Chapter 11: As Expected, Her Feelings Were Lost In Translation
Foreword: Hello, it's been a while, how have you all been? I hope you're doing well as it's time for another installment of Infinite Loner. We're now driving through the Inter-Class arc, and I have no plans of stopping any time soon, so rejoice, I might write something festive for the holidays. Sometimes I can't believe that 180 people care about what I have to say. Thank you all so much for giving this story a chance. As for the chapter, let's just say, Hachiman can't catch a break at IS Academy. So much for that quiet life, huh? Also, did anyone ask for a flashback? Okay, okay, I've rambled for long enough, so here comes Infinite Loner Chapter 11- As Expected, Her Feelings Were Lost In Translation.
Infinite Loner- POV shift, line break "When it comes to losing..."- Dialogue
Disclaimer: I do not own Infinite Stratos, Oregairu, or any other intellectual properties that may appear in this story. Please don't sue me.
"Hey, Ichika, is that someone wearing an outfit similar to the famous electric mouse?"
"Where, where?" Being the proud media fan I am, Hachiman's question immediately piqued my interest, and I frantically began searching for the "said" classmate. Unfortunately, all I found in my search was... was, what's her name? Let's just call her Casual-san for now and her trademark "animal?" sweatshirt over her uniform. She always had that easy-going air around her, and she even shortened my name to "Orimu.". If that doesn't tell you what type of person she is, I don't know what will. I never understood how that outfit passed the school's dress code. I wear a hat one time, and Chifuyu- I mean, Orimura-sensei yells at me to no end. It's so unfair.
Anyway, as I came to that realization, Hachiman left the classroom, probably using his so-called "Stealth Hikki" skill. He's so immature about the weirdest things. Seeing no purpose in staying in the room, I rose from my seat and started walking to the cafeteria. Remembering Rin's earlier declaration ("We'll talk later Ichika."), this free period would be the perfect time for us to catch up and commemorate our reunion as the group, as Hachiman had called it, "The Tragic Trio of Chiba Central Middle School.". After taking, a few steps outside the classroom, I saw the others talking together, just like old times.
"Where do you think you're going, Hachi-kun. Trying to avoid me, perhaps?" Rin, of course corners Hachiman.
"No, I was just taking the quiet route to the cafeteria so I could talk with you and Ichika, of course... Yeah, I love friendship." And then Hachiman comes up with some excuse for his action. With how well I knew the self-proclaimed "loner," I can read his thought processes like a book. It's obvious that he only spouted that line as camouflage for his intent of ditching Rin and hiding for the temporary break. So predictable.
"Great, then let's go together!" Rin cheerily replied as she turned around and then subtly invited me on their trip to the cafeteria. "Care to join us, Ichika?"
"Of course. It's been a while since we've all been together." I accepted, and we all walked to the cafeteria...
Well, two of us, "Boo, Ichika, I thought we were friends. Why didn't you help me out earlier?" Hikigaya apathetically complained as Rin dragged him across the hall by his collar. He gave up walking once I joined and allowed her to treat him like a human suitcase. Just how lazy are you? Not even in middle school would this have happened. At least pretend to put up a fight. Even though Hachiman was different, our dynamic brought me another wave of nostalgia from our short but memorable time in middle school...
Infinite Loner
Classes had just ended, and it was a mental slog, as usual. The material just enters into one ear and quickly exits out the other. It just doesn't make any sense. Knowing the consequences of Chifuyu-nee for not performing adequately on tests, I sought academic help from my introverted friend. Walking to the back of the classroom, I explained," Hachiman, I think I need your help in class again. At this rate, I may fail the next test."
His cold fish-eyes seemed to be deep in thought for a moment before replying," *sigh* Knowing Nee-san, I don't have a choice as she'll blame me if you fail, and I'm not keen on suffering the consequences... Ok, how about this, I come over to your place at noon tomorrow? Maybe this time we can get some actual progress done..."
"Why can't we go to your house?"
His voice grew quieter, "I don't want a repeat of the incident. Komachi won't stop hounding me about it, and it's annoying."
Suddenly a new voice joined the conversation," So what are you talking about, Hachi-kun?" It was Rin, who, in "regular" fashion, passively listened in on our conversation.
"Geez, you almost gave me a heart attack. What's your problem?" Hikigaya almost jumped out of his seat in shock. He always had the strangest reactions to these... almost like he never had friends before.
"Don't blame the player; blame the game, Hachi-kun. It's not my fault that I enjoy conversations about interesting topics. So about that study session." Rin tried worming her way closer into our plans, but...
"Denied! You would just distract Ichika and annoy me, leading to no work being done that day. If you're so insistent on fooling around with Ichika, I'm better off just not helping and enjoying some quality time with my precious little sister." He immediately rejected her. As usual, Hachiman did not attempt to hide his siscon tendencies.
"You know what, Hachi-kun, you're disgusting." She flatly answered the loner.
"I will not r-retract my statement no matter what you say, slave-driver." He stumbled over his words, but Hachiman shakily voiced his opinion. *sigh* If only he were more confident... Maybe he would have more friends.
*pulls puppy-dog eyes* "Come on, Ichika, I can help you study too, right?" Oh no, her ultimate move: Extreme Guilt-trip. It's not the best idea, but... I can't resist when you put it that way.
"Ok, I don't see why not. Studying is always more efficient when larger groups gather anyway." I quickly relented and sealed the fate of our "study session."
The next day, we never got any work done, as Rin and I grew immediately bored hitting the books and forced Hachiman into having fun at the local arcade.
Good times.
Infinite Loner
While I remembered that fond memory, my body unconsciously reached the cafeteria, ordered food, and soon joined the others sitting at an open table. It appears that I was not the only one paying attention to the duo, as some of my classmates, notably Houki and Cecilia, were sitting suspiciously close by.
"So now that we're all set, someone has a lot of explaining to do." Rin pointedly questioned the third occupant at the table.
"Huh, you're talking to me?" The loner feigned ignorance, and with his words, the cafeteria grew eerily quiet.
"Of course, who else could I be referring to?"
"Well, Ichika is sitting right next to you, so your words need to be a bit more direct."
"Ok, how about this... Hikigaya Hachiman, would you kindly elaborate on the past two years we haven't spent together."
"Oh, is that ramen you have there, Rin. I see your taste hasn't changed since middle school; actually speaking of food, how have your parents and their restaurant been as I haven't visited in a while."
"They're fine... Would you please stop avoiding the question, or do I have to force your compliance!" My second childhood friend's patience was clearly wearing thin as she partially deployed her IS's arm to threaten Hikigaya.
"Woah, slow down, friend, as there's no need to act so rashly and enquire the wrath of Orimura-sensei, our ever benevolent dorm advisor. I was only trying to be considerate and attempt small talk, seeing that our relationship experienced a long hiatus." That's weird Hikigaya flipped the script of his usual behavior towards Rin. Where's the hesitance or subservience? When did he somehow become so socially competent? If this was still in middle school, he would most likely stutter or quietly mumble his words. Something must have happened for him to act this way. And knowing Hachiman, it probably wasn't good.
"...fine, I'll calm down, but that doesn't excuse you from delivering the backstory that everyone wants to hear." Rin's temper cooled after the loner's warning, subsequently gesturing to the cafeteria's keen interest in the male pilot's origin story.
"*sigh* I guess if everyone cares so much, I must oblige. Long story short, you transferred, and the Idiot and I started our second year of middle school: mistakes were made, he left, I went to a park, applied to IS Academy, passed the entrance exam, met a weird lady, and ended up here. There, I explained my past, happy?" Hikigaya heavily rushed through his recollection of the past two years he spent separated from Rin.
"Of course, knowing you, why would I even expect anything less than the bare minimum. Why can't you be easy to talk to like Ichika." Rin sighed and facepalmed after hearing Hikigaya's abridged story. I shared her frustration, understanding that the loner only functions in two modes: incredibly cryptic and passive or the occasional flash of arrogance.
"Hachiman-san, what is your relation to this restaurant woman?"
"I don't know her or you, for that matter. Also, "Hachiman-san" isn't that a bit too informal, ojou-san?"
"What are you implying with that statement, Hachiman-s..."
"Mmm..." Cecilia tried speaking up against Hachiman, but the loner started to stare at her, his fish eyes boring into her existence.
"Hikigaya-kun." Until she went back on her words and backed down.
"How rude, Hachi-kun. You should treat women better." Rin tried lecturing him on his actions.
"I don't care." But Hikigaya showed no interest in listening.
"What have you been hiding about your past, Hachiman? I never thought that you of all people talked to girls, let alone knew one." Houki decided to insert herself into the conversation by questioning the loner.
"As I said, gorilla, I do not know this slave-driver; she's confused me for the wrong person."
"Oh, jealous, are we?" Rin implied Houki's and Cecilia's sudden interest in the loner's past
"What's there to be envious for, slave-driver? Unless it's our relationship which is not existent, by the way."
"Stop talking, Hachi-kun. You're making me look bad." Rin whispered to the loner while harshly glaring at him.
"..." Apparently, Hikigaya didn't have the energy to argue back and just sat silent.
"As I was saying, I'll have you know that Hachi-kun and I go way back to our first year of middle school, where we were as close as two peas in a pod. I guess you could say that I'm his... childhood friend." Rin turned to face the two disruptors and smugly boasted about her relationship with Hikigaya.
"Oh, really." Hachiman rolled in eyes in response to her declaration. I shared his confusion at Rin's actions. Why did she need to emphasize the last part; I have no idea? What difference is there between a regular and a childhood friend, if both are just people you enjoy spending time with.
"Oh, ho, ho, ho! Why would I, an elite National Representative, personally fret over the private matters of commoners? I'm only exercising my noblesse oblige by looking out for the continued preservation of morality in the Academy, and this... miscreant sitting next to you poses the greatest threat to that." Cecilia's confident explanation was headlined by the ever-iconic "ojou-san" laugh...
Wow, I can't believe someone actually used it in real life; I only thought it was a joke, relegated to the realm of fiction. Apparently, I was not alone either, as everyone momentarily paused and stared at Cecilia to allow the realization to sink in.
"...Ignoring what just happened, I have a right to know the relationships of Hachiman, my good friend, former sparring partner, and pupil. We maintain full disclosure in all matters, being so friendly and all." Houki eventually fills the silence by rationalizing her nosy behavior to Rin.
Hikigaya's face was unreadable, probably deep in thought analyzing the situation like a supercomputer, before he quietly spoke up, "Ok, seeing that we've hit a bit of an impasse, I'll now be taking my leave. If anyone has any further questions, see my roommate, Orimura Ichika. Peace. *small explosion of smoke*" Did he have a smoke bomb on him and use it out of social exhaustion?.. Wait, no, it's probably be connected to his experimental IS, the Undefeated Champion, whose skills remain a mystery. I've never even seen any of its weapons deployed.
Once the said gas dissipated, the cafeteria was notably lacking the presence of one fish-eyed loner.
*triple glare* Hachiman, why couldn't you take me with you? "So Ichika care to explain?" The three of them simultaneously growled out the identical phrase in unison. Fortunately for me, fate worked my way as something interrupted my inevitable reply...
*end of lunch bell rings*
"Sorry, ladies, it looks like we're out of time, so maybe you can ask Hachiman later. See ya." My words were uttered very fast as I bolted out of the cafeteria to avoid the wrath of three blood-lusted girls out for a male IS pilot's head.
Next time I see Hachiman, I'm going to give that loner a piece of my mind for that little stunt he pulled. After all, even "Nice Guys" have their limits.
Infinite Loner
Phew, that was a close one there. I almost triggered "the angry harem" flag. I don't know why my classmates were after me, but who cares. I prevented something ugly from occurring in the cafeteria. Thankfully my IS skill (Stealth Mode) can be partially deployed in standby mode, with that plume of smoke being the one side effect. I think it's related to the Undefeated Champion's One-off Ability, but I'm not sure. I'll probably figure out the real reason later.
Next time I see Sachi, I should give her a virtual cookie, helping me escape a compromised position... Wait, I could pay her in Hachiman points which don't cost me a thing. I'm such a genius.
Once class started again, nothing seemed out of the ordinary besides the two death glares sent my way... Oh, that's actually normal, so life was very uneventful.
In any case, just as soon as it started, class ended for the day, and I had to attend to some extra-curricular activities, mainly some much-needed IS training. Even though my prior obligations to the gorilla's "regiment" were now null and void, the Inter-Class Rep Tournament was coming up, and practical training stood as my number one priority. I can't make Orimura-sensei's class look bad, you know~? No, seriously, she will kill me if I screw up, and I am not spending another summer running to death.
Not even bothering to wait for Ichika, I surreptitiously exited the classroom, traveling to the locker room. I know how I described it sounds impressive, but my journey was just me taking the long route to avoid others. Nothing too complicated.
Inside, I changed into the ridiculously tight "flight suit" (top 10 life hack: to save time, I just wear it under my uniform). Why? Because Tabane probably had some fever dream telling her, "We can't have wires be attached to regular clothes, now can we? How about making everyone instead look like skimpy swimsuit models."; and knowing her eccentric personality, she happily agreed... Ok, it may not necessarily be her fault, as world governments conducted significant research designing IS bodysuits. After some light digging, I found that the current rendition is the most conducive to tracking pilot vitals and machine responsiveness... Making it only an unwanted coincidence that it ended up looking this way.
Every time I look at the generic female flight uniform, a blue swimsuit, yes, the one of school fame, part of my soul dies. How would anyone in their right mind put up with this stuff? Apparently, they wear bloomers for physical education class... bloomers! What year is it again? It's not fanservice if they wear it every single day, just creepy. Besides, even if I wanted to "enjoy the view," it might cost me my life with how strong the students are here. Thankfully, I am not a man consumed by lust.
As for my uniform, the Academy at least had the tact to make it a two-piece design. Sure, it's tight, but I can preserve my modesty and look "decent" since the Undefeated Champion created a unique variation in a very appealing black and white color scheme. I'm so happy it wasn't yellow, as I would have cried if that was the case.
Right before I could leave the locker room, the other male IS pilot stopped me, "Why'd you leave me for the wolves there, Hachiman? I thought we were friends."
"Hey, is it just me, or does that line sound familiar? Almost like we were in the same situation today? And If I recall correctly, Ichika, what did you do back then..? Oh yeah, nothing, and left me to be exploited by Rin. Also, who did your introduction on the first day of school after you passed out of shock..? I think it was me. Do I even need to recall the numerous times I saved your rear in middle school? So who should be the one complaining of poor situations?"
My condescending argument worked as the Idiot sighed and retracted his foolish complaint, "Oh, did you hear? Cecilia and Houki are offering to help us today with IS training. Doesn't that sound like a sweet deal, the younger sister of IS's inventor and a National Representative Candidate both at our service?" Silly, Ichika, that offer may look solid on paper, but real people exist behind those titles...
"Well, look who it is, the famed Hikigaya-kun." The ojou-san waited on the Arena grounds as I walked out of the locker room. Uh, her attempts at grandeur fell flat as I rolled my eyes at her introduction. I'll never take you seriously now that I know the truth.
"Why are you here?" It took a lot of self-control for me to respond. I hated working, and her presence would inevitably precede unnecessary effort.
"Don't forget about me either, Hachiman. You've been acting distantly as of late, and I'd like to change that." And where there's smoke, there's fire.
"Oh, you two made it," Ichika commented as he stood behind me. And now I'm surrounded by my 3 least favorite people in the class. Hooray!
"I think I'll be taking my leave now..." I tried walking away before the situation could escalate any further.
"No need to rush, Hikigaya-kun," the ojou-san smiled as she charged up her BT drones... So escape is not an option, huh?
"Fine, if I can't leave, I will just carve out my own exit." I declared with a false bravado... Now I sound like the chuuni; what a great day I'm having.
"How about we have a two on two, me and Hachiman against you two," Ichika suggested while I was stretching.
"That works."
"The terms are agreeable."
"In that case... Come, Byakushiki!" Ichika summoned his IS.
"Let's prove their last victory was a mistake, Blue Tears!" The ojou-san followed soon after.
"Skill can overcome any technical gap, Uchigane!" The gorilla settled herself into the mass-production model. It quickly adjusted to her form. The Uchigane looks like a high-tech samurai with grey padded armor and a gleaming katana, justifying the comparison.
Leaving one IS remaining, "*sigh* This probably will not end well... Solitude is my strength, and logic is my sword!" I called upon the Undefeated Champion, and it responded with a bright flash. While temporarily blinded, I could feel matter latch onto my body until the light dispersed, completing the deployment. The Undefeated Champion stood tall, ready for battle.
IS Academy Practice Match
[Shinonono Houki- Uchigane (Offensive Variant): Shield Energy- 90/90% and Cecilia Alcott- Blue Tears: Shield Energy- 90/90%]
Versus
[Orimura Ichika- Byakushiki: Shield Energy- 100/100% and Hikigaya Hachiman- Undefeated Champion: Shield Energy- 100/100%]
Match Start
"Ichika, you fight left, and I'll cover your right!" I exclaimed to my impromptu partner. Even though it went against most of my beliefs, I had to cooperate with him to get this fight over quickly. The last thing I needed was some long, drawn-out battle. Three personal ISs fighting tended to attract a lot of attention, you know~?
"Got it!" He replied and started charging toward the gorilla, hoping to catch her off-guard.
"Tsk, tsk, Ichika-san, I will not allow you to pass so easily!" The ojou-san exclaimed as she aimed her BT drones at him.
"Boom!" They fired, and Ichika was forced to dive out of the way.
"Zoom!" I rushed in with my close-range daggers to engage the ojou-san, who appeared distracted by my roommate.
"Clash!" My offensive was stopped by Shinonono, her blade holding me back.
"Did you forget about me, Hachiman?" She asked with a wide grin. Oh, no, she's enjoying this. ("How does it feel, Hachiman? Pitiful, right?"). I'm getting kendo flashbacks!
"Tch, you ruined my plan," I grumbled in disappointment.
"Hachiman, I think I need your help!" Ichika exclaimed from across the arena as the ojou-san rained fire on him.
"Can't you see that I'm busy?" Our opponents were clearly outperforming us in isolated engagements; we needed to adjust our plan of attack.
"Keep your head in the game, Hachiman, or you might lose it." The gorilla growled as she applied more strength to her attack. Where is all this power coming from? I'm giving it everything I have, and it's not enough.
"You can't kill what you can't see." I teased while disengaging from the clash, tossing one of my daggers into the arena floor, creating a plume of dust.
"What? Where are you, Hachiman?" My opponent was shocked at my move and temporarily lost sight of me. I used this opportunity to retreat from the Uchigane and gain some breathing room in the fight.
"You cannot outrun me, Ichika-san!"
"Anything is possible, Cecilia!" I saw that the ojou-san was still preoccupied with harassing my teammate... Great, this was my chance to strike. I summoned my secondary weapon, a bow, and steadied my aim on Blue Tears...
"1, 2,3, go!.. Whoosh," I fired my arrow, and it sliced through the air; before cleanly hitting its target. Success!
"Who wounded me?" The ojou-san asked, confused at her sudden dip of shield energy. She looked around before setting her sights on me, "Oh, so it was you, Hikigaya-kun?"
"Nice shot, Hachiman!" Ichika celebrated the newfound lack of pressure on him.
"You're wide open, Hachiman!" While I was busy admiring my efforts, the gorilla charged at me, her blade looking to take huge chunks out of my defenses.
"This isn't good," there was no time to counter, leaving only one option, minimize the blow. I raised my fists to the Uchigane's weapon, hoping to cushion the impact.
"Boom!" It didn't work, and I was sent flying... You know, I've never been one for rollercoasters, but their speed pales in comparison to receiving an IS strike. It felt like the world was spinning when I made my abrupt landing on the arena floor.
"That was rougher than I expected... Ouch!" I mused while struggling out of the newly created crater. Those pain-limiting properties of IS are a scam, I tell you. A scam! My body ached all over, even though the Undefeated Champion appeared to not have sustained much damage.
"Dance, Ichika-san, to the waltz of Cecilia Alcott and Blue Tears!"
"Your form is weak, Ichika!"
"This is supposed to be a practice match? Why are you two so bloodthirsty?" From above, I saw that my teammate was not faring too well. He struggled to create any distance and activate the Byakushiki's One-off ability. His shield energy points were in freefall and would soon be depleted. I should probably help him to prevent a repeat of Houki-sensei's lessons... Never again.
"Whoosh!" I rocketed off the arena floor into the ensuing sky battle, deploying two daggers.
"You have not addmited defeat yet, Hikigaya-kun?" The ojou-san was the first to notice my presence.
"..." I remained silent as I dove in to strike Blue Tears.
"Slash!" My attack connected, and I scored another blow on the ojou-san... Let's go, Hachiman!
"I admire your bravery, but..." She didn't appear that fussed at my attack. What's going on?
"I tried my best, Hachiman, but... it wasn't enough."
[Orimura Ichika- Byakushiki: Shield Energy- Depleted]
I turned to see Ichika out of the fight, his IS disengaged... Of course, things have to end this way. No wonder the ojou-san wasn't that worried about my second hit.
"You're surrounded, Hachiman. Do you know what that means?" Shinonono appeared behind me, a cold grin lining her face.
"What shall you do now, Hikigaya-kun?"
"Is surrender an option?"
"NO!" They replied and proceeded to charge at me from opposite directions. The ojou-san had her BT drones locked onto me, and the gorilla brandished her blade like a lethal predator.
"My high school life is so wrong," I muttered right before their attacks connected.
"Boom!"
Infinite Loner
My earlier predictions were proven correct as my "training" proceeded swimmingly. Ichika quickly lost, and I was soon to follow. We were both unable to attack our opponents and spent most of the "fight" running away... So much for the world's only two male pilots.
The session ended with a combined slash and blast from the ojou-san and gorilla, making the Undefeated Champion crash into the arena's floor, forcing the machine's deactivation, leaving me lodged in another crater.
"You're weak, Hachiman and Ichika."
"And to think that you of all people bested me, Hikigaya-kun. I am severely disappointed. Doubly so for Ichika-san." And my opponents pulled no punches in pointing out my weakness... It's not like I'm already aware of these issues.
"It was our second fight. What do you expect from us?" Ichika complained as he offered me a hand to help. I rejected his offer and proceeded to climb out myself.
"This won't be the last you see of us, male pilots."
"There will be more practice sessions soon." The girls remarked as they retreated to the locker room.
"Oh, great, can't wait for more," I replied, my voice devoid of excitement...
Ichika and I made our way out of the arena and into another locker room. It was the only one that male pilots could use.
"So, Hachiman, what will it take for us to improve?"
"What do you mean, us? I have no interest in getting stronger anytime soon."
"We can't let those girls continue to push us around. It feels unnatural."
"Ichika, you're living in the past. Thanks to IS, women dominate society. It's not a surprise that the ojou-san and gorilla crushed us."
"Doesn't it frustrate you, Hachiman? The way they toyed with us, as cats do with mice?"
"Where is this inferiority coming from, Ichika? I thought you were all about friendship."
"Don't get me wrong, I don't hate Houki or Cecilia. It's just that... I partly enrolled in IS Academy to make a name for myself. Step out of Chifuyu-nee's shadow, and become someone worthy of association with her. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but not this difficult. Houki didn't even need a personal IS to beat us. What if she had one? And to think there are tons of students in our year alone, just as formidable as her..."
"Hmm, I see," I commented, somewhat curious about my roommate's inner struggles. Even Wonder Boy has his issues, then... Interesting.
"*sigh* I'm sorry if my monologue bothered you or anything. Can I go take the first shower?" Ichika apologized.
"Yeah," and he proceeded to leave the locker room, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
Reviewing my situation from the beginning. Why does my teacher have to be the world-renown IS pilot, Brunhilde? It has to be some cruel luck since I thought the days of endless marathons under the blazing summer sun were long behind me. However, those days could return at any moment, forcing me to stay on guard and conduct myself carefully. Not just in the classroom but after school, since nee-san was the dorm advisor.
As for the second point of contention: who decided that I needed to be in the same class as Orimura Ichika, of all people? The walking and talking anomaly somehow brings me misfortune whenever I'm with him and my closest fri- acquaintance, who abandoned me right before the bitter end. Sure, he showed a new side of himself today, but it doesn't excuse the numerous headaches he brought me in the past. All we need now is her, and the whole middle school gang is reunited.
Next, we have, why am I again stuck in another unnecessary fight without my input? I honestly tried my hardest to keep a low profile in high school and recall my role as society's background character but responsibility refuses to give up and leave me alone. Whether it be the ojou-san, brutish gorilla, or the slave-driver, everyone just finds me the most fascinating person in the world for some undisclosed reason. Is this my popular phase, the first year of high school?
No matter how many questions I ask, a single satisfying response refuses to answer them, except for the Rom-com Gods. They continued to chuckle at my expense and now decided to ruin my life further.
My entire childhood was spent chasing after friendship only to be shown contempt, scorn, and betrayal. So the Rom-com Gods seriously decided to reward me with some half-baked Romantic Comedy? Hilarious.
It's so refreshing just having a classic monologue. Here I don't have to worry about being heartbroken yet again or dealing with society's perpetual disappointments. All my walls can finally crumble. I'm not saddled by the blight of "youth" with its artificial cheer and the endless whispers of sweet nothings. Right now, I'm not the untouchable class rep or King of Loners, but Hikigaya Hachiman, someone just seeking a quiet life.
How long since I last had time to myself here at IS Academy? Probably a few days ago, when I was dismissed early for winning the Class Rep Cup, but that was ruined by my failed escape attempt. I almost miss Central (not), as at least there, people ignored me. In any case, no matter how much this school pushes me to step outside my comfort zone and... *gag* treat nice girls with respect and talk to people. It can't change my core values of peace and solitude. Friendship cannot compare to spending a quiet afternoon sitting under a tree, can of MAX in hand, without a care in the world.
"*sigh*," I released a building relaxed sigh as I enjoyed my newfound solitude. I had the time to observe my surroundings, listening to the slight humming of the golden lights illuminating the locker room. Sometimes I have to remind myself that IS Academy, for all its flaws, resides in the elite tier of schools. A place where only the upper echelon of society attend. If only those fools back in Central could see me now. The loner triumphed over the riajuu!
"Cold!" I winced in shock as I felt a cool sensation on my face. I turned to observe the source and saw a can of Georgia MAX Coffee dangling before my eyes. Today must be my lucky day, and I readily accepted the chilled offering. "Ahh~! Nothing beats a cold coffee after a long day of work." I grinned, satisfied with the world. Who knew that I liked MAX, though...
"Guess who~?" Someone decided to play this game again... What a pain. This time the voice sounds younger and the hands smaller, which can only mean "she's" here. I thought our conversation at lunch would be enough to satisfy her sadistic tendencies against me.
"What do you want, Rin? I'm tired, so please move." I coldly explained. Get it, because the drink is... Ok, I'll stop now.
"How could you be so distant from your best friend, Hachi-kun? I've been looking forward to this reunion for a long time, and here you are, ignoring me all day. I even brought you your favorite drink." I could not necessarily see her expression, but I guess it was a forced smile hiding her discomfort at my words. I've been in this scenario numerous times before, so I have almost a Sixth Sense for her mood swings.
"You know what, I'll say it now; thank you for the MAX, Rin. It's nice to see you've slightly matured," I snuck a quick glance at her form and saw a gentle slope... Ok, she hasn't changed in that regard. Well, we can't all be winners, I suppose.
"Hey, Hachi-kun, is it just me, or did you think something rude about me?" She asked through a thin smile.
"I have no idea what you're talking about." Recognizing the headwinds, I denied any responsibility for the stray thought.
"You're on thin ice..."
"Uh... It pains me to admit that I have many responsibilities hoisted on my shoulders as my class's representative, so my time to interact with others is tight, especially with the "Class-League tournament" looming on the horizon. Also, we were never friends, so can you please stop with this Hachi-kun nonsense? Name's Hikigaya Hachiman, emphasis on the Hikigaya part." For all I complain about it, winning the competition brought me one benefit, an excuse to avoid social interaction. Thank you, ojou-san, for being an incompetent IS pilot. This Hikigaya Hachiman is thankful for your massive superiority complex.
"Wow, so the rumors were true, and you actually beat Blue Tears in a fight," Rin slowly concluded, her gaze narrowing at the realization. What, is it that surprising that I won? Your doubt in my skills wounds my fragile ego, you know~? Are you not even considering the second half of what I said? You're too cruel. "What do you mean, Hachi-kun is Hachi-kun, after all. I can't refer to you any other way unless it's as..."
"Don't even finish that sentence, Rin. I am not interested in whatever teenage nonsense you're thinking of..."
"I saw your fight just now, Hachi-kun." Rin interrupted, changing the conversation's direction.
"Well, did you enjoy the show?" I asked with a bitter grin. She's probably going to make fun of me for losing so quickly... It's not like I haven't heard enough criticism today.
"So that's how you saw it... I see." She scanned my face before humming.
Let's get this show on the road, "As much as I would to stay and chat, there's a massive stack of math homework waiting for me, so if you'll excuse me." I attempted to pass Rin and leave the locker room. Here's the trick will girls like her; don't even try to fight, as it's a wasted effort, just run away. Before you ask, this isn't the whole "the math homework is actually video games" argument. When I woke up during class today, a massive quadratic formula assignment sat before me, and Orimura-sensei said it was due tomorrow, so I had a legitimate reason to avoid Rin. I'm not lying my way out of a problem... for once.
"I sincerely hope your rude behavior today was a fluke, but if it wasn't... What was the last promise we shared in middle school?" Her sweet voice contrasted her menacing glare to prevent my escape. *sigh* It looks like I'm being held hostage yet again. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I'm afraid of her; it's just that running away is more problematic than listening at this point... Yeah, problematic.
"I see that you've finally dropped the act, slave-driver. What do you really want from me this time? I can't believe it's actually to recall some long-forgotten memory."
"Don't be ridiculous, Hachi-kun. I only want to ask a question and hear your answer." And now she's grabbed onto my shoulder. What a drag.
"...I assume you're referring to the promise about free food. How could I forget about that? Easy meals are one of the core principles of my philosophy, and an offer like that seems surreal to single guys like me, or Ichika, you know~?"
"That's not the correct interpretation of it, Hachi-kun. You wouldn't want to toy with a maiden's heart, now would you?" Rin maintained a smile on her face, but her grip gradually tightened on my shoulders. This situation felt eerily familiar, making me worried about the near future.
"You do know who you're talking to, right? I'm Hikigaya Hachiman, a loner, someone who doesn't understand the nuances of social interactions, so it's fair to expect that I may have missed some of your words back then." Is this my attempt at resetting our relationship by forgetting one of our latest memories? Yes. Present-Hikigaya holds no responsibility for the decisions made by his earlier iteration. We're two completely different people. I'd feel satisfied if Rin never bothered me again.
"This is strange. Usually, Hachi-kun would back down or bend to my will, but now he's fighting back. Interesting." She muttered under her breath after I confidently replied to her. That's right, I'm not the same loner you knew from middle school, for I have gone further beyond into the realm of a SUPER LONER. "I guess my suspicions were confirmed, and you are different. However, that won't stop me in the slightest, as mark my words Hachi-kun, I'll beat you in the Inter-Class Tournament and shatter this facade you've created." Thank you, Rin, for giving me the motivation to win the next competition...
"Okay." I will not relapse and fall for youth's sweet nothings ever again, "The next time I see you both, I'll make the greatest lunch ever." A cheerful girl exclaimed.
"It's not like I care or anything, but are you serious that you won't forget about us the moment you leave and will actually visit?" A boy with messy hair reluctantly questioned.
"Don't worry, Hachi-kun, we'll be friends forever." Unbeknownst to that boy, those promises held weakly like a house of cards, crumbling at the slightest gust of wind.
Once bitten, twice shy.
Twice bitten, infinitely shy.
Never again shall I play the part of the fool.
Infinite Loner
"Also, we're not friends, so can you please stop with this Hachi-kun nonsense? My name's Hikigaya Hachiman, an emphasis on the Hikigaya part." He explains with his voice dripping in contempt.
"Why does he have to be so withdrawn? We don't see each other for almost two years, and our relationship is colder than a block of ice. Stupid, insensitive, heartless, Hachiman!" I wasn't joking when I said he could toy with a maiden's heart, as I complained in my room after apprehending Hachi-kun.
"So what are you whining about this time, Rin?" It was only our second night together, but my roommate, Tina, read my actions like a book. She sat on the opposite bed, idly reading a magazine, and showed little concern for my distress. Tina was apparently also a National Representative, but she resembled the loner more than that pompous ojou-san in class 1-1... Tch, just thinking about how close she is to Hachi-kun grinds my gears. They even practiced together today. Why couldn't they have put us in the same class?
[Flashback]
"1,2,3, go!" Hachi-kun exclaimed as he fired an arrow. I can't believe he could be so confident in combat. Where is that shy boy I met back in middle school? What happened to him for such a drastic change to occur?
"Who wounded me?... Oh, so it was you, Hikigaya-kun?" That ojou-san, Cecilia Alcott, noted as his attack connected.
"Grr, why does she get all the fun," I complained while watching the fight from Arena 3's stands. Aside from that ojou-san, there was also Shinonono Houki, Ichika's childhood friend (apparently the first one or something). Tch, just thinking about her makes me angry. Why are these girls surrounding Hachi-kun and Ichika? They're my friends, first and foremost.
"Crack!"
"Rin, if you squeeze any harder on the railing, you will crush it," Tina warned, drawing me away from my thoughts. I looked down at my hands and saw that Shenlong was partially deployed... That's not good; damaging school property will draw her attention. And the last thing I needed was another instance of Chifuyu's insane punishments.
"Yeah, sorry about that," I apologized, recalling the partial deployment. My gaze was laser-focused on Hikigaya Hachiman, trying to figure out the source of his strength. Ichika was one thing, being Chifuyu's younger brother, but the loner warranted my attention. He defeated that pompous ojou-san in a single attack. He had a D- compatibility, of all things.
"Whoosh!" Sure his moves are nothing too impressive, but it feels like he's holding back. What are you truly capable of, Hachi-kun?
[Flashback End]
"I work so hard to become an elite IS pilot and refine my personality, and that jerk couldn't care less! I don't know how it's possible, Tina, but that idiot somehow got stupider than before. Now he thinks the world revolves around him and that I'm just a pest. I was his first friend Tina, number one!" I continued venting all my pent-up frustration at Hachi-kun with my roommate. I'm so glad I was paired with Tina, as anyone else would question my meltdown, but she doesn't. In a way, her easygoing nature reminds me of Ichika, minus the black-hole levels of density.
"So, who are you even mad at, Rin? It's always "Hachi-kun" this and "Hachi-kun" that, but never anything more. *yawn* I can't really help you if I don't understand the root of the problem." Tina lazily added once my temper began teetering off. That's two days in a row now, when she was exhausted after school. What club activity could require that much energy for Tina to look so drained?
"Oh, I forgot to tell you, but remember those male pilots everyone's talking about?"
"Yeah, how could I not? You can't go five minutes without someone fawning over their exploits against that ojou-san last week. Not to mention the surprise practice match today."
"Well, you see... I have a complicated relationship with those two guys."
"You don't mean... a love triangle? I never thought I would see one in real life." Tina dropped her magazine in shock at my revelation. Why could she be so... Oh, maybe I worded that wrong.
"Hah, hah, hah. You're so funny, Tina, but it's not like that... At least right now. The three of us are friends, or we used to be." I lightly laughed off her animation before clearing up the misunderstanding. Me and Ichika as a couple, let alone Hachi-kun? That's hilarious!
"Ok, spill the tea then."
"Well, you see, in middle school..." I began explaining to Tina the origin story and exploits of the Tragic Trio of Chiba Central Middle School.
"Wow, that's interesting, Rin, especially the parts about this Hachi-kun. He seemed to be quite a colorful character. As for my opinion on the matter, I wouldn't worry too much about Hachi-kun since guys like him tend to get lonely quickly. If you avoid him long enough, he'll realize how foolish he was for ignoring you and come back begging for forgiveness... I just remembered... I forgot something at Club, so I'll be heading out for a bit."
"Ok, Tina, I'll see you later then, and thanks for listening to me. I will take your advice to heart." Tina quickly sprung off the bed and stormed out of the room once I finished talking. I wonder why she's in a hurry.
But the cold shoulder, how did I not think of that? Hachi-kun probably tried emulating one of his light novel protagonists for a successful high school debut. However, just like in middle school, with enough pressure, he'll melt into putty in my hands. Try all you want, Hikigaya Hachiman, but you will be mine...
Weird. Where did that come from?
Infinite Loner
Preview:
"Prez! Prez! I have big news to deliver!" One animated first-year student bursts onto the scene, a bright smile lines her face.
"Stop right there, Tina! There are other matters to attend to before we hear your report." The President of IS Academy's most mysterious club exclaims before the other student.
"But what could be more important?" The first-year questions, her explosive passion slowly cooling off in the process.
"Follow our lead, and you'll be fine... I am the president of our proud club, Mary Holmes!"
"And I'm the quaint and refined Isurugi Mio."
"Sarashiki Kanzashi."
"Oh, I get it... I'm the vibrant Tina Hamilton!"
The four girls exclaim in unison, "And welcome to the third iteration of the Hikigaya Hachiman Watch Party: After School Edition!"
"Oh, so that's what the cue-."
"Hah, hah, hah, don't bring that up, Tina. Ok, with that out of the way, what did you find? Is it that first big case we've all been waiting for?"
"I believe you are the only one looking forward to future club activities, President. I'm perfectly content sitting in the classroom working on my project."
"Oh, come on, Kan-chan, can't you see how much effort Mary put into this club? The least we can do is share her enthusiasm for any potential news, like I don't know, finding that elusive fifth member."
"Don't call me Kan-chan."
"I like the attitude, Senpai. I'm glad I found someone like you to be the club's Vice-President."
"Oh, you're too kind... I hope we find someone new soon; my patience isn't endless."
"Now, where was I... So remember how our club isn't "official," right now, and we don't get any funding."
"Yes, that is because Academy regulations only deem organizations with more than five members as clubs worthy of financial support. It is why we cannot refer to our activity by name and only some variant of "the club.".".
"Exactly what Kan-chan said, except put in the past tense. I found the perfect fifth member to round out our ensemble."
"Please don't make that name a trend."
"Ok, so who is it?"
"So, are you all familiar with this student; I believe his name is Hachi-kun..."
"The boy from earlier today, I believe he fought with Orimura Ichika against Shinonono Houki and Cecilia Alcott."
"Yeah, that one!"
Before anyone could continue, the club room's door opens, revealing a raven-haired woman, "*sigh* Class 1-1 wasn't enough, and now Hikki-cooties are spreading throughout the school."
The four students turn to voice, their faces quickly losing color, "Orimura-sensei, why are you in this wing of the school?"
"Don't even bother... Just finish the routine already!" The teacher's face glowered at their confusion.
The four members of this mysterious club regain their composure and carry on the routine others had set before them, reciting, "Next time on Infinite Loner: Chapter 12- Even Under Intense Pressure, He Finishes The Job!"
"Oh, so that male pilot everyone's talking about. We could use him in our club. He could be the Watson I've always been looking for..."
"Hikigaya Hachiman, I believe he could assist me with my project. His Undefeated Champion would be the perfect reference material... Maybe we could also become friends..."
"Hikigaya-kun, huh? Finally, someone new to torment- I mean guide through adolescence and into the workforce."
"Oh, I can't wait to meet you, Hachi-kun. Rin always went on and on about your past. I wonder if he likes a joke or two... or three."
"You never fail to amaze me, Hikigaya. If only you knew how popular you're getting. I can already see the shock in your rotting eyes."
"Achoo!"
"Hey, Hachiman, are you ok? You've been sneezing a lot recently."
"Spare me the pity, Harem-protagonist. You don't understand the plight of loners and how society is designed to make our lives a living nightmare. It's exactly why the entire rotten structure should be torn down to build a loner's paradise free of riajuu decadence! Youth is a lie you hear me, a lie!"
"It's a girl problem, isn't it?"
"..."
"Hachiman, is it a girl problem?"
"Yes."
"*sigh* What will I do with you, buddy?"
Chapter End
Author's Note: While writing chapter 12, I spent a lot of time rereading reviews, looking for my writing's biggest flaw, which I believe is tone. I'll admit that some of my Interludes are a bit out there and I lean too heavily on some concepts (*cough, cough* Monster of Logic), but I'm making an effort to evolve for the better. I have some big concepts in the works and plan to take this story in a more serious direction, so stay on the lookout. Now for my thoughts behind this update, I tried exploring Hachiman's past and dissecting (at least from his perspective) his relationship with Rin. Please tell me what you think of it. Also before I forget, thanks to the preview, new characters are upon us, so let's play a game, if anyone guesses their source material, I'll start answering reviews during these after-chapter debriefings... Go on start typing, I'll be here all day. In any case, follow and favorite if you liked anything, and write a review to give me some suggestions or hype me up, I would appreciate either. With that announcement, I would like to thank everyone for spending time reading Infinite Loner and, I'll catch you on the flipside.
Postscript: Here I am with another chapter tune-up. You know what this story needs more of... Fights? Fights. So have another one. I originally intended to just flesh out a few scenes but 100 words turned into 2000 and that leaves us with what we have now. I hope you enjoy all the changes I made to chapter 11, and if you want to share any suggestions for changes I should make to the story, write them in a review. I updated (as of writing this) not too long ago, and not many people are talking about it. I'm not sure if it's because my writing is flawless or completely unreadable, but share your opinion if you have something to say. Sorry for taking up some of your time with this message, but until next time- Mayflower Productions.
Updated March 7, 2022
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