A/N- Okay got to say I am sorry for not updating last week and on time this week as well. But life doesn't wait for the story I am writing now does it. I was a bit busy as we are renovating our home a bit, and my studies so I can actually hold a decent job, but enough of my problems and on to my story. Hope it is as good as I feel writing it. Do review. Constructive criticism is always welcomed and needed I believe. I don't own Gossip Girl except Phoenix who's got her own story to tell you, readers. Hope you enjoy it.
New York. It has always stood out for Blair. The bustling street filled with beautiful people tucking their beautiful problem away within the confinement of their soul, laughter bouncing off the roof and tingling the senses of an almost asleep person, lights burning brighter than the sun and streets busy with honking and chattering, it was a music really and the air crisp and the right amount of cold which sends a shivering darling into her lover's warm arm. It was always beautiful and will always be. But New York was also a nightmare for some, every corner sparking a different heartache for many. Serena elbowed the girl sitting beside her to gauge her reaction to the changes or maybe consistency she left behind 2 years ago.
"So..?" she uttered waiting for Blair to say something.
"It's beautiful" Blair whispered, her voice heavy with emotion, tears on the verge of falling. However if there's anyone who knows how to hide feelings it's Blair and so Serena saw Blair gulp down the pain and ache and smile widely at the thing their companion was pointing at. The so called minion on gossip girl blog was Blair's friend/roommate Phoenix who is still a surprise to Serena. Blair was never the type to be friends with girls like Phoenix.
"O mi god I can't believe I am in New York" she screamed to the utter dismay of their driver who coughed after a while so as to make her stop.
"Why the hell have I never been to New York before?" she questioned to no one in particular
"Well…" but before Blair could aid utter another word, Phoenix clasped her hand onto Blair's mouth silencing her, Phoenix's brown eyes glaring daggers in Blair's direction.
It was fun to watch both of them argue around like sisters and suddenly the smile fell off Serena's face. She remembers the time not long ago when Blair and she had the same tuning.
Shaking her head, Serena looked back at the quibbling girls to see Phoenix send a middle finger Blair's way, who couldn't help but snort at the action.
Blair looked at Serena to laugh and whisper "Real Classy" which didn't fell on deaf ears and they heard "Real Bitchy" escape Phoenix's mouth.
Serena never felt jealousy in her life when it came to Blair, it was usually other way around but she can see, the way Blair looked at Phoenix. The girls were each other confidante. Holding each other tight, keeping each other strong and Serena felt like a third wheel. Like a person looking from outside in.
However Blair was the flame and Serena felt like a tossed out doll in the winter night, so she just held onto Blair's arm and laid her head on Blair's shoulder, who sighed in content. The moment was comfortable, Serena could feel the warmth oozing out of Blair and Serena's soul was sucking it all in, quenching the thirst that was absent for 2 long years without her best friend. A lazy smile graced her lips and she closed her eyes. She felt Blair move and opened her eyes to see Blair extend her hand towards Phoenix who without looking held onto her hand and she felt the same twitch in her heart.
There are many synonyms for what she was feeling.
Jealousy. Resentment. Envy.
She took a deep breath and try to push the feeling away. Bury it within the soul. The Blair is within the arms reach, she reminded herself and snuggled more into embrace.
"I will show you all my favorite places" Blair whispered as she too gazed out of the window to which Phoenix gave her a grin and nod both unaware of the war the blonde beauty held within
He sighed, seems like that is the only thing he can do at his own will. Nate felt miserable even if he doesn't look it. He turned to look out the window to stare at nothing but the blur.
"The world waits for no one Nathaniel" he can hear his grandfather's voice loud and clear. And who is he to know anything about the world and how it work. And so he just does what he is told to do. Like a lone leaf blowing here and there with the breeze, unaware of its goal and meaning, unaware of what he is needed for exactly.
He still remembers that moment. They were barely 8 years old, unaware of the cruelty world can bestow upon others for its own amusement. Unaware of the dark whispers that goes on behind the curtains, where music is lively and food is fresh. They were so tiny and just so innocent?
They were at Blair's, more specifically in her room, the freshly renovated room. It fitted Blair very well. He was lying on her bed, shoes off of course, munching on the macaroons, stuck in his thoughts. Serena's wild untamed hair were still bouncing in his vision while Chuck was vocalizing his thoughts on why nanny should be hot when he felt her presence. The presence that needs to be answered and so he looked up at her and smiled, she smiled back. She always smiled back at him and Chuck has once told him, she is into him so she was extra sweet to her because he was into her too, only Chuck didn't knew then.
"Hey" Nate whispered patting the seat next to him beside the box of macaroons he brought for her because she was into them too. And so she made her way to him, took one into her little hands and bite into it, her eyes alight from the small happiness he gave her.
"So what you guys were doing?" Blair asked looking at Serena who was busy trying to walk in the heels her mother brought this weekend.
"Trying to find an answer to Nate's question" Serena muttered as she tumbled before gaining balance, a grin ever present on her face.
"What question?" Blair asked and Chuck came onto her other side, an arm slinging onto her shoulder.
"Yeah Nate tell her" Chuck was teasing him now.
"Umm..well what do you want to be when you grow up?" Nate asked her, shy and embarrassed, of course she wants to be a lawyer just like her father, he knew always.
"Well.. as happy as I am in this moment" she grinned biting onto the macaroon again, her answer making him grin himself, he felt his heart shattering in its cage.
As happy as I am in this moment.. The words were forever ingrained in his mind, even if the answer made chuck scoff which started an argument between Blair and Chuck. They couldn't realize the impact the words have on Nate.
The memory, the moments they are the happy pills, an euphoria which leaves a person behind wanting more and he too was missing the good old days when everything was so simple and still so beautiful.
He felt his phone vibrate and opened to see a blast from gossip girl. The blast was from an hour ago and he knew in that moment, he need to cancel the meeting and turn around. But should he? Its an important meeting. His grandfather have big plans for him and this meeting is everything he need to set his career. But do he need it? Really?
Before he can even fanthom what his body was doing, he had his phone on his ear, ringing, waiting for the receiver to pick up fast.
"Nathaniel?" he heard the confusion, he knew his grandfather would be pissed at what he is about to do but
"Sorry grandfather but there's something I need to do. You may need to reschedule the meeting."
"Are you serious?" William hissed.
"Haven't been more serious in my entire life" and with that he ended the call. He will deal with his grandfather later, Blair comes first.
Dan felt his hand twitch in his pocket, a nervous sweat breaking from his forehead. He knew coming to Blair's penthouse at the moment is stupidity, he will have to greet people he don't feel like seeing at the moment or ever if he can have his way, or maybe he wants to see Serena.
Isn't that why he here?
The beautiful Serena who needed him the most after Blair's departure, the one and only he pushed away because she cannot make up her mind about either him or Nate, his enticing angel who has no regret leaving him in a blink of an eye to be enveloped in the arms of Nate.
Stop imagining it, he scolded himself and took a long breathe as the elevator dings opened.
The first thing he saw was somebody already standing in front of him, at the entrance of the elevator, Blair he thought but seeing the leather jacket and skinny fit jeans, he knew she isn't Blair.
He coughed to grab her attention and she turned around so fast that her hair whipped him in the face.
"Oh shot I am sorry" she whispered, touching at Dan's face. He pushed her hands away and coughed a bit more, feeling the heat burning his cheeks.
"It..its alright" he whispered looking quizzically at the girl looking at him with confusion. They stood at the entrance, staring the other down, she seems like she was taking in his appearance, studying him, her mouth set in a frown of sort.
"You…Dan?" she asked then and he was surprised that she knew him.
"Umm yeah….i…I am Dan" he felt himself getting more embarrassed for what reason only lord knows.
"And you are?" he asked then.
"Oh..ofcourse.. Phoenix..Hi" she extended her hand that he took but before he can shake they moved their head towards the elevator as it dinged again.
"Wait when did it went down" he thought.
His eyes widened as he saw Chuck come out, his expression unreadable, Nate behind him loosening his tie, a nervous energy electrifying the atmosphere with its presence, suddenly a door above their head swing open and they all heard two girly voices giggling as they were talking about some incident that happened in their youth.
"You are so lying" Dan heard Serena say with excitement as Blair was trying to hush her and then girls eyes fell on the people occupying the entrance, Dan and Phoenix still in the handshake, Chuck glaring daggers at Blair, while Nate waved his hand from behind them all, a bit awakwardly.
"You guys" Blair whispered her eyes watering…"Welcome Home" she smiled.
Welcome Home Indeed.
As I was looking through my research trying to figure out who the hell our mystery commoner is, one of you sent me a picture of Chuck and Nate heading into the kingdom of our Queen. Are we in for a drama or are we in for a drama… I will keep you all feeding if you will give me the key ingredient I promise. You know you love me.. your one and only.
XOXO
Gossip Girl.