Regina's view
Really, Kathrin? Do you have to do that? Why does Ruby always have to drink when she's stressed out with Granny?" I say, annoyed. Kathrin just told me that she and Ruby had planned a girls' night out, which would take place at Emma's, since Ruby didn't want to go to the Rabbit Hole anymore. An evening with Emma would be nice, but with Kathrin, who knows my secret, and Ruby, because of whom we are guaranteed to drink alcohol?
I would prefer to just say no, but of course it wouldn't matter because they will just drag me along.
Yes, it must be Gina, Emma has already agreed. You'll come, we'll expect you at Emma's at 8:00, no excuses!" And with that Kathrin hangs up. I roll my eyes, throw my phone on the bed and wonder once again what to do.
This morning, or rather at 11:00, I woke up snuggled up to Emma. It had been a nice feeling to be close to her again, until I remembered that I told her I was in love. I could slap myself for that. Since Emma was still asleep, I got up carefully so as not to wake her, left her a note that I had to go and left. I didn't feel like talking to her about it and knowing Emma, she would have talked me down. She told me that I didn't know if the person loved me and that I should talk to him. She would have asked again who it was and then given me tips. So I left. I know that it is cowardly of me not to tell her, but why should I risk our friendship? I'd rather suffer in silence than lose her.
But that didn't stop me from watching her this morning for a moment longer than was good for me. When she sleeps, she looks so peaceful, carefree and happy.
I wish for her to be happy. Wish she would laugh more, because her laugh is beautiful and unfortunately you hear it way too rarely.
When she laughs, honestly laughs, her eyes shine and she looks at you full of love. Admittedly, not many people get to see that, actually only Henry, Ruby and I, now that I think about it. But when Ruby is there, her look is a little different. Not quite so full of love, much more I would describe it as warmth or trust, which you can read from her eyes. When Emma then looks at me, then you can also see the trust, the warmth and yet some love... Why didn't I notice this earlier? Does this mean that Emma might have feelings for me after all? Or I'm interpreting too much into it now. I probably even imagined seeing something like love in her gaze, and if it's not imagination, then it's probably just because I adopted her son and I'm his mother too. I beat my hand in front of my head, because I am angry about having allowed hope again.
Now that I'm out of my thoughts about Emma again, I go to take a shower, after all, I have to be with Emma in a few hours.
Emma's view
When I woke up, Regina was already gone and I already missed her. I wasn't surprised that Regina had just left, even though she had left me a note. Because since she had told me yesterday that she was in love, she probably wanted to avoid talking about it. I would love to know who Regina fell in love with, so that I could then hate the person. I'd love to think about it more, but unfortunately I have to go shopping because Ruby and Kathrin have decided that there's a girls' night at my place tonight. So I have no choice but to prepare this. Sure an evening with the two and Regina is certainly great, but I would much rather just be alone with Regina. Since Ruby plans to drink, I'll go buy alcohol now, even though I won't drink anything myself later. After all, I have to control myself and under the influence of alcohol it's much harder to keep control. I grab my key, put on my red leather jacket and go outside. Today it is very nice outside, the sun is shining and it feels like 26C. Because of the weather I decide to walk to the supermarket. Today, some people are on foot, probably all want to enjoy the weather.
On days like this, there is nothing more to see of the sleepy little town, it even seems really alive.
I try to enjoy the moment, because it reminds me of all I have gained since I came to this town. Since then I have my son back, I have great friends and Granny who always looks out for me. But above all, I have Regina, my girlfriend, my love. Even though she doesn't know about my feelings for her, it feels like I've finally found a home.
A passing car snaps me out of my thoughts. It can't be. I can't believe my eyes. It can't be true. The two in the car are definitely not Mary-Mageret and David Nolan. It's not them!!! Panic rises in me. What are they doing here, please? They've made it clear to me that they don't want to be a part of my life, that I'm one big mistake, and that they're glad they gave me away when they did. Then what the hell are they doing here? The car pulls up next to me and the two of them get out. My panic and the rising pain paralyze me so much that I am unable to run away, even though everything inside me screams that I want to leave. They should leave me alone. I try to get my legs to start moving, but fail miserably. I am frozen and there is no escape.