Dean Lewis - Waves (Acoustic)
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Kevin had stopped receiving notes after his confrontation with Sam…Kevin had stopped having a calm day at school because now the J's were loose. Now whenever they saw him, Kevin had to make a run for it. There far more targets now throughout the school than there had been, and with Halloween right around the corner Kevin feared for all kids in Peach Creek. Eddward and Ed had said that they should be extra cautious this last week of October because they both knew Sam was hosting yet another party.
Nazz had tried to talk with Kevin and told him everything that Sam had talked to her about as well. Kevin now more than ever did not want to leave Eddward's side, though he still felt an ache in his chest whenever he was with the swimmer. It was an uncomfortable feeling having to choose to ignore one side of Eddward's life, but he just didn't know what to do.
He didn't have the power to simply pull Eddward out from that life style. If only he knew what Sam held over his head, and perhaps he could manage to do something then, but for the time being…he was preoccupied with simply keeping Nazz safe.
The ginger teen drove around town at full speed when he knew he wouldn't get spotted by a police. He needed something to clear his head, and each turn he dared to lower himself and pick up speed just a little bit more. He could hear Eddward and Nazz scolding him harshly and the thought made him quietly laugh. What would happen if he did happen to get into an accident? Both teens would surely hide his motorcycle, perhaps it wasn't such a bad idea… he humored himself thinking that that would be the only way to get Eddward and Nazz to finally get along.
It was late at night and the night sky radiated with the moonlight and twinkling stars, but as beautiful as the sight was, it was nothing compared to the night sky up at the cabin. He missed the days they had stayed up there; it had quickly become one of his favorite places to be. He knew the cabin was Eddward's safe heaven, but he couldn't help but feel attached to it as well and at the moment he wanted nothing else than pick Eddward up and drive away from all their troubles to the safety of the cabin. Sure, it would be cold but it would be worth it.
He sighed as he sadly thought about the summer memories. He drove over to the abandoned neighborhood to drive laps around knowing that there no cops around the area. With that thought in his head he took off even faster hunching over and holding on tighter to the handles of the bike. He tried to clear his head. He tried to clear Sam's repetitive words…
"He cares too much about his bastard father to really give a damn about you"
What did that even mean? Kevin was under the impression that Eddward didn't care for his parents and that they didn't care about him? He slowed down some as a thought came to him…was the black mail somehow related to his father?
Then what…what could it possibly be that Eddward would be mortified? On the rare occasion that the swimmer would talk about his father it was never good, never in a positive perspective and Eddward always seemed to become angry simply at the mention of the man. So what was it?
He came to a stop at a curved street that lead to the abandoned factory and harshly took off his helmet. The teen shoved the helmet on the bike's handle and kicked at dirt as he turned around and looked up for a second before covering his eyes with his hands. He was exasperated…
…Absolutely exasperated.
"You don't know Eddward Vincent!
Yes he did
You don't know his story,
He knew enough
you don't know the reason he joined me!
Eddward had told him
You don't know anything about him!"
"YES I do!" Kevin yelped out all of a sudden "Yes I fucking do know him…" he mumbled out quietly but equally as infuriated. "…I know him enough… I want to know him enough" Kevin opened his eyes and stared up at the moon right in the center of the sky.
It was late, his father was asleep, Nazz was asleep, and everyone in town was most likely asleep. Yet, here he was where he wasn't supposed to be, because he knew this neighborhood was gang territory. That knowledge did not scare though…had it been a year ago he would have ran away cowardly long ago, but not now. Now he wanted nothing more than to land one more punch to knock Sam's smirk off his face.
He knew that if he acted impulsively the consequences would only affect Nazz, Ed and Eddward. He knew better than to be rash. It took him all his will power just to turn away and grab his helmet once more. After a second of hesitation he mounted his bike once more and drove away.
What did Sam know that he didn't?
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Ed was tired of letting Eddward do all the dirty work in this plan. He didn't want to be helpless, sure he didn't like fighting and he didn't like dangerous situations but Eddward needed him now. If he wasn't there before he would be there now. He would be the friend he hadn't been.
Ed had snuck out in the middle of his 1st class knowing the factory would be mostly free from the gang. He rode taken his bicycle out to the east side trying not to be spotted or attract the attention from any members along the way. They were only a handful along the way that Ed was aware of, and he hoped that the factory was truly alone.
He had made sure to know that Sam and the J's had attended school that day before bolting. It was after he had left that he had sent Eddward a message just in case things didn't go as planned. Of course the raven haired teen was totally against it, but had a job to do during lunch break and had no means of escaping to catch up to Ed thanks to Sam seemingly keeping careful eye on him.
The brunette approached the factory quietly leaving his bike on the ground just before he was in front of the place. Quietly he snuck around the place to the side of the factory and peeked inside from one of the windows. The place seemed truly abandoned, well at least the top floor was. He remembered that the bottom floor was where Sam's office was along with the arena from his days being in the gang.
The window was small but if he took off his jacket then maybe he could squeeze on through. Ed took off his dark olive green jacket and red stripped sweater leaving only his white button up shirt on knowing both pieces would only make it harder to move through and left them in a ball against the wall. Once again he looked to see for any signs of life before pushing open the window. With a breath he held on tightly and jumped lifting his body easily. His forehead hit the window's top edge and he winced but continued to climb through as he pulled up one of his legs in and then his body finally landing safely inside.
He pouted now wanting at least his sweater as he looked around rubbing at his arms shivering as the inside of the factory was literally a freezer. He held back a sneeze as he slowly moved around the placed toward the stairs leading down. Ever so slowly he walked down trying his damn hardest to be quiet. Ed held his breath as he heard quiet murmuring between two members. He lowered himself to the floor peeking around to find the source of the conversation. Two guys sat in the middle of the ring playing a game of cards. One of them was paying more attention to his phone then to the game. Ed gulped pressing his back more to the wall as he kept an eye on them praying to the gods above that he wouldn't get spotted. His position was very visible from their spot and unfortunately there really wasn't anywhere to hide.
He had only been to the factory two or three times while a member since he had moved to Lemon Brook with Eddy, but he remembered how filled the bottom floor would get during fights. He remembered the first time Eddward had stepped into the arena with such a presence and anger. Ed had felt a strong ache in his chest upon seeing the murderous eyes that glared at his opponent. It was only now that he figured Eddward had finally given up. It was only now that he remembered the dull lifeless eyes Eddward had possessed that night. Ed remembered the beast like way Eddward's performance was and how he had put his opponent in the hospital. It had taken four to stop Eddward from attacking the guy and Sam had only laughed out with a roar.
It was at that moment Ed clearly remembered an eleven year old Eddward…He had been always quiet sitting near to back of the class when a couple of kids had come up to him. Something had broken the raven haired boy…something had shattered him because it was at that moment that Eddward stood up with those same lifeless raged filled eyes and for the first time fought back.
Ed closed his eyes focusing back to the task at hand and pushing down his feelings of guilt. Once he confirmed that the guys in the middle of the rink had no idea of his presence he continued to slowly move forward until he reached the door to the office.
Ed could feel his heart beating fast with every second that passed… he reached his arm up to lightly jiggled the handle. Damn it…The door was locked. He should have known. With a quiet sigh he lowered his arm and looked around the placed hoping to find something else to check out, but there wasn't.
He slumped against the wall in defeat until he caught on to some of the teen's conversation.
"…Making it up for last time"
"better be good…Eddy…"
Eddy? Ed creeped closer to the edge straining his hearing to hear the teens murmuring
"Yeah…up in the north woods…"
"Halloween's gonna be lit…"
"…to get my hands on those nerds…fucking animals"
With that Ed backed up again against the wall and breathed in soaking in the little information he had gathered. Satisfied he quietly made his way back up the stairs as he made a turn he came eye to eye with a heavily freckled red headed teen. This guy wasn't Kevin… no, his hair was rose red, his eyes dark, and though he had freckles it wasn't as much as Kevin had. Ed stopped with wide eyes taking a defensive pose and readying to run as fast as he could. Though, the teen simply raised an eyebrow and with his hands in his pockets continued to walk down the stairs past Ed. Ed turned surprised by the lack of conflict…but took this chance to run out of the factory. The doors were now opened and he quickly went to retrieve his sweater and jacket before running off where his bike laid.
Once he was safely out of the east side of town, he pulled out his phone texting Eddward. [Office door was closed. But got info on party]
With that he headed back to school just in time for lunch.
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Kevin had sat quietly alone in the back of the class during History. Eddward hadn't shown up to their class that day and it only made Kevin worried. He had pulled out his phone in the middle of class when they were watching a documentary and sent a message to the swimmer asking where he was, however he never got a reply. With a frown Kevin fidgeted the entire period looking out at the window and towards the door hoping to spot the back stripped beanie. He had even texted Ed but never got a reply as well. Kevin wondered what the two boys were up to feeling an irritation fill him about being left in the unknown.
He was about ready to storm out of the classroom when he heard the bell ending class rang pulling him away from his thoughts. With that he pulled out his phone once more and saw he had no messages. He shoved his phone into his bag and walked out heading towards his locker. Nazz had joined her friends to go out for lunch, and Kevin knew as long as she was with them she would be fine on her own.
So what was he to do? He honestly didn't feel hungry and even being in the cafeteria along was dangerous. Kevin decided maybe he be safe sitting in the natatorium... maybe he would find the swimmer there, but something in his gut told him he probably wouldn't. His eyes lowered as he gripped his bag tighter.
Once arriving at his locker he placed his textbooks inside and grabbed two from his later classes. He felt shivers run up his spine remembering Sam catching him in these moments, but ever since his confrontation with the tall blonde he hadn't even see a glimpse of the other. He didn't know if this fact was preoccupying or relieving. For now, he let it be and decided to not question the teen's motives but rather on the Ed's whereabouts.
He closed his eyes feeling a headache starting in the back of his head as he walked through the hall. He tried to go sort through the tasks he needed to finish for the day in his mind, perhaps thinking about every day normal things might calm him. As he turned a corner he heard a loud bang and bang against locker immediately making Kevin jump and he opened his eyes holding tightly to his bag.
Kevin had turned into the East wing where at the end of the hallway he could make out some dark haired teen being shoved against the lockers. The hand that gripped the teen belong to…Eddward. Kevin couldn't breathe… he held his breath looking onto the scene only then noticing Jimmy standing next to Eddward. Jimmy had caught sight of him and grinned devilishly taking a step to turn towards Kevin. The raven haired teen then turned as well catching Kevin's horrified stare and in a split second upon realizing who was watching, Eddward's ocean eyes mirrored his own.
He still couldn't breathe… the sight being too familiar…to real…
"I call dibs" Jimmy smirked wider taking more steps forward slowly increasing in speed.
"JIMMY now's not the time" Eddward barked out and never took his eyes off Kevin's petrified ones.
"Don't give a shit captain. Not after what this bastard did to Johnny." Jimmy continued to walk faster "You better be fucking ready you little shit"
Kevin didn't think, didn't say anything towards Eddward to afraid of the raven haired response…so he ran. He ran as fast as he could away from sight.
This time Kevin was able to get away from Jimmy. He had been fast enough to run into an empty classroom and hide until he heard Jimmy run upstairs looking for him. Kevin had taken a second to catch his breath before anger began to take over his mind.
Kevin stood and opened the door slightly to see if Jimmy was out of sight. He then walked out of the classroom and jogged back to the east wing with his fists clenched. When he got there Eddward had taken to make a call as his hand continued to pin the teen against the lockers. "Nevermind Ed, he's here" Kevin heard the other mumble out before swiftly placing his phone in his jeans pocket. "Kevin" Eddward began.
"I DON'T want to hear it" Kevin barked out pushing Eddward off the boy and ushering the teen to run away.
"Kevin, I can't let you do that" Eddward reached out for the boy trying to run away.
"Don't care!" the ginger teen shoved the swimmer's hand away once again "You're going to let him go, I don't care what Sam has to say!"
With a deep frown, Eddward let go and watched the boy scurry off. "…Kevin…" he quietly called out now looking down at the smaller boy who had his back towards him.
Kevin began to walk away not trusting his voice to speak sternly. He really didn't want to see Eddward in that situation…in that perspective…but whenever he did it just brought back terrible memories.
He was afraid.
As he took a couple of steps he felt Eddward's hand wrap around his arm gently catching him before he got too far. The raven haired teen pulled him back and Kevin squeezing his eyes shut tight felt his back hit Eddward's chest and they stayed like that more mere seconds enveloped in silence. Kevin couldn't breathe…he felt his body began to tremble and he prayed Eddward couldn't feel it.
Before either of them could say a word they heard Jimmy coming back to the hallway. Eddward hesitantly let go and gently pushed Kevin forward. With the push, Kevin began to walk away and picked up speed until he was running at full speed out of the school.
He needed air…he couldn't breathe
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Ed had a knack for finding people when they needed him. He smiled softly as he looked down at the hunched over athlete with his beanie pulled all the way down covering his face, his hands keeping the hat at its edges. When Ed had received Eddward's call he had just arrived at school, and quickly made his way towards the natatorium. It was when Eddward had told him Kevin had appeared at he hung up and decided to let them be. So he sat tiredly at the school's entrance stairs taking in fresh air.
It was only minutes later that he heard rapid footsteps heading towards the entrance. He had turned just in time to see Kevin running out of the school and down the stairs in a desperate manner. "KEVIN!" he had called out worriedly.
Ed sighed watching the boy continue to run until he turned onto the street and out of sight. From what Eddward had told him Ed knew the ginger teen needed some time alone at the moment. So, hoping the boy wouldn't run off too far he headed back inside knowing where to go.
He had found Eddward at the top corner of the bleachers in the natatorium and the other made no movement as Ed climbed up and sat behind him. The taller teen let some moment's pass before he finally spoke up "Kevin will be fine" he began "He isn't fully aware of what we're doing…Maybe it would be better if you told him everything"
At this he saw the teen hunch down further and gripping his beanie tighter. "…He hates me" Eddward finally mumbled out after another long pause.
Ed raised an eyebrow and with a smirk "I doubt that, far from it my friend"
"You didn't see him…He was so scared…he was trembling Ed…" Ed could hear Eddward voice break at the last word.
The brunette took a breath in placing a hand on the other's shoulder "Double D… you're not like that…Sam must have told him some stuff that just went straight to his head." Ed stood and sat next to the teen. "Kevin doesn't mean it like that Double D" he gripped the swimmer's shoulder tighter hoping to comfort the other.
"…I can't stand it Ed…" Eddward let Ed pull the hat up enough to expose his eyes. Ed felt an ache at his chest seeing the tear ocean eyes stare up at him with such vulnerability "Why do I always drive everyone away Ed?" he mumbled out not daring to let his tears escape.
With a saddened frown Ed hunched down to be eye level with his friend "He's not going anywhere Double D. He'll come around…Just give him time... It's hard to forget some things you know?" he felt bad having to tell Eddward the same thing over and over and having no result. Kevin was sorting through his trauma with Eddward, and as much as he understood it would take time he couldn't help by sympathizing with his dear friend. He knew that Kevin was the only one who needed to be here right now comforting Eddward. "You're in deep water Double D" Ed offered him a smile.
Eddward simply looked up to meet Ed's gaze. The sentence alone offered many translations, but he made no attempt to clarify knowing Eddward would understand. This seemed to be confirmed when the swimmer's wide eyes turned to look at the pool in front of them and stayed quiet. Ed leaned back placing his hands in his jacket's pocket and let the other contemplate the thought. He just hoped both boys would figure it out soon.
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Kevin sat at a nearby park watching a mother looking after her two little twins. One twin was boy and the other a girl. He sighed slouching on the bench thinking back to Eddward's hold…the silence that surrounded them as they had stood so close that Kevin could even feel the other's soft breath on his neck.
His mind trailed back further replacing the tense moment with Eddward slamming the boy against the locker and at that Kevin whined. He let s small whimper out hunching over recalling those same ocean eyes looking down at him with such anger and disgust. Then Eddward's voice came rushing in every bad memory flooding his mind.
"Why indeed little Minnow" he remembered the cold chill of the nickname
"I WILL not hesitate to inflict extreme pain on your worthless body if you continue to follow me" He remembered the absolute rage in the teen's voice whenever Kevin overstepped his boundaries.
"I'd advise you not to get involve with me Barr" Kevin would laugh out loud at the memory if it wasn't for the current situation. It pained him.
"You will regret that day you interfered with me Barr" …Yet despite everything…everything that scared him…everything that pained him he didn't regret it.
"Are you willing to forget now, because I hope you know next time I won't be so kind" No, Kevin couldn't ever forget everything they've been through…the good, and the bad. But it still hurt to remember.
"Breathe"
Kevin opened his eyes noticing he had been breathing heavily. He turned seeing a figure standing next to him and he looked up to meet his best friend's sympathetic gaze. "Looks like you need a friend" Nazz offered him a small smile before sitting down next to him.
The ginger teen frowned leaning in close to be enveloped in the girls arms. It was then that all the good memories began to pop up. The first time Eddward had even comforted him, the tender touches, the call after he left the hospital, the cabin…the laughs and smiles… the hugs and vulnerability "…I'm the worst" Kevin mumbled out feeling himself tear up.
The girl laughed softly "I doubt that" she placed a kiss to his cheek. "What happened?"
Kevin sat back a bit enough to place his forehead against the girls "Can someone be two people at the same time?" he asked lowly.
Nazz hummed in thought before answering "Yeah… I think so, but in the end they are the same person"
"What if they had a bad side and a good side…" Kevin frowned thinking back to Sam's words haunting him "What if I don't know them like I thought I did? Which do I trust?"
Nazz sighed pulling back "Well if we're talking about Eddward you know I'm biased…but if it's hypothetical…" she paused frowning "…then you just have to trust their actions, I think that at some point you've seen the real person behind the mask" she smiled "I trust you to know who to trust Kevin"
Kevin hated having Sam's vicious voice taunting him. They made him doubt Eddward…even after everything. He hated himself for feeling the way he did. "I won't ever abandon you so long as you don't abandon me ok?" he heard his own voice repeat the promise he had made to the raven haired teen over and over trying to drown out the fear.
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It had been two days then he had ran out of the school and two long days since he had spoken to Eddward. They saw each other in class and throughout the halls but neither made an attempt to talk. It broke his heart at how lonely he felt from the lack of communication. So after two days of calming down Kevin finally decided to catch the other's eye from across the hallway and smiled looking away after receiving a small smile in return and feeling his face heat up.
Kevin spent most of the day with Nazz. They had walked together from class to class and sat outside by the football field during lunch. When school ended he sat with in with her as she tutored some kid who seemed to have a crush on her. It was cute, but Nazz was beyond oblivious.
It was only when she had asked him to return some books to the library that he finally walked through school alone. Jimmy had been trying to get his hands on Kevin the last two days, but Kevin was fast enough to escape him every time. The small teen hadn't tried to engage in a fight with him like he had with Johnny because he knew Jimmy wanted him dead. Kevin knew going up against someone seeking blood was dangerous and he wouldn't win so he ran…like Eddward had taught him. If he was every actually caught he knew what he had to do to try and get out.
It entire school had been nearly empty, even most teachers had scurried off at this hour. He slipped the books through a little opening where a cart would catch them on the other side since the library had been closed early that day. Then he turned around to make his way back downstairs to the classroom Nazz was waiting for him.
It shouldn't have been a surprise when he heard a distant familiar whistling behind him. Kevin felt his blood turn cold as he stopped and turned around watching the tall platinum blonde skipping behind him about 20 feet away as he chewed his gum with a grin. It's shouldn't have been a surprise but he had seen the teen leave campus earlier that day. So yeah, Kevin was pretty damn surprised…and utterly terrified.
Kevin quickly turned around and made run for it down the stairs and turning towards the west wing. He needed to keep him away from Nazz, Jimmy probably didn't know she was there and he planned to keep it that way. He made it his mission to find somewhere to hide while told Nazz to run away. Thankfully he managed to slip into the cafeteria with enough time to message [RUN] and sent it hearing the door boom with the force Jimmy slammed inside. He prayed Nazz would get out of the school safely.
Kevin ran across the cafeteria slipping into the other side of the school if he managed to get out of the building he would be set. Moments later he felt his phone buzz and looked down seeing the message from Nazz [I'm out. Please Hurry!]
That's all he needed to hear. With that Kevin made his way down to the gym where he knew there would be the back doors that lead him outside. As he quickly ran down the stairs he couldn't help but feel his heart skip at the continued whistling. It was as if Jimmy wasn't worried about not catching him… at this Kevin gulped in fear.
He made his way towards the doors and pulled at them. They didn't open. He pulled harder…nothing. He pushed…oh no.
Kevin heard the whistling slowly getting closer and before he knew it Jimmy spared a huge grin as he leaned against the entrance to the gym. "Something wrong Minnow?" he mused looking around the gym. "Why are so scared? It's just you and me"
Kevin didn't respond and ran towards the locker room not caring about whether it was the boys or girls. This was life or death situation for crying out loud.
He went into a shower stall and lifted himself up hiding his feet and waited for Jimmy to enter. His heart stopped realizing his phone could go off any second revealing his hiding spot. As the bully entered the room Kevin held his breath and held on tight to the walls of the stall.
"Dork" Jimmy sang out as he stepped slowly through the room "What does Sam call you…" he mumbled out quietly "Oh! Freckles! Come out come out where ever you are!"
Kevin peeked through the tiny opening of the stall watching as Jimmy searched through the locker aisles first. He would wait until he got to the second to last on before he bolted out. Upon hearing Jimmy slam his foot hard onto the locker it took everything in Kevin not to gasp out for air. "You can't fit in these lockers anymore…shame really" Jimmy turned mid-way down. Kevin bit his lip feeling his heart rate speed up as the teen made his way towards the stalls "Now, let's play a game…which stall are you hiding in?"
"This one?" Jimmy kicked open the door to the middle stall and Kevin could feel his arms and legs begin to give up from lifting him. He needed to get away but how? "This one?" Jimmy kicked another one open from the other end. Kevin was trapped… "How about this one!" he kicked open the stall next to Kevin.
The ginger teen calmed his mind…
Jimmy began to laugh out "Found you nerd" Jimmy kicked at the last stall only to find it empty "What?" he questioned.
Kevin had slipped under the stall onto the next one when Jimmy kicked and now Kevin with all his strength kicked Jimmy inside before turning around and making a run for it. The blonde had slipped and fallen given enough time for Kevin to run out of the gym start up the stairs when he starting hearing the others yelling. Kevin ran across the cafeteria once more and into the east wing.
It was in the middle of his rush that he saw a dark figure reach out to him and lift him up with an arm around his waist. He was pulled into a classroom and all he could think about was get away get away fast!
He thrashed around and kicked trying to escape from his kidnapper's embrace which ending making the person lose their balance and fall down. It was then Kevin when stared up at bright wide ocean eyes and loose strands of wavy raven hair that Kevin recognized the person as…Eddward.
"Calm down it's me" Eddward whispered quietly placing a finger up indicating the other shush.
Kevin hadn't noticed how close they were until he had felt the other's breath on the corner of his lips. Kevin closed his eyes hearing Jimmy's footsteps get closer and prayed he wouldn't find them.
When he heard the other run past the classroom he relaxed to some extent. When he felt Eddward place a hand on his cheek Kevin flinched and looked away. "Hold on…" Kevin whispered getting up and crawling away towards a desk and leaning against it "…Just give me a minute" he mumbled pulling his knees to his chest.
"Kevin…it's ok it's just me" Eddward's broken voice hurt Kevin to an extent he had never experienced before.
He looked up with saddened eyes "I know, I know…Just give me a minute please." He gasped out suddenly feeling horrible nostalgia consume him. He had been close to being Jimmy's rag doll like before…back then would have run away from Eddward as well but now…now the raven haired teen was patiently watching over him with a sad expression.
Kevin chose this quiet time to take deep breaths and slowly exhale calming down his adrenaline high. He was feeling slightly dizzy from the sudden rush.
"Kevin" Eddward mumbled out lifting a hand and slowly reaching forwards towards the ginger's neck. When the swimmer's piano finger made contact with the warm freckled skin when Kevin turned his face away holding tighter to his legs. "Look at me…pumpkin?"
At the nickname, Kevin let out a small sob turning to look at Eddward "I'm sorry" he gasped out feeling his eyes tear up.
Eddward let his hand caress Kevin's cheek "Please don't be afraid of me" he smiled sadly "I'm not going to harm you" he reached with both hands to wipe away tears.
"I know" Kevin whimpered out.
"Are you still afraid?" Eddward asked quietly leaning down close to the other
He didn't know how to answer the question. He wanted to say no, because truthfully he wasn't afraid of the Eddward that treated him like the most precious person in the world…but when he encountered the other Eddward…he was. Kevin couldn't help but let more tears fall watching the other's smile turn upside…watching the hurt in the other's eyes.
"I-I don't care what Sam s-say or does but I want you to stop please!" Kevin pleaded grabbing the other's hand tightly. "I'm scared! I'm scared you'll go back to the old you!" he sobbed out.
"…Kevin" Eddward pressed his forehead to the others "…I can't"
"Yes you can!" Kevin shook his head harshly feeling the other's hat come off "You can! You just don't want to" he argued.
"Pumpkin" Eddward lifted the other's face a bit and enveloping Kevin in a tight hug "You might not like it and I'm sorry…but I can't do what you say" he frowned.
Kevin pushed off from Eddward "Sam was right…" he felt his tears continue to fall.
"Don't let him get in your head!" Eddward worriedly yelped out trying to catch the other's eyes. "He's manipulating you!"
Kevin shook his head "BUT I DON'T KNOW YOU!" Kevin yelped out gasping for air "Ed, Sam, everyone seems to know something I don't!" Kevin punched at the other "What has you so afraid of being discovered! Does it have to do with your father!"
Eddward was silent then he looked away "Don't…please don't ask me what I can't answer" he pleaded.
"EDDWARD!" Kevin sobbed out "I'm not letting Sam's turn you back to the way you were!"
Eddward eyebrows lowered "I've always been this way Kevin! There's never been an old me and a new me!" he exclaimed. "Why do you insist on splitting me in half for your preference?"
"Because I don't want you to be what other people think that you are!" Kevin cried out
Eddward scowled looking away hurt "…a monster?" he questioned sadly "I thought you understood…"
"I did!" Kevin yelled "I understood until I saw what you did…what you continue to do!"
"I'm doing this with a completely different mindset! I'M DOING THIS FOR YOU!" Eddward yelled out. "Do you see me like that? A monster?"
The smaller teen couldn't handle the hurt the other expressed "No…of course not" Kevin breathed in looking down at the ground where Eddward's fist were I sight "I don't want you to do this…This is criminal Eddward. There has to be another way I care too much to ignore it"
"There is no other way Kevin…Unless you want me turn myself in. Then I'll do it" Eddward whispered out.
Kevin looked up horrified "NO! No, not that. I wouldn't know what to do without you here"
Eddward breathed in "Look I need you to understand something…What I did before…before you, I did without remorse. I was angry, lost and utterly done with the bullshit life kept on throwing at me." Eddward paused making eye contact "Somewhere along the way you decided I was worth saving…and for that I thank you. You continue to build me up Kevin, but deep down I'm still rusty, I'm still broken in some parts. That isn't your fault…you can't fix everything."
Eddward leaned even closer toward the ginger teen who would not dare break their eye contact "If there is one regret I have it is all the harm I did to you…you didn't deserve it. I will never be able to repent for the damage…it hurts to see you still scared of me" he frowned placing a hand on the freckled neck "I'm so sorry…" he looked up to those emerald eyes "I know…the way I'm doings things isn't favorable…I know you don't like it that's why I didn't want you to know but…" he closed his eyes "…I have my reasons…reasons I can't say but please…please trust me" he opened his eyes imploring the other. "I promise this is real, I promise I'm not lying and I won't betray your trust ever again…trust that I'll be done with this soon enough"
Kevin could feel his eyes flood once more with tears. I'm really the worst he thought to himself as he flung his arms around the other "I trust you" he cried softly feeling a weight lift off his shoulder when Eddward wrapping his arms tightly around him and hide his face in the ginger's shoulder.
Kevin hadn't realized until then how much he missed this…
The comfort that came with Eddward's embrace…the security of being enveloped tightly with a reassuring press of their foreheads. It felt right…
Kevin tilted his head to Eddward's cheek pressing a feather like kiss onto the beautiful caramel skin much like how his best friend would to comfort him "I trust you" he whimpered out once again.
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hehehehehe
I said it wasn't going to be as long this time lol oops what needs to be written is written
I actually really really enjoyed writing this chapter and am gonna post before I go to sleep cause in the morning I may be like WTF is this lol (it's 3am)
Also I'm super excited about the next one also cause alot is gonna happen. A bonding moment between two particular characters I may have mentioned it somewhere...tum or twit? idk
and the appearance of the next eene character
**ALSO did you guys guess who the red-headed character that appeared shortly was? If you know Tanosan96 on Tumblr you may have an idea...(whispers ...it's Rufus)**
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Let me know if you have any thoughts, predictions, and any feels!
Look forward to the next time I update! and let's see what happens next.
I hope you have a lovely Day/Night XOXO