Author Note: Thank you all who bothered to fav, follow or write a reveiw! It meant the world to me. The word thank you is not enough but from the bottom of my heart very grateful. So thank you.
I am very sorry for the delay, but the story grow a bit a more than I had expect. Things are going to be a bit heated, but it is a importent part of the story. This chapter was longer than the other two, but my mind could not find out how to spilt.
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Somehow they both had dug their graves deeper the second the door to his chamber opened, something had capacity built itself between them and had poisoned the air with unspoken, new sensations Severus felt every cell of his being had come alive, despite he found it hard to breathe. Quivers had started in his hands, from the very beginning of the little walk, yet the closer he came to his chamber, the more he was shaking. They played a little game, where one looked at the other, and the other looked down towards their shoes. But the game had brutally ended the moment he had laid his hand on the doorknob.
Several hours later he lay with vomit stuck in his hair on the floor of his bathroom. Curled together like a small ball, in a vain attempt to protect him from the cold. Previously, he had a towel wrapped around him, but when he vomited all over himself again, he dropped it into his shower. He did not how many hours he had laid there on the cold floor. But every time he considered raising himself from the floor, he had nearly fallen and cracked his skull open. The marble stones beneath him wanted to injure his skin, even though the fabric parts of him. Despite he had showered the odour of vomit still clung to him.
Severus hated to admit it, especially since he was staring into the bottom of his shower but he was terrified to let anyone in. He had run into the bathroom and locked the door behind him, the second he had gotten in. He has thrown himself into the shower to wash off in an attempt to wash off his vomit, only to vomit again, when he caught a glimpse of the scar below his navel.
No healing had fixed that scar because he had not let anyone see it. He could not even look at it himself. Especially since everyone who had founded, it was quite entertaining.
Almost aesthetically he raised from the floor, even with the newborn trembling in his body. Also, he knew if he waited a bit longer, then his face would be pearl-like with tears. Cold water ran over his hands before he tried to remove his spew from his hair. He did not want to admit why Hermione had affected him so much. He should have felt guilt, that he slammed the door in her pretty gentle face, especially when she had only been kind to disappeared little by little until it was gone.
Water dripped off his skin before he dried it off with his hands. His legs still felt like jelly yet little by little he tried to let off the sink. He tried not to look down, But he knew that people were rarely kind, but the motive behind was hard to tell. The spew did not need to see how his father had else tormented his physique with cigarette burns and scars. Scars were created by his father's belt made of metal. Or horse leather whip.
Severus almost tasted his vomit just thinking about it, while he tried to walk without a trace of balance towards the door. He did not how, but he managed to keep walking until he reached the door. He slowly opened it and felt the cold marble floor replaced by wooden blades, as his feet moved towards his living room. He just wanted to forget. Forget everything that had happened in the last few days. He needs to find something that could make him shut the past out of his brain.
Messy was one way one could describe his living room. Complete disarray with dirty plates in the corners, and written paper laying on the floors was properly a description.
Potions bottle everywhere they could stand, while the cold dungeon's temperature bites his skin. His black eyes searched for his black pajamas' pants.
But as he bent down to reach for the pants, he heard a knock on the door. He raised himself, hoping that it was just his mind playing a trick on him, when another knock followed. He could not even breath, and he felt the room devoured him completely.
"Professor are you ill? To be honest, I am quite worried. About you. "A gentle voice called from behind the only barrier to the outside. He was in conflict to open it or not, yet he jumped into his pants. The fabric caressed his thighs as he walked determined steps towards the door. The sooner he answered her the better. He just needed to ignore her or insult, then she would leave. Leave him in his own self-loathing. But when he opened the door, his tone was nicer than usually.
"It was a short airy breath of illness," Severus said to her in a tired tone, despite his eyes holding a keen interest. She looked quite attractive.
"So go away," He sneered coldly, letting her know that she did not matter to her. He tried to close the door. She grabbed the other door handle to keep the door open, instead of letting him close it. He stared at her loathing, despite her eyes kept pulling him with their innocence. He showed his yellow teeth to her, in a vain attempt to push her away. But she did not even flinch.
"Well at dinnertime Pomfrey decided to pull me aside, because she had found bruises on Mclaggan´s throat. Marks, which not had been there before you or I had been there. Pomfrey thinks someone has tried to end Mclaggans life. Please so let me in," Hermione whispered harshly while her hands griped the doorknob as if her life depended on it.
All blood had left Severus´s head when Hermione had mentioned the bruises. Why had he not thought of that? He usually thought of everything yet his memory of his past.
"Come in, then," He muttered, while he opened the door for her. He turned his back to her and walked towards his desk. He did not need to see her curling her lip in disgust over his messy living. He grabbed the jumper of his chair. He quickly pulled it over his head, before he turned around to face Hermione. She looked quite intensely at his book collection. Especially she stared at protection against blood spells. He jumped into the small sofa, so she would have to stand. She took her gaze away from the books and smiled nervously at him. Despite she had pretty smile, he just scowled at her
"So Pomfrey is suspecting us in more ways. The bruises you left on Mclaggan´s throat were not there before we visited him, and we found him that night. We are the prime suspect" Hermione´s face became paler with each word, but still, she tried to keep her voice even. She had never handled stress that well but she had gotten better.
"But what does she have of proof? Unless Pomfrey has solid evidence. She only uses words, that her head does not understand" Severus drawled while he crossed his arms. Hermione´s brows narrowed in thought before she inquired as the insufferable know-it-all she was.
"Why Pomfrey has a problem with you exactly," Severus narrowed but answered anyway.
"I file a complaint over her incompetence and I, unfortunately, sign it. Hermione could not hide her smirk despite her thought. She muttered
"Fair enough! But we are doomed. The chance that you will lose your job or worse is increasing unless Pomfrey´s evidence disappears will you please help or teach me to heal the bruises? Pomfrey has notified Filch to an eye on me," Hermione said before she turned to look for a healing book. Severus crossed his arms in annoyance
"Why don't you ask me to heal Mclaggan?" Severus asked coldly with respect, the professor I am not quite sure if you should be alone with him." Hermione answered while she raised herself to stand on her toes. Severus flared him? before he replied.
"If you had not walked out passed curfew, then none of this would have happened. Hermione´s whole body fell together
"That's low even for you," she sneered back before she grabbed one of the books from the shelf.
He stood up from the couch and began to walk towards her. She instantly noticed, and started to speed-walk towards the door.
"Where are going with that book?" he hissed at her. Her pretty face held an angry expression.
She yelled "It´s my fault, so I am fixing it!"
As lighting from the clear sky quilt spread through him. It was Mclaggan´s fault, not hers. But still, to push her away he replied without a hint of warmth "If you cared about rules as you claim, then you would not walk out past curfew so, in reality, the basic truth is you are a liar under a second. She glared at him at bit, letting him know that he had died in her eyes before she walked away from him. The way she walked reminded him of an animal in pain. Something eat him up inside when she reached to, yet his limbs were too frozen to run away from her. She laid her hand on the doorknob before she spotted him "Harry always told me that you were cruel yet stupidly enough I thought that you were kind beneath the coldness "Time stopped only to be interrupted by the clock Ding-Dong. The clock chimed. She shuffled to open the door because she did not know it was. She kicked the door in frustration while tears rolled down her cheeks. He could not lose her. "I am sorry," Severus shuttered. Her eyes wider. "Terrible sorry," he spoke. "What?", Hermione muttered, while her lower lip quivered. Did he need to spell for her? She was supposed to be smart. "I should not have said it was your fault alright. Now please give me back my book so I have suffered by following you". He said in a bored tone before he placed himself on the coach. It was a bad idea to sleep on the bathroom floor. "Thank you!"
She said sincerely before she walked towards me. He moved a little to the side. She could sit beside him the quivers previously ran down his back again. She laid his book on the table before, before she try to hide behind her hair. a second pause in silence before she muttered" I lied to you. I apologize. Severus narrowed his gaze at her. Had she told anyone especially Potter about his meltdown? He created more space between them. "What did you lie about?" he said with an edge of warning. She laid her head in her hands. He did not catch me by surprise. I froze." Severus could only watch as she began to sob once more. Her entire body shook, while her frizzy hair covered her face. He tried gently to place a hand, but he was only an inch away from her body before the flinched away from his touch cursed words burned on his tongue as her wails grew louder and louder. He crossed his arms in a vain attempt to keep himself together from not running out to beat up Mclaggan. Even if the bastard was in a hospital bed. Slowly he muttered "Did he?" the question almost the air around them before Hermione said "No! But I still froze like my arms could not move, and I could only breathe. Mclaggan might have if you had not arrived. She flipped back her hair and smiled gratefully at him. A warm feeling danced in his chest before it was brutally cut off. "But how can I protect Harry, if I freeze in those situations, professor? What if I freeze again when a death eater kidnaped Harry? She said with a quilt written across her gentle features. Severus raised from the couch before he decided to scream at her that it was? how obsessed she was with Potter "Open" yelled an old male voice behind the door, Filch. Severus tried not to breathe in an attempt not to let Filch, that he was in the room.
Especially since Hermione is in there as well. "Professor! You missed dinner. Are you ill?", Filch asked again before he knocked at the door. Hermione´s eyes sought his eyes while she attempted to rise from the couch. He flew over there with only two steps. He placed a hand over her small chin and moderated plump lips. "Don´t move a muscle," he sneered, while he pressed her back against the couch. Filch can´t know that you were here. Students are not allowed in teachers and this can look very wrong, especially when you are from Griffendore. "Do you understand that?", he sneered with a hint of warning. Hermione just nodded. Much to his frustration, he noticed her skin was soft compared to his. The quietly listen to Filch´s footsteps after a minute or two, until he heard that Filch started to walk away. Severus held back his breath until his heart had beaten five times faster, then usually. in the back of his head. HeHe noticed that his heart beated a little faster than usual. He snarled at her, showed every beat of his yellow teeth in an attempt to pulll out a reaction out of her before he rised himself from the floor. He walked towards his book shelf, while Hermione's eyes burned into his skull. Either she saw him as a puzzle, she was interst to figure out or she was just confused by his behaviour. His fingertips danced over the book's titles, until he found a small, withered book. He weighted in his hand, as he merely gaze over the title. "Potions For Healing" By Blair Snape. His grandmother had been a smart woman. He gazed back her, whom stared at him with interest. He looked away from her as she rised from the couch and began to walk towards him. Without looking at her, he gave her while he stared at his bare feet. " But this is for potions. Potions takes at least two hours to brew. Isn't there a spell?" She asked with a bit with a worry in her voice. He sended her a cold glare. She sighed a bit, before she disappeared from his view.
" Who gave you this book? It looks quite rare" She inquired while she placed the other book back on it spot. Why did she suddenly think that they could have a conversation?
" Narcissa" He answered while he pulled out a cauldron from under his desk.
" Who is Narcissa?" Hermione asked. Severus was sure Hermione's voice had a darker egde to it. But not in a sexual way, but another dark way. He looked up to see her, staring down at him with cold expression. She smiled at him but her smile did not reach her eyes.
"Who is Narcissa?" She asked again, while a dark glimt appeared in her gaze. He was not quite sure yet he had a feeling that he could ruin everything he said one word. Ruining whatever they were doing. But somehow it still annoyed him even further that it was her which had shifted the tension had shifted from forbiddingness to cold. Unless it was what he hoped to be. He needed to be careful.
" Mister Malfoy's mother. Should I or you go to brew this importent potion to Mclaggan, or do you want to keep tittle-tattling" He replied while he kept his face neutral. You decide." She huffed before she turned her back to him. Much to his dismay, she had a cute behind. A nicely shaped one, even in cotton pants. He closed his eyes, as he felt a fire crawled down from his navel to his groin. He truly hoped that he would not get a hard iron on, while she was here in his room as well. Even though if she looked at him long enough then he would himself rise.
" I will feed it to him, despite you would properly be better sneaking behind Pomfrey. But She properly asked Filch to watch you. I will throw on an disillusionment charm before I go" She said while she began to walk around the room, taking in the destails. He wanted to sneer at her that she could not walk around but decided against it as he was against as time was ticking and known of them if Pomfrey had contacted an auror. She turned around her heel as she was half way through. She swifted her weight from one foot to another. " Are you close with The Malfoys?" She asked while she placed her hands behind her back. The gesture seemed innocent yet her gaze deadly.
" I might be. Will please you give Dittany from the other table? " Severus asked while he grabbed the bottle with Wormwood from his other desk.
" Are you allowing me to brew with you?" Hermione's voice pitched a bit higher. Stupidly he could not help but smirk a little. She is cute.
" No, you are allow to watch, so I would not get disturb by your present later" He answered, knowing that it might dissapoint her a little. She did not say anything and apparently, she was fast, because suddenly she stood next to him.
" Is it this one, or do you mean the dittany of dragon flower? " She asked while she held the bottle in front of his black eyes. He just nodded before he turned his gaze down to the cauldron. He turned to his desk, gripping bottles of Boubous pus and Dragon Liver.
"I don't understand how you can be friends with such people. Those who wants to kill those they consider as lesser, and blindly follow a mad man or creature. I know that you are a spy but do you really need receive gifts from them in your private chamber? "Hermione said coldly. Rage began to bobled beneath his skin. How dare she to question his friends, when she was friends with some like Potter?
"In the Slytherin House you make friends and connection with those who are kind to you. You stay friends with those who been kind to you. Much like the other houses. Also I am sure that you made friends with Potter, because he were kind to you" He sneered back while he lean forward the cauldron with dead expression.
" Harry was not nice to me at first. But we are good friends now and at least he does not bullies people. " She bited
" Or thinks he is better than anyone because he is a half-blood or pureblood" She spatted again while she grabbed the from behind the door.
" Saint Potter's father was. A bully. He made my life in every single way he could" He gritted through his yellow teeth.
Hermione stopped in front of him.
" I did not know that" She said with a worried expression. Had Potter not told her? Darn now he had obvilate her too. He narrowed his eyes at her.
" I am sorry to hear that." She said while she laid a hand upon his. The stupid quivers started again almost admittedly.
"It is fine." He said shortly. He would have dropped the subject there if it was not for Hermione's growing annoyance.
"I expected Black to be a bully, but I did not know Harry's dad either." She spoke after a bit.
Severus could not hide his smirk. Finally someone dislike Sirius as well.
" I think, that you are the first female, how was capture by Black's apparent charm. " Severus muttered bitterly as he walked over towards Hermione. Her facial expression gave away that she did apparently not anything alluring about Black.
" He might have been handsome if he was not such an idiot" She muttered back as she empty the bottle of Dittany. Severus emtried the other potions as well. Slowly she began to stir the liquid around in the cauldron. He watched her do the work for a few seconds but he turned away from her.
"I will back. I will just get something " He spoke as he walk quickly away.
"Are there anything else we need to add to the potion? I apologize but it looks like a simple healing potion to me" Hermione asked.
" That is what I am getting" He answered a bit annoyed, before his upper torso disappeared from the living room. He briefly gazed at the shelf behind the wall to the living room, before he picked two potions with his fingers. Almost gracefully he held on to them, as he landed back on the balls of his feet.
" Here is what we need" He said. She narrowed her gaze at the potions.
" What does Blue Bells and Silver Metal dust do? " She said in bewilderment.
" Blue Bells restore health and Silver Metal dust is extra security." He whispered with a bit of mystery. He did not need to tell her that Dark Spells often could lay traces in one's blood and one's following spells. Silver Metal dust did the same.
" Security for what" Hermione asked with a bit of worry. " Just put in the potion, Hermione." Severus sneered. Hermione widen her pretty smile at his sneer.
" Can I call you Severus then?" Her tone was almost flirtious. The shivers started again.
" Will you brew the potion or shall I? " He sneered while his eyes flickered around. Hermione just stepped in front of him with warm expression.
" Are you sure, that you want me to do?" She teased.
" Try to ask me again" He sneered. Hermione just nodded. He sited himself on the arm rest of the couch. Slowly she began to stir the potion again with her wand. Severus just watched her for a bit while she stired the potion. After a minutte she spoke.
"How was Lupin in his teens? Was he like Black?" She asked. She had gone to stir the potion.
" No, he followed his friends around like a little puppy without it is mom. He was quite pathetic to say at least" He answered truthfully. He heard Hermione chuckled a bit, before she stopped herself.
" He was a good teacher" She muttered. Good teacher set something off within Severus. He snapped his head back to stare at her cruelly. She kept on moving the broom around in the cauldron.
" Oh you think it is fine that he ridiculed me in front of your entire class?" He hissed through his teeth. Hermione's face held a angry expression" No but you have ridicule Neville and me in front of others quite often. So why should you walk free?" She gritted though her nice teeth.
" I mean you have said that I was insufferable know -it -all and called me ugly, so do you have ? Also I was called more than unattractive by Draco's little gang on a regular basis"
" I did not know that" He said in bewilderment.
" What? " She mumbled with a shock expression.
" I knew that Draco bullied you with your blood status not your appearance" Severus muttered below his breath. " You are definely not ugly" Hermione stopped her movementsaburtly.
" What?" She shuttered. She dropped the broom. It slowly landed to the round side of the cauldron.
She swallowed harshly" You think that I am not ugly?" She whispered. Her lower lip quivered a bit. Severus licked his lips. She had been kind to him so maybe he say the truth, but he did not.
" Nothing" He said before he rised himself from the chair. He walked over to his desk, pretended to captived by some papers. He heard her moved around yet he ignored her. Much to his annoynence she laid a hand on his shoulder.
" I thought that you thought that I was ugly" She said with a bit of hurt in her voice. He just stared his papers.
" My opinion about your looks should not matter to you" He said while he pretend to look at a drabble of his previous work.
" But what if it does matter?" She pressed on. Her hand began to rub his shoulder. He swallowed
" Well then you are not very clever" He said. Her hand stopped" I am clever but I just make dumb choices" She muttered.
" But what did you mean? After what has happend over the last three days then you should know that your opinion matter" She whispered. His nostrils flared. She just did not when to drop the subject.
" Fine you are not ugly, or unattractive, and do ask me again?" Severus sneered, before he turned his back to her.
" Thank you then" She mumbled, despite her voice held a surprise tone.
" Don't mention it " He sneered.
" Okay, then" She sounded almost bewildered.
" I don't think that you are unattractive either" She said with a small smile. Embarrassment grew within him. That was a lie above them all. He knew what he looked like.
" Stop it, before I hex you" He warned.
" What ? " She said perplexed. He gave her a evil glare, before he ignored her.
" What did they do since you are so terrified to let someone in?" She asked while she laid a hand on his shoulder.
" Don't speak things that you did understand or touch me, you stupid fool" He snarled at her. Her eyes grew a bit cold before she muttered.
" Well, you are the only dumb one here, since I understand your situation. Properly the only one" She said. " Don't you think that I understand!" She shouted, while her lower lip quivered.
" You don't think that I saw how good Black was at manipulating Harry around? I don't even dare to imagine how he must have been towards you and how he must have manipulate your classmates . " She said with a sad smile.
" Get out now " He sneered at her before he grabbed her arm.
" No, not before you listen. You listened to me when nobody else would have believed me. Why would Mclaggan attack a bookworm, when there are so girls willing to talk with him? So let me give you the chance to know to let you that someone might listen to your side of the story once" Hermione said, while she tried to fight back by putting on dead weight. But since Hermione did not that much weight that much it was impossible to struggle.
" You are an insufferable know-it-all who thinks that she knows things, which she does not understand. Now get out" He hissed. Bits of his armour were leaving him, and panic started to set off within him.
" I said no" She screamed. She grabbed one of the sides of his bookshelf and held on to it. He grabbed her hand away from it. " You know nothing about me" He bit, while he kept on pushing her out.
" I might not do, but I care enough to hear" She shrieked before she managed to rib herself out of his grasp by falling to the floor. They both fell, he on top of her. She wriggled herself out from under his weight. " I care" She shouted when she had risen herself from the floor.
" No you don't" He muttered mostly to himself.
" Why should you suddenly care when I had made your life miserable for years" He spat.
" Because you were kind to me when I needed someone. Nobody would have believed me if I had told anyone what Mclaggan was trying to do. Yet you only saw a flicker and caught in" Please just talk to me" She said, while she tried to give him her hand.
" No, and now leave before I show how cruel I can be" He said as he raised himself from the floor.
" You would never hurt a woman" Hermione spoke without flinching. The pieces of his armor left him and had left him naked to emotions.
" No, please just leave " He muttered. He turned his back to her.
" I will a minute, but before I go I just want to say. That whatever Black or Harry's dad would have said, then I would believe your side of the story over theirs" She said softly. It was one of the sweetest things that he had ever heard. Nobody had bothered to believe him. Slowly she walk passed him.
" Wait" He mumbled. She stopped in her tracks.
" You need the potion," He said. He laid his head in his hands, and let his hair cover his face like curtains
. " Oh you are right" She mumbled before she went back to the potion. He felt a smile truck on his lips, yet he let it fall again. Something about her wording was off.
" What do you know Black?" He asked.
" More than enough" She answered quickly, while she checked the potion's temperature with her little finger.
" He reminds me a bit of Mclaggan. Also like I said before I hate how he spoke to you" She added as she shook her finger dry. Severus was just sad frozen until he understood. His throat ran dry.
" What did Pomfrey tell you?" He whispered in a rough voice. Hermione froze.
" Nothing, but I was able to figure out that something did happen. Though I don't what happened between you two, I have a hunch about it could be" She said. Severus could not even breathe. He wanted to scream and shout at her, but instead, he just laid his head in his hands again. He heard her move around, yet he was still surprised when he felt a pair of hands on his. Gently they pulled his away from his face and were replaced by a soft elegant hand.
" I don't want to happen to you but I am sorry for whatever they have put you through" She whispered. Stupidly enough he lends into her touch like a small animal.
" Whatever have they done to you?" She muttered as the other hand began to stroke his hair. Teardrops prickled in his eyes. He managed to keep them away. Suddenly he felt a kiss on his forehead. It was nice and wet. He swallowed harshly. She sited herself down beside him, while she kept on stroking his cheek. It felt beyond wonderful. He opened his eyes, meeting her fawn-like eyes. She swallowed again. Something had changed within the room. Something tempting. Whatever it was Hermione felt as well. She let go of his cheek, staring at him a bit. But the gleam of happiness was quickly replaced by something empty as her gaze sadden.
" Do you hate me?" She asked.
" No, I have never done" He answered. Her hand laid itself upon his. The touch could not even compare to happiness. It was elation.
" Good for I have never hated you. I have always found you quite clever" She said with a smile. His breathing grew heavy. A line of fire which travelled down his navel grew warmer. Much warmer. He was not used to females whispering with flatter words. He prided himself on books and his intercell as she had done. His eyes flickered around a bit. He felt himself growing a bit. He tried to rise from the couch but her touch seduced him enough to stay. When his gaze returned to her, then her cheeks had gone red. Yet her gaze darkened.
" Are you thinking of someone else right?" She asked with a sad expression.
" No, how could I when you talk all the time?" He said with a raised eyebrow
" Do you find me ordinary in my looks? " She asked a bit worried. Her gaze begged him to say no.
" No, I don't " He whispered back, even though his mind yelled at him to lie.
" I can tell you what else I like about you, " Her tone held a flirtatious tone. He should not have done it yet he digs a bit.
" Yes," He whispered. Her hand kept on stroking his hand. He just nodded, despite heart hammering capacity in his chest.
" I think that you are much more attractive than Black" She whispered breathlessly before she planted a kiss on his cheek. His nostrils flared a bit.
" Are you mocking me?" He sneered.
" No" She whispered before she gave his cheek another kiss.
" Then say again" He demeaned while he lend forward.
" You are attractive at least in my eyes," She said before her lips crashed into his. It was only a second, yet with the flicker of a heartbeat, he grabbed the back of her neck. Elation roared through his veins. He could not believe that he was kissing her. Slowly he let go of her lips.
" We can't-" He caught himself off as he saw her eyes staring at him as if he was something close to holy. She dropped another kiss on his lips. Her cheeks were blushing wildly. Somewhere in the back, he asked himself, where she had found her newfound confidence, until her gaze flickered downward. She had seen he was half-hard.
" We can't do anything before we have set the potion properly" He purred. Her breathing became heavy. It was flattering what effect he had on her.
" Sure, if you are sure that you want me?" She asked with big eyes.
" You are a little idiot sometimes you know that" He growled before he dropped a kiss upon her forehead. She started to shake a little. She nodded with a growing smile before she jumped off the couch. With small graceful steps, she walked towards the cauldron. She drew her wand from her pants pocket. Slowly her hands drew small movements. He raised himself to stand from the couch to follow her, only to check that she did right.
. " Are you checking that I am doing it properly?" She teased as he walked to stand beside her.
" Well I can't let you blow up my whole chamber, can I" He whispered as his eyes took in the details of her appearance. She was beautiful in an unexpected way with her lower lip being a bit plumper than the upper one and her unruly, brown hair mixed flickers of a lighter brown. Not that he would tell her those details.
" It looks you have done it nicely, the potion " He said. Carefully he placed his hand under her chin and slowly turned her to stare at him. Her breathing became swallow the heartbeat that her gaze met his. She stared at him for he did not for long.
" Can I kiss you? " She asked, before she licked her lips. She was making themselves ready for him. He did not if it was her licking her lips or the innocent question, but he crashed his lips into her. Her hands grabbed his skull and cheek like he was the last piece of oxygen, while she pressed her body against his.
Her plump lower lip touched his and a spark electrify the cells in his body. Elation unleashed itself within him, as her tongue begged for entrance shortly after. It was closest thing to earthly paradise he had ever tried. He kissed back the same life force as her, slowly opening up for the wetness. Her tongue touched the tip of his tongue, and much to his wounded pride he whimpered a bit.
His cheeks grew hot as he tried to keep himself for not whimpering, yet a flicker of a heartbeat he did. He tried to escape her lips, to gain himself so pride but her pale fingers held an iron grip on his skull and kept his lips spell bound against his. He heard her moan. Pride filled him until her tongue touched the underside of his tongue. Desire shut down his brain. The only image he could see was him between her legs, while she begged him to touch her.
He pulled her forward, while they began to walk backwards. Her fingers clung to his skull. He did not it was because she pitied him or wanted him, but as he crashed down the couch with her upon top of him, he found himself not cared one bit. A tiny brain-cell shouted that he would have better control, if she was under him.
He lifted her, before he turned her around, so he could be on top. She moaned softly before she pulled him closer towards her.
"Are you sure this because of me?" She asked, while her hands had found his chest. Her gaze kept on flickering down. He was not quite sure, if that was what she meant at first, before she pressed her pelvis against his. She could feel his half-hard member, and was moaning because of it. Desire and pride flowed though him. She wanted him. She wanted him. Not because she was drunk, or was paid for it but because she wanted to touch him. He pressed against her again. She moaned again. He was getting addicted to that sound.
" Yes, do you like that you are making me hard" He whispered as his hands began to touch her collarbones gently. She whimpered a bit as an answer, before she pressed back towards him and her hands left his skull. It felt incredible. They danced down towards his chest.
She wanted him for some reason and he wanted her too. Her tongue touched his sensually, setting off other ideas in his mind. He needed have her. He spread her legs and thrust forward.
" Please don't stop, Severus" She begged as she wrapped her legs around his. He was never going to stop not after she had said. In the middle of it all he noticed that her hands were shaking as much like his. Apparently in her mind, he was that good.
But the second she touched the bottom of his jumper he froze. He could not. If this was the only chance, he was going to get with her then he better to let stay on. The dark mark was there and he did not want to kill the mood. Slowly he pulled his lips away. She opened her eyes letting him that she was afriad that he would reject her
" The jumper stays on for now" He said in a deep voice. She looked disappointed to say at least until the penny dropped a few seconds later. She just nodded, but still a cloud of worry was in her gaze.
" Do I seem easy?" She asked airy, as she slowly pulled her hands back. He grabbed hers with in his, before she could change her mind. Of course he did not want to push her, but she said it was too much, he would stop. Else he would beg her.
" No. Am I pushing you?" He asked while he held onto her. He hoped for once in his life that she said no.
" No, but is this a one time thing? " She asked. His better judgment whispered he should say yes because he could not afford those things, but his selfishness had him where wanted to have sex with her many times forward.
" I hope not" He said, as he caressed her hand. She smiled at him, before it fell again.
" Are you sure? That I does not seem easy ?" She pressed.
He shook his head.
" Also please promise if I bore you then please say so, as I never done this " She muttered, before her voice a soft groan as his hands ran up and down her sides.
"I don't think you will never bore me. Annoy me perhaps with your many questions. Also if you do then I will figure out, how to distract you enough with other things." He said softly. Despite never been good at flirting, Hermione blushed heavily, and could not stop herself from grinning. Despite his little promise, the wheels were turning in her head.
" Are you honest?" She asked
" Yes. " He asked before he added.
" Yes and are you ?"
" I am a virgin. Are you disappointed?" She said with nervous expression. Her eyes flickered around so they did not rest on him.
Severus could not remember the how many years ago when he had been with someone. He could not even the sex and even not remember their names. But one thing was for sure he was going to make her addicted to him, despite his lack of sex in the last years.
" I am glad to be first" He purred before he gave her a rare smile without any malice. He also that he would the only one, at least for a time.
" Just so you know but you answered the door without a shirt on" She whispered. He completely froze. He held back his back, until she gave him a sweet smile.
" I remember when you opened the door, I thought that you were beautiful" She whispered before she attacked him with kisses. She left his lips and began to kiss every inch of his face. His brain caught itself of desire and pure elation. Nobody had ever thought of him as beautiful.
His hands found the bottom of her blouse and starting to lifted it. Her stomach was soft, despite her slimness. Her breathing quickened as his hands lifted the blouse higher and higher. She bited her lower lip while her eyes watched him carefully. Her breasts were indeed lovely. Small and pale but a bit good. Maybe she worried about her appearance as well? He pressed his member against hers. She moaned. He had grown to his full size, and she seemed to be enjoying it. He was getting a addicted to her little moans. His fingers caressed her breasts gently and forced a whimper out of her
" Your breasts are lovely" She kept on whimpering, watch on as he squeezed them until she muttered
" They are?" She asked with halv-opened eyes.
" Yes very much" He moaned as he squeezed them.
" But they are not biiiig-ah" She shuttered, before she broke into a big moan as he drop a kiss on them. He kept on touching her breasts, massaging through them.
" No but they are lovely anyway" He whispered as he lifted her blouse up to her collarbones.
" Also I prefer them small. They are easier to play with" He purred, before he started to kiss the skin once more. By each kiss, Hermione was shaking a bit more previous one.
" Are you sure ? You can be honest. Also please let me pleasure you too" She whimpered before she wrapped her legs around him. An alluring thought ran his mind. Of her lips touching his-
She had started to grind him. He started to feel a bit of wetness in his underwear. He was too ready to teach her that. His hands left her breasts and stared down on them. Her cheeks were completely red despite she enjoyed the attention. They were indeed beautiful, even though they looked away from each other.
" They are very lovely, and don't make me repeat it" He mocked in a playful tone. Her face lighted up.
"Your face is very, very pretty as well" He whispered honestly. She gave him a soft smile, before she grabbed his face and began to kiss sensually. Despite being a virgin, she had read something, because his member was starting hurt. He hoped that he was the only one she had imagined.
He let of her soft lips before he lifted the blouse over her head. The second after she wrapped her arms around him, pressed her bare breasts against his jumper. She tried to lift the jumper anyway, before he pressed her hands against her own chest. Slowly she began to lick his nose bridge. Now he whimpered. He grabbed the waistband of her pants slowly pulled them down. Her pants left her and exposed her legs.
"Shall I tell what I find beautiful about you? Especially since you have been so kind and told me what you like about me '' She groaned softly before she pulled him back on top of her. She wore a pair of beige knickers. Her legs were alluring too and were without any hair. He raised himself to stand on his knees.
" Yes" He teased her as he touched the side of the waist band on her panties. Despite he had in pain he would wait until she trembling beneath him. Because then he knew that she would want him completely, and not because she pitied him. Also the thought of an attractive girl begging him for sex was quite flatter, " Your height is just perfect, and you have nice hands. You got such an alluring way of speak. Ensnaring even. Bewitch my senses " She whispered out as he pulled the waist at bit down. He was glad but he needed more. Much more and details.
" Say more what you find attractive about me" He whispered as he kissed her temple. She was shaking with desire.
" Your eyes are so mysterious and I love your nose because it is exotic" She moaned. If it was not because she seemed so eager then he would have thought that she was lying.
He tugged down her underwear down till they reach her feet. He tossed it on the floor, before he threw himself on top of her. Both of them were wet of sweat, despite none of them had had intercourse yet. He kissed her temple. She whimpered before she kissed him again on the lips. She wrapped her legs around his hips again, while she wrapped tongue around his like a lollipop. All blood left his brain.
" You have a dirty mind. Dirty mind gets what they deserve" He snarled as he turned her around to lay on her stomach.
" Yes please, Severus " She whispered, as she raised her rump up a bit.
He pulled of his jumper. He was going to make her want him so bad, that she needed him as much as he needed her. He pulled his waistband down a bit.
He did not need to look down to see it was nearly purple. She seemed to watch him beneath her long lashes and behind her bushy hair with curiosity. He did not have a big size, was more the average side but Hermione's eyes lit up anyway. She raised her nice bottom further up. He placed himself on his knees more than ready to show how much he want her. She moaned, as he pressed himself towards her.
" What the heck are you two doing" A voice yelled on top, before Severus felt his limps became frozen.
He fell down and landed on his side. He heard Hermione screamed, but still he could not move. He was frozen. He could only breathe. Despite the chaos he saw Hermione threw herself down on top of him, protecting him for the intruder. She laid his head to her breast as tears threated flowed down her cheeks.
" Are you alright? Are you ?" She fuzzed while she gently touched his cheeks.
" Miss Granger, are you hurt? Did he managed to enter you? " The voice yelled with a edge of panic.
" No please just release the spell on him" She begged while she looked for bruises" It was con-sensual. Con-sensual" She hissed, while her gaze tried to look for her wand.
" And how am I suppose to know that he was not throw a spell on you? Imperious? " The voice asked.
" Then check me" She screamed. Their interrupter had apparently thrown the spell, because a second after Severus could move again. Severus exhaled before he pressed against Hermione's breasts. A fire in his groin started again.
" What is wrong you then?" The voice sounded darker and more dangerous. It could not be yet the voice still made Severus lifted his head only to see Mad-eye Moody staring down at them. Uncomfortable shivers ran down his spine
" I had always thought better of you, Miss Granger. But now I am in doubt if you should called the brightest witch of your age. Have you slept the way to the top maybe" Moody screamed.
" No no we want each together " Hermione said apacely. Severus felt his cheeks burn a bit. Nobody had ever said that they had loved him.
" Well still I disappointed at you. Throwing yourself at an ex death eater. That is beyond pathetic. A Leopard does not change it's spots and this one does not. Lupin had always talk so flattering about you. You disgust me" He sneered.
" I will make sure that you will get expelled." He bited. Hermione hided her face behind her hair in shame. Rage bobbled through Severus.
"Miss Granger is right. We were quite close to have con-sensual sex, which is not illegal. Good, sweaty sex. Not that you know what that feels like" Severus sneered while he rised from the floor and dragged Hermione up along with him.
" Also what are you doing in my private chamber?" Severus hissed, as he crawled Hermione in his arms.
" The idiot to Lupin had forgotton his Wolfsbane again and I draw the shortest straw" Moody growled while he picked a blanket up from the ground. He threw towards them.
" Please take this on. Compared to Severus I know when I should not cross the line with someone" Moody said before he curled his entire face together.
" Also Madam Pomfrey contacted the Aurors Office because she was so sure that she had found signs of strangulation upon Mister Mclaggan. She mentioned that you two had been visiting him without promistion. So I thought that talking to you were properly a good idea" Moody whispered coldly, while he stepped towards him.
" It looks like Madam Pomfrey was right in her suspicion " He added.
" Mclaggan tried to force himself upon me but Severus saved me. It was an accident" Hermione said while tears rolled down her cheeks.
" The bruises came after Mclaggan had arrived at the hospital Wing not before." Moody growled.
" Take on some clothes, Miss Granger and then I will escort both of you out" He added. Hermione flinched away from Severus and began to pick up her clothes.
" We had almost con-sensual sex, which is not a crime and the order needs me. And Potter needs her. He is nothing without her. " Severus drawled as he walked slowly forward towards Moody. Moody just stared back coldly with his one living eye.
" There is where were you are wrong. We can find a way without both of you. Lupin can take care of Potter and we will find another way to bring down Voldemort. " He whispered without any warm. Moody had always been a fool. Of course, they needed them. Potter could not even find his own socks without her.
"Despite it all I am always quite surprise why you were touching her. The ink spot on your arm proves how much you think of her kind. " Moody growled and pointed his wand towards Severus's left arm.
" Or had you not showed it to her? I think you should tell her what you thought about her kind and that you still do" Moody added. Severus stared back with a cold dead expression. He was not going show it. He could not let her see it.
" Tell her what you do to muggles at your death eaters get togethers? How you treated them? Where she going to join the party?" Moody grilled him. Angst spread through Severus. He could not lose her. He hated those meetings. He hated how they treated the muggles, even he was young and loathed their kind. His black eyes flickered towards Hermione who stood completely frozen, looking down at the couch. He could not see her facial expression, but he knew he had lost her. Her back was tense. He swallowed.
" Cat got your tongue, huh? Over you got caught. You slytherins are all the same-" Moody muttered before he was interrupted by Hermione.
" Auror Moody can I go to the bathroom, before we leave? I Think that would be for the best." Hermione asked without turning to them. Moody grumbled
" Fine, but no fun ideas." She seemed to nod behind her big hair.
She stepped away from the couch, and walked towards the bathroom. It was a flicker of Severus had seen of her facial expression, yet his worry grew. Did she hate him again? Thought of him as pathetic?
" The girl seemed to get her senses, at last. Even though you promised good grades I am surprise that she would agree to sleep with you" Moody said while he shook his head.
" Hermione does not sleep with her professors to get her grades." Severus bited. Moody just looked upset.
" That might be but things are looking quite different now. Such a clever girl and throwing it away for you" Moody said somberly. The taste of vomit return to Severus's mouth. Both of them had ruined everything because they had started to grow fond of each other. He swallowed the taste.
" I must admit that I thought that you could not, …you know" Moody mumbled with a pale face. Severus felt his entire face went white. No no he could not handle that. But Moody just kept on.
" It is just Black always talked that the reason why you are so bitter, were because of a nasty scar that goes down from your navel and you properly could never get -" Moody never had a chance to finish that horrifying sentence, before he was caught off by something flying. The sliver object met the side of Moody, made him trimble forward down towards the floor. A flash of recent past appeared in Severus's mind as Moody's head met the side of the table. Moody looked like Mclaggan for a second, especially when it landed on the floor. Small drops of blood pickled out from the side of Moody's ruined face. Severus stood frozen until Hermione came forward with her wand in her hand.
" I could not let him take you and place you in Azkaban. Or fire you. I can't" She said with a translucent face and her eyes were wide in fear. She had attacked an auror. Something which was quite illegal. That could get her expelled. But still a glimpse of joy shortly danced within Severus's chest. She had been afraid to lose him. To lose him. The second was beautiful until she crossed her arms.
" What are we going to do now?"
She asked as her gaze towards Moody. Stupidly enough Severus answered truthfully.
" I am not sure" Hermione flickered her gaze down towards her naked feet, before she looked back towards Moody.
" Do you think that he will be okay? " She said as knelt down towards Moody. Her whole hand shook as she placed a finger on Moody's pulse. Moody grabbed it and crushed it with his fingers.
"You little traitor. We are trying to safe your kind and then you jumped into bed with a deathbed. You stupid traitor. Some like that will you leave the second they get fill. You mean nothing to him" He muttered angrily at her. Hermione screamed as he added an extra pressure. Severus reacted without thinking and dashed over to her. He grabbed the wand from the floor.
" Stupefy" He hissed and pointed it towards Moody. Moody' s head drop to floor. Hermione stumbled back with tears rolling her cheeks. Severus walked over Moody and knelt down before Hermione.
" Are you alright?" Severus muttered. She nodded while she bited her lip. Tears fell again. Both of them thought only on two things?
. If Pomfrey had told Moody, who else had she told? And was their future doomed before it had begun? Also they could not wait the potion. They needed to act fast.
" I obviate Moody and place him somewhere if you go heal Mclaggan." Severus said. Hermione just nodded sadly.
" Can I hold you before I leave ? " Hermione asked as her eyes seek his. She was terrified over her own action and possible outcome for their future. Despite that time was running dry, he nodded and she flew into his arms. Maybe they could just for a couple of minutes?
"Please promise that you will give this, us a chance. " She muttered with a slight of begging.
Severus knew that he should have lied yet he just answered truthfully " I will. Promise "
Apparently the story has grown more than I expect, so there will be two more chapters. Chapter four and chapter five will be out is 30th of December. I will try to get something out before, but for now that will be the dates. I will post some snipbits if that is alright