Shaky's POV

Stephanie kept offering sweet moans as she kept her legs wrapped around me. I had gone to bury my face in her neck as I prepared my climax, getting ready to feel bliss. However as her arms were wrapped around me back she used her right arm to pull my face closer to hers and lick the side of my face, drenching my fur in thick saliva as her hot breath panted on me heavily. I breathed shakily as I felt an extreme tingle, pushing me past the point of no return. Stephanie kept her hot tongue on my cheek as I pushed in one last time, making sure to press against her core and penetrating it before I felt a large, hot and thick stream of my semen shoot into her. She moaned sweetly again, this time just a bit more intense as she felt my release. She gave into her own and created even more stains on the bed as our fluids overflowed her and pooled onto the bed and around our legs and tails. I groaned as I felt even more hot and thick streams shoot out of me, gripping her back with each one as she did the exact same to me. Finally I pushed past her tongue to get at her neck, sucking on it as my muzzle met the drool that had hung from my mouth and fell on the pillow, laying against Stephanie's face. It had just been building once she stopped me from getting at her neck and so as I panted I could only droll as I humped her deeply.

She lifted her head off the pillow to suck at my neck as well. I gave her my final deep thrusts as she moaned again, and I grunted with the remaining streams. Now we were both left a drooling and sweaty mess with thick cum surrounding our lower halves. As we laid in our pool and mess we just kept on suckling. There was nothing but the sounds of light sucking and licking as we did it to each other. When Stephanie finally did get tired though she let go of my neck, relaxing back into her pillow and exhaling warmly and satisfied. Her grip on me loosened with her legs and my neck now felt cold, even with her hot saliva coating it. As much as I didn't want to I let go of her neck too, nuzzling into her as we both panted heavily. I then laughed as I thought of a question.

"Where did you learn to do that thing with your feet?" I asked out of breath. Stephanie giggled and lifted her head again to kiss my cheek. I closed my eyes with a smile as I accepted it.

"Lots of experimenting" she whispered. I chuckled and then pulled out of her with that sexy wet pop I loved hearing. I rolled over to the other side of the bed as Stephanie rolled on her stomach to face me as she often did after we had sex, remaining in our mess as we talked for a bit. Just like the other times as well she rested her head on her right hand as she put her left on my chest, playing with the fur on it. "So big boy, any plans now that your graduated?" she asked. I sighed and thought for a second.

"Ya know… I always put that thought off. I always figured that I would cross that bridge when I came to it. As for a career I don't really know but for now I think I'm just gonna pick up a trade" I explained. My eyes darted over to her to see her reaction. She still had a satisfied smile on her face as she continued her sexy twirling with her finger.

"A trade in what?" she asked. I shrugged.

"Construction" I answered.

"Oh, am I gonna get a chance to play with some muscle?" she asked. I laughed but then realized that was a possibility.

"Maybe. Depends on how much this does for me. The money should be good though" I replied. I saw her smile fade as her eye drifted off towards the sheets, making me grow concerned.

"Something wrong?" I asked.

"Well, it's just that I feel like you're going to take jobs for money. Are you going to try and do something you actually love? Remember my dad had a really well paying job and he hated it. Made him extremely miserable and I really don't wanna see you like that" Stephanie explained which actually surprised me. I didn't think she cared for me like that.

"Honestly Stephanie I'm… I really don't know what I want to do with my life. I had an idea before but that got shattered so I really have no idea" I confessed as my eyes moved from her to the ceiling.

"So then… What's the plan? You have to start thinking about these things" Stephanie replied. I thought, and I thought but couldn't think of an answer. I did however think of what her plan would be.

"Well, what about you? What's your plan?" I asked.

"I'm gonna do some courses for nursing. I already have some halfway decent experience taking care of my grandma, and I've been told I'm good at it so I'm gonna pursue it" Stephanie answered casually. Clearly she had known she was going to do that for awhile. It made me feel unassured.

"Well like I said I really feel scared for the future. Before it was perfect, everything was wrapped in one neat package. It really couldn't be anymore perfect. I was with Angel, Angel was Rick's sister, Rick was with Kate, Lilly was Kate's sister, and Lilly was with Humphrey… it was perfect… I figured whatever we were gonna do we would do it together. They all want to do something with writing or screenplays or something which I would be down for but now I feel like I don't belong. Kate and I talked about it and she and the others still consider me family but… it's just not official you know?" I asked. My eyes darted to Stephanie again.

"Yeah, I know," she said.

"You know that shed Rick built in his backyard?" I asked. Stephanie smiled and then giggled.

"Yeah, I saw him building it a few times. Always turned me on. What about it?" she asked.

"Well we used to build things like that out in the woods and around my place. Nothing as big as that but they were still nice. It's kinda where I got the whole construction idea. I always enjoyed building things" I explained. Again Stephanie giggled.

"Is that why you and I were always building with Legos when we were pups?" she asked. I chuckled.

"Yeah… probably" I smiled. We shared another smile at each other before I looked away again. "Yeah, something like that or architecture I dont know… I'll see what the colleges around here have before courses start. You tired?" I asked, looking at her again, and ending the topic. Stephanie nodded and then crawled to her right slightly to turn off the light to her still messy room. I really don't think she ever cleaned it. After the light was flicked off she turned back to me, snuggling into my neck.

"Yeah. you really filled me up" she said. I laughed.

"Well I can't help it. Try being less pretty" I said cheesily. Stephanie scoffed playfully and then nuzzled into me once more before yawning.

"Good night, Shaky," she said. I nuzzled her back, feeling my own eye begin to feel heavy.

"Sleep well Steph '' I replied. We fell asleep together but as we did I felt something. Something that I refused to believe until the next morning when we woke up. It was a peaceful night. As always when I slept over here it was quiet. Nothing but the sound of her fan spinning back and forth. Normally I could feel it on my foot when it got to me but not tonight. My feet were actually fully covered for once. Also Stephanie was laying on me but perfectly covering the fan, making me sweat even more in my sleep.

Around eight o'clock the next morning the sun was shining through the windows as it often did, however unlike most of the other times I felt Stephanie get off of me which is what woke me up. I felt a cold brush of air hit my chest as she got off of me. Her warm and sweaty body was no longer keeping me warm. My eyes opened slightly as I tried to shield them from the sun. Stephanie looked down at me and giggled.

"Sorry. Do you want me to shut the blinds?" she asked.

"Hmm… sure" I answered tiredly. She giggled again and laid on me once more, bringing warm to my chest and making my heart skip a beat as her breasts pressed against it. She then gave my nose a wet kiss and a nuzzle.

"Want to do something later? My grandmother has to go to an appointment today so we can have some down time to do something" she offered. I smiled at her as my eyes were still half opened.

"Appointment? What time?" I asked.

"Two o'clock" she answered. Her hot body pressed against mine was turning me on, and my morning wood wasn't helping. But still my heart was feeling joy as she made her offer.

"Yeah… I'd love to" I answered. She giggled again and pecked my lips. When she pulled away we kept our smiles and then went for another peck, then another, then another. Suddenly we were kissing properly, letting our tongues meet again and press against the others. I then felt Stephanie's hand as it gently grabbed hold of my penis and started to squeeze it lightly.

"Horny?" she asked. I chuckled and then wrapped my arms around her back to turn her over, suckling in her mouth as she let me lay her down in the same spot as last night. She giggled into the kiss as she was laid down. My inner thighs greeted hers as they pressed together. Hers felt hot and sticky which was more than enough to get me ready. I felt my tip press against her wet, hot and sticky folds as they drooled onto the bed. She closed her eyes and looked up a bit as she moaned into her sweet mouth.

I wrapped my arms around her beck and kept close, again pressing my chest against hers and feeling her breasts. They felt so warm and lovely from the morning sweat. Finally I pushed into her. Stephanie opened her mouth and moaned with the cutest smile as my penis made its way inside her and to her core once more. Just like last night she wrapped her legs around me as well as her arms, keeping me in a tight hug as I began humping her. She moaned with each thrust as I buried my head in her neck. The only sounds in the room were sheets rusting, light creaking from the bed and light moans from the two of us. I felt her hot pussy clench down on me, making me tingle as I continued my humping.

"I don't think this is gonna be long" I confessed as I continued my rhythm. I felt her pussy wink again, squeezing my dick as I tried not to cum.

"Hmm, it's okay. Just don't pull out" she whispered. I smiled as I felt my climax approaching. Since when have I ever pulled out? I went to kiss her neck as I pushed in deeply, finally getting some opened mouth mons from her as I thrusted into her a bit more. It wasn't long before I felt the familiar and heavenly feeling of hot semen shoot out of me and into her hot pussy. Feeling it slurp up each rope and milk me for all I was worth. She hugged me tightly as she lifted her head to suck on my neck which I loved the feeling of.

When I was finally down to fry throbs I kept my head lifted as I panted. Stephanie however kept suckling which I didn't have a problem with, although I was gonna be left with some hickeys. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling of her. After a couple minutes though I couldn't help but ask.

"You came right?" I asked.

"M-hm" she hummed as she continued to suck my neck. I laughed and let her get back to her thing. It was only about five minutes before she let go and rested back into the bed. "Twice," she added. Wow. I laughed and pulled out of her before rolling over again. She exhaled happily. "Nothing like some morning cum to start the day" she said. She was so dirty, I loved it.

"You enjoy talking dirty don't you?" I asked. She giggled and rolled over on me again, giving me another kiss.

"You know I do," she said. She then rolled back over and sat up, making me feel a little sad.

"Aww, where ya goin?" I asked. She laughed and wiped her vagina with the thin blanket.

"I'm gonna go shower and start the day before I fall back asleep. Believe me it's taking a lot to not just curl up next to you and pass back out" Stephanie explained. I laughed again and accepted another kiss once she was done wiping and leaned back over. It didn't stop there though. Once she gave my lips a peck she looked down at me and we locked eyes, sharing another smile when I realized something that made my heart stop. That feeling from last night… I think I was falling in love with her. My smile faded as the realization hit me, making her smile fade as well. "You alright?" she asked.

"Uh… yeah… fine, just fine" I lied. She looked concerned and shifted to sit on the bed.

"Are you sure? You know you can talk to me right?" she asked. She sat criss cross in front of me, looking thick and delicious as she did so.

"Yeah, I know. Listen I should probably go, I need a shower and all that and then I can come back. Sound good?" I asked. Stephanie could still tell something was wrong but I guess she felt bad pushing me further.

"Um… yeah, just text me" she said as I sat up and took the blanket off of me. I went to put my clothes on and was looking for my jean jacket. Stephanie cleared her throat to grab my attention and when I looked up she was holding it.

"Oh, thanks' ' I said as I went over and accepted it. I put it on and was now fully clothed. Stephanie however was still fully naked. She pulled me into another kiss and cupped my cheek. I kissed her back but still felt guilty as I did it. She pressed her body against me, making me hard again even though I couldn't fully feel her. Even so, I still craved her.

"Don't be long," she said sadly. I nodded and then went to leave. I walked into the living room, noticing her grandma wasn't in there for once and continued out the front door. Afterwards I went over to my car and hopped inside, gripping the steering wheel and feeling like complete and utter shit. I was garbage, such a fucking scum bag. I already had a soulmate and yet… here I was falling for someone else. How fucking dare me. I gritted my teeth, gripping the steering wheel and wanting to hurt myself. I hated myself for doing this. I should have never slept with her in the first place. Fucking hormones. I fucked my soulmate, I tried to fuck my best friends soulmate, and now I was fucking a good friend and falling for her because of it. Why couldn't I just keep my dick in my pants for five fucking minutes? As much as I wanted to vent and scream and stick to myself, I knew that would just end up building up and coming out at the wrong time so I had to play this right. Luckily I had a lot of options when it came to people to talk to, and as much as I wanted to talk to Kate, I felt like there was someone better for this conversation. I pulled my phone out and dialed Lilly's number which rang five times before she answered.

"Shaky? What's up?" she asked tiredly. I hesitated before saying anything but eventually found my words.

"Hey… Lilly… did you just wake up?" I asked. I heard a yawn over the phone and then received an answer after.

"Thanks to you, yeah. You okay?" she asked. I didn't really know how to reply to that.

"Um… I don't know Lilly. To tell ya the truth I just don't know. I was hoping I could talk to you for a bit" I said. There was silence on the phone for a few seconds.

"About what? What's wrong?" she asked.

"It's about Angel. Is now a bad time?" I asked. Again there was silence before I got a response.

"No but… Humphrey is still asleep, I'll have to wake him up. Did you wanna meet?" Lilly asked. Even though she couldn't see it I nodded.

"Yeah… if you wouldn't mind" I answered. She sighed.

"Okay. where at?" she asked. There was really only one place I could think of.

"My place. I can come and get you if you want" I offered, even though I smelled like sex. But then again she probably did as well.

"Sure, I just gotta get ready but that will only take like fifteen minutes. Where are you coming from?" Lilly asked.

"Uh… Stephanie's" I answered truthfully.

"Ahh, well call me when you get here okay?" Lilly asked.

"Sure thing. And Lilly… thank you" I said.

"Anytime" Lilly replied before hanging up. I began my drive over to Humphrey's place, thinking exactly what I wanted to go over. At this point I think I should just see a therapist. From what Kate told me it wasn't all that bad, it's just whether or not I let my pride get in the way, but I've never had much of that to begin with. Plus I think we were both on the same page when it came to not wanting to talk to a complete stranger and instead wanting to talk to someone that you not only knew, but cared for as well. However Kate went a little deeper being as smart as she is. Although maybe overthinking it just a bit. I know she had a gripe about how they only do what they do for money and not because they care, which made sense. You wouldn't be in that office if you didn't have the money to be there. But I thought of the bigger things.

Suddenly my phone rang, snapping me out of my thoughts and concentrating on the road. I took a look at the caller ID to see Lilly was calling me back. I answered the call and then put the phone to my ear to greet her.

"Hey Lilly. Something wrong?" I asked.

"No, it's just that I woke Humphrey up to tell him that I was leaving, and he offered to take me, '' she explained. I felt like an ass but mostly because I felt like Humphrey thought that I was asking him to take her.

"I offered to pick you up," I said.

"I know, but he said he wants to go over to my place and talk with Rick and Kate about some stuff… I think I know what he's talking about" Lilly explained. I nodded, catching on to what she was saying.

"Well… see you at my place?" I asked. She giggled.

"Yeah, see ya soon" she answered and then hung up again. Good, I had time to clean myself. I turned right instead of left at the turn I was on, heading back to my place to find that luckily my dad wasn't there. The whole ride I was hoping that he wasn't for some privacy. I knew I could just go in my room and shut the door but with Lilly even though he knew her, it just seemed odd. Horny teens would be horny teens in his eyes.

When I got inside I walked over to my room. Once there I hung my jean jacket on my door and emptied my pockets on my desk as I usually did. After removing my belt I went over to the bathroom which was right next door and hopped in the shower. As always it was scalding hot just the way I liked it. The steam was building up so much that when I got out I couldn't see two feet in front of me. My shower lasted around seven minutes, and like Rick usually I would just stand under the water and enjoy it. I remember when he told me he did that it was just something to add to the things we have in common list. it got a laugh out of me. Sadly I couldn't do it now as Lilly would probably be here soon. I went to my room and put on some blue jeans with a white T-shirt before heading to the living room and waiting.

I took a seat in the recliner and pulled the handle back to put the footrest up. I then leaned back and went on my phone to do whatever but the heart sinking realization that I wasn't beginning to fall in love again was keeping me from simply relaxing. What was it about Stephanie that I loved so much anyway? We had some things in common, we have been friends for a really long tie, she's pretty, she has sex with me… was I missing something? When it came to Angel there was just so much more. She helped me a lot. She got me through things and made me more confident about my lifestyle, shared humor, offered love that I needed, talked with me, shared so much… I guess Stephanie had a bit of that but… why was I falling for her?

The more I thought about it the more confused I became. Realistically this would have never become a thing if I would have just told her no that night, but of course I didn't. Why? Because I was horny? I want to say that was the case but if that's so then I'm fucking disgusting because the only reason she des what she does, is because she cant be with who she loves. Oh God, and making a promise that we won't become a thing just because neither of us can move on is just guaranteeing keeping us in a dark spot which is just selfish on both of our parts. Maybe this would be for the better but… Angel… oh God Angel, why did you have to go?

"I'll always be with you"

Three knocks at the door made me jump slightly as I lifted my head up. I checked the time on my phone real quick and noticed that I had been sitting here for about ten minutes. I pushed the footrest down with my legs and then stood up from the recliner. Once I was at the door I opened it to see Lilly in adorably black jean shorts and a blue tank top. She looked really pretty.

"Hey, sorry if I took a little too long, I was just at zero when you called," she smiled. I chuckled and then looked over her shoulder to see Humphrey pulling away, although he waved to me as he did so. I waved back and then turned to Lilly again.

"He's going right for it huh?" I asked. She shrugged.

"I guess, I just hope everything turned out alright" she said before stepping past me and walking inside. I turned around and shut the door behind us, the noises of the summer morning where there was wind in the trees and birds chirping was muted, now being replaced with the silence of the trailer.

"I'm sure it will, Rick loves him. Also it's fine. I feel bad for calling you so early anyway" I replied. Lilly walked over to the couch, her tail swaying back and forth with each step as she walked, and then when she sat on the couch she patted the spot next to her. I walked over and sat down next to her where I got a perfect view of her bare legs. No way Humphrey would ever leave her. I know she still had her doubts and I couldn't blame her, but apart from her natural beauty she was just a gentle soul as was her sister. I couldn't be more grateful to have a friend like her.

"So what's up?" she asked. I didn't really know where to start.

"So uh… last night me and Stephanie were… doing our thing and… something just seemed different. Like I was getting more into things ya know? It's been going on like that for awhile and at the time I didn't understand why but this morning we had sex again and… I kinda felt something and it was… love? I don't really know but I just feel like I'm falling for her and I'm disgusted in myself" I explained as I looked forward, avoiding eye contact. I could see her face however as I talked. Just out of the corner of my eye. She seemed content.

"You feel like you're replacing Angel, don't you?" Lilly asked. I looked over to her and didn't say anything. I didn't really know what to say. "I don't really know how to explain this well but… people who go through what you're going through. They live and love their spouse for so long. Years even, some even longer than you and me have been alive. Then something goes wrong and one of them passes. At first it's always rough I can imagine. They always deal with it in different ways, but most of them eventually move on to someone else. Maybe they don't fully move on but they find someone else to love and hold, and don't let anything stop them from being happy. I think you're mainly worried about after. A situation where when you die you'll either have to choose, or maybe you're thinking something along the lines of Angel is watching you right now and is upset that you've replaced her" Lilly said. I shrugged.

"Yeah. I don't want her thinking I've replaced her. She's irreplaceable. I don't want to move on from her. We just had everything so perfect. We knew how it was all going to go, and it really disturbs and bothers me that none of that is gonna happen now. I guess I'm still stuck in that past which is why you and I seem to be having this conversation over and over again. But this is different. I actually feel like me and Stephanie have something, and that honestly terrifies me. What if I grow more attached? What if we start dating and get married, build a life, have pups… it's almost like Angel is completely forgotten and doesn't matter. And then when I do finally die, when I get there… I'll have a whole other family and she won't be part of it. She'll be alone and sad… so… sad" I explained as I began to tear up. At this point I saw Lilly look down as things began to come together.

"I get what you mean. I've said it before but… is the plan really just to never move on?" she asked.

"No, the plan was to have an easy relief and relations with a friend until either she moved on or I got bored, but I think this falling this goes both ways. She already told me about the last guy she did it with. How she grew attached and got sad when he left. And she's known me for so long. We could really be a thing. But Angel… my sweet Angie… oh God Lilly, why did she have to go?" I said as I began to sob.

"I'll never stop missing her. I think about her every single day. We spent so much time together and never once had a fight. She meant so much to me. None of us are ever gonna move on, but in your case… I don't know what to say. I can only help so much here. I mean… did you really think it was gonna just be sex?" Lilly asked which seemed like an odd question.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I think sex is more emotional than you realize. And honestly you probably agreed to it so easily because of how fragile you were. She was there, making an offer and you knew her. It just seemed so perfect. That's why you did it, that's why you keep doing it, and honestly… that's probably why you're gonna keep doing it. The option is there so you may as well take it. But at the same time you care for her and don't want to feel like you're using her. Do you guys talk afterwards?" Lilly asked. I nodded and then gave a vocal answer.

"Every time, and we do it a lot but we do more than just that. We spend a lot of time together" I explained. Lilly sighed.

"Yeah… I think you two really do like each other a lot. Enough to be a loving couple whether you realize it or don't want it to happen. If you don't want to do it because you feel like you're betraying Angel then stop. Don't have sex with Stephanie anymore. Continue to hang out with her but just let the feelings wear off, it just may take some time. Or… what I think you should do is just go for it" Lilly said which I really didn't expect.

"What?" I asked.

"Go for it, Shaky. You deserve to be happy. Tell Stephanie how you feel, have a relationship, love her, have some pups, and later on… after… I don't know how it will turn out but if you spend the rest of your life being an upset downer who isn't taking those steps towards being happy then… then it's not really the wolf Angel fell in love with is it?" Lilly asked. I thought for a moment before responding.

"But seeing her again would fix everything, I wouldn't be so sad anymore" I said.

"But getting there Shaky… is that something you think she wants to see? Just be happy. Plus knowing Stephanie she might not even want pups but we mature, all of us so it's something to expect. At the end of the day though it's your call" Lilly said. Again I thought and I thought, and in that moment I made my decision.

"I'll be right back. I'm… I'm gonna give her a call" I said. I got up off the couch and walked over to the front door as I took my phone from my pocket. Once outside I was hit with the warm summer morning again. I could tell it was gonna be hot later so that the air conditioner in the living room might need to come on. I would assume that Lilly wouldn't want to sweat to death in there. I dialed Stephanie and put the phone to my ear, listening to it ring until she answered.

"Hey Shaky, me and my grandma are about to head out, what's up?" she asked. She sounded so cheerful.

"Hey Steph, listen I…" I began but wasn't sure. So many things were going through my head right now and I just couldn't deal with it. Honestly I just wanted to go to sleep. Go to sleep and never think about my stupid problems again. I couldn't do that though, I had to deal with this head on. What to do though…

I'll always be with you.

"Stephanie I… I can't come over later" I admitted with the biggest pain in my heart.

"You cant? Why?" she asked, sounding sad.

"I just… I don't know Stephanie, I think it's just better if I don't come over today" I said. She took a moment to respond.

"Is everything okay, Shaky? You seemed off this morning and I want you to know you can talk to me. I'd like to think you can trust me since I trust you" she said. There she was caring for me again. God damn it…

"I'm fine, I just… I don't know I'll tell you but not right now okay?" I said.

"Alright. Tell me tomorrow or something. It's not something I did is it?" she asked.

"No Steph, you're fine but… I shouldn't come tomorrow either" I said.

"What do you mean?" Stephanie asked, sounding worried.

"I think… we should stop seeing each other for a while. It just isn't right" I said even though it wasn't true at all. When I was with her in that bed, making her feel good it felt right. It felt so right. How could something that felt so right be so wrong? It couldn't.

"Are… are you sure I didn't do something? I can stop whatever it is" she said now sounding extremely upset. My heart couldn't take it.

"No, it's not you, it's… Stephanie please I like you a lot but I just need some time to think about some things. This isn't goodbye, I promise but… I don't know, the sex is just… it isn't right" I said. Just then I heard a faint voice on the other end calling for Stephanie.

"I-I'm coming" she called, sounding as if she was on the verge of tears. "I gotta go Shaky. I… I hope you feel better" she said. I bit my lip and then responded.

"So do I," I said. After that she hung up. Immediately I felt extremely angry with myself, wanting to throw my phone and punch the wall, but all I managed to do was let out a low growl and turn back to the door. When I walked inside I saw Lilly still sitting on the couch, this time on her phone.

"What did you tell her?" she asked. I walked over to the air conditioner in the window and flicked it on before walking over to her and taking my seat again.

"I think it's done," I answered. Lilly seemed disappointed with my answer but I just couldn't forget and move on from Angel like that. I felt dirty, even now for sleeping with Stephanie. I was such a disgusting pig. But although she didn't agree with it, she still supported it. I felt her soft hand on my back as she gave it a pat.

"It's okay. I'll be here if you need me. Is there anything I can do?" she asked. I turned to her and offered a small smile.

"You're here. That's enough" I told her.