would have done it, but I enjoyed the fact that it was personal, and we could do a goofy little reenactment on stage the following day to let all the fans know about the engagement and then post that on our social media accounts instead. Jordon was hilarious when he said "Congratulations Mr and uhh Mr Jdog." After Danny said yes again.
"Definitely. I don't know how people have done it on our shows before. I would be shitting myself, that's why if I propose to Randi its going to be super-secret like yours. I do admit faking it on stage was pretty fun though. There was no pressure on either side and you both knew what the outcome was going to be," Jordon says, and I agree. I would hate to have gathered up all that courage been in front of people I care about and then have to deal with the potential of Danny saying no. people will film concerts regardless of if it is what you want or not and that shit would have been around the internet like wildfire, and we would never have been able to live it down for the rest of our careers. "I had more nerves for the fake one than I did actually proposing to Danny. I think it was worrying about how the fans would react to the news more than anything," I tell him.
"That is a fair point, fans have been supportive of your relationship up until that point and marriage is something that would be shocking to a lot of them. There have been some homophobes in the crowd before," Jordon says. We were lucky in the sense that even though there were one or two who were not happy with the proposal they were either quickly hushed or quickly escorted out by the security. I know I can't protect Danny from all of the hurtful and hate filled parts of the internet that gets thrown our way over the years, but sometimes I just want to hide him from all the nastiness out there. He gets enough hate as it is especially when he first joined the band, always people comparing him to Deuce like they are the same people.
"There will always be people who hate us, either for who we are as people of for what music we put out into the world. As much as I want to be that husband who protects their lover from it all I know Danny is a brave lad and has always come to me when it has gotten too much," I tell him. It's true, one of the first moments where I realized I was falling in love with him was when he had come to me on tour one night really stressed about the hate we had gotten on our new album we were touring. I sat with him outside the bus and we talked through it all for a good few hours until it no longer upset him so much and he knew I was always going to be there for him. "Yeah he feels safer when he is with you that's for sure," Jordon says.
I am glad he feels that way when he is around me. I want this relationship to have the ultimate level of trust and friendship between us as well as all of the romantic feelings. "Yeah, listen Jordon you might wanna start getting dressed or I am going to be late to my own wedding," I tell him. We have about half an hour before we have to leave and it takes another half an hour on a good day to get to the venue and I do not want to risk being late. I don't think I will ever be able to live it down if I show up late to my own dang wedding. "Oh shit yeah. I'll be quick and you might wanna start putting the stuff you need into the car," he tells me. That is a fair point, I have some of the wedding things like our wedding rings and I need to put them into the car as well as my overnight bag. I can't afford to loose or leave anything at this point.
~At the wedding venue ~
"I have never been so nervous in my entire life. I am literally getting nervous about seeing my soon to be husband even though we just saw each other yesterday," I tell Jordon. We have been at the venue for fifteen minutes. I am fully ready to go walk down the altar and wait for Danny to be walked down by his mom. My mom is here with me and she shakes her head at me and smiles. "Of course you are nervous. You are just about to make the love of your life the one you are about to say I do to. It is a huge step for anyone no matter how prepared you might think you are," my mom tells me. It does make sense, but it doesn't mean that I am about to suddenly become no longer nervous. It is just one of those things. I am excited that in the next couple of hours Danny is going to be my husband.
It is just right now the nerves have over taken the excitement. "I know mom and I am excited and ready for this day after so long. I just have little silly doubts in my head," I tell her, as she checks over my suit and adjusts my tie. "You will be fine, the guys are going to be behind you as will I and Margo," she tells me, and I nod. It will be nice to see my soon to be mother in law again. It has been a long time since we last properly got together. In ten minutes I am going to be seeing the aisle for the first time since we talked about wedding planning. I can't wait until I can see how much it looks like what we designed and we planned. I take a few deep breaths and once last check of my hair to make sure that I look presentable enough to get married.
"Just think of this like you are getting ready to perform and today's performance is going to be marrying Danny," Dylan says, as he walks in. Late as per usual but not late enough where he'd actually run the risk of missing the ceremony. He isn't that stupid, he just likes getting high a little too much sometimes. "That is literally the worst piece of advice I think I have ever heard," Jordon says, and I nod in agreement. I don't think making it comparable to one of our shows is going to help in the slightest. It is completely different to getting up and singing in front of hundreds of people. "You're lucky I won't slap you for how stupid you sounded then," I tell him. Jordon doesn't hesitate to follow it up by slapping Dylan in the back of the head for me. Mom just laughs as Dylan comes overboard with the dramatics and rubs his head where Jordon hit him.
"There was every need for that Dylan. Can't you see that you made it worse?" Jordon asks, as my mom checks both him and Dylan over to make sure they are presentable enough for the wedding. Just for one day I would love for these two to not descend into the childish petty arguments that sometimes happen once Dylan is smacked across the back of the head no matter how light or harsh it was. It is what happens when you put the younger two together even though Danny is right smack bang in the middle of them being the middle one in terms of age. "Alright let's not turn it into an argument. I still gotta get married you know and Danny would be less than impressed if I was late to my own wedding because of you two," I tell them.
It breaks up the argument I knew for sure was about to happen as soon as my back was turned. They just can't help themselves sometimes. For the one who has called himself the dad of the band sometimes in interviews Jordon sure likes to find ways of getting himself into trouble. George appears at the door and for a moment I was worried. I haven't seen him since I dropped Danny off at his house last night. "Everything alright?" I ask him, trying not to panic in case it was something wrong with Danny. We did text a little last night because neither of us could sleep because of the equal amounts of nerves and excitement buzzing around our bodies. "Yeah, he's nervous but otherwise just fine. He wanted to make sure these two didn't start fighting yet," George replies.
I laugh. "Funnily enough I just stopped them from fighting," I tell him. Deep down I am happy that Danny is okay. I know that he can get a little bit of anxiety and can get quite panicky sometimes especially before a show. George was happy with the situation and went back to Danny which I was happy with. If anyone could help keep Danny calm it is him and his mom. Meanwhile I am going to go and walk down the aisle and get ready for things to become official. Part of this doesn't feel real, part of this still feels like I am dreaming and I am going to wake up in bed any minute now with Danny fast asleep in the bed beside me and the wedding a long way off. I know that it is very much real and about to happen, but your mind does wander sometimes.
Instead of arguing over who our best man/groomsmen were going to be we just decided the band. George was going to be the best man for both of us. Matthew, Jordon and Dylan were going to be the groomsmen. I haven't seen Matt yet, but I am sure he is with Danny and George getting himself ready. Matthew is not the type of person who would not show up to something like a member of the bands wedding. He has been very supportive of Danny and I's relationship from day one. I wasn't going to chose my groomsmen if I had a suspicion they weren't going to turn up. Heck I even said Austin could come along too if he wanted. Austin has always been a good friend of ours and he has always been more than welcome.
Matthew appeared as Dylan and Jordon came to take their places to the side of me. Our friends and family started walking in and sitting down in their seats and I was standing front and center trying not to show how nervous I am. "Good to see you Matt," I tell him, anything to take my mind off the fact that in a few short minutes Danny was going to be walking through those doors and down the aisle towards me. We were debating on Here Comes The Sun by The Beetles or Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran as the song Danny walks down too. Ultimately I told him to go with whatever he thinks sums up us the best and I will be happy with whichever song he chooses. "Sorry George didn't want to leave Danny completely alone when he went to check on you as Margo needed the bathroom or I would have poked my head around," he tells me.
"That's fine, someone's gotta keep my little stress head calm. I'm glad he had someone with him and I know I am making him sound not as calm as he is but hell I know I am nervous right now," I tell Matt, quieter than I would normally say it because I knew some people would be trying to listen in on our conversations. I don't want any rumors floating around that my fiancé is a nervous wreck all the time when he isn't and today is just a big day for the both of us. "I get it, yeah he was a bit more nervous than usual until his mom walked in and then everything has been smooth sailing since. It is the biggest day of your lives so far. You have every right to be nervous," he tells me. At least I know I am not alone in all of this mess of my mind.
It is the biggest day of our lives so far. Especially for me as I never graduated high school so I never got those nerves of collecting my diploma and throwing my hat or anything like that. Speaking of throwing things, I did bring up the possibility of a bouquet and it being thrown and maybe Jordon or Dylan catching it, but Danny did seem to be not very enthusiastic about the idea as I was and I wasn't sure he wanted it at all so we left it out. We can make bets behind their backs about who is going to get married next, after all they did it to us when they wanted to bet on which one of us was going to be the one to propose marriage or not. We found out right after the concert where we announced the proposal as we had kept it a secret from them as well as our fans.
George was the one who won in the end as he had said the correct date and location. The rest were pretty close but all thought it was going to be a week later and Danny was going to be the one to propose. I think Dylan went so far as to suggest that we were both going to propose to each other on the same day as he thought he saw Danny buying a ring on the same day I did which he hadn't. Danny did tell me that night that if I hadn't have proposed to him during that tour he had plans on proposing to me on our first date night after the tour had ended but he hadn't gone so far as to buy a ring or anything yet because he didn't want to waste money if I had plans that he would obviously not know about until they happened. He also told me didn't want to have an expectation of the proposal happening either.
One of these days I would love to just spend a minute or two inside Danny's mind. I would love to know how it works and what he thinks. I would instantly know all the ways to keep my love happy and meet every single need before he even realized he wanted. I would love to know what he really thinks about me because I now I can be annoying sometimes. He still loves me though because today we are a few short minutes away from getting married. I can't wait to hear which song Danny has chosen to walk down the aisle too. He has good taste in music and I am sure it is going to be perfect. I proposed after we danced to I Think We're Alone Now, our first song is going to be Marry You. Now he is going to walk down to what I think is the beginnings of Thinking Out Loud.
So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
Maybe we found love right where we are
Those are the lyrics that play as my love walks down to be standing right next to me. He looks absolutely stunning in his red suit with the little bits of gold shinning brightly like the love for me in his eyes. All my nerves melt away as I take his hands in mine. All the voices around us fade as I focus on him. I want to kiss him so much right now. I just have to wait until the official part of the ceremony is over and we get told you may now kiss the groom. "You look gorgeous," I tell him. I instantly get that oh so sweet/sexy smile that helped me fall in love with him all those years ago. "You're not so bad looking yourself. I'm kidding you're handsome always," he tells me. I grin at him, and we pay attention to the actual ceremony part.
We said our vows and it was probably one of the best parts of my morning so far. My personal favorite had to be the slow passionate kiss we shared as soon as they let us kiss each other. I missed the feeling of his lips against mine and the way he wrapped his arms around me as I held his waist. Jordon made the biggest noise for our kiss and I didn't care that I was in a room full of people who probably never saw us kiss before. I have just become Jorel Lucian Murillo-Decker so of course I am fucking happy right now. We did decide to double barrel our names as we haven't really thought too deeply on it and we both have pretty unique surnames. It wasn't a massive fight over who wanted to keep what. Jordon jokingly called us Mr and Mr Jdog as we walked out.
We took a bunch of pictures of us as a couple and then us with our moms and family and us with the band members who we consider to be family. I can't wait to see how some of these photos turn out. I know the one of me and Danny kissing is going to be the one I chose to announce our marriage to fans on social media with. It won't be for a while because we are going on our honey moon tonight for at least a week and I want to give Brian our amazing photographer enough time to do all the edits he wants without stress. Now we're going to head to the reception and have our meal and soon the first dance after probably one of the most embarrassing speeches I am ever going to hear George deliver in his entire life.
I don't know, I did some research on best man speeches and most of the examples were for typical bride and groom weddings. Not many were for groom and groom, so I am guessing there might be some improvisation on George's part, but he is a very creative man and I have no doubt he is going to make a great speech. We have dinner and some champagne, we're still not planning on getting drunk but we have to celebrate a little. I can't stop staring at Danny, but I did look at George at one point and saw he was getting a little nervous. He will be fine though, he is usually the most confident out of all of us and he has definitely done speeches before now. He stands up and taps his knife against the glass to get everyone's attention.
"Hello, my name is George, and I have the honor of being both Jorel and Danny's best man. I have known them both for a long time and proud to call them my friends and brothers. It is with happiness that I stand here today and support them both in their marriage," He starts, and I smile. To be fair on him we did give him a bit of a challenge by making him the best man for the both of us as we knew we were never going to follow all of the traditions for a wedding. "I remember when Jorel first met Danny. It was when Danny flew out all the way to Texas to join us right in the middle of tour and he was terrified," George continues with. It was going to be embarrassing, but Danny was smiling and seemed happy. I remember how frightened Danny was back then.
"There first date was special because what could be a more romantic place to have a first date than the city of love itself Paris. I remember Jorel telling me about it so I could do my best to keep the rest of the guys away from them. This date, of course set them on a pathway to day and their marriage, for which we are all grateful," George adds on. I do remember this also, for the obvious reasons of trying to do it secretly but also have some alone time with Danny which back then was a lot harder because no one knew of my love for him back then. I wanted to keep the time spent with just him enough so I could discover if he loved me back or not as well as letting him have fun with the others because I wanted to be fair to him.
"Jorel, you are a great guy – someone who is kind, caring and fun. In Danny, you have found your perfect match- although I must admit he might be a little more fun than you and I wish the both of you the best in the years to come." George finishes and we all give him a clap as he sits back down again. I was going to argue about the fun part, but Danny can be pretty fun and cheeky when he wants to be. I remember the tours where we have had prank wars and Danny has come out on top every time because just when you think you have the upper hand, bam he hits ya with the sneak attack and you're covered head to toe in water and flour before you can even say his name in full. He will be long gone by then, he doesn't stick around to see his pranks play out often.
The next favorite part of the day was the first dance. Like I said we had chosen Marry You as our song. Part of me wishes I was smart enough to have said "It's a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do. Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you." When I proposed to Danny what seems like forever ago now. I get to sing it to him now at least while we dance the night away. After our first dance, I sit out and let Danny have his dance with his mom, my turn with my mom will be after it. I get a few fist bumps of congratulations with friends. Once my dance with my mom was over the dance floor was open to anyone to dance. It was hilarious seeing Jordon dancing after he had about 8 beers, and the possibility of karaoke seemingly a distant memory.
"Jordon's too drunk to remind me that he challenged me to do karaoke with him tonight," I whisper to Danny as we sit at the sidelines watching our friends act like complete idiots on the dance floor. Danny laughs, and I grin as Jordon is still one hundred percent oblivious to the world around him. "As if Jordon would have actually followed through with this drunk or not. You're lucky until now you two were the only ones who knew cause Dylan would have reminded him for sure," Danny tells me, and I grin. Pulling him closer to me I look into his eyes and start dancing with him slowly. I don't care if I am not with the beat of the song, I just love the fact that Danny is in my arms right now. "I am very lucky. Even luckier that you are my husband now," I tell him and I kiss him on the lips. Today went perfectly and I couldn't be happier.
And that is it for another one shot. I hope you enjoyed. It took me longer than I would have liked as unfortunately I have discovered some more health issues with my body but at least I know what we're dealing with. Requests are still open feel free to leave a comment or DM me.
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