Crosshairs' P.O.V.
Jamie has been doing better the past month. I can't say she's as she was at the beginning of the year as we want because she's still not eating much and still struggling mentally. This is more like trying to act like she's ok, but not realizing she's doing a terrible job. We've been able to continue our routine watching T.V. with the terror twins, Lightning, and Lily. I hate not knowing how to help my friends, and I know this hurts Drift. Even though we've been talking about our mental health, I don't think it's helping him. I think I'm more worried about him than he worries about me.
"Drift?" I ask as I put the cup on the coffee table, worried, "Drift!"
Scrap anxiety attack. At least he's laying in bis bed. I grab the drug I might need and a syringe, but keep it in the packaging, and the small container we keep the needles in. I put the items on his nightstand. Hopefully, I don't need to do this. Then I can avoid figuring out how to tell Jamie that Drift is going to be asleep for a few hours.
Crosshairs: Ratchet, Drift is having an anxiety attack. Should I text Sunstreaker to go somewhere private and call him? Put him on speaker to help get Drift to calm down?
Ratchet: I'm not sure if that'll help.
Damn it, I hope this isn't going to be difficult to get him to calm down.
"Drift, Jamie is ok. She's with our friends."
I Take his hand, uncertain what else to do.
Sunstreaker's P.O.V.
Lily was hoping to get Jamie to play video games with her and Sideswipe, but I told her we're just going to watch T.V. we've been watching T.V. for an hour, but Jamie has fallen asleep.
Not even up for three hours. Sideswipe says through the bond.
You know this is normal, unfortunately.
We know Crosshairs and Drift don't wake Jamie up unless they have to. They would have asked one of us to stay in their room if Lightning couldn't, so we know this is depression even if she has been doing better.
Sideswipe can't believe I have a blanket in my subspace.
"What? She made me," I claim, pointing to Lily.
"I thought he would think to be prepared for anything. Now you're prepared for Jamie being asleep," Lily argues.
"Sounds like an old couple bickering," Epps jokes, "oh my bad, I can watch T.V. in my room."
"We could take Jamie back to Crosshairs and Drift's room," I tell him.
"No, don't. I'm not sure if it's wise with her mental state. I know, sounds silly, but better to avoid any potential crying."
With that, Epps leaves the room as Crosshairs walks in. I tell him Jamie just fell asleep. Not expecting him to tell us Drift had an anxiety attack. He didn't have to use drugs, but Drift is asleep. Forget what Epps said now, Drift needs to see Jamie when he wakes up, but will she wake up first? Then the two laying together might be a bad idea. We decide to keep Jamie here. Though Lily argues we should take Jamie back upstairs.
"I hate how complicated this is," Sideswipe sighs, "and there's not much we can do."
"I think staying at one of Cade and Vivian's houses would be better," Lily says. Crosshairs isn't sure if that would help Jamie. It's getting concerning how much Drift is worrying. If anxiety attacks are going to be frequent, then we have a problem.
Drift's P.O.V.
I've been asleep for two hours. I Hope Jamie isn't being difficult. She normally wouldn't be, but with her mental state lately...
It's good she's playing video games with Lily and Sideswipe. Though not good that Jamie just woke up. She was awake for two hours before falling asleep for two hours.
In some ways, she's doing better, but it's not great when a new concern arises.
I know the twins and Lily are not liking there's not much they can do to help. It's hard knowing this is going to take months, but then there's the issue that's looking impossible to deal with. Even Crosshairs looks uncertain the small goal we have will be achieved.
I hate feeling like all we're doing is making sure she eats and is safe — though we can't stop her from using instant transmission. Like I'm supposed to accept that I can't make her happy. That we can't make her happy.
"You need to talk to Rung," Crosshairs whispers.
"What's he going to do? Even if I tell him everything."
"Says the mech who's mad if I don't talk about how I'm feeling," Crosshairs smiles, "but I think you need to talk to him rather than friends."
"You both should go," Sunstreaker whispers, "I can tell her that Lily still wants to spend time with her. We'll just leave out where you two went. Rung will understand if you have to leave before he says you can leave."
Rung can't believe Sunstreaker is the one who told us to come to his office. As I thought, Rung couldn't help us much. This was just telling him mostly how were feeling. Such a waste of time. Crosshairs and I are back in the lounge room before Jamie wakes up.
The afternoon is good. Lily, Sideswipe, and Jamie played video games for three hours before we decide it's time for dinner.
amie is fine sitting with Lily and Sideswipe. Though Sunstreaker told Sideswipe he'll have to make his own dinner.
With no one else in the kitchen, Sunstreaker asks if Crosshairs and I are doing ok.
"No, I-I don't think we can help her like we want. Nothing is going to get better."
I still can't get used to Sunstreaker choosing to hug anyone as he hugs me.
"It's strange seeing you like this," Sunstreaker says, and it's disappointing that this is going to be a long process, but we're used to dealing with Jamie's mental health."
"This is complicated, but she has support," Crosshairs adds.
I know they worry and hate there's not much we can do to help Jamie right now. I don't believe they're not worried that we can't help Jamie.